Thank you for being so honest and uploading this. Any psychiatrist should watch it.
@PromisPhuNguyen
7 жыл бұрын
I don't know how to express how grateful I am while watching your videos. Extremely related to you.
@bipolarawake
16 жыл бұрын
Since this video, my wife and I have helped our niece and one friend through their acute pscyhoses. Both are meds free and extremely grateful for their experiences in mania. All three of us feel reborn. We will continue to work with people in the future.
@Areya-Sunshine
13 жыл бұрын
A friend of mine recommended this series to me. Although I am not bipolar, I went through a deep spiritual awakening very early in my life (from about age 11-15) and I found myself nodding my head alot watching your videos. During those years, I endured 2 bouts of mercury poisoning and a period of depression. Having a Native American mother, I was not put on meds and had a natural detoxification. I came out of the experienced strengthened and now think of the illness as a blessing in disguise.
@renata.carone
17 жыл бұрын
I watched all of your first 5 videos with Morbeck and im very touched by your experience. I told Morbeck you and your wife are angels in Morbeck's life. Good Luck with helping people like him because it is more important for your sould than anything else. Im subscribed.
@bipolarawake
16 жыл бұрын
You are the reason I do what I do on KZitem. Until people start to see this think differently, it will always suck.
@ZohraBoelhouwers
14 жыл бұрын
Your videos are so great. I've been 'suffering' from bipolar disorder since i was 23 after i got of a meth addiction. It triggered my manic depression. Right now i am at a stage of understanding mysef and my condition so much better and i have chosen to just live with it, instead of medicating myself. You are a heartwarming person and iam so thankful for watching your videos. Keep doing the good work, it's just wonderful.
@bipolarawake
17 жыл бұрын
Yes, spread the word! There is only one reason I can be so open now. I just got to a point in my life where I realized that a lot of people needed to hear this, and I had NOTHING to lose!
@uamiable
11 ай бұрын
I am so grateful for your clarity and humour, it feels very solid and grounded in compassion. Thank you 🙏
@dreaminginnoother
16 жыл бұрын
these videos are increasingly important at this time. Thank you. I have turned down depression meds multiple times because I kind of intuitively knew what you are explaining.
@benjaminjoshua
16 жыл бұрын
thank you for your videos i was 18 years old when i had a "schizophrenic episode" after experiencing ego loss on magic mushrooms, I integrated it without medication or psychiatric help but i did not have other people around me who understood. it was a difficult process, but it was definitely a fascinating time. the subconscious is totally mysterious and very psychedelic.
@bipolarawake
17 жыл бұрын
Glad to hear your doing great! One thing I've learned in getting to know so many 'bipolar' people online is just how cool so many of them are!
@Babyfaceloca16
10 жыл бұрын
my nervous breakdown, two near death experiences, and psychotic break have all taught me that being bipolar is not a curse but it is actually a beautiful gift..... your 22 videos and these 5 videos i have just finished watching have widened my perspective on the illness or should i say my soul crisis.. thank you for your story.. i myself was in a hospital too surrounded by doctors like the ones you described.... i didn't trust the ones i was around either... i later found out some were involved in certain scandals.... i was 15 and 16 when i had my experiences with them too.... keep waking people up.... your amazing :-D God is all around me everyday healing me when i'm awake, and when i'm asleep.... believe me i always say that hallucinations are just a fancy way of saying visions too... im 28 now and my first encounter with knowing i was bipolar first came to me when i was in my mid 20's. but to be quite honest i always knew i was different... my whole life i always had strange and eerie dreams.... i then connected it to the fact that i could be a medium... my family has a history of knowing certain things before they happen... i then started doing even more research about this "so called" disorder and a lot of historical figures could have been bipolar... joan of arc for one was always talking about visions and messages... jesus christ himself.... lets not forget moses and abraham lincoln...... i like to do my background research on everything and i like to compare and contrast..... a lot of people who created this world in history were all bipolar but of course technology was not around at certain times to determine it...
@bipolarawake
10 жыл бұрын
GReat to see you get so much from my videos Luna!
@Babyfaceloca16
10 жыл бұрын
i have been really thinking a lot since watching them... thank you for making them...
@bipolarawake
10 жыл бұрын
And I'll fix that link to video 23! I also have new recent videos without a number (yet).
