As a 41 year old this song reminds me of the precipice I am at in my life. I implore you younger generations to please break the generational curses that plague us- abolish the hurt and hate that weeps out of our energies. I'm sorry that my generation couldn't do it. I can say I'm trying. I try every minute of every day to kill the wretch inside of me. This song is hauntingly beautiful and eerily relevant.
@glamuraiteam9851
Жыл бұрын
Your generation has, gen. And millennials revolutionized and break MH stigma, made therapy more accessible, part of the next generations contributions healing and empowerment for creations like these- planted seeds doesn’t go unrecognized
@ChandlerLeighton
Жыл бұрын
thank you so much
@jessicak.8910
Жыл бұрын
Your comment is so absolutely beautiful. I feel that so deeply for our next generation. Thank you.
@ameialifeforceable
Жыл бұрын
44 here & you’re 100% on point … it’s a struggle every day but I’ll break the ties that bound us & when my son & granddaughter(s) look into my eyes they will never see what was broken inside me & my granddaughters will never know the people that hurt me because I took that step to cut those ties. ❤ Bless you on your Journey ❤ We will get there. ❤
@kpcxox8068
Жыл бұрын
Your description of the song is beautiful really hauntingly beautiful indeed
@Shortcake8399
11 ай бұрын
The fact she's singing this song while in a wedding dress holds so much more meaning to me. I'm an hopeless romantic on the inside, but in reality im terrified of marriage and children because of the fact I grew in a home that was very abusive. Due to that, its hard for me to know how to be in a real relationship and know how to act or think.. especially when someone actually loves you, but you still don't know how to fully trust and believe that you're loved.
@jg1990
Жыл бұрын
Growing up in chaos and disfunction, I never had a desire to be married because I thought all marriages were prison...lots of therapy and healing and I married an amazing man, who is nothing but kindness. Even in a healthy, happy marriage I am still learning to have peace and trust, and not wait for something to go wrong. I am happy my children are not growing up witnessing and experiencing the same things I did, but it is so hard to explain the brokenness that still lingers. This song is healing.
@ChandlerLeighton
Жыл бұрын
sending you love :'(
@eslilyy
Жыл бұрын
Im so happy about ur happy ending. Be strong
@RyanStClair
Жыл бұрын
This song captures the essence of those who struggled with having divorced parents. This is such a personal song yet the perfect one to tell the story for so many others. Sobbing when I found this. Bless you ❤❤❤
@ChandlerLeighton
Жыл бұрын
@ambertyler3393
Жыл бұрын
So true I couldn’t say it any better.
@anagabrielatrocelmendez3593
Жыл бұрын
I never through that a song could represent my feelings so well. As 25 years old woman who was deeply hurt by her parents your song was the words that I couldn't never express. Thanks
@jellbell1233
Жыл бұрын
I thought it was normal to watch your parents fight It taught me dysfunction was just part of life That love's just a word that we use to excuse our mistakes Now I can't tell if I'm afraid or just jaded I guess I'm just scared to end up the way they did How do I unlearn the ways I deal with pain when that was all they taught me? To everyone I've loved who's let me down Let this letter hold what I can't say out loud What do I owe you for who I became? Should I say thank you or curse your name? Do I give you credit or all of the blame? 'Cause growth and pain always feel thе same Feel the same, feel thе same I try to avoid it when I meet somebody new I fall for the same shit that I did with you 'Cause there's comfort in chaos and that's why I kept you around It's insane to me that this could be the medicine and the disease A cigarette that's killin' me, yet I still wanna breathe in I keep tryin' to wash off the smell, but it's stuck on my skin What do I owe you for who I became? Should I say thank you or curse your name? Do I give you credit or all of the blame? 'Cause growth and pain always feel the same I wanted to fix this, I thought we could change But when will I learn that's a damn mistake? And I'll keep on givin' 'til my body breaks 'Cause growth and pain always feel the same Feel the same, feel the same, feel the same, oh I know it's not your fault But I don't know who to blame, oh-oh (oh-oh) (Growth and pain, growth and pain, growth and pain) (They feel the same, feel the same, feel the same) Still don't know the difference, I hope that can change 'Cause love and hate, they still feel the same, feel the same
@CrudestPostage
Жыл бұрын
Coming from a broken home, you have placed my feelings so beautifully in a song. ❤️
@ChandlerLeighton
Жыл бұрын
sending you love.
