6:42 “why are you depressed? You have a great life” man this hit hard.
@Colljd
23 күн бұрын
it doesn't hit hard for me as someone who can't make many friends to begin with and the ones i can make are shitty and dgaf abt me at all, and I get made fun of sometimes at school for my looks n shit.
@Its_Jaz.24
23 күн бұрын
@@ColljdI am so sorry that people make fun of you for your looks. They just missed out on having one of the best people as their friend. Their loss. I’ll be your friend 😊
@Colljd
23 күн бұрын
@@Its_Jaz.24 thank you, yeah agreed, sure if you want too!
@user-zb2yt3fw5k
7 күн бұрын
@@Colljd try to find actually nice people. Someone that can relate to you. There's always gonna be some assholes.
@stormchasingirl1133
2 ай бұрын
When I told my mother, she told me to go ahead, it’s my choice. Told me an awful lot.
@ArielleCarver
2 ай бұрын
What the actual fuck. This is a testament to how every kid deserves a good parent, but not every parent deserves their kid. I’m so sorry.
@Bro_dont_know_kate
2 ай бұрын
Wow
@Bro_dont_know_kate
2 ай бұрын
Im sorry she said that, no parent should say that ❤😮
@Spikethepurpledragon-gr6rn
2 ай бұрын
That…is crazy. I hope you’re doing ok though. Hang in there, you might be surprised at how many people truly care about you. I used to have suicidal thoughts too, but trust me, life gets better and you get tougher from the experience.
@user-ue6tl6nz8f
2 ай бұрын
Sad you have to go beyond that mentality. My father had a drinking problem. After years of trying to beat it he became depressed and discussed suicide with my mom. She said don't talk about it do it. He jumped out of a hotel window to beat the drinking problem. You cannot let anyone's lack of caring define your life. You are so young and very strong with so many resources to help you. Use them be better than my dad. Don't let anyone's lack of caring be the reason you are not here .
@greefire_
2 ай бұрын
Depression does not have a reason, it just happens
@Jwool.mp3
2 ай бұрын
Agreed
@justinlbond_
2 ай бұрын
most of the time it does, but with this situation, and how long its been going on, it seems it doesnt
@user-ue6tl6nz8f
2 ай бұрын
Totally disagree. It can expand but mostly stems from feelings of inadequacies or not really feeling loved.
@Carbonf1ber001
2 ай бұрын
You couldn't be any more wrong 😂
@justinlbond_
2 ай бұрын
@@Carbonf1ber001 nope
@tayzonday
3 ай бұрын
I’m rooting for you! ✊
@Jwool.mp3
3 ай бұрын
Thank you!!!
@MysticCompetitive
2 ай бұрын
glad to see you are doing well!
@wesleytuel
2 ай бұрын
He wrote Chocolate rain!
@Blankseeker
2 ай бұрын
W
@mrcocoabean2471
2 ай бұрын
chocolate rain
@MjadeJK
2 ай бұрын
Talking about “seeing your mom like that” is so true. I’ve never really been s**cidal but I dealt with Sh. When I showed her the marks, the look on her face broke my heart. (I’m in recovery and nearly five months clean now so for anyone reading this, it gets better ❤)
@Realistics.
2 ай бұрын
@LilMewwOfficial
Ай бұрын
sending hugs, i know how it can feel
@lucyrose12345
Ай бұрын
@the_not_kelsey
Ай бұрын
@mykittenisaferociousnugget
Ай бұрын
@rose92008
Ай бұрын
"why are you depressed? you have a great life." i have a close friend who's like a sister to me and her parents say that to her. keep in mind that she has depression, social anxiety, and many other things. she has good friends, she has her boyfriend, but there's just a point where things like that aren't enough to make you ok anymore.
@nurifiid9620
Ай бұрын
Yeah, I get that I have a pretty similar scenario myself
@YAOURIANGEL
Ай бұрын
honestly that question is so stupid because anyone can be depressed for a lot of reasons, for reasons people don’t know about.
@guadalupelemus2100
26 күн бұрын
GOD BLESS JESUS IS THE WAY THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE NO ONE COMES BEFOR THE FATHER EXCEPT THRU HIM JOHN 3:16 ✝️❤️🙏 SORRY I MISSED ANYTHING OR MISS SPELED ANYTHING ✝️❤️🙏✝️✝️✝️
@rose92008
25 күн бұрын
@@guadalupelemus2100 wise words 😊❤🙏
@rose92008
25 күн бұрын
@@nurifiid9620 hope it gets better for you 🙏
@Filminformer1984
2 ай бұрын
You told someone. That right there is your sign that holding on and giving yourself a chance is a good place to start from. Our minds are so powerful but sometimes misguided.
@Jwool.mp3
2 ай бұрын
I completely agree. We got this
@anniehale5507
2 ай бұрын
@@Jwool.mp3 You’ll find the light at the end of the tunnel!
@SEGAMAST3R
2 ай бұрын
@@Jwool.mp3This is random but, I care about you. Thank you for putting this up on the internet because people can relate and they don’t feel like they’re suffering alone.
@callen8000
3 ай бұрын
Forget the weed or drug-testing concerns. That's minor. The important thing is that you told someone about your dark thoughts, and that you are seeking professional help. Depression is serious and extremely common. It's not your fault, and it's no more a sign of weakness than getting any other disease. It's a problem that can be caused by genetics, chemical imbalance, psychological trauma, and environmental factors. If you remember a triggering event, that would be critical for your psychiatrist to know about, so, by ALL means, be as forthright with the psychiatrist as you are here with your subscribers...and even more so. Hiding something embarrassing from a psychiatrist is like not seeing a doctor about a suspicious lump that doesn't go away. There is treatment for depression! And tell your psychiatrist about your plans to move out when turn 18. It's possible that the psychiatrist might think that's a bad idea right now, especially if you are welcome at home. Jumping into life on your own can add stress at a time when you may need a little less of it. Give your psychiatrist some time. You're obviously a very bright young man, and you're smart enough to seek help. That is half the battle, and it says a lot about your desire to get better...which we all hope and trust you will. Congratulations on graduation.
@user-ue6tl6nz8f
3 ай бұрын
The weed is an issue. It's an escape for him form bad feelings . The feelings have to be faced . The weed is only a symptom of something deeper that he needs to face and change or accept. But the more he uses it the harder it will be to face whatever is the real issue.
@callen8000
3 ай бұрын
Well, I was referring to his worrying about telling his parents about the weed...or about his parents getting him drug tested. If those worries had stopped him from telling his parents about his dark thoughts, that could have been tragic. I certainly agree that his USE of weed is not good.
@vaughnsdesk8676
3 ай бұрын
Just happened to stumble upon this video by chance, never comment however, all I'd like to add is that you're not alone! There's some good advice in the comments...so well done for stepping Up. These feelings could happen to anyone at any place or anytime or at any age.
@X-Cactus
2 ай бұрын
@user-ue6tl6nz8f That's an ignorant misconception. Weed was instrumental in my own therapy. Weed does not assist in hiding your feelings, like alcohol would do. Most times, weed puts your thoughts into overdrive, and it can bring things to the surface (even memories). Obviously, the effects of weed varies from person to person. But to say weed is some "escape" from your emotions is factually incorrect. There's a reason so many like to get high, and for me, it's helped me to process many things that I couldn't have done as well without it. So no, weed is not an issue at all. Only those who are not acquainted with it would say something like that.
@Pedigru
2 ай бұрын
@@X-Cactus Listen. You should not come in here during a very serious conversation and state what you think are facts. You are wrong. Smoking weed is absolutely escapism. It's well known to be. Any decent counselor or psychiatrist will say so. If you insist on claiming anything at all in the future, label it as your opinion. That way people know you're just a ignorant internet dweller and will discount your invalid opinions.
@nolongeractive-i9f
2 ай бұрын
When I first attempted in 2017 at the age of 10 my mother was really mad at me for wasting the school's time and then attempted again in 2020 when I was 13. My mother told me when she got a phone call from school. "I wouldn't miss you if you died Delynn! You really hate us punishing you for not turning in homework??" That garbage statement told me everything that I needed to know about my mother. I'm so sorry that you are dealing with this. If you need anything I'm here and I'm here to chat and let you talk about whatever you need to.
