I struggle with this so much because I’m convinced that my story is unique and that i’m actually a horrible human being. I had a real event (a wrong thing i did at 10 years old) that caused me a lifelong spiral of OCD. Like, wait a second, did i just do this out of bad intention? etc etc
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
That 1 thing doesnt define you for ever. If another person came to you with the same story, would you tell them that they should suffer for ever? Imagine your best friend came to you with these issues. I think you would probably have compassion for them. I know the fear and dread that comes with this, i hope you can heal bc you don’t deserve this 🫶🏼 also you cant let one thing define your whole life, its ok, kids make mistakes, its in the past. Youre allowed to live, learn and move on. You’re not a horrible person.
@benilapit
8 ай бұрын
i'm sorry - you were a child - forgive yourself. you have let yourself suffer for this - don't continue to let yourself suffer for this one mistake.
@professorquinsonsnib
6 ай бұрын
thank you thank you thank you for this video
@marsdenmorehouse319
Жыл бұрын
Real event ocd is brutal
@DedricSilva
Жыл бұрын
Yes it is. I hate it with a passion, this and False Memory OCD and POCD. Because both Real Event and False Memory OCD is connected to POCD, it makes my life hell.
@cuprisun
Жыл бұрын
@@DedricSilvasame🙁
@ResakuMaatsuda
6 ай бұрын
Same I just want this shit to end 😢
@GeeDaBagChaser
5 ай бұрын
@@DedricSilva SAME WTF. Real event OCD branching out to false memory and POCD
@PlanetWomble
3 ай бұрын
Sure is. Same recurrent memories from 30 years ago.
@JoseSantos-vd4pg
Жыл бұрын
I struggle a lot with false memories too relating to taboo themes and my brain always tries to insert these memories to have happened nearly over a decade ago when I was a kid/teen. Sometimes a thought comes in and it paralyses me for the rest of the day and I think about it for weeks(even tho I know ruminating always just digs a bigger hole) . It's exhausting and debilitating especially when they come one after another. What I tell myself that if I really did those things all those years ago I would have felt the crippling guilt and shame back then not many years later after my OCD kicked in. It's difficult when our brain is working against us.
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
😪 i feel you, it’s really so debilitating and the worst part is its just an internal battle. Im proud of you for getting through and finding ways to cope! And i hope things get easier ❤️
@danniellejohnson448
3 ай бұрын
Facts. My post event (real) worry kicked in a few days ago and at THAT time I wasn’t worried about it in the moment. 3 days later I’m randomly worrying about it and wanting to ask someone if my memory is true. It’s always about my insecurity too
@fleabag6477
9 ай бұрын
The more I think about it in detail, the more I realise how much my memory doesn't make sense, how it's all just so inconsistent how there's nothing happening in the memory except one thing, not sure how i got there, not sure what happened before or after there is nothing except that and that makes me feel so much better because its not just the location and other minor details that were off but also the fact that nothing happens in this memory except one thing, no dialogue, no before no after. my brain will invalidate me again in a few months....I'll come back to this video.
@DanaM18129
Жыл бұрын
I have had OCD all my life. POCD as well. It really gets better. Recovery can be beautiful and hard at the same time. there is hope. Sending love to all of you.
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
Im so glad to hear things have got better for you🥹🫶🏼
@elysehenderson3598
10 ай бұрын
I truly believe this! Recovery will come and I’ll stick it out as long as it takes.
@zaaina4186
Жыл бұрын
you have no idea how much I appreciate you for speaking about your experience with OCD. i only recently come to realisation that I have been suffering with various themes OCD since I was 12, and knowing that i am not the only person in the world going through this near unbearable and difficult experience, a massive weight has been alleviated off of my shoulders. thank you from the bottom of my heart, i wish you all the best 💕
@sammullett17
Жыл бұрын
The uncertainty is life destroying!
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
I know. I really do, but try your best to accept it.. now and then.. if u can. You’re not a bad person if you do. You’re just someone with ocd who is trying to catch a break from the hell in their mind
@DedricSilva
Жыл бұрын
I've been battling Real Event and False Memory OCD since February and it's connected to my struggle with POCD. Currently these three are my main OCD themes and it's a struggle and still is. But throughout the 10 years of my battle with OCD, the last 5 years of OCD i was silent when it came to POCD and i was silent about Real Event/False Memory OCD since February and then finally when i was on the verge of suicide, i finally open up to my family about the Real Event False Memory one (My mom, grandma, and siblings already knew about my struggle with POCD) and they had to keep telling me what you did was in the past and your a good person and it was rough. But i'm still alive and kicking but i'm still struggling with all 3 OCD themes but i'm opening up more and more..
