What do you think about the suggestion of offering alternatives to unstructured social activities? Do you think it would be helpful? Why or why not? Also, comment 🥚 if you made it to the Easter egg at the end ☺️
@kkso3318
9 ай бұрын
I absolutely have built my adult life around having structured activities. In one church I was in, I did a women's gathering that was specifically meant for shoulder to shoulder time such as reading books or bringing work. In schools, this would be both really important and mean that instructors would need to be super insightful and understanding of when to gently guide students to step out of their comfort zones and when to understand that it's not about a comfort zone at all. We need reform in almost all our systems, education being a huge one. Unfortunately, for us to fit in and for the above understanding to be active in people that means they will need to care enough to pay attention to individuals and throw away cookie cutter stereotypes.
@ros8737
8 ай бұрын
I was constantly sent on various activities. It was good but what I was really longing for was, an old time village school, back then when classes where so small they had to combine several grades. We know the pace of average development and it’s not wrong, but pairing up and assuming a bunch of eight year olds are all on the same page is denying the truth. Modern schools only fits kids on the small average.
@J-sv9dp
7 ай бұрын
Alternatives to unstructured social activities would be great. I think these should be available to all and not only to those diagnosed with asd / adhd. Imo, diagnosis should not be a prerequisite for workable solutions - if it works, it works :)
@NeurodiverJENNt
7 ай бұрын
@@J-sv9dp I agree
@resourceress7
4 ай бұрын
🥚Bueller?
@BlackCoffeeee
11 ай бұрын
Lol at staring at toy catalogues. My favorite thing to do was to spend hours looking at toy catalogues. I didn't even want the toys. I just loved the 'excitement' of it. I would do the same thing with any brochure, even one's that sold vacations. Christmas cataloguescwere a big deal too. 😂
@NeurodiverJENNt
11 ай бұрын
Yes!!!! Omg so glad you can relate 🤣
@PamelaRubel
9 ай бұрын
Omg as adult this has changed slightly but still the same... when I am into a new thing or in a cycle of hyperfocus, I can spend HOURS in an online store just looking at everything, with no intention to buy things. Sometimes I would ever take screenshots to make a list of favorites or organize them in excel in order from coolest to least cool xd and whenever I go to Ikea, part of the fun is getting all the new catalogues. None of my friends or family members get this!
@d.d.d.a.a.a.n.n.n
7 ай бұрын
I also loved to pour through DIY and craft books as a kid, whether or not I actually wanted to make anything in the book, I just really loved (and still do love) how to books
@amy-avnas
5 ай бұрын
I did this too! For me though I was trying to pick the best toy for christmas and I couldn't decide😅.
@lunapuppetfae
5 ай бұрын
My grandma had a big Sears Christmas season catalogue the size of a small novel when I was a kid. I would read it over and over, looking at everything even the towels and slippers 😅 It was so exciting and interesting to me
@remmirath42
9 ай бұрын
Social deficits in action: When you told me to grab tissues, I was horrified because I thought something happened to the cockatiel 😧
@Colfeolune
8 ай бұрын
Same !
@newtuber4freedom43
8 ай бұрын
Ditto!!
@robertabarnhart6240
8 ай бұрын
Me three! 😭
@seanlanghi9782
8 ай бұрын
Same, though. And I don’t think these are deficits. Check out “Neuroqueer Heresies” by Nick Walker.
@unionunicorn6776
8 ай бұрын
me too 😭
@SilverMoonbeam2
9 ай бұрын
I also have huge memory gaps going from childhood into teenage years. I’ve been attributing it to the fact that those years were so traumatic with just trying to survive, fit in and being a natural target for most neurotypicals (children and adults). But it certainly wouldn’t surprise me if there was a general link to childhood memory and autism.
@confidentlocal8600
8 ай бұрын
I can only remember scattered little fragments. Like I can remember maybe a minute total of "video" (vague episodic memory) from all of k-12.
@JonBrase
8 ай бұрын
I'm not sure, but there seems to be some correlation between language skills and memory. I was talking around 12 months and have memories as early as 18 months.
@anyam3682
2 ай бұрын
@@confidentlocal8600same
@beckie2399
2 ай бұрын
Problems with working memory and Aphantasia...I remember photos.
@tiffanylbacon
Ай бұрын
All I’m doing right now is recalling my past and realizing that all those awkward moments were my AuDHD. My childhood was very traumatic. I don’t remember much. But the things I remember definitely are signs. Like my obsession with reading Steven King novels. Or listening to the same song on repeat for months. Hiding from my siblings because I just didn’t want to play with them. Building and entire underground city for matchbox cars. I, too, played with dolls until I was about 13 yrs old. I was very naive and terrified that I was different. But the need to survive the abuse overrode everything else. I now realize that the tantrums I got beat for having were actually meltdowns. I learned really early to mask. How about taking things literal. I called my mom once to ask how to cook spaghetti. She said to throw it against the wall and if it stuck it was done. So that’s what I did. I threw the entire pan against the wall. Going to dances and hiding against the wall. I started drinking at 14 to hide all my fear, to make me braver. I was so terrified of boys. Oh the joys of reframing the past.
@jesterr7133
9 ай бұрын
When I was in school, I spent the whole day looking forward to being by myself and playing with m toys, video games, or whatever else I had decided to do after I got home. Being there was a chore.
@Melissa.Garrett
9 ай бұрын
I’m sure the reason I was “missed” at school are all the reasons you said - masking in particular. But at home, I know exactly why my behaviour was never identified as “different” - because my mum is Autistic, as well! She didn’t know it at the time, but I was learning all my life knowledge from her growing up, and being “taught” that the Autistic way was perfectly normal because it was natural to her. And she didn’t see anything different about me for the same reason! 😂
@laurelpowell8536
8 ай бұрын
I really think my mom is Autistic and possibly has ADHD. It would explain a lot.
@AnotherBrainArt
6 ай бұрын
I’m just a lot like my mom, but she’s better at pushing through discomfort. She says i was so moody and a total loner. She worried for me, probably because I’m like her and friendships don’t come easily. They leave easily though.
@beckie2399
2 ай бұрын
I think my mom was Autistic and ADHD, I am self diagnosed, my daugher, and now Granddaughter ADHD and Level 1 Autistic. DNA
@robertabarnhart6240
8 ай бұрын
I didn't learn my times tables till I was in 6th grade, and then only because the teacher was so disgusted with me that she sat me out in the hallway and told me not to come back in till I learned those times tables. It actually took me only around 3 hours or so to remember them enough to get through 6th grade math. I'm still shaky in math and use a calculator most of the time.
