Every now and then I'll find myself pondering life's BIG question of 'What are we here for' or, more specifically "What am I here for, what's MY unique purpose?' These thoughts typically rise up from a place of sheer exhaustion and desperation after yet another episode of burn-out caused by my inability to get a grip on my own life.
For the last five or maybe 10 years my goal has just been to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Mainly because that time frame saw us go from a family with two children to a family with two teenagers and now young adults plus an ageing parent who also lives with us. Not only are my husband and I the fabled and forgotten Generation X, we are now also the meat in life's sandwich. By choice, I'll add. We did choose this (except the Gen X part, which just sort of happened).
Now, two years into my Suddenly Autistic life and I find myself at another of life's crossroads and this time, possibly for the first time ever, I can centre myself as the protagonist. Well almost, grandad is still along for this ride...
What do I want to have as my purpose for this, a time which will arguably be the most 'me' focused part of my whole life (is that even a good thing)?
I've been trying to re-focus, re-orientate and answer this question for myself in a way that makes my (near at least) future sound exciting and interesting enough to keep me motivated through it while not too exciting and chaotic that it leaves me feeling overwhelmed and dissociated.
I decided to start that process with you, my Vlog followers, by making this video. While I still haven't nailed my 'elevator pitch' I've definitely gained a bit more insight into who I am, why my own choices have tripped me up in the past and where I want to go in this next phase.
I do hope you can join me.
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