@katiemcphillips8103
Жыл бұрын
Never did I think a song could capture something so deep within me.
@ChandlerLeighton
Жыл бұрын
@viprflowrs
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for this song Chandler. This song has meant so much in the healing process 😢
@ChandlerLeighton
Жыл бұрын
glad this can help :')
@KilgoreTraut
Жыл бұрын
about two months ago i heard this song randomly through KZitem while really drunk; it hit home and i cried my fucking eyes out couldn't find it for the life of me again; today, after many failed attempts, i finally bit the bullet and scrolled through my entire watch history. two months worth of scrolling was fucking worth it, what an amazing song; got to have a good cry again :,)
@jaydensilvester4225
Жыл бұрын
Wow this is incredible. Growing up with narcissistic parents I eventually was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. Which is often summed up to black and white thinking, bouncing between the negative and positive. So the black and white metaphor makes this so much more personal for me.. the battle and compromise with black and white (dark and light) thinking.. I love it. ❤️
@nadiaanstaett
Жыл бұрын
Another BPD survivor with narcissistic abusive parents here letting you know you aren't alone. 🖤🤍
@jacquibilbruck4569
Жыл бұрын
What makes this song so amazing is for those of us that grew up in a dysfunctional family felt this and bawled our eyes out, overwhelmed, feeling it all over again. At 43 this was part of my journey to who I became.
@ChandlerLeighton
Жыл бұрын
@WannabeOperator
8 ай бұрын
I'm 32 and feel like I just recently checked back in and shut off auto pilot. I've had so many realizations about how my parents divorce shaped my life and impacted where I'm at present day.... this song hits you right in the gut...
@thelovingjourney
Жыл бұрын
This song has helped me process so much trauma from my past. I’m thankful for you and for this. 🥺✨
@ChandlerLeighton
Жыл бұрын
im so happy to hear that... thank you
@natalia9231
Жыл бұрын
I wish I could show this song to my parents. Sadly they're still together. I can't tell them that this is the daughter they raised.
@dylanarnett4201
Жыл бұрын
I'm glad someone else understands this feeling. Mine threatened divorce all the time but never went through with it. At the time I was terrified of them getting divorced but now I wish it had happened. This is absolutely the children they raised.
@snowcherryful
Жыл бұрын
I’m right there with you. My parents told me they stayed together for the kids. I honestly wish they had separated a long time ago.
@Camila-df6yt
Жыл бұрын
@@snowcherryfulthis is absolutely my feeling!!
@Nick-vu1ib
Жыл бұрын
My family is separated but my sperm donor ( I dont want to call him a dad but he never act like one) are so toxic and refused to settle are fighting us in court for 7 years just to divorce. And fight next 2+ years even now, sucking, taking all our child support money and job money that used for our family to court. He never give our family a time to heal from the pain. Eveytime we forgot about him, another court and chaos arise. There never peace and it hasn't ended. I still waiting for this chaos to end.😢
@kayleebales8752
Жыл бұрын
As a twenty three year old who broke the generational cycle of abuse at age eighteen and has watched her younger cousins grow up without pain or abuse from their parents. It's amazing to see the changes in the family while listening to this song that brought up everything that has happened but in a good feeling because I challenged my family on the cycle of abuse and won 🌸. I won't let my younger cousins know the feeling of abuse from their family 🌸
@KelsoRae
Жыл бұрын
Such an insanely powerful song
@AAlvarez21
Жыл бұрын
Song really hit my inner child who's healing.
@briang6815
5 ай бұрын
Nice introduction to you. Subscribed
@EllieHabul-Morgan
3 ай бұрын
to everyone i’ve loved who’s let me down let this hold what i can’t say out loud
@Otto_0810
Жыл бұрын
why do i relate this so much ? i want a hug~
@dylanwalker5465
Жыл бұрын
I don't ever comment on music but wow. Her vocals just hit the right spots in my ears.
@gisselle2918
Жыл бұрын
This song is so healing. Thank you so much!
@ChandlerLeighton
Жыл бұрын
@sapphire793
11 ай бұрын
I have no words for how this song has touched me. It is so beautiful and amazing ❤
@benitdanicad.baylon8482
Жыл бұрын
Played this song many times already and still a crybaby feeling. This song opens the wounds of my past. The generational trauma that they tried to pass on me, it all stops with me.
@ChandlerLeighton
Жыл бұрын
@liddlemountain7245
Жыл бұрын
"What do I owe you for who I became.." This.
