Wow I have been reading all of your comments and im in literal tears, I am so grateful to have such a beautiful community of people on here. its truly comforting to know I am not alone during this time and so many people are also grieving while raising a child. being vulnerable on social media is terrifying and you never know how people will handle your pain especially when you are going through one of your darkest times but theirs power in telling your story because you don't know who's live you can change....I love y'all thank you so much .
@sevensaid
Жыл бұрын
I know your mom is so proud of you & she’s protecting you forever now. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers as you continue to navigate these days. May your mom continue to RIP ❤
@daniellat2627
Жыл бұрын
My prayers go out to you and your family. I’ve experienced the same loss as you in 2019. What I can tell you is grieving has no time limit, eventually you’ll figure out how to let the good memories outweigh the profound loss. Bendiciones mi amor 🙏🏽💕
@Helene08817
Жыл бұрын
Truly missed you but totally understood. So glad you have a great support team and so happy your son is growing and keeping you busy. Motherhood is a blessing and you are a great Mom!
@britbrat1130
Жыл бұрын
You really hit the nail on the head when you said you wanted time to stop but everything keeps moving on... That's the hardest thing for me. Glad to hear motherhood is treating you well and your village is so supportive! Your mom is still there with you and your son. Always
@tnjones522
Жыл бұрын
Welcome back and my condolences to you! ❤ Motherhood is so wild. It’s like wow I actually made you lol. “Imma mother” -Keke’s voice
@franchescap.2270
Жыл бұрын
We love you Monica thank you for being so strong!
@emeraldgreene7767
Жыл бұрын
You and Juan have your mom now as a beautiful guide and protector . And now with your son I'm sure her spirit will continue to live on. All the best and love to you and your family!
@k.s.9831
Жыл бұрын
Girl. You are so loved and we missed you so much. May your mother's incredible memory continue to surround you and your family always. ❤
@eryabolonha
Жыл бұрын
I've lost my mom in 2018 and it hit me like a ton of bricks and I still feel it today. She lives through you and it's amazing you're also a mom now. ❤🎉❤
@HerVibesDivine
Жыл бұрын
This was so beautiful to watch. I am so sorry for the loss of your loss of your mother but she lives on through your beautiful baby boy! Enjoy him!!! Mine graduates high school Friday and it happened in the blink of on eye! God bless your family❤!
@rhondajones70
Жыл бұрын
My condolences to you Empress. I am truly sorry for your loss. I found you on KZitem during a transitional time of my life, and I enjoyed seeing you and your mom during visits.I am learning Spanish because you totally inspire me with authenticity. 🎉🎉🎉🎉❤❤❤❤❤
@Mrsprice220
Жыл бұрын
Motherhood will definitely make you straight forward.
@tamubaker681
Жыл бұрын
I love to see you back. Know this God doesn't make mistakes. He knew you needed your mom here when you gave birth to your son. And he knew you would be just fine with the people he has surrounded you with when he called her home to rest. God is merciful and loving. And he is faithful. You will see her again. And until then, she will be right their in your heart, helping you make it through. Welcome back.
@chicadominicana47
Жыл бұрын
Sending you so much love! Your mother is singing your praises from the heavens and keeping that seat right next to her nice and warm. Thank you for being such an inspiration to all us morenitas out there.
@swaet8671
Жыл бұрын
Years ago I stumbled across the video of you teaching your mum English and randomly remembered your channel today to see a new one of you, her and your welita. So hearing the news about her passing is saddening 😢. Sorry for your loss and may she rest in eternal peace ❤️🙏🏾
@celestebenitez6688
Жыл бұрын
Loosing your mom is a club none of us wants to be a part of. Its like life has no meaning, at least to me after I lost my mom in 2021. I only had 3 people in my life and lost all 3 of them in a 15 month span. Two of them 26 days of each other. So I feel your pain.
