I truly didn't think I'd be sitting here 5 years later when I started this whole thing. Given my history with food and the number of times I had been down the road yet again, I hoped this time would be different, but just had no clue of what freedom lay ahead.
Losing the weight was (and still is) a pretty incredible part of this whole thing, but the real work, the real transformation was an internal one. Discovering the real Matina that lay hidden under the layers of physical weight, shame and avoidance has been the hardest work of all. It has taken a willingness to confront beliefs, deal with wounds of my past and learn new ways of dealing with difficult emotions.
Doing the work of taking the ugly messy parts of me to the Lord as I confess and repent of self-centered and sinful behavior is often not a linear or straight forward process. But the more I do that and the more I choose to see the beauty in who I am and the way God made me, the more I like the Matina that I find. The more I want to live confidently and joyfully as that person.
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