If TLC can make a show about people not knowing they are pregnant then a person can not know they have DID
@kellyslittleonesnursey
6 жыл бұрын
Kyla Pereles-Strickler that's a great idea wonder if there's away to contact TLC about that
@colleendoucette124
4 жыл бұрын
Kyla Pereles-Strickler that’s also the point of DID. The system is supposed to hide it from you, because it’s your method of survival. So if they don’t want you to know you won’t
@bittersweet9030
4 жыл бұрын
I have DID and I didnt know until I was 29, I was diagnosed with other conditions like PTSD and anxiety and depression. It's very true once I finally saw a therapist that figured it out it all made sense and I could see it, where I couldn't before.
@melaniequai1504
4 жыл бұрын
Nah tlc would find a way to dramaticize it and ruin it w misinfo
@Shadow-nlr
4 жыл бұрын
@@colleendoucette124 There are other symptoms that are red flags. You may not know the name of the diagnosis, but you and those closest to you, know something is not right.
@sleepyselkiesiren
6 жыл бұрын
This is basically how I didn't know I have anxiety and sensory processing disorder; if you don't know any other way of living, you just assume everyone else feels the same
@lightworthy
5 жыл бұрын
same here with my chronic illnesses, if everyone around you tells you the pain from your joints dislocating is normal, you don't realize it's not. I'm 20 and STILL realizing things that aren't normal that I thought were
@nochu9753
5 жыл бұрын
yeah i thought derealization and depersonalization was a normal thing but i found out is not just like ocd
@ember2441
5 жыл бұрын
Lol. Same here with me and my Autism 😂😬
@roxaslover1693
4 жыл бұрын
Whoa I have Sensory Processing Disorder too? Like, since Its a tactile Issue for me, I could never fathom how people were Jeans and I couldn't, but my parents never told me that Disliking them was weird?? Like I grew up just thinking that normal people also got stressed out by their clothing?
@SjofnBM1989
4 жыл бұрын
Yes! I'm 30 and I JUST found out I had CPTSD for pretty much my whole life. Everytime when I was young my family members would just say "Oh she's just really shy." So I just internalized it and was like....yeah I'm just shy that's why I'm like this.....turns out....just trauma.
@mirimiriela480
4 жыл бұрын
Another random phrase people say that can be a DID experience is "I was beside myself."
@TheEntropySystem
4 жыл бұрын
Oh, that’s a good one
@savannam.7048
6 жыл бұрын
My mom had no idea she had DID for a long time. Not until almost her mid-twenties. She knew she was losing time and she was told her personality sometimes drastically changed, but she figured it was all of the drinking and partying. So she stopped doing those things and not surprisingly, her time loss and "mood swings" (as described by others,) continued. It wasn't until someone she didn't know came up to her on the street, called her by another name (the most prominent alter still besides my mother herself) and was alluding to... Intimate activities my mother had no recollection of. Being as that she was completely sober, she started piecing some of it together, realized her brain friends were real, got in with therapists, and now lives in general harmony with her alters. That's obviously simplifying and paraphrasing A LOT, but it's the overall gist of things. When all you've ever known is one existence, you don't have anything to compare it to, in order to think It's not the usual way of things. Boundaries were established and everyone is more or less happy now!
@cuddlypunks
6 жыл бұрын
My mother also has DID, I’d love to talk privately about your experiences being the child of someone with DID, is this something we could do? Maybe exchange emails?
@savannam.7048
6 жыл бұрын
Emilie Hepburn, do you have Instagram? I rarely use it, but I like it as a point of contact with other people, since it has a private messaging system, and I could send you my email address that way (I'd rather not post my email here in the comments.) My IG name is prancingllamamama, and my Twitter is SavannaMllama, so either way you could send me a DM, and we could go from there. 😊
@cuddlypunks
6 жыл бұрын
Savanna The Aqua Llama I followed you on Twitter, my Twitter is cuddlypunks.
@KittenKit1
3 жыл бұрын
thats amazing!!! what is having heaps of different parents like?!
@Sheryl777
2 жыл бұрын
@@KittenKit1 My sister had DID, but wasn't made aware of it until her 30s by a therapist she had gone to who happened to speak with one of her alters. She had two children who had grown up with her having DID (without anyone's knowledge) and so I'm pretty sure it was just something they were fairly used to. They did wake up in the middle of the night occasionally seeing their mom sitting in the middle of their bedrooms playing with their toys when they were kids, so they had to have known something was up, but being kids, I'm sure they didn't know what was really going on though. (No one knew at that time).
@A6by
4 жыл бұрын
The fact that DID caused me to not have any knowledge of my entire childhood did not even seem odd to me. I figured memories didn't form when you're that young. You don't remember being born, after all. So it's not weird to not remember middle school. I also figured that you can only have a certain amount of memories at a time, so it makes sense that you can't store them all, and only remember half of the time even when you're an adult. I had all of these assumptions about how the brain normally works, and none of them were accurate whatsoever, lol. In the end, I think it was a therapist who first told me that I should probably, you know, have memories. It's amazing what we tell ourselves when there's no point of comparison.