@Tsuki7786
7 ай бұрын
I had a teacher socially remove me from my peers and lunchtime to sit next to her desk because I couldn't get the times tables memorized...it got so bad and I was desperate to be with kids that I started stealing homework and forging...I usually got caught though 😮💨
@blessed7927
6 ай бұрын
Same❤
@lidu6363
11 ай бұрын
This was heartbreaking to listen to because so often, we have vivid childhood memories because of trauma. And I can relate. I grew up on the other side of the world, but your slideshow in the end reminded me so much of my own childhood, and how I like to go through old photo albums to remember the nice things which would easily get overshadowed by the trauma otherwise...
@Kagomai15
8 ай бұрын
Reminds me I have to go through our albums still
@hollieverafter
9 ай бұрын
This is the most I’ve EVER related to a late diagnosed autism video. I’m unsure of the ADHD part for me. Sometimes I think maybe but the jury’s still out. Thank you SO much for sharing your stories, Jenn. I’m trying to find my way and seeing I’m not a broken nt really helps.
@NeurodiverJENNt
9 ай бұрын
I love this comment so much. Thank you ❤️
@KlirrenDieFahnen
3 ай бұрын
Same here. I'm not diagnosed (yet) but referred to a diagnostic trajectory by a psychologist. I was sceptical, and did not resonate with many of the autism symptoms I read about, but do with many in this video. Btw, I'm a 54 year old male.
@theoneandonly1158
9 ай бұрын
Omg, im obsessed with the original Little Mermaid. I adore that part where Erik said that love will hit him like lightning. It did, it really did. I was involved with boys at 13 and that was a huge mistake. When i meet my husband. I knew and he knew, within 3 months, we said it to get married. 14 years later, and 2 kids ( both neurodivergent), we are still happy. We both found out we have ADHD but me and my daughter have autism and adhd. Your videos are spot on. So spot on and i find myself saying ' yes, thats me' out loud. And saying yes with my head.
@fluffypenguinbabe
9 ай бұрын
I absolutely adore that you started this video by talking about *not* resonating with every aspect of Autism or ADHD that you hear about. I recently saw your video with Orion Kelly and thought here is someone I need to listen to! "Adult-led structured activities" yeahhhh I mean, that's still my preference now. Don't be telling me I'm an adult just cos I'm 35 😂
@NeurodiverJENNt
9 ай бұрын
Same. 41 year old youth trapped in an adults body over here. Except when noises bring out the old lady in me
@AnotherBrainArt
6 ай бұрын
@@NeurodiverJENNtthat’s how I feel. I feel honestly like i never grew up past 12-15 years old inside. But i hate all noise and smells and anything that comes from outside my home and interferes with my peace like neighbors, beeping trucks, someone downstairs constantly bounces a ball. Then i feel old. I wouldn’t tolerate people playing music around me that i didn’t like so i felt so bossy. My bestie still only plays Fall Out Boy around me because she likes country music and country sets me on edge.
@tiffanylbacon
Ай бұрын
I definitely prefer structured activities over free social time. Organized fun is what I call it. Funny thing: I crave spontaneity but get so anxious when I don’t know what to expect. AuDHD at its best.
@d.d.d.a.a.a.n.n.n
7 ай бұрын
I absolutely socially isolated myself in elementary school - I spent lunch freetime and every recess I could in the library, reading. Reading was absolutely my obsession, I would read instead of sleeping or eating or doing anything else I also obsessed over catalogues of dolls, craft supplies, and other interests, but didn't realize until you mentioned your behavior that mine was out of the ordinary, because you described exactly what I used to do
@VisualPanther17
5 ай бұрын
Honestly, this whole video brings back so many similar experiences and memories.
@jesterr7133
9 ай бұрын
I turned my G.I Joes into professional wrestlers and baseball players. I wrote out stats, lineups and planned it all out but I rarely actually played all the way through it. I spent most of my time planning.
@rebeccaburnell9319
5 ай бұрын
In the late 70s, I once spent weeks of my summer vacation setting up an entire football league "for the neighbourhood kids to have something fun to do" including researching all the names/cities of the Canadian teams, their home and away colours, and their mascots (the league included mascot roles so kids who didn't want to play football could still participate). I was figuring out the schedule for the "season" and looking forward to the playoffs when I seem to have abruptly lost interest. I would like to emphasize that I was no older than 8 years old, had never played a game of football in my life, had only one friend who watched football with his dad, and as evidenced by my working out the rules of the game as I organized my league, didn't even know how to play the game when I started my project. There were also not enough peers of the "right" age bracket in the neighbourhood to make up more than *maybe* two teams but when this was pointed out, it didn't deter me. I figured everyone would be so excited that they'd tell the rest of the town and The Kids Would Just All Show Up.
@Me-vn3gz
4 ай бұрын
this was literally me whenever i did imaginative play, and i only had a certain set of games i would play with specific people over and over again, apparently that’s not normal
@kensears5099
5 ай бұрын
Ohhhhh yes, I was a major "weaver" in childhood and, you know what, even at 66 years of age, I still am. In a mass unstructured "party" or "church picnic" setting my gut is in a constant state like...like...well, picture yourself sitting in the back of a pickup truck, the truck hits a huge bump in the road, you go flying into the air, and right at the moment (the "apogee"?) of that flight, when your upward trajectory stops and the downward one hasn't yet kicked in, the breathtaking moment at the intersection of shock at your upward flight and terror at the downward one--yeah, it's like that, sustained. Where AM I, how did I GET here, and where is this GOING? Plus, am I supposed to DO something about it? (And if so, how awful is that, and if not, how awful is that, too!) In childhood, at recess time, as kids ran around doing stuff, I ran around, too, except I was running doing nothing with them, just running around to keep from being noticed that I wasn't with anybody.One day in 6th grade my teacher Mrs. Jones kept me in, a kind of punishment, to keep working on math problems I just "refused" to get right. So there I sat, struggling away at these impenetrable questions ("How 'bout this answer, Mrs. Jones: 147? No? Okay, how 'bout 10,000? No? Okay, how about 21 and a half? No? How 'bout..."), half-irked at the stupidity of the exercise and half-ecstatic that I'd been released from the prison house of recess.
