I felt every bit of that struggle with the Hot Chocolate 😞 liquid calories are one of my biggest fears and struggles. So proud that you were able to make it as well as drink it ❤ enjoy it!!
@tbaugh82
4 ай бұрын
First, I want to say THANK YOU for sharing your battles with us. I'm 40 years old, and developed anorexia in my early 30s after a prolonged illness, where I nearly stopped eating altogether. To make it worse, the doctors here in my state told me it was my choice not to eat, and left me to my own, impugned, devices. At 34, I had to get a pacemaker. My cardiologist was the one to tell me that the anorexia was the reason. I wound up living in my sister's garage for 18 months, 3,000 miles from home JUST to get my diagnosis. (Because insurance in my state is a joke) But upon my return, I found there is ZERO medical help outside the capital city. I live 3 hours away (one way). So I continue to struggle alone. But I found that my fellow soldiers in this fight are the best source of information. Sharing your story is something I am grateful for. Thank you! It isn't like we WANT to be this way!!!
@laurenkochan960
4 ай бұрын
I’m praying right now for you, my sister! I pray Lord Jesus gives you the power and strength you need on this crazy journey we all call life! 🤗🙏💪❤️
@lilimeron3166
Жыл бұрын
Cornelia! I just wanted to say that I am so proud of you! I have been watching your youtube channel ever since you started and honestly it is so refreshing that you are able to support yourself but in ways support other people through these videos experiencing the same debilitating mental health problems! - I know it must be so difficult to first battle your anorexia, be in recovery and also create these deeply humanistic videos that share and voice the hardships so i just wanted to say that you are doing absolutely amazing! thank you for everything :)
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Thank you, that means more to me than you can fathom!! ♥️♥️
@ixybc7401
Жыл бұрын
I simply LOVE your videos, they are so inspiring and helpfull, I love how you allways express your feelings and, even if some feelings we experience do embarras us, the fact that you expressed them publicly, made me realise I feel them too, and I feel better with my own feelings. I feel so identifyed with your videos and I got so happy when I realised you had uploaded a new one, you are such an inspiration. Thank you, truly❤
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Thank YOU! I decided to record these videos in an effort and hope to push myself even more in my recovery, but for it to have meaning to others, maybe not many but some, means the absolute world to me. Thank you, thank you, thank you ♥️
@ixybc7401
Жыл бұрын
@@dearcornelia keep uyp the good work in recovery, fighting your mind isn't easy, but you know its possible, you have all our support
@ditz3nfitness
Жыл бұрын
Massive props for you sharing this journey on the internet! Admitting you have a disorder is the first steps to recovery, so documenting it keeps you accountable for sticking to recovery! Keep it up, Cornelia! "Du sej!" 👍☀
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Ohhhhh you’re speaking danish now? 😏 I’ve never actually been in denial about my problem. Only for like 2 months where I didn’t feel valid due to my weight (🙄) But yes! It’s difficult to get better/help if you can’t recognize what needs to change ❤️
@ColaKitty9595
10 ай бұрын
My brain has the easiest time with liquid calories. Even if I don't WANT to eat, I can drink something nutritious and it feels like less damage than eating nothing. Issues with food always feel stupid. They aren't stupid though.
@AliceBunny05
8 ай бұрын
for me, I also don't struggle a ton with liquid calories. though some things I won't drink at all, like soda. I've always been very fixated with the number on the scale, and liquids impact it less the next day if I've been having a really rough time.
@Kingslayerrock
Жыл бұрын
Good to see getting professional guidance... self help sometimes doesn't work
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Oh I most definetly wouldn't be able to do this without my treatment team! They're the backbone of my recovery. I owe so much of where I am right now to my therapists, dietician, and the amazing people I'm in group therapy with ♥️
@marchymeow4584
Жыл бұрын
It's really hard sometimes 😢
@AliceBunny05
8 ай бұрын
majority of the time attempting recovery without any professional help is pretty much completely fruitless when it comes to eating disorders. being forced into recovery also dosen't help as much as people hope it would, but the same is true for rawdogging recovery all on your own.
