We're all crying at this one. So glad you're still here.
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
I imagined everyone at their computer/phone just sobbing at the end feeling Ren's pain/loss. And thank you - I was one of the lucky few. I count my blessings for that ❤
@willbender9035
Жыл бұрын
@Tachy Tanya I've cried at every reaction, too. It's just an overwhelming amount of vulnerability. Just like yours. I'm so glad your husband came home for you. For me, it was my best friend randomly deciding to call me. 20 years ago, I still can never repay that one phone call.
@dougvoltin164
Жыл бұрын
This song makes we aware of the pain others have suffered from my :x3. I put my parents, friends and wife through torment. I am still vertical at 79 and still living with my shadow. Each time I was only conscious of the pain. Been there too.
@rbbea
Жыл бұрын
We love you Tanya. You were so brave to open up and put it out there. Thank you for sharing. We understand how tough it is to talk about this subject, but it’s a conversation we benefit from. So glad you got lucky. I did too. I literally bumped into a friend as I was carrying a bottle of vodka and a bag of pills. That chance meeting saved me. It was meant to be
@FrozenMilkOnACloudyDay
Жыл бұрын
God I wish more artists were as blatantly honest as Ren
@jamisonfawkes8537
Жыл бұрын
i’m a survivor of multiple suicide attempts. i remember once standing on the edge of a bridge. i looked down and saw that tranquility he talked about. an elderly women with three dogs approached me and begged for me to come down and talk to her. i did. i’m still here. i think about her often. this song really hit me.
@SilionVD
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for not editing your reaction! Seeing raw reactions like this makes me feel connected to others, something I don't feel anymore in real life since years. Ren and the reactions on his songs, reactions such as yours, make me feel less alone in my daily struggles. 3x attempted suicide, lost so many people, battling MS since 10 years, depression. It makes me feel so detached from the rest of the world until I watch some reactions on Ren's music. So thank you for the raw reaction you gave and I wish you all the best, all the strength and all the support you need!
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
MS is a really horrible illness. I'm sorry you must battle that on top of the inner voices. Dealing with both is such a struggle and is incredibly exhausting. It's understandable how you can become detached and almost numb to things. It's almost a survival instinct to protect your energy. I'm glad you are still here ❤ You are one tough cookie to have overcome so much and to keep going! Don't ever think for one second you're not strong enough or not worth it. You are and you matter 🤗
@bosoundaries
Жыл бұрын
@@TachyTanya we cried together...
@pammccoy3111
Жыл бұрын
I am also a suicide survivor, and here to say Thank you. Our voices are important which is why we are still here. Our story continues ;❤
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
I’m glad you are still here ❤️ sending you much love and hugs 🤗
@tfodthogtmfof7644
Жыл бұрын
; Light, Love, and Magic Always!
@johnlombardo7816
Жыл бұрын
❤❤❤
@YaBoy_JayDawg
Жыл бұрын
I would say your voices matter, not because you are a suicide survivor but because your voices have always mattered. Life is not easy, but you are never alone. Is the mind powerful enough to make you feel that way, absolutely. But we must remember, we drive the ship - and that includes the mind. Peace and love. ❤
@annateppema9343
Жыл бұрын
Ok, hi, my twin sister just yesterday tried to commit suicide, she has never been diagnosed but she took a really massive amount of xtc pills, if she had not called me, she would have succeeded, i called 112. And she's on ic right now, with a breathing tube. And i don't know what to do
@andrewg3238
Жыл бұрын
Tanya, don't dare think for one second that any of us watching you reaction aren't at the moment giving you a giant hug. Collectively whether subconsciously or consciously we should and are surrounding each other with hugs and support here. Both for ourselves and others. Like anyone who has been in a dark place like you were, I was....so many of us have been. Know you matter, you have value and the world is a better and brighter place with you still in it. Ren has done something remarkable here, He has given voice to immense pain, like I once felt. He has also reminded me (as others have tried to do), that no matter what the voices inside my mind have said, my absence from the lives that care for me will not improve their lives, but the opposite and possibly destroy them. Much like the line from Hi Ren, "Some people know me as hope. Some people know me as the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose on the rope". The line "I miss you, and I miss myself. I miss thinking we were indestructible as well". Those two lines will stay with me forever. For two very distinct and different reasons. Keep being you, doing what you do my friend.
