“But every once in a while there are those perfect life moments. And that’s enough. Because it has to be.” Wow.
@amberblyledge7859
5 жыл бұрын
My riding instructor calls those moments of glory. It's not quite in relation to life, but it feels like that.
@MightyMako
4 жыл бұрын
Amber Blyledge Your riding instructor sounds awesome.
@yuli1_266
2 жыл бұрын
I think "Strawberry ice cream" meant a lot to me because of what I think is a deeper meaning. If she was answering the question then I think she was still thinking about the memory... and in a way, I feel relief that she got to relive that memory of a happy day before she passed away.
@ep7627
4 жыл бұрын
When you want to die, but you can’t understand why when there’s a roof over your head, clean water, food to eat, clothes to wear ...but somehow your brain is trying to kill you with thoughts of dying. Doesn’t seem scary unless you’ve experienced it.
@daze.d5462
3 жыл бұрын
I'm currently experiencing this right now. I used to mock depression saying that its just n excuse for people not to work but now that I'm in it, I always feel suicidal. I am not clinically diagnosed but somehow I can feel that this is that. Hope I can turn okay.
@goodstory5890
3 жыл бұрын
@@daze.d5462 I hope you’re doing better? It’s not an easy road to be on especially during dark moments in life and sometimes those moments linger on for a long time and sometimes nothing helps. Nearly everyday the thought of ending it all comes to mind is at least once or more at times a day and I find myself asking God when? Now? Today? Then I find myself waking up the next morning and it starts again. Then I just tell myself I guess I’m still here so just go with it. And that is all anyone can do, just go with it. Stay strong and know that there are others that understand. Aloha 🌺
@daze.d5462
3 жыл бұрын
@@goodstory5890 Im perfectly fine. I managed to fight my demons for the time being. Thanks for checking. Though I have moments but I find that action beats it. I am becoming more active in engaging and solving my problems rather than it having to eat me alive.
@goodstory5890
3 жыл бұрын
@@daze.d5462 thank you for your response. Tho strangers from miles apart, I hope I can be considered a friend? I have come to realize how we need others, old and new people in our lives to help through the good and difficult times. I look forward to keeping in touch? Aloha 🌺
@linus3662
3 жыл бұрын
@@daze.d5462 glad to here you're feeling better! I have struggled too for about two years now. It's been getting a lot better lately, but it still gets really bad sometimes. I get terrified by the thoughts I used to have a lot, and sometimes have to this day. Haven't really told anyone either. I mean, on the internet I have, but not to my surroundings. I want to tell my parents but I kind of feel embarrassed. Hope you will continue to feel better. And know that you are at least not alone!
@Buckleshankington
5 жыл бұрын
I lost it at strawberry ice cream, hit me right in the chest. Stories like this are so important.
@scrally6685
Жыл бұрын
I come back to this video every once in a while to remind myself that life is not about being happy every day. It is about those perfect (little) moments even it is „just“ strawberry ice cream
@Animbating
6 жыл бұрын
Risky click for me... didn't want to feel sad so early in the morning! This was very funny, interesting and thought provoking. Thank you!
@Participant
6 жыл бұрын
So happy you thought so!
@Nicole-fx3ei
6 жыл бұрын
"You know what? Some days you just have to hear it. At least you're not a worm." - Tyler Joseph
@marilynchau4108
5 жыл бұрын
“At the heart of all suicide is strong ambivalence. People most often don’t want to do it. People do it, because it gets too much.” 😞😞
@stinkee518
5 жыл бұрын
This video got me to call the Suicide Prevention hotline a second ago. Now I feel like I'm more on track to receive the help I need. If you see this comment and you need help, reach out. You don't even need to be actively suicidal to call, they can help if you're overwhelmed and don't know what to do. If I can do it, so can you ❤
@lizz9896
5 жыл бұрын
how'd it go?
@Ellie1Dolby
6 жыл бұрын
I loved this so much. It was so pure and to see the change in his tone of voice and the way he presented the story, he gave dignity to the people he helped and to Amy. His view on life is true and I think that's why I liked this so much. I appreciate things like this being done because even just videos like this could spark a conversation or a realisation with someone experiencing something like he did. Thank you, SoulPancake & Brian for sharing this story :)
@Angel-dd7rr
Жыл бұрын
I originally heard this story on the radio about 5 years ago. It still amazes me how Brian is able to weave humor into a story like this, yet remain so respectful of young Amy.
