Apologies, I haven't watched the whole video - but as you're talking about a non-stop dizzy sensation, have you looked into vestibular neuritis?
@xan42O
2 ай бұрын
Surprise gmtk appearance lol
@meltpack8876
2 ай бұрын
OMG GMTK HIIII!
@ASPECTICORTRAININGVIDEOS
2 ай бұрын
holy crap, its him
@Len11999
2 ай бұрын
How do you feel about high beams and LED headlights that everyone seems to have nowadays when your driving at night? Does that just take you out?
@MK.5198
2 ай бұрын
what a fucking miracle it'll be if thats it. like no way...
@blestbread
2 ай бұрын
i love how shes just sat in CS2 maps, the best use of a green screen imo
@sunny_shinyyy
2 ай бұрын
i thought it was stock images until like 20 minutes in lol
@ohno417
2 ай бұрын
I had two vertigo attacks in 2022 which resulted in prolonged hospital stays and needing to re-learn how to walk in a straight line. It was caused by low blood pressure in my right inner ear; why it suddenly occured, nobody was able to tell me. I thought I was going to die when I first woke up and fell to the ground during my first attack. That fear is still with me sometimes when I feel dizzy or light-headed in the morning. I hope that you will find a doctor who can help you. You deserve to be okay and live a life without fear. You are so strong, please remember that.
@ohno417
Ай бұрын
@@mongeeman It doesn't sound bad. Knowing that there are people who share the same fears and have the same struggles as onself is almost comforting, in a way? You know that you are not alone. I wish you a peaceful life, take care!
@RealHero101111
Ай бұрын
ohmy think i have had somethin like that for some time too
@kimdracula6668
Ай бұрын
I had an issue during my shower about a month ago, (august), I was dizzy and nauseous, during my shower I felt my hearing get kind of muffled, I knew I only had a few minutes to grab my towel and rush to My bed as I collapsed wet and bare. I can sympathize with you in this regard, I'm chronically ill and I never realize how fragile I am until I can't push myself any further with what im doing, please take care of yourself to the best of your ability, I may not know you but I care about you ❤
@ethantaylor9613
2 ай бұрын
I had chronic Lyme symptoms for about 10 years. The worst part was being sick, but having a bunch of doctors tell you you couldn’t be sick was probably the second worst part.
@thebunsenburner
2 ай бұрын
Doctors are notorious for dismissing Lyme's symptoms. You legit need to find a Lyme's specialist sometimes.
@convivial98
2 ай бұрын
from a fellow medical mystery disabled person (POTS haver, too), I'm sending love and solidarity your way
@pazamataz
2 ай бұрын
Cfs haver here - the isolation that comes with being too ill to be part of regular society versus not having a conclusive reason for your sickness is such a strange and unique loneliness. One that’s hard to express. I’m so happy you have a wonderful supportive community around you x
@BarbasTheDog
2 ай бұрын
My partner is a neuroscientist, and I remember them talking about how many or the things you describe (balance, body temperature, hunger) are in one form or another linked to hypothalamic function. I know it isn't much to go on, but if you have the opportunity to take a closer medical look at your hypothalamus, it might point your doctors in the right direction. I should emphasize that neither me or my partner are medical doctors, just a couple of nerds with phds. Stay safe. I hope you solve your mystery and that the solution is some mild drug and a headpat.
@charliesnark6535
2 ай бұрын
Small thing but I love the use of the Cruelty Squad title theme as background for the nauseating description
@dumdummcgee4058
2 ай бұрын
OMFG YOU TOO??? i've literally never met anyone else with this experience before??? seriously whenever i explain my medical situation people think im either making stuff up or am just overreacting to migraines?? i'm so happy i'm not alone in this experience, let alone that one of my favorite content creators also deals with this shit
@DANKKrish
2 ай бұрын
try to look into vestibular neuritis and POTS
@fart_reverb_2
2 ай бұрын
Videos like these make me realise how privileged I am for not having any major conditions like this. I genuinely wish you the best.
@waycnf7229
2 ай бұрын
I was a medical mystery too. I was young, so I wasn't told most of this, but my IGE level was so high that it was guaranteed bone cancer. Except... I didn't have bone cancer. After *years* of testing, it was discovered to be a dustmite allergy, and my only response to that allergy is that I break out in hives. Quite a big scare all for an anticlimactic conclusion, one I am VERY thankful for, and my parents were thankful they didn't have to tell me that I was dying.
@blackfirefire
2 ай бұрын
I'm training as a cardiologist in the UK, you might have a disproportionate tachycardic reaction to hypotension (a drop in blood pressure) which can be brought on by orthostatic changes (standing up too fast, quick changes in temp etc). I see other commenters have mention POTS this comes in differing forms from neuropathic (spinal cord injuries that cause blood to pool in the feet and drop your blood pressure) to hypovolaemic (low sodium intake, diarrhoea and vomiting). Ask your doctor to rule out Ehlers-Danlos syndrome since that's an alternative possibility. I'm sceptical of making a diagnosis of strangers over the internet, but there are some conservative measures you could try, for example increasing your salt intake or using compression socks. If these are ineffective, your doctors should look to drugs such as midodrine or Ivabradine. POTS can also just go away on its own, (although this seems to happen more in peads). I hope this is of some help, thanks.
@coolbugfacts1234
2 ай бұрын
I've read more than one account from doctors who see a lot of trans/queer people anecdotally noticing that trans people having a much higher likelihood of also having some combination of autism, ADHD, POTS, and EDS. There's theorizing that it has to do with MTHFR SNPs, poor methylation/high homocysteine, and that methylated B vitamins could potentially help. A couple times I've seen tiktoks from trans people that have something to do with being flexible and I'm like "please, ask your doctor about the Beighton Score"
@Oznius
2 ай бұрын
It's wild that you mention this because I had a very similar experience to her when I was younger, and it turned out the blood pressure thing was my issue. Upping my salt/mineral intake (partially via a water additive that tasted like licking a rock) brought me from "getting extreme vertigo and losing consciousness every time I take a shower or stand up quickly" to only occasional, relatively milder bouts of vertigo. It's not quite night and day, but my life is a lot more livable now.
@slonkazoid
2 ай бұрын
de_vertigo in the thumbnail is such a painful but accurate joke
@Brent-jj6qi
2 ай бұрын
Thumbnail? It’s the background for most of the video
@DartzinhoV
2 ай бұрын
In fact it becomes the background of the video just before she uses the word “vertigo” for the first time
@slonkazoid
2 ай бұрын
@@DartzinhoV yeah i noticed that
@existaint9746
2 ай бұрын
If the compression socks help, compression leggings may do wonders. They did for me with my pots to the point where I can’t really go without. I really relate to all this especially the existential dread over summer. Medical limbo sucks ass. Sorry you’re going through it too
@goldie819
2 ай бұрын
So apparently there's a decent amount of overlap with ADHD, autism, and trans people. There's also a lot of overlap with those three and hypermobility, Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, POTS, various forms of chronic fatigue, and food allergies. Might be a good idea to look into every part of that cluster, just to see if anything sticks.