@MtHermit
Жыл бұрын
I felt this song so deeply. Im a survivor as well. 2 yrs ago my brother saved my life. Love Ren and his music. And thank you for being as open as you can about your struggles
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
I am glad you are still here. Sending love and hugs to you ❤️🤗
@MtHermit
Жыл бұрын
@@TachyTanya Thank you. And I'm glad you are still here as well ♥️
@peterveste6976
Жыл бұрын
this song saved my life today thank you for reacting to this sending you big love from the UK, you have a beautiful soul ❤❤❤
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
I’m glad you’re still here. No matter how dark things get, it gets better. It might not be easy and it might require hard work to heal, but it is worth it. You matter ❤️
@louisemyles4971
Жыл бұрын
There may be tears all over the world for those that have listened to this piece of Ren's today, but he is piecing Us, all together, in a community of sharing and caring for each other. What a gift to have an artist like this, to not shame or blame our fragile human spirits. Warm hug to You, Tanya
@thehangingparsiple5692
Жыл бұрын
"Holy shit Ren" just about sums it up. Keep strong, lovely girl
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
Indeed sums it up 🤣 and thank you, sending strength back ❤️
@tattoodude8946
Жыл бұрын
Ren is what we need in this world today. He is a reason - a reason to be honest, a reason to be real, a reason to hope. A reason to be human.
@mdanam
Жыл бұрын
😢 not one of us has a dry eye after this. Ren has a way of bringing out the raw emotions in all of us. Don't apologize for being real.
@dknollRX7
Жыл бұрын
Always remember: suicide doesn’t end the pain; it just passes the pain onto those you left behind.
@sputukgmail
Жыл бұрын
Whatever that voice says to you, it wasn’t just you that was lucky that day, it was the world too. You make the world a better place by just being in it - sharing your humanity. This track is so raw, so vulnerable, and it connects to the soul. Even without anything like you’ve faced, survived, it hits so hard - I can only imagine how it hits you.
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for your kind words ❤️ it definitely hits a little different. Sending you love and hugs 🤗
@ChrisCurtis-gf3dh
Жыл бұрын
right click , play on new window and it fixes, i suppose they (you tube) did it to go after REN
@andyunwin9260
Жыл бұрын
I came here to say the same thing, but you put it more eloquently than I could
@paulhills1816
Жыл бұрын
Your reaction is like looking in a mirror. I’ve been in the place you’ve been…and it’s not somewhere I want to see again. I’m glad you’re here, just as just as my dad said the same thing to me today. Love P 😘
@jakewigglesworth3585
Жыл бұрын
most of us live our lives and never have to think or react to the world you had, the world you lost, the woman that remains, and what you think about day to day.... so to hear your reaction is really the most honest and raw way we can peek into this reality...thank you so much for letting us in...much love!!
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
Thank you. Not many people come out on the other side. Let alone heal the things that take them to that darkest place. It's tough, but it's worth the effort. I hope sharing my story let's others know they can do it, too, and that they aren't alone.❤
@suevick637
Жыл бұрын
Tears are good for the soul. There is not a lot to say after that song. It left me like Hi Ren did. Speechless and in tears, but I listen to him over and over. I am a 65 yr old Widow. I lost a friend to suic!de at age 16. My daughter passed away 8 years ago and my husband died from cancer during Covid. I trick myself every morning by saying not today. I will make it through today and reassess my situation tomorrow....like Ren...we are not alone. ❤ We need to help eachother each and every single day. My thought and prayers go with you 🙏🏻❣️
@mdtexeira
Жыл бұрын
The thought, 'Lets see whether tomorrow is better first' has been me through a lot of hard times.
