Just managing and planning the service while also handling 2 young children full time while dealing with loss is miraculous! Her SERVICE wasn’t the end of her journey. Now it’s time to start the next chapter!! The silence can be deafening. Anger is normal. You got the shit end of the stick!! The kids and Jen did too!! You have ptsd. For years you watched horrible things happen to your person. Those memories don’t disappear.
@JM-jr1sb
6 ай бұрын
Beautiful words you speak❤
@Gina-fn3lm
6 ай бұрын
You honor her everyday you take care of her babies and you think of her and you keep going for her is honoring her May Jenny RIP always God bless you and your family
@DebraAlexander-br7io
6 ай бұрын
I'm so sorry for loss, Jenny was a beautiful Mom, Wife and Human being! A loss of a soulmate is the worst feeling! You should stay around Your Friends and People that really Care about You and loss!
@DebraAlexander-br7io
6 ай бұрын
You need be out and doing things, meeting People and start Living a Life and do the group Therapy! Your in a grief stricken State and no one can tell when It will lessen! But time plays a big Factor in healing and closure! Stay Strong and the great Father that the kids need! Enjoy Moments with the kids save there memories with You! The Kids will Love that and know Your filmed them for a priceless Memories ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
@stephaniedavis6531
6 ай бұрын
EVERYONE'S grief journey is different. You're here and Jen's not. You need to LIVE A LIFE for the both of you. Celebrate the fact YOU HAD someone in your life. There are millions of people who have never had anyone in their life. Celebrate the fact YOU HAD SOMEONE.❤
@deedeeturner6577
6 ай бұрын
I’m battling liver cancer and when I saw the video of Jenny saying it is ok for you to fall in love again, melted my heart. I always pray that when I pass that my husband finds someone that he will love. God bless you and always remember Jenny is restored!
@makeupgirl069
6 ай бұрын
Sending you love and strength as you battle cancer! This is no easy journey as I am also fighting Stage 4 Skin Cancer. Take care. I will send up prayers for you.
@weps2u
6 ай бұрын
Sending strength for you to keep fighting. ❤
@7389
6 ай бұрын
Praying for you!
@christined2495
6 ай бұрын
Praying for both you ladies 🙏🙏🙏🙏
@mimirose71
6 ай бұрын
Praying for you deedee. 🙏🙏💙
@cheryllynn7780
6 ай бұрын
Remember when Jenny said, “ Kyle when you miss her, grab a big pillow, and hug it, squeeze it!” She’s always with you! 🕊️✝️♥️
@kathylovingshimer6708
6 ай бұрын
I agree. When I miss my mom I grab a soft blanket that was hers and cover with it.
@heyitskey31
6 ай бұрын
I also agree. When I miss my mom I grab this teddy bear I got her for Mother’s Day last year. I hug it and sleep with it 🫶🏽🫶🏽
@maviewavie2326
6 ай бұрын
I do remember her saying exactly that! I am wearing my Dad's watch, and I run my fingers over it. I keep thinking I can feel his skin on it.
@williamrossok1067
6 ай бұрын
I want to share this so it might help in some way for you Kyle...I lost my husband to cancer in June 2021....I thought that I was mentally prepared to some degree, but how wrong I was! Grief consumed me every day...everything reminded me that I was still here on Earth, & that I had to live without my beloved. Hearing a song, certain smells, familiar places we had been, TV shows we watched together, even seeing a plate of food that I knew he would love to eat triggered me. Early on, every memory made me cry, and then, ever so slowly, one day a specific memory made me smile. And you cherish that, including having dreams of your loved one. I had several dreams, & most of them I remembered every detail, & woke up smiling! I pray that will happen for you too! The pain doesn't ever go away completely, it just lessens a little. I'm thankful for you that you have so many memories already on video...the happy ones will be a priceless treasure. So glad that you are starting grief counseling. Every one is different, but I think it definitely helps being able to talk to someone else that has lost a spouse. One of the hardest things for me to do early on was to attend social events alone, while everyone else was with their partner, like a wedding. My family was my rock since my husband passed. Lean on your family & friends when you need them. Getting back to any kind of a normal sleep schedule/pattern took me almost a year. And no, I didn't use any sleeping pills to do that. I do sleep with the light on too, & I couldn't sleep in the bedroom either. That could take weeks or months, & you'll get there in your own time. All I wanted most of the time for comfort was someone to just give me a hug or hold my hand. Sorry that this is so long, but I hope it helps you in some way. Hold those children close & share your love & grief with them, as you keep Jenny's memory alive. Will be praying for you & the kids each day, & that God sends you some comfort for the days ahead. ❤
@traciebryant162
6 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing. ❤
@Tina-bp7wt
6 ай бұрын
What a beautiful message to share with Kyle. Support, kindness , knowledge and love 💗 We will all be praying for them with love.
@user-vt9gu4bn3j
6 ай бұрын
Hi Kyle Just watched your update to us.grief is so raw and so rough in so.many areas.so.pleased youmgoing therapy.hold tight too winni and ellis.beautiful gifts.someone shared with me that the grief is like a wound but as time goes on its still there but the edges not so raw as they were.day at a time. Don't look beyond that.and good to remind you.jenni is healed and whole .revelation tells us yet has not seen.what God has laid up for believers when pur lives over here.inalways say life isn't fair this side of heaven.dont be hard on yourself you.been and continue to be amazing dad to your beautiful children Jenny's legacy will live on in them.our love and prayers from New zraland.
@lisabadger603
6 ай бұрын
GOD bless you sweetie. All that you wrote is so spot on. That is how this process of grief unfolds. You can not rush it or short cut it. I TOO experienced this same thing for 4 years. Consumed by grief. One day I realized I had to move on. The most important thing is to NOT get STUCK in grief. Or it will rob the life going forward. Live with joy and find ways to honor your loved one. Keep their spirit alive in your life.God promises he will never leave us...and he doesnt!
@makeitso1975
6 ай бұрын
@williamrossok1067 wow I felt like I wrote this. It's hard to be left behind and yes the pain never goes away but it does lessen. You can't let it consume you.
@beckyg3697
6 ай бұрын
The service got half a million views. Just goes to show how many ppl Jenny touched in her life ❤
@barbaraanderson8391
6 ай бұрын
😮❤🤩🫂🙏🏻🥰🤭👍🏼🌷👏🏻‼️😍
@muffydragonslayer
6 ай бұрын
@@suzannemottley if you don't have anything nice to say please stay silent🙏🏼 take care.