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
:(( i know its hard, i know that feeling of dread when the thought of the memory comes up- but you are not that one moment of your life. Do not hate yourself and punish yourself for something that you cant change. You are a good person. Try your best to heal because you deserve to be happy. OCD does not define you, the “event” does not define you. What defines you is what you do every day, how you are to the people around you.. etc. 🫶🏼 I hope things get better for you.
@j.aravena2158
8 ай бұрын
OCD is not rational, but I'll tell you a way to kill your symptoms: -Philosophize, question and then discard societal opinion on Pphilia. Its based on hyper-sensitive reactions to something considered wrong. -Philosophize about a person learning from mistakes, take help from psychology and neuroscience for this. Can people change? A mistake is supposed to be repeated, like seriously? Do evil or good people even exist as real labels or is it just a societal construct? -Discard your respect for the juridical system: Why does juridical system exist? To condemn bad people? WRONG. Juridical system exist so the worm of civilization can grow in size without much fight, so in the battle of fighting evil, it locks the agent causing directly the evil act even if that person isn't even evil themselves (because there is not such thing) Etc. Etc. Etc. Ane this is not new, Albert Ellis talked about how thinking rationally and not with cultural norms or stuff merely created by society can make you not disturbed and kill your misery. Dont remember the name of the book but its his best seller. Something like How to stop being miserable/perturbed about anything. And Im not just vomiting theory of the book, I came to the conclusion Im giving you before I even read it
@dariusthedestroyer7183
Жыл бұрын
my favorite quote from harry potter that resonates with me about my ocd , Sirius Black : I want you to listen to me very carefully, Harry. You're not a bad person. You're a very good person, who bad things have happened to. Besides, the world isn't split into good people and Death Eaters.
@dariusthedestroyer7183
Жыл бұрын
We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are.
@will523
Жыл бұрын
Ive had OCD for more than 30 years. OCD scales into any uncertainty and any topic. It jumps past, present and future. False Memory is just OCD about the past. OCD questioning the truth of what happened. This is the most brutal type in my opinion. Thank you for sharing your story. You are very brave. My OCD has jumped themes randomly. Some themes happened and were surprising to me like I was like I never thought I would doubt about myself in these ways. The common denominator is that OCD picks on any sensitive thing we value. Like if we care about being good genuine loving caring people our OCD will give us doubts of being terrible people. Thank you for sharing your story.
@a.n.j.5101
Жыл бұрын
wow i was spiraling just now and this really saved me to be honest i relate hard to the whole “i have to harm myself in every way possible to rectify everything” or being scared about coming with terms with su of side “ok.. how do you find a way to k1ll yourself” and like accept the fact you have to d13 mindset😭😭 it’s crazy when you’re not the only one on earth living with this
@STR4WB3RRY_.SLVSH13
2 ай бұрын
My ocd convinces me I deserve to be assaulted just in case I did something bad and don't remember 💀
@Keepitsimple0912
8 ай бұрын
OMG I'm crying 😭Just minutes into the video you just described exactly what I was going through! I thought I was alone and what I had was unique and I really hated myself as I believed I am a bad person and was thinking of un-aliving myself! I guess I am not alone and there is hope!
@morenagreppi6333
Жыл бұрын
I really struggle when people tell their false memory/real event ocd and it's always chilhood memories, bc my false/real event ocd its from a memory that happened 4 years ago, i really don't know what else to do
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
Thats ok! Youre not the same person you were 4 years ago. A lot of the points i said still apply!
@Britpopsoul
Ай бұрын
Accept that you’re human and live life to your values😊
@Dexterity-
11 ай бұрын
Hay I just want to say I’m 15 and have been struggling with pocd and false memory ocd and hearing you describe my exact situation really saved me as for a long time I thought I had to turn myself in but know I have come to understand my condition so thank you
@kejsida4921
Жыл бұрын
do you think you could do a video on real event ocd? there's a childhood memory I know happened and it's really making me feel horrible about myself. idk how to detach my self worth from that memory
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
Tbf i should have used “real event” ocd and “false memory” interchangeably in this video because mine is a real event, however my ocd made me twist the memory and i couldnt tell which parts were real, or if it was a dream, etc. I might do another video more specific to that in the future. I think not being so hard on yourself and stopping yourself when you ruminate helps a lot. Also remember that you are not the same person you were so many years ago!❤️
@kejsida4921
Жыл бұрын
@@audhdbaddie thank you so much 💖
@KristoffersonSheldrake
Жыл бұрын
Hi, this video was very comforting for me. I’m in a turbulent period of my life and am realising I have OCD. Every day feels chronic. I have ‘memories’ of doing awful things. There are three main ones, and one of them is tagged to a real, innocent event that has mutated into something sinister in my mind. They are logically false memories as I would NEVER do these things. NEVER. But the problem is, I can’t remember when I first thought about these thoughts, I can only approximate it to about a month or two ago. I can’t take this, it’s swallowing me whole.