@barbaramoran8690
9 ай бұрын
I was born with the severe Kanner type autism in 1951 parents first thought i was deaf later when my hearing tested they thought i was retarded .When I began talking echolia .i did learn to talk but it was hard to communicate . I had tactile problems as a child and a low tolerance for pain .I cried a lot .I have always personified objects .I still do I didnt fit in at school and was kicked out of second grade .I spent years in a mental hospital .Menninger Children’s hospital Later I went to a regular high school and graduated . At Menningers they has a school so I got my basic education .After getting out I lived with a family and I got a full time job I had 22 years .I have severe noise sensitivity which developed when I was 9 and got worse with time . YOUR LIFE SOUNDS REALLY ROUGH. YOU WERE SHAMED SO MUCH AND YOU TRIED SO HARD I WISH WE COULD SPEND A DAY TOGETHER ID LOVE TO KNOW YOU BETTER . I was diagnosed with autism when i was 40 it was like being forgiven Industrial strength absolution I want to tell you more
@Kagomai15
8 ай бұрын
"Like being forgiven Industrial strength" I love that! I would love to hear more.
@jewels3846
7 ай бұрын
My noise sensitivity has been getting worse as I get older. Between convincing site reviews and a recommendation from a diagnosed audhd (I am diagnosed adhd 3 years ago but seeking an autism one now too) Flare earplugs. I still dont understand how they work but sounds hurt less Some still are infuriating but its like the intensity was taken down a few notches making alot of the ones that bug me but arent actually that disruptive be able to be tuned out. I actually understood what it meant to be able to tune out a sound for the first time in 27 years when i got my first pair for xmas 😭
@tiffanylbacon
Ай бұрын
I often wear my noise canceling earbuds just to block out sound. Nobody knows I’m not listening to anything.
@spookje21
Жыл бұрын
I am on the waiting list to be assesed and this video definitely gave me some hope. The only thing that gives me so much doubt is my childhood before I went to secondary school. I wasn't bullied and had the same friends for 8 years in primary school. I knew I was weird but at the same time tought everyone must feel the same. I remember being 5 years old and trying to keep my hand still bc children would make comments about it. I remember being very weirded out when other children where playing ''mommy and daddy''. or them thinking I was weird bc I just wanted to put the toys down to make them look good instead of play a story with them.
@NeurodiverJENNt
Жыл бұрын
Are you in Australia? Because I think that's where they have primary and secondary school whereas we *usually* have elementary (1-5) middle (6-8) and high school (9-12)... But like you I had the same friends throughout elementary school and lost them once we had to go to different schools for middle school so I had normal friendships in elementary. It was tough after that.
@duikmans
Жыл бұрын
@@NeurodiverJENNt Not only in Australia... I'm from Belgium, and we have a system of primary and secondary. I'm in the middle of my diagnostic process now at age 59 (talk about late diagnosed), but your story resonates with me. I may be male, but I never was into trains etc. With me, it was archaeology and as a result, you had an 8-year-old telling his teacher that the correct name was Tut-Ankh-Amun and not simply King Tut... It was obvious though that I didn't fit in socially, but in those times nobody had heard of autism outside the academic world.
@spookje21
Жыл бұрын
@@NeurodiverJENNt I live in the Netherlands. Elementary school is 8 years. So I went to school with the same children from age 4-12. Then we go to secondary school which is middle school and high school combined. Secondary school can be 4, 5 or 6 years depending on 'level of difficulty'.
@BiddyBiddyBiddy
6 ай бұрын
These stories of yours have lit up so many memories within me. I didn't play with toys the same way either, I voiced the characters in my play as well and preferred alone-play. In my teens I started producing notebooks with NFL stats and records and standings in themas the seasons went on (still have them), including having to track down newspapers after the weekend to make sure I got all the scores and records correct (there wasn't internet back then). I kept those records going in notebooks for myself from age 17 till I was 28. I really enjoyed (and still do) working out potential playoff scenarios in my mind without having to rely on announcers to inform me. Friends along the way told me that I had an encyclopedia like knowledge of the teams and records. Wow, great video. Thanks for the memories, mine and yours, lol.
@kensears5099
5 ай бұрын
Yes, me too. I look back, thinking, would it have been better finding out about my autism when I was 25, maybe 40, or maybe even 50? And the answer comes roaring back to me each time: NO. The outlines and coordinates of my life back then, set up on the basis of my thoroughly "masked" life, could never have corresponded to this discovery. I'd have had NO idea how to place it, process it, what to stop doing, what to start doing, and most of all how it could or should interact with my professional life. For me, despite the pain and scars (yet thankful for the survival skills gained), I suppose I am grateful enough, on the whole, that the discovery came in late life (yes, I do consider 65 late life). In a way, it's kind of the icing on the cake. Despite the sufferings, life did develop into a mostly tasty cake. And now I've got some special icing on it that just "makes" it.
@beckie2399
2 ай бұрын
I am older than you and just realized since diagnosis of granddaughter. It is kind of a relief isn't it? We are not aliens after all.
@Sryker
2 ай бұрын
Oh wow! @18:10 This happened to me almost verbatim! I was told by adults on numerous occasions that I was excluding myself and needed to change my attitude and make an effort to fit in. I remember feeling confused about it.
@Weird_guy79
27 күн бұрын
I was recently diagnosed with ADHD/ASD about a week before my 45th and I relate to a lot of what you spoke of, definitely a boy though and it was completely missed with me as well despite being involved with mental health services since I was 13. Boy or girl it gets missed so often because "professionals" make up their mind as to whats what very quickly, believe they know it all and have rather large egos so will never admit they are wrong and don't actually know whats going on so never look for real answers.
@NeurodiverJENNt
27 күн бұрын
@@Weird_guy79 congrats on your diagnosis and thank you for watching my videos. Yes you are correct this definitely got missed for many of us regardless of gender. There is an entire lost generation of us out there
@j.b.4340
7 ай бұрын
I recognized a lot of your story, in my own life story. @22:02, I was engaged by 19, and married by 20. Owned a home by 20, then kids after 26. But, everything has been unraveling for years, and a small part of it is the auDHD(as far as I can tell) in me. It causes so many interpersonal issues.
@OriginalCosmicBabe
8 ай бұрын
Paper dolls! I had a couple dozen of them, and designed clothes in colors I liked to replace the “fashionable” outfits they came with. The only paper doll I left intact in the book it came from was the Princess Diana paper doll that I saved babysitting money to get back in 1982. I played with dolls to a very late age, also. On my 13th birthday I decided that teenagers don’t play with dolls, and I ceremoniously put all my dolls in the trash can, except my favorite who was the scruffiest since I’d gotten her at age 4. I can’t remember what happened to that one. I excelled in school (math, reading, spelling) and was in the Talented & Gifted program until high school. At that point, the social pressures sent me into constant anxiety and I skipped school so often that my mom called a police officer to come to the house to talk to me and get me “scared straight”. It didn’t work, and I dropped out halfway through my junior year. How does a girl go from a 4.0 GPA to dropping out with a 1.5 GPA in less than 3 years and nobody thinks it’s anything other than “teenage rebellion”?? Parallel play constantly. I hated group sports but excelled in gymnastics until I grew too tall & curvy (I went from 5’0” at 12 to 5’8” at 15). At school lunch & recess, I found a shady spot and read books, or played by myself on the swings. I had a younger sister but she’s NT and I hated playing with her. She literally would beg me, and is still bringing it up resentfully at family gatherings nearly 50 years later. She excelled in sports; her 3 kids and 2 grandsons past infancy are all sports nuts. Since my parents got divorced when I was young and my mom often dumped us at grandma’s for the weekend (and she was busy with watching tv so it was minimal supervision), I joke that I was raised by house cats. I’ve always been crazy about cats and liked dogs, probably because animals are so honest - they literally cannot lie, and their body language always tells you exactly what you can expect.