@Crossed._.Pawzzz
Ай бұрын
You’re still here. I’m glad you exist
@mirrianimelover9179
Ай бұрын
Your so strong ❤ I have issues with my mum too toxic family’s are the worst :/
@cookieeofcc
Ай бұрын
oh my gosh.. i am so sorry love 💔
@mykittenisaferociousnugget
Ай бұрын
@@Crossed._.Pawzzz I second this. We're all glad you exist and we all think you're resilient and valid!
@mishhhhhhhhhhhhh
Ай бұрын
Youdidnt deserve that hope that your OK and know that you are loved❤
@TheRandomView
2 ай бұрын
As a survivor of a suicide attempt, I can say the best thing I've learned since then is that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Wishing you well. Life can be too much sometimes and it's okay for you to take time off to take care of your mental health. If you can access good therapy, you can benefit from it. I think it's so good that you're sharing your truths. It's better than keeping it all balled up. The weed is just a technique for coping. Cannabis is safer and better for society than alcohol. Many therapists will prescribe it for depression and anxiety. Your parents will always love you even if they learn you're smoking weed. I believe in you!
@haisay8674
2 ай бұрын
God loves you and he wants a relationship with you he wants to give you peace even in hard times and his love that surpasses all understanding he cares about you and wants to free you from sin and he wants to save you if you would let him and accept his Son the Lord Jesus Christ who died on the cross for us Eternal life is getting to know the one true God and whom he sent the Lord Jesus Christ who died on the cross and shed his blood for us so that we can have Eternal life , he can free you from those thoughts
@TheRandomView
2 ай бұрын
@@haisay8674 Um, while I appreciate your caring, Your religion teaches the hate that caused the suicide attempt in the first place. My faith is in good, not in god(s). In good I trust.
@BunchOfGreyGrapes
2 ай бұрын
@@haisay8674 Not everyone is religious. I would recommend you ask someone first.
@Eu125bonilla
2 ай бұрын
Attempt again
@_SHARKS_
2 ай бұрын
@@Eu125bonillawhat is wrong with you? Like you’re not funny, you’re not cool, you’re not a good person.
@danaekoloka9819
Ай бұрын
I felt this so much. I am su*cidal too, depression is really kicking my ass as of late. I can only hope it gets better. I'm seeing a psychiatrist and am currently on medication but it hasn't really worked yet. And i also hate the question "why" because there isn't always a straightforward answer or reason behind it
@vivikfv
Ай бұрын
Fr, it's like, why wouldn't I be?
@Nitidus
13 күн бұрын
Medication takes time to kick in, generally 2-4 weeks. You should slowly start feeling better now. If not, you might want to talk to your psychiatrist again to adjust dosage or switch medication. Regarding "the why", researching it helped me. Of course you need to be interested in it. But learning about the science behind depression, what we know and don't know, about the biochemistry and how different types of medication work, all of that made it a lot easier for me to accept the situation. It makes you actually realize how this is an illness, first and foremost. Additionally, I want to know my shit when talking to doctors or my therapist. It gives you back some sense of control. Over the years I learned a lot about different mental illnesses and everything because once you dig into one of them, you will stumble upon others as well. The time spent on it really paid out, especially since it enabled me to more or less competently assist friends and people I got to know who developed issues and didn't know what was happening to them. I do think everybody who's suffering from depression or other stuff should learn at least the scientific fundamentals about what this is and how it works. When I was at the day clinic, education was actually part of the schedule. From what I've heard about the American health system, you'd probably have to educate yourself on this stuff, but it's very much advisable imo. And there are countless low-threshold resources out there.
@robellis3705
3 ай бұрын
Tough video to make I am sure !!! You have a ton of support to help you out !!! Things will get better !!! Hang in there !!!
@Jwool.mp3
3 ай бұрын
Thank you! I will
@friendship9904
3 ай бұрын
@@Jwool.mp3I Jwool I understand U because I have been going through that on and off but in 2017 I saw a doctor she told me I got depression and anxiety and stress and I did think about killing myself a lot and the doctor wanted me to talk drugs to help me I said no so what I did was finding ways to fight it and it helps me a lot like Having my time like my own space to relax I found a lake an hour away from me I go there 2 times a yr and the only person knows is my best friend because he lives near there I sometimes write in my private book it helps because a week later I read what I write Listen to 80s and 90s music and dance to it when I got the house to myself And the biggest problem I had when I was a kid I was a coward I didn't fight for what I believe or fight back like I got bully once at work and the next day I fight back but a couple of days later everyone bully that person for me and I support him because the fight was between us and I don't want people to take sides maybe talk to him but not bullying him a week later he resigned from work Now I am over 40s still have a lot of learning to do . But what I did do is keep away from toxic people hanging out with small groups and don't believe in politics and media. Plus I believe in one God 5 yrs ago I went through hell with my toxic work place and I had a couple of dead's in my family and drama with friends and family lucky I had one good friend who supported me through it and God did to but my co worker ask me how I survived all that and how do i stay smiling I told I am very lucky person
@haisay8674
2 ай бұрын
God loves you and he wants a relationship with you he wants to give you peace even in hard times and his love that surpasses all understanding he cares about you and wants to free you from sin and he wants to save you if you would let him and accept his Son the Lord Jesus Christ who died on the cross for us Eternal life is getting to know the one true God and whom he sent the Lord Jesus Christ who died on the cross and shed his blood for us so that we can have Eternal life , he can free you from those thoughts
@michaelfranco4282
2 ай бұрын
@Jwool.mp3 im here for you if you need anything sorry that your having these thoughts let me know if theres anything i can do to help send me message anytime if you ever need anything or comfort ill do anything for you.
@anniehale5507
2 ай бұрын
@@Jwool.mp3 You are not alone!
@charlieiscorrect2856
22 күн бұрын
The thoughts of running away are so real. It sounds so messed up to say this but sometimes I wish nobody was around to care about me so I could just leave. But I can’t do that to my family fr.
@Subliminally_citrus
20 күн бұрын
I understand what ym honestly..
@charlieiscorrect2856
18 күн бұрын
@@Subliminally_citrus rough out here
@Subliminally_citrus
18 күн бұрын
@@charlieiscorrect2856 Yk it
@ChickentNug
14 күн бұрын
That fear of destroying my family was the only thing that kept me around and I'm so glad I did. I finally feel purpose and I want to build a life. I really hope you get past this, and be sure to get help when you need it. I always hid it from everyone and I wish I didn't
@user-em8lj6fg5q
2 ай бұрын
Congrats on graduating brother. Sad to see you going through some rough times, can't wait to see you emerge from the dark
@Jwool.mp3
2 ай бұрын
Thank you!!
@wsdmoeada9958
2 ай бұрын
@@Jwool.mp3I’m sure you’ll make it. It’s always temporarily
@ktmmatt7243
2 ай бұрын
The first step in confronting a problem is admitting you have one. Your already on the right path in dealing with these thoughts and wish you nothing but the best.
@haisay8674
2 ай бұрын
God loves you and he wants a relationship with you he wants to give you peace even in hard times and his love that surpasses all understanding he cares about you and wants to free you from sin and he wants to save you if you would let him and accept his Son the Lord Jesus Christ who died on the cross for us Eternal life is getting to know the one true God and whom he sent the Lord Jesus Christ who died on the cross and shed his blood for us so that we can have Eternal life , he can free you from those thoughts
@abbyd7242
2 ай бұрын
@@haisay8674 Okay, I'm Christian too. But respectfully, please shut up. You are the stereotypical Christian that pushes your religion on everybody. This is not the appropriate time and place for you to spread faith :)
@TylerDreams
3 ай бұрын
You are not alone. Just take it one day at a time. ✌🏻
@Jwool.mp3
3 ай бұрын
Yessir
@michaelfranco4282
2 ай бұрын
Tyler dreams well i feel alone i have suicidal thoughts
@shotbygrny
Ай бұрын
@@michaelfranco4282you’re not alone man
@emjayforster325
3 ай бұрын
Some basic info from someone who's been there: if you have made plans (that's key) about how you'd k*ll yourself, run don't walk for help. A secure psych unit at a hospital will take your belt, shoelaces, & razor. They are big on occupational therapy (arts & crafts lol), and you'd be examined by a psychiatrist. You'd be there 5-10 days or so while they evaluate you and start you on prescription (Rx) medication. Using my experience as an example, it took 3 years and trying about 12 Rx before we found a combination that worked for me & didn't leave me feeling like a zombie. But now life is good most days. I have a chronic mental health issue being treated medically. It can take time, but if treated your life will get better. Change Rx, change therapist or psychiatrist if you have to, just don't give up on yourself. Hang in there, man. Life is worth living, & s**cide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
@Jwool.mp3
3 ай бұрын
I’ll hang in there, but I’m not sure about medication and hospitals yet 🤷♂️
@evesyoutube3020
2 ай бұрын
@@Jwool.mp3 no look up 5150 and people exprinces and you tell me how you feel after watching someone tell there story about 5150
@h-zw3rl
22 күн бұрын
And how much will they charge u for all that? I'm depressed af but why would I burden my struggling and over stressed parents any further w/ medical bills they'd never pay off?
