You just got a sub. Wow I could use some of the wisdom you have. Heart to your mom - she raised one hell of a son.
@ricksurratt9034
Жыл бұрын
Amen
@Singlespeedjo
Жыл бұрын
Johnnie and REN are both pretty amazing!❤
@hybrid_lord
Жыл бұрын
Amen to that and right here as well
@aarflow1
Жыл бұрын
You DO have that wisdom he has in you. You recognized his wisdom so it’s in you too 🙏🏽
@Jamiehmm
Жыл бұрын
Right!? Isn't Johnnie awesome!? I found him listening to Ren reactions, and I love his attitude ❤
@sammyd8860
Жыл бұрын
Ren added the last couple of minutes immediately after he had done his interview with Knox Hill, in which, for the first time, he really talked openly about the circumstances around Joe's death. It feels like he had kept so much buried inside himself and it came out in the interview, and it felt good to honour Joe properly. Here he talks about his guilt for being too late to save him. This is just so tough, being far too tough on himself. I am glad that Joe's story is spreading wider and that people are honouring him but Ren, man, please stop beating yourself up. It was not your fault.
@jwarrior852
Жыл бұрын
You should react to Freckled Angels live from the Regal Room. It was performed months after this tragic event. Just Ren, his guitar, and some beautiful words for Joe and his family.
@dawnpatterson8708
Жыл бұрын
This one.....hurt. It took me a bit to realize. This is a GIFT of perspective. There are many who are so lost in the depths of despair. They can't see a hand, friend or those around that love them. This is an intensity personal glimpse into the pain that a loss such as this creates. Yeah, it hurt. It was supposed to. Thank you Ren, for sharing. Thank you Johnnie for your thoughts AND positive energy.
@collinking4310
Жыл бұрын
Johnnie your words of wisdom and positivity have helped me immensely and I just want you to know that. Keep being you bro and keep spreading the love and positivity. You are making a difference ✌❤💪
@leoscone4036
Жыл бұрын
It is particularly poignant for Ren. He was running to the bridge Joe was on, calling repeatedly on his phone. As long as Joe's phone had a busy signal Ren knew he was still there. Just minutes from arrival Joe's phone signal was gone, no service. This song is as personal as it gets. Just a matter of a few minutes and Ren would have been there in time. But, he can't blame himself. Or shouldn't. But he has. I'm hoping this song brings him the rest of the healing that is possible. He will never stop missing Joe. But I hope at least he no longer blames himself in any way. He's told us the whole tale. From "Freckled Angels", written only about a half-year after Joe's demise, to the utterly haunting "How To Be Me", the first part being from the inner perspective of torture bringing an individual to a choice, and the last part being Ren again essentially dedicating the song to Joe. "Freckled Angels" was a healing love song, a song of forgiveness. Ren had to write it to salve his own wound. "How To Be Me" was from the internal perspective of one who would choose their own demise, and no doubt inspired in Ren's mind by Joe. Except for the very last verse, which was again Ren saying he missed Joe so. "Suicide" is even more real than both these other songs because it is Ren telling us how close he was at times to making the same choice. "I think about that sometimes, vividly. What it felt like to look down and see tranquility." He was at the bridge. No one was there. Joe was gone. He looked over the rail for Joe. He knew Joe had chosen to find what he hoped was tranquility. "One sudden movement in a world of possibility..." And he is reflecting vividly on that moment because that has informed him many time throughout his life, times when he might have taken his own life. Thankfully, "It never really felt like the right time". I hope Ren never feels like he never has to write a song about Joe ever again. Singin' the old ones covers all variants of the tune already. And more people than Ren could ever have imagined now know and feel for Joe. Ren. Is. A. Phenomena. Blessings.
@achebwahs1111
Жыл бұрын
Thank you Johnnie, I always feel better after listening to your positive messages.
@MissMeKate
Жыл бұрын
The world needs more people like you and Ren, who channel their pain into motivation to make the world better for others. You will both save people.
@Tessimistic420
Жыл бұрын
🎶🎶🎧🎶🎶 Joined at the soul with a pair of headphones 🎧 ❤️
@bluegrass821
Жыл бұрын
Thank s for your positive outlook on life and the continued encouragements. You are in my top five who touches my soul when watching reactions. Ren is a genius. He is opening up doors that NO one wanted to unlock!
