I hope you're okay. I don't know what you're going through, but maybe professional help is the answer, or talking to a trusted friend about what you are going through. People care about you, even if it may not feel like it at times. Wish you the best.
@isa-shorts8410
8 ай бұрын
My mental health is a mess too ( like the title) I have a girlfriend that I love with my whole life and she loves me like that too. But sometimes I don’t know what’s happening to us because she won’t text me as much as she used to. I am afraid of what she could be thinking in terms of our relationship in a negative way. I just hope we can stay together for a long time.
@kaithlyn_451
8 ай бұрын
@@isa-shorts8410 talk to her ab it
@youngkpopp
7 ай бұрын
my mental health right now can not get worst,I've hit rock bottom. I'm avoiding hanging out,I listen to music no matter what,I feel so overwhelmed all the time every where I am. sleep isn't helping me not feel tired anymore
@lanakat
7 ай бұрын
same I canceled both plans of hanging out with friends this week and all I’m doing is lying in bed listening to sad music and crying except I can’t even cry anymore. And I’m not talking to any of my family my moms been so mad at me and she doesn’t ever understand me anyways sorry for the little vent but if you ever need to talk I’m here
@Q5w7
7 ай бұрын
I am sorry that you're going through this, but you might need a MD and a prozac?
@disablegirl_
7 ай бұрын
I hope the best for u okay? :3
@psychwrd777
7 ай бұрын
me asw. I relapsed a few weeks ago im so sngry all the time, i feel like I'm on the verge of hurting myself again srsly or someone else, I'm experiencing a lot of derealization and i cry so easily i js want to die
@hollster08
7 ай бұрын
i felt exactly the same january to july last year it gets better 💖
@djungelskogL0v3r
9 ай бұрын
honestly I might not make it to 2024 edit: im alive!!! I had no Benadryl to OD on, happy new years folks, we have a renewed life subscription edit #2: thank you to everyone who offered kind words of encouragement and tried to dissuade me from harming myself, I wish you all well and I will be forever grateful for your words ❤️🩹 edit #3: hello! we’re now 5 months into this year and I have begun counseling and started taking antidepressants! much love to you all, I hope yall are doing well 🫶 edit #4: It's three months later and I'm sorry to inform you all, while I am still alive, I have once more ended up in the place that I fought so hard to get out of. I feel like I've failed everyone here more than anything, and for that I am sorry.
@nellarichter981
9 ай бұрын
The world needs people excactly like you. You can do it, I believe in you ❤️
@panda_keychain
9 ай бұрын
Babe zone say that :c I’m here for u k ? Talk to me anytime I’ll give u my disc if u wants
@haruru1529
9 ай бұрын
I love you and your kind heart, please don't give up. If it's getting too much to handle just ask for help, i promise it will get better❤
@jewlsrose8574
9 ай бұрын
I don’t know u but same here I’ll join ya
@tony.macaroni
9 ай бұрын
Me too but here we are, both alive and we can be proud to be still here. You’re strong keep going, you deserve to be alive. Love you stay safe
@thelonleykid2528
9 ай бұрын
Nah man when my mental health hit rock bottom I couldn't even bring myself to listen to music it brought back way to many memories and my music taste has changed completely bc of that
@ejwww4514
8 ай бұрын
real every song reminds me of her
@harpergone
3 ай бұрын
right like all my comfort songs are ruined
@weird_art_kid
9 ай бұрын
Is it bad that I listen to these songs when I’m happy too? They slap.
@soxpbxbblxs
9 ай бұрын
nah i do too tbh😭
@c_zrd4699
9 ай бұрын
it is, but you like it because the way it makes you feel, this feeling is familiar for you
@syrup3586
8 ай бұрын
I have a decent life, I'm happy most of the time lol. But for some reason I prefer to listen to sad songs cause they're so calming and make me relax
@rrasberriie_
8 ай бұрын
@@syrup3586I wish I was you man
@GyaruZL0v3rs
8 ай бұрын
@@rrasberriie_ womp womp
@winstpn.
8 ай бұрын
eyedress, tv girl and Mitski are such good artists
@user-iw8js7ne3d
8 ай бұрын
mac demarco >>>
@ufuji370
3 ай бұрын
@@user-iw8js7ne3d FRR
@ufuji370
3 ай бұрын
YES
@molleybrackney9585
8 ай бұрын
Been struggling with alcoholism for about a year now and I’m drinking right now and clicked on this playlist and immediately started fucking crying . So much nostalgia , hurt and regret but for some reason I feel comfort at the same time listening to this , almost like I just need to let all these emotions out .