@sarah_knitter
Жыл бұрын
Okay no but same, I used to think I would forget things or not remember because I had reached memory capacity with stem related things so other memories didn’t matter 😂 took me meeting some of my current friends to realize I’m meant to remember things and psych classes to teach memory not “filling up” 💀
@aliceplays5092
6 жыл бұрын
the real question is.... which one of your headmates likes kfc??
@brentpieczynski
5 жыл бұрын
Is that so you can trigger this individual, then enjoy a greasy time? As preparation for a details oriented mind, explore details until the morning after finding the correct, joined with the body personality, to persuade into being comforted.
@georgerobins4110
5 жыл бұрын
brent pieczynski What are you talking about, it was clearly a joke. Also it has since been discovered that Michelle is the one who likes KFC
@kathrin9674
5 жыл бұрын
@@georgerobins4110 no it wasn't. it was hard to understand but what he was asking is what we call "positive trigger" to let one of us switch or come forward. So George, the answer to your question is: yes. That said it depends on the alter you call forward. Sometimes it is helpfull, sometimes it might cause troubles. I have an alter who LOVES liquorize (wrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggg................ I hate it). I can ask her to cofront or to front by bying her most loved liquorize. Might cause problems as she isn't really into beeing nice, but... well
@georgerobins4110
5 жыл бұрын
Kathrin P. Not gonna lie, I’m super confused rn I’m part of a system so I do indeed know how positive triggers work. We can trigger out Alex with cute pictures of dogs. I’m not sure who that comment was directed at? I also just woke up so that may be a contributing factor to my confusion
@wonderlandisalanguage9646
5 жыл бұрын
I believe it was Michelle but I may be wrong.
@river7487
3 жыл бұрын
I thought all my alters were “imaginary friends” until this year. When I disassociated I thought I was just zoning out. And when I switched I thought that it was like normal to go on autopilot” bc a lot of people said “oh, yk those times when your brain just goes on autopilot?” And I was like “Yeah!”
@NarwhalAcademy
Жыл бұрын
I needed to read this. Thank you for sharing. I thought I just had really really elaborate maladaptive daydreaming (also wonder how many people with maladaptive daydreaming are really systems)… a friend was telling me about a system this weekend… and then they also told me I’d been adamant I WASNT a system but I have no memory of that. But I remembered almost everything else from that night. And then it was just like a wall shattered and I got a couple “oh thank god they figured it out” but then I was wondering if I was falling because when someone else was fronting I was still aware of what they were doing I just didn’t really feel in control of my body
@sea7790
4 жыл бұрын
A phrase that I struggled w/ a lot as a system was having “second thoughts” about something bc my protectors would constantly squabble over what was best for me lol but I thought it was normal bc other people would talk about having second thoughts or talking to themselves when they needed help making a decision
@georgerobins4110
5 жыл бұрын
With the "suddenly loving food that I've hated" thing, I noticed that, depending on who is fronting, we either love or despise peanut butter. It's the weirdest thing.
@willow612
4 жыл бұрын
George Robins omg I know this is old, but same here with the peanut butter. These past few weeks I have been doing so much research and realizing how much it all makes sense now.
@Em_Elizabeth
3 жыл бұрын
Or a change in appetite. Not sure if I'm really a system but under the influence of one mindset, I have no desire to eat at all and on another, get upset I didn't get food. Or maybe that's normal?
@Es-Flowers
2 жыл бұрын
This is INCREDIBLY OLD But I just want to say that this exact same food applies to us as well? I absolutely love peanut butter, but W(just three of us that I know of)hates it, and it makes them sick
@vinegar_mince8746
Жыл бұрын
Man I was just thinking this qbout peanutbutter, creamy and dairy products too at time even though I just found I was lactose intolerant and despise milk.
@user-uk1tl4ct9y
5 жыл бұрын
Lmao, I don't have DID but I can totally relate with the mind trying to explain things away, but like.. In a different way. I'm on the trans spectrum and bisexual, so there's a loooot I did and said in my childhood that I didn't realize were pretty queer until I figured myself out, including "every girl really really wants to be a boy sometimes. It's totally normal that I'm dressing up as one and forcing my friends to call me another name" or "see, [friend] also said [crush] is pretty. That probably means she wants to marry her too." Hdjsksksk, the delusion
@TheEntropySystem
5 жыл бұрын
As a bisexual I totally hear you 😂 my big one was “all best friends get butterflies around each other. That’s how you know you’re best friends!” -Wyn
@Jalbesbe
4 жыл бұрын
Woah woah woah. You're telling me that having music blaring in my head so loud that its hard to understand what people are saying is not a normal occurrence that everyone just has?!