@Lou-xq9br
Жыл бұрын
Great outlook on such a dark topic ❣️ #Ren rip Joe and all we have lost ❣️
@belgand5555
Жыл бұрын
Thank you Johnnie! ❤️🙏🏻❤️
@ryandoyle4344
Жыл бұрын
JCS & REN lifting others with Love and by tales of tragedy
@mattwilcoxuk
Жыл бұрын
*how* many you’ve lost? To murder? Holy hell America is absolutely insane. I’m so sorry man. That’s not a normal society you’re living in. I’m glad you’ve found a perspective and insight to keep you healthy and safe.
@goomymf
Жыл бұрын
And another sub. You spoke just as eloquently as Ren did in this song. Rip to your friends and rip to Joe.
@aimeekeel
Жыл бұрын
Such a good song. I love that he speaks frankly about his sad experience, which opens a lot of dialog for people afraid to reach out to someone.
@fourcornersofbrighton
Жыл бұрын
Great reaction! This one has been hard for me. I have dealt with depression for most of my life and much of what has kept me here is the realization of how it would hurt those I love. The second half of this song is brutal but it is also a good reminder of how it hurts those left behind. Musically, it's another masterpiece! The video is beautiful as well. I think the animation was a great choice for this one. Louis Mardlin is the video editor for Ren's animated type videos and he did a fantastic job.
@MamaJ1975
Жыл бұрын
His best friend, Joe, and how he died, greatly impacted Ren - the story is heartbreaking, he posted about it recently. Coupled with this song, the raw pain that is in his voice, the lyrics... I'm wrecked everytime I hear it. The first part of the song, he's speaking about himself, the darkness that his illness brought - and how he fought through that. It is both a very painful song, and a very hopeful one.
@stephenbarr773
Жыл бұрын
You are very special and bring a sense of joy and calm to your reactions. Sending positive energy and light.
@docdurdin
Жыл бұрын
God Bless you Johnnie.. I lost my firstborn Johnny, to drugs and it took my baby boy Joshua a couple of years ago. I found him slumped over the floor and worked feverishly to save him. His body lived but his brain didn't. I had to let him go. I carry that every day. If only I had been a couple of minutes sooner. I hang on by a thread for the sake of my other 2 kids and my wife. Life is a gift that we should never waste.
@francesdoll4039
Жыл бұрын
He wtote the 2nd part a couple weejs ago. Just poured out of him and he recirded as he wrote it.
@kimzwolinski9919
Жыл бұрын
Ren pinned a comment at the bottom of this video. It explains the situation in more detail. 💔
@robhowell27
Жыл бұрын
dude gots some talent. He has away of communicating that relates to many different people. He is what I consider a true artist. I've lost many people also not as many as you and not to suicide but to accidents, cancer and so on. I can empathize with it all though. loss is loss in away. Either way you look at it they were with us one day and gone the next. Still sucks. I've even tried suicide myself and I guess I fked it up. From then on I figured fk it. The last thing I want to do is try it again just to end up fked up and living in a worse situation. People say its the coward way out. I say to them that they have never been in the state of mind that makes you want to give up. But to say its the cowards way out is beyond dumb. Try it one day. Its harder then many think. Its not as easy as just putting a gun to your head and pulling the trigger. Pulling that trigger is the hardest thing you will ever do. So if you do pull it, its not because your a coward. Its because your broken and you feel alone. Maybe its because you were afraid of reaching out, or you did try to reach out and nobody took you serous. Either way its not away to have to live. But in that moment its pointed at your head and all you have to do is pull the trigger..............It takes some major sadness, feeling alone, feeling like lifes a bitch. and just some major overwhelming pain, and some stones to pull that shit off. Being a coward, or being selfish has nothing to do with it. Maybe some of these people that you hear say "they only did it because they are a coward and they are selfish" maybe in the bigger picture they are the cowards and the selfish. Specially if the person that went through with it tried reaching out to you and you blew them off thinking they just wanted attention or was just being dumb.