@lunalucia9005
6 жыл бұрын
I've recently been diagnosed with depression for the second time in nine years - I'm only 23. I've thought about ending it several times, but each time I would remember what someone said to me once: "suicide doesn't end the pain, it passes it on to those who are left behind."
@Participant
6 жыл бұрын
Wow, that is a really incredible quote. We're glad you're here and have stuck through it. Always keep your eye on those little moments that make life worth living ❤️
@SimeonFarkas
6 жыл бұрын
I'm the same! What keeps me going is not wanting to hurt the people who love me and knowing that I will end any chance to have those beautiful moments in life that come once in a while.
@14megasxlr
5 жыл бұрын
only difference is that they might be able to get over it.
@crissyd3836
5 жыл бұрын
@@14megasxlr suicide has touched my life 3 separate times. I can guarantee that you don't ever get over it. The guilt is debilitating some days. Why didn't I notice? Could I have done something? Is it my fault? Questions that will never be answered.
@lunalucia9005
5 жыл бұрын
@@14megasxlr At one point in my life the only reason I didn't end it was because I didn't want to leave my brother. If he took his own life, I would never get over it. He's my everything. Also you must have heard about parents who don't ever get over the death of their child. The guilt eats at them for the rest of their life.
@katburgert4352
6 жыл бұрын
This was beautiful. He had a way of making this video so funny, in a dark way that feels like something only people who have felt this could fully understand. And the story telling was great. I'm so glad this video was as hopeful as it was, and that I decided to watch it.
@TheRealJakeSwan
6 жыл бұрын
That blindsided me. I figured a level of sorrow but i feel devastated. Extremely moving, but nonetheless devastating.
@Tiger66261
5 жыл бұрын
Damn, that's painful. Here's to you, Amy.
@HanaBryanne
6 жыл бұрын
it’s not even ten in the morning and i’m crying my eyes out
@SponzifyMee
5 жыл бұрын
What do you mean 10 in the morning, that's called noon mate
@jmeszi4159
5 жыл бұрын
SponzifyMee what?..if it’s not even 10 in the morning then it’s still the morning 😂
@christiangasior4244
5 жыл бұрын
Noon is 12. Just putting that out there as a little PSA.
@itzyourmom2646
2 жыл бұрын
RIP Amy Walters. You were a beautiful soul.
@omgsicle
4 жыл бұрын
Truly shocked this video doesn't have at least a million views. I watched this a year ago and I still think of this story and that girl often. This video deserves so much exposure.
@dropexpectations12
6 жыл бұрын
My father completed suicide when I was a teen... The last few things Brain said hit me... They will never get to know what we now know ❤❤❤ Beautiful story.
@rhijulbec1
6 жыл бұрын
Tanya Rivera I'm sorry you know that pain. Jenn 💖 in Canada 🍁
@pilotlaura4838
6 жыл бұрын
I'm a police officer. I have been in your shoes. I still think about what I said and what he did. It was such a tragic loss for so many. Life is too precious to throw away. It haunts me everyday.
@caroltassin4049
6 жыл бұрын
Thank you SoulPancake for putting out such important content & Thank you Brian Finkelstein for sharing such a meaningful story.
@resiseven7407
Жыл бұрын
I think about this story at least once a month after first hearing it on The Moth several years ago. I struggle hsrd with depression and have recently slipped into some unusually strong suicidal urges. Listening to this brings me comfort. I'll probably have to call a hotline some time soon, and when I do, I hope it's someone like Brian on the other end of thr phone.
@kathrynsue1986
6 жыл бұрын
im a christian but i am glad he got rid of the people who thought pushing their religion on a suicidal person was a good idea ive thought of ending my life many times and 1 of the last things i wanted to hear was someone pushing religion on me like telling me i would go to hell if i did it or telling me that i wouldnt be feeling like this if i read the bible and prayed enough or did it in the right way or whatever
@rhijulbec1
6 жыл бұрын
Christian kathryn Grimes 💖💖💖 You are so awesome. Those who use religion as a hammer and not a caress are, in my book, the most unholy. I'm not a believer, at all, but I'd call you friend. Jenn 💖 in Canada 🍁
@girlmusician24
6 жыл бұрын
Thank you for being a woke Christian and sharing your story with us.