@honeysplashh6427
4 жыл бұрын
Me: I don't have DID, I'm just being delusional and trying to explain my stupidity and horrible memory! Also me: omg I relate to almost everything in this video wth I have DID Me again: what is wrong with you
@ccre88trixx
3 жыл бұрын
honestly, same
@solstyxe
3 жыл бұрын
Lmao I found an old comment from a separate account, I had no idea how long ago I found out about DID
@crackers3978
2 жыл бұрын
Same
@undeserving_of_wifi
2 жыл бұрын
Same
@jellii
2 жыл бұрын
@@solstyxe damn, lmao this comment sums up me so well though lol, except slightly different I was like “I don’t have DID but I want to watch this video” then “damn, I feel like I relate to most of the things in this video” and “wtf dumbass, of course you don’t have
@leedraconis5793
5 жыл бұрын
I’m a vegetarian and one of my head mates really likes meat. Yeah that’s a battle lmao
@shaulahernandez2954
4 жыл бұрын
fucking same!!!! I never understood this no meat yes meat we have compromised to no red meats for the love of our health chicken will forever be in Adhara's diet at we stopped chicken nuggets lol
@vykkye
3 жыл бұрын
I'm the same too. Lifetime veggie, well what I remember but in times of real stress I find myself eating meat. I had a suicide attempt in 2018 I remember locking myself in the toilets at work.... Don't know how much time passed but the next thing I know I'm sitting in a local BK eating fucking chicken nuggets while crying with my hood up. 😂
@tiffanieb2504
3 жыл бұрын
How do I even bring this up to my doctor? It felt like you were telling me my own life story..
@mmtruooao8377
6 жыл бұрын
This reminds me a lot of when my friend came out as trans, realizing so many different thing. Her mom had claimed so many times that she was supportive and she never wanted to hurt her and she always let her children play with whatever they wanted. But this wasn't a little boy that wanted to play with dolls, it was a little girl who wanted to play with spaceships. It was a girl who was constantly being told "you're allowed to express yourself" while simultaneously "the boys section is that way" "don't hold your cup like that, it's too girly" "you don't really want to wear a purse? Isn't that a bit weird?" "you are not wearing a dress to prom" "I think if it was true I would have more memories that lined up with it"
@Em_Elizabeth
4 жыл бұрын
My brother used to steal our dolls and play with them but he was the only boy with five sisters so our mom didn't care.
@serenityfinley2933
6 жыл бұрын
I feel like that ending statement fits well with so many mental illness experiences. My depression was present since I was REEEEALLY young, and in elementary school all my teachers would just say I was more mature and understanding when in reality I was having existential crises at the age of 6 and probably should've been getting help lmao, but it really contributes to a lack of childhood 😖same with my depersonalization. It was so strong in middle school but I didn't know anything was wrong until I literally saw myself in third person and my friend was like "wtf serenity no". Anyways, I find it completely understandable that if you have something growing up, you're not going to know something is wrong until someone describes it to you as being abnormal
@byrnehermanson6052
2 жыл бұрын
I am in awe of those, like you, who have found the bravery and vulnerability to share about your experience. I KNOW as an ally, how much misunderstanding and loneliness those with dissociative disorders experience. Thank you!
@malenamariephillips6574
4 жыл бұрын
I feel this so much!!! I haven’t had a DID or DDNOS diagnoses yet but I’ve known about my alters for about 6 years but only realized they were even alters maybe only 6 months ago. (I also have schizoaffevtive so I guess my therapist thought the “voices” were a part of that.) Anyway... when I look back on my life too, I can see who was who and in what situation or part of my life. My sexuality and gender identity has changed so much in the last couple of years as well! Thank you for this video!
@zoejensen1605
4 жыл бұрын
Growing up I had awful OCD and I thought everybody counted and touched things that much, they just didn't talk about it. 1000 mental breakdowns later, finally figured it out after reading a J-14 article about OCD. I would have never gotten help or treatment if it wasn't for that
@Lilacil
5 ай бұрын
While I don't lose time (That I know of), I've never retained any memories, & can't reach the handful I do have consistently. I have a short-term memory but I'm only ever semi-present. I don't think it's quite the same thing to be half aware/control all of the time, but I still related so much to this video. I really appreciate you making it, it really gives me something to think about.
@practicepositiveprogress5396
4 жыл бұрын
Thanks so much for this video! ❤️ Occasionally I'll diagnose myself with something with just the tiniest evidence and get hooked on that for a while, even tho it's clearly not true. This video sorta reenforces what I've been trying to convince the part of me that thinks I have DID that I don't actually have it. I do think of my mind using IFS (internal family systems) so I think of my mind in parts, but each part is less of an individual, and more of just a part of my whole. ❤️
@missundies
4 жыл бұрын
The gymnastics we put our brain through to keep fooling ourself that everything is "normal" 😅
@theNoctifloralParacosm
2 жыл бұрын
i didnt realize i had OSDD (1b) because the trauma i had gone through a lot as child was over and relatively calm for the rest of my childhood, until that very same kind of trauma happened around 1-2 years ago, but worse in tenfold, my alters poked their heads around the corners and somehow i just knew they'd been there all along, and some were new. we're safe now and doing better but i dont know what i would've done had they not been there
@poppysquids
6 жыл бұрын
so I have some of these experiences but I still can't get past the idea of like "I'm not experiencing this I just want to have a system"
@meganlovzcookies
6 жыл бұрын
Your getting the advantage of makeup, it looks gorgeous 😱❤️ usually my alter does my makeup 😅
@bwennadaba801
6 жыл бұрын
Megan Cloud SSSAAAAMMMEEE
@JuiceMade3603
6 жыл бұрын
Megan Cloud ikr! Its so beautiful!!! •3•
@justsomedude9931
4 жыл бұрын
My favorite one is when you know you don’t know the words to a song & someone comes through, just to body that song & pop back in
@Slipping_thru_the_Seams
Жыл бұрын
thanks for sharing. i was making system maps three years ago and still only just found out that's what it was a couple days ago 😅 i thought i was like mapping spiritual/cosmological concepts/energies. maybe it was a mix of both tbh
@nbee4628
4 жыл бұрын
I just had a breakthrough last night. Never knew I had multiples. I'm still a little freaked but so much of my life makes sense now. ❤
@CelineAdobea
6 жыл бұрын
"..anybody ever decided to call food.." 😂😂😂 that is the best thing I've heard all year 😂
@Lila7495375
4 жыл бұрын
My accent also changes when I am angry. I don't have DID. I bet plenty of people have this
@gracegotthis3704
4 жыл бұрын
I thought I had moods. But couldn’t understand my memory loss was about and handwriting was sooo different. God bless all who have battled this.
