I'm going through this right now.. my wife, best friend and absolute love of my life for 11 years.. since 2011..left me 3 weeks ago.. I wake up every morning thinking of how I can end my life.. I don't want to live without her.. I can't bare this pain I feel.. 😫
@izzyoda7867
Жыл бұрын
Hey, I was just wondering how are things now that time has passed any updates
@buck_maize111
Жыл бұрын
@izzyoda it's been a horrible 6 months.. we're friends now and hang out with our kids, have dinner every few nights together but this time apart has showed me I don't want to fix things.
@izzyoda7867
Жыл бұрын
@Buck_Maize it's been a month since my breakup of 10 years feeling low at the moment. Are u still having those thoughts ?
@buck_maize111
Жыл бұрын
@izzyoda I was having those thoughts daily for the first 2 -3 months.. then as I met other ppl it helped take my mind off her and everything.. ppl tried telling me it'll get easier but I didn't believe them. It does get easier.. and sometimes it'll get harder.. but overall there will be a point where you don't feel hurt and those suicidal thoughts become fewer and fewer. Feel free to contact me if u need any help.
@izzyoda7867
Жыл бұрын
@Buck_Maize thanks for replying. Just knowing you got better gives me hope to keep going. I will do that if I need help
@rokeishiarodgers7205
Жыл бұрын
It's interesting when you said things got better for a short time but then went back to the way it was. This was my experience with my ex husband. He would act like he cared and heard me for maybe a week or so but deep down he was just masking to make me feel comfortable. He didn't think I would leave...and I'm so glad I did. He's a covert narccicist.
@nener5441
Жыл бұрын
Covert narcissist. Something I learnt recently. Hope you are doing well! I’m about 6 weeks out and doing quite well.
@winros
Жыл бұрын
Love bombing you for a week or two and then things go right back to where they were! They just want to appease you and in your head you're really thinking this time I know he's really going to change we know how that works right? Basically with that is really about is biggest want to smooth things over because you know how forgiving you are because we're always saying I understand I know you're going through a rough time I love you so much... They eat that shit up! How many times have you said to yourself here we go again!!!
@Lakshanimudi
6 ай бұрын
My husband's being telling me that I have to do whatever the hell he's telling because I have no backbone to leave this relationship
@WhiskeyJaneSOS
9 күн бұрын
Sounds like my soon to be ex husband
@twink1212
Жыл бұрын
❤ Thank you for sharing! I just ended a toxic relationship and narcissistic marriage. I can relate to so many things you shared. I am trying to overcome the trauma I endured. I am so grateful I found your video.
@merriemakeupartist
Жыл бұрын
Sending you love! You’ve got this!❤️
@anag.2546
2 жыл бұрын
Thank you 🙏 this video means so much when someone understands every emotion you mentioned. Trying to get out of my darkness.
@jonathanturner4220
3 жыл бұрын
I was really moved by your testimony. You are a very beautiful woman. I have been single for 15 years since my last relationship. I've been very lonely at times. God may have very well saved you from something worse in the future by allowing your marriage to end. Your stronger than you know. In time as you walk with God He will strengthen you and show you the way. Thanx for sharing your story.
@lindaturner2915
2 жыл бұрын
i’m going through something very similiar right now and i would love some tips from you and the best support i can get is talking to someone like you that’s been through the same road . Your story is literally identical to mine
@georgevu200
2 жыл бұрын
I’m glad ur here and have found happiness within yourself. Sounds like the EX was a horrible person?
@Gr33nHatt3R
Жыл бұрын
How are you doing today?
@daiannehofig3311
3 жыл бұрын
I have tears in my eyes commenting this video. I’m in the middle of a divorce after an emotional rollercoaster so similar to yours. There were dark days and the only thing holding me here was the love for my family. Seeing you fulfilled, happy and grateful about how your life turned out, fills my heart with hope of a better future for me, too. The message you posted here is powerful, thank you so much for that ❤️
@merriemakeupartist
3 жыл бұрын
Daianne, I am sending you so much love dear!!! I am so sorry for the hardships and heartbreak you have gone through. Keep trusting in the Lord and I know your happily ever after will come!! You are stronger than you know and so incredibly and fiercely loved by God, don't ever forget it. xoxox
@daiannehofig3311
3 жыл бұрын
@@merriemakeupartist ❤️
@NicolinaDanielle
3 жыл бұрын
You too huh? Me too
@MrSouljah4
2 жыл бұрын
I hope God has blessed you. But if not keep the faith your day is coming just like mines will. God doesn't work on our time but yet he still never late. All praise be to our Father and all glory go to God. Thank you Jesus!! I hope today you are fully blessed. In the name of the Father Amen!
@richstwart2079
2 жыл бұрын
Attention seeking.....nothing more, men have it so much harder and yet have to deal with rejection and hardships. And no one gives a sh!t about our struggles.....
@SoLadiiLike
Жыл бұрын
You truly blessed me with your story! I cried the entire time because your story is the same as mine, You gave me hope today.