@ditz3nfitness
Жыл бұрын
6:21, Knowing and admitting "it's hard" yourself is already a huge step in the right direction! Keep it up! ✊
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Thank you 🥹❤️
@novacharlotte2097
Жыл бұрын
You’re doing great! Just wanted to say I see you running through the nutritional value of the food “it’s got carbs, fat protein etc” as a comfort to yourself/justification. Which is totally fine. To further challenge, next time you have a snack you might try saying “this just tastes damn great and that’s all the justification I need” or “this is mentally so satisfying and that’s all that matters” or something like that. Keep going! ♥️
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Thank you, I am aware of that, and I do also eat meals/snacks that are just that. Enjoyment (Example the chocolate bar in my previous video, and the sushi, and pick n’ mix in my latest video ☺️). I don’t really see it as justification tho, more so analysis. It being balanced, was not my reasoning for drinking it. The reason for drinking it was that I want to be able to enjoy a hot chocolate. However In my work with my dietician, what we often focus on (apart from being able to eat freely, because she most definitely does care about that) is having a rebuttal to my eating disorder. We like calling this “putting on the dietician glasses”. When wearing “the dietician glasses” all food is neutral. A carb is a carb, a fat source is a fat source, a protein is a protein and so fourth. It doesn’t matter where the source came from. And when the eating disorder is being EXTRA loud, you put on “your dietician glasses”. When wearing them, all ED thoughts must be erased, because science trumps the illness. Thus when the ED is extra loud, listing of the reasons why my ED is wrong in fearing the food I come to my senses ❤️ Hope this made sense in some kind of way I’ve taken my sleep meds 40 min ago and they are most definitely working. Other wise I’m just gonna come back to this and edit my comment 😂
@Epicgtuy13
Жыл бұрын
You seem so much more like yourself in this video :) proud of you. keep going you're doing amazing!!! ❤
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Thank you ❤️
@eevicka
Жыл бұрын
I discovered you recently and I feel so safe watching your videos
@mysterious_m12
Жыл бұрын
hey Cornelia, I stumbled across your channel, and just wanted to say you seem like a fabulous person- bright, beautiful and kind. I'm finding your videos really helpful as someone also in recovery. Also, love the singing interludes, you have a really pretty voice :) Wishing you lots of peace and happiness-keep going, you're doing amazing x
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Thank you, thank you, thank you! did I forget to say thank you? Wishing you a steady recovery ♥
@elaine5653
4 ай бұрын
You don’t know me, but I always be there to support you. Love you, Cornelia❤
@sandwichdefender
Жыл бұрын
You're doing so so amazing so far, and you'll already making steady progress!! Really proud of you - also Waitress the musical is the best, You Matter To Me is an amazing song and you sang it really nicely :))
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Thank you! I'M A SUCKER FOR A GOOD MUSICAL OMW 🤪
@larissa5282
Жыл бұрын
Please keep making videos, you are doing so well and your editing style is great! I would love to see more of your journey!
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
THANK YOU!!! I often wonder if my editing style is enjoyable or boring, so that means a lot ❤️
@Someone-ez5hs
Жыл бұрын
I watched this video 4 hours ago and just remembered to give u a subscribe and watch all the videos, until I found out this video was shared 16 hours ago 😭!! I’m so happy to find this account and recovering from eating disorder with u💞 Istg this video helped me sm !! Love u from KSA 🤍🙏🏻
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
OMG THANK YOU!!! Hope your recovery is going well ❤️
@animeholic6142
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing this. it's helping me get that push for recovery. I was planning to skip lunch but this video helped me get the strength to eat
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
YAAAAS GIRL!!!! What did you have? I hope it was yummy 😋
@animeholic6142
Жыл бұрын
@@dearcornelia It was! I had some of my mums cooking, thank you for being so inspiring
@Cloudy_Kirby
Жыл бұрын
Now I understand because the way she was freaking out over calories but you can do it I believe in youuuu!
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Thank you ❤️🩹
@louisebillie8646
Жыл бұрын
idk if you grew up speaking english as well as the other language but your english is so good. also i love your energy so much!
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
My language story is long and complicated, but I did grow up with a lot of American family friends and au pairs (so many different languages actually) and just a naturally good language brain.