@eponymoususer8923
3 ай бұрын
I find all of this very relatable. Especially the slow maturity development. Mine was complicated by not conforming to my gender role (they’re nonsensical) and PDA that was misunderstood as rebellious. Also, obsessing on a particular subject to a dysfunctional degree.
@jeanelarson
2 ай бұрын
Your Little Mermaid story breaks my heart...and is so similar to my own childhood. I was sure I was adopted and there was a zipper somewhere I could unzip and let my true self out.
@tiffanylbacon
Ай бұрын
I swore I was adopted too. And my real family was going to get me any day.
@alexs5574
9 ай бұрын
Great topic! I often reflect back to my childhood and ask how could my teachers miss this? I have my theories and your explanation is one of them lol. BTW, I love the photos you included at the end of the video! 😊
@annap62407
Ай бұрын
I feel the struggle with math so much. In 3rd grade I just could not catch on to multiplication no matter what I tried. I used to get grounded for failing my multiplication tests, my mother quickly realized that grounding me from going outside, tv & the phone didn’t phase me, I was happier left alone with my books. She ended up taking my books after I failed a few more. That led to me reading the whole Bible cover to cover & a good portion of the dictionary bc those were the only 2 books she couldn’t take. She claimed I was too smart to not be passing the multiplication tests. I was always punished if I made any grades less than a B. A’s we’re preferred & I definitely caught an ear full if I did get a B. This was individual papers, I don’t think I would have survived getting anything less on a report card.
@annap62407
Ай бұрын
My adhd wasn’t noticed until I was in my early 30s & autism was just this year (38) I was punished for my autistic traits so I learned how to mask for survival at a young age.
@mommabahre6017
5 ай бұрын
Watching this helped me let go of about 40 percent of my lifelong guilt. I always felt guilty for wanting to go home and be alone.
@Brynnthebookworm
9 ай бұрын
When I was in elementary school I began to hate recess because it was a time that I was reminded that I had no one to play with anymore. My cousins that I had been close with got peer pressured by their new friends to abandon me, and I was terrible at making new friends. So I mostly sat by myself, which left me as a target for more bullying. Then I realized that when I didn't write down my homework and forgot to do it (because I overconfidently thought I would remember without writing it down) I would be given detention to get it done, but I wasn't otherwise penalized for the late turn in. And since I also found it less stressful to be inside in a quiet room than out on the playground, I began intentionally not doing my homework at home and just going to detention every day. However, this did not endear me to my teachers. And I was already known as a troublemaker by some of the teachers because most of my earliest stimming behaviors involved being noisy in class. 😅
@kellyschroeder7437
25 күн бұрын
Yup. The look back as able w few memories and faint images unbelievable - why why why we’re not folks educated enough or saw something ??
@ZSchrink
8 ай бұрын
Yeah, thje life review has been both amazing and gut wrenching
@ZSchrink
8 ай бұрын
Also, that 'Ferris Bueller's Day Off' reference at the end got me 🤣
@PamelaRubel
9 ай бұрын
I just want to keep this comment short after making a super long comment on another of your videos. Thank you for sharing, I have to say i relate to almost everything you shared, at points it was soooo similar to my experience that it felt surreal! I have forgotten many parts of my childhood but as you said, most of what I remember is related to a negative experience :/
@keirapendragon5486
4 ай бұрын
Knocked the wind out of me with the thing about being naïve and less prepared for social activities with peers but being more prepared for learning and understanding other things on an adult level. I read almost 24/7 as a kid, mostly fantasy novels, and I avoided spending time with peers, preferring socializing with adults or relatively younger kids, on the flip side I often quickly picked up complex topics and made conceptual connections others in my peer group - or even older kids didn't recognize. But I've never really known where to put my hands - how do other people figure that out???
@VanessaDayleRaeWaggoner
5 ай бұрын
My dad was not emotionally available which I desperately needed but now I know why; he is autistic. And I think he did better at giving me gifts always based off my special interest, because he understands what it means to have a special interest and how that’s the only kind of thing you ever want as a gift.
@abigailsanderson5943
4 ай бұрын
Does anyone else feel like although your in 20s 30s 40s etc that you didn't actually grow up
@diannalynnYT
3 ай бұрын
I have so many memory gaps. It's frustrating. I didn't pretend well as a kid and that was very hard when I had kids and playing when they were little.
@heatheranne9305
5 ай бұрын
So much of what you said was exactly like what I experienced.
@AshleyReneeVlog
4 ай бұрын
I won that 5th grade dare essay contest, too! I still remember how awesome the ball point pen they gave me as an award was in its special box 😂 It had the BEST texture and rolled sooo smoothly so I could doodle even better while the teacher was talking. ;)
@3rz-rhymesreasonsandwritte437
Жыл бұрын
P.s. did you do a part 2 of your autistic traits about 2 months ago. Have seen part 1 but can't find part 2. Thanks for taking the time to make your videos and the funny short ones. They're great and the shorts are really funny😅 (humourous funny, not weird funny!🤨)😀
@NeurodiverJENNt
Жыл бұрын
Like my sister and I like to say "funny weird or funny ha ha?' 🤣 YES! Part 2: kzitem.info/news/bejne/zmyPuqxpjGSag34 Sensory sensitivities, Sameness and routine
@NeurodiverJENNt
Жыл бұрын
And part 3, 20 random traits: kzitem.info/news/bejne/l4eFqGyek5ibim0
@3rz-rhymesreasonsandwritte437
Жыл бұрын
@@NeurodiverJENNt thanks heaps 🇦🇺🐨
@jesterr7133
9 ай бұрын
I hated those church youth trips too. I just entertained myself by listening to Marilyn Manson with the preacher's daughter. I found oddly entertaining and ironic. lol I actually stayed with the younger kids for several years after i was supposed to transfer to the youth group because I didn't like being around kids my age.