@DanielGreen_690
8 ай бұрын
I can totally relate to this. Real event is a nightmare. When you start to just feel some inner peace about the memory your brain will jump and add a little more which is normally just out of reach of what you can’t accept. I’ve found it hunts the past for anything then when it finds the one thing you can’t live with your world falls apart. Can I ask who your therapist was please?
@giganthealiencyborg6827
Жыл бұрын
Its 4am and im potientally a monster
@Catty_Wampus4610
8 ай бұрын
What if I was a late teenager. I fucking hate myself.
@audhdbaddie
8 ай бұрын
Im sure youre not a bad person, please dont hate yourself for 1 little blip in your life. All we can do is learn from our mistakes and try to be better.❤️
@pinkhellokitty.dreams
8 ай бұрын
False Memory OCD has ruined my life, about a year ago I started having intrusive thoughts about a fantasy person while being with my boyfriend; then that transitioned into ROCD (relationship OCD) and then onto false memories, I constantly keep having these false memory that I Cheated on my bf when I first met him, yet I don’t have any specific “memory” of it, not evidence. I drove myself crazy trying to find out whether or not this was true, to the point that I became depressed. After a while, I felt like I gained control of my thoughts until a wave of POCD hit me: it hit me with a memory that just like you, I thought I hurt a kid when I was a kid myself. I don’t have a specific moment that I can describe, but my head tries to tell me that “I did something bad, but I don’t know what it is. I just know I did something really bad” yet I have no memory of it. This POCD comes every now and then when I feel like I’m about to see from OCD. Thank you for this video, I honestly thought I was the only one having these thoughts but hearing you speak about this, especially now that you feel confident and are almost fully healed, gives me confidence and strength to keep going as well.
@faithwisdom788
8 ай бұрын
I'm sorry what you had to deal with. 🥺💜
@Anglisc1682
5 ай бұрын
"It ruined my life" you've already admitted defeat, gotta change that attitude
@Michellusschellus
9 ай бұрын
I keep trying to figure out if I had sexually abused my dog when I was 11 and it’s horrible. I keep getting more and more sudden thought and images about what I might have done. Like my brain is saying that I had used her to yk rub my genital, that I had felt sth sexual. Up until now I had never thought if I might have done anything. Back then I just wanted to hug her while I was laying down and I simply wanted her to lay on top of me like some child. But now I keep getting images that I might have sexually abused her and feel like ending my life bc obviously my dog can’t reassure me :(
@kylehill9121
8 ай бұрын
You’re so brave for putting this. You’ll get there, just know that it’s OCD and you’ll get there
@Michellusschellus
8 ай бұрын
@@kylehill9121 thank you, by now I’m better on this because at some point, after wasting five days of my life ruminating, I noticed that no matter the scenario, it just wasn’t possible to have happened😅 at first I didn’t even notice the fact that those images were not accurate to the situation lol. Sadly now false memory keeps and keeps on happening more and more tho but I have an appointment with a doctor tomorrow and soon my next therapy appointment so I’ll do my best ^^ Wish u all best too since u seem to have found this video too!❤️🩹
@kylehill9121
8 ай бұрын
@@Michellusschellus I had a similar false memory and have had others too but that one was particularly bad because it attacked something I love. Unfortunately my dog passed away a few days ago and I’m heartbroken. With it, a few OCD symptoms seem to be emerging again, as if I don’t have enough to deal with on top of that 😞
@The_New_Abnormal_World_Order
11 ай бұрын
It only dawned on me that I have OCD a few days ago! Crazy that my brain was torturing me for decades and I didn't even know what was going on!!
@ArayasMusicStudio
4 ай бұрын
With taking psychology we talk a lot about us blocking out traumatic memories and it made my OCD come back thinking “what if something happened to me in childhood and I don’t remember because I blocked it out” it’s torture
@tanyamarie1992
Жыл бұрын
How about a true memory? I have had something happen and I keep obsessing that it never happened even though it did.