@lolitaalmostgrown
6 ай бұрын
I still need to watch it, that number will grow
@carollundergan837
6 ай бұрын
Kyle, my heart breaks for you. My son lost his wife to kidney cancer 9 years ago (she was 26), and it's been a journey for him to comes to terms with her death and find happiness and purpose again. The loss will never go away, but it will get to the point where it won't be so acute and painful. I promise you, it will. It just takes a lot of time. Please, please give yourself grace and be very gentle with yourself. This is still so fresh, so raw, so new, and anger/frustration/sadness/rage/feelings of failure are absolutely and completely normal. The best thing you can do is surround yourself with support, continue with therapy and support groups, focus on the kids, and take it one minute at a time. Allow yourself whatever emotions you're feeling and don't try and bury them. Much, much love to you and the kids, and thank you for continuing to share your story. It is helpful to a great many people.
@michellefrench6617
6 ай бұрын
❤
@marthainsalaco9266
6 ай бұрын
❤❤We hear and see your pain kyle😢
@NBassREALTOR
6 ай бұрын
Yes yes yes. This side of eternity is so hard; moreso for some than others 💔
@mariaruiz4420
6 ай бұрын
Yes, very well said. All the feelings that you are going through are normal, and it’s grieving. Your feelings of failure are depression, and that is normal also. Yes, allow yourself to grieve and pick yourself up each time. We are here with you, to listen to you, and support you and the kids through this very hard journey. The dreams are normal also, and it means that she is ok, and is healed now. You will have more of those in time. Continuing to pray for you and the kids, and family 🙏
@carmelaburrone5029
6 ай бұрын
Sending love ❤️ and prayers 🙏 my dear. God Bless..
@ananigma7
6 ай бұрын
Oh darling Kyle, you have thousands of us around the world that just wish we could jump through our screens right now just to hold you, support you and tell you everything is going to be OK. Thank you for the honour of sharing this journey with you. We Love you all. Sleep well forever, sweet Jenny. 🫂 ❤
@KevinMcB
6 ай бұрын
No two people grieve the same way and NOBODY does it wrong. You will go on Kyle. I promise.
@karinasanchez3285
6 ай бұрын
Kyle, you honor Jenny every single day by your actions, by being there as a wonderful and present father and just being you as her soul mate 🙏
@deanieferris2210
6 ай бұрын
Well said,my words as well
@conniepaul6153
6 ай бұрын
Kyle, the best thing that helped me when my daughter passed was journaling. I wrote to her everyday and told her my thoughts. It was helpful to think I was communicating to her even if it was in journaling. It was my go too it’s been very helpful.
@TheSeesternchen05
6 ай бұрын
@@conniepaul6153 that's beautiful, sorry for your loss
@tammikit5310
6 ай бұрын
Perfectly said. He's an Amazing person, Fantastic Father and wonderful husband ❤️
@Barbarawr
6 ай бұрын
You have the same melody in your speaking like Jenny.
@elainelewis5803
6 ай бұрын
One day at a time Kyle You are the furthest thing from a failure Everyone should be so lucky to have a Dad like you!
@deborahhenderson5219
6 ай бұрын
You are not alone Kyle~~ I didn't want to do life with out Jim. My wonderful amazing husband of 35 years. Left this earth from a fatal fall to his head, very healthy & fit, only 55 years old. Omg, 35 years of marriage over in 1 night. I kissed him goodbye that day, us both laughing.....he drove off and I never saw him alive again. I know you feel alone, I do too. Once you pick up the pieces of every day life, teaching again, etc....those are the things that WILL GET YOU THRU....TIME HEALS~~ that's all I can tell you. I love you Kyle, I love those kids & Flower, lol, it's ok if he was drinking water loudly. Speaking of doggies ~ my white Labrador, Moon....Is the love of my life, he's 2 now. My other female yellow Labrador, Clarabelle, got me thru losing Jim. I cried 8.5 months when I had to say goodbye to her. Now I have Moon, my new man in my life lol. If you look closely you will see God, you will see Jenny in Flowers 💐 eyes 🐶. Bless you Kyle, thank you for checking in~~ Jenny is right there with you, just keep looking for her signs. ❤ PS Guess where the name for my last female dog, Clarabelle came from ~~~ well, Disney's Goofy, his girlfriend was Clarabelle Cow!!!! Was hoping that would make you crack a tiny smile, bet Jenny would love that!!! 🙂
@rhondagreen135
6 ай бұрын
Man you had me when you said Ellis couldn’t hold the tears in anymore. My heart gropes out to you big time. Jenny was as sweet and special as anyone could possibly be. I’m lifting you up in prayer just like Jen would want us to. I always loved how she would protect you she would say “my Kyle” she loved you so much! Her dad said it perfectly, you were the best husband to Jen that they could ever hopped for her. I’m glad your going to start grief therapy. It helps a lot! It doesn’t take away the grief, it helps with the what next and loneliness. Sending lots of sweet hugs to all of you!,
@caroldunham1665
6 ай бұрын
Hope you are hugging that pillow she told us to remind you to hug Kyle. I never will forget that video. She was so brave and seemed to know what you all would need. She touched so many lives and will never be forgotten. Thank you for sharing her service with us. Such a perfect beautiful tribute to Jenny! Prayers for you and your children.
@marcie0707
6 ай бұрын
❤ please hug the pillow
@williamthomson638
6 ай бұрын
Pet the dog. He needs you. He loved Jenny. He doesn't understand why Jenny isn't there. Plus, he will bring you Jenny comfort. ❤
@dianebaugher3919
6 ай бұрын
Yes he's grieving too, they feel all the emotions we do
@divahc1
6 ай бұрын
I think "it's" a "she". Her name ìs "Flower".
@peterdurant1059
6 ай бұрын
Please love Flower too!!!!
@estaisadore6188
6 ай бұрын
Awww Dogs are kind gifts from God.
@charleneaucoin9442
6 ай бұрын
Kyle. The service was beautiful! The flowers exquisite. It’s ok to be angry, out of sorts and sad. The love of your life is gone. She is out of sight but Jenny is with you, Ellis and Winnie. She’s proud of you. You are doing an amazing job as you travel through your grief. Lifting you up in prayer. Keep putting one foot in front of the other.