@mlpcore
8 ай бұрын
awh honey, its a hard world out there, and sometimes even the things that are the worst for us look appealing when times get tough and we are stuck in that dark place again. one day u will overcome this my love, and that day, u will look back at how far uve come and tell urself u have done enough. u are doing enough even now. acknowledging how u feel and letting it out is the first step to healing. u can do this
@angelinaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
8 ай бұрын
I know its difficult to stop drinking but i promise you can do it my love! You can do this. And if you fail, just keep trying and trying until you fully stop. I know its hard, but i know your strong and can do this
@mariaagainstthewrld
7 ай бұрын
i’m sure you’re a wonderful person , drinking will not fulfill the hole that is in you , take care ma love , u can do anything , Jesus loves you! you’re loved by God! may he bless you 💓
@illeatthat
7 ай бұрын
Rawdogging life without alcohol is true self harm for me. Punishing yourself when theres the magical elixir that just makes everything a touch more bearable, I don't understand how non-alcoholics do it. I really, really don't. There's no point to anything, so I numb myself. I can't be the person I want to be without alcohol, without hurting people in the process. Hurting people is the last thing I want to do, but I hurt people through drinking - but fuck it, nothing matters anyway. My best friend. My first love. My worst enemy. The first relationship where I've actually felt loved in return. Alcohol.
@deathslayer69-fc3gi
7 ай бұрын
pitbulls been there done that. stay strong 🍾 tv girl > alcoholism
@vxhhdj
9 ай бұрын
I felt like crying as these songs reminded me of a friend I met online exactly 4 years ago, who never treated me badly, listened to my problems and was the first person to make me laugh in years, to the point of crying while we both laughed. He was never the type of person to get sad, or at least that's what he implied, Gabriel... I know a lot has changed in your life, i miss you so much
@angelinaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
8 ай бұрын
wait i know a gabriel? do you know where he was from by any chance?
@vxhhdj
8 ай бұрын
@@angelinaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa oh, i just remember spanish was his first language
@deathslayer69-fc3gi
7 ай бұрын
thats my cats name
@brookvzs
9 ай бұрын
TW: bullying. this is also really long but i hope someone will read this. grade 8 started a couple months ago. (im young, i know.) i didnt have many of my friends in my class this year, besides 3 of them. lets call them by their initials, AJ, RC, and AP. we were a really good friend group, a group of 4. sometimes we would be closer as duos, AJ and RC as a duo, and me and AP. that was fine. slowly, another girl (VG) joined the group, kind of replacing me and becoming close with AP. i was still part of the group i guess, but kind of the singled out one. you know, the one who would not have a partner because the duos were always together? yeah. slowly, people began talking about a girl named 'emily'. they said she was a student at our school last year and is now in highschool. they said alot of mean things about her, saying shes annoying and ugly and whatever. alot of people knew about her and it was commonly discussed for some reason. like, every day at lunch. it confused me, why it was such a big deal but i would brush it off. at lunch, RC, VG, AP, my ex boyfriend and some of his friends would sit at a table, talking about emily. they would CALL ME OVER, to come sit with them, so id hear what they said about 'emily'. it went on for a very, very long time. November 4th was AP's birthday. I gave her a gift and a long appreciation letter of how much i love her. November 9th, everything came crashing down. I found out emily was a code name for me. My heart sunk. My best friends had been talking bad about me. It went on for so long. Everything they said raced through my head. keep in mind, this was clearly purposeful. they would call me over to sit with them, so i'd be forced to hear what they said about me. I came home bawling my eyes out. i felt sick and never wanted to set foot in my school again. I didnt belong there. I couldnt be there. My parents obviously contacted the school. the principal started an investigation, and i stayed home for a week while they did so. after alot of investigating, it turned out that RC and VG started this. They got AP on board, along with my ex boyfriend and some of his friends. they were the culprits, but ALOT of people knew about this and didnt tell me. and i mean ALOT. like, almost the whole grade knew without telling me a word. When the main culprits were questioned (RC, VG, AP, ex boyfriend, his friend 1, his friend 2, his friend 3), they admitted to only doing it because they wanted to start drama. The grossest part to me is that they admitted to planning on doing this the WHOLE year, until the very last day of school. They would tell me the truth, and they wouldnt get introuble since we would have then graduated and not technically be students there anymore. It wouldve completely ruined my grade 8 year. I am 13 years old. Ive always been positive. but for the first time in my life, i wish i was dead. Im too scared to comm!t, but i wish i could. Im at my absoloute lowest and i dont even know what to do with myself, after almost 2 months. I have been alone. I never have partners, I sit alone, and Im not me anymore. "Shes so ugly." "Her laugh is so annoying." "Shes embarassing." So much more.. Ive lost my spark. Edit - January 20th, 2024 I'm doing way better guys! Yesterday was my birthday, I just turned 14. I now have the sweetest most affectionate bf who makes me feel so so special. I'm still alone at school but I really am doing better. ❤
@thelonleykid2528
9 ай бұрын
this fr made me tear up. you all are just 13 and already this shit is happening? don't let them get to you, I know they already probably have but you'll get through this. Your spark will come back to you, it may not be the same but I know you'll find happiness eventually. I'm not really good at cheering up people but I seriously am rooting for you and wish you the best. I bet are an amazing person and just hang on, you'll get through this eventually.