@gonurseyourself__
2 жыл бұрын
As a divorced Christian woman, I resonate so much with your story and I appreciate you sharing to know I’m not alone 🤍
@blessingmanyame4184
Жыл бұрын
happy days will come back what is needed is to keep believing because giving up is not an option.i never dreamt that my marriage will fall apart but yooo life has got surprises.i know one day God make it happen i will rejoice again
@btsonlyzone5980
2 жыл бұрын
I cried while watching this , I've been going through a lot lately , struggling with suicidal thoughts, depression and loneliness😭😭😭
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2 жыл бұрын
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2 жыл бұрын
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2 жыл бұрын
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@merriemakeupartist
2 жыл бұрын
Sending you love!! Please don't hesitate to get help. Your best days are yet to come!!
@wendytrout913
2 жыл бұрын
I'm a year 1/2 post-divorce and I feel that things are worse now than what they were before my divorce. I struggle every single day and can't seem to find the closure to my marriage and to move on. Everyday I think about my past and my life when I had a family. I feel like no one understands. Everyone tells me to move on but I just can't. I don't know what tomorrow will bring but I pray all the time that things will somehow get better ~ that one day I'll be happy again. 😞
@UniquelyMary
2 жыл бұрын
I am a therapist and was looking for help for a client - I found your video - it really helps me both delve deeper into what they are going through but I will also share this - I think it’s important that people can connect with others who have gone through the same things. Thank you for what you do - May God abundantly bless your channel.
@merriemakeupartist
2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much❤
@hotmessdad7632
3 жыл бұрын
Man this hurt. Most comments are from women but as a man I felt this too. I am still struggling with the mess she left and damage caused. Thanks for your story. I hope one day I can find someone who will make me feel safe for the first time in a long time.
@christinejames5631
Жыл бұрын
I know how you feel
@ivorysteele
Жыл бұрын
Same way I feel.
@JB21-
2 жыл бұрын
My husband and I are divorcing. After 7 years of cheating and lies. I’m tired. I’m hurt, I too am having those thoughts. We have two small kids and I never wanted my marriage to end. I can’t eat, I can’t sleep. I don’t know what I did to deserve this treatment. My heart is completely broken 😞
@kathleendubois7128
Жыл бұрын
I hope you are OK xxx i am going through the same thing
@pinkroser.e5112
2 жыл бұрын
I just left my marriage of 17 years, is being one year and I am still so Sad 😭 I have 3 kids one of them with disabilities. I moved in with my parents we live in one bedroom, we don’t have a lot of money, no vehicle ex kept everything, I had to leave to many problems , I was not valued,respected . Now I am trying to move one and it has being so hard 😢 I lost my self worth, and because I have no job my sibilings had no respect . I just pray and hope to feel better and stronger soon. 😢
@laurafoster4958
4 ай бұрын
I’m in the middle of divorce right now and your video has helped me realize that this pain won’t last forever and God has a plan for my life. I’ve felt so lost. Thank you ❤
@merriemakeupartist
24 күн бұрын
@@laurafoster4958 I’m so glad it was helpful.❤️ I’m so excited for you to move forward and experience so much joy in your future!!
@anniedeborahchinungo4434
22 күн бұрын
I'm having a tough time
@ErnestTeeBass
2 жыл бұрын
You said “if this video can help just one person….” Well, as a 60 year old man who knows nothing about makeup I came across your video while having the same thoughts as you did back then. This video helped so much when I first watched it and I have come back to say Thank You. Thank you so much and I really REALLY think you need to speak to groups of people and share your story. It is so genuine and from your heart. I can’t thank you enough!
@merriemakeupartist
2 жыл бұрын
Your comment means so much.❤️ Thank you so much for taking the time to comment. I wish you all the best and a bright future!!!
@robertataylor5794
Жыл бұрын
Don't feel too bad, I am a 50 year old woman, and sadly, I don't know much about makeup either! This video helps me too!
@mihlali8416
Жыл бұрын
❤❤❤😔
@KeyonnaD
Жыл бұрын
I’ve been there too. But thank God I didn’t go through with it. And I physically left that marriage three weeks ago. Now I’m just waiting on it to be official. Already I feel liberated.
@courtneyyoungmusic
3 жыл бұрын
Sounds like he was a narcissist. Gosh, it’s easy for anyone to be manipulated by a narcissist. You’re such a brave woman for sharing your story ❤️
@merriemakeupartist
3 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much :)
@kommissarrex9
3 жыл бұрын
I might be a 26 year old Male but i can relate about your feelings and similar things happened in my childhood that i just have to life with!
@merriemakeupartist
3 жыл бұрын
You are not alone Kommissar!! You can get through anything, I promise. :)
@ripdeadpoet
2 жыл бұрын
Going through something similar. I’m on the guys end though. I was such a shity man when I met her and I could be such a good boyfriend but I would slip up and hurt her so often.. I couldn’t emotionally grow up. If I felt like she was in a bad mood it out me in a worse one. If I felt like she was being mean I would try to be even meaner. It’s hard when your compulsive and can’t control how you feel and communicate. I’m starting to change.. I seeked counseling, I’ve worked on my communication, I’ve worked harder on my goals.. unfortunately my marriage is over and even though I tried to change and prove that I could change; she had already moved on, she said she’s happy, and for me to move on. I’ve tried so hard to make this work and to improve for her and myself and it just didn’t work.. I’m having a hard time being on my own.. opportunity, growth, and passion are only worth it when it’s with someone you love.. I hope men out there realize that your wife’s emotions and feelings do matter.. maybe that dream you had doesn’t matter.. maybe your marriage is the best and biggest thing In your life and you just need to realize it..