@Babyfaceloca16
10 жыл бұрын
kool... cause i was bummed when i couldn't see it...
@bipolarawake
16 жыл бұрын
Hey, I just caught ALL of your comments before I went to bed. Thanks for watching everything...I hope it provides you with food for thought. I basically gave up being Catholic at 20, but then GOD came back, without a religion at 28, then HIT me over the head during this experience at 30. I haven´t looked back since. Now, Im 42.
@GhostHawk1776
10 жыл бұрын
Wow, man! I have a lot in common with you. What you went through is called psychosis. You lost touch with reality and I went through a very similar experience in thinking, while I was in a mental institution, that I was about to meet God. Since my own experience, I have even worked at a mental health facility for 6 years, as one of those guys that would hold you down, so the nurse can give you a shot, usually thorazine. The lower staff at the the state facility that I worked at was pretty good, yet most of the doctors are just rejects, mostly. It's 4:30AM so I am going to sleep now. I will watch more of your vids and get back with you. God bless!
@susanaturner1419
11 жыл бұрын
Thank you. This is really informative. You demystified this bipolar thing. Your life story is indeed an education for mental health staff, psychiatrists, families, society and the community and special people undergoing manic experiences.
@Sandybass24
Жыл бұрын
Everything you said totally resonates with me, I have had almost exactly the same experience as you.
@sinewman81
16 жыл бұрын
Hi Sean, I am really glad that I have discovered your videos. I have watched almost all of them and think you have a great gift of presenting your point of view. I have psychosis and can identify with a lot of what you are saying. My next video was going to be about spirituality in psychosis, so you have kind of beat me to it a little bit. cheers.
@Ouroboros6
17 жыл бұрын
I agree that some are not self aware enough to be able to heal themselves. This is why it is so important to look at each individual seperately, and not lump everyone together.
@kkech1
4 жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing this! It remains relevant 12 years later. Gonna be manically researching transpersonal psychology now lol
@itzearly
13 жыл бұрын
there's beauty in the breakdown
@morbeck
17 жыл бұрын
i cant believe how honest you are about what happened to you. I could only talk about the things in the manner you if i were around someone like you. like i said i have made videos about my episodes but i kind of beat around the bush about a lot of the things that you just have the guts to say. I deeply respest you for that.
@bipolarawake
17 жыл бұрын
Thank you Brazil Lady. We consider Morbeck a blessing in our lives too!
@sweety1703
17 жыл бұрын
This was an eye opening series. Thank you...
@snugglebug5274
5 жыл бұрын
This is amazing! I clicked on one of your vids because I’m going through a Kundalini awakening, and my son (who’s 20) is a meth addict with bipolar. I’m really grateful for your experience and willingness to help people like him.
@bipolarawake
15 жыл бұрын
Much love back!
@thomas.panther
8 жыл бұрын
Absolutely perfect video. I had very, very, very similar experience after psychedelics, psilocybin (intense week, and less intense month after). I saw symbols and tests everywhere and I thought I was going to heaven (same as you). It was terrifying but at some point during first week finally I understood that I need to let go and I need to fully accept what was happening. After first week I had peek experience and I fully embraced it. For my family it looked like I was crazy, even possessed at some brief point but I just accepted what was happening and the inner guidance that I felt. Balance, quieting your mind and acceptance is essential. After peek experience I was sure reality will disappear and I will never see the world or my family again and I fully accepted that - and to my surprise this full acceptance started to heal me. I started to feel that everything is calming down. First week was extremely intense and felt like a month, was definitely spiritual, surreal, sacred, but also frightening. After peek experience I started to "come back". Next 6 months was processing this experience in less intense way, and after that next couple of years still contemplating about that. I'm sure that this was some kind of awakening and sacred. Ok, I could write a book about that so maybe it's time to end my long comment :P Thank you for sharing your message!
@jaalul
14 жыл бұрын
I found that writing and drawing was a good way of letting it all out. today when I read what i wrote i can actually picture and understand what people around me thought as i was telling them these things. I seem to have the same problem of understand where i came from as i read it, now that im "normal". but i do remember what i felt and how real it was, how the ego was dissolved and manifestation was the language at use. potential was all and knowledge was flowing within. ignorance is back
@xxxholicsp
15 жыл бұрын
continuation... i've been trying to find out more why am i feeling so trapped in mt own world. now i get it. its because i locked my inner self. after watching your videos, i finally let it free and I'm now experiencing many things.