@craigmitchell604
Жыл бұрын
I was waiting for this exact reactor. To watch you consume and resonate the message and wisdom you pull from this Was waiting on you my brother. Thanks for showing up.
@lysfleming3331
7 ай бұрын
Brings tears to my eyes. I am so sorry for your loss. The world needs you. And Ren has opened the door for discussions. So powerful.
@DyvmSlorm
Жыл бұрын
You can go about your day trying to spread light but even on your darkest day you might put on a fake smile to the barista who served you your coffee and that might be the light the barista needed that day. We touch so many lives just being here and even a fake smile to a stranger can create a life changing beam of light. The only absolute is that when we are gone, only the memories of us are left to spread that light.
@denalinde
Жыл бұрын
Murder is so ugly, not something I thought would touch my life repeatedly, but thanks to oxy, then heroin & fent, people with demons found themselves in awful situations, with other people fighting off those same demons. Lost a few to OD, & one I dunno if it was suicide or murder. A couple confirmed suicides as well. I also have a few that made it through, including one who survived 2 ODs, only because his dealer carried narcan. He’s clean today after 20 years of oxy, opana, then heroin, then fent. His dream was to travel, so I kept reminding him of it every chance I could. It’s what finally changed his life completely. He’s happy & healthy today - it IS possible. Find your dreams & get busy. 💜
@traviscoots203
Жыл бұрын
Forever grateful for new perspectives
@mrdarengilbert3907
Жыл бұрын
WOW Jonnie, thank you man, thank you for sharing REN I feel for you brother - I hope that’s not disrespectful to assume I can say that. Anyways, take care Daz, Berrima, NSW, Australia
@QueenofPutrescence
Жыл бұрын
Love you Johnnie! I hope you know how far your positivity is reaching!
@jameskelly3764
Жыл бұрын
Always love your reactions...thank you .
@one4theditch38
Жыл бұрын
Thanks as Always, Mr Calloway. You’re also loved.
@yilomina2047
Жыл бұрын
This is such a beautiful song, thank you for sharing your reaction to it
@christelsegbars1630
Жыл бұрын
Dear beautiful human, I subscribe with a whole lotta admeration.. Ren's song made me realize that I to have some sort of survivers guilt.. my godchild took her life while she was admitted in a mental facility, that was christmasday a few years ago. Later I found the digital letter to Chester from linkin park, telling him she understood his choice and that she did attempt thesame thing the day he died..... please be kind to one another, talk to someone, if any human beeiing wants to talk to a stranger, I care..... I'm a bit ashamed to say that a few months I wanted out myself, after I wrote a letter to my mom my babygirl (dog named Diva) jumped on my lap and stared at me, for hours...... warm hug from the Netherlands, you are great, thank you!❤
@aarflow1
Жыл бұрын
You are a spirit my brother! Thank you for your love and kindness
@NativeNYerChicHK
Жыл бұрын
Survivors guilt is one hell of a heavy albatross to hang around your neck and carry around. While you can learn to lighten the weight, you hear someone suffering the same it so easily comes right back to feel as heavy as it ever was. You know it so instantly and so intimately. It’s a connection to others I wish I didn’t have. But then again, pain is a very human connection to others that does bring us closer when we can relate so intimately. A true double edge sword. But a club I wished I didn’t belong to. Suffered my first major loss at 13 when one of my best friends, more like a brother, was brutally murdered by a homeless man in a random attack, stabbed over 50 times. That’s when the innocence of childhood ended or me. I’ve never felt so deeply hurt before, and probably have never been that devastated again if I’m honest. That pain is immeasurable. And I’ve dealt with a lot of loss in my life, at 17 another friend was murdered, at 19 another and at 20 another. Between those years another close friend lost his step-dad to an OD and was the one to find him on the bathroom floor with a needle in his arm. That one opened my eyes to the fact our parents aren’t immortal. And time is really fleeting. And addiction is absolutely a disease. But the losses I suffered after that first one felt less devastating, like I was numbed to the feeling somewhat. It just became part of life. In a way I appreciate that I can handle loss so well, if I am even handling well or if Im just shoving it down, I don’t really know. I’m just so sad for young me that, that acceptance had to come through such utter shocking devastation, rather than being afforded the time to understand through maturity. The only other times that survivors guilt has reared it’s ugly head