@davidshelton258
2 ай бұрын
Imma be honest, never heard of this kid before now, but we all need to appreciate how mature he is through this. Being able and willing to lay out your emotions in this way is both so brave and difficult.seeing that someone my age struggles with the same thoughts as me means a lot
@EllaBella90345
2 ай бұрын
I’ve had those thoughts too. No one knows about them bc they don’t care but it’s gotten better because of God. He helped me through that hard time. You’ve got this! ❤
@Jwool.mp3
2 ай бұрын
I care. And I’m not religious, but god cares. The universe always knows. I’m glad that helped you through them. Thank you
@EllaBella90345
2 ай бұрын
@@Jwool.mp3 aww thank u for caring. That means a lot to me. I care for u and I hope ur doing well. I’m here if u ever need someone to talk to lol.
@Rangersarethebestintheuk2023
2 ай бұрын
Same don’t worry
@Leahmariah12
2 ай бұрын
@@Jwool.mp3please go to the true reglious Jesus find him he will help you
@Makthecat
Ай бұрын
I’ve had those thoughts aswell back in 2023 I was severely depressed and then I met Jesus and my life flipped I still have moments where I’m struggling but I go to God about them but I’m so happy I found another person who also got healed through God, and so many people heal in other ways, God bless you ❤
@lancewalker9513
3 ай бұрын
Hey Pal, I’m going to be 65 in August, I had the exact same things and thoughts from early life. I had to find what motivated me, what my main interests were. I loved being around heavy equipment, it fascinated me and still does. Your interests are video, writing etc. Go there, it’s in your heart. Please hang in there, follow your dreams. You will be making a video one day where you will be saying “I won, I beat my depression, I’m doing great. It’s there man, don’t give up. We will have struggles all through life, we have to battle them off one at a time. I’ve been fighting stage 4 Cancer for 19 months and just lost one of my best friends, my dog. I’m broken, but I know that believing in myself I will get through it. My Mom is 92, she’s still there with words of encouragement, and hugs. Stay strong, please stay strong. Sending my love to you from Alberta Canada. ❤️🤗
@tctecsas9340
2 ай бұрын
Please take natural anti cancer stuff : berberine, vit B1 and B3 (its 2 forms are ok), resveratrol, boron, vit D3 with vit k2, and bromelaine. Take some glycine amino acid too. If depressed, then go for tryptophane or tyrosine, and threonine. Take Care. From France here.;;;;
@jackma7972
2 ай бұрын
Love
@lancewalker9513
2 ай бұрын
@@tctecsas9340 Thank you so much. All great suggestions. ❤️
@yo9979
2 ай бұрын
So thankful for your kindness, you're really encouraging. Jesus loves you and died for you❤ :)
@bitterweet5115
Ай бұрын
hope your well brother
@colbyandbrennen3543
2 ай бұрын
Being vulnerable and telling the people who love you was the best choice for getting through this
@ellacarolinee
Ай бұрын
i went through something similar. just know it will all get better eventually focus on yourself and take everything one day at a time. i remember feeling like what i was going through was the end of the world but looking back at things years later it all seems so small. keep holding on.
@Jwool.mp3
Ай бұрын
Hey thank you I really appreciate it. I’ve been struggling hard but I’m lucky to have such great support from my parents and girlfriend. I know myself and everyone watching who relates to me will come out on top
@e.nowbodhi144
3 ай бұрын
this is a solid 1st step towards healing
@alekhinesgun9997
3 ай бұрын
Couple things I gathered from this video. I'm nearly 22 now, and in high school felt the exact same. I felt it around the same time you had, for the most part it's a lost kind of feeling, especially during the end of high school, you're mentally preparing yourself for the departure and complete change of your environment. On top of that you're examining yourself, your relationships, your career, your future, etc the most you ever have. That's pretty depressing at times. This video in my eyes is a good sign towards things getting better. The "secret" is out, now you have people around you that will hopefully understand you a little better and hopefully you can connect to a deeper level. These are weird and tough years, I promise if you can make it out, it will get better. I just want to drop a side note here about the weed bit. I know you and many others in this comment section are quick to dismiss it, but I suggest you take it into consideration that it may be playing a part. I don't for one second think it's the cause, but it's most definitely an amplifier. It can make good times better and bad times worse. It can give that short temporary relief, but it's just numbing what you'll have to confront later. I've witnessed this first hand when my older brother took his life when I was in high school. He was struggling for a while but he went for the exact same copes of weed, vapes, and "non-addictive" drugs. He was nothing close to a drug addict but just someone who just dabbled in them for social occasions but I can confidently say it made everything a lot worse. The human body isn't made for you to relax every night with weed. That's building a dependency on something your body does not naturally produce and works towards craving a state of sedation where your problems are pushed away. The weed can't and won't solve your problems, but you can. I'm very glad to see you're with a therapist and I hope they can help you sort out the underlying issues so you can live a dependency free life and have the blissful affects of weed without needing to smoke. Take care man, we're rooting for you.
@anthonywilson1754
2 ай бұрын
I'm age 22 as well. I posted above about what happened to me growing up through high school. I never got into smoking anything and never interested in drugs. I did gymnastics for 14 years and had injuries along the way. After I got beat up I got into aggressive abdominal training (they targeted my muscular abs for their fun). The night I got beat up I took a lot ibuprofen. As I later got into training to take hard punches I used a lot of ibuprofen and that became a habit. And I was taking punches a lot in high school. When I got a construction job with health benefits I worried about how much I abused ibuprofen but so far I got lucky. I handled my mental health issues by abusing my body in the name of training to build rock hard abs. But over time (ages 17 and 18) I got very good at it. And when I got depressed or anxious I had plenty of athlete friends more than happy to "train" me by taking their punches. I don't remember anyone telling me I should stop abusing my body. They had too much fun with me keeping going. After high school I moved away for a job and that turned out to be the start of me healing--both body but also my mental health. I hope this guy in the video can work his way through his issues. I'm positive a lot of people want him in their lives. I needed to learn that myself.
@DZAG_OFFICIAL
2 ай бұрын
Preach hard king 👑 the weed thing is so true especially to me I'm going to cut my vices for a while to allow me to focus on the gym and become a beast lol
@sonnybobbie22
2 ай бұрын
im so sorry you’re going through this. just because u “have a great life” doesn’t mean you can’t be depressed. :/ that’s so invalidating and i want you to know that it IS possible and that it doesn’t mean you’re being selfish or ungrateful. sending positivity - stay strong, man!
@RichardSmith-bm2us
2 ай бұрын
Your honesty is refreshing. Hang in there. Life is crazy but worth all of the craziness. You are not alone in your feelings.
@Jwool.mp3
2 ай бұрын
Thank you!! I’m hopeful for the future
@RichardSmith-bm2us
2 ай бұрын
@@Jwool.mp3 Excellent. I think you’re going to do just great. I subscribed to see where you take it. Life can be a shit show sometimes but we all need these ups and downs to keep us going. You’re not alone. Rock on man
@AKA-lr6cv
2 ай бұрын
As someone who has been in your shoes.. take one step at a time, one day at a time and you can find light in the darkness.
@Jwool.mp3
2 ай бұрын
Yup that’s all I can do. The only way out is through
@dayanaM2108
2 ай бұрын
my mom told me i was just following a trend on the internet. that i wasn’t actually depressed or suicidal. i was 12.. edit: i hope evb who was struggling or is rn, is doing better. i’m so sorry that you all had to go through these things.🤍
@sophi463
2 ай бұрын
Fr my mom has a lot of mental issues and I told her that I was feeling overly anxious and I think I’m depressed and she asked if I was trying to copy her (she has depression) then she gave me reasons why I’m not. It’s been getting worse since then and I’m still asking for help from this day 🫤
@nahreally_yeah
2 ай бұрын
@@sophi463 you good? wishing you all the best
@matyasradimersky715
2 ай бұрын
@@sophi463go to the psycholog, i know its not easy i know that because when i went to the psycholog for the first time, my heart was beating so much and i had a feeling like throw up. But iam sooo glad that i did that. Now iam on medications for suicidal depression and for anxiety and iam feeling much better (its not your choice to feel depressed and have anxiety).