@ianbryant
2 ай бұрын
And gluten intolerance, B12 deficiency, OCD, derealization.
@BoEa-b7u
2 ай бұрын
If you already considering POTS, then it may also be relevant to consider ME.
@Ladyjuliet-uv5qt
2 ай бұрын
POTS seems most likely considering the symptoms the only thing outher it Could be is some kind of inner ear disorder but those would have slightly different symptoms the only thing questioning here is why a doctor wouldnt assume POTS by those symptoms but i guess the thing is that we dont know the previous medical history here
@pazzieanneknexx809
2 ай бұрын
@@Ladyjuliet-uv5qtIt's unfortunately fairly difficult to get a diagnosis for POTS, it's one of the last diagnoses they give.
@chrisheartman9263
2 ай бұрын
I mean, I'd honestly say inner ear disorder because it sounds like really, REALLY bad motion sickness 24/7. Especially with always needing fresh air to stave off the impending doom of your whole world spinning and getting nausea.
@Ladyjuliet-uv5qt
2 ай бұрын
@@chrisheartman9263 it could be Ménière's disease but the age of onset is useally later and it is combined with hearing loss but sometimes certain symptoms dont pop up until later alternatively hyperthyroidism is also a diagnosis that could fit espeically considering that there could be multipile disorders present or some outside factor changes the way the desease presents
@eclipse1353
2 ай бұрын
@@pazzieanneknexx809 yeah, that "last diagnosis" thing is one of the biggest problems in any healthcare system, along with cost and discrimination. it is technically a neurological problem that can develop at any age, usually before 25. something with the inner ear is possible as well, but that shouldn´t be affected by temperature and humidity as much as she said it is. I don´t know either and I´m not a doctor, but I have gathered a good bit of knowledge over the last couple of years.
@MightyMase04
2 ай бұрын
nightstand banana lore aside, I hate that you're still dealing with this. best wishes towards your ultimate discovery and recovery
@lambsauce5312
2 ай бұрын
Huh
@Firepal3D
2 ай бұрын
"nightstand banana" is a great musician moniker
@BoEa-b7u
2 ай бұрын
I hope you find the reason for your symptoms - and a way to mitigate them - soon. For half a century I had a similar problem, where I never knew when I would be knocked out for a week. It turned out to be easily fixed by something completely unexpected, that medically only makes sense if you do not assume normality.
@sznio
2 ай бұрын
> It turned out to be easily fixed by something completely unexpected, that medically only makes sense if you do not assume normality. What helped? I don't expect it would help others - just curious.
@WhyGodby
2 ай бұрын
@@sznio THIS how do you leave that part out?
@BoEa-b7u
Ай бұрын
@@sznio During puberty I started getting severe classical migraines - with every symptom in the book - including brain centers turning off, making it impossible to speak or control limbs on the right side of the body. Getting over such an attack took most of a week. After some time I was able to identify and avoid most of the triggers, but I was not able to determine why I got an unprovoked migraine approximately once a month. it turns out that for males (not on hormones) classical migraines are often caused by hormone imbalance. When I got on HRT and got the hormone levels stabilised (no testosterone, sufficiently high estrogen), the monthly migraines stopped. I have symptoms of being intersex, which may explain this seemingly contradictory reason.
@brionasky
2 ай бұрын
Finally someone with something similar to what I have. I haven’t had to deal with mine as long as you, but i know exactly how you feel, I went from having a normal job, with attacks go from occasionally happening a few times a month to, once a week to almost everyday. It’s horrible feeling this, I have to walk around with a walker, it’s so annoying and frustrating especially since it only helps me walk because I have more balance points. Thank you for sharing your story, it means a lot to know I’m not alone, I hope you figure this out and can live life normally again ❤❤❤
@IrvingIV
2 ай бұрын
You have a stranger's sympathies.
@frostsugarrush7560
2 ай бұрын
I am not a medic expert, I know someone who has same symptoms and it ended up being middle ear canal problem that was causing imbalance, she uses hearing aid now and things are better now. Really wish you the best, I wasn’t ready to watch this vibe but happy to hear you share that with us, you have lovely friends and family, I’d do the same to you if we lived close, you deserve the best. EDIT: Hearing aid isn’t necessarily the direct solution she went through some more medical procedures.
@ppbrain2328
2 ай бұрын
Hey ❤ fellow chronic illness haver here. Ive had severe chronic migraines since i was nine years old. Its extremely hard to explain to able bodied people just what it feels like to have your health working against you. "Im used to spending my entire life walking on this biological and neurological tightrope" is genuinely the best way i could attempt to describe this to abled bodied people. I care about the people in my life a lot, i care about my situation a lot, to have to weigh the time and experiences with the mental and physical exhaustion of pain. I grieve for the birthday parties, the rollerblading, the fishing, the people tired out by me, the smoothness i used to have in academics, movie theaters and stage shows, live music and symphonies. Getting to go to art shows and gallaries. But theres also the moments that keep me grounded. The meetings and understanding from friends despite my having to bring a cane and a nausea bag everywhere. How they understand when i need a quiet day where parallel play is the focus. They understand when there are days i physically cant see anyone, because the symptoms are too severe. Im fucking ride or die for them, i would not have gotten this far without them. Im still working on understanding whats wrong with me. Anxiety and stress are one of my biggest triggers as well, in the mean time if they cant figure out the big issue at least i can try and treat the symptoms to reduce the chance of snowballing. Finding healthier ways to cope with anxiety has helped, though its been gradual and like i said doesnt actually solve the problem with our bodies, but it offers relief. Things like those compression socks, or my eye masks, theyre tools to reduce the pain while we continue to be medical mysteries. I really appreciate you making this. I am so happy to hear you have a support system. The isolation that can come from disabilities can feel like the most crippling part of it. Not just socially, but physically, enviromentally, even idealogically. Im still in the process of working through isolation, its a harder struggle than the many times ive been sent to the hospital. The implication your existence benefits from you alone is hard, i stopped counting how many times ive thought i weighed my friends and family down. Thank you for talking about it, i needed a reminder that my life can work out. I would suggest if you have the resources to, then look into audiologists, neuro-optometrists, and physical therapy. I havent been able to stop my migraine-induced vertigo attacks, but a neurologist and an audiologist helped me with reducing symptoms while PT helped me be more mobile while attacks were active. I will admit their help most only applied to the last day and aftereffects of my vertigo attacks but a little bit can go a long way in helping exhaustion. I would be a hypocrite to ask you to stop smoking, but something that helped reduced my nicotine intake was rolling herbs like motherwort or skullcap into cigs and slowly replacing my nicotine diet when i feel like can only smoke rather than eat. If you havent already, try weighted blankets that leave your head and limbs exposed, and grounding exercises that dont require and head movement. I completely get the limited jaw movement, you may consider (i know this sounds silly but trust) looking into ventriloquist speech, using their techniques to recude any jaw movement while still making coherent speech (even with half my face partially numb) has been a serious painsaver. I really hope these help!! Thank you for the videos you make, youre funny, well spoken, you have a deep understanding of the topics you talk about and it makes many questions for me to ponder. Thank you ❤❤
@JustLilGecko
2 ай бұрын
This is what took out one of Meshuggah's original members from their roster - couldn't tour due to intense spinning sensation, struggles with intense constant vertigo, especially when on busses or public transport in general.
