my entire life I've felt on edge knowing that other people can perceive me. my theory is that this comes from heavy masking and holding back my stims... if I were to stim in public, the neurotypical people would judge me and being judged is my kryptonite. however, it's a whole confusing mixed bag of embarrassment/shame for no reason/acknowledgement that i exist in a physical plane etc., which is hopefully condensed in this video. i really hope other autistic people can relate!
(in addition, i'm really sorry if there are any weird, clipped edits in this, or if the audio is 💩! i tried my hardest with my new editing software but it was incredibly frustrating and difficult to learn and that's a big part of the reason this video took so ludicrously long to finish. my sincerest apologies!)
timestamps:
00:00 intro
01:10 is it anxiety?
02:00 anxiety at work
05:43 how can i make videos?
06:40 anxiety as a child
10:00 easily embarrassed
10:56 eye contact
13:06 outro and pls subscribe!
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