@NCO1426
6 ай бұрын
I was once working with an older woman who had lost her father, her husband was in bad health, and her mother was struggling with grief all in the same month. Someone asked her how she handled all of that while trying to manage her feelings as well and she described grief as being a rock in a river. “You’re a rock, the River is the world, while you’re wanting to stay still the River keeps moving and eventually the rock goes along with it, it just takes time. You can’t stop and stay still though because everything else is still going, you have to go along with it.” I think about that a lot. I don’t know if this helps Kyle but I’m so sorry for your loss. 🙏
@Anastashya
6 ай бұрын
That’s very true. ❤
@abbykirkaldie8600
6 ай бұрын
I lost my best friend to non-smoking lung cancer in 2017. She died 16 days after diagnosis. She was such a beautiful person and it still seems so unfair. I visit her husband and we go do the things she loved, hiking, camping. We have really deep talks about the day she died, how scary it was, he still asks questions of why this or that happened. We still process this 6 years later and cry. But we also can laugh. We decided it's a great skill to laugh and cry at the same time. The first 18 months was daily crying for me, so lonely and so mad I had to live without all the adventures we planned. At 2 years the tears were less but I will always be sad her life was cut short like Jenny's. I'm glad to this day the love we have for her still brings instant tears. She's worthy of those tears and Jenny is too. So we shop and cry, hike and cry, take a shower and cry, vacuum and cry, drive and cry, work and cry and it just what we need to express. Life is crazy unfair and God helps us navigate the unfairness and cries with us on the worst days. Sending you a prayer and a hug.
@elizabethbaldwin8488
6 ай бұрын
Woah...16 DAYS after being diagnosed she died? Unfathomable!!!❤
@sunnydaygina
6 ай бұрын
I am very sorry. Beautiful comment 🤍🙏🏻🕊️
@leslieshinsato5608
6 ай бұрын
Your anger is love, just as your grief is love. Your forgetting appointments, your recognizing how alone you may feel, is love. Your children are so lucky to have you. You're a brave, courageous man who, in the midst of sorrow, shares. Thank you, Kyle.
@lovereigns4017
6 ай бұрын
So true, Leslie 😢
@PS-qn4oz
6 ай бұрын
A few years ago my lovely teenage niece was dying of bone cancer, and I was putting together a care package for her, and I completely forgot a dentist appointment. They called me up, I made it to the appointment late, and it was clear the staff was angry with me. I never explained or really gave myself a pass for that mistake. Kyle has me thinking of it differently. My mind was just SO much on something else, someone else...everything else blurred out. Maybe it's sort of normal.
@BAN87612
6 ай бұрын
Beautifully written! ❤
@larah287
6 ай бұрын
Oh Darling. I'm a Mum of 4.. 57 years old and all I want to do is hold you, pat your back and give you a place to unload your grief. I'm so sorry Darling. ❤❤❤
@suemuster9826
6 ай бұрын
Kyle, I know this is hard. You're allowed to be angry at cancer. No one should die from this horrible disease. Know that we all are with you and love you.❤❤❤❤
@EnglishVirgo
6 ай бұрын
Massive props to you for giving your son an enviroment, physically and emotionally, where he feels able to say that he needs to cry, he needs to let out the feelings. So many people go with that stupid old addage that boys don't cry and it is super damaging. The fact that you nurture that emotional release is an awesome gift to him. Such a wonderful dad.xx
@bruja8484
6 ай бұрын
You have every right to be angry, to be furious. It's not fair, it's absolutely horrible that this has happened. I am so sorry, Kyle. Doesn't seem right that life just continues to go on without the ones we've loved and lost.
@navyman8314
6 ай бұрын
Hang in there Dad, yall can get through this.
@marty3711
6 ай бұрын
Hang in there kyle
@carmelaburrone5029
6 ай бұрын
YES Kyle...hang in. You will come through this..We all love you and the children & are sending much love ❤️ and healing prayers🙏 your way. BLESSINGS my dear...
@LoriMyers-mr7hg
6 ай бұрын
I'm still hurting from my husband's death. We met in 1982, got married in 1987. We had our first born son in 1989 and had our second son in October 3rd of 1992. I'm so sorry you are going through this heartbreaking life.
@patriciag9063
6 ай бұрын
Everyone of us who has ever lost a loved one knows exactly how you’re feeling right now. I wish I could give you a giant hug. It won’t always feel like this. But it will for a while😢
@debbiel8105
6 ай бұрын
I’m a retired middle school SPED teacher. I think going back to school will be hard at first, but you’ll find some joy going back to teaching. I’m praying for you, Kyle.
@Bailey2006a
6 ай бұрын
I agree, my fellow teacher. Going back into the classroom will be the kind of immersive distraction that will help Kyle through this most intensive time of grief. It did for me…it saved me.
@jacquelineoreilly8555
6 ай бұрын
Also retired high school teacher, I think you have so much to offer your students, and they will respond and fill your soul. They will learn from you what true love actually means, they will also learn from you how to deal with the blows life throws at us with dignity, respect and even gratitude. Your little darlings have been blessed with two beautiful parents and in their lives they will always know they love they receive and will pass that on to all they meet in their adult lives. I so wish you did not have to go through such grief but hold on to the thought you were so lucky to meet the love of your life and grief is the sad side of love ❤️
@nancywilson8407
6 ай бұрын
Kyle you are going through the grief stages, they’re hard, very hard. My husband passed on the 26th of November, suddenly. But I had 55 years with him and you had such a very short time with your Jen. The feeling of just empty has been pervasive, but remember, continue to encourage and talk about the good times. I talk to my husband daily and our dog will probably learn English, I talk to him so much. Your children will remember what wonderful mom they have, even now her spirit lives. This next thing I hope will give you some peace, even though my Johnny passed quickly, in the ER, before any medication was administered, like Jen he tried to get up. We talked to and helped to lay back down but before he did he looked at me and my granddaughter then looked up. He had the most wonderful smile on his face, a smile of awe, wonderment and pure joy. Kyle myself, granddaughter and a nurse were spell bound by what we saw, this may be stretching it a bit but for a brief second there was almost a glow. To this day I believe when he tried to get up it was because he could see the beauty of what lay ahead of and wanted to get there as quick as he could. We are both Jesus followers and the gift we were given at the end was priceless. I believe it is my responsibility to tell people about it. Heaven is real and we got to see a glimpse through his eyes. As hard as it is and your circumstances are definitely different than mine, please know Jen lives, she knows why things happened the way they did and her love for her family is even greater now than before. My prayer for you is peace, when you see Jen in your dreams her spirit is letting you know she is healed and she wants you to carry on until you are reunited one day.
@SewKathie
6 ай бұрын
Nancy what a beautiful tribute to your husband. Heaven is real. Prayers for you on your journey.
@msbeecee1
6 ай бұрын
@nancywilson8407 wowyhank u for sharing that amazing experience !! It gives me hope & peace
@lululee1653
6 ай бұрын
Jenny has made such a difference in my life. I inherited my dad’s short temper along with other bad habits. I constantly stop and think of Jenny. My new mantra is : Be Kind ❤
@wendylu6939
6 ай бұрын
Ignore the snotty trolls Kyle. You are doing as well as can be expected because it's just hard as heck to have to go through the loss of your special soul mate. It takes time. Go easy on yourself. Thank you for sharing your most vulnerable moments. We care about you and those sweet little kids of yours. You're a wonderful father. One minute at a time. I think of Jenny all the time now too, as she was so special. She touched many with her sweet ways.