@jougjimmadome
Ай бұрын
vertigo is such a disabling symptom. many people in my life have had chronic issues with it and all with different causes; POTS, calcium build ups in the inner ear, reynaud's, infections. wishing you all the luck with the strenuous diagnostic process
@the_real_Kurt_Yarish
2 ай бұрын
Your story reminds me heavily of my experience with Long Covid. I spent two and a half years under a umbrella of symptoms and situations, suffering all the while and losing control of my body and my life. There was only one thing I wanted more than myself back: answers. I was lucky that, with time, I've clawed my way back into something familiar. But not the same. I "recovered", but I still have chronic symptoms, still carry "scars". I still live with fear, and exhaustion. And I never fully got my answers. But I know that, so far, I'm alive. I'm making it. With any luck, I'll keep on doing so for some time yet. I suppose that's all any of us can really do, in the end. Keep making it. I hope you find your answers, my friend. And that you find a familiar place to rest your head.
@eccentricvillain
2 ай бұрын
I had issues like this to a lesser extent since I turned 12-13, I eventually narrowed it down to my body over reacting to certain stressors (hot temperatures, rapid temperature changes, stress, elevation changes, hormonal changes (period). For me it turned out that my body overreacts to stimuli, causing my blood pressure to rapidly drop causing most of the symptoms you described. Because my blood pressure was already at a low baseline these drops were really severe. Everything appeared normal because when I wasn’t in an episode my blood pressure was normal enough. Pots is a good theory to start with, add Vasovagal syncope to the research list too. My medication for a different issue ended up raising my blood pressure so I can tolerate things a bit better. I also started eating more salt and drinking more water to up my blood volume. Eating less meat was a weirdly helpful thing, I eat a lot more lean meats like chicken and more seafood. Doctors can only know so much (and bad ones act like they know it all). Finding someone that specializes in what you’re dealing with will be hard. I hope that someone in this comment section can give you a lead that will help you narrow things down. That’s the best thing about the internet, we’re not as limited to just the knowledge we can access on our own anymore.
@w00ds98
2 ай бұрын
This video means so much to me, thank you! 🙏🏻 When I was 17 Tinnitus decided to just start haunting me. I had only been to one concert in my life and didn‘t listen to music super loud, so it seems to be mental not physical. Then at 21 my eyes started to see a wall of 1000 tiny, ever-shifting lights that have made it hard for me to watch movies, like I used to, because it fucks with my perception of light and depth. And 2 years ago muscles in my shoulder regions have just started constantly feeling like they‘re contracting. Despite countless doctor visits and 3 rounds of physical therapy, I have found no remedy for the first 2 and only a temporary one for the last one, that involves me doing 30 minutes of specific excercises every day. You‘d think that would atleast be healthy, but when you already have a packed schedule, issues sleeping and 0 motivation to do the excercise, waking up 30 minutes earlier and immediately doing excercises, takes a toll on your mental, far outweighing the physical benefits. I can‘t ever have a lazy day, even on vacation I need to do these damn excercises, so my muscles don‘t distract me all day. I mean fuck, 3 of my 5 senses are compromised, thats fucking crazy! Its been a hard few years (I‘m 25 now) and the only solace I can find is also in my friends and now this video. Back when you first mentioned your vertigo (I forgot the exact video, but you were driving at night and smoking a cig in your car), I immediately understood what a big deal it was. Idk something in your voice and the way you described it, clearly communicated to me, that that was your chronical medical issue, similar so mine. Happy you finally made a video about it, because theres a lot of things in here I needed to hear. So again, from the bottom of my heart, thank you!!
@VeraTheTabbynx
2 ай бұрын
Please don't play Kane & Lynch. If you have vertigo or motion sickness, it will do horrible things to you, and even if you have no such conditions the ridiculous camera shake will make worse, you will probably throw up at how f-ing horrible it is as a game.
@spark556
2 ай бұрын
The game that gave me the worst case of vertigo ever was by far the PS4 port of DOOM 64 which was originally released for Nintendo 64. It literally lasted for a week despite playing the game less than an hour. And whenever I even tried it again for 1 minute I couldn't continue bcuz all the worst symptoms instantly returned. I genuinely thought I was gonna die. That week still feels like a very long fever dream.
@Florescentia02
2 ай бұрын
she already made a video on that game lol
@weaponized_toaster
Ай бұрын
LOL she made one years ago and inspired pyro too lmao
@gex6692
2 ай бұрын
If only house was real and not transphobic
@rddzXS
2 ай бұрын
Our house in the middle of our house
@Eon_orange
2 ай бұрын
I think I've had situations that sound very similar to the one you described at the beginning of the video when you were playing GTA4. It's happened twice to me, once in 5th grade when our teacher was describing the symptoms of the black plague, for some reason that description really got under my skin, so I left to go to the bathroom, and just collapsed on the floor of the hallway, sweating, and feeling like I was moving around but completely still, freezing, but burning up. The second time was more recent, while watching that one Wendigoon video about the Japanese guy who was blasted with a bunch of radiation and suffered in the hospital for 83 days. That time I stumbled to my bathroom, collapsed in my shower, accidentally tore down the curtain and gave myself a giant bruise on my ass. I tired to scream with every fiber of my being, to try and snap myself out of it (which kind of worked? It started getting better after that) but my roommate didn't hear that at all, so it must have been very quiet externally. Fortunately for me, those were just isolated incidents, with direct, obvious, causes that triggered them (gruesome descriptions of bodily horror) while yours also seemed to have just been triggered completely randomly, and I don't have the chronic lightheadedness you experience after the fact I wouldn't wish that upon my worst enemy. Hope the nerds down at the science lab can get you sorted out.