@melodys9188
6 жыл бұрын
aaA same here, and just thinking of it makes me angry.
@leocadiajerez1696
5 жыл бұрын
Th3UprightMan that comment is uncalled for
@Th3UprightMan
5 жыл бұрын
So's devouring that third hamburger for her lunch and yet it still happens.
@mahadevovnl
2 жыл бұрын
I cried. That was a beautiful one. Many years ago I made it to the step where I'd reply "yes" to all questions. The rope was ready, the letter was written. At that moment a friend called me, and they never called me on the phone before (internet friends), and they asked about me. That wasn't the kind of friendship we had, but that's what happened. That's why I'm alive today. Since then I've had the most mindblowingly amazing experiences in life, also plenty of bad ones, and your last sentence rings so true. It has to be. Looking back on that time in my life, it would've been the right call in that moment. I understood it then and I understand it now. I did not want to die, I just wanted the pain of life to stop. It's like standing on the 20th floor with a raging fire creeping up on you, and you have to jump to your death or burn to death in the fire. Life felt like the fire, suicide felt like jumping. Taking control. That's all there's to it, or it was, to me. Thanks for this. I really needed to listen to this to remember.
@MySims3Fantasy
4 жыл бұрын
This video just saved my life....thank you.
@ImogenLubin
5 жыл бұрын
This video has genuinely changed the way I think, and I come back to it all the time. I don’t know if I would be here today if it wasn’t for him. I haven’t had a perfect moment yet, or at least one that I can remember (I have chronic dissociation/derealization/depersonalization) , but i’m alive for the possibility that I will have them, and if not, that I will at least have okay moments.
@savannahlee395
6 жыл бұрын
We need more stories like this to be shared with the world to help show how real and tragic suicide is. Yeah, it's ugly, incredibly heartbreaking, and absolutely terrible... but the more people realize that, I believe the less suicides will occur. Hiding tragedies like this is what makes people feel alone and curious, then one thing leads to another. The more people realize how loved they are and how much they impact other people's lives, the less likely they will do something irreversible. Thank you +SoulPancake for always going against the status quo and for sharing what needs to be heard. This video was incredible and touched my heart.
@wyv3rn1
5 жыл бұрын
The part whet ehe brings up that "I don't want to die I just want the pain to stop" being a warning sign kinda scares me as I was in that exact same spot about a month ago and said that verbatim to my boyfriend. It's a terrible place to be and I'm fortunate that, though things aren't really better, I'm gotten over that hump of terrible emotion. I hope the best for anybody else who ends up in that place. I know how lonely it can be
@Vidasinvida
9 ай бұрын
🫶 sending love to you Hope you are doing better
@wyv3rn1
9 ай бұрын
@@Vidasinvida I wish I could say I was I appreciate the well wishes though Take care of yourself as well
@Vidasinvida
9 ай бұрын
@@wyv3rn1 I wasn’t expecting you to reply so quickly! Most comments that are like a year+ old don’t reply. idk why but thanks for replying :D Anyway, I’m sorry things aren’t going too well. I honestly wish I could do something to help, you seem like a sweet person! But thank you for the wishes too!
@Gamesake2
6 жыл бұрын
I think we've all had some experience with suicide...a friend, a relative, business associate, family. I was a vocational Counselor for 25 years. I helped blind and visually impaired people find jobs. One Client I remember was blind in one eye due to a suicide attempt. He said "I couldn't even kill myself right...now I'm blind". An old childhood friend of mine killed himself in his truck, because he was in constant pain and the doctors could not find a reason. My ex husband was having mental issues, which was why I had to take our kids and leave him. At one point when I was talking with him, I realized he might be suicidal. His dad had committed suicide due to the breakup of his marriage. I found out later that I said the one thing that made him decide not to run the car into the canal...I said "I hope you would not consider suicide, because our son might someday be in a bad situation and think..."My grandfather killed himself, my dad killed himself...I guess it runs in the family, so here I go". I have never been suicidal personally...I was born legally blind, and now at 70 I find myself hearing impaired as well. things have not always been easy for me, but like this speaker, I know that in a minute, an hour, a day, a week....etc, everything can turn around and be wonderful. I like the saying from an old song "Just around the corner, everything's shining gold!"