@merriemakeupartist
2 жыл бұрын
Wow, I am blown away by your humility and emotional maturity. It takes a great deal of both to own up to one’s past mistakes. I just know you will have great things and wonderful fulfillment in your future. Thank you for your comment!
@nener5441
Жыл бұрын
Wow! It’s great that you know and acknowledge where you went wrong. Wishing you continued healing.
@jenniferfils-aime5098
5 ай бұрын
Your dreams matter. Improve for yourself, not others. Than everything you want will come to you.
@lindseyventura7625
3 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for this. I’m in the heat of the same exact thing, divorcing in abusive marriage. It feels like life won’t get better but you are proof that it can. Im so depressed and needed to hear this.
@merriemakeupartist
2 жыл бұрын
It WILL get better, I promise. Sending you love and hugs!!
@christinejames5631
Жыл бұрын
Yes I get it, I wish I was dead right now I get the comfort feeling of not being around anymore. If someone you loved treated me this way what could I expect from others so that's how I feel
@nicolapetersen1633
11 ай бұрын
I'm praying for you the pain is real.
@scottandryceejo
3 жыл бұрын
Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing your story!
@shellbell2272
3 жыл бұрын
I am feeling very emotional. What a powerful testimony and openness you have. I feel like we have had similar experiences. Thank you for sharing your story. Your life has definitely GLOWed UP! I am so happy you found true happiness. :)
@merriemakeupartist
3 жыл бұрын
I’m sending you so much love!!!! I love what you said about a life glow up-it’s so true!! I’m sorry you have had similar hard experiences, you are so strong.💗
@Catt.marie.meow7
Жыл бұрын
Getting a divorce, I hadn't had suicidal thoughts since I was 13...well they came back throught this marriage my first marriage. 😔 I didn't think I'd ever be in that place again.
@kailiekay
3 жыл бұрын
This was so beautiful, Merrie. You are such a light to everyone and I'm so glad you chose to stay so we can know you.
@merriemakeupartist
3 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much Kailie💗💗💗
@slcollazo.2911
2 жыл бұрын
So happy that you shared your story. It is inspiring and gives hope to others. Appreciate your vulnerability. I am so glad that you are remarried and happy. Love it!
@kathyjones2107
Жыл бұрын
I've been going through all these things after my husband of 35 yrs told me he wanted his freedom. I was more than devastated & I thought of ending it many times & still do off & on. I still love him so deeply & I just can't accept the fact that he's doing this. Thank you so much for your story; I definitely identify with you. But my husband was never abusive in any way. I never ever saw this coming. I'm still in shock over it all & still in a tremendous amount of pain. But thank you again. I really appreciate you telling your story.
@Formerbg
Жыл бұрын
Kathy I'm experiencing the same thing. I will pray for you as I need much prayer. I've been married 31 years. I know God can restore, the question is will He? Stay strong.
@sabrinastevens4533
Жыл бұрын
I’m going through the exact same and I also felt like ending my life but I can’t because I have two beautiful kids to live for. My heart is crushed. I’m hurt, lonely, angry as hell and lost. I don’t know WHY I’m so unworthy of unconditional love and happiness. I literally give up on ever being more than just a mom.
@merriemakeupartist
Жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry Kathy.❤️ Please don’t give up hope. You are not alone and there is a beautiful future ahead of you!
@merriemakeupartist
Жыл бұрын
God can and will restore, I promise! I have seen it time and time again in my life. I promise you, with all my heart, you are worthy of tremendous blessings, don’t give up hope!❤️
@merriemakeupartist
Жыл бұрын
You hang in there mama, don’t you dare give up, or give into the lie that you are unworthy of unconditional love. I promise God is a compensatory God, and He WILL come through and bless you beyond your wildest dreams. If it’s not good, God isn’t done working yet. Sending you love ❤️
@chebrubin
2 ай бұрын
Ugh stop using the word narcissist. How is any relationship going to work day by day hour by hour when you have the capacity for harming oneself. Most women who are on depression medicine will be advised by their "therapists" to take the next step and stop the medication and get divorced.
@merriemakeupartist
2 күн бұрын
I never once used the word narcissist in this video 🤷♀️
@MrsKelliKeiser
3 жыл бұрын
Now you need a video of how you met your husband, how things were different dating than the previous, how you trusted again when you knew he was the one, how long you dated and all that fun stuff!! 👏 I always ask these questions to my brides it’s so fun!!
@merriemakeupartist
3 жыл бұрын
I love asking these questions to my brides too! It’s always so fun to hear people’s love stories! I might have to film a video like that in the future😊
@gailainsley6939
2 жыл бұрын
Right. I didn’t understand what happened or what she was so sad about.
@babbaruff1045
Ай бұрын
I have recently ended a relationship with a really good person. I wasn't fully happy although i loved him and became depressed/ utterly overwhelmed. Ending it nearly killed me, triggered clinical depression. The most painful experience of my life. Prayer saved me 🙏
@merriemakeupartist
24 күн бұрын
@@babbaruff1045 You are so strong, I’m proud of you❤️
@babbaruff1045
24 күн бұрын
@merriemakeupartist he is heartbroken and I'm still feeling very sad for him and terribly guilty 😔 All I can do is pray about it and hand him over to God's care 🙏
@allthingsfran5131
2 жыл бұрын
oh my word, im going through a divorce as well, and im so grateful that you shared your story. thank you for being vulnerable.