@adunn5173
6 ай бұрын
That’s beautiful, what a beautiful way she touched you. 🙏🏻
@Alice-sz7oq
6 ай бұрын
Kyle: Feelings are not right or wrong,they just are. Take your time, try to read Elizabeth kubler Ross on death and dying it talks a lot about of what u r feeling right now. We are praying for you and the kids.
@Alice-sz7oq
6 ай бұрын
And yes ignore the jerks!!
@suemoo22
6 ай бұрын
@@maryannfarrias7964. That was a stupid remark.
@trulymix
6 ай бұрын
I lost my husband to cancer two years ago. What you describe as the endless loop that plays in your head is so familiar. I, too, wish I could forget the illness and remember only the joys we had. It does get better, Kyle, bit by bit. I wish that for you. I know you will survive this and go on to raise your children beautifully. I wish peace for your heart as you focus on those things.
@margaret4807
6 ай бұрын
AMEN 🙏
@annmusumeci4875
6 ай бұрын
I to lost my husband of lung canser he was my childhood sweet heart I love him so much and miss him we had 3 children 1st was my baby girl 3 years old it was the most devastating thing that could happen to parents .I miss her so bad then we ended up losing our son at 21 years old we could not handle it it was so hard to deal with . Kyle I know how you feel believe me after my husband left me. I still had my son and my sister and my mom well I lost my sister who was my best friend and it was very unexpected she was full of canser I would talk to her everyday and night I would call her when ever I was lost or lonely so I still feel empty then I lost my mom 6 months later .I can't Stand to hear anyone going through this it is the worst thing any one goes through my prayers are with you and your children . I Have people with me but it is still lonely I cannot say I am sorry enough Kyle God bless youband your family younhang in there 💔💔😭
@lnewbury1
6 ай бұрын
Take your time Kyle. We will always be here for you. We love all of you.
@stephanielevitt4270
6 ай бұрын
I was in 3rd grade when my mom died, I didn't want anyone to know. I would only leave the house with my dad on weekends because I thought other kids would think I was a divorced kid. What I didn't realize is I have everything she left for me when she was not. Your strength is immeasurable because of Jenny. You are her joy personified. Carry it, and one day, you will be so proud of YOUR strength. That was a gift from her.
@carolmiller8310
6 ай бұрын
Beautiful words.Stephanie❤
@lisamoroney3036
6 ай бұрын
I get it. I was 8yo when my dad died… I told my friends he was sleeping cuz I felt embarrassed, so it was me and mom until she passed 20yrs ago of breast cancer.
@PS-qn4oz
6 ай бұрын
I was 14 when I lost my mother and even though I was older I can still relate. Many times I would carefully avoid the topic of mothers or parents so no one would ask me anything.
@michellefrench6617
6 ай бұрын
@@PS-qn4oz ❤️
@michellefrench6617
6 ай бұрын
@@lisamoroney3036 ❤️
@sherriblack1570
6 ай бұрын
Kyle, your “realness” is helping so many people in their own grief journey. You and the spirit of Jenny, are making the world a better place.
@PS-qn4oz
6 ай бұрын
So true!
@kimh207
6 ай бұрын
I agree!!
@krobinson9673
6 ай бұрын
100%
@kristenhamilton7062
6 ай бұрын
Kyle, a thought just occurred to me as I listened to you. You repeatedly talk about how perfect of a human being she was/is. No doubt about that. The service really portrayed her as lovely in God’s sight. However, that is not all. Of all the men out there, God chose you to be her husband. You were the only suitable person for her. You two created with God, two more humans to carry on her legacy. It’s a really beautiful story although very painful right now. You are doing all the right things, all the normal things and at a pace that is healthy for you and for your kids. Kudos! Lastly, damn! 5 am and you look that good! Hang in there!
@taubabrown7215
6 ай бұрын
Kyle my husband and I are married 43 yrs and I can’t imagine my life without him. We have 2 daughter , 2 grandaughters grown and 2 great great grandsons age 7 and 11. But with all of them to be here I can’t imagine one of us gone from. The others life. It doesn’t matter how long you have been together. If it’s 22:35 your true love it hurts . I’m sorry you haven’t had more years . But your love is pure and you won’t forget it. Get in that bed you will feel her .
@carolinemole4667
6 ай бұрын
Kyle Dont worry about lack of filming . We understand. Having watched jens service live the best i could, my heart goes out to you and the family.😢❤❤❤❤ you make jen proud every day kyle 💙 i learned when ken died, it comes down to 1 breath at a time.❤❤❤❤
@rmarvel169
6 ай бұрын
I don't think he should ever feel that he HAS to film now. He needs time to grieve. Yes, I know what Jenny wanted, but he needs some time for him & the kids.
@amydelgado8204
6 ай бұрын
He does as he feel Appropriate
@shamimmukadam9859
6 ай бұрын
Kyle take it one day at a time. Grief is hard. It's going to take a long time to heal. Be kind to yourself, you have been the best husband to dear Jenny. She knew that you would miss her this way. It's the deep love that you shared together. But, you will heal. Our prayers and thoughts are with you. Take care 26:06 ❤
@lynmaxwell5268
6 ай бұрын
Jenny is only a breath away..💘
@dianacurry6248
6 ай бұрын
This is the hardest you have been hit trying to get film. Im so very sorry. As your speaking about dropping the ball for appointments and such.i am exactly at that point after my sisters passing. I am afraid to let it out. I'm afraid ill never stop.
@lisap4063
6 ай бұрын
I work in special education one of my fellow teachers lost her husband to long cancer battle. While difficult in many ways to get back into work routine, she said being around "her" students and helping them gave her some joy again. I hope you find the same in some small way. ❤❤
@cumberlandquiltchic1
6 ай бұрын
I think going back to work will be more helpful than you realize. It’s like the children with school, it helps.
@JC-tp5lz
6 ай бұрын
@@cumberlandquiltchic1 Yes, it does help. It distracts you for a while and FORCES a person to focus on something other than their loss. This comment is coming from MULTIPLE experiences with death and dying. It sucks! It's hard! But somehow, by the Grace of God, we get through it, and make it to the other side of our grief so it at least becomes tolerable. I hope it's a speedy journey for you Kyle, but please don't rush it. Take good care of yourself. You and the little ones are so loved! ❤❤❤
@gr8emama
6 ай бұрын
Yeah Kyle you need to get back to a normal routine which includes you going back to work. It’s not just about the money. The kids will be better off as well being in after-care vs “sad dad” all the time. You can’t continue to live off of sad videos the rest of your life. You need normalcy after the past 5 years.