@snaifu
2 ай бұрын
I have experience with a very rare illness, 1 in 100000 people will develop it. It's a full throat paralysis, likely caused by my lupus. I can't swallow anything properly, it just stays in my throat. Sometimes it causes me an acidic pain, because the food/liquid is sitting in my throat too long. It's called Achalasia, and there is no cure, only mitigating surgeries. Since 2020, I have learned how to swallow manually by myself, & have found ways to explain and traverse through society, such as going to restaurant bathrooms to easily spit out anything that I can't forcefully and manually swallow/push into my stomach. My friends and family are very supportive and understanding. I am so thankful for it. Doctors originally told me in 2020 it was GERD. Because thats more common with my symptoms. It took me going to a specialized gastro dr. in 2022 to be correctly diagnosed after 2 misdiagnosises from a family doctor, and a hospital doctor. And I WAS LUCKY! Many who suffer with my disability go *decades* being misunderstood, living without an actual explanation or answer, being diagnosed with psychological or physical conditions they do not actually have. My advice is to always seek specialty doctors, or communities where people have similar symptoms (as they may also help point you in the right direction on your journey.) I hope this story helps you, wishing you the best. ❤
@snaifu
2 ай бұрын
Btw, if you ever make it back to Greenville SC, I will buy you a steak dinner!! lol (I live here, and since we both aren't compatible with restaurant settings, it's completely chill w/ me to take to go!!! lolol)
@Kazooples
2 ай бұрын
Before I say anything else, I want to say thank you for this video, as a disabled woman who wants to be a youtuber it gives me hope that it’s worth it to go at my own speed. That said, I’m so sorry you have to go through this, I’m very disabled too, in a different way, I have rheumatoid arthritis and a bunch of other crappy disorders. Just last month for the first time in probably six years I made a friend irl, it was a complete fluke honestly, they lived nearby and we like the same things, but I’ve only seen them twice because I can’t leave the house without it triggering a severe flareup or at the very least being very agonising.
@censored2051
2 ай бұрын
I feel terrible for laughing about the dog bed but I couldn't help but think about the puppy girl video
@skadoosher7747
2 ай бұрын
I have my own mystery condition. Since I was 10 I've had headaches that made my limbs feel heavy and numb, and my vision to vigniette into darkness, alongside throbbing, whole head pain. All of the symptoms get worse until it falls apart or fades. In 5th grade, at my own birthday party, I had stayed up all night not eating or drinking and just gotten out of lazer tag when I was pounded by my headache until I found myself waking from a seizure, on the ground, with a crowd surrounding me like in a movie. My mom had caught me, so my skull was fine, and the following ER visit revealed nothing to suggest why it happened. The headaches have always come back ever since. When I'm not eating, drinking, breathing fresh air or when my body just hates me, I'm brought to the floor with pain, unable to move my body as it feels like it weighs the same as a neutron star. They don't linger, I can only imagine what that would do to me, but when I'm in the throws of it I'm useless. No neurology visits or specialist opinions so far have kept me from losing control of my body and slamming my head across a toilet's rim or sprawling out on the ground at the side of the road trying to see anything at all.
@thesovietunion9542
2 ай бұрын
this sucks :( i dont have vertigo issues, but i know at least one person with them. i wish u were lucky enough to get answers and/or treatment. you look great, and i hope you feel it eventually. you’re lucky to have your family, and hope you’ll get to do things with them soon.
@xd_liz6391
2 ай бұрын
Though not nearly as severe, I struggle from a severely strong gag reflex. I'm always one step away from vomiting, if I see something gross, I think about throwing up or hell if I cough a little too hard I'll be unable to speak or move that much for a minute or two. Again, though not as bad in comparison, it is really not fun and I can not imagine something that I'd assume to be ten times worse. Even something as simple as almost constant nausea can be awful if not debilitating. Point is, even if I can't imagine how bad it is for you, with how bad it is for me, I empathize with you and wish you the best.
@leviholt8696
2 ай бұрын
Cruelty squad music was soo fitting
@The_Rat_Bridget_Fan
2 ай бұрын
This was so genuinely touching I hope stuff gets better someday
@ChicaneryBear
2 ай бұрын
I also have a bizarre body/brain situation that makes it very difficult to travel around. I know how hard it can be. Mine isnt as bad as yours, though. I hope you work out what the issue is. Solidarity and hope.
@paulomega7
2 ай бұрын
Just replace your nausea and hot flashes with head splitting migraines and we're basically wearing each other's shoes. I've been dealing with vertigo for what feels like forever now and the constant doctor hopping and normal test results has always been frustrating. Basically having me feel like the healthest sick person, but what bothers me the most about it is what you describe in the video is the inconsistencies of all this my vertigo attacks can sometimes last hours, days or even multiple weeks and it just feels almost impossible to adapt and plan around as if dealing with it in the first place wasn't already exhausting enough so I really feel for you and I too am forever grateful for my family and friends i have because without them I'm not too sure I'd still even be here typing this comment. Well thank you for this video and all the others you always make good stuff!
@potatoqueen5248
2 ай бұрын
Seeing my name as a song title threw me off guard. Last thing i expected from a health discussion video was a song recommendation but here i am.
@rolandcarpenter4538
2 ай бұрын
Leadhead's the channel where I'd look at their videos and be like "oh I don't think I'd find that interesting, plus it's like 30 minutes," and then I'll click on one that randomly showed up on my feed and it's one of the most profound, thought provoking videos I've seen on this platform and it's all just random bits of her life story
@Ranarith
Ай бұрын
I am so sorry to hear about these issues. It's honestly heartbreaking. It sounds a lot like my migraines. I get frequent migraines that sound very similar to what you're describing, and you're right when you say it's hard to describe the absolute loneliness and helplessness. The worst part is the loss of "normal" productivity. Feeling like you can't even do regular tasks like grocery shopping or even hanging out with friends is almost as bad as the pain and symptoms themselves. It feels so infantilizing, when I just want to do everything right. I hope you get the help you need and get this figured out.
@stevebear6295
2 ай бұрын
i remember this was a half life lore channel. life is so beautiful
@rddzXS
2 ай бұрын
Still wish she made more of those
@redscarfinfinite9743
27 күн бұрын
@@rddzXShard to do when you have a neurological issue
@6ooflames
2 ай бұрын
Shoutout to your roommate family and gf for making all this manageable.
