My rock bottom story sucks ass. Just getting wasted at home alone lmao.
@_BatCountry
5 ай бұрын
Like I said, it's not a competition and a rock bottom is a rock bottom however it happens.
@jnidob9676
2 ай бұрын
Thats dark as fuck man
@THLM-jo2yu
5 ай бұрын
After months of binging. I assaulted a copper over an argument of sleeping outside (not the brightest idea). First they put me in a holding cell for 12 hours until I saw the judge and it was off to jail. I thought this was hell but no. In jail was where my withdrawal really started, realizing I didn't have my medicine anymore: Oh crap! Literally. So they first put me in a 2 person cell, I was the third. neurotic, nausia, trembling, vomiting, crapping, etc (you know the routine) all over the place which started an argument with my cellies. I dont blame them, I was a absolute wreck and unreliable. So the guards came and wizzed me off to solitary. Dude this was true hell, I wished I was dead back then. The guards have no medical knowledge let alone if they knew that alcohol withdrawal can be dangerous. I did inform medical personnel but due to lack of staff I had to wait a couple of days. Then I knew this wouldn't be pretty. In this cold concrete cell I had matras, a toilet, a weird waterfountain with bleech water or something and a tin blanket. Must have been 72 hours since my last drink and here I went on the verge of a dt, not fullblown but I sure didn't feel well, hearing shit and I saw shadows moving. Also I had some freaky electrical brain zaps, perhaps mini seasures, dunno. Couldn't get any sleep, tried but huhuh. Also there was a small window with some milky thick glass high up against the wall. Every once in a while I tried to figure out if it was day or night but I couldn't because the lights of the courtyart struck this window so, this was also scary, I lost all sense of time. I lived in a twilightzone black hole, something like that. The normal world had ceased to exist, Crazy... The only time I knew the time more or less was around dinner when the guards brought some food. Funny thing was the button to (if they weren't busy) signal the guards was also broken. Not only I'm going into alcohol withdrawal, nicotine as well. Furthermore I couldn't ring for help. Banging the door or yelling was useless because the cell was all the way in the back and there was a second steel door shut thight in te corridor leading to my cell. After about 2 or 3 days the docter and nurse arrived stating: "Sir you dont look good and act seriously confused". "Well, no shit cherlock!" I replied. Then they gave me an injection with an antipsychotic. I still couldn't sleep, still sick as a dog but I felt a little bit better. Anyway I dont know how long I was in there. 4 or 5 days perhaps. But those were the longest days of my life! After that I could return to general population but I think eventhough the worse was behind me, it took about 3 weeks to fully recover because I had been drinking for so long and heavily. Alcoholism is no joke! It still annoys me when I hear ppl say well you just quit drinking. I mean recovery is one thing but after a certain threshold of consuming alcohol you dont just quit, not without medical supervision. Anyways that was my story.
@_BatCountry
5 ай бұрын
Oh my god, that thing you say about not having any sense of time, that is brutal. Starring at the window trying to see if it's daytime or nighttime... oof. I know exactly how confusing and lonely that feels. I'm really grateful you shared this, I think a lot of us can relate to it. Out of curiosity, did they prosecute you? I also assaulted a cop and a public defender got it changed to "obstructing an emergency worker" which kept me out of prison.
@THLM-jo2yu
5 ай бұрын
@@_BatCountry yes, I was prosecuted for unarmed assault but the sentence was turned into probation. Which is kind of a good thing because this is an extra motivation to find help and work on my problem. Not pleasant perhaps but better than drinking or jail. 😉
@THLM-jo2yu
5 ай бұрын
The funniest thing btw when I left prison sober and they gave my belongings back in my backpack I had a bottle of hard liquor which I thought they'd surely have confiscated, wouldn't mind. Huhm nope gave that back as well eventhough I insisted to keep it. Yeah crazy times...
@_BatCountry
5 ай бұрын
@@THLM-jo2yu Oh god, that's like giving a gun back to a murderer :) Well done for resisting
@THLM-jo2yu
5 ай бұрын
Long story short. I'm 4 days sober now and I need to keep it that way because I know if I take that first drink it al starts again.
@_BatCountry
5 ай бұрын
Congratulations, you're nearly over the worst of it. Keep us posted on your progress, we can help.
@Rajviper
5 ай бұрын
I'm at 7, we're in the same boat. Stay strong king
@Reggaechild
3 ай бұрын
Keep it up man! I understand what you mean I get the same way after just one, but I’m on day 2!
@danielwelker1286
3 ай бұрын
And how are you 1 month later?
@jeffjenkins-ks4sn
3 ай бұрын
Same here man. I’ve been sober for over two years now. It does get easier. It really does but if you go back it could be the end of you.
@archangel_josh
4 ай бұрын
You, sir, are a first class raconteur. I love your use of language, you paint images in my brain. 613 days sober here and thriving.
@cowboynic66
2 ай бұрын
A week sober after blacking out and totaling my vehicle got a DUI went to jail…just happy to be alive and not hurt here’s to never picking up that first drink again.
@_BatCountry
2 ай бұрын
One day at a time mate.
@cowboynic66
Ай бұрын
@@_BatCountry almost to 2 months now!
@giuseppepagliarulo6545
5 ай бұрын
As a recovering alcoholic I deeply appreciate this channel. It really makes me feel less alone in my struggle. Thank you, man.
@_BatCountry
5 ай бұрын
Thanks for the comment brother, stay tuned, there's a lot more coming!
@gigi9301
3 ай бұрын
@@_BatCountry I'm a week out; too many "near misses" with every facet of my life. Physically, I have fallen a few times in the last year, bruised my face on the edge of my night table and before that I was sitting on a chair at a wine tasting and fell over onto the side of my head, incurring a huge lump to the side of my forehead which I then had scraped down by a plastic surgeon I told the surgeon I hit a branch on my head. I got drunk and yelled at my next door neighbors in the middle of the night until they called the cops to shut me up. I didn't get arrested but how damn embarassing. I called my uncle while drunk and cried on the phone to him and he's 86 I don't remember what I said but he knew I was drunk. On and on I could go. I lied to my hairdresser when I was too hung over (and still drunk) to go to my hair appointment; I told her my father had passed away. That last one was "the final straw" for me; who have I become that I can't even make it to a hair appointment and lying.
@danielwelker1286
Ай бұрын
@@giuseppepagliarulo6545 Your not alone Brother it's Hard but worth it. 15 years ago I gave up Alcohol 💪🤠
@deangelostrachan7305
24 күн бұрын
I had a rock bottom 2yr dive. Just going on day 4...pray for me 😢. I've lost my woman,kids, family, friends,jobs... I've hurt people, myself and arrested numerous times...my energy is draining and my mind is starting to play tricks on me "the gin"
@_BatCountry
22 күн бұрын
It's all upwards from here. Stay sober, and start building yourself back up. Get after it.
