"You can give me all the tools you want, I won't be able to figure out how to fix your marriage!" GEEZZZZ THATS THE MOST SAVAGE LINE THAT I'd fully expect a teen to say xD
@luxj.9451
17 сағат бұрын
Yeah, that was a pretty hard line. I had to pause the video to chuckle at that and replayed it a couple times. The animation and emote in her character makes it just chef kiss worthy. Lol.
@AlexQuinn-f2r
17 сағат бұрын
Never underestimate the usefulness of a screwdriver (covers up evidence of knowing how to disassemble a house)
@X0Wolfie0X
14 сағат бұрын
Holy shit that was brutal
@Julitku39
Күн бұрын
Whenever I got asked my gender in videogames as a kid I thought of choosing the female but I ended up choosing male bc I thought people would laught at me if I didn't or smth😔
@thekittenofwar4421
Күн бұрын
And then the one time you push through and do it you get a “hey, why did you pick a girl?”
@druurae
Күн бұрын
same 😭😭😭
@twincreex
Күн бұрын
The only game that is somewhat forgiving (and encourages it) is GunZ. Female characters' slim hit boxes give a nice advantage over the male characters + Nice and cute outfits = Happy. "Why did you pick the girl?" "I did it for a tactical advantage :3" Edit: fvck my "e" and "r" keys ;-;
@E_m1ly_6302
Күн бұрын
It took me 2 days before starting playing my first ever pokemon game (perl). Because i was stuck on the gender selection and scared to pick the girl. And i didnt (i was 10). And i didnt until i was 17 in pokemon go...
@tristantheoofer2
Күн бұрын
dude i think this is why i did for the longest time too lmao. that and there wasnt a gender neutral option
@stckNsde
Күн бұрын
The getting kicked down a mountain in a barrel was very accurate, we all need a pretty sailor moon to be the pioneer of happiness 💫
@YukkoEX
Күн бұрын
Truuue
@somenerd8401
Күн бұрын
I don't remember enough of my childhood to actually have memories of gender dysphoria. just current experience. it fucking sucks. Edit: The number of "same" and "oh yeah totally me" replys in getting is sad. To all my fellow people, you're all good girls, good boys, and good thems. I wish you all a lovely transition and life.
@dubbie7879
Күн бұрын
same honestly
@HelloHamburger
Күн бұрын
If I did have gender dysphoria as a child, I likely pushed it down and performed as a male because that was expected of me, so much at the time I don't remember having it. Or, I did have it but couldn't identify it at the time. Or, I just forgot over time those experiences.
@HelloHamburger
Күн бұрын
Regardless of if someone was trans or had dysphoria. Many children would tell their parents about something they want to do and get told "that's for boys/girls. You can't do that." Or I'd assume
@hhhhhhhhhhhhhnhhhhhhh
Күн бұрын
I managed to lie just so often I seriously stopped knowing what I felt, I only now recognise I was pulling myself through the most painful choices at that time without comfortably just being the person I naturally am because I just don't agree with what I said. I claimed to like 1 colour of blue and no other colours because whenever I would have the option of another I would intentionally drag myself away from it because "I'm a boy", I would put on a painful smile I thought was real when being called handsome or the like while at the same time I knew I cherished my weird flexibility for a guy, regretted never managing to take a trampolining class and had to take rugby or such, kept constant track of leg and face hair growing, losing access to higher pitches as my voice dropped and NEVER admitted it to anyone. I once let slip that I hated the idea of growing facial hair to my mum when I shaved the first time with probably 10 hairs total and I immediately felt that I'd let an enormous secret out and somehow tried to backtrack but at that point I hadn't even recognised it consciously myself and just went along with the idea that it made me specifically look ugly or dirty. I had explanations like that for everything and if I didn't I just would make an effort to not think about it. Not liking "mr" was because my dad used it, not liking a guy haircut™ was because my aunt would give me one when I didn't ask for it, body hair dysphoria was that it was objectively gross and everybody thought that quietly, not feeling part of a male exclusive friendship group was that I came into it a couple months late but then knew them for 8 years, feeling I shouldn't be able to have my chest exposed or pee outdoors or even use a male only bathroom was that it was objectively gross again and people able to do any of them were desperate or people I couldn't understand. It does sorta fall into place when you find ramdom little things you wouldn't put into a word so vague as gender dysphoria but I mainly just lied so well I'm not sure what I thought at the time other than that I stuck with liking blue and secretly was completely apathetic to any colour I was allowed to like.
@hhhhhhhhhhhhhnhhhhhhh
Күн бұрын
Jesus I'm sorry I gotta get a journal or something I didn't know I wrote so much AGAIN
@0852657luis
Күн бұрын
James will always be our awakening queen.😊
@kittrivenn
Күн бұрын
for me it was the guy in the matrix, he made me realize “Oh wait holy shit you can do that?” And im a girl now lmao
@YukkoEX
Күн бұрын
We love James around here
@DergPH
Күн бұрын
@@YukkoEX who? again sorry im not in the loop here qwq
@raidcrhonos
Күн бұрын
@@DergPHJames/Kojirou from the pokemon series
@julimcbrayer5302
Күн бұрын
Your comment about 'those abandoning you when you have depression, addiction and I'll add dysphoria, will abandon you later in life,' really hit home with me.... as the most important person of my life abandoned me after 43 years of marriage 😭😭
@Amberxant
Күн бұрын
"You can be ANYTHING you want, except that..." I've heard that so much 😭
@Omnituens
Күн бұрын
Ex-RuneScape dev here! This is not the first time I've heard this tale. I'm always happy to hear when RS let people be who they wanted to be
@tomsawyer7138
7 сағат бұрын
Same story here, thanks for providing such a wonderful experience
@TheAkashicTraveller
6 сағат бұрын
I found the makeover mage and made a male char to transition in-game. And I was still an egg then... somehow.