@khaynxafir8425
Жыл бұрын
I love you so much, and I pray for you and your family often❤️❤️. Bendiciones 🇩🇴❤️
@hauwaabbazih747
Жыл бұрын
I'm so glad you are back. I miss you here on the internet. I lost my dad in March of this year and I completed understand you about wanting to make your mom proud . She was already proud of you. Welcome back
@MENA_ADUBEA
Жыл бұрын
WOW I mean! I feel like I just need to call you, because I have so much to say! Yes and yes - taking off the cape for your own mental health. Yes and yes! We can't always have it together. So so proud of you - being honest and communicative about your needs. Mama - I am so happy for your and proud of you. This is all so so true for so many of us. I've learned to express to my baby if I am frustrated or upset so that he, too, can learn that it's ok to have those feelings , process through them and then pick back up again.
@MENA_ADUBEA
Жыл бұрын
As a mom who prayed for my child and views him as a true blessing, everyday, I COMPLETELY understand you. There are NO WORDS to explain the feeling. The gratitude. The awe. My baby was breech, so I also had a CSection. I didn't feel contractions at all and am also glad to have had to surgery. Although, I can't lie- I do wonder what natural birth feels like!
@angelinat6816
Жыл бұрын
Hi Mena, I’m subscribed to your page as well❤ I had a c section with my first baby, it was traumatic to even go through the thought of having a c section. Thankfully I had natural births following this, it’s painful but motherhood is so beautiful 💕🫶🏾
@charlenesmith2577
Жыл бұрын
I am so proud of you for keeping your faith in GOD sometimes people become so angry that they no longer believe or have faith Blessings to you
@kayydee159
Жыл бұрын
Oh wow! My prayers go out to you!!! I’m so happy she got to see her beautiful grandson 💕 I pray for y’all’s healing!!
@withlovemkc
11 ай бұрын
This was soooo necessary and beautiful! More of this content if you feel comfortable
@sharonbaker3007
Жыл бұрын
I’m so very sorry about your Mom…it was 17 years ago Monday since my Mom left the earth. It’s so very hard to integrate all these experiences. You are on a fantastic path Monica, because now you get to tell your son all about her! Congratulations on becoming a great Mom!!!💙💙💙
@essyferrera574
Жыл бұрын
Watching this video all I hear in my mind is *noni* 😞🥺😭 I can’t believe how strong you are Monica!!! I couldn’t stand in front of a camera and not cry!! You are so strong !!! And God gave you the best gift!!! Carter is so blessed to have you❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Rip mamamuse! Forever in our hearts 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍
@janishamoon8952
Жыл бұрын
Grief is so difficult but you are absolutely correct when you are grieving a parent little things for me at least I lost my Mom in 2017 it still feels like yesterday and and I am easily annoyed by people’s tiny problems. Give yourself time unfortunately the days are easier to get through but it’s a incomprehensible pain and grief to lose your Mom, I love your content sending a hug hug Mami 😘🤗 you got this!❤
@nathaliaflint
Жыл бұрын
Monica you literally took the words out of my mouth. I feel the same about not finding empathy. I lost my mom so quickly and it’s been so hard. Thank you because I was having a hard time understanding what it was that was bothering me. I send you light and positivity 🫶🏼🫶🏼
@nolasunflower
Жыл бұрын
Aye shout out to the fellow Virgos & to your healthy Virgo baby boy 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🥰
@steviesosa5617
Жыл бұрын
Monica: *tells chaotic delivery story "Carter better always be nice to me." 🤣 I feel you sis, children are the best, until they're not. 😅 Then they're the best again. Carter is so smiley and handsome, with fluffy cheeks. 🥰 I'm glad you're doing well and enjoying motherhood. Good job being gentle with yourself and taking your time. You can't pour from an empty cup. 💟
@3ThatGirlSteph2
Жыл бұрын
That balloon is the devil! lol. I was induced too. That part and the cervix checks were the worst part of my experience.
@jakayrahrincon9295
Жыл бұрын
even though you say you don't feel strong this was the epitome of strong . We all seen your journey and I'm not sure about them but the tears were flowing right along with you .We are all proud of you for getting this video out
@YoShiCrazii
10 ай бұрын
I love you Monica! ❤ & mama muse would be so PROUD of you! ❤️ que dios te bendiga!