@ryanpfukwa8995
17 күн бұрын
Hold on .Try AA. please it works !
@jonnyfukyou127u27828
12 күн бұрын
Start with beer, then , wine , then the spirts. When you go to buy your bottle of spirt i by this time you have already cemented your fate.
@Adrian_El_Amin
8 күн бұрын
@@deangelostrachan7305 I pray for you. Please be strong
@jarodjohnson1605
2 күн бұрын
The good thing about the abyss of rock bottom; you've got solid footing to push off and swim for the surface.
@blde_grypr
4 ай бұрын
There are already similar comments but this story should 💯 be written as a novel and then made into a film. This sounds utterly epic. I have some wild drunk cycling stories but wow. If I was not a fellow recovering addict I would not believe it. Just found your channel and subbed. Thanks for sharing brother.
@_BatCountry
4 ай бұрын
Thanks Blde, and hey, if someone wanted to buy the rights to this story, well I've got rent to pay, you know what I mean? hahahha You raise I good point that I haven't really thought about: I wonder what non-alcoholics make of this story? I think I'll ask about that in a later video. Speaking of which, as another cyclist in recovery, in the video I published yesterday I included a few photos that I should have put in this video to illustrate what I was talking about.
@redpilledsimp_5010
22 күн бұрын
When I hear and read the stories I realize my case wasn't even that bad. I am the "wine after a day work drinker." It insidiously got out of hand. I really followed Moore's law. 1 glass became 2, became 4 to 1 bottle and after that 2. It went ok-ish for a year or 2 but my hang overs the days after took longer and longer. My wake up call was a client telling me I looked like shit the previous appointment. I knew that was from a hang over but explained it away by telling I had a bad night sleep. But it woke me up: imagine one day my clients can smell it! I also realized I bought my wine at a different store every day as not to "be to obvious." My rookie rock bottom was when I was at a birthday, had a few beers (honestly) but texted my wife asking her to fetch me 2 bottles. I finished them when I got home and had the worst hang over the next day. That day I knew I had to stop before things really get out of control. I didn't seek help. Being stubborn I decided the only thing to make me stop drinking is to stop drinking. I honestly didn't have withdrawal except for maybe a tad uneasy sleep. No cravings and no relapses. 1 near relapse: I thought I had a 0% beer but I felt the alcohol in me. You know exactly what I mean: that muscle memory of your body. That fucking "welcome home!" feeling. When I checked the bottle more closely it turned out to be .5% By then I was sober for 2 years so all my tolerance was gone. The first thought I had was "might as well take a real one now. Doesn't matter anymore." The second thought: "don't you fucking even dare!" I followed that second thought. Well in my 5th year now. Again: reading/ hearing the other stories I realize I was peanuts but I profoundly feel I dodged a bullet. Thank you all for your clarity.
@bcc7777
6 сағат бұрын
The owner of my liquor store said he was worried about me. 🙄
@cjh0751
5 ай бұрын
I'm going through it at the moment. I'm trying to sleep on the 4th consecutive night of withdrawal. The visuals faces are subsiding but there was a disturbing voice (in my head) just as I was dropping off that shook me awake again. It's gonna be another long night. I've taken half a mertazipine to help. Your story of rock bottom has really inspired me to kick this for good.
@jjchaos2024
5 ай бұрын
Hang in there! The worst feelings are over. Day conquered. Victory achieved. No looking back but only to remember the painful insanity and to try not to return.
@cjh0751
5 ай бұрын
Thanks you've really inspired me. I just hope I can some sleep. It's the fear that stops you trying to nod off.@@jjchaos2024
@_BatCountry
5 ай бұрын
Congratulations for getting out of it, and thanks for the comment. Stick with it, and keep us posted on your progress. You got this.
@kylegood2622
5 ай бұрын
Stay strong friend! If I did it, literally anyone can. You can for sure! It's better over here - keep fighting♥️
@benstapley4937
3 ай бұрын
Not trying to play Dr. but you gotta be careful. I’ve been there. It’s hell. If you can get to ER or a detox you should.
@outtosea25
3 ай бұрын
In a desperate state of withdrawal, I did my best to appear as a customer and made my way to the Pike Place Brewery restrooms. Sitting on the toilet in a stall, the flooring tile are small, white squares with black grouting. I cooked up my only shot of heroin, set the tin cooker on the wet, tile floor and to my horror, managed to make a jerking motion and kick the tin over. I had to place the cotton in the little grouting canal between the tiles to suck up the heroin with the syringe. There was no choice. Somehow I didn't get any disease. Nearly had my right arm amputated at UofW medical center not long after that. Sober now, but its been brutal. Take care.
@vicvega3614
2 ай бұрын
Oh shit that brings back memories, I was in a disgusting gas station bathroom and dropped the spoon, i tried to soak back up what i could and i looked to the left and there was literally piss on the floor and shit stains by the toilet, that was my last shot of H until i got a script of oxys in 2 weeks, I was broke. this was 2004 and i called a friend and he had this newer drug called suboxone, they were the orange octagon 16mg sublingual pills. Next day I was going into complete withdrawal and took a half a pill and i felt amazing, i knew right then that pill would save me. It still took another 10 years to stay on the subs but i did and next month i lower to .5 mg and then off, but if i need to go back on i have that option. Ive been on opiates for 27 years, lost many very close friends including the friend who first gave me suboxone. I also drank a LOT of liquor. Been 9 years since i drank. Hope you stay well 🙏
@_BatCountry
2 ай бұрын
Listen outtosea, it might not feel like it to you, but that is an inspirational story. If you can come back from that and reflect on it, then others can too. I appreciate your comments here, I know I haven't replied to all of them but believe me, I love to see them.
@diamondj3869
16 күн бұрын
Good evening . It is September 16th at 10;41 pm. My name is Jane . I am going to be 69 years old in a few weeks. This video showed up on my KZitem. I am so touched by your story . I look forward to watching your entire collection and sharing your channel with everyone I know .
@_BatCountry
16 күн бұрын
Hello Diamond! I'm glad this video connected with you, and thank you for your coment!
@goosemanjohn
5 ай бұрын
This tale is dark and fascinating and feels like it could be part of a book or film, and I’m only a third of the way in but I’m coming back to this having watched your video on the DT’s some time back. There are some parallels I can certainly relate to, time misspent in Asia where the creeping addiction started to take root and then some time later denial, confusion and terror. I don’t say this often but I am huge fan of this channel and the delivery. I thoroughly appreciate the use of old school lenses too! Congratulations on your time in recovery. Off to a meeting tonight myself. Thanks for your story. Jim
@_BatCountry
5 ай бұрын
Thanks Jim, that means a lot! Have a good meeting buddy.