@masela01
2 ай бұрын
At the very least it seems, from your description, that the symptoms are getting better over time, even if just a bit, so there's hope that you could one day be able to return to at least some if not all the activities that you lost to the vertigo
@dottagoa
2 ай бұрын
i hope someone - anyone - can figure out what could possibly be going on that's causing this. thank you so much for sharing this; i hope you can get answers for all of this. please take care of yourself to the absolute best extent that you can. (lasko wind machine fans are the best fans i've ever used lmao, money very much well spent)
@tiagotiagot
2 ай бұрын
No idea if it could be this, but I heard of this weird thing where some crystals that form inside the ear can sometimes get dislodged and end up bumping into the regions that sense orientation instead of sound and that can mess people up; and there are some specific head movements a doctor can teach you to get the crystals to fall back into a safe position. I don't remember the name of the condition, but it might be worth asking your ear doctor about it.
@nobodyislistening150
2 ай бұрын
never knew “empathetic nausea” was a thing, but yeah it definitely is!!
@blazetrailer6344
15 күн бұрын
Mentioning that feeling stuck somewhere is a trigger for your symptoms is entirely relatable for me. I struggle with anxiety and agoraphobia related to my ibs, and i'm terrified of being stuck somewhere where i can't "handle business." It makes going out for me, even just to the walmart 5 minutes from my house, an entire anxiety-addled ordeal. It's somewhat comforting to know that I'm not the only one
@blazetrailer6344
15 күн бұрын
Everything you mentioned minus the restaurant are exactly what triggers my anxiety the worst, this makes me feel so seen omg
@blazetrailer6344
15 күн бұрын
i have never felt so seen by a video this means so much to me
@heather19515
Ай бұрын
I get vestibular migraines, and struggle with FND, and heavily relate to a lot of the things you lament here. nothing but solidarity and empathy your way.
@heather19515
Ай бұрын
also, at risk of referencing a previous video of yours- vestibular symptoms and dissociative symptoms can bolster each other. I know they do for me.
@dunngunkadoid
Ай бұрын
This's the first video of yours I've seen, the algo. pushed it to my home page seemingly out of nowhere. And I've been so invested hearing your story the whole way through that the video didn't even feel like a half hour long. It stood out to me that despite all of this, you still have found ways to enjoy life. To take joy in the little things because we don't know what we have until it's gone. That's hard enough for people as is, and you're doing it with this awful life-pausing unknown hanging over you. That's immense emotional strength and I'm really impressed. I hope you find an answer soon to what's happening, and ways to get back the life you deserve to have.
@neolunaticus
2 ай бұрын
Give us a way to fund a really expensive doctors visit that could 100% find out what's going on, and by god we will fund it. We will find a way, not just because you make great video essays, but because you're a fellow human being who deserves a fair shot at life. Go forth and kick ass, Penelope.
@PedanticPig
2 ай бұрын
I think I left a comment when you last mentioned this, so forgive me if it's been discounted, but have you been tested for Multiple Sclerosis? I say this because few years ago the exact same sensations started happening to me. I think literally all of them - the sudden extreme heat, the constant spinning in my vision, the nausea and vertigo, the lightheadedness, I think I even know what you mean about the "morning vertigo" with the head feeling like it's moving slightly too fast or freely. I don't know if you can relate to this, but I also had weird sensations in my limbs and lower body where sometimes they felt like they weren't part of me, sometimes they were painful when even lightly touched, sometimes they somehow felt numb and very sensitive at the same time. I could lose track of where my limbs were and how to move them in the right way, so walking wasn't easy even when the nausea wasn't so bad. Anyway, this all came and went like you describe, possibly also triggered by period of high stress and/or heat, and eventually going away but not always completely. The worst "attack" I had was during the pandemic, where I had to remain basically stationary in bed for a couple of weeks, while my best friend and housemate had to keep swapping out out my bucket of sick and pee because there was no way I could get to the toilet downstairs. I could barely eat or drink, and I had to keep my head quite still and facing right at all times or the spinning nausea would go haywire. It would be like the worst rollercoaster in the world, I felt like I was being violently span and thrown in all directions while I clung desperately to my bed and hurled into the bucket beside it. Yeah, probably the most unpleasant experience of my life. I went to the doctor about it after it had mostly receded, along with the weird limb etc. sensations that I weren't sure were connected, and they didn't know what it was (they thought it might be an inner-ear condition but that didn't match up in the end). But eventually I got referred to the neurology department and long story short, yes, I've got Multiple Sclerosis. They scanned my nervous system and found lesions in my brain and spinal cord, which apparently is basically caused by my immune system occasionally deciding they're foreign agents that need to be expunged from the body. I think the symptoms can vary a lot depending on where it decides to target, which can make it hard to discern if you don't know what you're looking for. This comes in bursts that they call relapses, and in-between those brain etc. can recover for a while but not completely, which means untreated it'll gradually lead to more and more symptoms and disabilities worsening and piling up. There's no cure exactly, but I'm getting twice yearly infusions of a drug that basically tell my immune system to chill out, at the cost of being somewhat immunocompromised, at least with minor infections. So while I'm still a bit more sensitive to motion sickness than I was before, I haven't had any major relapses, and the limb sensations have pretty much gone all together. I'm still told to avoid stress and high heat, but I can pretty much forget about it most of the time, which is great. I'm so lucky to be living right now, as treatments are getting so much better: the drug I'm on was only developed in the last decade! So yeah, as a fellow spinny trans woman, if you haven't looked into MS I'd really encourage getting it checked out, and you have my utmost sympathy.
@wolverdep4739
2 ай бұрын
My hearts goes out to you! I'm also a medical mystery after suffering from vertigo, difficulty to walk on my own and vomiting that left me in the hospital for 2 weeks. Brain and full body MRI, spinal cord fluid test, bone scan and any other test under the sun came out fine and yet, 2 years later I'm still suffering (although recovering, very slowly) from lack of feeling on my right leg, frequent mild headache and my left eye slightly popped out. I dont do drugs or smoke or anything else and still young which made this whole thing even more weird
@SianaGearz
2 ай бұрын
Dramamine is a bit of a double edged sword! It can both help against these symptoms and cause them. Funny that. I have had similar symptoms for a while but i think it might have been my anxiety disorder running out of control? They have substantially subsided by now. Do you breathe normally or do you notice any issues in this regard?
@esr1412
Ай бұрын
I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through this for so long without answers yet. I hope you can get some soon and get back to do the things you love doing
@kylepratt425
Ай бұрын
This spoke to me like few things ever have. I'm sorry you have to deal with so much, but so happy you have good people there with you. It really makes all the difference.