@koi1s98
9 ай бұрын
I literally have no words to express how sorry i am, im going throught a "similar" situation that didnt affected me as much but the words that some people said about me resonate in my head. Im homeschooled now, this wasnt the main reason of why i homeschooled but knowing what other people thought about me made less welcome than I already felt in the first place. It's not a big deal, but your situation is very painful. You are incredible, please do not commit suicide, I know how much this situation affects you and you are within your rights, but why be permanently affected by something that is temporary, by a pain that will end at a given moment? School life is cruel. Seriously, it is.
@scatchz
9 ай бұрын
it was even worse for me when i was 13. that’s a really sad age. just want to say it will definitely get better❤. i would not believe these words if someone said them to me six years ago. but the reality is happiness is waiting for you. please don’t take your life or hurt yourself. there are (or will be) people that will make you shine even brighter then before. sending love and hugs 🫂💕
@gmaxx5478
9 ай бұрын
I hope you find real friends who love ❤you for you. Don’t let those scumbags take love from your life.
@helloe5439
4 ай бұрын
im sorry to hear that bro, i hope you get better friends soon
@TheBlondeClikkie21
9 ай бұрын
as someone who struggled with depression and loneliness, i can relate to you deeply. please talk to me if you want. communicating your problem is the first step to healing. know that you are seen, heard, and loved.
@deathslayer69-fc3gi
7 ай бұрын
where did it go
@TheBlondeClikkie21
7 ай бұрын
@@deathslayer69-fc3gi it’s still there. like an injured knee, it healed. but there is still hurt and swelling and pain. exercising it and giving it time to heal is super important, though. even though it still might hurt in the future, you’ll know how to react to it.
@mara4351
5 ай бұрын
I don't think I deserve to heal?
@TheBlondeClikkie21
5 ай бұрын
@@mara4351 i feel you. i struggle with hurting myself. and i thought that one scar didn’t deserve to heal. it needed to be there as a reminder that i took it too far. but. it needed to heal. i needed to learn from my mistakes. i needed to grow. and you can too. you deserve to grow, heal, and learn from the past.
@aboulnilenelly
9 ай бұрын
Since it's new years, I decided to do a recap on everything from January to now. January- a fresh new start. I got back with my ex for a little while but the relationship was toxic. I eventually left and met someone new right after. Coincidence, right? February- School started, lots of courses and extra classes, I got together with that certain someone after a short period of time. Things are going well. I'm balancing my studies, time with friends, loved ones, etc. I went on a fun skiing trip. March- He's getting toxic and is always sexual. I just want actual love. I can't even talk about my feelings without him turning it into something sexual. I hate it. He broke up with me and got with his girl best friend. It's okay, my grades are still up. I'm making my mama proud. I met new friends. They all seem so kind. April- I fought with one of my bestest friends of 6 years. I feel guilty. Why do I feel guilty if it's not my fault? It's fine. I should move on. May- I met someone new again. I got with him. He's so sweet. He actually respects me. That man is such an angel. June- All the pressure is gone. End of school year. I'm still with him. Nothing's changed. July- Went to germany for 2 weeks, met my stepbrothers for the first time. They seem cool. August- Last moments before it starts again. I've been isolated in my room all summer. I have friends, but not FRIENDS FRIENDS. I felt invisible. Every day was a loop. September- There's a new girl. She doesn't seem that trustworthy, though I'll give it a shot. October- Nothing new. Still with him. Going well. November- That new girl bullied me so much to the point I had to get a personal therapist, she didn't get punished at all and just had a conversation with the staff. I'm so fed up. December- Drained. Completely. Just keep smiling. Extras: I'd like to thank my boyfriend of 7 months for being there for me when no one was. He's the only one I can run to and cry on his shoulder. He's the only person who understands me. The only person who never fails to make me laugh. He makes me feel loved. Secured. I know it may sound like I'm some wh0re/h0e because of all the relationships I've had, but I actually have nothing special to talk about this year. I feel like my soul is sucked out of my body. I can't talk to anyone anymore. I can't even vent to my boyfriend, it's not that he's toxic thank God. I've just become shyer. More uptight. This year is definitely something I'll never forget. A year of isolation, severe depression, loneliness, self-hate, self-sabotage, the list goes on. I'm tired of acting like this happy person who has no problems. I'm tired of being the therapist friend. I'm tired of breathing. Of living. It feels like I'm sinking deeper and deeper, each step is wrong. I feel this thing that I can't put in words. It feels like just pressure in my body that's ready for me to puke it out without stopping. I forgot to mention I've also been puking frequently this year. Ironic, right? I've been trying so hard to heal. So. Fucking. Hard. And every time I do, it's for a short period of time. This has made me crave both love and negative emotion at the same time. I just feel.. comfort. I feel comfort in these negative emotions that I just can't explain. I've lost a lot of friends and just a little are left. One or two. Maybe even one and a half. I sometimes wish I could bite my tongue and actually stop. Happy New Year.