@sulbamt7622
Жыл бұрын
You are so strong and I really proud of you, keep going
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Thank you! This train is not stopping anytime soon 😉🤪
@janessasedano
Жыл бұрын
I LOVED THIS!!! You are a shining star!!! Proud of you! You got this 🤍
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
THANK YOU 😭❤️
@godperfectedyou4093
11 ай бұрын
@@dearcornelia you are a treasure to behold A precious gem worth more than gold. your beauty radiates from within & your body parts are like work of art!!! Each one a masterpiece that sets you apart Addicted to you forever Iam & in my heart you dwell forever there in you casted a spell of love on me? or what have you done!? your love and affection & you trying luring me to be with you makes me feel very tempted & weak but strong and resilient I will try to be and shall try not to easily give in 🤩🤩Wow!!! You are more beautiful than the most lovely rose And more sweet than honey and more precious than gold You are more precious than everything that exists in this world 😍😍😍 A beauty queen whom I never ever seen any one as beautiful as her before and may never ever in my whole entire life will see anyone as beautiful as her-meaning you-at all.. 😍😍 WoW!!! you are a lovely butterfly and a beautiful rose you are the diamond and the pure gold you are the lovely moon in our nights you are the radiant sun shining soo bright loving you is sooo sweet its the most enjoyable thing for you are the paradise for the heart and soul and mind Everything about you is sooo unique and attracts the eyes and captivates the mind God surely perfected you so glorified is he whom made you too beautiful and made you soo smart 🌷😘 😍😍 you are too beautiful!! whomever see you should believe that God is true & real.. and whenever I see you I feel like Iam in a dream, And when we wake up we will all realize that all this life was nothing but a dream and that only God is whats true and real.. There was a teacher whom didn't believe in the existence of God, one day he asked his students, do you see God? the students then replied no we don't see God, so the teacher said if you don't see God it means there is no God. then a smart student stood up and said to the other students hey guys can you see the teachers brain? then the students answered no we don't see the teachers brain, the student then said the teacher then is crazy, he has no brain :0) The universe science says was not always there, it had a beginning point, the big bang, meaning it was begun/initiated in other words created, thus there should be a creator, there must be a God. One God for all of us he created us all and can revive us again, God initiated everything, & he repeat/redo things too, & thats clear, we see many cycles of different things in life, also in summer for example the desert land becomes like empty and is filled with only sand, and when rain falls in abundance in spring or winter, after that small flowers & wild plants grow again, also, we see how humans and animals grow and how their body is formed from the elements which were in the sand which plants feed on which they eat, and after they die they go to the sand and their atoms/elements are taken by plants which humans & animals eat and their bodies grow from those atoms & elements found in the sand which came from previous humans & animals which died before, so God can bring us again after we die even if our atoms became in the sand he can make us from the same atoms we were made of or from other atoms if he want or make us be in a spirit form or like ghosts, any ways, everything in this life is recycled, learn if you want about the different cycles in life in nature, the food cycle or food chain, the water cycle, even the gas cycle that makes the air the oxygen &carbon dioxide &nitrogen cycles, even the energy is like recycled but only changes from form to another form. Anyways, God created this life but it's only a temporary sample/an example of a coming everlasting one which could be either in heaven paradise or in hell. If we try to be good humans in life, and try to obey God and his messengers-including the final messenger for all humanity the prophet Mohammed- and those whom rightly represent them, for example imam Ali & ahlulbayt the family/good descendants of the prophet mohammed, then we will all go to heaven/paradise, if not then we will go to hell fire and burn in it forever. keep shining sunshine &spread the light.,
@mirchen01
Жыл бұрын
Little you is proud and happy!
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
She really is ♥😎
@chimmyspromise
Жыл бұрын
I just found you, I found you today at a time in my life where I was on the fence. Should I? Should I do it? And yes. Yes. You have helped to inspire me to do it. So I'm gonna. Thank you for the great video! I will check out more of your channel! 💜
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
That makes me SO happy to hear! GO slay recovery away!! 🥳❤️
@whos.shadoww
Жыл бұрын
keep going angel! i'm in anorexia recovery too
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Yay! That mean's we're cool girls. Bad Bitch Recovery bby😎
@mzpopular4345
Жыл бұрын
yay! congratulations.