@_LilacRoses
2 ай бұрын
You're an incredible wordsmith, you could travel the world and do lectures, TED talks, I genuinely see it happening for you. You're so intelligent and captivating. Rooting for you!
@_BatCountry
2 ай бұрын
You're far too kind, thank you so much for the support!
@harrybaker9044
5 ай бұрын
Ive had many rock bottoms, at different times. Having to go to the hospital because i thought i was going to die due to acute alcohol abuse. Waking up to a hideously disgusting bed, carpet, and room which i had practically destroyed with vomit and urine, and then spending the next few days trying to return it all to some kind of livable state. And worst of all, the feeling that i was going completely insane during alcohol withdrawal - i developed complete paranoia and thought that some of my closest friends had been possessed by demons and were mocking me and were going to take me to hell with them. All of these moments made me seriously question what i was doing to my body and my mind. And if its all worth it. But as an alcoholic, i kept going back. I was 6 months sober last year. I just have to keep reminding me of that fact. I can do it again.
@danielwelker1286
Ай бұрын
@@harrybaker9044 Got tired of feeling like shit. Quit going on 15 years now 🤠💪 all I do now is lifting, biking and hiking 🥾. Gotta admit that I gave up booze for weed. Try Drinking before Lifting it Doesn't work 😁
@zootsoot2006
Күн бұрын
You must be a hell of a guest at a dinner party. 'Anyone got any crazy stories?'
@_BatCountry
Күн бұрын
hahahha they say what doesn't kill you makes you weird at dinner parties...
@zootsoot2006
Күн бұрын
@@_BatCountry But seriously dude, you should write a book. Incredible story and storytelling.
@GinaEnns
4 ай бұрын
Sorry no rock bottom story but I know I have a problem with booze, have been giving my body,brain reaks for the last 5-6 years. Anywhere from 4/5 days to 3 months break, I’m 58 and have been drinking for 3 decades, just can’t seem to wrap my head around “ NEVER” having another drink bc subconsciously I relate to drinking as having fun? It’s time to get off the crazy train and actually enjoy my time living and being present, ty for your honesty and grateful your still alive to tell your journey to sobriety, god bless 💕and shine on🌞
@_BatCountry
4 ай бұрын
To be honest, if you're here watching videos like mine, drinking probably isn't that much fun for you anymore. Maybe it's time to consider what's actually fun for you today, set the booze aside, and go do the things that make you feel good :)
@Dr.phatazz
3 ай бұрын
Not only that but watch that pancreas , liver situation. Body can’t handle booze like it did before age 50. I have 2 friends in late 50’s with pancreatic cancer from years of drinking
@gigi9301
3 ай бұрын
I"m 56 and it's kind of the same for me. Hopefully, you're doing well. I'm one week out right now and not missing it but I realize it might be false confidence
@jordanmiller8097
5 ай бұрын
I just loaded World of Warcraft and checked my subs for something to watch while playing, "uploaded seconds ago," Good timing!
@Slayer-7373
5 ай бұрын
Aye I play wow too 🤙
@_BatCountry
5 ай бұрын
I hope it made a good backing track :)
@jordanmiller8097
5 ай бұрын
@@_BatCountry As always! I had the video up on a second monitor :)
@jordanmiller8097
5 ай бұрын
@@Slayer-7373 Hell yeah! I've been loving Season of Discovery, I'm close to hitting level 50. I'll have to check out some of your videos later man!
@andrewb9603
9 сағат бұрын
Your rock bottom story sounds epic. Congrats on your recovery and good storytelling.
@DecafMuffin
29 күн бұрын
Thank you for these videos because I haven’t got much support and this really helps
@_BatCountry
27 күн бұрын
I'm lad they're connecting with you mate.
@travisclymer4481
Ай бұрын
That’s a bad rock bottom! I’d be so hopeless and scared. I wouldn’t want to go on living at that point in jail.
@TheLasTBreHoN
Ай бұрын
And thank you so much for doing these videos. It's very brave of you. And it means another to me. From what I read in the comments it means a lot to alot of people too.
@_BatCountry
Ай бұрын
I'm lucky to have such an empathetic audience :)
@newthrash1221
2 ай бұрын
I had two major head injuries,o ne when I was 13 and another at 19. I always felt that after the second one, my attitude, demeanor, and alcoholism went down a dark path.
@_BatCountry
2 ай бұрын
Yeah same. It can adjust your mood and behaviour even in small ways. But over time, those small ways add up. Thanks for the comment mate.
@StephenLondonUK
4 ай бұрын
Was captivated by this story, thank you for sharing it. I'm in a treatment centre right now, after my rock bottom, destitute & street homeless in London. I had a professional job, a flat, a car, friends, family, now I have nothing except my life. In this respect, I am luckier than some. I lost my soulmate and closest friend five months ago which tore me heart out. Am taking it one day at a time just now. I like your channel, keep posting videos 👍
@_BatCountry
4 ай бұрын
Hey Stephen! I spent ALL my time in treatment wards watching sobriety videos, that's kinda why I started this one. I'm sorry for your loss, I mean that. It's so easy to say trite shit like "it can only get better from here, onwards and upwards" but I know firthand how absolutely bleak things can get. So I'll just say, we're all in it together.
@StephenLondonUK
4 ай бұрын
@_BatCountry Thanks for your support. My addiction feels like a black hole which is constantly trying to suck me in, and every day is a fight against it. Some days I feel like giving up the fight, it's a nightmare existence. I try to trust others when they say "it gets better". I think that "keeping it in the day" and not thinking too far ahead into the future is advice which works for me right now, especially in the safe space of this inpatient unit right now. Thanks for your videos, I can feel your authenticity through them 👍
@_BatCountry
4 ай бұрын
@@StephenLondonUK Incidentally - how long have you been in the treatment centre, how long have you got left there, and how's it going?
@StephenLondonUK
4 ай бұрын
I've been here 7 weeks, and have 4 weeks left. It's OK, I'm glad I came. There is a lot of drama between other clients but I keep out of it.
@_BatCountry
4 ай бұрын
That's a long stint man, you should be proud of yourself. Incidentally, is that you in that BBS recording on your channel? It's really good.