@AnotherBrainArt
6 ай бұрын
Oh wow, you reminded me of my childhood. I had a jewelry box I found in the remains of my grandmothers old destroyed house. I think it was a fire, but i can’t recall. I wrapped it in pretty lavender paper and i made multiple paper dolls And drew all kinds of clothing for them. I was in my teens and still had them and I’m still distressed that i lost the box in moving so much as an adult. I only remember play itself when playing with my brothers because it was expected. I couldn’t even imagine to properly play with my daughter, but i used to write fantasy stories.
@amandahankins2731
9 ай бұрын
Im 45 in January. This whole video is so relatable.
@DracoDatura
8 ай бұрын
Most of this video was so relatable! 💚 Except the being interested in people/bands/boys part. My special interests were dinosaurs, dragons, ancient myths, castles, minerals, wild animals... average little girl, nothing to see here. 😅 I was never daydreaming about having a husband and kids - but I drew many blueprints about how our house and garden would look like, if I'll eventually have a family of my own.
@doomswell
9 ай бұрын
I don't have time to expand on everything but what stood out to me the most was; I basically played "dress up" with my toys and video game/D&D characters the same way you played with your dolls. I would stare at walkthroughs for video games instead of playing them; I still watch speedruns over and over. I think my ADHD wasn't recognized because Im inattentive rather than hyper; and my mom probably didn't think my autistic traits were unusual enough to get checked because... we had a lot in common. It turns out all my elementary school report cards say I didn't pay attention or get along with others but nobody put 2&2 together because I was so smart. Gee, you think the autistic kid might be a savant with adhd? What are the odds of that!
@breakglass3025
Ай бұрын
Ha! You got that closing from Noel Fielding. I like. :-)
@dkinetik
17 күн бұрын
I can't believe you said about pulling the chair from under a girl at school I Done the exact same thing I at school 😢😢 omg
@softlycrumblingcastle1820
19 күн бұрын
The Suzuki method for violin is based on playing by ear.
@kensears5099
5 ай бұрын
I wasn't able to figure out right and left till I was around 13, and even then it was only an embarrassing incident that jump-started me into nailing the concept down.
@ThesilBmfm
Ай бұрын
I know there's little point dwelling on regrets, and obviously being 'diagnosed' in the world I grew up in would probably not have been advantageous in any way. Nevertheless I do feel a little bit heartbroken that my parents both died without knowing that they didn't do anything wrong. They were both quite accepting and didn't treat me outright as a problem or a failure on their part, but all the dreams they must have privately had from the time they had a kid really came to nothing. It'd have been less bad for them if they'd at least had a reason, and also my paternal grandmother was very obviously autistic and if my parents had known what we know now forty plus years ago, they could have helped her live her true autistic life better. She was extremely isolated but I think overall happy. I just wish I could have had the type of intimate, autistic conversation with her while she was alive that I'd be capable of now, but certainly wasn't then. After all, I'd be opening a conversation with my Nan by saying "Nan: do you think you might be a crazy psychopathic weirdo like me? No offence but you seem really crap like me, the kind of person people are fine withdrawing from them." Whereas now it'd be all "do you do this? Have you noticed this? I think this is hilarious; I think this is outrageous. Wow you're just like me." But back then, she'd have been as totally unwilling to 'open up' as I was, because she'd gone eighty years of her life just thinking people were all crazy and irrationally misunderstood her most when she was being her most sincere and supportive with them. Ach! Yeah no point in regrets. Tell you what though, when I look at the school reports about "must learn to not only focus on the things he finds interesting - society depends on us conforming to certain standards, not on us being eccentric individuals" or "I can't pretend to understand him but he's fascinating; he could do well if only he changed" etc. etc. I do feel a little bit sick. That was a kid in total distress and they knew he was in total distress but it was just assumed that someone with a brain must be capable of being normal, so if they're not, that's on them. I dunno.... would I have preferred a childhood in which I was micromanaged by appropriate adults 24/7 and taught to embrace society's values first and foremost and enjoy consuming product and getting excited for next product? Probably not. But instead of detention and verbal dressings down, it'd have been prison and watch lists lol (this is info-dumpy and rambling enough..... so no separate thread for songs.... but your mermaid story reminds me of the song "Bathysphere" by Smog. "I wanted to live in a bathysphere". Not an autism song, I think. A good song though!)
@liaspaulding4433
9 ай бұрын
We could have been good friends as children. I loved making clothes and accessories for my Beanie Babies and American Girl dolls. I always thought it was pretty typical play, but I still struggled playing with other kids with the same toys. This is the first I've heard it explained this way. Daniel Tiger (the preschooler show my kids watch) has some good teaching moments for parallel play with one the autistic characters.
@Tsuki7786
7 ай бұрын
Subscribed just because this video resonated with me so much
@NeurodiverJENNt
7 ай бұрын
Glad to know this resonated with you. I know no two people will have the same experiences, but I think there are some base similarities to draw from. Welcome to my community 🤗 and thank you!
@jonkas4542
9 ай бұрын
I like the pics. You had a genuine American childhood.
@christalintentions
9 ай бұрын
As a child my head was always cocked to the side in group photos. I always wondered why.
@heedmydemands
8 ай бұрын
I still take a minute sometimes to say thetime from analog clock
@VisualPanther17
5 ай бұрын
I spent as much time looking at catalogues as playing with my toys too. Still do at 46. My special interests have never changed. I also used to build elaborate set ups for my toys instead of actually playing. I think the strangest thing I did for play was use pipe cleaners to build marvel characters as stickmen toys= Like all the characters.
@scrapshappen
10 ай бұрын
Amen... so much the same.
@kellyschroeder7437
25 күн бұрын
Hmm forgetting most of childhood typical w autism???!- relate
@jesterr7133
9 ай бұрын
I was in gifted classes, and always excelled in math until I got to Pre Algebra in 7th grade. I just couldn't get it for some reason. I almost failed, but I later passed a calculator based course in college without a calculator. I have never been able to figure that one out.
@beckie2399
2 ай бұрын
My granddaughter is 10 and simply refused to go to school toward the end of semester last year. She's too large to force into a car so my daughter homeschooled her the rest of the year. Took her to a counselor a few times but she refused to talk. Now we are needing advice how to get her back to school. Any ideas? I really am sorry you were undiagnosed as a child. Me too and I'm old... but always chalked it up to being weird. Thanks for sharing.
@Mandychan93
8 ай бұрын
Having heard it all and being in some pretty similar "not acceptable social situations", in sum, NT grown-ups suck. They're bad and rude to kids. I've heard so many stories of kids being mistreated by adults (being myself in that position as a kid as well) it's revolting. Specially in school.