@livelovekanyewest
Жыл бұрын
You’re an Angel you don’t know how much this video helped me because false memory ocd is something really hard to disclose. I love you so much and I’m so happy for you girl congrats on your new job!!! QUEEN💘💖💕💕💕💕💕
@okays297
Жыл бұрын
You are a queen and an elder sister I never had. I love you.
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
Aw im sending you so much love🥹❤️
@Mercy.Beloved
Ай бұрын
Please let me know who you talked to in terms of therapy. I need to book with them right away. I struggle with all of this. I would like his contact.
@YourAverageAvery
Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for making this video, I found it really helpful. And it made me feel less alone, and that I'm not unworthy of getting help/support. I was wondering if you could do a video talking about how to find a trustworthy therapist that knows a lot about OCD? Because I've been really struggling to find a therapist that does. I wouldn't really feel to comfortable talking to a therapist that doesn't know much about OCD. Especially about intrusive thoughts and false memory/real event OCD. I remember I once told someone in my family who I really trusted about one of the really bad intrusive thoughts that I get. And at first they were fine about it, but then later on we had a disagreement about something trivial. And then they said I was a horrible person, and when I asked 'why?' They used the intrusive thoughts that I told them about earlier, as the reason why I'm a horrible person. Which then caused me to spiral. So I would hate to have a therapist be freaked out by me.
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
Hi, thanks for the suggestion thats a good idea!❤ And im sorry to hear that, i can definitely relate! Quite a few of my family members were not understanding of my ocd and it makes it so much worse when they take your intrusive thoughts seriously😖 LIKE THATS EXACTLY WHAT YOURE NOT SUPPOSED TO DO😭. I hope youre doing better now. I will try and make a vid about finding a good therapist in the next few mths.🫶🏼
@YourAverageAvery
Жыл бұрын
@@audhdbaddie Thank you so so much, I really appreciate you doing that! I'm just trying to take each day as it comes at the moment. (My intrusive thoughts make me feel insanely isolated and alone at times.) I hope you're doing okay
@allets6504
Жыл бұрын
You're so brave. Thank you for opening up about that, there are so many people who need to see this video so that they understand that they are not alone
@supernana7944
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for your openness. False memories have intruded upon our lives from someone who refuses therapy. Your story gives me strategies to consider.
@half-heartedtruant159
Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much as a fellow CSA victim and person that struggles with POCD
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
So much love🫶🏼❤️🩹❤️
@anonymoustube1
9 ай бұрын
for you to speak on youtube you are spreading hope more than you know. this is big huge progress. thank you for being brave. the energy it takes to tell you story to a therapist or people you know let alone strangers. people dont know. ive lowkey gon mute. i do not have same type of ocd but ik how emotinlky draining it is. keep sharing the steps that helped. i am currebtly dealing with false memories and runination daily and its exhausting.
@juliannefarrey2957
Жыл бұрын
Great job sharing. God is good.
@aranara_song
Жыл бұрын
I don't have any help or even an OCD diagnosis (even though I'm more than certain I've got it) and it's been so terribly hard to get through it. I just wanted to say thank you for sharing all of your experiences, because for a lot of us you and other OCD creators are all we have. It's been almost 2 years now. This is so hard, so hellish. I've at least found that I've got a strength within me that I've never knew existed because existing with this illness is insanely hard. I don't have any help and in my country there are close to no specialists. Not that I'd have any money to get help anyway. This video was so hard to get through, but I'm still thankful for it. One thing I've come to terms with is: even if you were an awful person, you would still deserve help. So if you've got the chance, go get help. If you can get help, go get help, no matter what.