@Hope-cm8fb
8 ай бұрын
😢💚🍀🙏🥹🤍
@c4stlevania
Жыл бұрын
Oh Tanya, my heart was breaking seeing you watch this, as a survivor of a suicide attempt myself after my ex wife drink drove with our daughter in the car, my ex survived without a scratch but our four year old passed away. As a result I jumped of a high building but landed on my feet, I ended up having my lower left leg amputated. Depression and constant pain is how I now live, but I’m living if that’s what you can call it but I realise there are people a lot worse off, but I’m doing the best I can. I hope you’re okay, I love watching your reactions, you’re just genuine and honest and that’s rare these days. Just thank you for being you, the world is a better place because of you. Gabriel 🇬🇧✌🏻❤️positivity
@tjanamihailovic2383
Жыл бұрын
❤💋
@vinchinzo594
Жыл бұрын
@@helenHTID I just want you to know, your "was it even worth it??" comment is one of the most ignorant, ridiculous, and heartless things I've ever read on KZitem. Particularly because you answered your own ignorant question immediately after writing it which rendered it totally pointless. You are a prime example of someone who doesn't think before they speak, or in this case, before they type. You probably added to Gabriel's guilt and pain, so now I ask YOU: Was it even worth it? Do better. Think harder. Be more of a human.
@amyaeschbach3581
Жыл бұрын
Sending big hugs and prayers to you! 🫶🏻✌️🙏🏻☀️🌻
@c4stlevania
Жыл бұрын
@@amyaeschbach3581 Thank you, ✌🏻❤️positivity 🇬🇧
@Foxsuper1
11 ай бұрын
❤❤😢❤❤
@leob3447
Жыл бұрын
Let me just say that I am glad you are still here 🙂That was an incredibly brave and honest reaction. Thank you!
@greglecig5549
Жыл бұрын
@ Ren makes the internet cry….. there is just something so special about Ren. The amazing thing is how so many people are resonating through his art. I’m glad that you were one of the lucky ones ❤
@matttweed8961
Жыл бұрын
To every suicide survivor in this thread, I’m so glad you’re still here. Your lives matter so much and you all matter. You’re never alone ❤
@annmonica2253
Жыл бұрын
If you're watching this and you feel you can't go on, think about your best friends running to help you and give them that two minutes it takes to get to you.
@Jason_xofilos
Жыл бұрын
What is amazing is how vulnerable Ren was at when he wrote this and created this video plus currently releasing it all of us. 2nd is Ren’s loss is hud childhood when he lost his innocence and feeling of immortality. He reminds me of the Maestro Tuomas Holopainen who composed most of Nightwish songs, poetry in his lyrics, and music. One theme Tuomas has is Dead Boy meaning a loss of childhood. Finally, while emphasizing the pain Ren’s friend Joe was going through also showing how hurt he was by the choice his friend Joe made along with the guilt of just possibly missing getting to Joe in time to save him or even to say goodbye plus Joe’s body was never found for closure. In other words, the choices one makes affects more then oneself.
@RonNL70
Жыл бұрын
Holy shit Ren... exactly that!!! This one hit hard, you're not the only one in tears... Big virtual hug from the Netherlands ❤
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
Thank you! Sending a big virtual hug right back!🤗
@julihouser7468
Жыл бұрын
Ren is an amazing artist! I have been watching reaction videos while working (slow office job) and it's really difficult to hold back tears, I guess if I'm asked I will say I have allergies or something. Sending love to everyone!
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
Couldn't agree more! Put some tissues and a little bottle of Claritin on your desk 😅 Sending love right back to you! ❤
@DandelionCollab
Жыл бұрын
Please don't lie about being human. I get the concern about job but honor the song and let your humanity show. That you get moved to tears is beautiful. Love you, fellow human.
@itspickleric138
Жыл бұрын
As a survivor of it myself your reaction was very validating This world needs Ren
@gregw74
Жыл бұрын
Although it feels strange to say "great reaction", it's great in the sense that that you can face this deep trauma with such courage and confidence. I know it must be empowering and healing for so many. I know I had suggested the official video for Fire Away by Chris Stapleton, but if you haven't already seen it maybe it would be better not to.