@merriemakeupartist
2 жыл бұрын
I'm sorry to hear about your divorce, I am sending you love and prayers! Thank you for your sweet comment.
@urvashigohil8515
2 жыл бұрын
Going through with the same pain
@mazieswift1683
2 жыл бұрын
You are beautiful and a child of Jesus, he didn't put us here to be abused or mistreated. I wish I could hug you!! - You are now in my prayers, for I can relate to severe abuse. Just know you will be okay. I promise it won't always be like this. ~ Love you!!
@merriemakeupartist
2 жыл бұрын
What a loving comment.❤️ Thank you! Jesus is amazing, He can turn it all around.
@terhemeniorkoso5886
2 жыл бұрын
hey dearly I'm a living testimony of a great Dr Daniel the relationship restorer only healer who fixed back my broken relationship after being separated for months. He can also help you too no matter how worst the case maybe Dr Daniel will put a smile on your face honey within 3days🚀🚀🚀🚀
I'm in the same situation as you were. I was married 23 years and made a lot of mistakes in my marriage. I have regrets. My wife left me for another man, and I'm also suicidal but I know it's the cowards way out . I have to be there for my six kids. Please pray for me I wish the Lord would just talk back to me.
@Msterri4u
Жыл бұрын
23 years married too and i divorced my husband 14 years ago and regret it and just now grieving. He’s moved on with his live in girlfriend. Lord help us all. 🙏🏽
@rosello3494
Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It is so encouraging. I recently divorced and 28 year old. Also married very young at the age of 22. After 3 moths, I am still dealing with the detachment process, blame, resentment and some regrets. I am doing my best to go back to love myself again and embrace the current emotions to the end of being back in peace. Again, thanks for your video and wish you the best luck.
@leolakimbler4514
Жыл бұрын
I am 51 now in 2000 I met my future husband we were dating for 2 years and then we were married in 2002 he was 9 years older than me he's now 60 but we were married for 16 years and then it fell apart but then after our divorce about 3 months after we became really good friends best friends really and everything was going so great until this woman who used to be my ex-husband's friends girlfriend got involved with him which she was not a very nice person she's a very nasty person really and it's been a year now and I have not seen him in a year he has her living with him what she's not allowed to do on his lease but that's another thing but for the last 10 months I have been depressed I cry a lot I'm alone I have no family no friends and it hurts so bad that he would give me up for something so bad like her and I'll never get over it. He was my best friend and now he's gone and it hurts so bad I cry every night I've been doing it for the last 10 months every night depressed stressed don't know what to do I sleep in until 6:00 or 7:00 at night I'm up for at least 2 hours I go to bed I have that same routine everyday and it's so upsetting because I have no one here to take care of me I have medical issues where I have to have somebody with me and it's just it's sad to see this person I love so much throw me away for this other person which wasn't right.
@SunnnySkies
Жыл бұрын
Amazing story but please Stop blaming heartbreak on God. If he is allowing us all this heartbreak, then he is someone I don’t want to follow. I would never be happy that my children are sad just so they could come to me.
@merriemakeupartist
Жыл бұрын
I agree, I would never be happy that my children are sad. But isn't it important as parents to allow our children to learn? I don't think God was happy that I was suffering, but He was always there for me and an intimate partner in what I was learning. And He has since blessed me beyond my wildest dreams!
@NicolinaDanielle
3 жыл бұрын
Thank you. I’m listening to this a day after he moved out and it is so relatable. Thank you for helping me feel less alone
@ayeshasiddiqua5368
2 жыл бұрын
Your story is really inspiring; thank you for sharing. Such a beautiful and loving lady God has created you to be! So thankful to the Almighty that you have found your joy and happiness again! I pray that one day God will help me overcome just like you too! I feel like i have been going through these same feelings (struggling with suicidal thoughts, depression and loneliness) for 13 years of my marriage.... lately, I even feel like my husband is trying to push me over the edge without laying a hand on me because he knows about my struggle with suicidal thoughts. It's all the lies, mind-games, manipulations, betrayal, blame shifting, neglectful and belittling treatment happening on a daily basis. dealing with him constantly feels like my head is spinning out of control and i don't understand what is happening to me or why. Some days i just feel like i need to mentally shut down just to go through the day. Unfortunately for me, i don't have any family to rely on for any sort of support (as I have converted into christianity from Islam, and have been disowned by them all) and over the years, in the process of being married to him, I have lost all my friends too (true friends with whom i could possibly share such things with)! my prayers and heart goes out to everyone who has been sharing their struggles here. Jesus is the only Hope, and friend I am counting on now.... Much prayers.
@irinapaulson4879
3 жыл бұрын
What a beautiful testimony! May the Lord bless you for sharing this and the people that need to hear this!
@merriemakeupartist
3 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much Irina!!
@hectorandujo4475
2 жыл бұрын
Feeling alone and depression is taking me to dark place , but my kids keep me going, marriage is a toxic mess from manipulating narcissistic wife, thank you watching this video makes me feel I'm not alone . thank you
@denwerOkk
18 күн бұрын
What about your ex husband? Is he also happy?
@merriemakeupartist
3 күн бұрын
I genuinely hope so and I do believe he is doing much better than when we were married. I do not keep in contact with him.