@jesterr7133
9 ай бұрын
Lol. I did the Bible Drill too. I still have the little pins they gave me. I did this drill in 2nd grade called the Mad Minute. They did it once a week for the entire school year, and you had one minute to do 30 simple match problems. The person with the highest average score got a double ice cream cone. I averaged 29.86 out of a possible 30 for the year. I got the ice cream cone, lol. I had a cockatiel too. He loved having his neck rubbed, and would actually make noises and call me and tell me to c'mon when he wanted attention
@lenchenbirch1129
7 күн бұрын
Hey, do you have a source for the fact that girls have more special interest in animals and people? I relate so so so much to this!
@Sunnygirl2000
8 ай бұрын
I do these things too glad I’m not alone
@Azzi0921
7 ай бұрын
Apart from your dolls, I can relate to a lot of what you said. End clip after credits reminds me of Deadpool.🤣🤣🤣
@jesterr7133
9 ай бұрын
I played with toys until I was 17. I always seemed to be a few years behind on maturity.
@undercovertopz
Ай бұрын
Oh. Wow, I relate to a LOT of this. This is weird
@laurelpowell8536
8 ай бұрын
I was bullied at my first school for being different and at my second much bigger school i just became invisible. I talked to no one and at each school i made one friend. I had one friend during my freshman year and one friend during half of my senior year. I HATED school and never fit in.
@SusKa22
8 ай бұрын
A part of your story could be me. Me as a partley late diagnosed neurodivergent person.😊
@ninajiang3527
9 ай бұрын
Your countdowns 👍👍👍👍👍love it.
@linam.9675
Жыл бұрын
this needs more views !
@NeurodiverJENNt
Жыл бұрын
Thank you 🙏I hope toget there some day, but for now I'm happy to reach even just a few people ❤️
@remotepinecone
6 ай бұрын
who else planned 3 study halls in row after lunch so they could go home at lunch? anyone?
@cutewithoutheetbs0282
3 ай бұрын
I tried to unalive myself at 15 because I was so afraid of failing a math test. I was baker acted for 14 days. Afterwards my parents still never took me for mental health care. We are similar down to underage drinking. Ended up pregnant by my narcissistic abuser at 19. I was diagnosed at 31. However at 34, I've been in burn out for 6 yrs. With zero support idk I'll make it out of this alive
@cutewithoutheetbs0282
3 ай бұрын
Also all my pictures my heads cookcocked to the side too lol 😂
@gothicprincess52
8 ай бұрын
I was about 6 and loved spinning. I would go up on the heels of my shoes and spin round and round as I made a big circle This didn't go over well with my parents because it wore the heels down on my shoes and they kept having to buy me new ones. I remember being very upset when they told me that I wasn't allowed to do it anymore. I tried to do it in secret but my shoes always always told the tale...lol. My mother beat my ass and I stopped. I remember feeling like I was a terrible person and wondered why I wanted to spin so badly.
@3rz-rhymesreasonsandwritte437
Жыл бұрын
Hi, enjoyed the whole video heaps. Learnt a lot. Loved the pics. Saw birthdays and graduation at the end. Easter egg??? No... are you just joking? or did I miss it? 😄. Hugs from Australia 🇦🇺🐨
@NeurodiverJENNt
Жыл бұрын
Hi to Australia 🐨 from America 🇺🇲 ☺️ Perhaps not the traditional Easter egg, just my nod to Ferris Bueler at the end for anyone who watched the slide show to the end
@3rz-rhymesreasonsandwritte437
Жыл бұрын
@@NeurodiverJENNt 👍😄
@jesterr7133
9 ай бұрын
Lol. I stopped playing with toys at 17, had my first relationship at 20, and had tried every drug in existence by 21, lol.
@dimariewaxgoddess
23 күн бұрын
QUINTS❤❤❤❤
@kuibeiguahua
11 ай бұрын
Nice mic 🎙️
@abigailsanderson5943
4 ай бұрын
Parades kill me because it takes foreverrrrrrrrrrrrr
@emilalmberg1096
7 ай бұрын
Maybe it's the cultural difference between countries, but when you say that your childhood was economically poor, and show such a large number of pictures of yourself, I think that it couldn't be that poor! I myself am middle class but have hardly any pictures of me as a small child... If I have your attention now, play around with your camera setup, if you film yourself with more tele than wide angle, you'll look more natural, the way people actually see you when they're talking to you, and because you're talking to us , so well…
@NeurodiverJENNt
7 ай бұрын
Thank you for the feedback. We did grow up economically poor at least for the standards of my country (USA). We were on food stamps for quite a while and at one point I lived in a cockroach infested apartment and slept on a mattress on the floor because I didn't have my own bed. I was embarrassed of the clothes my mom sent me to school in which didn't help when I already felt different enough. It might depend on when you were born. I did kind of come out in the cusp of disposable cameras being more readily available and at some point Polaroid cameras became a big hit. I'm the youngest of four and I can tell you that my older siblings don't have as many photos and probably most of the ones that they do have are from relatives having taken them. Thank you so much for watching this thing the whole way through even to the point of getting to the slideshow. And thank you for commenting. Also been thinking about getting some new equipment for filming as this is the best I can do on my phone right now ☺️
@emilalmberg1096
7 ай бұрын
Thanks for replying so I can understand. I forget that I am older than you, or rather that you are so young, when you speak you are so intelligent and experienced that I always think I am hearing a peer. It makes me sad to hear that you grew up in such poor conditions, me myself am from Sweden, we are probably best known for the fact that there are no really rich or poor people here, just an equal mass. It has advantages and disadvantages, the disadvantage is that you can never stand out, which is difficult if you suspect that you are on the spectrum. Someone like me, is too healthy to get help...@@NeurodiverJENNt
@Dylhan777
7 ай бұрын
What planet do you think we are from? Lol
@jackd.rifter3299
11 ай бұрын
I didn't actually learn to read analog clocks until 8th grade. My teachers all accused me of lying because I had a high IQ but an English teacher taught me. I have dyscalculia and I also take things literally so when people say 6:30 I look for "30" but didn't find it and I remember thinking "where is everyone getting the numbers higher than 12 from?".
@VanessaDayleRaeWaggoner
5 ай бұрын
I have dyscalculia too! And a high iq but this wasn’t discovered until adulthood, same with my neurodivergence… wait, is dyscalculia a type of neurodivergence? I guess I have several lol
@DJ_Black_Tourmaline
3 ай бұрын
i actually know a fairly large number of adults who cannot read or have difficulty reading analog clocks.