@bipolarawake
11 жыл бұрын
Thank you...please share it!
@designofthings
15 жыл бұрын
Hi Shaun, I really appreciated your openness about your experience with psychosis in mania. It is refreshing to hear a story like yours that so resembles one that I had years ago. The parallels are amazing . . . Thanks for your honesty. I wanted to say that it may be beneficial to exercise more caution in the manner in which you recommend that bipolar people come off their medication. For some of us, this is a very delicate process and relapse is very easy and common.
@xxxholicsp
15 жыл бұрын
i am sitting in my room at 12.15am going wow!!! what you said is so true. i've been experiencing this a couple of months back and due to fear ( I'm a teenager) as you said i have hide it and suppressed it. i thought about going through my major school exam first for the sake of my parents. now that its over about 2 weeks now,
@MichelGardien
16 жыл бұрын
I have to stay on meds so that I can maintain a "normal" life, and so that I don't hurt my family. BUT, I know that if life becomes boring or I want to feel free again, I can always go off my meds. Live a year or two that is full of more experiences and feelings than the average person could go through in a lifetime. Sometimes I feel so restless and frustrated that I wish I could live the life that I used to, but right now it would be too destructive to myself and those around me.
@renata.carone
17 жыл бұрын
morbeck is a special human being. Yesterday he gained my daughters affection, what I think is a miracle! She broke the ice watching KZitem personal videos when she saw morbs'all dressed up and acting.. We were like 3 kids playing with makeups, wigs, outfits. She had so much fun with the hollywood environment, I bet she is longing to see the results. all my luv for you guys I will send your videos to many people interested about the subject.
@bipolarawake
16 жыл бұрын
My advice would be to stay on your meds for now. But one day I hope we can create 'spaces' where people like yourselves can come off the meds safely and work through your process...I need to update this video!!
@whey80
13 жыл бұрын
@bipolarorwakingup Love your insightful understanding of this :) in my opinion your wiev of approach to this so called 'problem' is perfect...:)
@bipolarawake
17 жыл бұрын
I agree and that makes the issue difficult. According to Ken Wilber, some people has trauma so deep, therapy can't get at it - autism for example. But this is a minority of cases, how small? I don't know.
@5live55
15 жыл бұрын
thank you so very much. we can change and choose and be empowered. being in the world yet not of it, awareness and observation of what is happening "within" serve as super substitute for judging. i guess that would be the ego. much love to you
@ezekialbrown293
5 жыл бұрын
it makes me deeply sad that i haven't been supported or loved during manic episodes. rather than integrating the experiences, i feel like two very different people who share the same body over time
@sararosesongs
5 жыл бұрын
Have you heard of Teal Swan? See her video titled Fragmentation (the worldwide disease) - she talks about how childhood trauma creates splits within us because the traumatized children stay small and invalidated while the rest of us moves on (because we have no choice to survive), which causes us to be at odds with ourselves (trying to uphold opposite standards in the same body). It's a practice that has changed my life.
@ezekialbrown293
5 жыл бұрын
Sara Rose thank you Sara, I'll check it out! 🌸
@Ouroboros6
17 жыл бұрын
That is why mental crises have so much stigma attached because people are so afraid of it.
@taoguitar55
15 жыл бұрын
I'm sure someone else has already said it, but it is no sign of health to be well adjusted to a society that is itself not well. And you're right, most of the time they just want you to be quiet and get back in line. I've gone through a similar experience that's been perhaps not as extreme, but drawn out over the course of years. Maybe I should've vomited it all at once. LOL. Still, I think it's made me stronger. Great video!!!!!
@bipolarawake
15 жыл бұрын
I'll light a candle for you bro.
@Ouroboros6
17 жыл бұрын
Meditation isn't for everyone, at least not traditional forms of meditation, but mindfulness and attention, that's meditation too, you can meditate talking a walk in the park. CBT helps some, and drugs, and vitamins, and relaxing and talking to peers and friends... it all helps.
