There is a difference between losing a horse, and losing your first horse. Losing your first horse is losing a connection that you will never have again. October 24.2013 is when my world began to crash down. I got a call that Starlight might be choking. Once the vet got there we discovered that she already had aspiration pneumonia. We tried sulfa tablets but soon discovered that they were not working so we tried 3 of the strongest antibiotics she could have been on. I soon began to pretty much live at the barn since one of them had to be given 3x a day. The first few days were a complete turn around, but then once I thought we were in the clear she took a turn for the worst. She started going downhill and fast so I made the decision to bring her to U of I. Once there the prognosis was not good, her lungs were pretty much filled with fluid and the doctor said that she was unsure if the treatment she needed would work for her. It was at that point I made the heartbreaking decision to put down my best friend, it was at that moment that I realized I would never see my best friend healthy, ever again.I cried and cried, and cried some more just hugging, kissing and holding her head. I looked into her eyes and she knew, she knew what was about to happen, but also, I could see that she was saying thank you and that she was ready. After her necropsy, it was discovered that she had a ruptured abscess in her chest and there was nothing else I could have done for her. Some people will say oh she was old, you gave her a good life blah blah blah but Starlight wasn't just some old horse to me. I was a very chubby, troubled little kid, I always felt alone, attempted suicide 3x, barely spoke a word to anyone, I just hated the world. All that changed when I met Starlight. I finally had someone to trust, someone to talk to and someone that wouldn't judge me. She was my savior, if it wasn't for her I most likely would not be here today. She gave me my confidence through the roof, I would have never had the guts to continue working with Comet if it wasn't for her. I still remember a little promise I made to her 5 years ago "if it ever comes down to it, no matter how good Comet gets, I will never ever sell you, I will give him up first." While I am glad I never got to that point, I still would have held up to that promise. Star wasn't just something to ride for me, she was just my best friend plain and simple. She somehow just always knew when I needed to cry, when I needed a hug, a good ride, she just knew. I will NEVER have a connection with any other horse like the one I had with her, never. She was my heart horse, my best friend, she was the most important thing in my life for 8 years. Everything I do from now on, I'm doing for her, I owe her that much. Rest in peace baby girl, I will always love you, May 22, 1987 - November, 12. 2013.
I do not own the background audio, only my voice obviously.
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