@telekeet
2 ай бұрын
@@sophi463 much love, but please see a therapist like actually
@secho88
2 ай бұрын
@@sophi463depression can be passed down from the family tree apparently
@pietro_f00
2 ай бұрын
You're so brave. I've been struggling with depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts for ten years, and I never told anyone anything. My family wouldn't understand, they never understand mental health topics.... I really hope that therapy will help you a great deal. I know, it's a tough path, but you can do it. With patience, perseverance, and self-compassion. After all, after 10 tears, I'm still here, aren't i? :) You can do it, too. If there's something I learned over time, is that we are always stronger than we think, especially when we don't feel like it, and even if sometimes it feels terrible, it is never as worse as our mind makes us think it is. Wish you the best!
@elijahyoung8116
2 ай бұрын
I can say from experience that hiding your feelings doesn’t go well. I bottled up my grief from the past 5 years and it took till this year for it to come back. From my point of view tell someone you know you can trust but also really understands what you’re going through so they can help you
@BunchOfGreyGrapes
2 ай бұрын
I am 12 years old and when I was 7-10 years old, I got depressed and had suicidal thoughts. Because I was so young, my parents thought I was lying and didn't really care. It took a lot of courage for me to say that to them too, and I never said anything after that. When I was 9 years old, my great uncle passed away which worsened my depression significantly. I had never been in a plane, but that was the first time I went in a plane. I flew 30 minutes or so to a city that'd take 4 hours to drive to. I'll forever have to know my first plane ride in my life was to see my dying great uncle. He was 55 years old and died to a massive stroke. I didn't know him too well, but he was always there on birthdays and Christmases and he brought this atmosphere to our family that has changed special occasions forever. I am SO glad that I'm not having suicidal thoughts anymore. I waited 3 years thinking like that until I slowly started to get better and I never noticed myself getting better until one day I was by myself and realised I was feeling fine, not depressed or suicidal, just fine. I was so happy to realise that I might have fought through it. After 2 years since I left depression, I am still happy that I am okay now. I still haven't told my parents about it and having a psychiatrist would have been a good idea, but I was too nervous to ask my parents, and I've had a bad experience with psychiatrists when I was 3-8 years old when I was getting diagnosed with autism. (They never even diagnosed me, they just threw their hands up and said I don't know.) I'm kind of in this situation again but with Tourette's Syndrome (or TOCD). I am about 96% sure I have it, but I am WAY too nervous to tell my parents about it. If you read all the way down to here, thanks for reading this. I've never written about what has happened in my life like this before. UPDATE: I told my mother about my suspicions about Tourette's or Provisional Tic Disorder, and TOCD. She will let me go to the doctor if I want to, but I am thinking about waiting for a bit longer. I had already talked to her about if I might have OCD, so I brought that up and said I think I might have Tourettic OCD, and then brought up a tic disorder. Was very nervous, but I did it!
@7ae761
2 ай бұрын
i feel that. i remember being exactly your age, i was suffering a lot and wasn’t able to tell anyone anything. im figuring things out better as i grow older but it’s still a struggle. i just wanted to tell you im proud of how you’ve managed to pull yourself out to a better place, not losing the fight you had with that deep dark depression. and im sorry your parents didn’t believe you, just because you’re young doesnt mean you can’t suffer. parents have the most important role in supporting their child and its heartbreaking that they did not take it serious. but i do see you, and your struggles. there will always be good and bad days, best and worst days, but please don’t ever stop trying to reach for help just because you might get denied some times. that’s their problem, not yours. you’re the most important thing in your life and you have to take all the risks if it means to save yourself. i wish id known that before, knowing to ask for help. having the courage to. its really important. anyways, ive talked too much lol. you please take care and you can feel free to reach out to me if you ever need to (or just anyone you trust) :)
@BunchOfGreyGrapes
2 ай бұрын
@@7ae761 Thank you for those kind words. Your comment made me feel a lot better about myself, thank you so much. I'm sorry that you felt that way too. It's good that you're figuring things out better!
@EricWhiteTheGamer
2 ай бұрын
Out of everyone you should be able to trust and tell it’s your parents. I’m sorry your parents didn’t believe you. Actually I’m friends with a couple people who have similar experiences… and myself even. I was afraid to go to my parents till this year. I regretted it somewhat but they got me the help I need. I highly recommend you talk to your parents about your concerns with having Tourette's Syndrome. I am willing to help word it if I somehow could. It is important to remember that there is always people out there to help you. Thank you so much for sharing.
@BunchOfGreyGrapes
2 ай бұрын
@@EricWhiteTheGamer Thank you for your comment. I'm sorry you and your friends have been through it too. I am glad you got help! That takes a lot of courage and bravery. Yeah, I usually tell my mother about my suspicions of something, but every time she is alone and I can ask, I just can't lol. I hope I can build up the courage 🤞.
@EricWhiteTheGamer
2 ай бұрын
@@BunchOfGreyGrapes You are very much welcome and thank you, I am not going to lie, I’m 19… 20 in Sep. It doesn’t get easier. I told my parents my situation but regret it and am not sure I will continue to or not in the future. It’s important for people to know that there’s others out there and some (like me) who’s willing to help.
@nichelleniks4526
2 ай бұрын
This came up on my recommended, and I've never seen your content before. But I have been in your shoes. I'm 30 now, but 15 years ago I was the same, depressed and not knowing what was wrong. Since then I've been diagnosed and am on medication and it's been amazing. But it's not for everyone. Keep your head up, and take things one step at a time. Being open and talking about it is the best first step. Praying for you and wishing you the best
@nonFluencerNoWa
3 ай бұрын
Jwool, I suffered severe clinical depression for 16 years. For the first 12, I thought I could think my way out of it so I finally decided pharma/psychiatry because I didn’t want to be a burden in my relationship to my then boyfriend. I didn’t have family or friends so he was the only I had to rely on and I didn’t want to be that much of a burden. But I was *too depressed* to move and I was never able to commit to the anti-seizure medication a psychiatrist prescribed me as an anti-depressant. So, I never made it to the pharm-route. I hear you @mental hospital. No matter how bad I got, I didn’t want that. Depression has nothing to do with a great life. Has nothing to do with how privileged you are. You’re feeling lost and trapped for some reason that’s unique to you as a human. It could be societal expectations. It could be unrealistic expectations you have of yourself that you haven’t fully articulated into actual words. Here’s the deal, J, it is very possible to heal from Depression. I unfortunately do not come from a privileged life and did not have access to quality mental health resources but I found a way to heal myself. It’s a verrrrry long process. Took me about 11 years to figure it out. I haven’t been properly depressed in 5 years even though I’ve had some really extremely challenging moments to navigate so now I’ve been boldly making claims that I am healed. Still, I’ve never met anyone or read about anyone who has healed themselves from severe clinical Depression so part of me is waiting for the other shoe to drop. But to get to this point where I can boldly make these claims for myself, I really had to start searching for and articulating what my fears were into words. Meaning, getting it out of my head. I met a random stranger who became my penpal and during an email exchange, I did just that. I explored my fears by exploring him and we ended up exploring each other and that was the turning point for my healing. You’re externalizing your thoughts here in this vlog so that’s a great start! And yea, find and explore your creative mind with your friend. It really helps. Depression takes away your ability to be prepared for events or moments you don’t understand or can’t seem to control so a good way to start healing is to identify what your thought patterns are and start redesigning them. Our brains have the ability to do that so you should explore that. And when you’re feeling down, come on here, do a live even, get it out. Write, talk out loud. You’re really brave for speaking up. (Will help you get to 10k by *subscribing*. Good luck and stay on the journey of healing journey)
@Slymoneygang
2 ай бұрын
so basically i need to change my pattern as much as i don’t think i can sometimes because i feel just how you said trapped and i can’t get out of this feeling and it’s only one feeling and it’s bad i’m seeking something higher then what i am God for what it’s worth do not understand maybe he dose but i do Question him as i should because God put me here with very troubling times for the last 4 years and i can’t escape that my life sucks and i don’t want it to suck but maybe God made my life suck in order for me to get closer to him but i wish i just had a regular life ya know and i don’t have that really it’s been the same story since i was 14 and it’s hard makes me feel like an outcast and weird and just straight up alone and i all have is bad feelings but i want God to be in control take the steering wheel for awhile because he put the wrong driver in the driver seat cause idk what i’m doing