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
Thank you. Many years and a lot of hard work in therapy makes it a little easier for sure. I have not heard the suggested song! I have it written down to check it out! Thank you again! Sending much love! ❤
@YoreHistory
Жыл бұрын
I cried with you. Ren just has a way of dealing with these issues that others won't or can't. He is so very special. THanks for covering this with your honest and emotional reaction.
@melissasuko139
Жыл бұрын
He speaks so deeply to people who live with chronic pain and have dealt trying to fight to keep our own selves a live. I'm a survivor. You're tears are shared with mine.
@MissMeKate
Жыл бұрын
We are so glad you are still here. This song and the conversations it generates will save lives. Joe's legacy will be one of salvation when it is needed most. Don't apologise for heavy breathing into the mic, there are ASMR channels that make money out of that. 😉 I had to watch the premiere with my feet up the wall as today is such a tachy day. Watching the wave of emotion roll over KZitem as others see it and share pieces of themselves fills my wonky heart with hope. ❤
@wexfordgirl1
Жыл бұрын
The RNLI is our Coastguard but they are a charity staffed by volunteers and are funded entirely by donations. No government money. Therefore this money will be very much appreciated and well used.
@NixyRose72
Жыл бұрын
Survivor here as well. This song hits so hard, fast and deep into a soul-searing gut-punch. I had the misfortune of being on both sides of that noose. I was the failed suicide and the failed savior. No matter which side, it hurts. It's a neverending hurt that bleeds even under the scars. Disabled now with autoimmune issues (was all lumped under fibromyalgia, now blood tests seem to be pointing at scleroderma as well) and all the hard work at overcoming my mental and emotional disorders (so many) crumbled with the onslaught of nonstop pain. Almost a decade of pain and no answers and developed new and fun (sarcasm) things like agoraphobia and my depression got an upgrade to major depressive disorder. I don't really want to die anymore. But how can anyone live this way? I wouldn't do that to my son anyway. Even though he's grown now, he's sensitive, and I know the pain of losing loved ones that way. So many. Most when I was young. Same time period as my attempts (one almost successful, the rest only scars)... This song hurts. But maybe in a way that it needs to. Not only as catharsis for Ren, that wonderful young man who lost so much, but for the world to see and feel that pain and make better efforts at helping. I don't really know; I'm just a nobody with a past. Ren, however, I think is one of the most important artists in the world today. Protect him.
@BrandonWestfall
Жыл бұрын
"Your body missing so we never got to wave to the hearse." That line hit so damn hard. It's one thing to lose someone. It's another to never have closure.
@nathanfagan3763
Жыл бұрын
I'm finding the true power of Ren is being so vulnerable and open in his music that you can't just intellectualize it away. It forces you to look at a mirror reflection and have a true dialogue with yourself and with others, open and honest free of polarization and judgement. People don't commit suicide because they want to die, they do it because they want the pain to stop and can't see any other way out. Your not alone in your suffering and by sharing our pain we can draw the strength and the courage to fight on. "Do not go gentle into that good night// rage, rage against the dying of the light" Dylan Thomas
@DVDFHardTarget
Жыл бұрын
Jeez this young man has gone through hell and survived. Please we all need to protect him from the haters.
@charleenk71
Жыл бұрын
I am sitting here crying with you. Thanks for being real and showing that to us! Hugs!!❤❤❤
@PDXmaker
Жыл бұрын
As someone who felt so hopeless and suicidal in the past - and who has lived to see things get better, to heal and grow and experience light and love and joy again - Ren’s words and video bring me to tears as well. It hits deep. Thank you for sharing your heart and vulnerability - it may very well help someone get through the darkness into the light. Much love. ❤
@benharman3218
Жыл бұрын
It's like getting flamethrowered with someone else's real raw pain. Truly amazing song. Absolutely phenomenal
@mauriceireland5477
Жыл бұрын
"There are no winners and there are no losers in psychological warfair....there are victims and there are students" glad to see you werent a victim and are now a student.