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
You’re doing an amazing job of pushing through. Its absolutely exhausting going through ocd alone, i wish ocd wasnt so internal and i wish people around us really understood how difficult it makes things. I dont know you but i am so proud of you and i understand your pain. It wont be like this for ever, it will get better❤️
@aranara_song
Жыл бұрын
@@audhdbaddie tysm, I really appreciate that! I actually watched this video late at night and ended up crying because of how panicked I was. Even so, it was an important video for me to watch because I think you and I have so far had quite similar paths, at least from what I can tell. There are only around 1-4% of people with OCD in my country, so I have never met anyone with OCD, and I doubt I'll ever meet someone with the same theme as I do, so this gives me hope that there's actually recovery and healing out there. Anyway, I truly appreciate your reply and it's really inspiring to see you recover and still live your life. Tysm for putting these videos out, they really help a lot
@BEXIAN_MUSIC_09
2 ай бұрын
@@aranara_songheyy! I am also someone who's struggling with OCD and just wanna know if you're better because I am curious and I also dont have any help around . So it will really give me hope if you have gotten better.❤
@aranara_song
2 ай бұрын
@@BEXIAN_MUSIC_09 I'm dealing with it as best as I can, but unfortunately I haven't been able to get a diagnosis yet. However, my best advice as I look back at my time of dealing with this on my own is that you shouldn't ever stop living your life because of OCD. Easier said than done, but OCD has caused me to isolate myself and in turn, miss a lot of my life. Always keep looking for professional help, but there's plenty of good creators out there like the channel "OCD and Anxiety" here on youtube that have really helped me. If you're having a very hard day, give yourself grace. Eat something nutricious, drink some water. If you haven't spoken to another human being in a while, do that even if it is a text. If you haven't done something creative in a while, that also helps. I'm still figuring it out myself, but I believe there's a way out of feeling like this and I believe that things will get better. I'd be a liar if I said that that hope doesn't waver sometimes, but that's only natural. We'll get through it!
@sammullett17
Жыл бұрын
I'm going through this now! It's so painful! So grateful this popped up
@jimbytarnish9698
Жыл бұрын
You’re a legend, do you struggle with harm ocd as well, generally I struggle with all sub sets of ocd I was curious if you struggled mainly with pocd? Or harm ocd, hocd, pocd, etc? I admire your ability to speak so openly about it I wish I had the same courage. I’m a single father of two beautiful kids and I feel like it’s effecting my ability to be the best I can be for them.
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
Like you I’ve struggled with a lot of the subtypes! My biggest subtype was actually just right ocd, and yes I’ve definitely struggled with harm ocd that was a big one for me. I cant imagine what its like to be a parent and be going through ocd! It must be super emotionally exhausting as i can imagine the guilt ocd brings and how you just have to show up for your kids everyday even though internally you are struggling a lot. I hope you can find some way to heal/ find some help for it as recovery is definitely possible and you deserve to be happy!
@jimbytarnish9698
Жыл бұрын
@@audhdbaddie thank you so much, as hard as it is, knowing there’s people like you and other people in the comments gives me comfort in knowing I’m not going through it alone we are all fighters and we are all strong. Even though some days it feels like we are the weakest people on the planet. Do you also have anxiety? My anxiety combined with the ocd is debilitating! I try my hardest to stay strong for the kids but it seems impossible sometimes.. it’s hard enough being a single dad but stack on all the mental health stuff heck I get super anxious just taking my kids to the beach and the park because of pocd.
@jimbytarnish9698
Жыл бұрын
@@audhdbaddie also I just got prescribed fluvoxamine to help cope with it have you ever tried this? I know you said anafranil seems to work best for you so I was going to try and see if I can give that a chance if this doesn’t work for me
@mugenboi4979
Жыл бұрын
thanks for sharing, i'm sure it wasn't easy 🥺
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
🫶🏼🫶🏼
@TamTV12
10 ай бұрын
Event happened almost 6 years ago and it’s just popped up on the weekend. I had been ruminating on other events for a year or so but this current one feels like the final boss…
@johnrainsman6650
2 ай бұрын
Question: Can OCD make you think 1. you JUST tried to do something bad, or 2. that you ARE going to _in the moment._ False memory about the past is absolutely a thing in OCD, but what about _in the moment_ ? Like, "Did I JUST try to...?" Or _in the moment,_ "I'm gonna do this," YET you weren't ACTUALLY gonna do it, it was just a false "intention" triggered randomly. You felt it, you thought you were about to do it, you "consciously" planned to _in the moment_ until you snapped out of it or you didn't do it. Is either a thing in OCD? For example, _in the moment_ someone comes at you, you dodge, naturally. It was a conscious/subconscious choice. Does that help clarify?
@audhdbaddie
2 ай бұрын
Yess for sure 😪 the answer is yes
@johnrainsman6650
2 ай бұрын
@@audhdbaddie Really? Here, can you give me an example using my _In the moment_ lesson? I want to see if you understand what I meant, because I can't always word what I mean or how I feel. Natural reaction is a big part of it, to help explain.
@Mercy.Beloved
Ай бұрын
I absolutely agree with you. Suicide won’t fix anything.