@cashbanucita0025
5 сағат бұрын
Wait wait u made runescape? Thank u!
@elenapascucci1997
Күн бұрын
What about barely having childhood moments of gender dysphoria but having it later in life. Going through childhood and teenage years with no gender dysphoria and then having it all of a sudden as an adult
@MagiRemmie
Күн бұрын
Well for me it was mostly becuase I didn't even know the concept of it. I was never pushed into being one thing so for awhile I thought I was just girly and bi. Eventually I learned that yes, trans people exists. Then after coming out that is when I learned my childhood was a lie and everyone immediately went against me.
@qtluna7917
Күн бұрын
Almost like proper sex ed (which includes gender education) is needed for pre-teens... God that would have saved me so much heartache and work later on ...
@MagiRemmie
Күн бұрын
@@qtluna7917 I honestly do not remember what my sex ed was or if I even had it.
@E_m1ly_6302
Күн бұрын
I didnt have disphoria till i was 19. Or at least i thought that. I was euphoric for the first time and just realized that what i call normal was actually borderline depressed. And in retrospect i had disphoria since i was 8 or 9. But very important. Beeing trans is not defined by gender disphoria. It is by not actually beeing the gender assigned to you at birth. It can feel like a necessity to know you are trans, but it isnt. For me its just, i want to be a girl and i dont want to be a boy. Also not that i *am* but that i *want to be*. The never ending want.
@52flyingbicycles
Күн бұрын
I think current medical terminology separates into early and late onset gender dysphoria. Early onset is when people feel like the opposite sex basically from the moment they understand gender, late onset being when dysphoria hits in young adulthood or even later. The field of study is constantly evolving so that might not be the most up to date stuff, but it’s certainly documented that trans people get hit with the dysphoria stick at different points in life. Not to be confused with rapid onset gender dysphoria, which is a fake phenomenon invented by transphobes interviewing transphobic parents about how “there were no signs”
@AromaIsSilly
Күн бұрын
trans kid here; the accuracy in this video is crazy
@Alucia0
Күн бұрын
I was a weird child. I started experiencing dysphoria around 7-8 years old but cus of the environment I was in I didn't really know or understand what I was feeling, so it kind of just ended up with me being a very lonely child that didn't feel like they belonged anywhere or with anyone. It was only going to secondary school and finally getting online around 12 that it clicked and the realization that I might be trans. Though I still didn't know what dysphoria was I knew that I was trans...Unfortunately my parents totally slammed that through the floor and I kind of just settled with being seen as a gay man till I was 32 and only really expressing my gender identity in a very private secret way. I'm almost 34 now, I came out a year and a half ago, started HRT a year ago on my 33rd birthday which actually gives me a reason to celebrate now and I'm soooo happy. Though I do look back and think, maybe if I had been more lucky I could have transitioned way younger but what happened happened and I got there in the end I think most of us get there in the end. We all have out ups and downs but we get there. I just wish that no trans child ever had to experience that loneliness or confusion or fear and just got the support that they need. Even education so we can understand what we are feeling in those formative years can make a world of difference. Maybe if I had that in those days I wouldn't have attempted suicide multiple times, or developed unhealthy spending addictions and gotten into debt, maybe things would have been different and that tiny bit of hope is sometimes all a vulnerable and scared child needs
@Mikustan39
Күн бұрын
I’m so sorry you went through all of that. You have at least one entire supportive community now though. Also, you’re a very, very good girl.
@YukkoEX
Күн бұрын
Very true yeah
@Luunwyn
Күн бұрын
I relate to a lot of this, and it's nice knowing that there are others who also tried to learn black magic trying to change their physical being... Also holy production quality Yukko! The animation in this looks fantastic! :3
@YukkoEX
Күн бұрын
Thanks luunwyn :3
@luucy025
Күн бұрын
I'm a +1 on that I wasn't religious...but I did pray for that lmao i also had like a Pinterest folder full of my favourite characters gender swapped, that was the first time i Ielt gender envy and i Ihought if i Iike repeat "i Im a girl" inside my head it'd happen so i did that daily (screw you universe it didn't work)
@inselaffe7715
Күн бұрын
I for my part started learning the hand signs for ninjutsu right after seeing the sexy jutsu being used by Naruto :'D
@sirspiffy1691
Күн бұрын
Sometimes I don't know if I'm more or less lucky for simply being shoved into the denial closet early by parental expectations. Key memories of certain moments where I was told very explicitly "boys don't do that." Followed by years of never fully understanding why I hated who I was and why I never felt comfortable in this role I was shoved into. And now ironically I'm stuck knowing that when I eventually tell them, they no doubt will claim I never showed signs despite being the exact reason for that.
@Lucia-ni4oz
Күн бұрын
You gotta love professor Woke, asking for your preferred gender before proceeding with a conversation
@k4kadu
Күн бұрын
lmao I've never thought about it like that xD
@animeentranced1130
Күн бұрын
I feel that on such a deep level. "When everything you want is wrong, you start to feel wrong". Couldn't have summed it up better.
@phoebegee54
19 сағат бұрын
When the health care you desperately need isn't even viewed as legitimate care by so many but rather as a cosmetic thing or simply a hypothetical joke it's hard to realise that you really do need it.