@april_delor
Жыл бұрын
Good to see you, your videos haven’t come up on my feed on KZitem in a very very long time. Last time I watched you, you we’re remodeling a warehouse or something. Anyway, I just loss my Dad the day before Thanksgiving, 11/23/22 and it’s been nothing but a rollercoaster. It was good to watch this and know that someone understands exactly how I feel under such sad circumstances, but it is life. My 1st Fathers Day coming up this weekend without my Dad, and I booked a trip. I just don’t want to be here. Very sorry for your loss! Continued prayers and blessings to you. ❤
@chrisyroche7633
Жыл бұрын
Monica I feel like I’m a part of the family. I’ve been following you for so long!!! I’m keeping you in my prayers and I’m so proud of your progression!❤️
@theredrubyclub
Жыл бұрын
17:50 I have never felt grief in the true sense but I have grieve the closeness of a relationship, I went through a dark period last year and after going through an SA I felt that feeling of having little to no tolerance for anyone or anything. It was almost like my compacity, my cup was full 😢. I know exactly how you feel
@MiVidaBellisima
Жыл бұрын
It is asinine to say you know how someone feels when you haven’t been through what they’ve been through. I’m sorry you experienced that though.
@theredrubyclub
Жыл бұрын
@@MiVidaBellisima Did you not read what I said ? I’ve been through my own trauma and a SA. I’ve lost that sense of closeness I’ve felt even though my family members are still with me. So yes I do know how it feels to have my cup very full, where I felt like I didn’t have the tolerance for anything or even the strength to go on. So please save your comment it wasn’t needed.
@MsEMAJOR
Жыл бұрын
If I can just say lovingly, please be very careful about telling your child things like they saved you. That makes a child feel responsible for your happiness and that’s so much pressure 🙏🏾
@mon6745
Жыл бұрын
Sending you the biggest hug from an internet cousin 🥰🥰🥰 I'm so happy you have a little one, he's so beautiful 🤗 he's so lucky to have you both as parents 💖
@dulcedarla8817
Жыл бұрын
I’m happy to have you back on KZitem Monica! I’m wishing you continued healing and happiness 🤗
@keesee4141
Жыл бұрын
I clicked so fast!!! I missed you on here and will continue praying for your healing ❤❤❤
@esmeraldaluna2622
Жыл бұрын
23:55 your fiancé and you have always been such an amazing couple to look up to. You guys are going through life together and choosing love everyday and that’s so respectable and admirable. I know your baby is your purpose right now but as a viewer, your relationship with your fiancé stands out so much too. ❤
@laurendshaye4641
Жыл бұрын
I am so sorry to hear about your mom. That breaks my heart . Sending love and prayers and support
@conniefrancis-joe7740
Жыл бұрын
I can totally relate to what you are saying. It's been one year since I lost my mom, and my husband had to love me through the grief it was hard. I did snap at him a lot, but he was patient and kind and understood.
@victoriamorales7742
Жыл бұрын
My prayers go out to you and your family on losing your mom you are an amazing mom & carter will realized how blessed he is
@jjl6473
Жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry to hear the news about your mum! Wow sending you and your family lots of love. Love you loads 🫶🏾💕
@mrsbebebo
Жыл бұрын
Regrese con otra video….heeeey Monica! Was so heartbroken to hear about your mama on instagram. Please know that God is not capable of evil and will NEVER take our loved ones away. He is a God of love and he tells us that death is an enemy. A lot of what you said in the video resonated with me because grief comes in all shapes and sizes and openly communicating my need for space when I’m upset has been sooo good for my mental health. Congrats on that little cutie of yours Mr. Carter. ❤
@Yourfavlifecoach24
Жыл бұрын
I’m like that when I’m dissociating. I detach easily from things especially in the mood and mind frame you’re in right now. You’re trying to use all your space that’s not grieving to just be present. I’m an Aquarius too lol around 17:30
@KalamitySnow
Жыл бұрын
Let me just say I am sooooo proud of you for showing up.. and encouraging so many people while doing so.. I lost my baby brother September 16,2019 and found out I was pregnant the very next day.. I under grieving while going through postpartum and God knows it’s not for the weak! There is no time limit on such an immense and immeasurable loss.. sheesh I’m crying just typing.. but thank you for being transparent. I struggle with showing up for myself sometimes but listening to you kinda helped me reassure myself that I can do this!! Btw I’m a boy mom too and one is a Virgo as well (Sept 4)😂😂 Love you lots ! WE GOT THIS!!❤❤❤
@vetta5620
Жыл бұрын
Prayers & Hugs for you Friend. This is a rough journey. You’ve said so many things I resonate with after my Mom passed. God Bless you, your family and your village
@alexaaaaaaaa__
Жыл бұрын
You talking about your son made me think about my son that is about to 4yrs old next month & I still can't believe he's gonna be 4yrs old & starting pre-k in September. Feels like yesterday that I was just gave birth to him. How you describe motherhood literally brings me to tears. My son is literally my purpose, my world. I truly don't even remember what I was doing before I had my son
@louisea4920
Жыл бұрын
My condolences to your whole family, Monica ❤
@makeupqueenroo
Жыл бұрын
Sending you lots of love❤ happy to see you despite all that you’re going through. You’re an amazing woman and mother 🫶🏾
@ShenayUnique
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for this. I relate to the postpartum journey as i am in mine now. This definitely makes me not feel alone. My deepest condolences to you and your family. I hope that the transition of your queen was peaceful and is always there with you. Praying for your healing journey and flowing into your new phase of life.