@Participant
6 жыл бұрын
This is such a beautiful story. Thank you for sharing!
@rhijulbec1
6 жыл бұрын
Gamp Lane I'm in awe of you. Absolutely, totally awestruck. You are the reason there's hope in this world. Thank you.
@christiangasior4244
5 жыл бұрын
I’ve never really had much experience with it except for my own attempts and issues.
@stevenrogersfineart4224
2 жыл бұрын
"My husband's father killed himself over divorce, so when my husband was suicidal I took the kids and left him". Doesn't exactly sound like the kind of thing I would openly post about :(
@karizaalves7477
6 жыл бұрын
The worst part is thinking that maybe you could have done something else to avoid it😥 I'm sure he'll never forget her.
@cadencemurphy9526
5 жыл бұрын
Kariza Alves there’s nothing he could have done, she had already took them before they called I think
@cheyennek764
5 жыл бұрын
@@cadencemurphy9526 yeah there's nothing else he could have done but that doesn't erase the feeling of someone literally dying while you're on the phone with them
@Vartika
6 жыл бұрын
You squish my soul soulpancake. You make me feel things. Profound things. Things only soul pancake can. Thnx.
@nicolehu6979
6 жыл бұрын
I clicked on this video expecting to click off, but something about his way of storytelling is amazing. This guy is smart, he's got it figured out, for real.
6 жыл бұрын
I personally talked during my small life (I'm 17) with three friends who was thinking about suicide, one of them had planned it. So I really relate to that testimony. Thanks.
@rhijulbec1
6 жыл бұрын
L'éclectique Damn. I'm sorry. I'm old(ish) 62, and I've not had that many in my life. Please if it wears on you too much, talk to an older person you can trust. It's really hard to carry that weight. I used to be the one everyone came to about problems because I listened, didn't judge and didn't tell. I wish, with my entire being, I'd told. My boyfriend told me he was going to do it. He did. I was 15, he was 17. So although that was the only time ever, I wish, all these years later, I'd told someone. Thank you for being such a good friend but please, if someone says they're going to harm themselves, ask those four questions and if, as he said, you get more than one yes~tell someone. Don't carry the burden I do. Old person lecture over. Jenn 💖 in Canada 🍁
6 жыл бұрын
rhijulbec1 thanks a lot :)
@rhijulbec1
6 жыл бұрын
L'éclectique You're welcome Love. You aren't alone.
@Sparr0wBird
3 жыл бұрын
@@rhijulbec1 I'm so sorry you had to go through life, with this guilt hanging over your head like a constant stormy rain cloud. Did you get counselling or anything to help with the healing process?
@rhijulbec1
3 жыл бұрын
@@Sparr0wBird Hi Steph. Thank you for your concern. That is so sweet. 💖 I did, but not until years later. This was 1970. I'd forgotten it~repressed it actually, but when my daughter died in 1984, fourteen years later, a number of traumas I'd repressed came back to mind. I had to counsel for a lot of things. I was really more sorry for his mum and dad. There was nothing could have stopped him. I think he just wanted to die, tbh. His mum was the librarian in our town and a genuinely nice person. His dad was a professor at the university in the city about 25 minutes away and I can only say he was the absent minded professor. Vastly intelligent. And they both loved Larry deeply. Larry was troubled and so was in I high school. We made a pact to die together. Not entirely sure I wouldn't have. But he died in the bathroom of a bar 😔, alone. How heartbreaking is that? 💔💔Poor guy. He was haunted by his mental illnesses. He was bi-polar and schizophrenic. To this day I wish I'd said something. It probably wouldn't have stopped him-but at least I'd tried. I was afraid I guess. In counseling I did talk about it.
@alicecoughlan5935
5 жыл бұрын
Am I the only one who noticed the woman texting in the front row through most of the talk?
@jlbellla
6 жыл бұрын
I knew this was going to hit a nerve prior to watching this but dammit, didn’t realize how much of an impact it was going to be. just wow.