@mightymi3119
2 ай бұрын
Wow indeed! Thank you for sharing. I could listen to you for hours. What an amazing talent youve got. And what a story 😮😮😮
@bushhippie7372
Күн бұрын
I appreciate your vulnerability. I’ve bottomed out a lot too. The more dramatic sounding ones have no real story. Waking up in a ditch or by the tracks hoping to get hit by a car or train in my sleep. But that’s the mild end for me. Typically drunkard shit. My hardest rock bottoms have always involved relationships that I’ve neglected or even actively sabotaged. No wife or kids, never married or even engaged. My lowest point was definitely asking my parents for a few hundred dollars to take my beloved dog to the vet to have an abscess worked on. I blew the money on booze and let my dog suffer unduly while I got drunk for a few weeks straight. There wasn’t really even a real thought of seeing a vet. I used a sick dog as a ploy to get alcohol money. When I came out of the fog finally I just had a horrific hangover and a pet that was in pain. That hit me hard to know what I’d done. On a lighter note the dog is fine now. She’s a ripe sixteen years and very spry.
@zauberlu
26 күн бұрын
I think alcoholism is a poverty, a shortcoming, a drought, a penury, a permanent state of producing blunders. I only hear about the liquid part (quantity, quality, periodicity, shame, descent into hell, impending doom etc), the phisiology, labour, financial and social parts, but rarely do I hear about the most interesting one, which is the psychological/philosophical aspect. Alcoholism makes you not only lie, but think certain things, have certain values and feelings. You've mentioned a parasite of a bug in one of your videos that for me was the ultimate analogy. But we have to remember that we don't go to bed sane and wake up the next day a zombie or a Wernicke Korsakoff's demented carcass. We drink our ways to these havens bit by bit (every time we drink, we're doing so because we want to escape, to forget, to let go of, to obliterate, and that's what we're granted in the end). This is the work of alcoholism, it builds us throughout life, but at such a slow pace, like the frog in the ever slightly warmer water, that we don't know anything about it, until it becomes the whole lot of what and who we are, for good. Believing otherwise is to believe in souls. And if we decide to believe in souls, we can go on drinking, because it affects just the body... But our self is our body, is our cells and organs, there's no thought or feeling that is indifferent to the state of our health. So alcoholism is the foundation of a zombie, through stages of making criminals, liers, immoral adults, lazy and sloppy students, depressed teenagers and traumatized children. Alcohol is an idea that has a life of his own, and perhaps a living creature that stays in families for generations. And this is why being sober for many years may not be enough to prevent one from relapsing, because one should search like there's no tomorrow for everything that has been touched by alcohol, every thought that might have been formed, value that might have been pushed, feeling that might have been instilled and behaviour that might have been influenced by the poisoning of every cell in the body, every tradition in the family, every event, manifestation and pillar of society. It takes a permanently vigilant super well trained ranger to do that. And who qualifies? Everything in this world is set out against it, there's just stuff for making you dumb and weak. A very dangerous period for relapse is between 10 and 16 years of sobriety, because the person is already old and doesn't feel like they have the resources to go through the work all over again, so the suicidal rate for this population is high. I think it's all because the work is not only about not drinking and avoiding places and people etc, the work is cleaning up your mind daily and growing up by reading, studying hard subjects, working out like a pro, reading super difficult philosophy, doing therapy in yourself, journaling, going to traditional therapy if it helps, eating super difficult clean food, studying and reading books on relationships to improve the ones you get, getting sunlight and letting go of caffeine and meditating (it's like becoming more focused then huberman). But this lifestyle is so hard is almost unattainable and this is why I tell you, in my opinion, no one needs a rock bottom. It might be part of your journey but please re-evaluate your journey every single day, and at least try to deal with different perspectives and elaborate on them to gain clarity. It's not because something happened before something else that there is causality. And, worst of all, you're not done yet, always be careful and never commemorate sobriety cause it is to take it for granted. You have to be careful every day and remember you're in a war zone. I don't think I'm an alcoholic, I quit drinking two years ago by accident and loved it so I've decided to keep it. But as I progress in studying it by reading books and watching sober KZitem, I realise I might be one as well or at least I could have been and for sure the opportunity is always there if I ever give in to my desire for a break from the war zone mentality. Come on, what about Disneyland? Don't you wanna go?
@tomaszruszczyk6384
Ай бұрын
I had been a binge drinker from the age of 16 till the age of 36 (1998-2018)... my rock bottom happened after my first son was born.. when he was about 6 months old I went out with my mates to get some beers.. my wife called me to come back home several times.. which I finally did... next day my son got very high fever... we almost went to hospital as it was his first.. we couldn't lower the temperature, which we finally did.. that night I thought to myself.. if that happened the night before when I was drunk as sh!T.. I would lose the last crumbs of self respect I had left... I have never drank alfter that night.. and the biggest surprise for me was that the life turned out to be highly better then ever before... getting sober gives you everything alcohol promised you... sorry for my English, I'm from Poland.. big respect to you buddy.. Peace ❤
@_BatCountry
Ай бұрын
Congratulations mate. Sometimes life has to really slap us in the face to make a change in our lives, and I'm happy you made the right decision. Dziękuję!
@pirrracy
10 күн бұрын
I was a chain smoker for over 20 years. I look back with shame at the cigarette butts I'd resort to picking up off the ground. They're ancient history to me now, and quitting was like removing a ball-and-chain in multiple aspects of life. They would dictate my day, therefore my entire life... Who wants that? Addicts know it is never even about the money - but all the cash you suddenly realize you have is just an added bonus which can help maintain a positive forward-thinking path.
@_BatCountry
10 күн бұрын
Addiction drives you to such low places doesn't it?
@pirrracy
10 күн бұрын
@@_BatCountry Yes indeed, and with healing comes clarity. Sharing and reflecting as you do is invaluable to others *and* yourself.- thank you.
@barrydalziel
12 күн бұрын
You've been through alot and I have total respect but I don't like " I'm not a big drug guy" alcohol is a drug, it's just legal. Sorry just had to put that out there.
@_BatCountry
10 күн бұрын
Yeah that's a fair point.
@Ajdbhvkdnbek
3 ай бұрын
You really should make a movie about this. I cannot believe what I just heard. Absolutely crazy that you survived all of this you are incredible
@johnramsey2782
2 күн бұрын
You're very good at telling your story biking. Very interesting. Thank you.
@_BatCountry
2 күн бұрын
Thanks for watching!