@roryboryalice
15 жыл бұрын
I am not Bipolar...or not diagnosed as such, but have met someone very open about it...I am spiritual & from what he told me so far feels to me the same experiences I have had but I have thought of them as spiritual, as u have...
@bipolarawake
17 жыл бұрын
Motus, What you wrote there isn't that far from my own thinking about my condition for 10 years. Then people close to me were diagnosed as 'bipolar', yet they had the same symptoms that I had. How could my experience be so beneficial, yet theirs need drugs for life?
@bipolarawake
15 жыл бұрын
You´re welcome! I´m glad it helped!
@Slarti
11 жыл бұрын
I like your view on allowing experience to express itself if it is not dangerous. I was lucky enough to have been a practising buddhist while I had odd experiences so I had a context in which I could interpret them - at the end of the day they are experiences and whatever manner one uses to interpret them what these experiences need is expression in a healthy and uncensored way.
@bipolarawake
17 жыл бұрын
I think you just answered your question. It's our world that makes us crazy, and wants to keep us that way.
@Ouroboros6
17 жыл бұрын
It would require quite a lot of human help, this is expensive, which is why so many are labelled and drugged, with no hope of healing. It's sad. I think we should help as many people as possible.
@bipolarawake
15 жыл бұрын
Yes, a nice gentle touch could help, if it is wanted by the person in the non-ordinary state. Ultimately, love is what is needed and pure affection can be very healing.
@Ouroboros6
17 жыл бұрын
OK cool looking forward to hearing it.
@lordindigonnisvoldebeastal3796
4 жыл бұрын
Bless you for these videos. ♥
@nicholasyoder
17 жыл бұрын
Dude, You rock man! I wish there were more people out there that think like you. i believe you and can totally relate to what you are saying. I have been off meds for a long time now, yes I am bipolar, and I have maintained a 3.3 GPA in college. I am an artist and I am myself again. Panic attacks happen, but I've learned to control them. Mania, well its just me. LOL Thank you for posting this video on youtube.
@motus
17 жыл бұрын
a broken arm is easy to diagnose, what goes on in your mind deals with subtle differences.. Try and describe to a blind person what Blue looks like.. Everybody has their own definition of happiness and sadness, emotions are difficult to share. I agree doctors are over-zealous when it comes to prescribing medication... I am sure a lot of people wish they could feel as free as you feel now.. is it because they are not trying hard enough ?
@bipolarawake
16 жыл бұрын
Those are the biggest gaps between episodes I´ve ever heard of. From the few people I´ve worked with, when its over, you KNOW its over. So, if it comes again, just let it happen...stay in bed...accept the experience. Eventually they will leave you in peace, I promise!
@bipolarawake
16 жыл бұрын
Your cynicism is entirely valid. As it stands now, almost nobody has people that would support this process. That´s why I need to change the end of this video!!!´ Hopefully, my videos will start to change things for people.
@bipolarawake
14 жыл бұрын
@spaceage614 100% true. Don´t get me wrong Spaceage. I see bipolar kind of like a shamanic initiation. It can be scary and difficult for some people, but it is intended to be a gift. Its just that right now, our society is fucking it up, because our doctors have no idea of what they are dealing with.
@hyoncake
15 жыл бұрын
not all sleeping pills are benzos, fyi. i really liked what you had to say, but i have to tell you that i am not afraid to take risks, or whatnot, i am simply mentally ill and my symptoms are dangerous if i am not medicated. i don't think i am going around the world 'half dead' on medication, quite the contrary, i am able to live and function on my medication. i am also a spiritual person, by nature. i completely dig where you are coming from though, and more power to you! thx for the vids.
@bipolarawake
16 жыл бұрын
No doubt about that! Thanks for sharing, Ben!
@didemdagkiran
13 жыл бұрын
Before watching these I felt alone about rejecting meds. Thank you very much for sharing. And If you are still following this page, can you recommend some studies or I dont know some resource that I can share with my family or friends about going out of meds, a bipolar taking control of his or her life without meds. Is there any such document out there that would make sense to a scientific mind too? Thanks again.
@bipolarawake
17 жыл бұрын
I've got an idea....but it has to wait...
@bipolarawake
16 жыл бұрын
Get in there Sinewman! And share as much of your story as you can. We are all solitary termites in this battle, but a whole mess of termites can do a whole lot of damage.