@RenxChilla
Жыл бұрын
You might have got 'lucky' but you are thanking your husband in the best possible way by being here now,stay strong and be proud of yourself.
@scoutbane1651
Жыл бұрын
Another survivor here. Thank you. For still being here. For helping others by continuing the tale and talking about it. We've got this. It can be hard to go on sometimes, but may we all have the strenght to keep going regardless
@stormingjales
Жыл бұрын
Sending you all the love in the world. I'm a survivor too and I'm seeing so many people not being afraid of saying this out loud. It's how we change things, by speaking about it. We are important. YOU are important! I'm happy you're still here. I hope we can make a difference in many other lives!
@mldkenny
Жыл бұрын
The tears will flow for everyone to this one, you are not alone.
@markjones6747
Жыл бұрын
Couldn't agree more on this one. Every time I listen to it I tear up as I lost a close friend to suicide and wished I could have been able to prevent it. Even if it was just sitting talking to him over a drink.
@wakinginfinity
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for letting it out. Ren is helping us process these difficult emotions that have been buried too long. We are stronger together!
@doughoi
Жыл бұрын
Honest emotion is one of the most powerful feelings that can ever be expressed. Watching this and your honest reaction tells me that the world is a far better place with you still in it. God Bl;ess you and may your days be numerous.
@DodonaWind
3 ай бұрын
"I can't word." That's such a real statement after how this song leaves you feeling. As for Robin Williams, I don't think that it was him feeling worthless when he hit that point in his life. His diagnosis was telling him that he was going to be losing his cognitive ability and for a man like him, his quick wit and sharp mind was the core of who he was. His condition was going to have him slipping away into an unrecognizable person who he felt would become a burden on those he loved. He had a stand up at The Roxy back in '78 where he said "You're only given one spark of madness and you mustn't lose it because without it, you're nothing." I think that summed up the end of his days and how he felt. His condition was going to take his spark of madness and he couldn't imagine living without it. I loved that man dearly and he is still the only celebrity that I actually shed tears for, so I understand how his loss hits you right in the heart. 💕 Rest in Peace, Robin.
@im2yz4u17
Жыл бұрын
My eyes hurt from crying. Tanya, your reaction was amazing and poignant.
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
Sending love and hugs ❤🤗 Are you doing better now?
@Ph4n_t0m
Жыл бұрын
Bless you Tanya! I'm just as red-faced and teary-eyed as you right now. Can barely see what I'm writing. Every fibre of my being wants to reach out and give you all a massive hug, and Ren most of all because it's his pain I feel.
@pauladdison7152
Жыл бұрын
Well done getting through that one Tanya 😢 these reaction videos are going to be hard for us all this week. Sorry you’re going through your health issues. Hope they get better soon. Glad your still here to light up peoples screens with your smile ✌🏻🏴
@DB46811
Жыл бұрын
This is the hardest reaction video for me to watch, ever. Your reaction was so genuine that between you and Ren, you had me there with you. Thank you for sharing such a personal part of you. Very courageous. #suicidesurvivors
@michaelanthony8752
Жыл бұрын
My wife found me just in time. Cut me down. Since then I've learned to appreciate just how much devastation I almost left behind. I got lucky too. The road to recovery has been long and very hard. But I am so grateful to be here. Thanks for sharing your vulnerability with us ❤. We need to talk and share together. I am now in school at UC Berkeley studying to be a clinical psychologist. I am sure you can guess my focus and motivation. I am to help others who face that dark and relentless abyss. God bless Ren.
@nm44Sergie
Жыл бұрын
Brave, Courageous and Heartbreaking - both the song and your reaction. Much love to you both ❤
@brianbritton3693
Жыл бұрын
The rawness of your reaction is perfect to convey what many of the others in this yours and our ren community felt too. Im sure somewhere, maybe plenty places listening to this will give a light though the crack in the sky to change a suicidal mind. My friend got there in time too for me If you can manage to keep up this we love to see more from you and Ren. You have a beautiful soul. Love and hugs from England
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
I'm glad you are still here ❤ I hope I can help others. I know for certain Ren is. Thank you for your kind words. Sending love and hugs right back! ❤🤗
@geeky1one
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for your raw emotions. I know your kind of pain as I share it as well. I am also a survivor. Sharing hurts but it also helps. Hearing that someone else suffers too makes the struggle a little easier. I am so happy that you are still here. That we are here together. Thank you again.