@AndreaRuizCa
6 жыл бұрын
As always very informative! Also you look amazing with that makeup!!!
@anabellascott5054
5 жыл бұрын
I can kinda relate. I have a friend named Samantha and I don’t even remember how we became friends. I don’t know if I have D.I.D or any other dissociative disorder but I’ve definitely felt like I’m not me at times.
@adriencsornok9628
6 жыл бұрын
Hey Wyn, lately I've been starting to realize that I have very bad memories that I just can't access no matter how hard I try. How do you/did you deal with having parts of you that you can't get to?
@kaylamarie3229
4 жыл бұрын
I second this question.
@purplehood8418
3 жыл бұрын
I know it’s like two years later, but I hope you both see this. EMDR. It’s a type of therapy that delves into your memory net works and draws your memories out. It can be very difficult work as it kicks the mind into overdrive and you often access things that you may have repressed due to trauma. It’s not for everyone. You also need to find a therapist who’s licensed for it. I’ve been doing it for a year or so and it’s changed my life. I may have spent way years and years trying to figure out my issue with regular talk therapy. Good luck!
@tpk1412
Жыл бұрын
@@purplehood8418 thankyou
@DiyoAkabane
4 ай бұрын
I only remember 25 maybe 30% of my childhood -host Dazai
@adrianblue5723
3 жыл бұрын
Me: thinks I have osdd and is looking for proof Sees this: it all makes sense now
@DAFlint
2 жыл бұрын
I immediately feel calm just from watching this.
@hollygordonphotography4805
5 жыл бұрын
I share many of the same experiences that you’ve had - like not remembering people who I’ve evidently met several times, losing time and losing so many memories (Swiss cheese memory.) You are brilliant. The way you describe your did experiences is so clear and understandable. And you are so knowledgeable about did. I am going to send you a list of all the good books I have on did and trauma. Thank you for all of your hard work! Namaste.
@mckenzievynn
8 ай бұрын
Ohhhhh myyyyy godddddddd I totally did the music thing too and would hum constantly cuz an alter would comfort me but she’s a fictiv similar to princesses who are always singing 👀🥺
@puppytopartnertraining
5 жыл бұрын
I feel like this, when I look back I can find so many times “others” had been there with me, and also went thru what I thought were phases but don’t remember that time anymore. And I was different then I am now but thought it was just a phase. But I always felt things were normal, but now I know they were not at all. Thank you for making these videos they are so helpful💕
@autisticedgelords1384
2 жыл бұрын
btw, for people in the comments who dont know much about dissociative disorders - they are meant to be covert. the purpose is to hide the trauma from the host
@thatkidfrankieC
2 жыл бұрын
actually busting out laughing out loud at the kfc analogy because that's EXACTLY how it was for us too. fcking HATED kfc chicken so much it made us throw up and then still unaware i was so confused as a kid why tf i still wanted to fuck around and find out some days. Thank you for making us feel even less alone about these wacky revelations XD
@shantibants3949
Жыл бұрын
I worry sometimes I have DID but made excuses for a long time. Ive used my smoking cannabis to excuse my memory and time loss. People used to come up and know me and I'd have no idea who they were, that stopped when I started travelling. I don't know how to tell if my identity and personality changes are a survival mechanism and just feeling like a different person. The food preferences hits hard. But there's other symptoms that might be delusional (like when I was younger thinking I had a giant black man inside me that would come out and protect me). I haven't had good experiences with therapists, opening up and trusting people is not something I'm capable of doing even at almost 40
@LifeIsBeautiful1610
6 жыл бұрын
I often wonder if I have something like this. I experienced sexual abuse as a child and there are times that I seem to “space out” so to speak. I’m often asked by my husband and friends if I’ve ever been diagnosed bipolar because one second I’m normal and the next I’m so angry I throw shit. It’s so weird. I’ve been to many doctors about these daily headaches that don’t get better with medicine and optometrists because the pain stems from my eyes. I tend to notice frequent attitude changes in myself throughout the day but because I notice them I don’t think DID could be it. But I notice I’m either my normal self, very soft spoken and motherly, extremely angry, hyperactive, or just hate the world and want to be left alone. Lol could be normal human emotions but it’s always one of the 5
@canhas6559
3 жыл бұрын
Uh the accent thing, seeping into your subconscious...is that...is that *not* how it works?