@CalicoKate13
4 ай бұрын
Once again I really resonated with this video and I admire the unflinching honesty whilst also being very interesting and educational. Something that especially resonated with me personally, was when you said how you miss elements of your drinking days, such as walking home from work drinking whiskey....It's not something you hear a lot when people talk about their time in active alcoholism, because it's a taboo to say you actually have fond memories of being an alcoholic, but it really struck a chord with me. The ability to romanticise what was probably not a very good time is another one of alcohol's insidious qualities, and I too often reminisce about my times when I was drinking with a certain fondness. Sometimes I really miss some of my little drinking rituals, such as getting home from work, immediately running a bath and opening a bottle of wine to drink whilst soaking in the tub and reading a book, or the way I would sit outside in my garden with a bottle and think I was being really sophisticated on a sunny afternoon. But those times are gone for good, I can never get them back, and even though in reality they probably weren't that great and I'm looking at these memories through rose-tinted retrospective spectacles, I still find myself really grieving that part of my past sometimes. Thanks again for another great video!
@_BatCountry
4 ай бұрын
Thanks so much for your thoughtful comment again Butterfly. And yeah, while we're often told it's dangerous to look back on our drinking days with fondness, I think it's safe to acknowledge there are parts that we miss but ALSO our lives are better without it. Those two things aren't in conflict for me.
@CalicoKate13
4 ай бұрын
@@_BatCountry Yes and I agree with that for myself too. I know that my life is much better now and that those days are long gone. I'm glad you're in a much better place too!
@danielwelker1286
3 ай бұрын
@@CalicoKate13 When I wished I was having a couple of beers I would just go to the gym or go for long walks sometimes even at midnight or later. Sometimes while at work I felt a bit tired But nothing compared to That crappie next day after drinking. This still works for me Today...15 years Now. No more Hydrocodone or Alcohol addiction. If wasn't easy I gave it up cold turkey on my own No doctors. Now I Truely just enjoy the feeling of my body And mind as I feel those endorphins kicking in
@JohnJones-mz2tc
17 күн бұрын
Romanticising alcoholic experiences is a very bad idea...
@_BatCountry
16 күн бұрын
It's a bad idea unless you're very sober, at which point I think it's ok to have fun with your experiences.
@JohnJones-mz2tc
16 күн бұрын
@@_BatCountry Perhaps, but I have shifted my thoughts to the great times and experiences I've had in sobriety and find it reasures and strengthens my commitment to staying straight. I wish you well.
@danielwelker1286
3 ай бұрын
Feeling like crap later and being unkind to my wife was my Bottom line. 15 years ago ❤
@yppakcaasi5396
23 күн бұрын
How did you pay for booze after getting robbed so many times? How did you replenish your cash to keep going?
@_BatCountry
22 күн бұрын
Western Union mostly.
@sethlivingston6427
4 ай бұрын
its a rather long story, my rock bottom, started to drink during the pandemic, lost my home, moved to an off the grid cabin in mendocino , did t work out, was essentially homeless ,still had a truck and cargo trailer full of tools, met a rendom person, got a job on a ranch as an onsite supervisor, in which i lived there in a non working 5th wheel, completely isolated, continued to drink more and more, flipped a side by side used for work, eventually couldnt work from drinking and not eating, running out of booze syaryed dts and was fired, leaving me homeless. its been a long road, 2 years and 4 months sober but still sufferings lifes ramifications from all the yeats spent drinking. im 51 now.
@_BatCountry
4 ай бұрын
Congrats on your sobriety, after all that happened it would have been easier to stay in the drink. You should be proud.
@gigi9301
3 ай бұрын
How are you doing now? I am rooting for you to stay off
@sethlivingston6427
3 ай бұрын
@@gigi9301 still sober, working. it's some type of ride, some days are great, some are bleak. forgiving the past is the hardest
@sethlivingston6427
3 ай бұрын
@@gigi9301 you know whays crazy? I had a dog with me the whole time that helped pull me through , she passed when I was sober and somewhat established, her name was Gigi.
@gigi9301
3 ай бұрын
@@sethlivingston6427 Awesome! It's my cat's name and I've been sober for only about ten days; I'm very tired but will keep at it and I've heard it can be common to be tired for a while at the beginning. Have a great July 4th!
@Adrian_El_Amin
27 күн бұрын
Damn u take the cake brother. I'm so proud and inspired by you. ❤❤
@_BatCountry
27 күн бұрын
Thanks mate. Hope you're doing good today.
@Adrian_El_Amin
26 күн бұрын
@@_BatCountry another sober day is always a good day for me
@travisclymer4481
Ай бұрын
I have a handful of rock bottoms from homeless garages in North Hollywood eating spighetti with Ron Jeremy, to stranded and homeless in Peoples Park in Berkeley, CA. I’ve had 5-6 day binge blackouts where I drove over 2-300 miles to end up on people’s front porches not knowing how I got there to psyche wards and ER’s reading later the details of events I do not remember. I am happy to be sober and clean today, I cut off about everyone except my sponsor a 2-3 people in my life as I chase my career and attend methadone clinic. I am happy and blessed.
@stuffinmyliferightnow592
3 ай бұрын
My God! I've been thru booze withdrawal and I absolutely cannot imagine how you got thru that in a 110 degree jail cell. Incredible story.
@yorkshirelad1050
21 күн бұрын
Blimey, some story. For my part, I have been drinking a bottle of wine a night for the last 10 years (maybe more) but rarely go beyond this as I hate totally losing control. But, then, I also hate my lonely, anodyne life and alcohol ‘takes the edge off’……that is, until its depressive qualities kick in. There is no ‘rock bottom’ moment for me but a slow, insidious atrophy….which may be worse At the end of the day, any difference in drinking patterns/psychology is irrelevant. I am hooked and it is impacting my life in a very negative way.
@_BatCountry
21 күн бұрын
You should try a year off the alcohol and see if you can find other ways to take the edge off. Take up a martial art or something.
@reidosborn8411
2 ай бұрын
I could listen to this for hours, and I wish I could find more longform tales like yours about catastrophic implosions. Its so oddly reassuring. You are a truly compelling speaker, thanks for helping me through a tough time.
@_BatCountry
2 ай бұрын
Thanks so much for the compliment. And I have the same feeling about these stories - a bit of me is horrified, but the larger part finds it reassuring. I hope you're doing good today.
@bonniehamelburg4047
2 ай бұрын
For all of the awful consequences an alcoholic faces, equally important are the near misses along the way that when combined with the consequences demonstrate the true reality of alcoholism. That we survive at all is motivation for me to not give up.
@_BatCountry
2 ай бұрын
Well said, and thank you for saying it.
@_.Sparky._
2 ай бұрын
I thought your thumbnail tagline was clickbait … I was wrong
@Phishyification
3 ай бұрын
Love the way you tell stories, especially one this traumatic. Any chance you might share what rehab/early meetings were like for you?
@_BatCountry
3 ай бұрын
Thanks, that's a massive compliment! And yeah, I'll be talking more about real-world sobriety over the next few weeks
@benben5847
8 күн бұрын
That’s a wild rock bottom story bro. Booze is such a bad partner.