@lisapoore4156
6 ай бұрын
I lost my dad last Aug Kyle he had 4stag lung cancer Kyle I miss my Dad so much . I enjoyed everything.😇🙏😇🙏😇🙏😇🙏😇🙏😇
@lindaking2031
6 ай бұрын
Please don't feel like you are a failure because you are NOT! Praise yourself everyday, and recognize yourself for doing a great job of caring for your family amidst the grief and sorrow. Look in the mirror and hug yourself every day. Take ❤️ and enjoy the beautiful memories.
@lzal9204
6 ай бұрын
The service was beautiful. Thank you for allowing us to be a part of it. Sending you all love. ❤
@heatherscoggins395
6 ай бұрын
Thank you Kyle for letting us be a part of Jenny’s beautiful service ❤❤ continued prayers for you, Flower and the kids 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
@CherokeeBird
6 ай бұрын
I have lost everyone in my immediate family. It caused me to develop PTSD 😢 Its been 6 years now since I lost my last family member. It took me a few years, but now? I can finally smile and laugh at memories, instead of sobbing uncontrollably. You will smile again, laugh again. Roll your eyes at funny goofy memories she left you with. Time heals. Blessings to you ❤
@elisejohnson5708
6 ай бұрын
Anger is one of the stages of grief - it is healthy. The service was beautiful!! I cried the entire time. I am praying for you and yours.
@kwester318
6 ай бұрын
I understand that final feeling after the service. When everyone goes back to their lives, we're still in such deep grief. Praying for you, Kyle.
@bettycesky4947
6 ай бұрын
Anger is part of grief Kyle, normal. Don’t beat yourself up, it’s part of the healing process. God bless you with peace.
@denisseabreu0112
6 ай бұрын
I am continuing to pray for you and your family. Grief has many faces. Remind yourself to Give yourself grace 🙏🏾🥺
@jesseniavargas6969
6 ай бұрын
🥺Aw Kyle not filming in 5 days isn't long at all we understand right now minutes feel like days. Take your time we'll always be here.❤
@jesseniavargas6969
6 ай бұрын
💐🐞🦋🕊
@bethanyb5897
6 ай бұрын
Everyone’s grief is so different , Kyle , however for me (5/9/2016 my late husband passed tragically. I was 38 and had 3 kids - ages 8,10,11) routine was vital to getting back into living some kind of productive life. It was hard as heck, for sure. You got this!!
@avarismimi
6 ай бұрын
❤
@bethanyb5897
6 ай бұрын
Thank you! It’s a very difficult journey, especially now as my second will graduate from Hs in June and bo to college etc. however, I do find talking about him and stories people tell me about Rich help me so much
@kimcollins2050
6 ай бұрын
❤
@msbeecee1
6 ай бұрын
Holy moly I'm so sorry to read this. 😢 may God's grace get u thru...never easy.
@bethanyb5897
6 ай бұрын
TY for those kind words. I just posted bc u want Kyle to know hes not alone. This is the hardest time (IMO). After a month or so, everyone else has to go back to their lives and you are just like now what…. There’s lots of local grief specific to spouse loss for younger folks etc etc.
@nadlerskid
6 ай бұрын
The service was very beautiful, and I know that Jenny was very proud of all of you guys! Thank you for including us!
@kimgamertsfelder1410
6 ай бұрын
I lost my spouse in a very similar way as you did. It does really hit you when everyone goes back to their lives and you are alone. It took time, therapy and some medication for me to accept my new life. It will get better, but it takes time. Eventually those feelings will dull and it will become easier. Reach out to friends and family as often as you need to. I wish you peace in your journey.
@JudyLegere
6 ай бұрын
I have no words to share….i am just here. We are all here holding your hand. ❤❤
@angiewanless6684
6 ай бұрын
Kyle, give yourself grace. Your world was turned upside down. It'll take time. Healing thoughts sent to you and your kids ❤
@kellipopiel
6 ай бұрын
The service was beautiful. She’s smiling. She’s watching over you always. Praying for you all.
@donnabaardsen5372
6 ай бұрын
This is NOT going to help him and the children adjust, believing Jenny is floating and lurking around them all the time. That's especially not good for the children. By all means grieve, BUT Jenny herself said to Kyle about something he said, "It's harder on you. I won't know because I'll be dead." Exactly. She's not coming back, and all three must realize this and adjust. All three must confront the grief, and not use the late Jenny instead, to avoid it. Let's all remember how much she suffered, and be thankful she's not anymore.
@SmilingBeaver-ou7nc
6 ай бұрын
@@donnabaardsen5372 it's a bold, and realistic comment at the same time. Your right fairy tails will not help them go forward. I wish Kyle and the Children the strength to carry on and to begin a new journey.❤
@lindageorge6174
6 ай бұрын
@@donnabaardsen5372Who are you to tell him how to grieve, or how him and his children should feel, and what they should believe! Let them find comfort in believing Jenny's love and energy is still around them!
@Dynan117
6 ай бұрын
It's a rollercoaster. I only wish there was something we could say to help make the ride easier. But you are doing amazingly well and your speech at the service was just incredible. You are a fantastic public speaker. Jenny would have loved it. She is with you every moment. I know a lot of people go to genuine evidence based mediums to connect with loved ones on the other side. I have been watching Suzanne Giesemann's YT channel. Suzanne is an ex Navy Commander. She is so gifted, but she had to practice for a long time to develop her skills. Her step daughter passed away after being struck by lightening while five months pregnant. Suzanne desperately wanted to connect with her on the other side. She's the real deal. Just wanted to mention it. Loads of love from Bonny Scotland
@donnabaardsen5372
6 ай бұрын
@@SmilingBeaver-ou7nc Thank you, Smiling Beaver. Yes, while everyone grieves differently, and in their own time, I can't help but feel for them, especially the children. Imagine being told every day, all day, and believing it, that your dead mother is following you around, floating around; as a bug, flashing lights, pennies on the ground, you name it. That is not healthy for any of them. Again, Jenny herself said to Kyle "It's harder for you, because I'll be dead and won't know." I believe it dishonors her wishes to pretend otherwise. In fact, she also told us to "Don't be mad at Kyle when he's happy and meets someone else." I wish them the strength and courage to move forward in life, and allow sweet Jenny to rest in peace.