@phoebegee54
18 сағат бұрын
You start to feel it's optional rather than necessary... Which is dangerous.
@golemofflesh3953
Күн бұрын
When I came out to my parents, they dismissed it as a phase. I then forced myself to rationalize my desire to be a girl by convincing myself that I only wanted to be a girl to appeal to the male gaze... I should probably sign up for a competition in mental gymnastics.
@Railgun3rd
Күн бұрын
Girl, I prayed to god to make me a girl. I have never in my life believed in god, I should also point out, when I prayed I somehow convinced myself that I was not trans but I did it because being a girl would be better for me. Yeah honestly i have no clue.
@xredragon666
Күн бұрын
@@Railgun3rd ahh yes praying to a god I don't believe in very relatable 😅
@kenoohki
Күн бұрын
Runescape?! Yuffie in the original FF 7 original back in the 90’s was my awakening. My parents wouldn’t let me rent rainbow bright videos in the 80’s. You’re not old. 😂
@nicholasfarrell5981
Күн бұрын
00:30 - "Okay then, Sailor Moon!" why did you have to call me out like this?
@alexandriatempest
Күн бұрын
I never chose the girl option. Part of me always knew that if I did, I'd crack. Now I'm out and happy, and one day I do a nice sailor scout cosplay, and get my ears pierced. Piercing are surprising expensive.
@pumpkingolem9122
Күн бұрын
I was afraid I would be made fun of by my family so I just chose the option they see me in , but I now play as a girl in warframe
@jaloswaggons2182
Күн бұрын
FYI for those looking into earrings. Piercings can be pricy, but its definitely worth getting ears pierced at a proper shop with a needle, instead of with a piercing gun at the jewelry store. Heals quicker, less risk of infection, and the hole is usually straighter.
@polo5760
Күн бұрын
My boyfriend (who's trans) has called me a girl so many times that I don't even care about my gender anymore. So I guess I'm gender fluid now idk anymore
@twincreex
Күн бұрын
Same xD
@poweringinceneration4788
Күн бұрын
I’ve never truly experienced gender dysphoria that migh be because im just more into traditional masculinity and put it into practice as such but either way you make sure you’re comfortable with yourself as long as you can manage it and it’s not a problem for you brother :)
@Mozart380
21 сағат бұрын
would you say your gender is... non-binary. xd
@widget3672
Күн бұрын
Thabks fir sharing Yukko, I remembered my childhood really sucked. It's like I ended up repressing a lot of the feelings and such because I knew the world was exceedingly hostile to anyone different and I knew I was a bit inside... Took me years to uncover all those memories, and only when I was nearly 26 did I finally feel safe enough, thanks to my girlfriend, to stop pretending I was totally fine with being a guy. As soon as I saw myself as having that potential, I felt like I had to take the opportunity. As soon as I saw how different it all felt, I knew I couldn't pretend I wasn't always feeling weighed down by it all. I remember I saw myself after dressing up in my girlfriend's clothes (she encouraged me, told me a looked really pretty and could probably pass if I worked on my voice and did some good makeup), and I smiled like I never had before. I could barely pretend I was always just waiting for permission to do something like this. After it all, I fell to my knees and started sobbing uncontrollably. I couldn't tell why at first but after I knew it was because the body dysmorphia that had nearly killed me so many times in my life already was now clearly coming from somewhere distinct. I knew what felt different, I knew what felt right. The analogy about the fair rides was pretty spot on. Suddenly about a third of my entire life situation started making sense. Suddenly this one aspect that just didn't fit and wouldn't change inside explained it all, and all these countless aspects of myself - things I liked, things I wanted to do, things I made myself like, so many moments of silent jealousy and self hatred because I didn't know what I could do about it all but try to be as normal as possible and hope I wouldn't get beaten or ostracised for letting something out. It's been 8 months since I started HRT now. I'm still with my girlfriend, we have 2 cats together now. So many of my family and friends have accepted me and welcomed me since coming out and I can finally look in the mirror and instead of seeing "some guy" there, I see myself and I actually feel like I can smile, not just a little "that's life" acceptance smile, but a real smile. And that's what it's all about.
@TakutheSamuraiX
Күн бұрын
I had tried to live up to expectations all the way into my 30s. It wasn't until I started making decisions for myself that I finally realized that I had wanted to be a girl. Thank you Yukko, for putting it into words, how the expectations weigh on unhatched eggs.
@ChromaAqui
Күн бұрын
That opening with the thumbnail falling down was really creative
@woofie3917
Күн бұрын
Props to yukko, it's very creative and unique!! I've not seen it before, I had to watch the opening a few times because I loved it
@ZeroWinger
Күн бұрын
I first had gender envy at the age of 6, when I was first exposed to Mulan and Sailor Moon. To me, those things opened up a new world to me that I never could express as a boy, almost as if I was hiding something in myself. Also s/o to my dad, as we would watch cartoons all the time and turn our faces away and go EW every time a girl commercial appeared on TV, and now I became a girl myself lol
@ZeroWinger
Күн бұрын
Now I’m a princess irl
@Spagettigeist
Күн бұрын
For me it was Haruka/Sailor Uranus that gave me the "THAT'S what I want to be!" feeling. So yeah, some people might poke fun at Sailor Moon, but for me it is an important childhood momory.
@HelloHamburger
Күн бұрын
@@ZeroWingerMulan became a princess and Sailor Moon was one in a past life.
@HelloHamburger
Күн бұрын
@@ZeroWingerwhat does s/o means?