@lizziepalmer8182
3 жыл бұрын
This made me love you even more. Thanks for being vulnerable and for sharing, Merrie. 💖
@merriemakeupartist
3 жыл бұрын
Thank you Lizzie❤️❤️❤️
@francisesouverain6833
2 жыл бұрын
Just thank you .now I know I wasn’t the only one
@jazmin8464
2 жыл бұрын
when you said you felt "peace" for the first time in a long time, I felt that so bad. I am still waiting for that moment where I feel that peace
@nidhie3039
Жыл бұрын
failed career , isolation, anxiety, depression, and since November 2021 after my marriage I realised in 2 months he was bad in August I came to know he's covert narcissist..am from India ..my anxiety has increased.. irrational thoughts have been haunting me since past two months am suicidal..but I don't wanna die.
@TheJanayWellsShow
2 жыл бұрын
Hi Merrie, I glad that you have come out of that situation stronger. Romans 8:28, says that God will work "all things together for those that love him and are called according to his purpose". Thanks for being vulnerable and sharing your story. I also have struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts. His plans for us to give us a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). 😄🙏🙌❣
@merriemakeupartist
2 жыл бұрын
I love both those scriptures so much! Thank you for your beautiful comment!
@maryamory1549
2 жыл бұрын
Thank you. I am so encouraged that you have come out of the darkness.Unfortunately, your story is so many people’s story. I still value marriage very much, but know that God does not want anyone living in an abusive relationship. It does feel as if it will never end when you are in the midst of it so you have to do what I felt the Holy Spirit tell me, “ step out of the dance” and begin to really see things as they are, not how you wish they were.
@merriemakeupartist
2 жыл бұрын
Amen!!! I agree, marriage is of God, but I don’t believe God would have us stay in an abusive relationship. I’m proud of you for turning to God and doing what is best for you!!
@terhemeniorkoso5886
2 жыл бұрын
hey dearly I'm a living testimony of a great Dr Daniel the relationship restorer only healer who fixed back my broken relationship after being separated for months. He can also help you too no matter how worst the case maybe Dr Daniel will put a smile on your face honey within 3days🚀🚀🚀🚀
This takes a lot of courage to speak on, you are beautiful inside and out. As as fellow makeup artist I'm so happy you have found your joy. Wishing you all the best!
@merriemakeupartist
3 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much Emily!! That truly means so much. xoxo
@nicolapetersen1633
11 ай бұрын
Wow! This is what I need, my husband moved out a week ago after making my life a living hell with mind games and manipulation. He was out to destroy me with the things his done. I have also gotten to a point of just ending it all but the love of my family and friends kept me. Many of these people who hurt you so deeply are damaged and demonic. They thrive on chaos and deceit. I believe in God, He is real I know that. I have just not experienced him in my dark times but now I know He is very present. I pray that my story will be as wonderful as yours. God bless you and everyone here who have been to the depts of despair like I have.
@merriemakeupartist
11 ай бұрын
I’m so sorry you are going through that.❤️ I know things will work out for your good and there are beautiful miracles ahead!❤️❤️❤️
@nicolapetersen1633
11 ай бұрын
Thank you for your reply. This means so much to me. I don't know how my husband can just move on with a new person. They have set my world alight. They are happy making plans for their new lives while mine is burning down. I've asked God to remove the love I still hold in my heart for him.
@ektadave4447
Жыл бұрын
Every word, every experience just feels like my story ! Thank you for sharing this, this has saved atleast one life today for which you will get lost of blessings❤❤!!
@blessingmanyame4184
Жыл бұрын
Just tell yourself everyday that you can ,believe in yourself sending hugs to you.i went through depression after i got divorced i really wanted to make it work but just imagine the pain i was having someone cheating 4 times and i will just forgive her.after all i got told am mot man enough i never dreamt that my marriage will fall apart but yooo life has got surprises
@rebekahjette6304
Жыл бұрын
You are SO not alone in having a difficult marriage like this!
@melis6294
7 ай бұрын
Thank you, I have hope and faith, I'm ending my marriage of 15 years. A total Rollercoaster. Your words are encouraging.
@thomasbranham4374
Жыл бұрын
I’m seriously considering ending it all. I feel like my household would be better off without me
@glowieokenney7915
8 ай бұрын
Try JESUS! Go to a Bible based church!!!! Jesus is amazing!!!!❤❤❤❤❤
@karenbradley598
10 ай бұрын
I went through a very very bad time in 2019 well, it was actually horrible in 2018 and thought it would get a little better but it didn’t 2019 I had the worst thing happened to me ever in my entire life and I just felt so alone I felt no one cared I understand you
@anthonydavis4829
2 жыл бұрын
After 41 years I found & married my highschool sweetheart. Biggest mistake I've made so far. I still love her. I'm her 2nd husband. Her vowels didn't mean anything in her first marriage why would they have value in the second? They didn't. I want to die not daily, hourly. I've reached out several times for help but people now appear not to give a damn. I wasn't perfect but that's what she wants. Mr. Hallmark perfect.
@kamilewis9089
3 жыл бұрын
Thanks for sharing your story and your testimony!! Very brave and I’m sure many will benefit from your experience.
