I live in a toxic household where my parents are always arguing and shouting just toxic. I’m moving countries and today I had to pack my stuff as I’m leaving tmr and I have a lot of clothes. So I might’ve fulled a suitcase fully and my dad shouted at me aggressively. I was already crying bc a few mins before it I said goodbye to my cousins and my aunts so I was full on crying. Then he forced me to take everything out and shouted at me for 10 mins. I have severe anxiety so I was crying during it. Then after he went I went into the bathroom and had an panic attack as I was so so anxious and stressed. I’m moving countries so I had to say goodbye to everybody. Before this ( about 2/3 weeks ago) I was depressed like I had anxiety 24/7 it wouldn’t go no matter what. I would wake up and want to die and fell asleep the same way. This lasted around a week or so. My room was so untidy it was scary. Ik this sounds crazy and stupid so I’m so so so sorry. I’m not myself around my dad. I’m always scared of my dad I always will be scared of him. When I was younger he would bash my head against the walls and slap me whenever I did smth bad. I would be shouted at and ignored. Just felt unloved..
I’m so so so sorry for everything I’ve done
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