@baronwright2352
6 жыл бұрын
I feel like society doesn’t like showing things like this, people don’t like talking about death. But we should, its something that happens to all of us, and it can maybe save someone from making such an impact. This video really moved me, im not one to think about the dark side of things too much, but i watched this and it really opened my eyes. Thank you
@ryanisnerdy5186
5 жыл бұрын
His comfort pulls it out of you. You feel like you can feel like how you feel. And that's so heavy for those that have dealt with depression and suicide. It's potent. And not in a bad way. So many deal with this and nobody talks about it. It's so important. (typed while incredibly upset) Tell someone. You're not whining. Don't do it. You are not whining. Someone does care. Even if it's a stranger.
@rebekahmoore6920
6 жыл бұрын
I'm being totally honest when I say this is the best talk I've ever listened to. Just wow
@Sparr0wBird
3 жыл бұрын
Didn't expect to both equally laugh and cry watching this... I was so incredibly captivated by Brian's story.
@MafiaMoriartyFTW
6 жыл бұрын
Gut wrenching, heart breaking, but probably the most surfaced truth in life.
@kiaralynrosario935
6 жыл бұрын
I'm still waiting for another *perfect* *life* *moment*
@Participant
6 жыл бұрын
One will definitely come your way soon enough ❤️
@kiaralynrosario935
6 жыл бұрын
SoulPancake I know.... I'm just tired of waiting, I've been waiting for seven years. I know it will come, I'm scared it might not come fast enough. Thanks for replying though.❤️💓❤️
@generationfallout5189
6 жыл бұрын
Kiaralyn Rosario I feel like I've been waiting 7 years as well. Ive definitely lived moments when i was younger that made all the struggle feel worth it and i try to hang onto those memories. But its hard living in the drought... Feeling like all the best things in life are behind me. Hang in there soldier. We must fight on to the bitter end. Because those perfect moments might return if we fight for them and try to gain control of this nose dive towards destruction. And they just might make surviving the desert worth it again. We are stronger than we know. Dig deep my friend.
@nadiadonahue
5 жыл бұрын
Kiaralyn Rosario, I just want to check in with you! How are you doing? Has that little perfect moment happened yet?
@WhispersFromTheDark
2 жыл бұрын
Rest in peace Amy. You are not forgotten.
@Fire_Marshall_Bill
5 жыл бұрын
I saw this video around the time you posted it. This was also during a time where I had already failed one attempt and suicide was on my mind constantly. Three months ago I decided to try again and I planned the actions of my own suicide down to the minute with determination. About an hour before I had decided that I would go through with it the memory of this video rang out to me from the back of my mind. I had not been right for years but masked it but this time I decided to finally speak and seek help. I was living with undiagnosed bipolar disorder. Please never delete this video. It saved my life. There are more out there like me I'm sure that it will save.
@MM-Iconoclast
5 жыл бұрын
Bipolar has an extremely high risk of suicide attached - especially if it's untreated (or insufficiently treated). And if you are getting drugs for it and they don't help, please get other medical opinions and try other drugs, until you find something that really helps. I'm glad you are still here and that you got help. I have experience with this in my family.
@Fire_Marshall_Bill
5 жыл бұрын
@@MM-Iconoclast Thank you for the advice. The best thing I had on my side was the fact that my brother is Bipolar and my other brother is Schizophrenic. I knew the signs for many years and I knew that I fell under the prerequisite of Bipolar disorder. I just did not want to admit it to myself or to anybody else. Mainly out of fear of what people thought because I had watched allot of people judge my brother and I am also a fireman so I thought it would be a career ending blow due to the misunderstanding of mental health in the USA. As well as I was taking care of my Schizophrenic brother as we couldn't find any treatment to help for a long time. I did not focus on myself for a decade because of it. Once I had time to breath it accelerated quickly. Thats when things got bad. The biggest benefit I had though from helping my brother is that I knew exactly who to call in regards to doctors. My doc took excellent care of me and hit the medications on the head. I was legitimately scared of that being a major process too. Nope... first try
@MM-Iconoclast
5 жыл бұрын
@@Fire_Marshall_Bill Btw, when looking at meds, make sure to check into Clozapine/Clozaril. Just do a search online. There's a lot of interesting stuff written about it's use (and non-use) for Bipolar and Schizophrenia. Good luck to you.