@gmaxx5478
9 ай бұрын
I hope it gets better, and that this year’s better, You’ve already put in a world of effort, and you’re stronger than you know, so even if better days don’t fall into your lap, you’ll still be able to grasp them with your own hands
@marylily9532
9 ай бұрын
I'm so proud of you for trying, even if its only for a little bit. I hope you get better, Life can be so hard, I'm glad you have found support with your boyfriend. all of your struggles are valid. Sometimes the Therapist friends need breaks as well, sometimes they need help. I don't always know what to say, or how to comfort people. But I will listen.
@angelinaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
8 ай бұрын
Hey, you dont know me but im so proud of you. You have been through a lot, and Im proud that you chose to keep going! Just ignore bullies, your a good person and dont listen to anything they say. I hope it gets better, and I wish that this year is way better for you! Have a great day and remember if you ever need someone to talk to im here, or you should reach out! You are loved ❤
@Lylaplusaj4life
7 ай бұрын
Like when I was at the hospital because of my suicide(attempt), my mom and dad who hated each other before now get along because of me 1.what the actual fuck 2.I’m happy for them to finally get along but the fact it took me to almost DIE that’s when they start getting along with each other 3. I know it’s all just bullshit,there’s no way my dad JUST NOW puts the past behind him. Why not when I was 5 and I saw you once every 6 months or when you kept telling my how bad my mom was and how he is going to take me away from her or how you found out when she got a new boyfriend you flipped out and hated her even more because of your own shit. I remember being traumatized because E dropped me off at my piano practice and when you came in you were fucking pissed to see E and started yelling and threatening my mom if she doesn’t come right then and there you were going to kidnap me i wish I was never born then it would have never happened my dad wouldn’t have to use me as a threat and my mom wouldn’t have to see my ass every day and I wouldn’t annoy her and she would probably a lot better without me to be honest the fuck. I wish I was 6 feet under the ground and I can just be with God if I even make it to heaven I’m such an ass hole I’m sneaky and annoying I cause so many problems I regret I’m going to hell I’m going to burn and feel the pain I have caused I’m sorry.