@LinaKamergi-v7x
10 ай бұрын
That's exactly what happened to me😢
@renjuncita
Жыл бұрын
your video described exactly the way i'm feeling rn, is hard to just accept uncertainty but you gave me some hope
@dancesoul33
Жыл бұрын
Heyyy renjun, can i have ur ig? I feel alone in this journey and i need someone that understands what i go throught, especially an nctzen
@renjuncita
Жыл бұрын
@@dancesoul33 sure!! my user is rensbianism
@laurened6505
10 ай бұрын
I suffured the exact same for 4 years. Pretty much ruminating everyday at least a couple of hours. Talk therapy + EMDR and Alprazolam 20mg a day for 12 months have taken me out of this nightmare. I live a normal life with small relapses time to time. My advice: watch videos like this one AND find an OCD specialist if you can or at least a clinical therapist. Meditation is also very helpful to reconnect with your true self without the OCD impacting your thoughts. Thanks a million times for the video. Please remember all the people too scared to comment but who feel grateful you saved them from suicide by opening up to something so taboo. You are an angel.
@audhdbaddie
10 ай бұрын
Im so happy to hear that you’re out of that OCD nightmare. Im always blown away when i think back to my worst OCD days because i thought i could never be ok, but its so possible. Thankyou for your comment sending hugs 🫂💕💕
@dariusthedestroyer7183
Жыл бұрын
ive struggled with ocd since a kid, but about 3 years ago i started getting intrusive thoughts but about my morals similar to you I cannot afford therapy and my parents do not believe I need it so they will not help. I tried medications because my insurance covers it and i tried anafranil but it did not seem to help my thoughts I wonder if it is still helping you and what mg are you on. I wonder if i should give it another go. Thank you for posting videos like this and spreading support and info about ocd.
@emirdogan8970
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for this video really helped . I suffer from real event ocd and one thing that really relieved me in the video is I always think obsessively about telling it to to the people who are close to me.( girlfriend, childhood friends etc.) But I’ve only told it to my friend who has a psychology degree. And never talked about it to other people. And I don’t have a chance to go therapy right now. I think my new OCD is should I tell it to my close circle. But actually I don’t want to tell it because it is even not comfortable for me to remember and someone who is not familiar with psychology can make a bad critic or make a good critic and give me justification. ( you know justification is evil friend of our great enemy OCD) So I guess sometimes we don’t have to talk about everything even with the close ones. What do you think ?
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
Yeah with ocd you can feel like you are “lying” if you dont confess what your intrusive thoughts are about. I think you can tell your friends that you’re struggling with OCD, but you don’t have to tell them the themes or the content of your thoughts because like you said not everyone will understand that. And it doesn’t mean that you’re lying, everyone has their invisible things that they struggle with. It’s definitely okay to tell them that you struggle with OCD and if they want to know more its up to you if you’re comfortable with sharing or not, but if they don’t feel like a safe person to you or someone that will understand I say dont share😅.
@Themightyhore
10 ай бұрын
16:23 made me break down in tears
@joshbanker8743
Жыл бұрын
Are you of English desent or romanian?
@laurenhebbert2615
5 ай бұрын
I found this very helpful thank you. I was diagnosed a month ago with ADHD and OCD, my Psycologist and Psychiatrist don't really elaborate on my OCD they focus mainly on the ADHD.
@mozmateus
Ай бұрын
Im so sorry this happened to you :( i hope you are better now.
@michelles2644
6 ай бұрын
This video is so helpful, I’ve had to go through the same mindset change that your describing to get through what I’m going through. It feels weird sometimes because when I was younger I thought p*** deserved to die and now I see them as human so it’s weird sometimes and I still feel unsure about how I’ve changed my mind about them.
@Hawkeye19821
Жыл бұрын
Hi, I'm going through a similar thing to you at the minute. I run a political youtube channel, it's tiny so it would'nt benefit you but would you be interested in doing an interview over zoom with me to put on my channel? If not then you seem like an amazing person, far wiser than me and I'm probably twice your age. Well done for speaking about this, it got to me.
@cheesydawg371
11 ай бұрын
Yes, they are people. I would just like those with morals to keep the reigns on their situation because when I was looking into it it seemed like a lot more people were only non offending so they can live "lawfully." Those people don't care about the harm and they look like the majority, for now at least.
@nyxsantos04
6 ай бұрын
You are very brave for sharing your story and i know so many people have felt that they aren't alone and that there is hope for recovery, including me. Thank you for sharing your experiences and help spreading awareness.