@Bogvalley
2 ай бұрын
I've got a different set chronic issues but watching this video you just kept describing things that were so parallel with my own experiences its was spooky. I've been lucky enough to have my symptoms improve over the last couple years and I hope the same can happen for you too c:
@pantuternik
2 ай бұрын
Putting Vertigo as in the map from CS2 as the background while you're talking about vertigo is just so... subtle (not really sure what word to use)
@danka1167
2 ай бұрын
Its an allusion. The reason you dont have a word to use is that the adjective form of allusion has a different meaning
@pantuternik
2 ай бұрын
@@danka1167 Yes, I suppose that's it
@mapleMouse17
2 ай бұрын
you are my favorite youtuber. thank you for sharing your experiences, and I desperately hope you continue to make videos for as long as it brings you joy
@itsd3br33
2 ай бұрын
its a good day when leadhead posts, although it has been amazing you are able to manage better with this medical mystery now and the strength to deal with this must be incredible ❤❤
@Jaaack7
Ай бұрын
I've dealt with the same thing off and on for a while now. After a LOT of tests, I've just come to accept the advice of a therapist that what's happening is a feedback loop of stress and anxiety. For me the original incident wasn't vertigo, but heart-related. But everything after that is exactly how you described it, being constantly lightheaded and vigilant. The issue is that my nervous system was shot, and that will cause symptoms like lightheadedness, which I then get anxious and worried about, which only adds to the stress. It's a horrible cycle, but one that can be lived with ❤
@setsudan5527
Ай бұрын
I actually have about the same issues which is why seeing this is so strange. I’ve went to multiple doctors and specialist, I had wires on my head, mri’s, I went through neurological doctors, ear doctors and much more. They basically told me dizziness is one of the most mysterious things that doctors haven’t fully figured out. They assumed it was vestibular migraines but they said they aren’t sure themselves. It’s been about 4 years and I experience it frequently still but it goes away and comes back.
@DeadAceStudios
Ай бұрын
It may sound like I’m downplaying it but it maybe anxiety. The “fight or flight” part of the brain is the same as the “rest and digest” part. I don’t have the particulars on hand. But I found out that is also connected to kidney issues which, my mom is dying of. And it turns out she had the same anxieties and pains, but she masked from shame her whole life. But no matter my diet, exercise, social, work, and financial situations, I get these intense anxiety attacks and get sick all the time. But yeah I miss the world too. I was always adventuring as a kid. But I can’t anymore.
@DeadAceStudios
Ай бұрын
But I’m so glad I’m not alone. Another 26 year old trans fem fighting the same things 😭 the doctors always dismiss it as diet, weight. And therapy isn’t enough to stop it. And like. It took so much to overcome the struggle of asking for help with it.
@DeadAceStudios
Ай бұрын
But I took a walk to my old work place, dressed up cute, listening to my favorite song, was feeling a bit insecure but a random woman told me I had a beautiful smile and it seriously made my day. I had to lay in bed for days from how tired the walk made me. And like I used to be a cross country runner. But I can’t run without pushing myself to exhaustion (moving for more than 2 minutes)
@6Eev
Ай бұрын
this is horrifying to think about, what you've described sounds like what i experienced the first time i smoked way too much weed but times 50. i can't imagine feeling like this 24/7, i'm sorry this is affecting your life so much. i hope you can find a diagnosis one day. But i'm really happy for you that you have such a great support system and so many people who love you and care for you. that's beautiful
@AspelShuyin
Ай бұрын
As someone with depression, I can definitely relate to feeling useless, and being unable to take care of yourself and the people you love. That in and of itself is hard.
@orbzdaborbz
2 ай бұрын
cruelty squad ost works so well for this video
@Evan-pr3bf
2 ай бұрын
honestly, this has me reexamining some of my own bodily troubles with similar (albeit far less severe) shit. thx & be safe
@rodrovelasquez1634
2 ай бұрын
Hey Penelope! I would like you to know that I don't mind if your uploads aren't as frequent as you would like, I have been a fan(pun not intended) and wait for your uploads ever since like 5 years or something like that. it's always a delight when I see a video of yours, thank you for the countless hours of fun and reflections upon myself you've given me, greetings from Chile
@receptionsystem
2 ай бұрын
i think i mightve had one of these back in 2020 where i suddenly passed out and had an intense hot flash and the world was spinning, i could never imagine living with the constant fear that one of those could happen from basically anything at any time. you're a lot stronger than i am
@crikycrocky
Ай бұрын
In mid life my father started to get vertigo and dizziness attacks, spinning and loss of balance. This was diagnosed as Ménière's disease and alleviated with tablets and a surgical procedure whereby "gromets" were positioned inside the inner ear, presumably to control some physical aspect of the condition. From memory he had to return to hospital a couple of times I think when the gromets got out of position. This was all over 50 odd years ago but it might be worth looking into...
@Ms_Stabby
2 ай бұрын
I have POTS and it's not a fun time. I really wish I could stand up and walk a short distance without having to immediately sit or lay down on the floor to avoid collapsing
@boks02_
Ай бұрын
I don't have any words. I couldn't imagine going through what you have, or what you're still dealing with. You deserve so much love. I'm so glad you've surrounded yourself with people who can and do provide that love. And thanks for making me want to play Minecraft again, haha. :heart:
@nimlouth
2 ай бұрын
I had a very bad streak of migraines+vertigo episodes this year that resulted in me going to the ER and getting even the doctors scared of wtf was happening to me. After nothing working, the doctors realised I was probably having a massive panic attack and gave me some medication for that. That in convination with magnesium and other measures to deal with the migraines helped me immensely to reduce it. I've been better after that. I always get little vertigo snaps that scare me but everything is VERY much tied to being stressed ans unhappy. Starting transitioning has helped me immensely reducing them. I hope yall get better, you deserve it.
@arouravalenzuela693
16 күн бұрын
You got this girl! I hope you get a diagnosis :D
@noaha6185
2 ай бұрын
I used to be a really hardcore kratom addict. One of the reasons i stopped is because it would give me vertigo to the point where i couldnt walk. Thankfully for me it went away once i got sober. Just being stuck like that is terrifying 😅
@nicekcaj
2 ай бұрын
> medical mystery > struggles to go outside because of physical symptoms > is a big achievement when they go outside because of their condition is leadhead chuck mcgill??
@SpectralT23
2 ай бұрын
We love mysterious medical mysteries in this house!
@mattnutella
Ай бұрын
When you said something to the effect of “that’s the thing, I have no idea how to describe the feeling other than just ‘lightheadedness’” I felt so indescribable because that’s exactly how I worded something I went through for years upon years after I had a brief contest with epilepsy. Once I stopped having seizures for good they were replaced by what I only called “auras” where I’d just suddenly have to stop what I was doing and lie down, with a general feeling of intense malaise and lightheadedness, almost like my vision shifted but it was never actually impaired. Mine seem to have been much more infrequent and, eventually, I was able to push through and I’ve only had about 2 this year and they were the kind I can push through. But I also ran the gamut of accepted and holistic medicine until I gave up and I know how absolutely horrible it feels to go through that. I hope you find a diagnosis (very curious for my sake too if we have a similar condition) and are able to find effective treatment, or it just fades slowly over time like mine did.