@nonFluencerNoWa
2 ай бұрын
@@Slymoneygang You absolutely need to changed your thought pattern. You may even need to change your thought pattern about God. Those thought patterns are limiting what you can think and how you can think. Your life sucks because Life sucks for the majority of humans on this planet. Very few are born in an ideal situation where their first 2 decades of life doesn’t feel like hell. And even for the small group of humans on this planet that ARE born into an ideal situation - surrounded by the most ideal of circumstances - end up feeling tortured and alone. So that leaves us with the reality that, for the majority of humans, life sucks at the beginning. And it suck because your brain is developing and the world does not make sense while your brain is trying to process logic alongside your reality. In addition, all the people raising you for the first decade or two of your life are conditioning you into patterns of thinking that revolves around God/religion, gender norms, expectations of how you ought to advance through your aging process in order to be considered successfully, etc. This *conditioning* puts you at a severe disadvantage in your developing process because it limits your thought patterns. And limited thought patterns mean you are going to be easily trapped in a loop of thoughts you cannot break out of and those thoughts will most likely be negative thoughts that will make you feel awful. Why will they most likely be negative thoughts? Because, while your brain is developing and trying to make sense of the world, the thought partners you were conditioned into will not properly *align* with your individual experience of the Life. The reason it will *not align* is because everything you have been conditioned into thinking is believing does not align with the complexities of what it actually means to be HUMAN. Overthinking is a direct result of your brain *desperately* trying to make sense to align limiting artificial conditioning of society/religion/culture with the natural instincts and impulses that you have as an individual. WHAT DID I DO IN ORDER TO CHANGE MY THOUGHT PATTERNS SO THAT I CAN HEAL MYSLEF? I de-conditioned myself. I abandoned all the concepts I was thought about good/bad, right/wrong, male/female and I started to reframe my entire experience. It was excruciating because, for my entire twenties, I felt SOOOO ALONE. Imagine having conversations with people and disagreeing with what they felt to be wrong? Or bad? Imagine doing that while you’re a black young woman who society as a whole doesn’t necessarily favor or empathize with readily? It was crushing but reframing my thoughts allowed to think outside my ordinary patterns of thoughts so I was able to develop NEW answers for my problems. If I didn’t hurt myself or anyone else physically, or take anything away from someone’s right to think and feel the way they wanted to think and feel, my idea was, ANY THING i think and feel is good and right to explore. So I did just that. You need to find someone to do that with. A therapist is a good start. Go out and meet random strangers is great too. Searching online as well. The goal is to: 1. Explore how others think and feel and how they problem solve their experiences. You’ll find most people who are in pain are stuck in the same thought patterns. These observations will spark up all kinds of innovative ideas in your mind that will liberate you. 2. Make sure to compare your own thought patterns with others. This is extremely important because you will begin to identify your own thoughts patterns more easily. It’s difficult to discover this in the privacy of your own mind and on your own. When you identify others with thought patterns that are similar to your own, you can gain insight into your feelings and reactions to your environment through exploring how people with similar thought patterns feel and react to their environment. Doesn’t have to be similar circumstances or environment at all. 3. Make sure that you are documenting your experience into words. Either written or spoken. Meaning, you must find your self in a state of reflection and introspection often so that you are building a strong connection with yourself. 4. An important part of this process is to unraveling the conditioning of what you’re supposed to do (as a man, or as a woman), what you’re supposed to want, what you’re supposed to feel. And explore the reality you find yourself in. Accept that this is your reality. You are no more special than anyone else on this planet. And no one else is more special than you. You are just a you that is in a situation that you have to problem solve. Just like the majority of humans in the world. You have to problem solve this, “how can I make this present reality work for me in a way that doesn’t physically harm myself or anyone?” You don’t want to intentionally cause anyone emotional pain but you are not responsible for how they react to the way you are trying to find your way. And if they are against your way and claim they know what’s best for you based on what’s normal, good and right, then you have to introduce new thought patterns to cope with that. Those thought patterns should include ideas like: - if someone else’s thoughts and feelings work for them, then that’s great but if they are not working for me, I can consider them and explore their thoughts and feelings to see if I can find some measure value that can contribute to my growth but their thoughts and feelings, in general, simply will not have any significance in my journey. - if you don’t fit in to where you live or with the people you hang out, explore ways you can use that reality that you’re currently in to you advantage by exploring how the people around you think and feel. What are their thought patterns? How is it helpful for them? Are their thought patterns littered with double standards? Identify if you want to fit in and be accepted by people with the thought patterns that you may discover. All the materialist things we think we need to liberate us from bad feelings never liberate us until we liberate our thought patterns. So look closely at everything in your present situation, accept it as just a part of the experience of being human, and realize that you have the capacity to use your present situation to your advantage. That’s what it means to be human. It means you have the freedom of thought and what and how you think is not limited. Cats and dogs, in contrast, don’t have the same freedoms. :)
@markytka8614
22 күн бұрын
Hearing you talk about this, all open and shit, wow! its extremely brave of you to share this. Hope it gets at least a little better for you and your family.
@svnnysvfia
11 күн бұрын
i wish more people are more comfortable talking about depression and all the shit that happens. i’m genuinely glad that u are here to tell us .
@Sayless369
25 күн бұрын
It’s refreshing to hear someone else talk about this stuff
@timloader
2 ай бұрын
Running away from your situation rarely ends well, but getting help is the first step. Remember how many supportive people you have around you and don’t be afraid to speak up, just like you have here. Good luck 😊
@redvivius
Ай бұрын
I absolutely feel you man, praying for you
@Trippy000
2 ай бұрын
Man depression fucking sucks. My depression started when I was ten and now im fifteen, shits still not gone. I don't know why. But, I was diagnosed with clinical depression at thirteen, not doing therapy or on meds, I'm just living. We just gotta power through.
@daydream1329
2 ай бұрын
I get it. Spend my adolescence being depressed too. I don’t know your situation entirely and know it can be tricky with health insurance but believe me therapy (and meds) might be exactly what you need. You not wanting it is the depression. If you have been depressed for several years, I highly highly highly recommend therapy. Do it for you❤️ You deserve to be better, you deserve external help. I’m thinking of you and wishing you strength.
@Trippy000
2 ай бұрын
@@daydream1329 I have tried both and the medicine made me feel worse but therapy was great. I just can't afford it regularly
@DonnyDoesntBite
Ай бұрын
I immediately felt my heart hurt after watching this video. As someone going through depression at the moment it's truly sickening to see what depression does to innocent minds that just want to do good. The best advice I could give anyone going through similar scenarios is to just truly appreciate your favorite memories, find a passion that inspires you to get through the day, dont hesitate to talk to trusted piers and family if you are having trouble. I'm going to promise you now that no matter where your at in the situation, there's nothing wrong with feeling horrible. Everything is going to be okay and you should stick around to see the beautiful life you were given. I pray that the lord sends guidance to anyone going through tough times, I pray that he helps inspire them to do only good things. 🙏
@daveglanville7059
3 ай бұрын
I'm glad you were able to speak to your mother. You said the look on your mother's face was heartbreaking but only imagine the look on her and your father's faces had you acted on your thoughts instead of speaking about your thoughts. It saddens my heart that more and more people don't speak to someone. I applaud you young man for speaking not only to your mother but to the public. More eyes need to be opened as to the reality of depression and suicidal ideations. As for the "weed" it isn't the cure. That being said a lot of parents look for reasons to blame these thoughts you are having. The reality is weed is often an attempt of escape but it unfortunately doesn't fix the underlying problem. My prayers are with you and I wish you great health and many more years. You are worthy.