@haset332
9 ай бұрын
winter break is ending soon and i could not feel worse i dont want to go to school for any longer even a 2 week break isnt enough for me i hate it sm. being the quiet kid in school is one of the worst experiences ever for me and i thought when hs came maybe id change but i havent. ive unintentionally pushed people away who were trying to be my friend because i was so uncontrollably awkward and it hurts. im gonna go back to sitting alone in lunch everyday because the one girl who was sitting with me found other people to sit with. this is the second time this happened and i dont blame the girls im very appreciative that they gave me a chance but it hurts being reminded how awkward and boring i am when i really just wanna be able to make normal friendships like everyone else. the other day i was eating alone in my own house and my brother recorded me and sent it to his friends without me knowing. then he sent me two screenshots of his friends who i dont even know calling me sad for not going out and weird because most girls go out?? it was so embarrassing i started crying when i saw it my brother has always been really rude but i try not to hate him cause he's my brother but i dont understand why you would just record me without me knowing and send it to people i dont even know for them to judge me. im so tired of my lifestyle ive been so lonely ever since i moved and i hate it i cant control it but im always being judged for it its been nearly 2 years of this and i feel so bad about myself i dont wanna continue living this way
@someone_lmaoo
4 ай бұрын
a long ass vent bc i needed it lmao im only 12 and i feel suicidal, idk why but i feel like theres no point to living anymore and everyone hates me and thinks im annoying. i feel like im not growing the same way as other kids bc alot of kids in my grade are experiencing things that i’ve experienced at 8-10 and that ive gone through more stuff than others, but ive been so scared to tell anyone bc my whole life my parents have been telling me stuff like ‘kids cant have anxiety or any mental illness’ or ‘dont be stupid ur too young for this shit’, so i think telling my parents that im suicidal on top of everything thats been happening to me theyd tell me ‘oh well dont be dramatic ur just a kid’ or ‘ur just going through a phase’. whats really fucking annoying is that i used to have a friend who has anger issues but my mum wants me to be friends w her again and didnt give a single shit about what i was going through just bc shes the one who ‘has problems’ even though she (my friend) beat another one of my friends up way too many times. i just feel like nobody gives a shit about me bc everyone in 6th grade is so self centered omg its driving me insane. like, so what? so what if uve been really tired or stressed lately? dont take it out on me. ive never taken it out on anyone on purpose before. on top of all this, i have shit friends. i got a 60% on a test last week and i started talking to my friends abt it but my friend just told me ‘well last year i got a 20% on a test stop being dramatic’ like, what? i tried venting to you for once and you just tell me that u get worse grades than me? well, good for u for not studying, but like, ive always been pressured to be the ‘perfect, smart’ kid, so ofc a 60% is gonna look bad for me. whats even worse is that she always vents to me abt her problems and even talked shit abt me last year, but all of a sudden, when i vent to her, shes always like ‘well, uhm, i go through worse things than u’ like hold up. wdym worse things lmao i mean, are u suicidal, do u wanna sh but wont for gods sake and do u think abt death, like, every second of ur life? ofc not, so like stfu?? and theres this other friend who istg only cares abt herself. shes always bragging abt how shes better and my moms told me atleast a thousand times that kids at this age are like this, but srs? and then theres a voice in the back of my head telling me everyday ‘theres no point of living anymore just kys’ but i just cant stand to think about kms. i mean, what if i end up surviving the attempt and then everyone’ll think i was doing it for attention? im rlly sorry for typing all this i just wanted to write everything down since i rlly couldnt tell anyone abt my problems, and ik yall are gonna think im dramatic or something so im sorry for commenting this long ass vent edit: ive gotten so much better now even though its still kinda the same. thanks to everyone who replied and gave me advice cause honestly, what mainly helped me was knowing that im not the only one so thank u all so much!! ❤️ edit: it got bad again when i thought i was getting better good lord someone please fucking help me. like, i picked up the courage to tell my friend i was suicidal and she really called me emo. whats really fucked up is that she even joked around with a whole fucking class about me being ‘emo’ and ‘dramatic’ and i had to play with along with it. shes so self centered to the point where she straight up calls me ‘fat’ or ‘ugly’ as a joke when she knows from the moment we’ve met ive been insecure of my weight and looks. i dont know if shes trying to act mature but she will NEVER understand the pain i go through everyday. i spent all of 6th grade skipping classes to cry silently in the bathrooms telling myself ‘why is this happening to me’ and ‘why is life so unfair’. like i really thought that for a week it was getting better only for this to happen, coming back to this comment to vent even more cause NOBODY, except strangers on the internet who actually understand my problems (thanks), will care about my mental health. i kept telling myself over and over again that one day i will find peace but at this point i think the only way ill ever find peace is by ending it all. i was supposed to have a great summer and glow up and shit but i guess not, bc if primary was stressful imagine how secondary will be like. at this point i know that i should leave my friends because theyre the only ones doing this to me without even realizing but they wont let me. they really wont. so what am i supposed to do? i think its quite clear to me that theyre toxic and im better off with another group in my grade which im actually so much more comfortable with but at this point ive told my friends so much stuff about me theyll probably start rumors or whatever bc everyone and i mean every single girl in my grade only cares about gossip, gossip, gossip to the point where ethey dont care if it hurts someone physically and mentally and ive tried to keep it cool but god i just cant anymore. again im sorry for typing so much shit its just my life is so much worse that before idk what to do about it.
@totally_not_asuperstar1
4 ай бұрын
I love you ❤ (from the stranger on the Internet telling u everything is going to be okay).
@someone_lmaoo
4 ай бұрын
@@totally_not_asuperstar1awh thank u 😭
@randomweeb2020
3 ай бұрын
they don't deserve you, please do not try to kys, you're better than that and istg you'll get better
@niki-xv8qr
3 ай бұрын
I love you ❤ you have so many things to live for.