@dirkmcgurk1
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing this reaction and making some of us feel less alone with our feelings. It means a lot more than I can put into words. Much love ❤
@Ontaros1
Жыл бұрын
Tanya. Proud of you for going through this one. You were getting a strong response before it even started but you stuck it out and got through it. You faced it. Well done.
@jiagforal
Жыл бұрын
We are so glad you are here and sharing your emotion❤❤❤. Sending a hug and subscribing!! A huge thank you to your Husband❤
@ngtflyer
Жыл бұрын
You don't have to apologize for being human. I won't yell at you for that. I will say I appreciate your honesty and courage for posting this video. Big hug out to you.
@Draugul
Жыл бұрын
I was lucky that the sun came up. And the world was so beautiful standing on the edge of that bridge. So beautiful that I didn't wanted to go. I realized the people that loved me, and what I almost had done to them. And at that moment I made a promise to the world. I will go on living. And even if all I could do for this world, was being a shoulder to cry on, or giving a digital hug, it would be worth it. So. Stay strong! Your not alone. *BigBearHug*
@Nico12233
Ай бұрын
This one makes everyone cry, nothing wrong with that. Its perfectly normal. Try Ren with Back in 74 for a cheerful song, sweetheart.
@ianhislop6782
Жыл бұрын
I’m so happy you’re still here. ❤
@a382453
Жыл бұрын
OMG! Thank you for your reaction, I'm crying too. I found Hi Ren about 2 weeks ago ... he has touched my humanity deeply ... and now you have too. Thank you!
@N0Sheeple
Жыл бұрын
Thanks to everything giving Ren's voice amplication. We all need it
@Wintrycomet757
Жыл бұрын
Ren's music is more than just a feeling you get when listening it's an experience. Crying too.
@scc6454
Жыл бұрын
Your reaction, my reaction and everyone's reaction shows how much we need to talk about this. Ren's repetition of the word "suicide" in the song, to me, is an attempt to normalize the word so we can say it, and not hide the word in code. Mental health problems shouldn't be treated like a dirty secret. So glad you're still with us Tachy Tanya.
@AdelleOverton
13 күн бұрын
Never apologise for protecting your peace. 💜 Sending so much love to you, Tanya.
@day_tiger7981
Жыл бұрын
I love how for every person a different line is the one that hits. For me it was "What it felt like to look down and see tranquility.". Personally I never attempted s**cide but was close to and therefore I know this song will save lives because that was the case foe me. I still vividly remember lying in bed at 3am feeling absolutely lost in the void and then finding "Would anyone care" by Citizen Soldier.
@Neph-v5r
6 ай бұрын
I've put off listening to this song for quite a while. A big part of my life seems to have been swallowed up with having an intense feeling of wanting to leave. I've lost 3 very close friends, my Fiancée & very nearly myself to this 'obsession'. The process of ideation is there most days but is never completed & for now, today, I'm fine. I have good friends, I hold down a good job & live in a beautiful part of the world and from the outside all looks good & I'm sure there are many just like me who never voice what's going on in there heads for fear of rejection, misunderstanding & not wanting to seem dramatic. This felt like a very, very genuine reaction to a very powerful song. I'm glad your still here, I'm glad I'm still here & I'm glad that those who are with us, with the same feelings who still struggle are still here ❤
@Aiken900
Жыл бұрын
You were incredibly brave watching and listening to that. I wanted to reach across the screen and give you a big hug. Huge respect and much love sent x
@Rogdog692002
Жыл бұрын
I found this reaction really touching. It is a horrible, painful subject. But watching you and Ren connect was powerful and human.