@erynmorgan1717
Жыл бұрын
This video left me in tears as it resonated with me so much.I am 43 and newly self-diagnosed AuDHD. I was deemed shy, I set up scenes for my Barbies and Sindy's, I relied on my confident and loud younger sister for friendships in the neighbourhood growing up, but as I was reading way above my age I preferred reading quietly in my room. I was made to feel stupid because I couldn't learn and still don't know my times tables or do mental arithmetic. As a teen I went from running away from boys terrified and lost friendship groups from being that way to getting myself into trouble with boys. I played truant from school despite being a great student in all but maths classes and those related like physics because I couldn't cope as my exams yr loomed and took to drugs and alcohol. At 18 I met my husband who was also unknowingly Autistic. My two teens have gone through life being allowed to be just themselves at home but as parents we missed the signs in our own kids as we thought their behaviours were pretty typical! All four of us our now on a journey together learning about our ND brains.
@NeurodiverJENNt
Жыл бұрын
Funny how many similarities we share. I know no two childhood stories will be the same but you're not alone. Good luck on your families discovery journey ❤️
@hanabanana8127
Жыл бұрын
22:00 omg this so much I truly believed with all my heart that: - I could fly if I could just find some pixie dust - I could find Narnia if I looked in enough closets (this one was embarrassing at other people's houses so I preemptively came up with reasons why I'd be trying to get to the back wall in their most personal space lol) (but they didn't understand, it had to be done because what if that one had Narnia and I didn't check) - I was a horse - santa was real I *appeared* to grow out of it by the time I was 12 but that's only because I got better at checking closets 😂 it's so good to know I'm not the only one who did that kind of stuff
@spaceageflop3974
11 ай бұрын
I recently found a picture of me wearing an Arielle tracksuite in the very early 90s, my Mom told me I was practically living in it at the time. Arielle was one of my special interests, i felt so much like her, so misunderstood and different, from another world. And I also did a lot of building up for my toys, with pencils I layed room layouts for hours, changed my Barbies clothes and accessoires, until everything fit. When I was ready to start play properly it was usually evening and time for dinner.
@itsmeheathermarie
9 ай бұрын
I was diagnosed "ADD" as a child and rediagnosed "ADHD" a few years ago. You literally just told my life story-including learning to play violin by ear and hiding the fact I couldn't read music by turning the page when others did. I also did that with Clarinet and Choir and was even able to "fake" my way into honors choir. Haha...oh man. Also, funny enough, I know you mentioned dislike of perfume, but I've have an INTENSE interest in perfumery since childhood. I can spend HOURS a day researching perfumes including the history, the composition, meaning of a bottle and/or name of the fragrance etc. For me I think I love it so much because I have a terrible memory and scent can sometimes help me sorta remember things. (The link between scent and memory is huge as we know!) I really enjoy your videos and feel less...odd. Thanks for what you do!
@MJ-ol3qy
Жыл бұрын
I have a 17 years old daughter that I never took her to be diagnosed. What I'm noticing is she can't make friends and she wants to have a group of friends. Her classmates are ignoring her. Also, she looks a lot younger for her age also dresses up younger for her age and she didn't feel comfortable in he her body even thou she is doing a lot of sports. she can get abessive about stuff. what is worries me is I don't think she knows how to communicate with kids. breaking my heart to see how hard she tried to make friends or socialize. How can I help her
@NeurodiverJENNt
Жыл бұрын
You're such a good parent for wanting to help ❤️ Obviously none of us parents can fix things for our kids as much as we want to... I would say just be her safe space for someone to talk to and vent to. It sounds like she might get along better with younger kids... I know my kid does. Maybe find her some after school clubs or activities she can participate in surrounding a subject she would really enjoy? She might enjoy having friendships with younger kids in the neighborhood too. I know these don't solve the school problem but having something to look forward to outside of school might help. I wish I had better suggestions for helping her in school, but that's SUCH a hard one. It's amazing that she's in sports, I hope she enjoys doing that. Any other activities, art projects or hobbies you can help her out with even if solo might help as well. It doesn't replace friends but anything that she enjoys doing that she can look forward to might help. But mostly I remember it helped that my Mom was a safe space for me where I felt loved and could cry to even if the outside world was full of thorns and prickles.
@kinczyta
Жыл бұрын
Omg everyone telling me to kiss my first boyfriend, what horror 😂
@NeurodiverJENNt
Жыл бұрын
You too?☺️
@theoneandonly1158
9 ай бұрын
I hated that. So so stupid. I didn't, screw them all.
@userbunny
Ай бұрын
I wanted to play with dolls until I was about 18+ years old. But my family told me that I am too old for these and I should go out with friends. (and still now I see advertisements of toys and just want them.) I can't believe that never someone thought about me having autism or adhd.
@EarthVoiceOnline
Жыл бұрын
Such a great video! I related closely to several of your childhood stories. I felt a warm sense of not being alone in the world. Thank you.
@NeurodiverJENNt
Жыл бұрын
This means a lot to me. Thank you.
@HIGHLANDER_ONLY_ONE
9 ай бұрын
I have many stories as well, aside from getting in trouble in school for being a clown and talked too much, I did a lot of mischievous thing. One day my dad took me to church, knowing how I am, he sat me Dien and explained how I shouldn't talk in church, to be quiet abs to listen. He said I was a big girl now. My mother dressed me so pretty, with a barrett matching my cute outfit. Well, in the middle of the sermon, out of the blue I stayed to scream, as LOUD as I could. I didn't say any words, i screened notes, just because I could. Oh myyy, my father took me home. The church which was about a small block away from home, we walked, abd I really felt that he walked so fast, that I was flying in the air, because I can't remember my feet touching the ground!!!😂😂😂
@anjachan
8 ай бұрын
same but I stopped playing with dolls early. Over a year ago I was searching for informations about autism, just because I was curious about it. I never would have thought I could relate so much to it. I always felt there is something different with me. I didn´t get a diagnosis yet but Im pretty sure.
@jesterr7133
9 ай бұрын
I always observed what the different groups were wearing, and I changed my style every year trying to fit in with a different group in high school. I was a jock one year, a prep one year, a freak one year, and a goth one year. I didn't really fit in with any of them, and I spent a ton of money on clothes.
@Kagomai15
8 ай бұрын
I'm ADHD and self-dx ASD, and my ex-roommate and I figured out she was ASD as well. I have a Lot of memories from my childhood and she has like None (ie very few).