for me personally is 9/11. My brother worked in the WTC and my husband was an NYPD officer working that day and responded downtown. Both survived. What fucked me up was feeling so lucky while so many others felt such despair and grief. I couldn’t reconcile that for a long time. I felt so guilty, so selfish, for feeling so lucky. But again through time, and affording myself loads of grace and kindness, I realized that I wasn’t honoring the family’s of the dead, those that only wished their loved ones survived that attack. How could I not feel lucky? How could I not celebrate the spared lives of my loved ones when others only wish they could? It took a decade to heal. And then during Covid my best friend became a widow at 48 yrs old, her husband was such a good man. He was just no match for this god forsaken virus. Watching her and her teenage sons utter devastation broke me. Again, feeling so grateful for my own husbands health while her husband and her children’s father was taken, just like that, in an instant. Ugh. That’s one I’m still working through to reconcile. I know I should be grateful, but it just hurts to allow myself to feel that fully. This life can be so light & beautiful but it can be so very dark, ugly and painful. So whenever I hear someone express that very familiar pain, grief and guilt, it bubbles right back up for me. It can really feel like yesterday when someone expresses their grief in such a familiar way like Ren did here in the last half of his song. I know it so intimately. Wishing so badly you could turn back time and change what was, while knowing that’s not a possibility. Ugh. I’m sorry to everyone who’s heart squeezed with pain and eyes filled with tears hearing this song, who also knows this pain so intimately. You’re not alone ♥️
@shantereed
Жыл бұрын
Yea this is a hard one as I attempted suicide multiple times. Being in that space all you see is the pain of your circumstances. I know it’s hard for people to talk about but you never know who is saved because you did. I watched both of my grandpas died from cancer and losing my grandma to dementia puts into perspective how important it is to let those people you love know.
@collinking4310
Жыл бұрын
Shante Reed my heart goes out to you. In case nobody's told you lately you are loved and you have a purpose that's why you're still here. Sharing our stories can only help others make it through to the next day. Sending hugs and much love ❤
@dogpuppypuppy3347
Жыл бұрын
Shante, as a complete stranger I can tell you that the world is better with you in it. I'm happy you're still here!
@jameskelly3764
Жыл бұрын
He has a way of connecting . My favorite artist because it's real and raw and I feel it's not fake. He is fighting the real struggle.
@peterveste6976
Жыл бұрын
sending you big love from the UK, you sir have a beautiful soul thank you for reacting and supporting my favourite artist ever ❤❤
@bethscott4330
Жыл бұрын
Great reaction. Your mom is proud of her son spreading love through pain from losing her and many others
@MrGhostTube
Жыл бұрын
Beautiful reaction. ❤️✊🏻
@brianpayne5729
Жыл бұрын
Hi Johnnie, Thanks so much for your reaction. Thanks so much for sharing your life, love, and wisdom. Our Father is using you to the fullest. I love you buddy. Hope to meet you one day.
@ripcord97
Жыл бұрын
As usual an amazing experience listening to you. Definitely love the pure life wisdom your speak. Makes me want to drive from STL to kc to shake your hand
@MalcolmMXTaylor
Жыл бұрын
johnnie - you are my favourite reactor of rens music on youtube. your positivity is truly an inspriation in the same way that Ren is! ren has said he is not religious, im also not religious either, but similar to ren i find it hard to accept that there is not SOMETHING that gives us purpose in this world or the next, thats a form of FAITH that i think everyone can hold no matter who you are. i dont know anyone who committed suicide, but i was that person who was sat on that heavy tree branch ready to go when i was around 21 years old... i couldnt do it, however much i tried i just couldnt do it for my mum and dad and what it would do to them if i did do it. Rens friend Joe im sure went through all those same thoughts in those moments before he decided to do what he did, and from the close experience i went through we are talking fractions of a second to make that ultimate decision. What it leaves behind for Ren (as he has portrayed in this song) is something that nobody can honestly imagine, but the honesty and vulnerability ren has portrayed in this song explains it as best as it can be explained. SPEAK TO A FRIEND, SPEAK TO A FAMLILY MEMBER, CALL A HOTLINE!! Rens community and the reactor community on youtube is STRONG and totally supportive! Reach out and someone will help you!