@michelledoesfun
Жыл бұрын
I cried so much watching this. Thank you for having the strength to share your story ❤️
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
It took time. When i was deep into ocd i NEVER thought I’d be able to speak about it like this. But it DOES get better. So much love🥲🫶🏼
@gazclint1
Жыл бұрын
Hi I’m going through this now I suffer with pocd, and I keep convincing myself I did something horrible a couple of months ago 😢it’s left me suicidal
@poshperfect1393
4 ай бұрын
Define childhood please.
@jolene41062
7 ай бұрын
I got a lot from your honesty. This will be helpful for people to relate to. You're obviously well adjusted and know you need to treat yourself with care first.
@astrowolfy9936
11 ай бұрын
Man this video was way to relatable. Like listening to a reflect of myself.. Thanks so much for sharing this.
@Futur3.
7 ай бұрын
Genuinely made me feel a lot better about my issue. You are seriously making a difference with these videos, Thank you.
@נוטוקס
9 ай бұрын
You helped me understand many things, bless you
@pedrogazola2672
Жыл бұрын
thank you for the video. It helped. I am from Brazil and i also suffer with this.
@edwinayala5714
Жыл бұрын
I’ve been dealing with this for a while now as well, it’s not easy but I know everything will be okay
@fgrimesdoe5821
Жыл бұрын
I'm glad you seem much better therapy works for some and that's great my hocd is sometimes torturing and other times very mild tg♥️
@beehive9410
Жыл бұрын
THANK you for this video
@sammullett17
Жыл бұрын
It's on my mind 24/7
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
:((
@rubybevan4059
Жыл бұрын
can i get in touch with you?
@obione51499
8 ай бұрын
This sucks.
@Generouslife153
7 ай бұрын
Ocd is horrible
@alexhope77
Жыл бұрын
Thank you
@annamoon1082
Жыл бұрын
Thank you ❤
@dylannicks1146
Жыл бұрын
Pocd is ruining my life. Was alcoholic due to it. I’m not on high Sertraline and taking Valium daily. I can’t recall an event or series of events perfectly. It’s driving me insane.. it all started when someone lied about their age to me and ever since, in intervals, I’ve ruminated. This happened like 6 years ago now? I added and un added this person and wonder were they the age I knew or were they the right age by the time I added and un added him next day.I know I was in bad rumination, and likely added him due to this drunk. If I ever was a prèdator, I can’t live with that. I can’t recall older conversations. Just feelings of disgust when someone is not the right age . Surely I’d know? I was already ruminating so so hard after finding out they lied about their age. I would surely recall and have had a total freak out if I added and un added him at an un acceptable age to me afterwards? He was a reasonable age the following year that wouldn’t of triggered me but for half it he wasn’t. I couldn’t stop obsessing. There’s no money in this world I wouldn’t pay for certainty.
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
😭😭 you are not a predator. Ocd is making you doubt your reality. Sometimes unfortunate things happen, that was an unfortunate event. I really feel for you. Just know that if you start to be ok with the situation it doesnt make you a predator, it just makes you someone that wants to move on!
@dylannicks1146
Жыл бұрын
@@audhdbaddie thank you for the reply 💜 I just know I would of 1000% remembered in 2018 if I added him before he was the acceptable age versus not being. He was born in June so for one part of the year he would of been the same age and other part acceptable and my ocd wouldn’t latch on. I was already badly ruminating on this since 2017, so if I truly added him and my ocd didn’t see it as acceptable it would legit have had the worlds biggest freak out.. but it didn’t ? I never ruminated about the detail of adding and un adding him until I ruminated hard this year on everything? It’s so true that each time we look in the past, we don’t know truly how it went. We had mutual friends and I likely knew he was older etc and since I was tormented likely added him drunk
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
@dylannicks1146 just think about it as if it was your best friend having this issue, what would you say to him? Also its not a crime to add someone on social media like its totally ok and does not make you a creep. If you unadded him because you realised his age then that just shows your morals. Its totally ok.
@dylannicks1146
Жыл бұрын
@@audhdbaddieiat the of 2017 I talked to him on an app for adults, I realized on his insta the next day he lied about his age by a year. In 2018 I was ruminating bad, got drunk, added and un added him, he was likely older at this point, which is why my mind didn’t care. I never added him properly till end of 2019. If I was ruminating back then prior to even having added and un added him, it must have been okay otherwise my ocd straight up would of had a strôke lol.. it’s just years later, I can’t recall the details. I appreciate your replies sooo much. This video was one I truly resonated with. I guess the worry is why I added him, was he the year older by then, was it cause I was severely ruminating and drunk, etc. surely if I never added him till he was even older at the end of 2019 then that’s normal?