@kc8341-
6 ай бұрын
I am so glad that Jennie came to you in your dream. I remember when my younger brother passed away a long time ago, 20 years ago (he was only 32 yrs old). I cried everyday for about the first 3 months, it was very difficult losing him, and I had a really rough time dealing with it. Then he started visiting me in my dreams, quite often, he must have seen that I wasn't coping with the loss of him very well. And the dreams really helped a lot, after awhile it was a little easier to deal with it. I still miss him terribly, and I still cry sometimes, just not as intensely as before. So I prayed and asked Jennie to visit you in your dreams, to help you deal with her passing, cause you needed her help to cope with everything. I hope she visits you often, and if it is anything like what I went through, this might help you better than any therapy session. I really hope that you will find some peace of mind soon, you really do need that. Eventually it will come, and things will be a little easier, time will take care of that, but in the mean time, you will go through hell, I will not lie. Just know a lot of people are praying for you and your children, we care about all of you. 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
@lorrainewilson2031
6 ай бұрын
Kyle the way you honor jenny everyday is something you should be proud of. Everything's still raw and its horrible in the beginning but youll get there . Everyone of jennys followers are behind you and we pray with you. Sending you so much love ❤️
@rhondachaparro8169
6 ай бұрын
Thank you Kyle for inviting us all to Jenny's memorial service... A beautiful service for a beautiful woman. Proverbs 3:5-6 Sending love to you and your family
@rosemarrypolack5708
6 ай бұрын
Hi Kyle, Don't hate on yourself. You lost a beautiful woman, and we see it hurts you so much. It will take time to heal from this devastation. I think that it is good that you open up about your feelings. Jenny was so right about you picking up the camera. She has prepped you well for when she is not here. Her loving nature had the foresight to know what you would go through. I feel sad for you. I am praying to hold you up in all of this❤
@michellelynne1525
6 ай бұрын
My dad just passed away last night and your videos have really helped with the coping process leading up to his passing. This video was very timely and you are helping so many with learning about the grieving process. I’m sure it isn’t easy and I hope you and your family are doing okay. 💕💕
@HuhHowboutThat
6 ай бұрын
Michelle, I'm sorry for your loss. 🙏🏻🤍🤍🤍
@elannathompson8252
6 ай бұрын
Sorry for your loss. My brother died in July on the 26, 2023. I lost my Dad back in 86. It eventually gets easier. Hugs, prayers
@BAN87612
6 ай бұрын
My thoughts and prayers are with you during this grief filled time at the loss of your father. May his memories bring you much needed joy during the toughest times. 🙏🏻
@angelaspencer1960
6 ай бұрын
Condolences to you and your family. It's very hard to grieve your parent. My dad took his last breath in my arms. I know what your going thru. I learned that grief is extremely painfully. My dad's birthday is this Sunday January the 7th. Please pray for me as I pray for you 😢 May God give you grace while being with you on the hardest days, months, and years.
@laurie6332
6 ай бұрын
I am so sorry. Losing someone so close is so very hard. Prayers for peace to you and your family. Kyle really is helping so many who may be going through the same grief. Sharing it with others is also another way to work through it, knowing you are not alone.
@carolinekirkpatrick3497
6 ай бұрын
Grief is fluid, not linear. Some days you will be in a pit of depression and other days will be full of hope like Christmas was. Praying for you, Kyle.
@susanmacatangay4209
6 ай бұрын
I feel your pain. Your face, your voice tells it all. Your grief is immense, and rightfully so. Everyone loves you so much. Jenny was so blessed to have had you in her life. Winnie and Ellis have a super dad to look up. Don't push yourself too hard, but keep going. ❤
@allisonhawkins1989
6 ай бұрын
Kyle you have to give yourself time. You’re trying to everything at once. One day at a time. You have an army of people to lean on.
@mollyjaeger9035
6 ай бұрын
Kyle , my heart is aching . You’re doing such a wonderful job . Jenny is so proud of you and the kids . PS, your dream , JENNY WAS WITH YOU . Give the kids extra hugs . We’re all behind you .
@Kristen10-22
6 ай бұрын
Yep… it’s more of a knowing/feeling dream that’s when u know she was there
@lorileewalters2018
6 ай бұрын
Stop apologizing for that beautiful Flower 🌸, let that baby snore, drink, talk whatever she needs, she misses her momma too, I related to Jenny so much because of her love for animals♥️🐾♥️🐾❣️❣️❣️❣️
@sandrarothwell8310
6 ай бұрын
Talking about it is a good healing tool....keep doing it.Dont allow anyone to tell you that you should stop grieving at any time.We all handle grief differently. Day by day Kyle.Praying for you
@tonikimpel7891
6 ай бұрын
Kyle, my mom has been gone almost 29 yrs ago and I still remember my mom's last day. Grief is extremely hard yet I know you can overcome it. Your children will help you get through it. I was very angry too. It took me years to stop being mad at God. You will heal ❤
@cindywatson4827
6 ай бұрын
Seeing Jenny's radiation mask reminded me of how strong and brave she was and how hard she fought. Such an amazing woman that showed us what beauty and grace are all about.
@lizzynunez4906
6 ай бұрын
Everything that you are feeling is normal, the grieving process usually gets harder after all the services/burial are over and you find yourself alone surrounded by memories of your loved one. Give yourself time, continue your therapy and go to the group sessions, I promise you that the light at the end of the tunnel does exist. God bless you all🙏🕊️💕
@kathimeadows7869
6 ай бұрын
You are doing much better than you think you. Your hands are full with two young children. Just keep going and doing.
@pamelamcmahonpanther4588
6 ай бұрын
Put your music on, don't sit in silence. You are allowed to be angry, sad, tearful. I know we don't talk to you but we are here for you. I am not surprised that you are forgetting appointments. Don't be so hard on yourself. ❤
@Diatom27
6 ай бұрын
We didn’t expect you to film until you were ready, Kyle. Please give yourself grace as you still walk this path of grief and loss. I pray for God’s hands over you and the children and give you strength. The service was a beautiful tribute to your beautiful Jenny. The photographs were beautiful and each person spoke from their heart and just honoured Jenny. Sending you and the children much love ❤️❤️❤️❤️
@ilovemylord9999
6 ай бұрын
I have been reading so many of the posts about this video. Your post is the first one that mentions God. I was really impressed by your post. When you read lots of posts, you may see where they mentioned prayer. But never mentioned God. I believe if Kyle starts to give this all to God, he will start to feel so much better. Kyle is God's child, and God loves him so very much. Now Kyle needs to accept Jesus as his Lord and Savior. Kyle needs to get closer to his heavenly Father and give it all to Jesus. Jesus will never leave us or forsake us in any way. I just hope and pray that Kyle starts to do this for himself and for his children. He needs to spend less time with the camera and more time with God. This is the only way Kyle will get through this about Jenny. Hope you understand what I was trying to put across to you. Again, thank you for mentioning God in your post. God Bless Pastor Mike 🙏
@Diatom27
6 ай бұрын
@@ilovemylord9999 thank you for your comment and, yes, I do understand what you are trying to get across. God is so good all of the time and that I have truly seen during my husband’s colon cancer journey and his quadruple heart bypass, on my own health issues and now my mental health journey. God has been with us in our darkest times. He never fails us if we just listen to that still, small voice of calm. Jesus is our saviour and our way is through Him. God bless you Pastor Mike 🙏🏻
@kelliwillis417
6 ай бұрын
@@ilovemylord9999praise Jesus!! That’s what Kyle needs absolutely positively!!
