I did several recordings of this song. it wasn't properly released (soundcloud) until about a year ago when I finally went in and added a sufficient outro. take what you want from the lyrics but I wrote it as my own personal experience of ostracization and alienation as a user. I was too scared/afraid to portray my feelings of affection for those I loved and it felt like an endless, vicious cycle. I used self harm and self hatred to shock and bewilder others to make them care (more) about me. I realize it was wrong and people will care even if you don't resort to perilous extremes. I regret my actions then but in a way this is a memento to that time. Another concept portrayed is how addiction can become an endless and self destructive vice. you feel dehumanized and despondent to those around you and the only saviour in your mind is a girl that had shown you the smallest amount of nurturing and love. she is the only thing keeping you alive as you drift solemnly in your hospital bed. I have had deep, troubling thoughts that an angels voice is going to be the last thing I hear before I die. maybe that is still the case but at least I am breathing and able to type for you this wonderful display of emotion. I wish anyone who has read this far well, as well as an internet stranger can give. I am not going to be cliche and advise you contact a suicide hotline rather a gentle farewell and I hope you can see the beauty left in this life. not much left anymore but I wish for you to experience of it what you can.
iTalyx:
soundcloud.com...
yung kartz:
/ @yungkartz
instrumental (this is the original, I edited it):
• *SOLD* Lil Skies x YBN...
lyrics:
dreamworld
it's a f*ckin' dreamworld
everywhere, everywhere it's a dreamworld
yeah
[music: yeah hahahaha]
dreamin'
1234///4321
you weren't the one
never were... or you were
not really sure
pour up, pour up the speakers
coke in the E.R.
I'm in the E.R.
waiting to meet her or to see her
she ask me what I do
I'm a bleeder
...just wanna see her
under the bleachers af1 sneakers (I've never had these I just love yung lean)
codeine in my speakers to hear her
trying to, trying to see her
going around and around town just waiting for the sound of your voice
in my phone
I'm all alone
waiting for her
waiting to hear her
yeah
in the E.R.
shes there
seeing stuff and she
left
dreamworld
dreaming in space
waiting for your face
take my place
I'm out the game
I know it's lame
baby, I can't play
in the E.R.
waiting to see her
waiting to meet her
coke in the E.R.
I'm in the E.R.
waiting to see her
let alone meet her
af1 sneakers, codeine in my speakers
just wanna hear her one more time, that's about right
I'm gonna fight or I'm gonna flight
it doesn't matter what I say
you're gone anyway.
coke in the E.R.
I'm in in the f*ckin' E.R.
waiting to f*cking
see her
or to meet her
under the bleachers waiting to meet her
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