@Shay-nu7id
4 жыл бұрын
My husband shot himself on the phone with me . It was early morning ...i will never forgive myself. Our daughter was 2 yrs old. She is 27 now. Im 50. My husband and I were 25 yrs old when he died. Please ...stick around for your kids. It really hurts your children extra hard.
@fenugi9908
2 жыл бұрын
I'm so, so sorry...
@calynn4133
5 жыл бұрын
im just going through videos looking for a reason not to hurt myself today
@ennainno8622
3 жыл бұрын
how are you now?
@BangersTheBraeds
2 жыл бұрын
Yeah how are you now calynn?
@MusicFreak10001000
6 жыл бұрын
That made me feel a lot. Very eye opening.
@darkkiss7247
6 жыл бұрын
Riveting speech. Love this channel
@thinthle
6 жыл бұрын
Love this talk. Even though I'm an orphan I somehow got the idea into my head aswell that depression was something priviliged. That I didn't deserve the right to complain about how bad my life was because there would always be people who had it way worse. And that even though everyone can get it and I showed all the symptoms anyone but I deserved help. But I've since realised that I shouldn't keep myself from expressing my real feelings just because I might be critical of them. And that I shouldn't treat myself worse then I treat other people for whatever stupid reason I come up with.
@20somethingsworld97
4 жыл бұрын
“He has five alcoholic kids, he’s an enabler” that went over everybody’s head 😂
@Sparr0wBird
3 жыл бұрын
not mine lol
@korag7431
6 жыл бұрын
Oh wow...that story. Damn.
@rachelsmith5439
5 жыл бұрын
I’m so glad I watched this video. This brought tears to my eyes, and showed me a new perspective on life
@jumpman858
2 жыл бұрын
My brother left us two months ago. He was only 36. Thank you for sharing this story…. We as a family constantly deal with guilt, anger, confusion sadness (although we understand it wasn’t his fault).
@ceciletarling5229
6 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much Brian.........if we can get past that horrible moment in our lives, life will show us beautiful moments.
@amandagardner2383
5 жыл бұрын
I can’t even begin to form the words to explain how close to home this hit - more people should see this talk
@user-bj1iv6wn2j
7 ай бұрын
Wow oh my god, this was so so good. I was looking for a video just like this for a long time, something about suicide sprinkled with comedy. I was doing work while watching this until I had to stop and fully listen because it was just that good. Brian is a great speaker. Man I’d love to read and cry to a book like this. I love this so so much. It’s going into my favorites playlist.
@SamanthDarling
4 жыл бұрын
I remember being in rehab (or the ward, never sure how to describe it) and I was 16. I was the youngest person there at the time and I was terrified. I cried for almost my whole stay which luckily was short. I was sitting on my bed, just in tears and a girl walks in who was one of my roommates. She was tall, blonde, kind of an edgy haircut I think. I can’t recall her name sadly. She talked to me about everything in the week previous that had brought me there and what happened to her. She made me feel comfortable and heard. It felt like talking to a big sister who knew exactly what it felt like to be suicidal and struggle to be okay. I left soon after and without her name or any info, I don’t know what happened to her. I don’t know if she won her fight or if she remembers being so nice to broken kid. I hope she’s doing well!!
@colin6768
5 жыл бұрын
Wow - this is the most powerful talk I've ever heard. That and the Kevin Briggs TED talk "The Bridge Between Suicide and Life". It's sad and tragic when anyone takes their own life, but it seems especially horrible when a young person does it because there's so many unfulfilled dreams - a mom never seeing her daughter walk down the aisle, a father never seeing his son graduate college, etc. I suffer from depression, anxiety, and ocd, and may even have complex PTSD, so I've been "in the trenches". Please people, I'm begging you, let's all try to be a little more civil to one another because you never know how your words or actions may effect another person - you could be the one to send that fragile, sensitive person over the edge. I know it sounds corny and cliched, but try to be kinder to people because you never know what demons they're battling. This talk brought tears to my eyes. I hope wherever Amy is, she's at peace.
@Vidasinvida
9 ай бұрын
Amazing talk. Thank you for sharing this! I’ve been curious about what it’s like to volunteer in a suicide hotline. I’m so thankful KZitem recommended this to me
@Beefareeno
5 жыл бұрын
I’m glad I found this video. I wasn’t expecting to laugh and cry all at the same time.