@commonsquidtail
2 ай бұрын
I'm proud of you brother. Thanks for making this video I hope you understand how much this helps others. Much love
@SC9750-r3w
2 ай бұрын
Just now seeing this and I must say I'm impressed with how open you are about something so personal to people you don't know. That can be dangerous when you're vulnerable but I see from the comments you have a lot of support from people who genuinely seem to care about you. I gotta say my heart sank when you said you were suicidal. I'm 64 so we have a few generations between us but I wanted to share something I hope you will give some thought to. I have dealt with depression most of my life from adolescence on. I was about your age when I first had suicidal thoughts but by grace I never followed through. Depression wasn't as widely researched and diagnosed when I was your age and there certainly weren't any medications available to help mitigate the symptoms. I do believe that those who live with depression are the only ones who truly understand the trials and tribulations. Without going into all of mine I want ask you to use your imagination for just a moment and imagine yourself at 25 or 35 years old. I know you're probably thinking you don't have a clue where you'll be or what you'll be doing at 25 or 35 and I get it. But for just a moment imagine yourself at 25 or 35 and wonder what your personality and mindset will be. You have to know it won't be exactly the same as it is now as you will have grown and matured through life experiences. Fun fact; The male brain doesn't fully develop until around the age of 25. That's when the prefrontal cortex fully develops which is the part of your brain responsible for reasoning, planning, judgement and impulse control. As I mentioned I'm 64 now and still have an occasional episode but not nearly as often and for much shorter duration than when I was younger. Over time my brain has grown a bit better at navigating through my less than positive days. If I have anything of value to offer you it would be this: Be patient with yourself. Though your difficult moments are very real, they're only moments in your entire life. And if you're ever feeling suicidal please, please tell someone that can help you turn it around. I'm retired and available 24/7 if you want my number. Hang in there and maybe some day when you get old as me you can offer some advice to a young person with similar struggles. Wishing you only the best in all your future endeavors and am serious about being available 24/7 if you need to talk.
@haisay8674
2 ай бұрын
God loves you and he wants a relationship with you he wants to give you peace even in hard times and his love that surpasses all understanding he cares about you and wants to free you from sin and he wants to save you if you would let him and accept his Son the Lord Jesus Christ who died on the cross for us Eternal life is getting to know the one true God and whom he sent the Lord Jesus Christ who died on the cross and shed his blood for us so that we can have Eternal life , he can free you from those thoughts
@SC9750-r3w
2 ай бұрын
@@haisay8674 Thank you for your concern and it's great that you've been freed of your sins and are perusing a more holy life. However, I'm guessing you've never suffered from depression. It's important to understand that depression is not a spiritual issue and not curable through biblical means. Otherwise billions of Christians across the globe would be cured upon accepting Christ as their personal savior. Spirituality is extremely important as it is the one component of the human experience that makes us believe we can do things we've never done, or heal from the loss of a loved one, or become the person we want to be. One thing spirituality cannot effectively do is treat depression. Depression results from a complex interaction of social, psychological and biological/brain chemical factors. Many Christians would not be alive today had they not sought professional treatment. There are countless informative articles for anyone who wants to better understand the cause and effect of depression. Again, thank you for your concern. It's very generous of you and I genuinely wish you only the best in your spiritual journey.
@missedcall.frummadz
Ай бұрын
It takes strength to reach out. Im glad you were able to at least.
@Bayisbetter
Ай бұрын
you have almost the exact same experience with depression and dark thoughts as i have in and i really relate to feeling like you can’t open up about it because you have a great life and there’s no reason to feel that way but depression is an issue within your brain not with how horrible your life is
@pkdustin7559
2 ай бұрын
Thank you for speaking up to people about how you're feeling. Sometimes the world feels like it's ending but life will get better, just be patient.
@LeonC0704
2 ай бұрын
Reading Game of Thrones, I read a quote that really helped me with suicidal thoughts, it went something like this: “Death is so final, whereas life is full of possibilities''. And that's the thing, why would I do something so final when life changes SO MUCH that even if I'm going through hell today, tomorrow or the next week, month, or year I could be having the best life ever
@unnderneath
2 ай бұрын
I remember hearing Tyrion say this in the show lol
@Grif_17
2 ай бұрын
I'm watching the show for the first time with my dad and remember this. GoT is so good
@wbchino
3 ай бұрын
You seem like a proper decent, down to earth, nice guy. There are lots of people that will listen and support you 100%. Get in touch day or night wenever you need help/support m8. You have so much to look forward to. ❤️
@awralasaxar
2 ай бұрын
hi, i’m not sure if you’ll see this but i just wanted to thank you for putting this out into the world. you have no idea how much comfort this could bring someone who’s experiencing similar struggles. i’m 24 but i’ve struggled with depression and anxiety for most of my life. i started having life ending thoughts around 13, and was hospitalized for an attempt at 20. throughout those years of struggling, the only people who knew were my parents and brother. i couldn’t fathom telling any of my friends for fear of them shutting me out or seeing me differently. i think it’s incredible that you’re open to sharing your experience with the world. I can’t imagine how much a video like this would’ve helped me when i was your age. but what i really wanted to say is that even though i battle my depression every day, i’m in a much better place now than i was a year ago, or three, or six. i know how corny and unhelpful it can be to hear “it gets better,” but i really believe that it does. therapy will allow you to slowly build up a toolkit of coping skills and strategies, and moving out will open up your world view and introduce you to people and experiences that will transform you for the better. please hang on; I can tell that you are such a bright and wonderful soul who has so much to offer this world with your creativity and compassion. life will change and even though time won’t magically fix everything, I do believe it’ll get easier to bear with. hang in there, I believe in you. ♥️
@expertplayer6417
2 ай бұрын
I can personally feel your pain, Jwool. Me and my younger cousin have been struggling with suicidal thoughts for 2 years and 4 years repectfully. Especially because of COVID, our lives recently have been very tough and recovering from our traumatic past has not at all been easy.
@MatthiasRegisRict
16 күн бұрын
Putting yourself out there for an audience of thousands is an extremely vulnerable and brave thing. I'm sorry that you have felt this way for so long. You did the right thing telling your parents.
@CaptainJeffMarchant
3 ай бұрын
Hate seeing/hearing you having suicidal thoughts. Def tell rents before they drug test you that you smoke weed. You are going to be 18, an adult, soon enough. Besides the therapist do you have like 1 real close friend that you can talk to bout this? Keep positive thoughts bro
@lucasflanders8557
3 ай бұрын
I also struggled with depression at your age. For two years I got counseling which helped enormously. I never took any psychiatric drugs, but rather worked through it with therapy alone. But that might not work with clinical depression. I'm no expert. Your openness about discussing your depression here is the first step in recovery. You are very courageous. Wishing you the best!
@HisDuckling
18 күн бұрын
When I told my dad I vividly remember him getting so mad and getting close to my ear screaming "what else do you want in this life!" i'll never forget it, I felt so bad... I do understand he was frustrated but that was not the appropiate way to react. I don't blame him, I know he didn't know better. That was many years ago, he is my best friend now and I know we can talk about anything.
@fast5868
5 күн бұрын
Ngl, the fact is that most of the time you get sad because you had a situation such as friends, money, happiness, or even a girlfriend, but you lost that situation and you're not capable to get it back. What makes us Sad are the changes not what happen. I don't have a lot to say but my answer to people who says "you have a great life" is "Yeah, but it all changed lately".
@ilovetotri23
3 ай бұрын
I can totally relate to how you are feeling. I have never had any success with a psychiatrist. Everyone is different. It took me many years with a psychologist, to get me too a stable place. I still reach out when I am struggling. My psychologist is phenomenal! You are not alone! So many of us have battled this fight. I did take action on one occasion to take me my life, but failed. It is honestly the only time I have failed at anything. Life is challenging, no doubt. But as long as you have hope you will make it another day. I am so proud of you Jwool! I pray for you and your health! Peace!
@earlcurtis9337
3 ай бұрын
It gets better. But your honesty is super important. I'm 64 and you may think we got nothing in common. But I have battled depression and anxiety. The best thing about a mental health hospital is it gives your psychiatrist a chance to eliminate variables and get faster feedback on any medication he might prescribe. I'm so thankful for the best medical professionals that have helped me in many ways. Oh, yeah, it's relevant to your psy4chiatrist to know about the sleep problems. And the weed. Anyway, keep being real. We are all rooting for you. You got my prayers, love, hugs.
@tori_sturniolo4
19 күн бұрын
"it's me, i'm the crisis. i'm the family emergency" hit hard
@jakelocke9024
21 күн бұрын
Honestly bro, try the mental hospital if it’s an option for you. I did it beginning of last year and I met some great people and one of the therapists from there I still have sessions with today. It might suck being in there for a week but trust me from someone who went through it it’s worth it bro. I promise you.