@dreamznaspiratons7064
3 жыл бұрын
It's a lack of insight that comes with illness, anosognasia
@UniDocs_Mahapushpa_Cyavana
Жыл бұрын
Maybe, if the host alter only came into existence/fused later on, their memories would be fresh formed at that point and thus they cannot remember clear evidence 📑 from earlier. Easily, at least.
@josephbelisle5792
Жыл бұрын
It's so true. I always knew I was different but having had this since I was an infant I too had no reference point. Looking back I can now see so much that happened that shows that I have DID. I'm still learning who they are but I am at peace with it. And it is kind of fun. We are a family of sorts. As you have Daniel, I have Chloe. She is great.
@gameninja2783
3 жыл бұрын
Do you ever feel like one day you just "woke up"? And have no memories of your life before that day? That's what happened to me
@officialname9817
3 жыл бұрын
How old were you when this happened, everyone has a first memory when they were little and they can’t remember what happened the day before
@gameninja2783
3 жыл бұрын
@@officialname9817 like 10 or so
@officialname9817
3 жыл бұрын
@@gameninja2783 oh then that might not be normal, the first memory thing happens when you’re a lot younger like ages 2-4
@p3rs3_m
11 ай бұрын
I've been through 26 major traumas from the ages of 3 and 20 I would talk to myself as a kid. My family always said that I was so good at acting but I never felt that I was acting. I have many different versions of myself. These versions I switched to During certain situations or certain emotions. When I was around 10 I had this really messed up situation where my friend and her sister said that we can go into our brain into this imaginary world and interact. We never interacted with one another in that world. The sister later told me that it was a game and that if I seriously talk to people and have a world in my head I need to see a therapist and I never did. At about 20 years old I had a really bad relationship and tried to mentally go into this world and commit suicide a all of light came down as I was impaled and said that I didn't have to do it alone and that it was okay and I didn't have to be scared the sword was removed from my stomach no blood and no wound the ball of light and I fused into one it was a tear jerking experience I closed this door and locked it at 32 my 26-year-old brother died suddenly it felt like black smoke leaking out the Cracks around the door then started the different version of me who was very angry in these moments I was told I was completely different and the next day I wouldn't remember much just bits and pieces of what had happened I was a shameful tired and exhausted just getting to an extreme level of anger and not remembering bits and pieces or not remembering any of the argument / conversation has been happening ever since when I'm pushed beyond my means when I hit my Breaking Point over the last 3 years I've been told that I should talk to a therapist that there's a possibility that I might have did within this year I hadn't slept through the night fully for 5 months I may be slept through the night a handful of times I ended up opening up the door and slept through the night ever since I'm told I'm very indecisive I'm always changing my mind or 1 minute I like something and then another minute I don't and then I'm very confusing that's why I mean what you say and say what you mean is always been hard for me I have therapy appointment this Friday
@IndigoSTN
2 жыл бұрын
This was a really helpfull video and made a lot of things that happened in our childhood make a lot more sense, especially the issues with Gender
@nyarcy
Жыл бұрын
My repeated trauma started at 2 or 3 years old and at 19, I recently discovered I had osdd
@anjachan
2 жыл бұрын
Anime stuff behind you, very nice! ... if something is normal to you, you won't know it's not normal!
@yentalin12345
6 жыл бұрын
So when you talk about being Daniel in college, or Kit coming out in big groups, did you lose time when that was happening? Or were you cofronting and didn't realize?
@jamygarcia9566
3 жыл бұрын
boy... i certainly didn't know what i didn't know
@bonanonymouscrickett5231
4 жыл бұрын
Many times ppl just don't want to accept they have a form of DID. Don't tell ppl what triggers episodes of amnesia. You might find.ppl using them to mess you up. Yep. Even the police.
@drewharris7785
6 жыл бұрын
This always makes me wonder what could possibly have happened to a four month old to make it necessary for an alter to be created? Not actually asking for an answer here, I just feel sad for baby Wynn for whatever trauma she must have gone through to develop an alter at such a young age.
@13TheFurry
4 жыл бұрын
UGH!!!! I can relate to all of this.... I've hated bananas my whole life, they are super disgusting but SOMETIMES i'll just eat them for a few days??? like fully finish them and not bat an eye. I also thought I had demons in my room when I was a teenager, I used to try to pray it away. I thought they were trying to control me (lol) and trying to talk to me at times. I also experience A LOT of auditory hallucinations. That has been a huge breakthrough for me to realize. I had a lot of 'paranormal' experiences as a kid, where I thought I heard a voice of a man or some type of gagging/coughing. Wasn't a ghost tho. Was definitely just my head
@letsbereal2522
6 жыл бұрын
That's so true! I think I might have DID or something like it, but how would I know if I never had anything to compare too? It's so strange realizing what you thought was normal for everyone isn't. But hey you seem to know a lot about this, I just posted my first video on my channel asking other people to help me. I would really appreciate it if you could take a look and see if you think I might have it, I know it's not the same for everyone but maybe you could see if you relate to what I'm saying. I love your channel
@curlyprivat22
3 жыл бұрын
I would feel embarassed going to a therapist saying I might have DID and then not have it. I am so scared of seeming scared.