@terrybaker2725
Жыл бұрын
Sis, you are here for a reason, know that! Just your reactions mean something for some. If your story and survival reach one person and change their mind, you have done all you needed to. Life is a gift and the scars shape our hearts and allow our minds to see the beauty. Stay Strong and carry on. Much love
@melissatodd560
Жыл бұрын
I'm crying as well. You may think you were just rambling, but everything you said made sense. I bear the scars of my suicide attempts inside and out and maybe that's why your words resonated with me. Ren's performance hit that suicide nerve with me too. I hope that he knows exactly what you tried to convey in that the place we were in was so dark that we were just so far removed from our loved ones. Had Joe thought of the way it would effect Ren, I would like to think he would have turned around that night and changed the course of his life. We are the lucky ones.
@music2seeconcertphotograph457
Жыл бұрын
I am feeling with you. And with Ren. I am suffering myself from double depression, chronical depersonalization, anxiety disorder and a chronic pain disorder. Suicide thoughts (but not plans) are a regular part of my life. In 2020 I lost a brother in mind and heart by suicide. I never had anyone I could have so much fun with and do stupid / crazy things. That's something I never do but with him it was possible. And we shared our dark side, told us about our demons. It still hurts as hell and just thinking about that one movement and what came next (he killed himself with a rope) makes me feel miserable and sad and empty. I can feel so much with what Ren describes here. This hit so hard. This hit so deep! So honest. So true. So brutal. So painful: Emotionally and even physically.
@tfodthogtmfof7644
Жыл бұрын
Talk about raw honesty, emotion, and truth. Much love Tanya. Ren really told truth to the world with that.
@yosi.sergant
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing this experience with us. Really appreciate your bravery and vulnerability and strength.
@Selfless_gaming
Жыл бұрын
The world would not be the same if we didn't have you in it Tanya. Thank you for what you do and continue to do. We love ya!
@danielmorris3284
Жыл бұрын
Hope you're ok, it's an amazing song that's very sad linspiring and powerful. I'm not familiar with you and only just discovered your channel. At this point I don't know your back story. Seems to me at this point in time that you helping people, be proud of that x
@salishseamermaid
Жыл бұрын
"Holy shit, Ren!" Yeah. Exactly.
@jsims44
Жыл бұрын
I feel ya, I was in your situation too and this one hit me super hard. But I want to acknowledge Ren tackling this subject head, using the word, and not sugar coating his truth. I respect that. Glad you’re here and enjoy your reactions!
@KamilDziadkiewicz
Жыл бұрын
Somebody was there on time for you and now you can be a part of healing process for somobody else. I appreciate you immensely.
@MiladySK
Жыл бұрын
I got lucky but my cousin wasnt in 2020. She was named after me and I cant stand to hear my name anymore. I survived but Im back there again after 20+ years. Ren really is amazing. He truly is a beacon of hope. So honest, raw and talented.
@regreg5416
10 ай бұрын
Your Still here The world got lucky. Very lucky, never forget that. Bless you Stay strong
@N0Sheeple
Жыл бұрын
There's only one word really. Yep. My best friend left in 1989. I was 13. I remember the phone call and throw up.
@Xrousn
Жыл бұрын
Random internet guy here. Just wanted to let you know I’m happy you are here. I care. Peace and happiness are out there in your endless possibilities. You’ll find them. 😊
@allanhindmarch7323
Жыл бұрын
I'm so glad you're still here to embrace all those little moments that remind us of why we all do it every day. Stay strong!
@deanc486
Жыл бұрын
Well done making it through both the reaction and deciding to choose life. I guess what I think I see is both you and Ren haven't yet made peach with yourselves with regards suicide? It took me about 20 years but as Ren said 'I learned to relax' I prefer to see choices I make as grey and not so black or white, or right and wrong. And saying 'never' for me is a recipe to fail. There are bad days and they are good, but hey that is life. 😀
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
Thank you. I like not referring to it as black/white or good/evil also. I've started calling my inner voices "brain weasels." Little playful, but devilish creatures that like to get into things (including trouble at times) and run a muck. I've found this helps make it feel less negative and less heavy. Like Ren says - learning to dance - mine's more like playing hide/seek/tag/catch the dang weasels and put them back in their pens that the little guys escaped from.