@grettag228
Жыл бұрын
Yooooooo Monica we have the same birthday!!! ❤❤❤ I’m sending you so many positives vibes, thoughts and intentions to you and your familly. I lost my dad 4yrs ago then one month later went through a divorce, I know it can be really hard to get out of that place. Or even find a new rythm to your life. But I do assure you that it is possible. You have love around you so hold on to it, everytime you feel down or lost just look into your son’s eyes to come back to you. I love you without even knowing you personnally girl. You got this mama. Much love❤
@gh4081
Жыл бұрын
Ya Ma was so amazing on your channel. I loved how she support you and was so fun. My condolences to you and your family. Just know, souls live to live again in the presence of the LORD. To be absent from the body is to be present with the LORD! GOD BLESS You in JESUS NAME.
@probablyprocrastinating6410
Жыл бұрын
Sending you and your family love and light through the ups and the downs! Take your time girl, we’ll be here when you’re ready 🫶🏾
@lobelytaveras3230
Жыл бұрын
Motherhood is like no other feeling❤ Carter is a blessing and he came when you needed him the most.
@chanelcg
Жыл бұрын
Motherhood is so healing and beautiful ❤
@p.c.c.7723
Жыл бұрын
Your transparency is inspiring, and your ability to recognize and appreciate all the things, people, and privileges you have in your life regardless of the circumstances shows such grace and strength!
@Chrissy_T85
Жыл бұрын
Hey Monica!!!! Im glad youre doing well! I havent been on youtube and im just catching up! I lost my sister this past month. Her birthday is next Friday, so yes it can be hard rasing a child and grieving. We must continue on for the sake of our children/family. Praying for you and your family❤.
@dmg8211
Жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry, my condolences to you Monica. Also enjoy your beautiful blessing …
@DaishaMichel
Жыл бұрын
You’re going to be ok. We all been through a lot. I love mi mami from stage 4 bc in 2013, it gets easier with time(cliche) you never get over it but just take your time! I’m glad you have people to support you.
@jacquettapalmer266
Жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. Thank you for sharing her with us. Praying for God's comfort and strength for you and your family.
@thesweetbutterfly50
Жыл бұрын
Hi Monica I’ve missed you girl. I’m so happy for you with Mother hood. I’m sorry for your loss. Please let God strengthen you🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿
@JessicaJaeBeauty
Жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry for your loss babe. We love you truly. ❤
@SuperLallypop
Жыл бұрын
I been following you since you been in NYC and just doing you makeup. As a Latina raised in the Bronx for 20+ yrs i love your energy, humor and talent. I am proud of you and congratulations again for becoming a Mami ❤
@SuperLallypop
Жыл бұрын
I also wanted to add that i am glad you are pushing thru other people opinions. Dios te bendiga a ti y tu familia 🙏
@mzmeeka315
Жыл бұрын
From the “I’m pregnant and it’s not John’s” prank 😂 till now ???? I love you girl !!!!! ❤❤❤❤
@blueberrygirl17
Жыл бұрын
Sending nothing but love hugs and prayers ❤
@michelleandrea5481
Жыл бұрын
My cousin went thru the same thing. Being pregnant and her mom died. Never got to meet her grandchildren. I say to say even in that hard time your mom was there to experience the birth of your child and to spend time with him which is the greatest gift in the world
@maricelaayala6035
Жыл бұрын
So happy your back and boy did this video hit home. I too had a baby and I also lost my mother when my baby boy was 6 months so girl I know exactly how you feel. My moms one year anniversary is coming on Sunday and it’s literally reliving the nightmare all over again. It’s not easy so that mini meltdown you had while filming is what I’m going through everyday.