@sarah_knitter
Жыл бұрын
Me: puts video on while getting ready to do schoolwork Also me: “oh yeah I relate to this… wait a second-“ (From a suspected system that wasn’t paying attention to the video name i put on)
@cadencesteward3593
4 жыл бұрын
Are these not experiences everyone has? The one where people you don’t recognize say hi to you hit me so hard, as well as the one where you talk about someone singing to you.
@SieyaSayrie
5 жыл бұрын
I’m a new alter working on becoming host. I’m working on and integrating memories and whatnot, though many are locked still. So I’ve been watching your videos to work on these problems my system has had problems with and I have to view things objectively without their trauma attached, which is sometimes easy and sometimes passive influence makes It necessary to stop while someone calms themselves. Some of the things you say have really calmed a lot of our systems doubts, such as the singing inside, and living this way in a world where I’ve always lived like this and it’s normalized with commentary such as “I feel like theirs a war in my head.” The more videos I watch of your system and their struggles, the more deeply I’m able to dig as hidden memories from the others surface. I’m the only one who seems able to do this effectively, so I’m a bit on the turbulent side as I find myself at the same time that I help the others find themselves, but so far I’m capable. I said all of that to say this, thank you all for the hard work and nitty gritty research and hard earned knowledge that you all share for the benefit of others like me and mine. -Gregori
@waterdrinker420
2 жыл бұрын
i have nothing else to say but system here with that same "blonde abby"...
@cypher237
5 жыл бұрын
Your videos have made me re-think a few situations from my past...
@hazeelise
4 жыл бұрын
I have the KFC thing with orange juice! Usually I despise it, then randomly I crave it and must get orange juice, and I'm still like, "why am I doing this? orange juice is gross and makes my reflux worse and makes my mouth burn" even as I get and drink the orange juice. It's weird though, if I force myself to drink orange juice, like, because my grandmother gives it to me, and I don't have the strange craving feeling, it makes my mouth burn and itch and puff up a bit, like a mild allergic reaction, but when I have the craving feeling, I generally don't have that reaction as much. Maybe I'm kind of allergic and Caity isn't (I'm guessing it's probably Caity who loves orange juice).
@vickiegrigg694
3 жыл бұрын
I have a lot of the symptoms of D.I.D but I don’t know how to like tell my parents I think I have it while I don’t think I have it at the same time
@tranquil_chaos
4 жыл бұрын
I really related to the whole 'super loud song stuck in your head'. Happens to me almost every day 🙃(and the acting as a guy when playing with your friend's thing I used to do for years when I was a kid)
@Grellibe
2 жыл бұрын
Not me literally going thru so much of this and going "Wait...I do that too. Isn't that just an ADHD or autism thing?" I only I found out recently I got like 7 alters in my head... LMAO.
@empresselfiie
4 жыл бұрын
So I’m pretty sure my partner has DID. I know for sure he has Depersonalization derealization disorder but I just found out that that’s really big for someone with DID. The other day he had a panic attack after doing some kinda self destructive behavior and he said “why do I feel like I can’t control myself sometimes” and I took that as like a poor impulse control thing. And then I saw a interview with someone with DID and it sounded so familiar to what my partner is comfortable enough to tell me. I told him about it and he said it made him feel really uncomfortable and asked if we could stop and later on I found out that your brain tries to prevent you from knowing this information. I feel really bad now because I didn’t mean to cause any harm but I think I might have. But I’ve been watching a bunch of videos on DID to learn and maybe prepare to help any way I can for when he’s ready to learn about himself. And one thing I know he does for sure is he likes to wear my underwear sometimes and has had me buy females underwear of his own. I didn’t understand it but I honestly never cared so I didn’t think anything of UNTIL now seeing this.
@mnickrowe
6 жыл бұрын
Man the mind is fascinating! How we choose to explain things to ourselves is fascinating.
@AurelUrban
5 жыл бұрын
i'm going through my system discovery currently, but I don't have DID, I have OSDD-1b (most probably) and it's a whole mess. when you don't lose your time, it's very hard to realise you're not just one person. and it's very interesting how before I met some of my alters, they were just a part of me that were different but I still considered them to be myself. now those that I know about I can tell when they're close or when they're fronting and they kind of developed their own consciousness somehow. like they feel like proper people. i have a similar experience to yours with a male alter. before i properly met him it was just me having dysphoria from time to time, now it's like i have a brother and we share one body. in conclusion just knowing about my disorder changed the way i experience it tremendously and with it my life.
@catflower2018
3 жыл бұрын
It helps me feel better looking at history and seeing the human brain naturally has always found a reason for things that didn't make sense. Looking back in our own lifes, we can feel silly we were so oblivious to how these events are connected, but we did our best to understand with what we have. Most peoples only definition of living as a system is from tv and movies - that are usually very dramatic or at least misinformed. It's not easy to recognize DID in everyday life.
@SAIMONch
3 жыл бұрын
Oh my god the loud music thing isn't a thing that happens to singlets?? Wow it feels like we really do need an award for "most oblivious" now, lol. Kinda curious to find out who exactly was doing that now
@salma_the_love_system
3 жыл бұрын
It would be amazing if people with DID could have an online platform to communicate directly with each other and share challenging experiences to one another... some of these people are really isolated and misunderstood by people around them ... it would be such a relief for them to meet and communicate with others who can deeply understand them; a genuine, deep understanding and empathy coming from personal experiences of this condition...