@ilovemylord9999
6 ай бұрын
@Diatomaceous If you can send me your first name and your husband's first name, I will keep you both in my prayers and will ask others to pray for you both. God loves you both so very much. Just think all of those who accepted Jesus as their Lord and Savior will all be going home soon in a blink of an eye. We will all see Jesus face to face on those golden streets real soon in heaven. I can't wait for this day to come. God Bless 🙏 Pastor Mike 🙏
@Diatom27
6 ай бұрын
@@ilovemylord9999 my husband is Tom and I am Dianna. Thank you for your kindness. God bless and let’s pray for Kyle and the children as they travel this path, that they will come to know peace 🙏🏻🙏🏻
@gwenscott4275
6 ай бұрын
Jenny's memorial was beautiful, so fitting for the beautiful lady she was. Grief is a terrible thing, it takes a long time to come to terms with the loss of a loved one. You're an amazing father and such a caring kind man. Your children are so lucky and blessed to have you help them through their grief and loss of their beautiful, caring Mum. Thinking of you, Ellis and Winnie. Sending love and hugs to you all from Co. Tyrone, N. Ireland. God bless 🤗❤️🙏
@sharonjones4995
6 ай бұрын
Kyle, I hope you are ignoring the hateful channels and comments, it’s so sad that people like that exist, but they do. God bless you, Ellis, Winnie and family. 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻
@starlightdreamer1999
6 ай бұрын
You will honor Jenny everytime you think of her , speak her name and include her in every day conversations . One day you will remember her when she was well and not sick . That is when you will know you are really healing . God Bless you Kyle and your beautiful children 💖
@MustangSally2.0
6 ай бұрын
Such a beautiful service, Kyle. Balled my eyes out the entire time you spoke. We are all here with you every step of the way, whenever you need us. 🐞🐞🐞🐞
@patriciabalfour6194
6 ай бұрын
Time heals all wounds🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
@geraldstamour1312
6 ай бұрын
Kyle, you didn't LOSE your wife, you GAINED a guardian angel to watch over you and yours for all eternity!
@chelseagirl663
6 ай бұрын
Grief can take a year or so to stop physically hurting. You will never stop loving, missing and remembering Jenny but you will eventually feel better Kyle. Keep going.
@debbielibby8036
6 ай бұрын
So true, my partner passed away a year and a half ago. My emptiness now has started to fill in.🙏
@seramburu3594
6 ай бұрын
Remember that video that jenny did with kyle, when she learnt that she had only months to live, she hugged kyle hard and she told us to always remind kyle of that video everytime he tells us he miss his wife, she was so kind she loved him so much, i feel so bad for you kyle, i pray that you find healing and peace❤
@ApostleOfZeus
6 ай бұрын
Beautifully put, thank you
@BAN87612
6 ай бұрын
I hope he sees this comment! ❤
@victoriariley7490
6 ай бұрын
How can I cry for this wonderful man? I don’t know him but feel like Jenny was a good friend and Kyle loved her dearly. I know this pain will subside for him, but I want him to be okay now. It’s a process as so much of us know.I pray for healing for him and he finds all the comfort he needs in their precious,sweet children.❤
@RF1972.
6 ай бұрын
It was beautiful Kyle...thank you so much for inviting us to the service ❤ I know how you feel.... Every area in the town my son grew up in... Is a memory...Everywhere I drive I see him and I hurt .. Kyle, go at your own pace ... Know that I talk to God about you alot . And I will continue... Kyle ... You will be ok.... You will ...
@carolhenry6895
6 ай бұрын
Kyle I think about you and the kids each and every day. What an effect Jenny had on me. On us all really. 🙏
@simplychrista1859
6 ай бұрын
Please allow yourself the grace to feel the feelings you're having and to be who you are right now. 💔
@Lt.852
6 ай бұрын
Today when I went to run an errand before the storm we’re getting hit with tonight, I came upon a red light. There was a yellow Volkswagen Beetle Bug in front of me at the light. You don’t see a lot of those anymore. So I was intrigued checking out the car as I waited for the light to turn green. (Side bar, right before I left my house I had, had KZitem on and an older Jenny video came on and I got all choked up and sad and had a cry just feeling so much emotion over Jenny’s trials and loss. Then the traffic light turned green and I wiped away my tears and started to drive again. As I was still following the yellow Volkswagen Beetle Bug I noticed the license plate and you’ll never believe what it said!! APPLE! Just the word APPLE in all caps!!! That was the license plate!! Tears started streaming … I was shaking I couldn’t believe it. I wanted to tell someone so badly I was freaking out! I had to share this! What are the odds of that?!! WHAT ARE THE ODDS ??!! That’s insane! Kyle I hope you see this and it brings you some comfort. I’m still freaking out about it. WHAT ARE THE ODDS OF THAT HAPPENING?! I was shaking and fumbling through my bag for my phone to take a picture of it but I couldn’t get it in time as the car took off. I’m still blown away tonight by this. It’s akin to finding a needle in a haystack! Over time I came to genuinely love and care for your whole beautiful family. I have prayed and hoped she would come through this. But God had other plans I guess. She truly was an angel on earth. I’m so sorry for this monumental loss to you and your family. I pray eventually someday you can find at least some semblance of healing and peace. 🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀 🥀🥀🥀
@CricketGirrl
6 ай бұрын
That's amazing. I could use her spirit right now myself. ❤
@MandysMeanderings
6 ай бұрын
Oh dear, sweet Kyle. You are doing amazingly well. You are honoring Jenny daily, and you are still managing to get up every day and manage the household after losing your wife. Give yourself a pat on the back and give yourself grace. ❤ reach out to people when you need to. Her service was perfect!! Your speech was beautiful, shes so proud!
@V3ganBr33
6 ай бұрын
So good to see your face. Jenny's service was absolutely amazing and you all made it so amazing! Sending you all love and hugs Kyle ❤
@resaneal9538
6 ай бұрын
🤍🤍🤍🕊🕊🕊🕊 Jenny is flying high. Still in my prayers, you and the kids..