@LunaLena221
5 жыл бұрын
Thank you. Thank you. I cannot emphasize how much I needed to hear this story. Thank you for still thinking of Amy. Thank you for throwing up your tequila. Thank you for being alive and reminding us to try to do that too. Thank you.
@ontoyoualways9183
5 жыл бұрын
Those perfect moments are not enough. You realize how temporary these feelings are.
@angelcerecero7410
4 жыл бұрын
All feelings are temporary sadness too
@coo4231
2 жыл бұрын
If the lady I spoke to today seemed genuine and like she'd just be there with me, as he described, i might be feeling better right now after a 50 minute call.
@Xoediac
2 жыл бұрын
Very powerful. Happy to say I had my moment and I am on the other side. I empathize with everyone still going through it.
@kmixx91
Жыл бұрын
I am Brian in the car and Amy. When he was asking the four questions I said yes to them all. Two days ago I was in them. Mentally I’m still them but physically I’m just… I’m just. I have said the warning phrase so many times in the last couple of weeks and the only person who has noticed anything is wrong is my 19 year old co worker who I’ve only know intimately for at best a month. Another sign people need to realise isn’t just that phrase, but the words “I’m fine” because behind every “I’m fine” is absolute chaos and it only takes one too many “I’m fine”s to be the last “I’m fine”. For me, it was my mother asking me how I was two days ago. I’m fine I said. And I knew I wasn’t. I was an out of control inferno that was doused in heavy rain and water becoming smouldering ashes and embers. I’m fine sometimes isn’t I’m fine and people need to realise that. I don’t know is a valid answer to why you feel this way because like Amy I have no idea what the hell I was doing to trigger this or cause this or put me here. And I really wish people understood that.
@whipchick90
5 жыл бұрын
Powerful!! My 20 yr old daughter died of an accidental OD almost eight yrs ago. I truly will never know if it was accidental or not. The pain she was going through was intense. She had just lost her father to addiction. He was my ex-husband. And other problems, being diagnosed bi-polar. Just so much that I really will never know. I haven't discussed these thoughts with family or anyone. I knew her best, so I just kept it to myself. I didn't need to upset people even more than they were.
@lukej6832
6 жыл бұрын
How could 2 people dislike this video??? It’s powerful ❤️
@rhijulbec1
6 жыл бұрын
Luke J Maybe too close to home. I wondered that too.
@KlayExterior
6 жыл бұрын
My hart started Breaking and I stared crying 😢
@TaradaPryoNINJA
5 жыл бұрын
My best friend committed suicide Sept 2016. I got a text from her asking what song she should listen to, and just a few hours later my parents told me she killed herself. Riot shotgun in the bathroom. I have a copy of her note, but I'll never know what song she chose, and that's one of the most painful things.
@rokaiyashishani3579
5 жыл бұрын
you know its not your fault baby....it really isnt. I know you miss her but you are not the reason why shes gone.
@TaradaPryoNINJA
5 жыл бұрын
@@rokaiyashishani3579 It's taken a long time and a lot of thinking to come to that conclusion, and while I knew since it happened that it wasn't my fault, I still wonder if I had replied quicker if she would've reconsidered. I don't think she would have, I mean she was planning on slitting her wrists and then she found the shotgun so one way or another she was adamant about suicide, but still. I'm just glad she didn't have a moment to regret her decision. That she wasn't waiting on someone to come and save her and then got let down once again. If that had happened, that would've been the end of me, too.
@camillegraham2078
6 жыл бұрын
This man is amazing
@Participant
6 жыл бұрын
Agreed!
@Monet0526
6 жыл бұрын
Just what I needed! 😶💞
@Californiagirl824
5 жыл бұрын
Monet Live l
@CzarnyVampirek666
5 жыл бұрын
I'm kind of this werid state where I'm not able to show any emotions for years now. After watching this, now, I can't stop shivering and crying.
@rokaiyashishani3579
5 жыл бұрын
I think its your body's way of handling stress-self preservation. For me I shut down and grow ice cold because Im so afraid if I show any emotion or allow myself to feel I will break
@denntit
3 жыл бұрын
i was standing by my 10th floor window at 4am this morning recalling everything Brian has shared in this video. my memory is getting weaker day by day but i remembered these 4 questions 1. do you feel so bad that you think about suicide? 2. do you have a plan for how you would do that? 3. have you set a time? 4. have you taken any steps to do that? i answered yes to 3 of them.