@deanc486
Жыл бұрын
@@TachyTanya Thanks for sharing. Acknowledging the gentler places in us helps I think .
@seth1455
Жыл бұрын
no one's going to yell at you and you don't have to aplogise, it's ok and brave of you to show and share your feelings♥
@ali50n
Жыл бұрын
This doesn't get any easier,however many times you watch... Beautiful,thought provoking, talk inspiring, art. I'm so grateful my attempt failed. Ren is changing the world, track by track...
@mattbaur9784
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for reacting to this. I can see that it hurts, I know this will seem odd but I am jealous that you can feel that much. I'm a stone, but a few things break though. Seeing your reactions do cause me some feelings which is oddly nice.
@gurulimbo
Жыл бұрын
If you can.. have the opportunity.. watch his twitch stream he did today. He wanted to create an open space to discuss… it was that, but it turned into a lot of fun! He brought on his friends/videographers Sam and Josh, and it was 3 guys answering silly questions and goofing off. It was what we all needed.
@TinkerersMind
Жыл бұрын
One of rens best songs.... Respect and ❤ to you and your family......
@louise11854
Жыл бұрын
perfect reaction. i thank God for the tears i cry, each tear has a nano particle of pain that washes away. God bless you, tanya, for being real in an effort to show truth and help others. much love, kathleen ps: consider: perhaps you were 'lucky' for such a time as this, (to show there is light at the end of the tunnel) as is spoken of in the bible in the book of ruth. short book, movies have been made of that true story. peace
@danahatch9140
Жыл бұрын
It's ok. I totally can't stop crying.
@molls0922
Жыл бұрын
Same. I gotta drink some water to make up for these tears
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
For real. We're all about to be super dehydrated from the river of tears 😭
@bashab3098
Жыл бұрын
The only thing that stopped me was the pain I would cause my loved ones , if I go my pain ends but theirs begins .
@ClarkGoodram
Жыл бұрын
Beautiful raw reaction. Life is hard. Thank you for sharing x
@peterveste6976
Жыл бұрын
you are ment to be in this world and your husband is also lucky to have you thank you for being open and brave ❤❤❤
@robmullins
Жыл бұрын
Hey Internet stranger, I feel soooo compelled to just give you a really awesome hug.
@saggtarr2508
Жыл бұрын
Good to cry. Not holding it in, that's what joe done, that's what I use to do, not showing emotion the silent killer.
@billinudgelexhaust138
Жыл бұрын
Ren's honesty and truth and the way he puts his memories and thoughts into his music can only ever be seen as deep therapy for the human condition, he shows us who have not been there the feeling we can see, feel and understand deep into our core it gives us a better understanding of those with depression, anxiety, mental illness and suicidal tendency's. The messages he brings will save thousands.
@davidjames3080
Жыл бұрын
You're a beautiful person, and you're not rambling! These things need talking about and talking about honestly. You're right, its easy to say 'think about your family and friends', but when that darkness takes over, you can't see, hear or think about anything else. By having a more open and wide ranging dialogue it will not only encourage people to open up more and to accept that this is more common than they think, it will also give people the tools to recognise when friends or family might need that extra help and support to get through a tough time. Big hugs to you and your husband.
@majyy
Жыл бұрын
Luv you and Ren, thank you for sharing/ reacting.
@johnridolfo2290
Жыл бұрын
Iv already shared this song like 3 different times and listened to it around 15 lol this song is what TRUE suicide awareness lookes like thanks for makeing this i know it must have been hard
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
I agree. Putting it to music the way Ren did ... I can't even put into words just how incredible it is.
@davidricks7128
Жыл бұрын
I'm here to make sure your ok after watching this love and hugs from UK ♥
@TachyTanya
Жыл бұрын
Thank you! That is really sweet of you! I'm ok ❤ Are YOU doing ok?
@davidricks7128
Жыл бұрын
@@TachyTanya I am ok just taken my meds to calm down PTSD glitch but I was more concerned for you so that took my mind of me, glad your ok x
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