@user-ul6ze8wz1z
6 ай бұрын
Kyle....you are truly an amazing human being. It's obvious that you were the best husband to Jenny...it's obvious you're the best daddy to your beautiful children. Everything you stand for is so apparent and unbelievably awesome. I believe you and Jen were a match made in heaven and one day you both will be that again. Until that time comes, you will do everything in your power to continue to make Jenny proud and her legacy will live on through you and your babies. God bless you all with exactly what you need to move on and may He continue to guide you and give you strength. You are truly one in a million.
@lolitaalmostgrown
6 ай бұрын
You’re lucky to have friends and family that love you. Lean on them right now. I have been going through my own grief journey, but alone. You feel alone, but you are not alone. You are loved.
@user-pc6gt7wq7u
6 ай бұрын
Please don't let Anyone tell you how long to grieve. When my Dad passed away, we had to wait to have his service for 2 months because of winter. Right after we had his service, people tried to tell My Mom and I that it was time to move on and get back to life. All that we felt was void and emptiness inside! It took a Long time to start to feel like we could breathe again. Our thoughts, our prayers, and our hearts are with you Kyle. We all love you and your children!! ❤
@Shoes_Gone
6 ай бұрын
It was a beautiful service. Heart wrenching to say the least. Your family is in my prayers.
@avaa7003
6 ай бұрын
kyle, i don’t know if you’ll ever see this but I want you to know that you are the most amazing person. Jenny is so extremely proud of you. You taught her so much love just like you do with your kids. You are so inspiring and incredible. Stay strong ❤️ So many people love you
@JulieBarnett-qk3ti
6 ай бұрын
Kyle, I know what your feeling. Somehow, you will make it through this. I found when seeing my daughter for the last time, after she had passed, was something that was constantly popping in my head. I was not mad at God either. I felt sorry for her, that this happened to her. So I found that when those thoughts came, I fought them off. I started telling myself to choose Joy. And it will get a little easier. Joy will come.
@JmaDraws
6 ай бұрын
The quiet is soooo hard. I hate that others have to feel how painful the quiet can be. It’s not the same as being able to turn your head and see Jenny sitting there and chat away to her, but maybe find another widow that doesn’t sleep at nights that you can chat with. You’re doing amazing for your children. Keep your head up 💙
@user-hl5yv3uo6h
6 ай бұрын
Jenny’s service was so beautiful and so well done Kyle. I’m so grateful you shared it with all of us. It has been such an honor to get to ‘know’ Jenny. She showed compassion, courage, love and grace through her journey. I truly feel love for her, you, Ellis and Winnie. I have a suggestion for sleeping back in your room. Have the kids help and have a ‘camp out’ night, (anything fun that includes the kids helping). Have snacks, watch the kids favorites, SNUGGLE!! Those precious babies will appreciate sleeping and snuggling where Mama slept and so will you. There is nothing wrong with sleeping with your children, it’s part of healing together, closeness. Know this. We love you all. Prayers ❤
@bribev9562
6 ай бұрын
It’s okay to say you are taking life one step at a time or one breath at a time. When I recently lost my mom, that is what I said instead of saying that I was fine when I wasn’t. You are doing so amazing at two months. Big virtual hugs to you and the kiddos. They are so lucky to have you!
@hennaemaenaen4324
6 ай бұрын
Step by step, Kyle. You're doing so well. Anger and frustration is part of the grieving journey. Its all normal. Just keep in mind how we all admire your strength and how you handle everything. You are the best dad to Winnie and Ellis. Much love from Germany❤
@LovesJESUS
6 ай бұрын
Jenny would have been very proud of her service. You all did an awesome job and I very much appreciate you letting us be there.
@melindaroth5796
6 ай бұрын
REMEMBER TO LIVE, LAUGH, AND LOVE KYLE 😊 JENNY WANTED THAT.😊❤
@Lisa.pizzza
6 ай бұрын
Jenny is with you, Kyle. I can see how much you loved and still love your wife. That love will live on forever.. I can’t imagine the acute utter pain you feel inside. I’m praying for you to find any relief/comfort right now. Jenny will always be with you, just in a different form. Please give yourself grace. ❤
@margaret4807
6 ай бұрын
AMEN 🙏
@sheilademus5252
6 ай бұрын
Oh wow! I took care of my mom for 13 years until she passed. She went through cancer and alzhiemers. She passed at home. I was so sad when she passed. I do not know how she lasted as long as she did in that body. It was riddled by old age and disease. She looked so bad when she passed. A couple days later I had a dream of her. She was young and vibrant and smiling for all she was worth at me. Her hair was a light blond and flowing in huge curls to her shoulders. She had Marilyn Monroe beat. Her eyes were blue and they looked so beautiful. I noticed in her hand what appeared to be a dinner roll. She began to eat it. She was wearing a cheetah print blouse. I woke up from the dream. I am certain God sent me that to let me know she is happy. I was having to go find a place a live since I was living in her home. A few days later I went to fill out a lease for a place to live. They took me to a conference room to fill out the paperwork. And guess what. That room was filled with cheetah decor and the candles were in the exact same print as the cheetah printed blouse my mother was wearing in the dream. I also got approved! I know its hard being separated. But this is only for a moment in the vast amount of time that is ahead of us. This is not forever. Soon we will be reunited with our loved ones who went before us. Stay positive and focus on those babies and making Jenny proud! Is it easy? NO! I raised two kids mostly alone. The father split. But, God was with me every step of the way no matter what came along. You and Jenny share a bond that will never stop. Not even through this temporary separation because of death. We have Jesus. And will be reunited. I believe that dinner roll my mom was eating in the dream was suppose to mean the bread of life. My mom believed in the one that gives us life and through him we are brought back into God's amazing grace! Keep your chin up! This is only temporary and great joy is coming. Its just around the corner! We will be with our loves again FOREVER!
@nurselora681
6 ай бұрын
After my husband died the hardest day was the day after the service. Everyone had gone home and the silence in my house was deafening. I had to leave I packed and took my daughter on vacation to escape the quiet, lonely empty pit of hell. Kyle you will get through it but it’s a long process.
@Slay_slay13
6 ай бұрын
Kyle you are an amazing Dad, don’t ever forget that! I cannot imagine the depth of your pain, I pray for you! ❤
@sandratucker8917
6 ай бұрын
Kyle, everything you’re feeling is understandable. Loss of a loved one is very hard. Jenny was a beautiful person inside and out. You’re not alone. Everyone is here for you. You are doing an amazing job with everything you’re facing. Jenny is always going to be with you in your heart. We’re here for you. It’s gonna take time to heal.
@allisonpeterson2416
6 ай бұрын
Praying for you and the kids. Jenny is so proud of you letting us know how you and the kids are doing. Also for talking about her. I will be sending our rocks out shortly.
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