@jenniferlloyd1003
9 ай бұрын
I've lived a life full of instability, toxic people, abuse, adults that failed me as a child, death of pretty much every family member I've been close to (my parents, grandparents, sibling) and heartbreak and it's caused so many issues as an adult for me and I'm trying to unlearn and unpack everything I've carried with me since I was a child . This song is so hauntingly beautiful and for whatever reason the last line where she's yelling, "I know it's not your fault but I don't know who to blame." The way she's singing it i can feel the pain and frustration and I can see in my mind (kind of like my very own music video) a small child that looks like me curled up in a dark corner with her hands over her ears and the current me as an almost 38yr old woman crouching down to take her in my arms. I can see my inner child in so much pain and I want to hold her and love her the way she needed to be held and loved in a way that no one has given her growing up...I know I probably sound crazy saying that but that's what this song makes me feel. ❤❤❤
@carlymaurice9864
4 ай бұрын
Thank you for keeping me alive another day
@ThatPettyGothGirl
Жыл бұрын
There is so much I want to say about this song but all I can manage to put into words is just thank you for saying it all so beautifully.
@KiTTYKlaW77Cakes
Жыл бұрын
this! 😭🫶💕
@bianmurphy
Жыл бұрын
Tears flowing for this 47 years old... my dad in and out alot from my life since the day I born ... when my parents together they fight alot and I can't bond at all with him.. the feeling just flat ... At age 27 I told them they better be separate for real coz I don't know how to believe in family and they made me scared to get married... this song really represented everything that I told them that night... They separated for good after that night... I barely talk to him until he passed away... My chest feels so heavy listening to this song Thank you for write such uneasy words and making it beautiful ❤ Big hugs to you ❤❤❤
@deathsnightmare7706
Жыл бұрын
I am going to be 25 in a couple weeks and after 9 years of sobriety I am finally working on my mental health and this song brought out so much pain that I had been suppressing for so long. Thank you for helping me heal
@michellespencer8838
Жыл бұрын
It exsplains my whole life
@mommy_convos3057
Жыл бұрын
I needed this more than you could image. The things we can't say out loud hurt the most....
@mombun1320
Жыл бұрын
I'm so glad u showed up in my suggested reels on IG! This song is healing so many people, including myself, what a gift you've given the world! Tysvm 🥰
@suryam.b6781
Жыл бұрын
No words for this masterpiece just 🖤🖤🖤
@clare2316
Жыл бұрын
Your song really hits home. Can't stop crying it's bittersweet to me. All the pain and all the healing and the growth and the spiralling back to the bottom. Who do we blame especially when the person that caused half the pain is no longer alive and the other just says get over it and doesn't see her part in it. I still have a long way to go to healing but i hope i get there someday. I hope my siblings also find healing. All four of us grew up in the same household, with different parents and different perspectives that in turn turned us in are given path our character and personalities. Who we became and who we strife to be.
@ChandlerLeighton
Жыл бұрын
@glennlee9534
Жыл бұрын
Dam tears running down my face . God bless u u are amazing.
@DRE1aa
Жыл бұрын
i saw it on tiktok first. i love you❕ thanks for the music, you're healing us too🤍.
@MarianaSilva-pm4tp
Жыл бұрын
This is painfully beautiful in levels I can't describe
@zullapeace
Жыл бұрын
Oh wowww.😢 so cleansing❤. To all of us from broken homes.....
@Zillagodzillen
Жыл бұрын
I’m 30 but listening to this song immediately brings me back to my 15 years old self, locking myself in my dad’s office listening to songs & crying in pain. I thought i had let go of that feeling, but it’s still there.
@droidattack2888
Ай бұрын
Amazing !!!
@jessicatayman9802
Жыл бұрын
I come from a family of divorce. It’s ALOT better now that they are divorced. But my primitive years of childhood from 5-12 were chaos before and during the divorce. And this is EXACTLY how I felt. And going to therapy helps me work through the trauma and other issues from coming from a chaos house of divorce
@victoriatucker63
Жыл бұрын
Exceptional song. Can Feel the lyrics
@christbearer511
Жыл бұрын
I was crying in the first 30 seconds. Thank you for making this.
@mrleonor9235
Ай бұрын
Love it!!
@triciabusby9178
7 ай бұрын
Wow this gave me chills an spoke to my soul holding back the tears realizing this is exactly how I feel
@kikiandallenllc
11 ай бұрын
This song has gotten me thru so much pain with my inner child! THANK YOU!! ❤BEAUTIFULLY DONE!!