@charlieo8020
5 жыл бұрын
i've heard this story from when he told it for the Moth about fifteen times and of all the stories that were printed in the book compilation of Moth stories, this stuck with me the most--i also reread it probably about fifteen times, too. Never heard a different telling of it. this was very good.
@atoceansmercy
6 жыл бұрын
more of this please
@amariliscatclaw142
3 жыл бұрын
See that's where the problem lies. It never stops like the waves. I just want to end it so it doesnt get bad again.
@michaelschultz5530
6 жыл бұрын
damn, i saw how long the video was and i didnt wanna click on it but i just couldnt click off of it one i got on
@moeoverthere3640
5 жыл бұрын
Michael Schultz Same!
@nwatson2773
Жыл бұрын
We are suffering because life has gotten to be too much! We don’t have community and everyone expects you to be happy all the time.
@Conticent
6 жыл бұрын
Thank you for uploading this. It meant a lot to me and I know that it will do the same for others.
@MarquinhoArgento
6 жыл бұрын
Wow.. what a history! What a history!
@amyhopwood8646
3 жыл бұрын
This talk is amazing. Wow. What a story and what a message.
@Nicole-fx3ei
6 жыл бұрын
i'm glad i've watched this.
@annabearly
5 жыл бұрын
i watched this video for the 4th and im still crying as much as the first time..
@jaymekarina
5 жыл бұрын
I live in the area with the highest suicide rate in my country. In 2013, my friend's brother hung himself in her garage and every single year since then, a student from my school of 180 students dies. Nobody has died this year but some days I wonder if it's going to be me, dying how he died 5 years ago, and in some way ending the "curse" of my school. I started highschool that year, and this year I finish. I think about that a lot.
@MM-Iconoclast
5 жыл бұрын
Are you okay now? I hope so.
@user-wy3ve4rw9d
Жыл бұрын
still hope you're doing fine right now
@GIguy
Жыл бұрын
So far…I’ve throw up on the gun…but how many times can I do that before the gun misfires? Rest in peace Amy, I pray you’ve found the joy you longed for xo
@eduardoquezada11
8 ай бұрын
I have a knoose and notebook in my room and i just write down on it days that this pain get unbearable i hate being harassed and ridiculed by my neighbors for no reason its not fair that that treat me this way smh😢
@chrishitchcock7977
5 жыл бұрын
heard this on npr a couple years ago when i was suicidal and it helped me a lot, gods work
@moonlightbaby6569
6 жыл бұрын
Love y’all ❤️
@MellowMadnessRMX
6 жыл бұрын
Great story.
@backyardgarage912
6 жыл бұрын
Great Talk. Thank you Soul Pancake!
@NorthernFella
5 жыл бұрын
I have on numerous occasions come close to ending my life. (I have bpd, cptsd, anxiety and body dysmorphia) I have letters pre written and a stash of tabs "just in case" I live with this its all I can do. We have samaratains in the UK they have been a big help. such a tragic story.
@testticklehead
5 жыл бұрын
Problem with depression is that there is such a widespread social stigma that even when you're suffering from it you don't believe its a disease. I always wondered, why am I so sad and unhappy when everything around me is great. Even my wife of 18 years has said on multiple occasions "I'm better than you are at talking myself out of being down" or "you have everything going for yourself, why not just realize that". Nobody wants to be depressed (way different from being sad), but no matter how much you try your body and mind will not allow you to be happy. I wish the non-believers (almost everyone that doesn't suffer from depression) could be chemically put into a depressive state and subjected to happy events around them. Maybe then they would realize that its not just unhappiness or sadness.
@tten8192
5 жыл бұрын
what a beautifully tragic story
@emilybraun6566
5 жыл бұрын
That was so powerful.
@sot514
Жыл бұрын
This video helps, im not feeling too great. But itll be ok
@sot514
Жыл бұрын
I just need someone to hear me now if these feelings will be gone by tomorrow
@zynerd
Жыл бұрын
@@sot514 hope you're feeling better
@jessejones5001
4 жыл бұрын
AMAZING SAD STORY!!!! THANK YOU FOR SHARING BROTHER!!!!
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