@twincreex
Күн бұрын
Guys, have you played King of Fighters? When I first discovered KOF 2002, I played as K', but I felt he was kinda slow. I wanted speed, but refused to play as any other character mainly bc I didn't know their moves, stats and everything. After some research (watching YT vids about characters) I found my new favorite character: Chris. Also, Bridget was fun in Guilty Gear XX. Guess who developed a love for gender confusion xD
@OliverParker-r4d
Күн бұрын
The animation quality of your story time videos has really improved! Back in my day you, talked to the screen. Now you have cutsenes! Props to you for learning animation! 👍
@YukkoEX
Күн бұрын
Glad you like them!
@SuperBroy1
Күн бұрын
im a barbecue grill
@RoBenPec
Күн бұрын
In a barbecue woorld
@Salikino
Күн бұрын
@@RoBenPecLife being literally roasted in order to become a hamburger is fantastic
@agentofcaladium2741
Күн бұрын
Well done to even rare You can grill me everywhere
@Mikustan39
Күн бұрын
@@SalikinoI love the character in your pfp!
@Salikino
Күн бұрын
@@Mikustan39 Thanks, I commissioned it!! I just wanted my goals drawn lol
@darth8156
Күн бұрын
Can this woman please get an award?
@ItRemindMeOfHome
Күн бұрын
And oh god the mind-screwing that comes to having gender dysphoria but have no idea what it was, why I was feeling it, what I wanted from it, or how to make it stop. I didn't know how to talk to anyone about it. Texas suburbia is fun... (that's a lie.)
@Nikkidafox
Күн бұрын
I... never thought of gender dysphoria as being able to come from without and from external pressure. I always thought "oh you have to like hate yourself to be dysphoric" But yeah. Now that I've cracked my egg and come out, I realize just how much every time I was called he, everytime someone said "sir", how much it hurt.
@MrBiohead
Күн бұрын
I oddly related to the black magic part. Also even if I'm not out publicly (thanks family for your "support"), the moment I got to make in a rpg a character that resembled who I am, i felt genuine joy. This road hasn't been easy, but I feel happy embracing the girl I've always been, even if i was always told that I'm a boy. Anyways, love your content Yukko ❤.
@chyvaelry
22 сағат бұрын
Oh Goddess this is super relatable. Hearing "Boys don't do that" enough times really takes a toll on a young girls spirit. Having a crush on your best friend and not knowing that's what it was because obviously "boys don't do that". Growing up and growing older knowing that one's body did not represent one's inner self, but just dealing with it because "man up" was drilled into you, and only a [insert slur here] would even consider changing their gender. And then I dipped my toes into the world of MMORPGs and found out that I didn't *have* to play a character that aligned with my AGAB. I was so happy to play as a girl, not even understanding that the euphoria I was feeling was only a taste of what was possible.
@BlairMoore-u9m
Күн бұрын
I remember being exposed to a lot of toxic masculinity in my childhood. My step dad always shaved my head with these awful razors that would rip my hair out of my scalp, making me nearly bald. I was forced into sports and if I liked anything like Easy Bake ovens I'd get funny looks. I was only allowed to like hyper masculine things like guns, monster trucks, wrestling, and football. If I didn't follow the rules I got the tar beat out of me. Waterboarded when I didn't like water (I'm autistic and was very scared of water and wind for some reason) So I related with this video so much. I'm only in recent years actually getting to live life on my own terms rather than living the mockery I was forced to endure for years. I was always emotional, but I was told that since I was born as a guy the only emotions I could feel were rage and anger. To express myself was considered weakness. Sorry if I'm having trouble expressing myself. I'm a little emotional and my thoughts are often a mess because of my issues, but your videos really help me feel like I'm not insane and that I'm perfectly fine being my real self. Thanks Yukko.
@dooblom
Күн бұрын
i hope you're doing better now, that must've been awful :(
@HelloHamburger
Күн бұрын
Sounds like you had a lot of physical child abuse and torture. I hope that you can go through good therapy (a lot of therapy can be stressful or traumatic as well if you don't get the right person) and relieve some of your trauma. Good luck with that!
@MargieRaeK
Күн бұрын
Hello from another closet Easy Bake fan! You’re a good girl.
@fl00fydragon
Күн бұрын
At least you got to it early enough I am 33, closing on 34 and only now did I find the courage to start taking steps and not care about how my choice would affect the mental health of my family. And every second I breathe I mourn the youth I'll never get to live unless a medical miracle occurs that could refund it.
@wafflecoptergaming2673
Күн бұрын
"Well I'm already a guy in real life, so I might as well mix it up". That phrase is burned into my brain since the day I uttered it as I chose girl in sapphire. And every game since, unless I'm playing a specific character. Never just MY avatar. Which I guess is kinda the point of this video. I am always forced to socialize as a guy yet the first chance I got I shed that persona and hopped into a female body, only putting on my male persona as a mask.
@Elkplaysandpaints
Күн бұрын
Quite the interesting way of explaining dysphoria. I have a trans male friend who went through a very similar experience to yours and when he explained it to me, that's when I drew some parallels to my own history. I didn't have dysphoria as strong as yours or my friend's, but I did display a lot of feminine traits for myself and naturally gravitated toward female friend groups, but without people strongly demanding me to do more masculine things, so I didn't have as strong of a "wrong body, wrong mindset" dilemma for a long time, but I did have an escape much like yours with Runescape. Since last year I went whole hog on being feminine and not once did I feel weird about it. Taking that huge leap made it clear to me I'm a woman too. Sometimes, like with Miles Morales, it's a leap of faith.