@LyLy-st7zh
Жыл бұрын
This song really hit home for me. My parents divorced when i was young but we're on good terms. However i lived with my mom who remarried and all they did was fight and argue. I desperately wanted them to divorce and they never did and i had to grow up through the chaos where my home wasn't my shelter but world war 3.
@artinmusic5917
Жыл бұрын
This contains too much emotion...I did not grow up from divorced parents but it made me feel so much emotion, like it felt so real to me.. sending hugs to you!
@eileenculleton155
Жыл бұрын
Dad died last week..... this hits ❤. Exactly my life , I'm 48.... lesson & a blessing 🙌
@Jakilyn
Жыл бұрын
The interpretive dance is so emotional ♥️
@SB-bg2oe
Жыл бұрын
This needs to be heard! Everywhere! Your amazing! Thank you! 💜💜💜
@J.E.McCoy93
Жыл бұрын
This song spoke to my soul and inner child that hasn't healed from the past. Such a beautiful song.
@happeningmagic
Жыл бұрын
May you heal soon 😊
@ronneblue07
Жыл бұрын
This song is literally a perfect example of many hardships families within families face. If it wasn't you who went thru it. You were close to other family members who did. Or close friends who are family to you, that you were with on a daily who had that same kind of relationship happening in there's and it felt as if it was you who was going thru it because you cared so much for them. PHYSICAL, VERBAL, & MENTAL ABUSE. Even thou different they all eventually feel the same. They break you down in diffrent ways but in the end they shatter you into tiny pieces that you struggle to try to find and struggle to put each piece back so perfectly that its never just quite right. This song can take on so many aspects of many peoples lives. Thank you Chandler Absolutely Phenomenal Master Piece. 👏 ❤ To all who are struggling were in this together ❤️ Break the cycle, so we won't have this much pain. LOVEHUGS FROM TEXAS ❤
@lorenzodelgado9471
Жыл бұрын
Just happen to stumble on this, & I’m glad I did! Great song👍
@marialuna0325
Жыл бұрын
Wow I felt every word so talented ❤thank you for sharing this with us ❤
@ashleyburton2503
Жыл бұрын
Coming from a very, very hard childhood, this song helps me heal from the things i see now that i can't control🥺💔 Thank you, chandler
@luisesicker4600
Жыл бұрын
I've already listened to the song a million times after it was released, but with the video it's even better! I'm so thankful this exists, it helps me release and process a lot of emotion. Thank you for this masterpiece!
@ChandlerLeighton
Жыл бұрын
thank you so much!
@jeannefourie4704
Жыл бұрын
Everything, about this, resonates with my soul. I broke down watching... Thank you, so so much...!!
@estherkarlapascuacachero5973
Жыл бұрын
Saw this on her fb reel and I said I have to find it asap here on KZitem. It hits really different. Thank you for sharing ❤
@karasmusic123
5 ай бұрын
Beautiful
@j.rose.seaberry
Жыл бұрын
Beautiful. ❤
@stitchz626
Жыл бұрын
I have never related to a song more in my life. My parents divorced when I was seven and it was very messy. They never really learned how to coparent and I became the adult between the three of us very quickly. I honestly can’t believe that they ever loved each other. To this day they still don’t talk. I fight with both of them a lot because I am angry with them for everything that has happened and all they can do is blame the other. I can’t seem to get them to understand that it was both of them. They have always put their differences with each other ahead of what was best for me and neither of them take any accountability for where I am mentally, which is so frustrating. Now I’m in a new chapter of my life and I believe that I have truly found my person, but I am terrified of ending up the way my parents did and ruining what I have with my partner. I am trying so hard to escape the cycle. This song truly makes me feel seen and heard, where I haven’t ever been before. I have never felt like I belonged or that I was not just crazy, but this song does that for me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for this. ❤️
@ericaashlee
Жыл бұрын
My life song!!! Literally!! 👏
@californiakienitz4827
Жыл бұрын
I bet you felt so shy the first time you had to project your voice into the mic but I'm so grateful you did. ♡
@ChandlerLeighton
Жыл бұрын
i def was
@AMStephens7
Жыл бұрын
Here from IG. I found myself crying at the clip ♡♡♡
@hollydebaltzo6170
Жыл бұрын
I didn’t think this song could get better until I saw the video. Such a good job and song
@ChandlerLeighton
Жыл бұрын
thank you
@martu1446
Жыл бұрын
How amazing! I love your songs and the way you write, I wish you the best❤️
@iamjkapYouTube
Жыл бұрын
youve done it again. what beauty and passion. never seen someone like you before. im in awe everytime
@gisselle2918
Жыл бұрын
Beautiful music video. The dancing is amazing
@vapowrite
Жыл бұрын
I keep hearing this song in my dreams❤❤❤ beautiful
@jsxczmn__
Жыл бұрын
Played it for the nth times and it still made me cryyy🥺
@ashleymetheney8151
Жыл бұрын
The dance is absolutely beautiful and this song is...incredible. Straight to the heart ❤️ Amazing Amazing job
@AshleyPerez-xp4du
Жыл бұрын
I saw your post in fb reels. And I love your song so much. Praying for your breakthrough ❤️
@kristinapoehler207
Жыл бұрын
This song is me! This is my life, my pain and my borderline personality disorder put into musical words. I am crying. I have never felt so connected to a song.
