34:27 this reminded me of my traditionalist Catholic past, I am currently a Unitarian after losing faith in any traditional or "orthodox" interpretation of Christianity (so I am also very much a heretic, I have a great deal of admiration for the late Bishop Shelby Spong and theologically I have more in common with him than most Episcopalians in my experience) but before that I was very much attached to the liturgy that was done before the changes from Vatican II so indeed it was alot of Latin for me. But in a way I was very much legalistic (if I can put it that way) as I had a very narrow view of how ritual and liturgy is supposed to be done but that came out of love for those rituals (at least in my mind) and I left before this incident happened, past me would use it as further confirmation that the liturgical changes were a mistake and it's better to turn the clock back (so in a way I was a ritualistic fundamentalist of sorts, I knew of other Catholics who held similar views). After I left those same rituals lost most if not all their meaning to me (and soon after I fell out of love with the Latin Mass) as my personal theology was having massive shifts and maybe that was one of the reasons why I was left with a void of purpose. Nevertheless I appreciate lectures like this one as I still want to keep some sort of ritual in my life (maybe that's why I've been attracted to Tibetan Buddhism in particular) and have been reading from theologians like Mordechai Kaplan, I'm still technically a religious millennial but I could relate to some of these Episcopalians in being "religious but not spiritual" as I've been suspicious of almost any form of spirituality for a while now (perhaps to not repeat that traumatic loss of meaning I went through). The infant baptism question reminded me that one of the things that made me question my church was finding out, through a then parish friend, that the reason why we had to oppose abortion no matter what was because Augustine said that infants without baptism go straight to hell and to say the least that made me question the goodness of the Christian God. As I type this today is Good Friday and one of the things that the movement I was part of is most infamous for is for keeping the ritual that includes the prayer that asks for the conversion of the Jews (and I did find other aspects of that liturgy that seemed to be anti-Semitic to me as well), maybe that's the dark side of ritual.
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