@adammm608
11 ай бұрын
The issue isn’t whether he was or wasn’t. It’s your OCD. Many people make mistakes, similar to the one you might have made. They move on and go “oops, probably should be careful in future” and learn from it.
@saumyaranjannayak2101
10 ай бұрын
thanx for making this!
@joshbanker8743
Жыл бұрын
Very cute and pretty face.
@martinnevarez242
2 ай бұрын
Nice video! In my case, when I was a child, ages 8 to 11, I inappropriately touched three girls ages 2 to maybe 5. Bear in mind, I only touched their butts, kissed their lips, and one of them I tickled their anus and attempted to pants them. I knew what I did, and as I got older, I realized that it was typical childhood behavior exploring sexuality. However, one day, I saw an episode of a drama series where it was revealed that a father sexually ab. a child, and I was horrified, thinking that I did something so horrible, and my mind horribly distorted my childhood actions, replaying the incidents in my head and constantly confessing to people for reassurance that I was not a monster, but rather a normal child curious about sexuality. I kept telling my family and friends about my actions, and yet, it did nothing to quell the intrusive thought that I am abuser and monster. Is that real event OCD?
@audhdbaddie
2 ай бұрын
Thanks for the Super Thanks 🥹. Yes it definitely sounds like real event ocd :(. Behaviour like that only happens because we are not educated on these things n what is appropriate/ inappropriate and why, earlier. It doesn’t make it right but it doesnt make you a monster or even a bad person. It’s something that someone without OCD wouldnt question so much. I hope it gets easier for you🫶🏼
@martinnevarez242
2 ай бұрын
@@audhdbaddie thanks so much for your compassionate and kind words. 🥹🥹🥹 I know now that it was not right and appropriate what I did, but as a kid, it never occurred to me. I am sad that my OCD blew things out of proportion. But I am getting help by seeing an OCD specialist. Thank you so much!!! ❤️❤️❤️
@audhdbaddie
2 ай бұрын
You deserve to be happy and free of the torture that OCD brings, i hope therapy can help you, it helped me so much!💖
@martinnevarez242
2 ай бұрын
@@audhdbaddie you made me cry tears of joy! 🥹🥹🥹
@ind6337
Жыл бұрын
Hey guys , I wanted to ask something. I am suffering from false memory OCD. I don't know how I get out of this thing. I just want to know one thing that, that................ I often get thoughts whether I really suffer from OCD , or the memory is true and you have alr done it- For example , the mind puts a thought that you have done something bad , and whenever I try to convince my brain if I have OCD , it just puts another thought - "Is it really OCD or , did that thing happen in the past?" Tell me this ASAP ......... I am anxious :((
@audhdbaddie
Жыл бұрын
This is also part of OCD- questioning whether you have it even though you struggle with it every day. Unfortunately, I can’t give you an answer because this is reassurance seeking😭 (an ocd compulsion) and an answer wouldn’t help you in the long run. To start recovering from OCD you need to become okay with uncertainty become okay with not knowing. Like maybe the thing happened maybe it didn’t. And it’s OK if you don’t know.
@ind6337
Жыл бұрын
@@audhdbaddie I... want a genuine answer...... Is there really a hope for me? I cant stop ruminating , My mind goes like "Yeah , you would have done that" , It feels like I have done that thing .........but a part of me knows that I havent.............. I keep on trying to prove that I havent...replayign each and every event of my life linked to that topic , trying to deduce something.......even though I am tired now......... I cant accept the uncertainty...... it is just too much.......I need to get out of this sh*t........ it is just too much now.......... Can I really get out of this? Is there really a way I can just..... I can just live my life as I used to do? I dont know anything.............I dont feel like living. I come online , trying to feel better , asking questions or telling my own experience. This thing has been going on since 2 months...... And this is ruining my school life as well as my teenage life..... I have gone to psychiatrist now but it is still not helping.So , Can I really get out of this?
@salemsaberhagent9359
Жыл бұрын
@@ind6337 same for me, my campus life is messed up by my thoughts, I achieved good grades and fame, which even made me feel more shame because I am in fear of my terrible mistakes that will be disclosed, although i am not sure if it is true. I have the need to tell someone to know iff there anybody can accept who I might be ???? However, I think some topics should not just be brought up in public. I also think she is correct that you should accept your own doubt since I recognized that the only person who has judged me thus far is me.
@georgejohnson5904
Жыл бұрын
For the love of god girl, stop messing with your hair. You’re a natural beauty and you’re fumbling the bag.
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