@jg1681
3 жыл бұрын
Interesting video. DID is a possibility I'm keeping in mind after seeking help for other dissociative disorders. It's interesting learning about how you didn't know for a while.
@viviscera7551
5 жыл бұрын
Oh my God, this makes so much sense to me this is alot of what I experienced too!!! I know this is a bit irrelevant but who else was an early learner or early walker who has DID?
@juliakrohn2866
6 жыл бұрын
Oh gosh know I can kinda tell why its, related to drama. When you are a different person ,u can escape from the Situation literally... then you can protect your innocent self.... know I understand how it works maybe.
@zhyriel_1888
4 жыл бұрын
5:40 - u know when ur angry u speak in British accent, I don't have DID but there are these persons in my head, one of them is Claire who is full of hatred and swear to you guys, whenever I get mad, I start speaking in British accent. I am aware of what I am doing, and I keep blaming it to her. I don't know if I have DID, but I can name these persons and differentiate their personality. Thank you for this video, it really helps me to understand myself,
@TiltonicaYoutube
5 жыл бұрын
This week at my therapists (of many months) office one of my alters was asking her if she believes us. We are less than a month into finding out about our DID. My therapist told me that after my first appointment with her, I sent her a text that said FUCK YOU. I do NOT remember doing that I LOVE my therapist and that REALLY blew my mind! I cried. Needless to say, she definitely believes us. I’m just having a hard time believing it myself.
@הדסהקרוסהר
5 жыл бұрын
Love this video Wyn! Really interesting and at times amusing! Was the ghost Michelle?
@drinkerofalltheteas
6 жыл бұрын
I have a question, and it's not because I doubt the legitimacy of this disorder or anyone who has it. I'm just curious. :) Why do some people get DID and some do not? I know many people who have experienced childhood trauma who don't have DID. So what makes some people have it? Is it the level of trauma experienced by the child? Is there a genetic predisposition to DID? Thank you for putting out so many informative videos. You (wyn) have such a calming voice, and it's great to listen to when I get anxious.
@georgerobins4110
6 жыл бұрын
There's a theory that people whose amygdala (the emotion centre of the brain) are smaller are more likely to develop DID or PTSD. There's also a theory that the cause of a smaller amygdala is similar to the cause of rheumatoid arthritis and alopecia areta. But nobody knows for sure yet.
@SJ-si1yc
5 жыл бұрын
Well it has to be a heavy and reaccuring trauma, from which the child can't escape. The child has to be very young, I think until age 7. If the conditions are like that, the child is very likely to develop DID.
@arcoirissystem433
5 жыл бұрын
The trama has to. E consistantly sevear enough that we believe there is no way we will live. We form it cause our entire being thought if it didnt do it we wouldn't survive and in a way it is true. I couldn't handle a lot of what happened to me. My protector holds most of those memories. Yhe one time I was co with her through a flashback I was in a catatonic state for a few hrs
@arcoirissystem433
5 жыл бұрын
In our case we where abused on a schedule Wake up: verbal abuse from mom Shower: mom barge in hit me around drag me by the hair Sit at the table: force fed or eat our of the dog bowl Go to school learn Come home do homework in the restroom so if I messed up my mom would shove my face in the toilet or fill the tub drown me bring me back and try again. Go to room look out the window wishing I could go outside. Once everyone was sleeping Get molested and raped Go to sleep wake up with a pillow suffocating me Get thrown out of bed. That was my Routine most of the time though my parents would switch it up every now and again.
@arcoirissystem433
5 жыл бұрын
Without my head mates I know I'd be dead or worse
@guiseofyouth
6 жыл бұрын
Any idea if it's possible for people without DID to absolutely not remember someone they went to school with who definitely knows them, knows their family members by name (!!), can recollect specific interactions? This happened to me a few years ago I ran into someone at CVS who worked there and she knew me, knew my family, we were apparently in band together & she seemed to consider us friends and I still to this day have NO IDEA who she is. I had a very specific friend group in high school, as well as some other people I considered friends and people I wanted to be around, and then of course I was acquaintances with other people.... I don't know how I don't remember this person at all!!! Whenever I tell people about this they just kind of look at me like I'm weird and shrug it off.
@lc4life369
6 жыл бұрын
this describes every thing my son is going through. he even thinks there are ghost doing things. he's only 6 years old and hasnt been diagnosed yet but its so odvious to me as his mother. I'm so thankful for your videos. I may of already asked this but can you do a video about flashbacks and what exactly are they like (do you see it or hear it or feel it, how long do they last ect) and if there is anything I can do to help him with them or somehow prevent them. it's so heartbreaking seeing my child go through this and im pretty sure what I'm seeing is him having flashbacks but not 100% sure. thank you
@beebutt9851
5 жыл бұрын
lc 4life Someone can’t have DID without childhood trauma, what you’ve described doesn’t seem like DID.