@merriemakeupartist
3 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much Kami!!💗💗💗
@azure8966
2 жыл бұрын
You are a very beautiful women that could easily meet a nice man with a snap of your fingers. I understand your pain though. I have been sad for over 5 months I er one girl and have been ignoring any other women that want to give me attention as I only feel feelings for one girl that became disinterested in me overtime
@cheryllevalley929
4 ай бұрын
Can I ask how you are able to speak publicly about your ex? I am being threatened by my ex for slander if I speak about my experience.
@earlysunshine5830
3 жыл бұрын
At least you have a loving parents. They are your guards ♥️. In my situation, my selfish divorced parents have no clue where I am now and that I am getting neglected endlessly by my husband who is all about his own success and desires. Good luck for you and I ♥️.
@kasiowelove1
2 жыл бұрын
My parents are not divorced, but they told me that I’ve made a promise to God with my marriage so I cannot get out. My Mum literally said to me „You can be happy with other aspects of life, maybe you will have children one day, try to focus on your job. Not many people are really happy in their marriage”. After hearing that, I cut myself out. I wasn’t (and still am) unable to process how a mother could have said something like that to her child.
@AngeliaNicholeLayton
3 жыл бұрын
I love you Merrie♥️♥️ This is helping so many women! You are so inspiring 💕
@merriemakeupartist
3 жыл бұрын
Thank you Angie!! I love you too!💗
@ZomJig_FEB14_24
Жыл бұрын
and i think i dont deseve it. i never did anything wrong to anyone . i have hurt my parants. but never dont anythin wrong with anyone.. always helped ohee pwson but i donr deseve what i am goin through.... i think its time foe mw to go to meet my god.
@kailiekay
3 жыл бұрын
I'm only in the intro and already want to hug you so tight!
@ccrosecolored
3 жыл бұрын
You are amazing, Merrie! Thank you for sharing your story, it was inspired. So many people need to hear this message and know that life is still worth living and your story is proof of that.
@merriemakeupartist
3 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much Cece!! Everything you said really means so much.❤️❤️
@rosamacias6383
Жыл бұрын
You posted this one year ago, but I needed to see it now. Thank you for sharing your story and your heart with us. I appreciate you.
@merriemakeupartist
Жыл бұрын
Sending you love and prayers!!❤️
@merlenefisher3363
Жыл бұрын
Omg. Your story sounds so much like mine! Only I don't have family here. The closest ones live 10 hours away.
@Kusum493
Жыл бұрын
I have gone every bit of the things you told plus physical abuse.
@MeganRoper09
3 жыл бұрын
I’m so glad you’re still here Merrie. You are a wonderful, beautiful person.
@merriemakeupartist
3 жыл бұрын
Thank you Megan. xoxoxo
@nancydeford4693
Жыл бұрын
I was bewildered when my husband turned on me the day after we got home from our honeymoon. I finally got the strength to leave him 4 years later. They make you question your own sanity or if you were the cause.
@merriemakeupartist
Жыл бұрын
I feel you.❤️ So glad you had the courage to do what you needed to do!
@efthimios
2 жыл бұрын
I’m going through this right now my wife of 20 years and daughters mommy had affair 2 years ago I tried to save our marriage and didn’t want to break up our family But she was so changed from the affair partner she was so angry and abusive and eventually it broke me down to point I stopped trying She left me 10 weeks ago and took our daughter and I’m devastated and lost We had a happy family life our daughter was so happy I’m so lost I miss my family
@tay03012
Ай бұрын
Love shouldn't hurt. And yes our Father in Heaven is watching over you.
@MrSouljah4
2 жыл бұрын
I'm so glad you included your journey with God. May you be blessed a thousand times over for that act alone. Thank you.
@merriemakeupartist
2 жыл бұрын
❤️❤️❤️
@terhemeniorkoso5886
2 жыл бұрын
hey dearly I'm a living testimony of a great Dr Daniel the relationship restorer only healer who fixed back my broken relationship after being separated for months. He can also help you too no matter how worst the case maybe Dr Daniel will put a smile on your face honey within 3days🚀🚀🚀🚀🚀
Today I am watching this as a woman who just found out her husband has been cheating for years. He is such a messed up man and yet I wanted a family for my kids, I did everything I could to keep everything together. And here I am wondering if there is any hope for me. You’re video was so tremendously helpful for me today. 🙏 thank you.
@merriemakeupartist
Жыл бұрын
Oh my goodness, what a challenging and heartbreaking situation, I’m so sorry.❤️ I am sending you love and hugs! I promise God will come through.❤️❤️❤️
@evadejesus2002
2 ай бұрын
Thank you so much may God bless you And every person that is going through this. During the darkness we don't ofter see light But I know that there is always light after darkness May God bring light into every dark place jn your heart and mind There has to be light after darkness. Look up ND find the love and peace in God's care and protection. Feel the love in your heart. Love us in you. Hold on to the love in you.. Connected to God...
@merriemakeupartist
3 күн бұрын
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@joanieandwayne
Жыл бұрын
I thought about taking all my pills today. I have a boatload. I can't kill myself though because I have 6 grandchildren.I already filed for divorce. He has been seeing someone else for years now.We are both 70 years old and this woman is at least 20 , maybe 30 years younger than me. Today I took huge steps backwards and ended up basically begging my husband to fix our marriage, Now he is going to think about it. My children will hate me is I go back with him. I have told everyone that the only way I could go back with him is for him to give his life completely over to God and that it would takes years of right iiving for him to prove he is changed. Now today, I acted like a fool and cried and cried in front of him and told him how suicidal I have been. It was a form of begging. Now he says he will think about it. Hope has been restored, but how foolish is that.? I really need God to take control and help me do what is right. I live in Texas and I think I need to go up to Minnesota to live with my son and grandchildren for a while. I don't want to fall back into the same pit with him, but I am so in love with him.