@_BatCountry
8 күн бұрын
The worst. Thanks for watching!
@Dodgerzden
Ай бұрын
Another benefit to watching videos like this if you're an alcoholic, even a recovering one, is that no matter how bad your experience was, there is always someone who had an even worse experience and seeing that reinforces why you decided to stop drinking because you just never want to go there again because it could even be worse.
@_BatCountry
Ай бұрын
Well, it certainly never gets *better* Once you've crossed a certain line and become the kind of alcohol I was (and am), then there's no going back to moderation or "healthy" drinking.
@Dodgerzden
Ай бұрын
@@_BatCountry Yeah, only having one or two drinks is BS. What's the point of drinking? To get drunk. Not going to happen with one or two. I always wonder how some people can have a stock of booze at home and not drink it down as fast as possible.
@patriqu0
11 күн бұрын
listening to stories is merely part of it. You'll could stop drinking but still be slowly dying. Get a program, don't listen to those fossilized delusions saying if I just keep listening to these self help vids i'll be sober and happy
@sambaza2_254
Күн бұрын
Holy crap! What a story!
@_BatCountry
Күн бұрын
Wild, huh?
@Phumos
3 ай бұрын
I have your vids up in my other monitor while playing talos principle 2. your stories are great and cathartic.
@_BatCountry
3 ай бұрын
Oh awesome! That's exactly the manner in which I want them to be watched: kind of easy podcasty background stories. Also, excellent game choice. I've been a Devolver Games fan since Miami Hotline.
@Phumos
3 ай бұрын
@@_BatCountry I had no idea Devolver and Croteam merged until reading this lol. Anyway I just linked this video in my sobriety discord. I feel like a hipster finding your videos while they are still this low in views. Only a matter of time before you have a few hundred thousand eh. Good luck on your journey today. Last month was my two year milestone
@alisoncotterill350
Ай бұрын
I found you by accident but Christ im glad I did. I'm noone special but alcohol isnt too fussy who it picks on.
@Chazza..
Ай бұрын
Its true. Even as a fully grown man. When pissed up you are vulnerable. Not nice. I get too paranoid these days. Aged 44. Been in it too
@daniel-ino
19 күн бұрын
to be honest i think these stories are an incentive for beginning alcoholics. They were for me: cerouac, bukowski and so on. And to the alcoholic guy (me) with no self esteem it's also demotivating: look he had an exiting life before, fell hard and now has something exiting again. If you never had anything remotely positive before your drinking period this is just so foreign
@_BatCountry
15 күн бұрын
The trick to having positive things happen to you is in being able to recognise the positivity in things. You've probably got loads to be positive about, but depression and anxiety and all that stuff can make it hard to recognise.
@ruthcain2937
3 ай бұрын
This story blew my mind in a very real sense. You are such a skilled and candid narrator that your rock bottom story initially hooked me in (trans continental travel is cool, right?) And then chilled me to the bone. I am now oddly glad to be a relatively comfy menopausal alcoholic who has not travelled further than the late opening offie when drunk. Thank god I never had to wake up with a stinking hangover before cycling to a post-soviet resort only to be arrested by corrupt police. 😅
@gw1890
Ай бұрын
If you write a book I'll buy it, what an incredible story and you have a rare talent for storytelling that this channel is showing the world.
@jeff67788
5 ай бұрын
It kind of reminds me of prison break when they get locked up in like Mexico or something, one of the characters is addicted to benzos and starts going through horrid withdrawal while stuck in the prison. You need to keep uploading these you could make a film. I’m sorry you had to go through those things
@_BatCountry
5 ай бұрын
I only saw the first series of Prison Break so I'll have to go check that out, I'm always interested in depictions of withdrawal. For me, there's a bit of a Batman movie, one of the Christian Bale ones, where Bruce Wayne gets his back broken while he's in that underground jail, my experience reminds of that a little bit.
@whatsfordinner62
5 күн бұрын
Currently struggling with the lack of willpower to not drink whenever it is available. I'm hoping through learning about other people's experiences and what it's like at rock bottom for them, that it can inspire me to permanently stop drinking. I hope everyone seeking sobriety can find it, and that those who need it eventually will want sobriety for themselves
@_BatCountry
5 күн бұрын
Good luck mate, we're all with you.
@Chasworth
2 ай бұрын
We cant stop here, this is bat country!
@_BatCountry
2 ай бұрын
Exactly.
@jarodjohnson1605
2 күн бұрын
We've got a real Howard Hughes over here. Please, continue the pursuit of perfection with no attachment. Great Work. Have you considered that you might have hallucinated the guy stitching his stabwound with his bootlaces? In the west, inmates aren't allowed anything they can use to choke themselves or anyone else with. That includes laces, belts, drawstrings, etc. I've never been locked up in central Asia, so idk. Wild story
@_BatCountry
Күн бұрын
Nah I have a photo of that guy, he was very real.
@NeilMalthus
11 күн бұрын
Dumbest idea I ever had: cycle from Manchester to Spain This guy... China to Europe via Russia and the old Soviet republics It's always going to go wrong
@_BatCountry
10 күн бұрын
Yeah, plus I was an idiot to start with, so I never stood a chance.
@phillipgohorns
8 күн бұрын
So I was in an AA meeting a couple months ago and this one guy was given his story and his Rock Bottom was so ridiculous. I just couldn’t believe it he goes. I went to a happy hour and on the way home. I got a bottle of wine and I drank it at home by myself and that was my Rock Bottom.😅😅😅😅
@_BatCountry
8 күн бұрын
hahahha was it his first time drinking or something?
@JackieZucco-lz8kj
2 ай бұрын
This was the most intense story ever
@_BatCountry
2 ай бұрын
It felt good to get it all out.
@Mmoose712
Ай бұрын
Note to self, im not going to kazistan. Don't have a passport anyway. What a nightmare. Glad you're alive!
@_BatCountry
Ай бұрын
I'm glad too :D
@Slayer-7373
5 ай бұрын
H*ll yea a new bat country video! ✌🏻looking forward to it brother. That was absolutely wild, holy sh”%. You are lucky to be alive my friend.
@_BatCountry
5 ай бұрын
Thanks mate! And yeah, it came pretty close. I don't take it for granted.
@ShadesOClarity
5 ай бұрын
@@_BatCountry Wheewww.
@HeavensAngels1111
8 күн бұрын
Glad you are okay! How about making a video on how people suppose to get sober and stay that way like you are lieing about?
@_BatCountry
8 күн бұрын
What does this mean?