@RemotHuman
2 ай бұрын
it doesn't sound like it's from this, but maybe it's worth trying an elimination diet to see if you are allergic/sensitive to something rare?
@owndampu1731
Ай бұрын
I have a similar although far less intense experience sometimes, especially in the bathroom when it is very warm and moist in there, I feel like I am starting to pass out, it never happens when I shower, but it does happen when I am using the sink or something. Luckily it does disappear when I get out of there for me.
@Starlit_Juno
Ай бұрын
This video made me cry so much, thanks for sharing your story 😭
@kimijimijames42
Ай бұрын
I found this video highly relatable. Every single symptom you've described is something that dominated my life for about 9 months in 2018-2019. In my case, it turned out to be chronic hyponatremia, and it wasn't discovered until a more acute hyponatremic state caused me to pass out and have a seizure while unconscious. If you think there's any chance this could be it--you'll want to check for whether you're getting enough electrolytes into your system, or whether you're drinking so much water that it's draining those electrolytes, as was the case with me. You can buy packets that provide extra electrolytes if so. It helps me out a lot as my body requires a ton of extra hydration, and so also a ton of extra electrolytes, in order to be able to sweat at all and not be constantly constipated. I used to also need extra water for temperature sensitivity and other reasons, but that has subsided as I've become more healthy in general.
@tmk6022
Ай бұрын
Haven't watched past the first 45 seconds yet, but compliments on the intro. Good use of a narrative hook that makes you want to know more
@HirschfeldWillamette
2 ай бұрын
Haven't watched yet but I wanted to say hiiii!! Hi Penelope!!! :3
@Joaquin__
2 ай бұрын
For me this sounds really scary, because a few years ago I had this 3 year streak where every time winter was about to start I would get terrible vertigo. Like the whole world would slowly start spinning one day and then I would I would wake up the next day unable to get out of bed because it was so bad, but then all of a sudden it would stop randomly. I went to the doctor and it was a seasonal allergy symptom where fluid would build up in my ear, but I don't think I ever found out why it would randomly stop. I'm glad this hasn't happened to me again in a while, and your situation sounds like the worst possible outcome of what happened to me. I hope one day you can have some closure too.
@mayo0085
2 ай бұрын
i had one day of my life with very similar symptoms, trying to come to terms with potentially being found dead on the floor having to put up with that for so long is unimaginable :c
@standardsloshy
2 ай бұрын
I always love how you present you and your vids so much every time! 💙
@Kristimilaa
20 күн бұрын
I'm so sorry for you... My nausea problems are nothing compared to what you're going through. Wishing you the best for the future!
@tyhjyys
2 ай бұрын
i think the first video i watched of yours was one on dishonored. or you were just playing dishonored in the background i can't remember. either way, funny that the first video i've seen from you in years is also one i relate to very personally ^^ long story short, i'm in my early 20s and developed a panic disorder from a bad experience. growing up being a troublesome kid and only really having friends in that ballpark, i had a hard time getting my best friends used to the idea that i just can't do certain things anymore. it was seriously degrading to tell these guys i've traveled states with that i suddenly can't get in their car because it makes me want to rip my skin off. i'm absolutely blessed to have them still there for me because they actually cared. very heartwarming and mindset altering to say the least. getting in the way of yourself like that changes you, changes how people see you. i've done my life very differently than how i imagined since then and it absolutely hurts knowing it's all because of my own head. but i'm not even close to giving up. when i let go of that rope there's no coming back. there will be a day where i wake up calm and my persistence pays off.
@VerbDoesStuff
2 ай бұрын
I don’t know if you remember me, but, it took a long time, and personal experiences with friends, but, I’m pro trans now. I just wanted you to know I watched this whole video, and, my God. If I had known your life was like this…man, I was such an asshole in the past. The way you always came across to strangers on the internet who project like me…I always thought you were intentionally being dramatic, or pretentious, or rage-baity, or all of the three. But that is so unbelievably, obviously, wrong. And, I just want you know I’ve connected with a friend from college who we had a falling out a while ago, who came out as trans, and been getting hrt, and is now happier than she’s ever been. She’s given me many personal anecdotes about the kind of physical ways in which she experienced life before her transition, and how after, she finally feels real emotions and can live a normal life. And, I just have to say, it depresses me how little dignity trans people have. It’s like you’ve been beaten down by the world so hard that you don’t feel you deserve to tell people your problems or how you feel. Maybe at one point some asshole used it against you. But it is okay. You are allowed to express these things. And in fact, my friend expressing things like this to me are what convinced me that being trans is real. Not people on twitter and youtube comments telling me to cope mald and seeth, but seeing my friend who was broken and in pain for years and took it out on everyone else, finally be just free. And be happy. At 23:03, I broke and started crying. I had no idea. I’m so, so, very sorry for all the hostility I’ve ever had towards you. It sounds like your existence has just been hell. I always thought you were faking it for attention, your voice and the mannerisms and the way you breath deeply every other sentence, I always thought it was being dramatic on purpose, because I was projecting, and now, it’s obvious I just picked whatever conclusion fed into my worldview, and that making assumptions about people I’ve never met was and is an awful thing to do. God, I couldn’t have been more wrong. You’ve had a hellish existence for a long time and even still feel like you owe something to the world. Constantly apologizing in your outro at “how dumb it is” or “how long it took” or this or that. It’s okay. You’re okay. And speaking of which, from how little confidence you have in even expressing yourself to your fanbase who you love, you were incredibly brave to share this experience with the world. And it is so touching, because I know the reason you did it is to help those who might watch you and relate, to feel heard. But there’s even a chance that the only reason you made it was because you feel guilty or fake somehow. If there is any part of you doubting, saying “I AM fake” No you’re not. I believe you. Even if you don’t believe yourself. I related a little too much to some of the things you said in this video. I am 100% certain that whatever it is, it is made better by feeling comfortable in your environment. By not being afraid of those around you. So, I just wanted to communicate to you: If you ever feel that way again, just remember, that someone who was completely convinced you were fake, that the whole trans thing was fake, and hurting kids Now trusts you and really honestly just wishes he could give you a hug I cried again in the outro when you started apologizing. It’s okay. If anything, this is the kind of stuff “normies” as it were need to see more of, to actually be convinced of the severity and genuinity of your experiences. I initially got mad at my friend coming out, I felt betrayed, and then they explained the science to me that