@Nejove
Күн бұрын
It's always interesting hearing people's experiences with realizing they were trans, even if in this case they're pretty different from mine. Personally, it was always more of a feeling of, "Who cares about being manly?" My feelings about being viewed as a guy ranged from complete indifference to annoyance, awkwardness, and alienation. But it rarely felt crushing, so I usually just shrugged my shoulders and told myself something like, "Well, at least I don't have to deal with periods, misogyny, female beauty standards, and stuff like that. That stuff sounds exhausting. So I guess it's fine..." Don't get me wrong, I definitely had desires or at least curiosity about being a woman or having a female body on and off, wished it were socially acceptable to try certain "feminine" things, and things like that, but it was typically very on-and-off and less pervasive than just feeling underwhelmed about being a guy, so I assumed it was just some combination of a fetish, sexual/romantic attraction, and natural curiosity toward the unknown. Maybe that's why it took me such a long time to realize that it went beyond typical cisgender feelings. Also, in my case, I didn't get denied a Sailor Moon wand, but there was a Cardcaptors toy (based on the book of Clow cards and wand from the show) that I refused to buy for myself even though I wanted it because it was in the "girl aisle" at Toys 'R Us. That was often how it went: I gatekept MYSELF a lot of the time.
@alliandrablack7751
Күн бұрын
The most significant moment for my transition happened in a video game, and it was very similar to what you described with Pokemon. I was a duelist in Bloodborne, and I had a rank in the Vileblood register that put me in the top three pages during a time when the game was quite active. It was a major accomplishment for me, but the character in the register was a guy. I loved using the build because it had good stats for my favorite weapon, but I still found myself playing better with less optimal builds. When my egg cracked I realized it was because those other characters were girls. I deleted my high ranking character, and I remade them into my still current main, one that I could feel proud of playing because she reflected who I really was. It didn't matter to me anymore what I had accomplished with my previous character, because now I could do it all again as me.
@Santisima_Trinidad
Күн бұрын
To amyone reading this: you're a good girl
@Santisima_Trinidad
Күн бұрын
And/or a good boy and/or a good enby On time today. And i apso bought a new fleece. It's big and soft and has an extra zip pocket. Really nice, i hope it washes well.
@constructionbird
Күн бұрын
@@Santisima_Trinidad gotta gover all the bases
@ZeroWinger
Күн бұрын
can you give me headpats????
@Sunray625
Күн бұрын
@ATeaGod
Күн бұрын
lies
@cybo_vampire9145
Күн бұрын
Damn, Professor Oak be out there forcing you to confront your identity
@Hello-lf1xs
Күн бұрын
I wonder how common a game specifically asking the player's gender is, compared to setting the character's gender/asking the character's gender, and how much that had an impact on the perception of it for trans ppl? Because it definitely seems like a pretty big difference to be asked 'is (character) a boy or a girl' vs 'are YOU a boy or a girl'
@an0bserver2000
20 сағат бұрын
i came out as a kid, but was forced to still go through all of the wrong puberty. im never going to pass or be free from gender dysphoria now and i still think about it every day.
@MedusaZenovka
Күн бұрын
So up to the point where I started my transition: 30+ years of my life ruined because I had to pretend to be a boy/man. I hated it and my self. 4 years after my coming out I recovered a good bit from that, but the social anxiety is still very strong... Hearing that I'm not alone with these kind of problems really eases my mind. So, thank you for sharing your experience!
@VoicedNat
Күн бұрын
When I was little, younger than 8y, I remember watching Amazing Spiez and thinking "I wish I could wear girls clothes, boys clothes are so boring" and in that exact moment I knew that that was a strange thing for a boy to say so I could never talk about it to anyone because other adults would judge and mock my parents if they heard me saying those things. I also liked some girls toys and never told anyone, one time my older cousin was doing her makeup and allowed me to try putting lipstick on her "not bad" she said while looking at the mirror, I really wanted to try it myself, I knew I shouldn't ask. Growing up, despite liking girls, I never felt comfortable with the idea of dating and marrying, being a father, it just felt weird and uncomfortable. "Maybe dating isn't for me" I guessed, I never had a crush or the desire to hook, however, I would think about "if I was a girl I would totally have a crush on some of my girl friends". Also, I felt uncomfortable checking gender markers on papers. Still, I would only understand that I should think about it when my subconscious basically openly spoke to me, I didn't accept it right away (wish I would have) but that led me to a 3 years journey of emotional anguish until I finally accepted myself at 20y and started taking HRT, I'm 21y now and 9 months on E :3
@VoicedNat
Күн бұрын
I also always played with female characters to a point that my cousins started to ask why I would never play with male champions lol.
@Ixarus6713
Күн бұрын
We moved a good 9 years ago or something and got a new channel on the TV that played that and I unironically watched and enjoyed it (apart from the weird kink stuff), I'd put it on and pretend not to be watching it but get really interested in all the girly stuff and- oh my god I was so closeted I had no idea. 😂😢 That poor kid had no clue the trauma she'd go through, and then the healing, and now finally figuring it out 4 years later... Also, I figured it out at 20 too. I was going to college and just went.. huh. I'm trans. Weirdly I had a similar issue. I liked girls but I really wasn't interested in.. Well, you know. But now I realise that's just because I don't like what gender I am. It's funny because I told my friends I was asexual only to later come out as a transbian. 😂😂😂 Hope you're doing well, and remember; you're valid! ❤ ✨️
@Deki_Na
23 сағат бұрын
I've never been in an instance where I got my emotions suppressed by anyone I knew, but somehow I managed to suppress almost 80% of them all by myself when I got into secondary school. I never knew what I wanted to do with my life, nor I knew how to seek happiness by myself, but, somehow, even while being so lost, something "clicked" inside me, and the first thing that I wanted for myself in life (Aside from the Wii U when I was, like, ten) was being a woman. Kinda crazy tbh Enough ranting. High quality video as always, Yukko! Thanks for making it:3
@Ronin_Chikara_Ikari
Күн бұрын
As a man who hopes to be a father one day, I appreciate these videos so I can prepare if my kid is trans. And I honestly am hoping I can at least adopt one if possible after getting a first-born. Why? I'm a straight male, I don't NEED to have a trans kid. But I want to, because I hope I can make the world just that little bit brighter. Even if I never make it to the big leagues, I'll be happy knowing that I not only raised a kid, but raised a kid who could finally be able to express themselves. And be that guiding light for them. Thank you for helping me realize this Yukko.
