This video brings together some thoughts and questions I will probably continue weaving around eating disorders forever. My best strategy to pull myself out of a life-threatening situation and stay on the safe side of life has been questioning everything. (Curiousity, in other words.) What is it that has led me to develop coping mechanisms that I rationally understood as potentially deadly but nonetheless maintained for over a decade? Was Anorexia a form of passive aggression against someone? Against myself? Was I able to transcend it only when I realized I was barely living? Was this game with extremes really necessary? Did I have to wait for some sort of validation before "allowing" myself to recover?
I hope anyone present here will find some comfort in these questions or, at least, recognize them as valid interrogations related to life in general. When I restored my body's natural weight and reconquered my capacity to ask questions again, I had made the necessary step towards making peace with my past. Able today to look at eating disorders and my experience with Anorexia from a critical distance, I find solace and inspiring wisdom (not necessarily answers) in the work of Michela Marzano. Marzano is an Italian philosopher who has made her own past with Anorexia a starting point of her philosophical teachings. In so doing, and as she often reminds her audiences, she takes up a fundamental thought of Hannah Arendt: significant events leave an eternal mark on how we view the world. In the case of Arendt, this event was the Shoah. In the case of Marzano, the event that had crossed her life and laid the philosophical grounds of her work was Anorexia. Whenever I have doubts about myself and reconciliations with my past appear impossible, I remind myself of these two women. They're great company.
For Italian listeners, I recommend most of Marzano's lectures. Here are two favourites of mine, on reconciling one's self with one's past and on being vulnerable:
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Please note: The videos I am uploading to this channel are a reflection of my own experience. I am not a clinician, specialist in eating disorders or a psychologist but hope to raise awareness about topics that I have found to be intertwined in the large picture of disordered eating.
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