@henrynwobu1496
2 ай бұрын
Sending you so much love bro. You will come out of this a big winner. All this will pass and one day, you'll just look back at this and laugh it off.
@Jwool.mp3
2 ай бұрын
Thank you!! I agree and I’m staying hopeful
@FearMongeringSells
2 ай бұрын
Isaiah 41:13 "For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand. And says to you, do not fear. I will help you"
@-N3M0-
10 күн бұрын
I was always told “your blessed, there are kids out there without clothes or food or a roof over their head”. Heard this till the day I ended up in the hospital.
@charlie22-bb7jq
2 ай бұрын
i told my parents and they got me a therapist. i have bad anxiety and depression. i also had thoughts. when i told my mom , my mom and i where crying and i felt so awful because i have never seen my mom like that. i have never seen one of these videos so thank you ❤ and you are amazing!
@johnsherman6718
2 ай бұрын
You're very much not alone! Depression is quite common. I was 16 when I first experienced it. I'm feeling the same as you right now. 🥺I call it "Flat Lining." I learned that its a physical/ chemistry issue. It can be triggered by negative emotional events or situations. I know those low feelings, being exhausted, not feeling like your regular self,....being sad/ flat, feeling vaguely afraid/ultra sensitive, having no energy, on the verge of tears, unable to happily engage in regular activities and sleeping/ napping alot. It's very uncomfortable! A regular doctor visit is helpful to get an anti depressant medication. Just know that you are not alone with this awful thing. It's quite a common thing. It DOES go away. 💁🏼♂️All my best wishes and sympathy to you.
@POOKIE1.0
Ай бұрын
congrats of your graduation! im also happy that you were able to tell your parents that your suicidal. i am as well and it’s been hard but im to afraid to tell my parents because of how they would react. im also scared to talk them about my sh. but I hope you get better and get something to help you
@Simi_star
23 күн бұрын
We're proud how far you've come!!! It takes a lot to talk about feeling and thoughts ,we're rooting for you!
@olicoasters
2 ай бұрын
Hey, you've got a whole army of people rooting for you buddy. Don't be ashamed to seek help and take some time to focus on finding some peace for yourself. This time is hard but it is temporary. Keep going.
@hikarusolar
Ай бұрын
Last month was hectic for me, sent to the hospital after a suicide attempt, dealt with sh, while still trying to get school done. So this comment is for anyone who is struggling. Because if I found out anything, i would say that life is precious, no one gets younger yet we all wish to get older, to change, not giving our current self credit for waking up everyday, out of the thousand good things we do the errors we make are always going to feel the most drastic, but that shouldn’t be the case, you woke up today and made it here, and that is always something to be proud of especially in a place where we all feel like the victims, zoom out for a second, theres a universe out there, look how small the earth is, are our problems really all that big now? They aren’t, and although they feel like they are take a moment to zoom out, because out of the vast and great universe, you were chosen to live in this hectic but beautiful world. You are less than just one in a million and by that I mean you are one out of all the stars, you are always going to be the one and only version of yourself and whether that version of yourself is something you take pride in or not, you should never take yourself for granted. I learned that and I hope you do too. Love yourself, I know its hard, but if you arent willing to, then dont expect others to fill that void, you’re stronger than you think.
@NovaRaptor_1
Ай бұрын
I feel you man, When I was 13 I was having a really hard time in school, I was picked on and ridiculed. My “friends” left me. I had no friends, no energy to do anything. And my parents noticed, I secluded myself from the world. And for some reason that summer they signed me up for a local skate program. And I went there not hopeful. Extremely depressed and struggling with sh. And after the first two weeks my parents said they saw almost a 180 degree twist in my attitude towards the world, I stopped sh and just ended up with really shitty tanlines clustered with scars. And I became close with people at the park. And my mentors are some of the most awesome people I know. Looking back on it three years later, if it weren’t for them I might not be the person I am today, let alone alive. And I don’t think they’ll ever know it either. You’re not alone, and you’ll get through it. You need to stay with us. I’ll check your channel to make sure you’re still with us. And what you told your parents and your followers was very brave. I commend you for it. You’re a strong, brave, and intelligent person based on your words alone. Stay strong and stay with us
@DanielPierce
2 ай бұрын
This was exactly me when I was about 17, I did go to a mental hospital and it was actually very helpful. It’s not easy to just say your life looks good so you should be happy. Being at this age you are experiencing crazy levels of hormones and trying to figure out how to deal with them, for some people it is difficult, it was for me! I am now 33 years old and am very happy, I have a great career, my personal relationships are great, my intimate relationships could use some work, but all in all life is good! You will find that as you get into your early 20s things start to level out and become easier, just keep yourself busy, that has always worked for me, an idle mind will worry about everything.
@Alina-Butterfly753
2 ай бұрын
Wow man, that must've taken a lot of courage, I'm proud of you.
@Andrew-qy2st
3 ай бұрын
I appreciate you telling us about your experience so far. It can be really tough some days. The brain is a complicated thing, but personally, when I was going through a similar situation, I sought help from a doctor, and eventually was put on some medication to try and balance out the chemicals in my brain. I also mention my trouble sleeping, and eventually was put on several medications for my anxiety, depression, and my trouble sleeping, Since then, I feel ive lived a better life. Im more productive and happy with what Im doing. I hope you get the help that you need and just know, as cliché as is may sound, you truly are not alone. Best of luck
@Jwool.mp3
3 ай бұрын
I’m glad it helped you, I hope it does the same for me!
@OlliesRelax
11 күн бұрын
Every person deserves love bro. I hope you make it through this. Remember. Suicide is not the answer. We as people need to give each other more love. I also recommend besides uploading your videos here I would get off social media entirely. Start connecting more irl even if you dont want to have more deep conversations with other people that you know outside of family.
@OlliesRelax
11 күн бұрын
If I was someone real in your life I would give you the biggest hug I could ❤
@Tipsy_D
20 күн бұрын
Just got recommended this. I’m dealing with suicidal thoughts on the daily because I have them chronically. It’s hard and I understand what you’re going through. I hope you make it out ok ❤
@tomjones648
3 ай бұрын
Hey man, I'm sorry to hear what your going through. Sometimes we find ourselves going through periods that just dont make sense . . .depress us and get the best of us at times. What works for me is to just have a couple really close friends that really do care about me that I can really be open with, that dont judge me but care about me. Ones that you can really be open and honest with, ones that can encourage you and just support you and journey though this part of life with you. I'll be praying for you and want you to now that you are worth a lot. When those black times and thoughts come just remind yourself that you are an awesome person and your just going through a tough time. In years to come, you'll be able to use your journey now to help someone else that is going through same journey later. Happy Graduation BTW! Thanks for being honest with yourself,your parents and us. This is my first time coming across your channel and will subscribe and follow you. I am exciting to see how you grow and use this to help not only yourself, but also to help those that follow you that might be going through the same thing. Excited to see how you use this platform to overcome and help others along the way! Keep your head up, thanks for being honest, real and awesome.
@3katd
2 ай бұрын
I can’t tell them because we are financially struggling right now and my parents are depressed too. I’m 13 and I want to at least find success in something before I die but I don’t even have the motivation.
@user-le7cn3hg3r
Ай бұрын
You are so brave for telling your parents I know that when I was suffering with depression I never had the bravery to share it with my parents. I promise this is temporary and that you will eventually come back to feeling content and happy with the full array of emotions humans have as I have. Your courage shows how much strength you have in you and trust me you will get through this. Sending lots of love :)
@twinfastasytowers
Ай бұрын
Hey, idk you, but just know things will get better. You’ll get through this. I promise you, some day you’ll be looking back and be thinking about how far you’ve come. im proud of you for making it this far and proud of you for continuing to do so. you got this 💪
@torontocommission
3 ай бұрын
This is the first time your videos come to my feed, but know you are enough. I hope things start getting better for you. It seems like you are positive about some parts of your life and I hope between your psychiatrist and your parents the negative stuff will go away. Just a positive observer from Canada. Hope all positive changes come your way
@ElijahAlward-zn5uu
2 ай бұрын
Rooting for you man. I've been exactly where you are, you can and will get through this. Keeping on pushing, bud. You're strong. 🤜🏻❤️
@rockyjenkins2407
2 ай бұрын
Rooting for you. My own experience has some similarities. I waited far too long before getting help and extended my own misery. Medication is hard to deal with at first, takes time to work and may require a few tries to get right. Stick with it. But it’s worth it to feel much, much better. It does get better and I’m so glad you shared with your family so they can help. Much love man.