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Thank you!
@user-bh3to8ks9k
Ай бұрын
I seriously love you videos ❤ As a 12 year old who’s struggling to follow treatment I really get motivated to see them and have a sustainable recovery ❤️🩹 pls keep filming and inspire!🫶 /Swedish girly ✨✨
@julespowell4896
9 ай бұрын
I'm so proud of you.
@racoonboi1734
Жыл бұрын
U did su well!!! I just found u and u helped mi eat a snack (strawberry milk and sum apple too!) and i didnt think I cud do it, but I'm su proud of miself! Thank u!!!! Ur channel is amazing and ur doing great! :)
@destinytaylor6370
5 ай бұрын
are you still recovering?
@racoonboi1734
5 ай бұрын
@@destinytaylor6370 trying to
@muskanghag2892
Жыл бұрын
yhea liquid calories are hard for me aswell, I'm proud about today though because I accidentally grabbed a full sugar soda, drank half and realized later then still got a sugary coffee by accident (the world is challenging me today lol) and I realized but didn't panic cuz it was good and finished it.
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Sometimes the world knows when you’re ready for an extra push. Proud of you ❤️🩹
@DeathMetallivinginthedarkness
8 ай бұрын
If it helps, now Im gonna buy some hot choc powders on Amazon thanks to you. And today I struggled to buy them at the store
@jade-gj6kp
11 ай бұрын
so proud bby
@Loveyourselfok856
4 ай бұрын
You seem so happy I wish I could be keep going you got this
@Lindagil650
11 ай бұрын
I know what you’re experiencing me too hi from Italy x
@cassie8215
Ай бұрын
liquid calories are just so hard for meeee idk why😭😭 ive been slowly working on it by adding milk into my coffee again but its hard
@MeGogo-db2wg
11 ай бұрын
You reminded me of yesterday when my mind told me to "save calories" while cooking for myself or " invest" in it in another day .... I put flaxseed oil on my lentil and then said: She did whattt? But damn, tasted so good And sweet potato ❤
@henrywindsorrurikovich
Жыл бұрын
@dearCornelia that was super yummy and relaxing hope your recovery goes better daily.
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Thank you 🙂
@adrianaluciani_
11 ай бұрын
I struggle with choosing a bowl or plate when eating 😮
@mirchen01
Жыл бұрын
PROUD!
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
♥♥
@Madara_senpaii
7 ай бұрын
I have anorexia and I usually drink one special milk with nutrients
@AslyaLP
4 ай бұрын
Would love to know how many calories you should eat per day in your plan? :) I am recovering too atm and struggle with that... I am 166 centimeters high and I know its not enough cause I don't gain ... just hold now instead of going more down.
@annaceliaramirez8558
Жыл бұрын
wow, what a beautiful voice!
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Omg thank you! It’s not perfect but you know what it doesn’t have to be for me to share my love for singing ❤️
@pinkeln
10 ай бұрын
“go get a snack you deserve it” girl I just ate 3 cups of jello
@samanthacassidy6377
9 ай бұрын
Who cares if you cried over a mug look how far you've come x
@eb9436
Жыл бұрын
What brand is the chickpea butter?
@ava.art_
Жыл бұрын
where did you get the muesli? all of your food looks so gooddd
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
I don’t know what stores carry them in your home country, but where I’m from (Denmark) I’ve seen them in Netto, Meny, føtex and many other stores!
@kylacarey9096
Жыл бұрын
The voice over is killing me 😭
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
It's what i do best 😏😎
@amandahoeve6811
Жыл бұрын
Your hot chocolate where do u get it from, is it sugar free. I'm so proud of you. I deal with an eating disorder as well I was bulimic for 11 years and I still feel worth it off and on so I understand what your going through!!