I was unable to find on Google, and I saw firsthand their life transform and them become a completely different person. There was always this part of me that wanted to believe trans people, but I always told myself that that was wrong and the right thing wasn’t always the easiest thing to do. It felt so easy to just comfort trans people, and almost impossibly self-indulgent, but partially, because I didn’t believe it was actually “real” anymore than people simply believing it was real. But being trans is real, and people are born trans. This much I am all but certain of now. I myself am autistic, and, even though I don’t really have gender dysphoria, and I feel guilty using this label over another friend who very much needs hrt to survive as a right, I’ve internalized that I may actually be enby. And, I suffer from some gut issues that are kind of a mystery but I haven’t had a chance to go to a doctor about it yet, but everyone around me just kind of told me it was an exaggeration or I was making it up, and I kind of believed it myself, to be honest. But I think it was mainly caused by me living as someone other than me. Davey Wreden style. I was on the discord a long time ago to ask you some questions about trans stuff, but I got banned. Is there any chance I could be invited again? I understand if no, but, I would really like that. I don’t want this to be about me. I want to communicate to you just how much, at the end of the video, just before the outro, and in the outro too actually, you made my heart melt. Hearing you describe the people who love you and you feel comfortable calling family, it was great. It makes me want to be a part of it, in as many people’s lives as I can manage. Because, I’m pretty disabled and needy too, at least at the moment, but, I am emotionally capable and I would love nothing more than to be there for as many people as possible. In the last few weeks, everything has been coming together, and it just, feels right at the moment, that you posted this video. If you want, I could even genuinely try to help figure out what your affliction is, and what to do to help it. No one deserves to suffer like that. And I can’t imagine how much worse it was when you had to deal with members of a community you loved berating you on social media and making your dysphoria worse. Just, at the very least, know that I at least, wasn’t trying to be cruel, I really thought trans was grooming and I was doing the right thing. But, I finally recognize it, I was wrong. If no reply, I sincerely hope you have a nice life. Namaste
@VerbDoesStuff
2 ай бұрын
If it wasn’t obvious, I didn’t say this directly, but I’ll just make sure anyone reading knows this: I am now very aware that I have a lot of problems, and that in the past, I was an obsessive creep who never let up. At least, that’s how I came across. I just didn’t want to give up the fight against what I felt to be wrong and hurting people I loved near me no matter how hopeless and depressing it got. But, obviously, I truly believe I was wrong now. So, I’m sorry.
@VerbDoesStuff
2 ай бұрын
Also also also, I haven’t watched you lately, but you upload A LOT. Uploading 3 times a month is quite a lot for anyone, let alone someone suffering as much as you are. Give yourself a rest to just feel loved by your family. You deserve it.
@Oooga-Chaka
2 ай бұрын
I used to be trans and homophobic as a teenager, needless to say I've changed. Personal growth is part of life and you should be proud of yourself for seeing things differently now.
@VerbDoesStuff
2 ай бұрын
@@Oooga-Chaka Being proud is overrated. I prefer to be good and right and be confident about it, and back it up. But exactly yeah, I was also a homophobic teenager, and I am DEFINITELY bi. Like, without question.
@danka1167
2 ай бұрын
Yapanese 😭
@qwfp
2 ай бұрын
Thank you for sharing! It's been really relatable, and thus encouraging(?). I don't have vertigo (well, I did have some last year, but now it's been fully gone for a while, so I hope it won't be back), but I have other issues that result in very similar problems (troubles going outside, not liking being stuck, panics, missing out on life). Day-to-day stuff is manageable, but once that is solved, you realize how much you're still unable to do. Hedonistic treadmill or something. Although, in my case I'm pretty sure that it's 95% due to anxiety. I wouldn't be surprised if your symptoms were, at least in part, due to psychological reasons (like the "PTSD" you mentioned). Our brains really are weird. (I hope it doesn't come off as belittling or downplaying) Again, thank you for being so open. I hope you'll feel better, or at the very least not worse. ♥
@gytux0258
2 ай бұрын
being sick forever is a nightmare. i've lost so much of my life to whatevers wrong with me. just did less and less over time until i ended up sitting in my room all day for months at a time. The loneliness of it all is the worst part. The few friends i have make life worth it. But they're all so far away that visiting might be a once in a life time thing for me. And i rarely feel truly well enough to spend time with them. Hard to play games or watch movies or chat when i can barely see the screen. Sometimes it feels that my condition gets worse the longer i spend physically alone. Never feels like i can actually relax and feel safe by myself. And i havent made friends with anyone i could actually meet in person in many years now. its gotten harder to stay motivated, to keep struggling. Harder to even talk to people. But gotta keep going. If i don't collapse mentally again, i'll get my bachelors degree next summer. Its good to know you have a supportive environment. Without my friends i likely would have dropped out of uni already. Hopefully you can figure out whats wrong and a way to improve/fix it.
@Analel
Ай бұрын
Did american just stay at home when a really bad health thing hit them and not go to the emergencies ? it's crazy what no free healthcare can do to a collapsing empire
@samduncan5472
2 ай бұрын
If you want a POTS diagnosis, here’s what I did: Buy a pulse oximeter Do a ‘poor man’s tilt table test / NASA lean test’ at home (can google how) Take time stamped pictures/video of every data point and record it Repeat several times on different days Take photos of your feet at 0, 5, and 10 mins standing to capture blood pooling If it’s all positive, bring this in to your doctor and tell them you meet the criteria and you have proof. Ask them to replicate the testing if they need to. If it’s negative it likely rules out POTS. The compression socks have to be really tight to be helpful for me (20-40), and thigh high and esp abdominal compression belt/binder is the most helpful
@ReplikaHyde
2 ай бұрын
13:21 i feel that, not that i have a medical condition, but the summer makes shirts agonising for me, its why i always default to my bra, and my zip up hoodie whenever i have to go out or be around people.
@ZomboidMania
2 ай бұрын
I've experienced what you're talking about, only for a very brief amount of time and thankfully it doesn't happen often, but I'm still very prone to feeling dizzy allot of the time, i thought it was normal, RIP us i guess, i hope you get better someday
@miniman6565
Ай бұрын
Not much to say specifically on the topic. I just wanted to thank you as ever for putting yourself out there and taking care of yourself. I often take a while before I watch your new videos because I have to make sure I'm in the right space for it (they're never that heavy but I just worry I might react strongly). Either way, I wish you the best and I hope you can continue to find some form of relief for this issue.
@Discontentedparrot
2 ай бұрын
It sounds similar to the feeling my mother described after she got some fluid drained out from her spine. I'm unsure if its related but I wanted to share it just in case
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