@JohnnieCallowaySr
Жыл бұрын
🙏🏾
@jacks9624
Жыл бұрын
Of all the things you repeat on this channel, the one I like the most is "if you can look up, you can get up". Just need a reminder once in a while, so... thanks, man!
@frankensteinfpv
Жыл бұрын
Glad you realised how serious the last bit was and re watched it. Always love your positivity and words of wisdom and praise to God! Appreciate you brother and God bless you 👌🤙🤌🔥❤️
@dixiedollz_
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for your beautiful words and sharing and spreading encouragement and kindness and support and strength. I am sorry for your loses, but I admire your strength through that and wanting to show and share that strength with others, especially those that feel they dont have much or any of it left. Much love. xx
@Nonniewantsmore
Жыл бұрын
Oh man, your positive attitude is so wonderful. I needed this today. ❤
@MelissaP90
Жыл бұрын
Great reaction and spiritual messages from you. Evolution is a hard journey that is endless and hard for awhile. Its a blessing to hear and watch Rens journey of self love, and each song brings up an internal wound for me to acknowledge and let go. This one was a hard one for me, but desperately needed. Thanks for such a great reaction. ❤
@fastbacktina
Жыл бұрын
Sorry for all your losses. I appreciate you're uplifting words! Ren sure is one of a kind. God is turning his brokenness into beauty.
@baileymfrost
Жыл бұрын
Subscribed!!! Thank you for spreading love and positivity in this world. I would love to hear more of your story! Much love back to you ❤
@kittymccarthy2111
Жыл бұрын
As usual your words and understanding can help bring healing.
@mrc2437
Жыл бұрын
Rest in peace to your mother, thank you for sharing
@willmiller6731
Жыл бұрын
Thankyou for your kind words and book recommendation 👑❤️ Edit: R.I.P to your mum ❤️ it's not your fault brother 🙏
@AP-gb3eh
Жыл бұрын
Often you hear that the suicidal think that loved ones are better off without them,but all that happens is they sentence their loved ones to a life of pain. I think this gives a glimpse of the pain just a glimpse. He doesn’t sugar coat pain, if anyone stops and hangs on because they understand that they are sentencing the people who love them to a life of pain. ☮️
@desiredbydesign6188
Жыл бұрын
Awsome video dude thankyou
@dianeemanuel8541
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for your vulnerability and sharing you story. You positive words have been a real inspiration for me. Keep reaching ❤
@odochartaighofodonegal2351
Жыл бұрын
REN is a true artist, the rest are karaoke singers. And special.
@amagab2346
Жыл бұрын
I was looking forward to you reaction to this piece. Sorry to hear of your loss as well. You are a good man.
@tonihall4881
Жыл бұрын
I cant imagine, so sorry for your loss
@stevensimpson8231
Жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry for your loss brother, I know what it feels like to live guilt with feeling like you could have saved someone , I kills me so bad sometimes
@thefireguy8564
Жыл бұрын
1st person to say it. “The last part Its like a song in itself”. Its beautiful & very sad at the same time. But I think it was to powerful that you finish the song forgetting the first part of the song which is also awesome.
@woodywoodman2319
Жыл бұрын
Imagine... being a couple minutes late feom saving your best friends life! Then... spending 10 years of misdiagnosis and drug experiments that tore you up! And then there's the Pain too!!! Imagine that!!! PS... He's fine... Not considering it! Just wrote the track about what it's like on the other side of the action!
@amydavies2529
Жыл бұрын
I look for you before I comment, no need to repeat ❤
@woodywoodman2319
Жыл бұрын
@@amydavies2529 Aww... I'll stop so you can comment! 😊
@amydavies2529
Жыл бұрын
@@woodywoodman2319 no, don't stop. 🤗
@jameskelly3764
Жыл бұрын
Stay positive...I know it must be hard but it's why your my favorite you always make me feel I can keep fighting. Thank you for your thoughts.