@kathleendubois7128
Жыл бұрын
Are you ok Joan? Hope things are better for you xxx
@blueseptember2174
10 ай бұрын
How are things for you now?❤
@johnny39265
17 күн бұрын
At least men are brave enough to go through with their suicide. But you turn your suicidal thoughts into a well planned PR operation for the benefit of yourself. Do you sleep well at night?
@merriemakeupartist
3 күн бұрын
I sleep very well at night. I have made less than $2 on this video. But I get comments every day from people telling me my story helped them know they are not alone.❤️
@BreePeters
3 жыл бұрын
You are seriously amazing for sharing your story with us! ❤️ i could really feel the sadness as you told this and I just wanted to reach through and hug you!!! I love your videos and I’m so glad your here to share your talent and beautiful face!!
@merriemakeupartist
3 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much Bree!! Thank you for all your love and support over the years. You are amazing!!❤️
@LaurenPriestnal1993
3 ай бұрын
I’m feeling so alone. I genuinely don’t know if I can carry on. My heart is so broken right now. These videos are the only things that give me some temporary relief. My ex and I have had a toxic on off relationship over a 5 year period. He always leaves. I always take him back like a dumb ass. We moved in with eachother 3 months ago. He left last weekend. He chose to end the relationship yet again. He threw a drink in my face. He got abusive and nasty. I seen him today for the first time since last week. My heart hurts and I feel extremely low right now. All I feel is depression. I miss him even though I know he isn’t right for me
@merriemakeupartist
3 ай бұрын
Lauren, I don’t know all the details of your situation, but if you can I would strongly encourage you to cut all ties with him and move on. 5 years is enough time for him to show you he is not going to change. You deserve so much more, and you can have an incredible life without him.💞
@wildcountrylifestyle
3 жыл бұрын
Wow I really felt you in the part that watching other you tubers and makeup saved you. That hit me so hard . You tube has been my escape since I was around 12 . I feel so much comfort watching my favourite you tubers
@salqubeq5203
22 сағат бұрын
Why did you get married if you had commitment issues & were going to divorce? Why? Emotionally unstable & trigger happy? Obviously your decision making is flawed & your mind had brought you to misery instead of happiness? Whatever your intelligence was telling you was also obviously completely wrong & now you must pay the price for your own decision making blunders! Remember the only person responsible for whatever experience you are having is YOU! It is an opportunity to reflect on your shortcomings & improve yourself (now that you are a fully damaged woman with misery baggage) & that may take some time... maybe a lifetime! Lets get on it & make the changes you need to live a happier life! You cannot blame others or the external world. Your life is the result of your own choices & doing! Good luck & bon voyage! Change yourself & improve. Cheers
@merriemakeupartist
18 сағат бұрын
Thank you for taking the time to comment on my video, I wish you a wonderful day and a happy life!
@salqubeq5203
14 сағат бұрын
@@merriemakeupartist You are most welcome & looks like you are healing with that positive attitude. Good job & keep it up. Life is an adventure. Enjoy it & make the most of it!
@ykonratev
17 сағат бұрын
Who cares nobody needs to listen to this
@aamiaami409
Жыл бұрын
Watched the video with tears. It is truly amazing how courageous you were to step out of the traumatic relationship. Thank you for sharing your experience with the women going through a similar trauma. It is not easy to get out of a narcissistic relationship. It is scary. It was a moment of true happiness when you said that you are now married to a wonderful person. Yes. As you said, we matter. ❤ ❤️
@merriemakeupartist
Жыл бұрын
❤️❤️❤️
@4ND1Y3P35
Жыл бұрын
I am going through the same, my wife said she wanted a divorce and went through with it in a period of 2 months. I tried everything, seeking help together, trying to make it work, restore it. Change my attitude, ask for forgiveness, for my attitude, behaviour and mistakes. She did not want to try anything. I am feeling so lonely and rejected. We have 3 kids, I moved to Europe for her and now I am all alone, no close friends or family. I am trusting God for a miracle. I do not know what to do 😢
@Sheissodelicious
Жыл бұрын
😢I know how you feel. My husband also dosent want to be with me anymore💔😭.Im so scared💔
@dnagoddesshealings2212
Жыл бұрын
@@Sheissodeliciouswell, I am so grateful to have found because I’m going through this right now as well. 😢🥺😭 sending so much love and hugs 🫂 to you.
@nicolapetersen1633
11 ай бұрын
Hi there, how are you doing now? I pray that you are doing better. I'm going through this now. It's horrible and I don't wish it on my worst enemy.