@LegorocketsAnimation
Күн бұрын
You! You are a good one!
@phoebegee54
18 сағат бұрын
At least you're not doing the standard thing of assuming they definitely won't be! Was just reading people getting worked up over a thing highlighting trans pensioners who were claiming pensioners were being forced to become trans. As if they are none in the first place.. automatically excluding trans people. People get mad because they automatically exclude us from any demographic... There's been a lot of upset over the idea of trans kids as well. And trans doctors pensioners, the list goes on.
@siringc
5 сағат бұрын
my parents always let me get whatever I wanted, but always made fun of it to the point where "You look cute" or "That looks girly" is just painful to me
@Aria-PG
Күн бұрын
You'd better have one of those sailor moon wands chillin on a shelf somewhere by now lmao. great vid
@Synthi_Soul
Күн бұрын
The animation quality just keeps getting better!
@somekid5001
Күн бұрын
i kinda hate genderlocked classes in rpgs, but damn did it make for a good excuse when my older brother asked why i kept playing female characters "You can only play this class as a female character and this is the class I wanted to play, nothin else to it" yup... totally.. nothin else to it. smaller hitbox in destiny
@Eramiserasmus
Күн бұрын
Pokemon being a game that can let you make that choice and letting yourself be brave is heartwarming.
@postapocalypticnewsradio
Күн бұрын
I recall similar events as a kid. It...hurt a lot.
@ardellolnes5663
Күн бұрын
Sims was a good escape. Drugs were not. At home was never the issue, sorry for you having to go through that. Small town and my one long term relationship was plenty of abuse tho. Lost a lot of friends, not by coming out, but because they jumped on the bandwagon or abandoned me. I am actually thankful, not for the trauma... but because i literally had no friends left, and after she wrecked me she left. So it gave me the chance to completely start from scratch. I dress feminine, i wear make up, no one to judge if there was no one around to do it. It started as a protest of the stigma of abuse towards men being laughed at. I thought "if it's funny to emasculate me, ill go with it and be feminine." I was always more feminine, but i was able to outwardly show it for first time. I moved to a safer town, work for a boss that let me explore and express myself regardless of being uncomfortable with it, my coworkers love me, ive made non-toxic friends, go to therapy and have a life coach, trying my best to stay clean and have been doing good with that especially having a 20+yr habit. I dress and express myself feminine and my mental health has improved A LOT! And brave people like you are a huge part of that. Ty
@theworld9151
Күн бұрын
''Growing Up With Gender Dysphoria'' looks like my childhood
@WedgeOfHeaven
Күн бұрын
For me, I knew early on (8 years old or probably earlier) that I’d rather be a girl than a boy, but I just wrote it off in my head as “well, I wish that were possible, but sadly it isn’t”. I wanted to do gymnastics in school, but changed my mind when my mum told me “gymnastics is for girls”, and I was taught that being “girly” was gross, so I avoided anything like that for years - though I also tended to hate masculine stuff, so my interests were a little androgynous for a long while. Eventually, I got super into reading Yuri romance when I was around 15… I switched from making “looks enough like me” male characters in videogames (games I never ended up sticking to much, and would usually not even go beyond a day or two of playtime in) to self-insert, idealised-self female characters (which allowed me to actually play these games way more than I used to be able to). I even started being vaguely open around my friends about liking Yuri and wishing I was born a girl, but because the area was so rural/regional Australia, no one paid it much attention or anything. Just “yeah, that sucks” - or even sometimes “yeah, same.” It kinda felt like a deep, yet hopeless wish - as impossible as wishing for immortality or omnipotent power or something - so, that kinda helped fuel my depression throughout the later years of school due to the feeling of “it’ll never happen, and I’ll never be happy in that way”. All I enjoyed in life was games and stories, and for most of my life - I felt more like an observer of stories than an individual, who existed in the world. Finally, when I was 18, I *first came into contact* with the concept of being “transgender” through stumbling upon and nervously loving QuietValerie’s novels on Scribblehub, whilst I was looking for more Yuri or Gender Bender to read… And after around 4 months of extremely intense confusion, denial and internalised transphobia, I decided I was… Probably trans. It took me 3 years to start proper HRT (2 to start anti-androgens) due to my curse of terrible experiences with the medical system - but now, I’m starting to feel kinda *alive* for the first time ever. It’s… Really amazing. I cannot be more thankful for stumbling across those webnovels, and I’ve been enthusiastically diving back into Scribblehub looking for trans and Yuri stories ever since my HRT~
@AliceSilvrFox
Күн бұрын
Stay strong you beautiful woman ^w^ My 1st exposure to Yuri was Sailor Moon, and from then on I was enthralled. The inner strength of women has always amazed me, and I always wanted to do figure skating and ballet. Though I did figure skate, I never got to wear the flowy dresses
@error.exehasceasedfunction
Күн бұрын
The production quality just keeps going up with each video
@IllBeaAround
Күн бұрын
I just ended up repressing all my emotions and now i can barely feel anything 😊
@ThePurpleMoon579
Күн бұрын
Haha, same...