@bipolarawake
14 жыл бұрын
@prisonshadows Glad you got something out of it. 10 years of meds is a long time. If you try and come off them, please go very slowly....like take a year or two to do it. No more than a 20% cut per month. And please watch ALL of my videos to help you have a better understanding of what you are going through. As for the time loops...I haven't had that. Are we all dead???????maybe. it sure feels like purgatory.
@Ouroboros6
17 жыл бұрын
If the sole cause of a person's depression, psychosis or other mental health problem is underactive thyroid disease, then thyroid hormone treatment may restore or improve that person's mental health with no further need for psychiatric medication in most cases. A thyroid test from a doctor is advisable. ~thyrominddotcom.
@bipolarawake
17 жыл бұрын
Got it! Sometimes its tough to be clearly understood through short e-mails and YOU TUBE! But at least we are all talking!
@motus
17 жыл бұрын
to diagnose what a person has... as an example, I believe adhd is over diagnosed.. a lot of these kids are getting positive reinforcement from their 'hyperactive' actions, it's hard for children to describe what they feel when quite often parents or doctors put words in their mouth.. even a well meaning doctor needs a good description of your symptoms..
@createrainbowz
16 жыл бұрын
hi there, THANK YOU, totally agree with what u say, v v similar experiences n realisations.....defo emtionally n spiritual awakening. one love xxx
@meanmrmustard89
13 жыл бұрын
Thanks for the videos pal; very interesting and helpful, I like to see people with an alternative view to the conventional. Do you ever do any blogTV? I would love to speak with you about some these experiences.
@bipolarawake
16 жыл бұрын
You give me too much credit! What I really meant to say was, "He would be that last one that they would let out!" But of course, you are right. He would probably enjoy it there!
@MachineAmbition
16 жыл бұрын
I agree with you about allowing "manic" behavior if it's harmless and doesn't last for years and you can support yourself. I'm not sure most people have such a support network. I think most people aren't up to making sure a manic person is safe, actually, but that could be cynicism. And...it's a bit unfair to be so binary - courage and med-free and able to manage risk, or so fearful you must take drugs and suppress yourself. I hear you, and risk is relevant, but it's a bit unfair nevertheless.
@bipolarawake
16 жыл бұрын
Have you taken ayahuasca? I was planning on it about 10 years ago, but then I chickened out. I think I´m a little too sensitive for drugs.
@bipolarawake
12 жыл бұрын
Good point! These were my first videos...my opinions are a little different now..
@bipolarawake
15 жыл бұрын
Also, if you are going to medicate, sleeping pills are a safe way to do it. Much better than psych meds
@jessibeelink
12 жыл бұрын
MAJOR RESPECT for your work Mr Bipolarwakingup! There is nothing you say which I don't wholeheartedly agree with. Namaste.
@bipolarawake
15 жыл бұрын
This was my first video posted over 2 years ago. Based on your comment, I've decided to add an annotation, as I think there is a more realistic approach to take now. The video is to come!
@bipolarawake
12 жыл бұрын
My favoirite movie!!!! Sorry for the delay!
@emofacez
16 жыл бұрын
I am diagnosed with bipolar I. I am currently on lamictal and wellbutrin. I have had two manic episodes. The first one got me deported from the United States, so I'm back in Mexico. My experience was also very spiritual, I felt a strong connection with "God" even though before that I did not believe in god and I'm still not religious in any way. I'd like to talk to you about this in more detail because you bring up a good theory and I'm questioning whether psychiatry's approach is the right one.
@bipolarawake
14 жыл бұрын
@zohrats Thank you! And good luck with your own struggles....
@ZohraBoelhouwers
14 жыл бұрын
@bipolarorwakingup Thanks dear, your videos are very inspiring to me and i find a lot of recognition in the things you are telling, however i think your experiences are more extreme then mine. I always managed to have some 'control' eventhoug i ended up being psychotic also. But i always kept my awareness and though: 'Hey, am i crazy or what?' LOL! I have SO much more to say :) Goodluck and thanks again :)
@bipolarawake
17 жыл бұрын
If a chemical imbalance exists, why don't the psychiatrists have a test to show people their imbalance? For all other medical conditions, first, they test you, and based on the test results, they take action. Not with psychiatry. No test.