@zamazwane9264
Ай бұрын
I told my mom last week in letter form and she's been nicer ever since , we had a long talk about it ( couldn't really open up ) and she talked about getting me professional help and I rejected ( we don't have the money for that right now and she's trying to act strong for me ) . What broke my heart is when she kept asking if it was her fault like she believed it .
@jjpleasecomebacksnewphonel6067
Ай бұрын
Stay strong, life finds a way :)
@supermanzzzzz
2 ай бұрын
I really appriciate you sharing this! ive been struggling with self harm for over a year now and I totally get how it feels opening up to your parents. I also really dont feel comfortable talking about in especially with my parents but im going to be going to therapy soon so thats great! thanks so much!
@tinktank1125
2 ай бұрын
Hang in there man I’m sorry things are really shitty rn diving deeper into my hobbies always helps to pull me out of the darkness hope things get better soon and congrats on graduating just made it out myself
@Quacksters4
27 күн бұрын
Im glad your recognizing and getting the help that you need!! As someone who has been dealing with depression the past few years and not exactly s**cidal but definitely having s**cidal thoughts it can be rough and hard to ask your parents for help and tell them whats going on. It also seems that your dad doesn't understand that just because you have a good life means you can't get depression, which for me it mostly cause from my childhood trauma and genetics, but you can also just get it without a reason and more people need to understand that. Anyways just keep on going and know that your strong for being here and there are people that care for you. ☺️❤️
@mistynightsatnoon
Ай бұрын
I had a talk like that with my dad too, I hadn’t eaten for a week. I just lost my appetite randomly and felt like throwing up every time I was about to eat something. Prior to that I’d been depressed for no reason, on an off and thought it’s a hormonal thing or so but that’d been going on for almost 4 years. Su!cidal too and all that. My parents never knew, never noticed. Until my dad confronted me about why I didn’t eat and I don’t know, I’m not close with my parents at all, not comfortable talking to them about anything really. I just couldn’t take it and cried then and there and he asked me what reason I have to be sad, talked about how we have it so much better than others and there’s no reason for me to be depressed. Then he basically forced me to eat and I can eat normally again since. But that was uncomfortable, luckily he thinks that was a one time thing and shortly afterwards some other stuff happened, long story. But then I started playing guitar, I have a hobby now and not enough time to think bad thoughts or feel sad. I just practice playing guitar. Anyone reading this: please try to take as much care of yourself as possible, let yourself experience fun and joy and anything that you like, go after what you like and don’t push it down telling yourself you can’t get it or you don’t deserve it anyways. Also, the longer you look into the darkness, the more it will consume you. Don’t focus on bad things, don’t delve on what you don’t know, what you can’t have or are not, try to focus on what you do have, what you know and what you are. Easier said than done but easier to do than you think. Wish you all the best xx
@leestevens4250
2 ай бұрын
JW, you are definitely in my thoughts and prayers!!
@jasonberkowitz4754
3 ай бұрын
Oh no! I am sorry to hear this. Hope you feel better
@zi0cat
3 ай бұрын
Today's a good step! Remember, take good care of yourself. Exercise (especially cardio) good diet, plenty of sleep. Learn to meditate. I'm glad you took that big step. I've been there, it gets better. Be patient.
@MarcusAsenlund
28 күн бұрын
It doesn't go one day for me without thinking of Sui-cide. It can be serious thoughts or just other thoughts. I mostly sleep in my room while listening to Filosofem by Burzum to make it better for me. Keep doing good stuff that makes you feel good, all of you, but do not hurt anyone to make yourself feel good.
@Ella-fv4hm
2 ай бұрын
I was hospitalized my first semester in college for a suicide attempt. I didn’t tell my mom how much I hated the college I was at and when I called her from the hospital she was in shock because she thought I was having a good time. It’s hard to confess your feelings because it can feel like you’re burdening someone else, but to whoever reads this, make sure you have someone around you that you can talk to and who will listen to you without judgment. They don’t think it’s as burdening as you do and if they love you, they will listen and check in. You got this ❤. Also I’m sorry about the whole ordeal with your dad. Some people just aren’t educated enough on mental health. You can live a picture perfect life but still be depressed and some people don’t understand how that works but it is all part of mental illness. High school can suck and living with parents usually sucks too. Proud of you and happy graduation!! Hopefully summer and college makes your situation a little better.
@triplevhennessey7192
Ай бұрын
Blaze that dank weed son! I deal with OCD, anxiety, and depression...Keep your head up buddy! Stay Positive! Cheers
@Kaylie_is_in_space
Ай бұрын
Bitch we twinninnnnggggg!!!
@JinxMeh1922
2 ай бұрын
I've been going through the same thing for years, I've wanted to tell my parents but my mom is the type of person who judges people who have mental health issues, I told her about a friend who was going through some stuff with college and she told me ¨this generation of yours is so weak, you break for everything and anything if you had to go through the things I went through I wonder what would've you done already¨. Now that, for the 10th time discouraged me from getting help, my sister knows I have this thought but there is not much she can do. When my mom learned about my self-harming, I expected her to help me. She only found out because I told a teacher while I was in high school a few years back as a way to indirectly get help. My dad broke down and my mom helped him to the couch while looking at me with an expression of ¨look at what you've done¨, basically trying to make me feel guilty for being suicidal. I'm still here and in college, every day is a struggle. I tried to commit suicide about 4 months ago and neither my parents nor my sister or friends have any idea. The thought hangs over my head every minute but I can't get help.
@lifewitkassie
2 ай бұрын
Sending love, support, prayers, positive thoughts and encouragement 🧡🧡🧡
@Stitchyyz
Ай бұрын
I've had the same situations where I would stay home from school or not going to see family or whatever the case with depression and suicidal thoughts. Just keep doing your thing, find things you enjoy or continue doing the things you already like even if you have a shitty day try to push through it. Hang with your buddies or get new friends. Also getting a gf (now wife) really helped with my anxiety and depression and always having her there to talk to knowing she would actually listen to me and give me support instead of just blowing me off. I would suggest stick with weed occasionally if it helps, I wouldn't jump right into taking medication. I was on meds for 11 years and I'm still fucked from them and probably will be for a long time or the rest of my life. Hope any of this helped but for real my dude you'll be ok soon just don't act on any of those suicidal thoughts, you are here for a reason buddy.
@Revision-e8g
5 күн бұрын
This video hits hard knowing theres other ppl going through the same things as me. My depression gotten worse since my dad passed away but i dont want to tell any of my family members about my mental state.
@michaelmoraniii3825
2 ай бұрын
Bro I feel exactly like this I’ve been feeling like this i couldn’t put it into words but you just put exactly how I feel into words
@paulmoreno6279
3 ай бұрын
My beautiful guy! Don't forget what you promised me 💯
@Jwool.mp3
3 ай бұрын
I gotchu Paul!
@paulmoreno6279
3 ай бұрын
@@Jwool.mp3 That's my guy! ♥ Happy Saturday from Palm Beach Florida 😎
@DerekBjelland
2 ай бұрын
Young man I am so thankful that you told someone how you were feeling. I have been in the same place you are and I pray that you can get whatever help you need. It is hard to open up to people when it comes to mental health. Hang in there and remember you are loved. By the way don't let people tell you lies about behavioral health units to scare you. I have been to several and they really do make a difference when you are in crisis. Keep your chin up and good luck.
@zacharysmith8902
2 ай бұрын
J don’t do that bro… you have very many years of life.. don’t take it away… I did that when I was 20.. luckily, I got through that and saw you
@johnconway4161
3 ай бұрын
I hope you are Okay Jwool
@jwpluto
3 ай бұрын
dude, I just watched your video from a day ago about your depression thoughts. It was crazy because you were describing me almost to a tee. Except that I’ve had these emotions for about three years. I also smoke weed to get to sleep at night. it works just like you describe. So I’m totally with you on your feelings and sorry that it’s going in that direction for you. Just wanted to toss in that I see Psychiatrist and he has found two meds that work quite well, but there is no fix and it’s difficult to make my appointments. It’s a little scary to have to describe what I’m feeling. The fact that your parents say you have a good life is from their perspective and yeah, maybe they provide you with everything you need but in our heads that doesn’t make life good you take care of yourself. Sorry for the long comment.
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