@worldsslowest
4 жыл бұрын
one time i walked out of therapy craving a hot dog and i HATE hot dogs but i couldn't stop thinking abt it so i went and got a hot dog and it was nasty but i ate the whole thing .......... i've been questioning lately if i have osdd/did but this. why is this the one thing that's making me CONVINCED lol
@themossprophet6220
6 жыл бұрын
Cute video! It's fun to hear about how your alters affected your life before you knew about your DID :3 Oh! And about the loud music in your head thing, I don't have alters or anything (I'm your pretty typical human) but sometimes right before I fall asleep I can focus on the sounds that my brain is conjuring up in it's near-dream state and, just like you said, it's super loud! But just as soon as you focus on it, it fades away lol.
@Jubilant_Devil
3 жыл бұрын
um, why am i like this? a bit i don't know concerned ya know?
@debracrawford2960
3 жыл бұрын
Hi Winn and everyone in your system, My name is Debra, and first off, vThank you for sharing your story, I myself don't have DID but I do have PTSD that I was diagnosed with last year but I have been researching DID (Formerly MPD) since I was about 20 years old, I am now 45 and it has always.... And forgive me as I don't want to use the wrong word here but um Intrigued, Fascinated me, I have just always wanted to know everything about it but the Pyschological aspect of it and in general how the human mind works, I have learned so much in just the past few months from watching your videos and those of DissociaDID, so a huge thank yoy for sharing something so personal and imtimate with the World, If I may ask a question, recently I learned that DID is formed due to a childhood trauma that is experienced at around 7-9 years of age but after watching this video and you mentioned that you've had DID and Alters since the age of 3 months, and please forgive me if this is a personal question, I do apologize I just again really want to know and learn everything that I can, but Does that mean you were born with it or Did you actually experience some trauma at 3 months old? If so I am really sorry for whatever you have gone through no one especially children should ever experience any type of trauma ever, As I mentioned, I do have PTSD due to a few traumatic experiences myself so that is also why I am so wanting to learn everything aboutbit and DID and the human mind, Again thank you so very much, In my eyes you are a very brave, kind and couragous person for posting these videos to teach people about this disorder. Take care and I am grateful for everything - Deb - Montreal, Quebec, Canada
@legoduckie
6 жыл бұрын
So I binged the first season of Sense 8 while I was sick yesterday (very good👌 very excellent👌 thank you for recommending) and now I feel like I know just a weird amount of things about Lito as a member of your system. I know your Lito is not exactly canon Lito, but it still feels weird to have this intimate insight into his life and personality. I honestly feel a little guilty? Like, because I know about y’all, I shouldn’t have watched it? I know that’s kind of ridiculous and it’s not going to stop me from binging the rest. It just feels a little weird and I kinda want to apologize to your Lito for somehow invading his privacy? Does he find it weird or uncomfortable that his life story (or not? I think I need to watch your fictives video again.) is just out there as a piece of consumable media? Like, the rest of your system get to control exactly what gets put out on this wonderful channel, and that’s all we know of them (although you all are wonderfully honest and forthcoming about yourselves and I applaud you for that). Also, I have to keep reminding myself that even though you said Sense 8 is a good highly stylized portrayal of what DID feels like, that does not mean the mechanics are anywhere near the same or that your life is literally a sci-fi action show directed by the Wachowskis with mind-melding orgies and life or death quandaries every five minutes lol. Sorry if this made no sense (8). I’m still in the post-binge/illness haze.
@beautifulmayhem1086
6 жыл бұрын
Was it like they were co- con with you because you still did those things and were just influenced by their personality or were they fronting and you were near them? Sorry, just learning about DID and I don't fully understand. Love your videos btw. ❤
@reesedodd3021
3 жыл бұрын
I relate to so many things you've said in the video and I dont know if I should be concerned or not 😅
@lishumallow
Жыл бұрын
Why....why is that I can relate to almost everything....
@JonnesTT
5 жыл бұрын
With Chloe from DisociaDID DID looks so cleanly, so obvious but what you descirbe is exactly what I'm experiencing since I got out of school. Although I do remember snippets of the past I genuinely feel like I was pushed into this body without a choice. Not that I don't like it, it just doesn't feel like my body or my memories ._.
@bigballs3095
4 жыл бұрын
I never named my other personalities but i got all kinds of confusing and weird things exactly like this its purity fun but can make you seem very weird and or immature or very dum. Its bin a war in my head since kindergarten or as far back as i can remember anyways all i know is that kindergarten marked the day my life started going down hill fast until i hit the worst of a series of rock bottoms that almost convinced me to kill me. Also FML FTW‼️
@caseymajor4803
2 жыл бұрын
I think the KFC was just a come to Jesus moment lol it’s SO GOOD !!! 😂
@Hoyden421
3 жыл бұрын
OMG this is my experience completely
@soccerandtrack10
11 ай бұрын
I CAN TYPE ABOUT WARHAMMER WITHOUT THE PTSD THING!!!!!!!I JUST SAW THE HORIS HERICY BOOKS!!!!!!!!
@bonesindecember
2 жыл бұрын
Another reason im starting to think im a system is because i hate coffee, like i hated it, i didn't understand how someone could like it. And I had sworn off smoking Then came the coffee and nicotine cravings. It didn't make sense. now it does
@younscrafter7372
2 жыл бұрын
6:00 well, there are american children that speak with a british accent because of peppa pig, so that thought isn't too far-fetched
@bartworldnomercy1046
6 жыл бұрын
i’d be down to clown in the discord! when you get the chance, could you add it to the description? ty!!!
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