@sevenfrazier1125
3 ай бұрын
Your feelings are completely valid, and honestly I think you need to drop that "friend" because it seems like the only energy she is going to bring into your life is negative!! Your life is worth the effort you put forth within it, stay safe and remember your worth!! 🫶🫶
@hjjjhhgfcb
2 ай бұрын
it isnt a feeling anymore, it is deep down and it hurts. its like someone is squeezes your heart, not soft. Its like someone is trying to squeeze the juice out of your heart and enjoys it, so they squeeze harder. It feels like everything is about to fall apart during the squeezing. but if i do it, everything goes onto my family. i dearly love them but it hurts so much. It feels like the heaviest rock exists fell down onto your heart, loved ones try to pick it up but it is too heavy, so they leave it. i wish someone could ease this feeling. it doesnt go away. it hurts so much.
@Juneybuggie
5 ай бұрын
These types of songs when i was at my lowest give sm memories back
@flamoof7255
8 ай бұрын
Been struggling with sh and mental abuse and all kinds of things for my whole life. Thanks for making this playlist random stranger
@soxpbxbblxs
7 ай бұрын
ofc man. hope everything goes well.
@qtpatootie777
9 ай бұрын
the worst part about me is i can have everything i need or want in a boy and i'll still feel lonely or depressed. I'm currently in a relationship with a boy and i seriously don't know how to tell him that i'm not doing okay. idk how to tell them that i can't call or talk to him about anything because all i do everyday is sit in my bed and cry. he makes me so insanely happy but i just can't keep going to him for the happiness i need to survive. i've really been thinking of hurting myself in some way and i've even talked with my parents about it. I have a good support system but the more i continue to live the stronger my emotions get and i just don't feel like waiting any longer on this earth. I sound so selfish. I have a loving mom and a loving stepfather and loving siblings and a loving boyfriend yet i still can't seem to find a reason to live. I just want to cry till i rot and die, but i can't. i need to take care of everyone and feel bad and feel this and feel that but i can't. i don't seem to feel anything. i just want to learn how to love the things around me and i've tried. but i'm seriously at my limit. - Audrey 2023, 12/29/23
@iliminate581
9 ай бұрын
Im glad this popped up, I've been feeling so... Weirdly sad. I feel like so slugglish right now. I hate winter, it is just so, cold of emotions for me. I've been feeling so upset even without school, with my break, I have nothing to so I've been just lying in bed feeling useless. I like the bright summers better even if it's extremely hot, it's where i have the best memories.
@iliminate581
9 ай бұрын
I know I'm kind of venting here, but recently, I got into a new relationship with someone, during the fall, everything was great and new and I got to see him often and be with him, as time passes onto weeks, I feel some disconnection between us, he says he doesn't feel it and says we are doing well in it. I get to spend less time with him and he's always busy, but I'll be patient, no matter my overthinking, I overthink a lot to where it affects me, it makes me cry and think such extreme. But then I'm fine 10 minutes after. I know this is a lot to read but I feel so depressed and stuffy today, I know I can change my attitude or how I feel, I can be happy if I like to, I just like feeling this sad emotion. I know this is a lot of text, this is just my own personal thing. I just wish things will change for the good, I can't take it like this anymore.
@iliminate581
9 ай бұрын
Now the thing is, I feel better now and my mind isn't in a sad mood, it wants to do something else besides be sad, it's strange, like am I supposed to be better? It feels weird that I'm not staying in this sadness for long. But all it takes to feel better is just a few minutes to express my emotions
@misskoboyashi2595
9 ай бұрын
You just described my whole situation as well i understand these feelings too,who would have thought lives could be so similar@@iliminate581
@glorpknorp
9 ай бұрын
just been so tired lately, ive been in this slump for awhile and I dont think I can get out of it this time. Ive attempted and failed to kms three times, I feel just so unmotivated to do anything at all, im losing interest in people and things I used to take comfort in as well as life in general, I have this constant feeling of emptiness. the only way I found to avoid this is getting high, which I cant even do anymore because im broke ash and if my mom caught me doing it she would probably kill me.
@glorpknorp
9 ай бұрын
I know it doesnt seem like a lot but its really been fucking with me lately, and adding to that I feel like the people im closest to dont really like me and dont want to be my friend anymore and are just keeping me around for pitys sake
@violetd333
9 ай бұрын
Hii i hope you are feeling a bit better even though it has only been 4 hours since you wrote this comment lol. Ive been in your shoes when i was younger and i would suggest u to spend more time with your friends and ask them to hang out even tho you feel like they dont like u that much. At the end of the day who knows you may have a lot of fun and your friendships will improvee. Anyway dont smoke too much because its draying your money xdd I hope u and your family have an amazing 2024!!