@InfamousPanamaPinky
Жыл бұрын
Listen my sincerest condolences to you and your family. I haven’t been on socials like that and to hear about Mama Muse was heartbreaking. Monica I’m praying for you and your family 🙏🏽keep being the best mommy to you son you got this ♥️
@cynthiamnelson6466
Жыл бұрын
I know the loss of a mother. I'm glad God blessed you with baby Carter. Your mom is resting now and her legacy can live on through you and Carter.
@ZairayCash
Жыл бұрын
Yes! That life passing by still going on, without Your person (for me it’s My Dad, 2 Years on the 25th of this month). It hurts and it’s borderline insulting. Tho that’s unrealistic, you just can’t imagine Your life without them and suddenly they’re gone and it seems like after the funeral, it doesn’t matter anymore to anyone else but You.
@agirlhasnoname6306
Жыл бұрын
Sad to hear about the loss of her mother. May God continue to bless and strengthen her🙌🏾
@godsgift526
Жыл бұрын
You're absolutely correct. Losing my Mom completely changed my life, I was newly married and a month later after her passing I was pregnant. I'm a better woman because I want to make her proud but it's difficult. I just keep going. I don't tolerate the things I used to ignore before. My baby was truly my saving grace, my why, my reason to keep going. Everything you're feeling is valid, it's been 10 years for me and oftentimes it feels like yesterday. I still cry, my heart is broken but I have to carry on her legacy. God blessed me with an awesome Mom full of compassion, light and love. I'm truly grateful my husband is my safe space and strength when it gets difficult. Reflect on the good memories and the love you have with your baby, your fiancee and family. I still get signs from her that she's watching over us, you will also.❤
@candidcami2158
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing with us all. Been following your channel for years and love seeing you and your family. My deepest condolences to you 🤍Fellow ♒ here and went through a loss that Im still processing as well and learning to accept help knowing I need it. You are not alone and I pray for your comfort and strength. She is your angel and will always be there. 😊
@aleaciadavis8349
Жыл бұрын
Keep Striving! New Mommie on duty! Did I hear you right? Did you say you lost your mother? May God surround you with the Love you need to carry through Life's journey! ✨️ 🙏
@amireerbaker6541
Жыл бұрын
Aww Monica..I'm so excited and happy for you and in tears of joy. ❤God bless you and your family. My condolences as well. You inspire me... I've been watching you for years and am SOOO PROUD of you. Once again God bless and you are my biggest real life inspiration as of today. We are around the same age and your realness has truly touched me. Thank you for sharing your life. You are so powerful and beautiful, both inside and out!!!🙌🏾💐💐💐💐💐
@mhunt298
Жыл бұрын
I clicked on this video so fast...take the time you need. Love seeing you smile and talk about your baby boy. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. 🙏🏾💓💞
@atiyyamuhammad8947
Жыл бұрын
So proud of you, keeping you lifted. Continue to give yourself grace and take it a day at a time
@miekahc6341
Жыл бұрын
This is BEAUTIFUL Monica. I just lost my dad in March. I resonate with EVERY WORD you spoke and the ones you didnt. Thank you for posting.
@daniibrandi
Жыл бұрын
Thinking about you and your family, Monica. Y’all are in my prayers ❤🤗
@intellectborn23
Жыл бұрын
Monica, so sorry to hear about your mom. I loved watching her with you on your videos. So glad to hear the other updates though. Yes, having kids makes you really blunt and you reprioritize so much in life.