@EydeRedman
6 ай бұрын
I have a very similar story about my mothers death She castled me to call her that night Over txt I was upset over something Didn’t want to upset her .. So I didn’t respond The next morning my 16 yr old daughter found her dead., It’s been 12 years and the guilt consumes me daily Is he was ALWAYS there for me .. And I failed her., Damn.. This was a tough one Thank you again for being who you are!!❤
@adriandospia9452
Жыл бұрын
❤❤❤❤❤
@victormorgan7766
Жыл бұрын
Thank you REN Ana’s Johnny !!!
@Calmontheoutside
Жыл бұрын
Aside from the content, this is SO lovely musically.
@wizardflaps
Жыл бұрын
Excellent attitude as always mate, love it.
@debrashrider4062
8 ай бұрын
Its a hard ending to that song. The first part is about Ren's own struggle with the suicide option. The last part gives the total more of a tribute to Joe Hughs. As Ren said in the song Freckled Angels, "remember that name"
@jerryclark9018
Жыл бұрын
>>>>>>> LOve you message ..i needed it ! Blessing for all !
@yianhinsaechao7898
Жыл бұрын
Ren is a musical, LYRICAL genius.. Amazing SONG..but, very SAD😭😭
@cherylmack1260
Жыл бұрын
I hope he gets through this memory of his friend. Until he comes to terms with it he will always be reaching back to his childhood. He might not grow up emotionally until then. He's way too intelligent to be stuck in his childhood heart.
@benpisasik7350
Жыл бұрын
bro i dont think it can be said better than u did u got a regular viewer in me my guy much love
@alexiaspaedt-mcintosh5311
Жыл бұрын
Beautiful reaction ❤
@LHartman-gj7dl
Жыл бұрын
Great reaction, thank you 🖤
@koala5385
Жыл бұрын
Aww bless you man ❤
@jessmichaels1973
Жыл бұрын
❤🙏♥️
@fishingforbricks
Жыл бұрын
❤
@mldkenny
Жыл бұрын
Such a tough one, and do appreciate your positive views.
@seth1455
Жыл бұрын
thank you Mr Callaway
@Beanstalks314
2 ай бұрын
I am so sorry for all your losses. Take care, brother.
@charlottejennex8820
Жыл бұрын
God bless you ❤
@TobiiRheaStarr
Жыл бұрын
RIP Joe Hughes 🖤
@davidjames3080
Жыл бұрын
Thanks for your positivity. After all you've seen and been through it would be easy to go the other way, but your kind of positivity definitely makes a difference in this world. Stay true man.
@benpisasik7350
Жыл бұрын
preach
@winterlady
10 ай бұрын
I’m late to this one, but I appreciate your kindness and vulnerability. It’s important for us to remember that we’re just human beings.
@spooky_wolves7435
Жыл бұрын
God bless you i only wish good things for you in life
@JennyAgain
Жыл бұрын
This one was painful to watch and really shook me up. It's spurring a lot of good conversation if not good feelings. Suicide has a ripple effect that never really fades, it just sets a new threshold for heartbreak. I've often wondered if there was anything I could have done to change an outcome, but of course, we were all so busy living our own lives...It's hard to keep your mind from going there, and it never helps, just digs a rut you can't climb out of.
@hilarycharman-2924
Жыл бұрын
New subscriber here. I love your attitude 😊
@reviewandreactionvideoswit7200
Жыл бұрын
Thanks
@reedgalloway6489
Жыл бұрын
Thanks Johnnie, I agree with you, you got to forgive yourself and keep moving forward. Looking in the rear view mirror holds nothing but regrets…Keep spreading love and light!
@winterlady
10 ай бұрын
Also, I hope you’re in a better place and moving forward in a good way. ❤
@rocksb2132
Жыл бұрын
That was truth!
@silverwolf5151
Жыл бұрын
Love you too bro
@hopelaurel2207
Жыл бұрын
Yeah!!!!!
@loadedorygun
Жыл бұрын
Thanks!
@loadedorygun
Жыл бұрын
thanks especially on this one for helping guide folks to their peaceful path. Beauty in Ren!
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