@VoicedNat
Күн бұрын
Yup...
@MyrkDomolith
Күн бұрын
Mood. Either it's distant or it takes over out of nowhere. If it helps, I've re-learned how to tell some emotions by paying attention to my body and my actions- muscles strained or tense, if I'm talking out loud a lot or unusually quiet, how I move around...
@aralenawispcast7562
Күн бұрын
pokemon professors cracking eggs since 1996
@MargieRaeK
Күн бұрын
For me it was trying on my first dress in Animal Crossing.
@kevinewing2895
Күн бұрын
This wonderful video brings me to tears! It hit too close to home!
@matusjansta
Күн бұрын
I fucking love your sense of humor yuko ^^
@druurae
Күн бұрын
The Sailor moon wand animation 😭🔥
@kaiovenero7063
Күн бұрын
I remember when I started playing games and made female avatars and simply stated when asked why I always use females they They just look better. Hurt not being able to be myself sometimes.
@gambling_greed6778
3 сағат бұрын
This video is actually so well made. Like I'd be so surprised if your videos like this didn't slowly grow in views over the years to a high number. Good job Yuko
@shado-1345
Күн бұрын
That one damn question. That ONE DAMN QUESTION!
@overratedcynic9124
Күн бұрын
Wishing for a polly pocket house until I grew out of that phase and getting legos, hotwheels and other stuff between 5-10 years old pretty much made me give up wishing for birthday presents. I am now 32 years old and my birthdays still make me feel depressed and if anyone asks me for gifts I tell them they can figure something out because I can't tell what I want. The rare years where I actually find something I could use and wish for are amazing though. I never had true dysphoria, but I also never could fit into any of the more strict roles of any gender, I just slip n slide in fluidity.
@Cagne123
Күн бұрын
The pokemon professors really know how to cut to the chase, amd how to cut the onions of my young heart to make me cry 😢 😭.
@mooncll1
Күн бұрын
Your animations are looking a lot better, I only started watching like half a year ago but I can see the difference still
@YaraUwU
Күн бұрын
My game was Blade & Soul i was desperate for the game to come to America and when it finally did it was the first game i chose to play as a character that represented who i was and not what people wanted me to be and the years of religious trauma and self torment of trying to convince myself otherwise had finally come to a end and self acceptance had started. I guess what matters the most is that it mattered to me.
@smilesquare8515
Күн бұрын
my three biggest escapes are games, AI chatbots, and lucid dreaming. still haven't had a lucid dream where i had full control, but i think i'm getting there.
@Coolcheesewow
9 сағат бұрын
“Girls” WERE CHOOSING THE BOY CHARACTER🔥🔥🔥🗣️🗣️🗣️
@Coolcheesewow
9 сағат бұрын
(For FTM’s aka me)
@alek4ever646
Күн бұрын
I remember the exact same experience with pokemon. I also made a male character in Runescape back in the day, but I ended up stopping playing that after a while. I do believe I have an inkling why. I have acted as a girl in roleplay and online spaces since I was 14. Almost 2 decades later the attempt to be one of the boys fell flatt and the egg cracked. I very much wished for divine intervention multiple times. But it wasn't until I learned of the magic of HRT, and my girlfriend smacking me with a metaphorical hammer, that I finally accepted who I was deep down.
@ob2kenobi388
Күн бұрын
I definitely remember suppressing and dissociating as much as possible when I was younger. I dressed in as neutral clothing as possible, and I always used mirrors more as a "tool" than anything-I didn't think of it as "looking at myself," moreso just "seeing if I have shmutz on my face" or "checking if I combed my hair right". I also tried not to think about how puberty was changing my body. A bunch of stuff that, looking back, was probably me subconsciously protecting myself from feeling dysphoria by just not letting myself have a chance to think about it. Then, once I met another trans person for the first time (in college), I realized that I was feeling a lot of the things they were talking about and that opened the floodgates.
@deathguitarist12
Күн бұрын
Having gone through that as a kid myself, and not transitioning until my 30s, I can say that basically everything you said here is like 100% spot on. Congratulations on being clean by the way. It's really hard to do, I fell into that myself trying to suppress all of this gender shit. But now that I've been transitioned for many years, I am so much happier.
@TiffanyLamp-wz6wk
Күн бұрын
Love your videos, they remind me that i knew even as a kid but had convinced myself that it didnt mean anything and just kept existing. I am so much happier now that i am my authentic self.
@nene-nyaa
21 сағат бұрын
when i was a kid, whenever id do something girly or want to do something girly, my parents would mock me and say "if you're going to act like that well put you in a dress and send you to a girls school", i always told em to do it, but then they'd just say with "don't be a idiot" and then hit me >.>, at the time idky they kept going with the empty threats when they knew the end result, it made me happy when they threatened me with it, i even asked if we could go to the shops and i could pick something out, and you bet i was also eying the sailor moon merch whenever i went to the toy section
@bladetiger
17 сағат бұрын
"I went with what was safe and what hurt the most." Same here. I was afraid someone would somehow find out, if I gave the real answer. I wasn't strong enough. ...But I am now.
@The_Dragon_Bi_dot_jpeg
Күн бұрын
james's bazoingas episode was the best one
@xXbillymaysXx
Күн бұрын
Yaaas, Run Escape 😂 The children do indeed yearn for the mines!