@marthachilanda1650
7 ай бұрын
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@nicoyaclarke4333
6 ай бұрын
@@SheissodeliciousI am now going through the same thing, I hope everything worked out for you
@kimswrld5321
Ай бұрын
Hi new subscriber listening to your story sounds just like mine I felt the same way you did in my marriage now here separated for 7 months and have been going through up and down feelings of wanting to be back due to feeling alone but then I think back to how I felt when I was with him and change my mind now I am focusing on myself through self help books and am in counseling now to try to move forward in life and hope to be remarried one day as well thank you for sharing your story I know this story has helped a lot of women either get out of their situation or it opened their eyes to know they are not the only ones going through it 😊❤❤
@merriemakeupartist
24 күн бұрын
@@kimswrld5321 Thank you so much for your heartfelt comment.❤️ I’m so proud of you and I just know there are amazing things in your future!!
@-theultimateredpillturp2162
Жыл бұрын
Sorry, but to tell the truth, I see a spoiled woman in this video.
@jjwiggs28
11 ай бұрын
I'm going through divorce now. I'm devastated and can't believe I'm in this position. Three kids. I'm am very hurt... 😢
@merriemakeupartist
11 ай бұрын
I’m so sorry.😢 I’m sure you are hurting so much. I’m sending you lots of love and I’ll be praying for you!❤️
@alexismedina1872
2 жыл бұрын
Thank you, Merrie. I am going through this exact situation and needed to hear this. God bless you and for having the courage to discuss this. ❤️
@marciamusial9952
8 ай бұрын
You need to make this video for money; admit it. Yes, God IS everything and if you have him in your life why are you making this video? You’re not qualified to counsel anyone;
@glowieokenney7915
8 ай бұрын
Um, this video is raw, and helpful to many people. I’m grateful to have come across this video. Keep the faith!!!! Jesus loves you very much!!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤
@amw3952
3 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing... You are such an inspiration and I found great comfort and encouragement in your story. I'm going through a divorce right now and my story is very similar to yours... I was a virgin and devout Christian when I married my husband at 31... Thought I found the love of my life and didn't believe in divorce or understand abuse at the time... We've been together 10 years and have two small kids and he has been verbally and emotionally and a few times physically abusive with me... But it was very subtle at first and grew more and more over the years... It's been hard because there were seasons where I truly thought he was progressing and changing but it's been a vicious cycle. I'm grieving because I'm now 41 with a 5-year-old and a 3 year old and I never thought I would be a single mother. On one hand I'm grieving the loss of a dream and a person I thought I knew... On the other hand I'm hopeful and relieved to be moving on to a new chapter I trust that God has great plans in store for us. Again thank you for sharing and being transparent:)
@merriemakeupartist
3 жыл бұрын
Hello love! I am so sorry for the difficulties and darkness you have experienced! I'm sorry that life has turned out so different than you imagined. You are a beloved daughter of God and He isn't finished with his unimaginably beautiful plan for you. I am sending you hugs and love! xoxo
@Pinochet08
2 жыл бұрын
You are beautiful inside and out. Wish you all the blessings in life that you can get.
@chente92366
Жыл бұрын
Interesting. You don’t talk about what you were doing to create the atmosphere in your marriage. It’s never just one persons fault. Women always do the leaving.
@glowieokenney7915
8 ай бұрын
Her honesty is incredible.
@janm9610
Жыл бұрын
The voice she heard was the Holy Spirit ( I think)😇
@allisonmandaza2194
Жыл бұрын
Iam grateful l am out of that relationship my ex emotional , mentally and sexually abused me . I had no one to talk and l had to cry myself to sleep , drown myself into alcohol and cigarettes . L am still far from recovery but hope l will be oky someday
@luckyduckydaisyflower2344
Жыл бұрын
Please do not ever take your life i did and I went to a real place that was very dark..I thought I hallucinated until I read another person's exact account of the same experience down to the colors of the flashing lights tremendous speed that i flew to a place were hunched over souls in compartments smoldering ember chambers. Please do not ever take your life into your own hands please. Rebuke it! Some people get their family blown up and live without limbs. Do not idolize this life or love! This life is about survival and learning about God. We are supposed to be his hands and feet. Sometimes we can idolize our identity within family units or churches or social circles..please. I love make up too but if we over inflate our ego we can forget that every breath is a gift. We gotta stay humble. This whole damn culture is so centered around the self or ego its so dangerous and designed to keep us spending money especially around the holidays. Jesus christ is it. Learn about HIM he will deliver you
@ZomJig_FEB14_24
Жыл бұрын
i am happy u went rhrough it but i am not luckey as u are
@kianbarmala8206
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for being so honest and showing the listeners that God cares and helps🙏
@margrose5
2 жыл бұрын
I can relate to her thinking about how ending her life brought comfort.
@allisonrae4828
Жыл бұрын
I get this. It hits home so hard. Thank you for sharing ❤
@carolinemaingi4879
Жыл бұрын
I have not been through a terrible relationship but went through something hard. I attempted suicide and that changed my life completely. I’m still feeling suicidal but I want to make it to heaven one day. I’m working towards providing for my family and leading a life that pleases Jesus but I know that I don’t want to live in this world anymore.
@merriemakeupartist
Жыл бұрын
Caroline, I am so sorry you are going through this.❤️ Please please know you are not alone and there is joy in the other side of this. I beg you to get help. You can get through this, I promise!!!❤️❤️❤️
@carolinemaingi4879
Жыл бұрын
@@merriemakeupartist Thanks I’m getting help but as I get closer to God nothing about this world excites me anymore. I mean it’s going to pass one day
@ShaghayeghAzimi-s3l
2 ай бұрын
this was my life story , i cried with your video , thanks for sharing😘
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