@NoMoreExist
5 ай бұрын
hey, hope you're doing better now. ik im just a stranger on internet but i felt bad for u. i understand the feeling of emptyness. i became better by writing my feelings and goals (which i thought i didn't have at the time) in my journal, i set a goal to improve my life, and it did improve. the little things help, if you still need it or will need it in the future, have this suggestion as an option.
@gwen6164
8 ай бұрын
its always mitski, tv girl and eyedress. they're always together at times like this
@pudding4131
9 ай бұрын
(this is a vent, read if you'd like :)) ive had a serious of points in my life since 6th grade i think where i fall into a deep depression for weeks on end, im not able to get a real diagnosis unfortunately, because my parents don't really see it the way i do. but aside from that it's back again, and i relapsed a day ago after 4 months of being clean from self-harm. i feel so drained, but i try to not let it stop me from hanging out with my friends when i can. everything is so tiring. i don't think i wanna make it past my early 20's, but at the same time i wanna have a life when im older. im 15 right now, so you could argue that i have my whole life ahead of me, but to me it feels like im running out of time everyday. everyday i waste being at home only makes things worse sometimes. i feel so lost in my life right now, and i know it'll pass again. and it might all just be bc i may have undiagnosed clinical depression (thats what all my symptoms are leaning towards), and it not being paid attention to makes it so much harder. with the amount of times ive tried to reach out and save myself im just so done trying to explain everything, because things build up and theres always more to say. anyways thanks for reading all of this, i hope things r going well for u :)
@pudding4131
9 ай бұрын
i agree@@0pal_glasses
@diclereyhanakdemir6128
4 ай бұрын
hey i feel like we are the same person. I am 15 too and 6th grade was literally my downfall. you described my situation so perfectly. If this makes you feel any better, you are not alone.
@Euphoric_ghoul
7 ай бұрын
uagh. my grades are awful. I cant motivate myself to get out of bed in the morning or do my work. I feel so bad
@InayaHassan-u1e
4 ай бұрын
I feel you. Try some motivational videos and a routine
@rafaelaalbuquerquecampos8149
7 ай бұрын
I wonder if people really care for me…everyone on the school is always talking about going to college, building a family, they all seem to have a bright future ahead but I wonder if I’ll have a bright future, if I’ll even have a future, I’m tired about everything, I almost can’t get up from bed in the morning, but for some reason I still avoid asking for help, there must be something wrong with me…
@InayaHassan-u1e
4 ай бұрын
it's totally okay to feel like that. There's nothing wrong with you. We all feel unmotivated sometimes, and it's okay. Enjoy the present
@sobekmania
9 ай бұрын
This is off-topic, but thank you for using this picture. I was trying to find motivation to sketch, and when I stumbled upon this playlist, I found the image to be a good reference. Thank you, and happy new year.
@jelly-cat-
9 ай бұрын
I dont know if its cruel to say, but when i kms i hope someone is holding my hand so i dont die alone.
@glichedslice
9 ай бұрын
You have wake up..you have to be seen you can't give up on yourself, you don't deserve any of what's happening to you will you really give up..you never know what your going to be in the future. All the biggest stars in history started off a rough life...
@konzi74
2 ай бұрын
Someone reading this, dont give up
@waiting-sb8xn
5 күн бұрын
the feeling of not wanting to vent because other ppl have worse problems than you have
@coringareverso
7 ай бұрын
how life has been feeling lately
@Thewizardzara
5 ай бұрын
Fucked up tbh
@Ethanjustcuz
9 ай бұрын
i dont know if its intentional or not but i find it neat that the first song here is "girl of my dreams", and the picture of the girl on the screen, commonly known among tv girl fans as the band's logo, is called "dream girl"
@xoblissblox
9 ай бұрын
not even struggling rn, these songs just slap 🎉 reminiscing on the times it almost worked though… I would not have experienced some amazing things.
@WallySnarling
8 ай бұрын
Same!
@ErRor_UsErn0tf0unD
4 ай бұрын
Hey yall, just wanna let you know that: everything will be okay. Things will get better, you are loved. Don’t give up, you can do this. If you’ve self-harmed in the past, or just a few minutes ago.. that’s fine! We all have difficulty’s. I’m still proud of you for getting through this. I love you, have a wonderful day
@zuzanakotrasova
9 ай бұрын
idk how to feel rn, yesterday i texted to most important people in my life and tell em that it end, and that i love em. i didnt do anything, bc my bsf saved me, shes such an angel!! but my moms still mad at me fr, soo yeah.