@ammocandoit
11 ай бұрын
I have very few memories from my childhood, and I have huge swaths of time and can not recall for the life of me! I've been curious if this was an autistic thing. The memories I do have, I remember every last detail. I remember my 2nd birthday party down to the smallest detail. But I can not remember a single thing my entire 4th year 🤷♀️
@annerigby4400
7 ай бұрын
There is nothing more lonely than being alone in a crowd. A neurodivergent child sitting in the school yard watching the other kids play might well be having a great time, while learning how other kids behave. If forced 'to join in', then that child will feel all alone. And yes, I think it is high time that if a child has to go to school, then that child's needs should be respected and they should not be treated as if everyone is the same as everyone else. Yes, I can totally relate to the type of playing. It's funny to hear someone describe what I did. My mother worried that I didn't treat my dolls very well - didn't cuddle them and pretend they were babies, hahahahaha!
@Autisticheather
7 ай бұрын
When i was little, I'd play this game i made up with my cousin and brother called planet e. I insisted they have a dog on that planet and i couldn't be a dog unless i had 2 pony tails for ears. So i spent hours searching my grandmothers house for rubber bands to put my hair up. Meanwhile they played without me. Once i got my pony tails and declared I'm now a dog! I didn't want to play anymore. I was just happy to finally be a dog.
@lenchenbirch1129
7 күн бұрын
Omg the cockatiels! I was the same! I have diary entries talking about getting enough money for a bird, I made papers for my parents and talk to my friends about it! Even once I got them, i talked to my friends about them always. Even once I got them they were my life! Bird were also (and still are) a way to talk to others. I remember going to to a friends house because I knew they had birds and I thought that they would then be like me and we could actually be friends because they would get me, but then when I got to their house, they never shared my enthusiasm for their own birds and I felt even more alienated.
@shion_lwn
8 ай бұрын
I got dual diagnosis (AuDHD) recently. I'm a 40 years old female. I also have child trauma. Even though I got this diagnosis, I am still confused a bit if my trauts are from trauma or neurodivergency. I don't think I exhibited traits that ND women on youtube tell us. I didn't have much accessibility to toys when I was little. I think I had 1 barbie-like doll. I sneakly stole a ciuple of my brothers' small dragonball figures, then I spent a loooot of time creating stories with them alone, also day dreamed a lot. I felt I was a little different since kindergarten, but I had no clue. I was just a shy girl, yet run around n got lost in a large park, made my family freak out multiple times. I collected tons of beads and eratic bands in different colors because it was the thing within my classmates in my elementary school (grade 4). I did it to fit in, then obsessively collected them. But I didn't lined them up or anything like autistic child would do. I was good with sport and drawing when I was a child/youth. I obsessively threw a basketball against a wall, making stories and imagigning practice and play. I used bamboo broom and hit against a freshly painted steel beam outside of my home, obsessivly. I didn't know it was bad. Later my father freaked out on me because I damaged the paint so bad. As for the music instrument, my parents put me to electone lessons (I dunno what's called in English countries) because their neighbor whose child was also my age started taking lessons. I had hard time reading the music note from the time I started (3years old) to my parents had me quit (11 years old). I just couldn't play while looking at the notes. I didn't like practicing and other people hear or see me playing, so I barely practiced in front of family at home. Then when I was 14years old, I raised my hand to play a piano for an orchestra competition within my junior high school. Everyone looked at me with 😳😳 faces haha. I had no idea if I could play because I didn't play electrone nor piano much 😂 My only best friend like my 2nd family played piano a lot every time I was at her house since we were small. Sometimes I learned small bits from her on piano, but nothing like people who learned piano can do. So, somehow I spontaneously (?) thought I could play for the school orchestra. 1 week in, I didn't even open the note 😂 All classes practicing singing and I hear piano with it. My class..classmates were practicing and I was frozen in front of the music note 😂 it was a damn difficult song to play, so it was worse for a newbie lol Music teacher was prob like "Oh boy", so he sent me a piano teacher. We had less than 2weeks left till the concert. Every day I went to this teacher's house and practiced. that was when I realized that I rather needed to memorize all to be able to play. She would yell at me to look at the note, but I couldn't, because I could never figure out where I was playing and reading the note was painful. I hyperfocused memorizing and play. Once I could play all, I could shift focus a bit to changing strength hitting the keys. Teacher explains emotions and scenes stuff but I couldn't get it, so I just followed what i was told to do at certain notes. I also practiced at my best friend's house. On the competition day, my best friend happened to be my page turner. As I was playing, her turning page was distracting me She said "This is where you are now!" and I said "I can't look at it! So I have no idea where I am!!" Long story here.. well I was able to accomplish this random challgenge I took on. Throughout my life, I struggle with socializing. I am comfortable 1-1 interaction, but it's depending on the person I interact with. I can be perceived as rude or blunt. I don't notice what I say can be too straightforward, or unnecessary to say. Anxiety and low self-esteem were always in me. That got worse as I got older. Moving to a big city for university was a torture. I lived in a dorm where 100 girls lived, and I cried for the first 2 weeks, feeling alone and isolated. Super slowly I started getting used to a new school life and got some friends. yet I felt different. I got multiple awkward situations or even close call of sexual harassment because I don't have no sense of flirting. And if I like someone, I don't know how to express. Starting a new life again (working full time after graduation) was a torture again in the early 20's. Then other symptoms like impulsiveness, depression, ourbursts started. I also struggled with sensory processing. Taking notes at work meeting was always a disaster for me. I couldn't understand instructions. It took me super long time to do tasks compared to others at work. With all the struggles I had, I pretended everything was ok. 2010, I moved to Canada from Japan (after my impulsive actions), stress took over my life. Age of mid 20's and 30's passed here, not realizing what I had been dealing with. Now I am more aware that I am sensitive to some noises. I understood why It triggered anger and yelled at my partner not to tap spoon against cat bowls to drop wet food etc. My attention deficit and hyperfocus was becoming worse. A few months ago, I found a wonderful therapist. I had lots of grieving to do and learning towards healing now. It takes time. I am on ADHD meds and antidepressant. That is helping me as well. I have been off work and not socializing outside my home. maybe that's why I don't have anxiety and instant rage as much as used to. but I'm sure I still have all that. I am learning self-compassion, acceptance, and (C)PTSD through books and resources (youtube, articles) that ny therapist has been providing me. lots to absorb, and not easy to change behaviors and accept what I don't have control of for things I don't like about myself (ND). but I'm trying :) I am glad to have found your channel. I learn a lot from you and other ND youtubers. wow I told my life story in this comment lol sorry for the long letter!
@jesterr7133
9 ай бұрын
It's so interesting. I went though many of the same things as a child. I thought they were the weird ones and I was awesome. After I became aware of my Autism, it is very interesting to reexamine many things about my childhood. I t is almost like looking at it through an entirely different set of eyes, and I see why some of the other kids reacted to me the way they did.
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