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
Definitely not a sugar free hot chocolate we’re doing the real deal bby! 😎 It’s a British brand called Whitard. They also do tees both cold and warm. We’ve bought them whenever we’ve been in London ❤️
@amandahoeve6811
Жыл бұрын
@@dearcornelia it sounds amazing but I can't do anymore then 10 grams of sugar bc of my bypass. I love teas what's your favorite flavor
@mariesalimbangon8750
Жыл бұрын
From where country are you?? 😊❤
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
I'm from Denmark :)
@eb9436
Жыл бұрын
What time do you have your meals? Lol lunch after 2 pm is very late. Do you have anything for lunch? Ex. I view a yogurt bowl as a snack or breakfast 😊
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
I don’t have a specific time for my meals, but no longer than 2-3 hours pass between them
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
I don’t view any foods as breakfast/lunch/dinner thus the yoghurt bowl was my lunch ☺️
@asaxearts
Жыл бұрын
I don't get it. You can eat the bars without guilt but not the hot chocolate?? Opposite for me.
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
That’s because ED’s are so illogical. No food should be feared. Not hot chocolate or chocolate bars ❤️🩹
@ines4123
11 ай бұрын
What is a food journal ?
@dearcornelia
11 ай бұрын
It’s part of my therapy, that I have to do everyday. On one side I write down: The date Day of the week When I woke up Any exercise, and when and what I ate And then on the other side I will write down any feelings our thoughts that affected the day, any wins ED wise, or anything that has been difficult. When I get to therapy on mondays, I have then picked out one of the days from the previous week, that we talk about ☺️
@ines4123
11 ай бұрын
@@dearcornelia wow it's so cool ! I think I'm gonna do that for my recovery. And do you have any tips against the calories fear ? I am progressing little by little in my recovery but I still need to count my calories because I'm afraid of taking too much, I'm really afraid of calories ? Can you help me please 😭 ?
@amandahoeve6811
Жыл бұрын
Where do u buy your naked bars!
@dearcornelia
Жыл бұрын
I got them over the summer when I was In London! I love them to pieces, have genuinely been obsessed since 2018 I remember when they used to make these “fruit and nut nibbles” GOD I MISS THEM
@thealiceftw
11 ай бұрын
isn't that a very small lunch? xx is this really for weight gain? this meal plan looks very small
@dearcornelia
11 ай бұрын
First of all I’m not on a meal plan, I follow a three meal + three snack structure. Everybody is different, and this is a normal sized lunch for me, which my dietician does approve off. Plus both my dietician and therapists can most definitely confirm that I gain the weight that I need to weekly. Roughly estimated I eat about 2500 calories a day, which is enough to sustain a 0,5 kg weekly weight gain. Sometimes I gain more, sometimes I gain less, you can’t always explain what happens in the body. It does what it needs to do, and so far the scale is still going up.
@thealiceftw
11 ай бұрын
@@dearcornelia ok, as long as it makes you get better. I always recommend increasing more to fully restore the the body and to be able to have a high and working metabolism once healed. This also heals your thoughts and relationship with food better. I highly recommend listening to the podcast “recovery talk” were she talks a lot about this and healing on a lower intake. 2500 is often what a normal healthy woman needs to sustain her weight. I know many ed dietitians recommending quite low intake for recovery which is scary
@dearcornelia
11 ай бұрын
@thealiceftw thank you for your input, but I’ll leave the dietectic work to my dietician ☺️
@thealiceftw
8 ай бұрын
@@AliceBunny05 not true. sorry you have to go through such bad drs, food and weight shaming. read "no period now what" - a healthy active woman needs around 2500 and often even more
@sojo5520
Жыл бұрын
and this is why i only own one mug 😉
@micacam2684
7 ай бұрын
I don’t understand why it’s necessary to force yourself to eat something unhealthy. It’s just something I will never agree with.
@asteriadreams
7 ай бұрын
do you know what type of community you’re commenting on? for some people, eating the damn “unhealthy” food is vastly healthier than being afraid of it, demonizing it, stressing over it, or even partaking in other extreme disordered behaviors that damage their body because of it. please don’t comment on somebody else’s choices until you know the whole picture. their body, their needs.
@micacam2684
7 ай бұрын
@@asteriadreams I can and will comment. Not sure what country your in. You sound like a child.
@kianapearl
Жыл бұрын
Thank you. Just thank you. When you added the message about deserving a snack, I actually got up and got one. And to come back and watch you struggle with the mugs, it was so relatable I almost cried. Just thanks. 🥹
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