@harrybaker9044
5 ай бұрын
Just finished the entire video. Absolutely incredible story. I don't know how you made it through, i dont think i could have. Your experience is a testament to the strength and durability of the human will, in body and mind. Even when things seemed utterly hopeless, you kept going. And you made it. (Sorry for the comment spam by the way, ill try to keep it all in 1 comment next time.)
@jc36245
17 күн бұрын
Resonating with your Videos mate and thank you. But how did you communicate with surely chronic pain having your teeth knocked out…..? 3 hour Interview with missing teeth? Ouch………
@_BatCountry
16 күн бұрын
I was way beyond caring by that point. I don't even remember it hurting. Glad this stuff is connecting with you though mate, thanks for the comment!
@jc36245
16 күн бұрын
@@_BatCountry 👍🏻🙏🏻
@destinsather9757
8 күн бұрын
Sober since 11/09/2021 … I’ve had multiple rock bottoms … one thing that I’ve found interesting it that the physical depravity (external consequences) in which I go to doesn’t always correlate with the desire to get sober. For me, it was the emotional/spiritual bottom that finally furnished enough motivation within me to seek help. Interesting enough, the solution must come from within in my experience. Anyways, great video. If you ever happen to travel to New Orleans, LA I’d love to have you share your story at my home group. I believe your story will resonate with a lot of people. Best!
@_BatCountry
7 күн бұрын
The solution must come from within. Absolute truth. Congrats on your sobriety, long may it continue, and if I'm in town I'd love to swing by. Never been to New Orleans, but I really like what I know about it.
@destinsather9757
4 күн бұрын
@@_BatCountry in my experience, the best drinking cities are the best recovery cities. Kinda weird how that works.
@stealthbum34
9 күн бұрын
How were you buying daily booze if you’d been robbed and your bank cards didn’t work?
@HeavensAngels1111
8 күн бұрын
Cause he's a liar!
@stevencurry215
16 күн бұрын
Good story
@comatosebrose
2 ай бұрын
Mate u gotta finish that story. Did you go to prison? How did you get out of that? Great story. Don't know how u only have 2.59k subs. Im sending this to all my degenerate friends xoxo
@_BatCountry
2 ай бұрын
Hello mate! Yep, went to jail, got put on trial, and deported from Kazakhstan. I talked about in a follow up video, not sure if this link will work but you can find it on my channel page if not: kzitem.info/news/bejne/l3mkn4yubGt9amUsi=vsJXxnr2yzDrl7NR
@lxamexam
2 ай бұрын
You’re so cool! Please don’t stop making videos. You’re a great storyteller. I literally fall asleep listening to you.
@_BatCountry
2 ай бұрын
Thank you! That makes me so happy, that's exactly the vibe I'm aiming for :D
@sebbenforte
5 ай бұрын
Glad you're still with us Bat Counry; a liter in three hours has been the end of many frat boys. What I find true about all rock bottoms is that, no matter how extreme the practical circumstances, the truth of them all is that the mental anguish is singular. It doesn't matter SO much what's happening outside your body-- what's happening within it is pure crystalline hell.
@_BatCountry
5 ай бұрын
Yeah I agree completely, I didn't make that point clear in this one so I'll mention that in the next. Thanks bud, I always appreciate your comments!
@sebbenforte
5 ай бұрын
@@_BatCountry my rock bottom makes a lot of others feel soft by comparison too. What I tried to teach people when I was in the program was that if you're an alcoholic you don't need to wait until your bottom is as bad as mine-- or yours. If you have a soft bottom, you are so blesssed. Wherever you land, the next bottom is always going to be worse. Hard bottoms make great stories but miserable experiences, and so many don't survive.
@travisclymer4481
Ай бұрын
Got back on methadone program…..really helped! I don’t drink nor use illegal drugs anymore as my higher power is the methadone lol. It’s given me my life back, I’m trucking school getting my CDL. Very happy! 🇺🇸
@CultureShockGotchaShook
11 күн бұрын
Just don’t let them know you’re in the methadone program - I don’t think you can CDL on methadone maintenance
@Mittens23
5 ай бұрын
Oh my god. What a story .!!
@_BatCountry
5 ай бұрын
Thanks Jemma. Yep, an interesting story that I would never want to repeat :D
@stevencurry215
16 күн бұрын
Where did you buy this vodka in the desert??? Not a lot of supermarkets
@_BatCountry
16 күн бұрын
Anywhere there's people, there's vodka. There are places in the desert called caravanserais, that's where travellers meet up and trade and sleep and restock. Plenty of vodka in those places.
@stevencurry215
16 күн бұрын
@@_BatCountry Thank you ..very interesting journey 👍
@user-bo5qb2rb8q
2 ай бұрын
I remember once when I had no money for alcohol when I was starting to withdraw and ended up drinking my own vomit hoping there was alcohol in it, ended up in hospital later that day I think, was lying on the floor drinking my own vomit
@_BatCountry
2 ай бұрын
That's intense, and very relatable. Hope you're doing good today.
@user-bo5qb2rb8q
2 ай бұрын
@@_BatCountry well I'm drinking all day everyday but trying to reduce it but failing tbh
@user-bo5qb2rb8q
2 ай бұрын
Have done well today though
@retselmidlands2303
2 ай бұрын
Crazy storie brother ❤️
@ShadesOClarity
5 ай бұрын
Ought to be a good one. I might drop a new one tomorrow as well. Probably that shit I spoke about sitting in that detox alone was pretty close if not THE bottom. This is one of the gnarliest stories I've ever heard.
@_BatCountry
5 ай бұрын
Yeah like I said at the start, this one's a wild ride.
@ShadesOClarity
5 ай бұрын
@@_BatCountry I can't imagine being jailed in some God-forsaken foreign country and watching my freedom sail away.
@ShadesOClarity
4 ай бұрын
@@_BatCountry I like that you use old non-autofocus, low aperture prime lenses. I don't want to make my life that hard. Heh. It does add a nice texture to your videos so don't stop doing it. I've been trying to get this fucking lighting down but it was your influence that helped on that. So go pat yourself on the back, Stu.
@smittywerbenjagermanjensen6011
5 ай бұрын
interesting coincidence. I had many alcohol crashes in KAZ, with one extreme withdrawal in Astana. Except for one night in Almaty prison, nothing bad happened. I speak Russian fluently so I could talk my way out. Sorry to hear what happened, actually it’s a very beautiful country and people a super nice. Alcohol is really the devil
@_BatCountry
5 ай бұрын
Yeah I should have said that most of the people I met in Kazakhstan were really lovely, I think I'll go back and add that to the description. Almaty is quite a nice town, the bad shit that happened to me wouldn't have happened if I'd been sober.