@RapidProbably
Күн бұрын
I love the question of “are you a boy or a girl” as an agender person. My brain reads it more as a do you want to be the boy character or girl one today. And of course the answer is whoever has the best hair styles.
@AliceSilvrFox
Күн бұрын
Pokémon fan made games do be getting better at gender inclusion and playing as the true you. I agrer whole heartedly that games could depart from the old gender binary a lot more.
@BlueDragonInTheSky
Күн бұрын
I appreciate your videos that are personal in nature... I can't imagine it's easy to put yourself out like that. Always wonderful to hear other people's stories :)
@Coolcheesewow
12 сағат бұрын
IM STILL NOT OVER MY BROTHER TWISTING MY ARM ON THE SCHOOL BUS THAT ONE TIME- HE GAVE ME MAN HORMONES- IM FTM NOW-
@Mocha-Latte
16 сағат бұрын
Having your closest friends bully you out of it the one time you decide to come out
@captainstone8429
Сағат бұрын
This made me cry 😭 when you mentioned trying to sell your soul to be a girl it reminded me of what I used to do. I used to pray to be a girl every night, I used to look up magic, and whenever my family got back from the pool I'd try on my moms bikinis. This is way to relatable 😖
@shadowstorm4620
Күн бұрын
i remember growing up with dysphoria. i didn't know what it was at the time but it was always there. in the back of my mind. wonderful video yukko
@sleepyemily07
Күн бұрын
Loving the editing and quality, Yukko! Love you!!!!
@celdaemon
Күн бұрын
I don't remember much of my childhood due to many memory issues, but I know I had those same kinds of experiences. Honestly I wish I could say I've progressed much further now, and I have with acceptance, however actually talking about it and starting to do stuff has just been too much. I've tried just once, and I did come out to my parents, but that was a long time ago and it had dire consequences for me and my then-partner, although I've stopped talking about it since then. It's a bit much to remember suddenly, but thank you for helping me see that things can get better eventually, if I just try. And I hope the same for everyone else. 💖💖💖💖💖
@Skaterboi-k6d
Күн бұрын
Oh this hits hard. I was treated like I was some demon by my parents. The parents of my almost all female social circle forbade them from hanging out with me outside of school anywhere. Because I was a boy and couldn't be trusted. My friends partially adopted this attitude. My psychiatrist told me I was clearly wrong and delusional and put me on harsh psychoactive drugs and spent hours telling me why I was wrong fighting every argument I gave over the course of years. Ahh childhood. I don't understand why anyone wants to go back to being one. I'm 37 and have never wanted to go back.
@Cherri-Rain
Сағат бұрын
I don’t remember a lot from when I was a kid but some stuff I do remember was trying to do spells to change my gender 😭
@junoeggers8878
Күн бұрын
I know that pain. I grew up with it and it stayed for 48 years. After a heart attack and most of my family leaving my side I transitioned and have not regretted it.
@Cinlow
10 сағат бұрын
As a teenager growing up with the same issues, it's nice to have someone to tell a story like this. :3
@larskaiser8131
Күн бұрын
One of my favourite TV shows as a kid was Ojamajo Do-Re-Mi, which is basically a bunch of little girls becoming witch apprentices and at some point even taking care of a baby. I also loved Kamikaze Kaito Jeanne, and I liked parts of Wedding Peach (especially their wedding dresses!). Funnily enough, the only big Shoujo show on TV I felt indifferent about was Sailor Moon. I was unaware that being very much into Shoujo was a very not masculine thing... 😅
@AnitaLichtenberg
Күн бұрын
The magic of a foreign language! You didn't realize watching "young girl anime" wasn't a masculine thing to do 😄 I love it (I'm a linguist, and Japanese is one of my major languages)
@rayishimura6701
Күн бұрын
cool video, the quality of your animations just keeps on getting better and better!
@nassertee
15 сағат бұрын
yukko: "Runescape was a big deal in my day, yes I'm old..." me (currently grinding my comp cape): "yo wtf?!"
@clockworkzen
Күн бұрын
Great video! I'll probably show one of my more 'traditionalist' friends who's been surprisingly accepting but is still having some struggles learning about the trans experience. Thanks Yukko! 🏳⚧
@kariclaudine
Күн бұрын
i have a very few selected memories of what was like being a kid, the one i recall the most was 3-5 yo me putting plushies under my shirt and pretend to give birth to them (and i have a lot so prob i did this at least a 100th times) only to then being told by my dad that that is not something that guys could do, I know that even when i was young i alredy knew that, but hurt more that my own dad disallowed me from doing that.
@CorrectEnyajoyer
Күн бұрын
Omg i forgot how pretty your animations are!!! And the movements are so smooth!!
@Inkynn
Күн бұрын
1:25 feet picks
@cakestealer5983
Күн бұрын
Crazy how my parents didn’t even really enforce gender norms or question me going against them nonstop but then I come out and they’re not accepting.
@Healz0
Күн бұрын
I just felt an incredible connection to you and maybe the nicest little emotion I’ve felt yet due to the way you beautifully retold a story I lived myself. Love you Yukko ❤
@stckNsde
Күн бұрын
WE NEED MORE STORYTIME 🙏💜
@MargieRaeK
Күн бұрын
You always find a way to make me cry when you talk about growing up. I am from a much earlier time. My object of desire was an Easy Bake Oven. I loved hanging out in the kitchen when my Mother was cooking, but it was usually my Sister who got the cooking lessons. Nobody said I couldn’t watch as she taught her though.
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