@StewARTist5
Жыл бұрын
Love love love! These lyrics could have come straight from my own heart
@kikiandallenllc
9 ай бұрын
This is the best song as I’m a CPTSD warrior. I cannot ever go back to my “home town” without becoming severely ill.
@maddiehupp5693
Жыл бұрын
This song is everything when coming from a broken home.
@nataliemoon8204
Жыл бұрын
This song is literally everything to me. Along with Fixer Upper. Been sharing with all of my Xennial friends
@marta.rose_
Жыл бұрын
Such a healing song, so good
@SandyPajaron
Жыл бұрын
I saw this song on Facebook and while I was watching it I thought I was going to cry 😭....so I immediately looked it up on you tube and listened to it carefully and finished it...I was really going to cry
@misskinzy
Жыл бұрын
I needed to hear this. Thank you. You have a remarkable takent.
@vincenthumphrey8788
Жыл бұрын
This deserves so much more !! Absolutely a masterpiece
@cassanda2117
Жыл бұрын
Wow!! Feels the same!
@meganhoward8820
Жыл бұрын
You dont owe anyone anything for the person youve become. Even those that hurt us are part of our souls journey. Its my belief that we have soul contracts before we are born and through our lessons and pain we complete our predestined goals. Experience is what shapes us and we cant grow without it. Our energy is all part of the same source, just fragmented like a broken mirror. I believe the collective goal is to break the curse that victimhood has us under. Have compassion for yourself and others. We are all going through hard times and pain of all sorts. No one is less than the next. I hope everyone can take the time to forgive themselves for any wrongdoing yoy have done to or had done to you. Allow the compassion to yourself to say its ok to feel however you feel. Also know that you have survived it and that alone makes you stronger. Everyone out there could use a friend to listen. Feel free to let me be your friend. Tell me how youre feeling if you need to. 💕 stay strong
@sebong5669
5 ай бұрын
explained my whole experience
@triciabusby9178
Жыл бұрын
I feel this in my core and I'm in tears because this is exactly what I feel
@kimf5102
Жыл бұрын
This hit me . I’m 50 I wish I had learned this lesson 30 years ago. Don’t wait to heal!
@MsDixie85
Жыл бұрын
I absolutely love this song I definitely needed this years ago 💜
@thatboivurse
Жыл бұрын
how are you not famous yet? u deserve all the views in the world thank you for this song
@felipefavela72
Жыл бұрын
Masterpiece.
@annouchkakai9415
Жыл бұрын
Finely a song that i can relate. Thank you ❤❤❤
@celestinesarmiento246
Жыл бұрын
THIS IS BOPP OMGGG
@Trentaco715
Жыл бұрын
I love this. Thank you for this. It’s very cathartic to listen to this
@alessandracullen
Жыл бұрын
This hits so hard because it’s so incredibly relatable. The lyrics cut your heart wide open and the vocals are incredible. 🔥 ❤❤❤
@wurewulf264
Жыл бұрын
Ngl I thought this would’ve blown up by now 💀 where all the people at this needs to be seen 🤣
@LilGankK
Жыл бұрын
Ive never seen nor heard anything this great 🎯
@sallonano776
Жыл бұрын
This Is Done So Well So Much HEALING
@roxannegroenewald312
Жыл бұрын
All hail 🙌 Chandler... This hit home 🏡... Now it's on repeat. I needed this more than you think. ❤
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