@smittywerbenjagermanjensen6011
5 ай бұрын
I find your point with the head injury really interesting. I never had a drinking problem until I was in Okinawa a few years ago and got a nice kick to the face by a us soldier. Since then I had the problem to stop drinking once I started and would drink against the withdrawal. Of course personal trauma is also a point but I don’t feel like I have any issue. Super interesting can highly relate to your story. Sometimes I think everything is okay and would drink again but it all leads back to the same. Life sober is much better 💪🏻
@ToDaXi
Ай бұрын
My drinking is nowhere near as bad as it used to be (no more blackouts, no longer everyday, no more calling/texting and going to work under influence, no longer needing a drink to socialize), but everytime I have a few beers it mentally brings me back to those moments where it was at its worst, its such a defeating feeling
@_BatCountry
Ай бұрын
I'm glad you feel like you've got a handle on it. Ya know, I don't wanna preach about it, but in the long run it's easier to just walk away from it entirely. Just sayin', ya know.
@Gotchaaaaaa
5 күн бұрын
I appreciate how you tackled the romanticisation topic. It’s beautiful and profound, and deadly. Thank you for addressing that.
@cfjelde
2 ай бұрын
I find rock bottom stories interesting, but more than that, really helpful. It reminds you where you could be if you don't keep yourself honest and on a healthy track.
@_BatCountry
2 ай бұрын
Yeah me too. I like to listen to others' stories, even when it gives me a knot in my somach.
@ALLMOUNTAINMTB
3 ай бұрын
Awesome beard! I'm 6 months in and suddenly dealing with urges again because I'm hating daily life and my brain is screaming for a quick fix. A lifetime change is on the horizon. But even after 6 months the black dog is always there. Sometimes far and nearly forgotten. Sometimes on the shoulder.
@_BatCountry
3 ай бұрын
6 months is a big threshold to overcome. 1 month, 3 months, 6 months and 1 year are all risky relapse boundaries - in my experience at least. Chin up mate, you're doing great.
@TH-qc4xx
3 ай бұрын
Stumbled upon this, an incredible and sadly relatable story, thank you for sharing, its of great encouragement.
@_BatCountry
3 ай бұрын
Thank you for watching!
@TheLasTBreHoN
Ай бұрын
A moth uses the moon to orientate himself. He keeps it to one side so he can tell he's going in the right direction, until he sees a candle and then his instincts are working against him and the death spiral begins. I feel like all of us are like moths, entranced by a flame. Our instincts are working against us. But that leaves the question, what is our moon? What is our true instinct to orientate ourselves off? I think its this higher power business. Whether you believe in it or not, in our evolutionary history we've always had gods or something that guided us in a direction that was for better or for worse probably good for the tribe. But now science has clouded out our moon and the corruption of our spiritual lives by religious doctrines that make them so hard to believe has left us without anything but the candle. So I implore you all, communicate with this higher power or guardian angel or whatever you can as long as your looking up. May the power protect you ✨️ 🙏 💛
@korneliusparker536
10 күн бұрын
I’d love more full length stories about your time in Central Asia. I’m guessing you may not remember much but I do find it really interesting how your time out there went
@teddroessler8566
26 күн бұрын
Stop trying to be cool !
@_BatCountry
26 күн бұрын
I don't need to try.
@_.Sparky._
2 ай бұрын
I wonder how many caught the “Are u sitting comfortably, then I’ll begin” reference. Definitely shows our age 😊
@goosemanjohn
5 ай бұрын
And wow waking up to a toxic salt flat drunk or hungover there is a surreal psychogeography that kind of makes me think of bits from a Cormac McCarthy novel. Right I’ll shut up now
@_BatCountry
5 ай бұрын
Oh wow that's amazing that you said that - The Road is one of my all time favourite books, and McCarthy's writing is a really excellent reference point for my experiences. Actually gave me goosebumps just now to read that, I hadn't made that connection before.
@goosemanjohn
5 ай бұрын
@@_BatCountry hey mate that’s super cool that sharing that gave you a little spark ⚡️. I love The road book (although extremely bleak) and the film was decent too (I thought). I’ve not yet finished The blood meridian book yet. I keep dipping in and out. But bits of that came to mind. Kind of densely woven nightmarish almost hallucinogenic visuals. Startling stuff
@g3a9j7
4 ай бұрын
This guy is not lying. I've experienced trauma myself and recovered. He is not making this up. To bat country that shit sucks ass and it gets stuck on replay until you face it, relive it and then redefine it. But you will never be the same.
@phillipgohorns
8 күн бұрын
What I love about this channel is he really talks about the pernicious interplay between daily drinking and the fear of withdrawals- your average drinker does not understand that. Whenever I am trying to get sober, I have I take my blood pressure every hour and when I’m in withdrawals, my blood pressure is 200/120 so that of course the pressure is to “taper off“ but as we all know, all that leads to is more drinking.
@_BatCountry
8 күн бұрын
Yeah, for me, tapering is just more drinking, it doesn't stop. People tell me they did it successfully, but I know it doesn't work for me.
@IsntTheInternetGreat
2 ай бұрын
Dude, your story should be made into a movie!
@_BatCountry
2 ай бұрын
I agree. But if you want something done right, you have to do it yourself.
@yarly3180
Ай бұрын
I occasionally cycle 100+ miles on flat territory with just water & Isostar and after that I'm usually sore for a week lol: to ride @ 4500m in the desert while drinking vodka must be insanely hard (emphasis on insane lol), respect.
@_BatCountry
Ай бұрын
I have no idea how I'm alive.
@travisclymer4481
Ай бұрын
Did you say you sold golden sex toys???? Wtf? Lol
@juliestrom412
Ай бұрын
Man oh man! 😮
@catousepingbot
Ай бұрын
If you were robbed so many times how did you still have money to keep buying alcohol? Or passage on a ship?
@_BatCountry
Ай бұрын
Western Union mostly.
@josephvarley2867
Ай бұрын
I appreciate your story and sharing. You're a dope dude. Keep it golden pony boy. Also, what's the hoodie bro, it's dope.
@_BatCountry
Ай бұрын
Thanks mate! I have no idea where I got that hoodie, probably TK Maxx to be honest :)
@jeff67788
5 ай бұрын
👍🏽
@Blaither
Ай бұрын
Absolutely fascinating and gripping!
@bruno12_3
4 ай бұрын
You probably had delirium tremens Mate the vodka has sent you mental for a period you can’t work out the truth from the faults you don’t know whether the dreams are real I’ve had it myself
@_BatCountry
4 ай бұрын
I've had it several times buddy, that's why I started the channel in the first place. It's scary stuff.
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