@bipolarawake
14 жыл бұрын
@jaalul Sounds like you had a terrific approach to it all.
@PNHassett
17 жыл бұрын
How much does your environment play into all these psychosis? People chronically suppress you and tell you what you are and what you should do....but don't let you do what you feel. Feeling sick inside seems more to do with what has been inflicted upon you?
@Slarti
11 жыл бұрын
It was an order where there are no monks(a lay order) - I found the more senior practitioners to be of some help in that they did not brand me as crazy however the most helpful person was someone who had some understanding of psychotherapy who was able to stay with me when I was going through hell and helped see me through my own personal hell on a retreat - he was a saint and I have been grateful to him ever since,unfortunately he is no longer alive :(
@bipolarawake
15 жыл бұрын
Thanks Jane, you may also like my more recent clips on my kundalini experience of December 2009. In some ways, a lot like a psychosis, but for me, much more in the body, than the mind.
@Vectorwoman7
14 жыл бұрын
@jaeou812 Maybe instead of meds, it is better to focus the engergy into doing good things. When manic, I paint rooms in my house, do yard work etc. I understand the cycles of lows and highs so, when the highs come, that is when I tackle big projects. For the lows, I rest and try to focus on God instead of depression. I do not like the meds. They surpres the good things about being bi-polar. So, there were shooters etc. Not every bad person was bad because of being bi-polar.
@bipolarawake
15 жыл бұрын
Have him watch my videos...maybe we can do something for him!
@Ouroboros6
17 жыл бұрын
It's possible also that some people have physical brain problems and chemical imbalances that are acute and need medication, but those who are self aware and see it as a spiritual crisis, why can't they be treated differently? Again this is about individuals.
@bestbet100
13 жыл бұрын
What if I am not willing to be in this spiritual world but I want to be a mother of my children and be able to take care of them. But I am not functioning without the meds and will end up in this spiritual wakening and think I am having message for the world. I am not feeling up to going into the world and tell about my experience
@bipolarawake
15 жыл бұрын
You´re a wild one cashfan...but how are you gonna get out of that hole you are in?
@Ouroboros6
17 жыл бұрын
Watched by empty silhouettes Who close their eyes, but still can see No one taught them etiquette I will show another me... ~Peter Gabriel - Solsbury Hill Good Luck Sean.
@bipolarawake
17 жыл бұрын
I have been unable to find any research validating the 'chemical imbalance' theory. There is no test, its all speculation and marketing.
@Vectorwoman7
14 жыл бұрын
Maybe instead of meds, it is better to focus the engergy into doing good things. When manic, I paint rooms in my house, do yard work etc. I understand the cycles of lows and highs so, when the highs come, that is when I tackle big projects. For the lows, I rest and try to focus on God instead of depression. I do not like the meds. They surpres the good things about being bi-polar. So, there were shooters etc. Not every bad person was bad because of being bi-polar.
@bipolarawake
11 жыл бұрын
Were the monks helpful to you? In many cases, people having strong experience during meditation retreats just get shipped to the hospital like everyone else!
@Ouroboros6
17 жыл бұрын
Ahhh, well is it possible that a malfunctioning *mind* or *ego* or *soul* causes the physical effects of this then? /me is puzzled and trying to work it out...
@Born.Sinner
13 жыл бұрын
Excellent explanation!
@bipolarawake
13 жыл бұрын
@omaishetrit I`ve thought about it, but they really aren`t that interesting, IMO. Maybe one day.
@Ouroboros6
17 жыл бұрын
By this I mean the feelings of mania, or depression, the chemicals that produce these feelings and emotions?
@bjkvt80
12 жыл бұрын
That was fast! Thank you!
@bipolarawake
14 жыл бұрын
@jaeou812 I don´t make recommendations on meds anymore, that´s why this part of the story is out-dated. Each situation is too complex to advise people to come off meds in a video.
@MyWalk
14 жыл бұрын
Thank you Sean, thank you _/\_
@designofthings
15 жыл бұрын
Further, some of us may even get the space to recover without the burden of work with people who care and yet still an uncontrolled escalation can occur. I think it sounds like you had one manic experience. There are many like you who have one experience. But for the Type 1 rapid-cycling bipolar cases the situation is a little more severe and I think you may not be calculating this difference into your mental risk equation.
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