@LetaLuvaLuva
Жыл бұрын
Sending you and the fam love, light, and wishes for continued strength/courage during this transition. Lots of love to Mama Muse for her beautiful light. ✨I’m so grateful that we were able to experience a bit of her goodness. Thanks for sharing you life, Monica. One of my favorite moments of your mom is y’all cooking together when you first got to L.A. 🥰💐 Thank you for sharing and always being vulnerable. 😘
@tiffanymerritt3596
Жыл бұрын
I lost my mom when my babe was 8 months. Monica, every single thing you have said has resonated with me. I can relate to it all. Sending you so much love. Motherhood is my favourite hood and even though my ma isn’t here I know she watches over me and my babies. Sending you lots of love mama, you are doing amazing❤
@travelingzenspace
Жыл бұрын
One of my favorite videos till this day is the pregnancy prank you did on your mom and fam years ago! It gives me a good laugh and warms my heart every time.💜 Wish you All Good Things on this new journey.
@daynaj2000
Жыл бұрын
Monicaaaaaaa 🥹 I'm so proud of you sister. Forever in awe of your strength. You got this mama❤❤
@dianaaponte1738
Жыл бұрын
Love you!!! I’m so proud of how you’ve grown. Blessings to you and your family ❤❤
@Le0nslta
Жыл бұрын
Wow Monica beautiful video. You are being so strong. I can only imagine your pain. Yass! God knew what he was doing when he gave you, your beautiful child. May God grant you peace and comfort.
@jackiebedward2249
Жыл бұрын
Wow! First, sorry for your loss. I use to love the old Monica; I am now in love with the new Monica. You speak with calmness, you seem humble and grounded. I truly relate and yes "health is wealth" and I do not want everyone to think of me as the strong one. Thanks for sharing.
@ladyf5217
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your experience. More love and grace to you and your family ❤❤❤❤
@ladidadilisa
Жыл бұрын
I totally understand 💗 My Mom passed three years ago and my sisters & I go through it! It is definitely not a linear journey. We've gotten really good at recognizing when each of us our having a mommy moment, all it takes is a look and we're headed to each other's rescue with a hug & encouraging word. She was my world so it definitely stopped but I try to focus on finding joy everyday. Praying for you & yours🙏🏾
@keshiab.1943
Жыл бұрын
Sending love and prayers to you and your family - you have my sincere condolences 🙏🏽❤️Congratulations on being a mommy - such a blessing❣️
@ColorTheory1992
Жыл бұрын
Monica this video was beautiful! I pray God keeps blessing you and giving you the strength to keep going! Your baby is gorgeous! Your wedding is going to be iconic! ♥️♥️♥️
@fakeanimationstuditoes9724
Жыл бұрын
Monica I’m so sorry for your lost, sending my condolences to you and your family ❤
@mscamico22
Жыл бұрын
I lost my grandfather last year and the day after he died I found out I was pregnant with my son. My son came into the world a day after his great grandfather’s birthday. My son has helped my mom and I get through the hard days. I’m happy you are finding your way back to yourself after experiencing such a great loss in your life 😊. It is definitely a process and it will take time. Remember that she is forever in your heart and she is always with you. You are an amazing and inspirational. Thank you 🥰
@cristinamvargas
Жыл бұрын
Sending so much love! 💛 I also lost my mom at 30 and had my first child in the same year. Its waves of grief and joy and its okay to feel both. Youre navigating with so much grace and i felt this video so much. No doubt your mami is proud of you🙏🏼
@ZairayCash
Жыл бұрын
To your question about having a hard time sympathizing with minimal things while grieving, ABSOLUTELY! It’s hard to care, it’s hard to want to care and it’s VERY hard not to snap and be like “stfu it’s not about You, other people have real life problems they’re dealing with and You’re going on about BS.”
@kalishajnz
Жыл бұрын
I'm so happy to see you Monica, I've thought about you often. I totally get when you were talking about having a hard time sympathizing. I have to check myself often and realize that although I might think someone's issue is small, to them it isn't. When you've lost someone that you loved with everything you definitely look at life differently and you don't sweat the small stuff and you're just grateful for every little thing and moment. 💜
@rodgibelfond7463
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As a fellow New Yorker, I love your vids, congrats
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