@journalmelancholy
6 ай бұрын
it’s really weird right now. i’ve been really close with someone for a couple years, as friends, then it was more for a while, until they just went cold on me because it wasn’t that special anymore, it meant less, after i gave all i could and would’ve given more (i wasn’t told that until months later, i was only pushed away). as of recent i found out there was someone else, in the time that they were growing more distant from me. that someone is still around, still being picked over me yet im the most special person to them, or so they say. i care about them and so i don’t wanna get in the way of their happiness, still they keep me around and i just watch.
@rvaosi
9 ай бұрын
Im afraid of people. So much that making a friend leaves me shivers and my hands stone cold, with a crazy heart beat and sweaty armpits and its not even because i'm afraid they will hurt me, but because im afraid i'll do a mistake and they won't want to be friends with me. I've been rewriting this comment even for the fourth time because i can't guess what people would judge. I have a high level of empathy, too much even as i was told. My mood accords to the other people, how they are feeling, and i feel greater happiness by things happening to others. Im good at understanding how someone feels. But i can't empathize the way people judge, because everyone judges everything so much, unreasonably. The way someone talks, walks, laughs, i just can't understand. The dangerous side of the human mind now it is to me and i literally shake in front of it. So over time i got more and more anxious about what i said that at the end i was not able to talk at all. My biggest dream is to have a friend group. Friends, people matter so much to me. In ways that will take paragraphs for me to explain that i will delete all over again. I've had friends, but i never had a friend group. When i will get a chance to have it i will start getting dizzy, not sure what to do, what i do is lovable or what i do would be not. Like a little anxious cycle of continuous adrenaline. When i dont have one, i'll feel content as usual, but only when i talk to someone i will realize that i've been feeling miserably lonely. Its a cycle i cant get rid of and im honestly so tired of suffering from absence of something everyone so easily has when its the most precious thing to me of all. Im not good at venting and im dont want to bother anyone with my helpless mess. I usually just toss around in youtube and leave comments about how we should be kinder to eachother. But today i had a chance, i was left trying to breath steadily again and i got no one i trusted to talk to so i just opened up here. To feel heard atleast maybe. I am sure i will get in one in future, especially in university but not knowing it scares me. Because people like entertaining people as friends. Afraid people aren't entertaining. They're troublesome. I just wish everyone was kinder to eachother. If then i could've took a big steady breath surrounded by my friends, laughing and saying the first thing that comes to my mind without thinking it over for hours.
@Crummibasil
9 ай бұрын
THATS HOW I FEEL ❤
@playlistmaker994
9 ай бұрын
I started university a few months ago. My friends there are the kindest, most wonderful people I've ever met. You will make a friend one day, until then just try and remember that there are good people out there, and as long as you're also one of those good people you'll find them eventually
@sleepy5192
9 ай бұрын
my heart goes out to you, im just the same and that’s not to make you feel invalidated in any way, but I understand you completely because I honestly felt like I was the only person who felt this way and lived this way. what you wrote about only understanding how lonely you are when you’re with people, im sorry you know the way that feels because it’s so disgustingly painful, and so lonely because you never realise how much you’ve missed, things that everyone else has and is so used to and comes so naturally and it feels like they’re all in on a joke you’re not aware of and so you distance yourself. you have more kindness and love in your finger than some people have in their whole body, you’re so so precious and beautiful, please don’t forget that, even if you don’t feel that way at times. my story is that i moved countries when i was nine and the cultural differences and stigmatism made it so hard for me to ‘fit in’ and find my crowd of people, i didn’t realise how much i shrunk into a shell of myself and grew mentally until last year october when i moved back to my home country and i was back in my hometown where i knew everyone but also didn’t and no one had fixed ideas of me and people saw me for me. only when I was surrounded by people my age did I understand how much I had suffered, and it’s not that I wasn’t aware of how depressed or in pain I was for those five years I spent alone, it hurt because I didn’t think id live to sixteen years old and maybe im getting off topic but this is raw and like your vent it’s incredibly condensed because words are futile devices when it comes to what we feel. i think what i want to say is that nothing lasts forever, i promise you if it feels like the end it’s just a beginning of something new, people can be so lovely and imperfect and the love you deserve exists because you exist, your wants are so simple and it makes me cry because you are deserving of everything good in the world, not a lot of people don’t deserve this. keep waking up, have courage, and be kind to yourself and others because nothing else really matters. like the other comment mentioned, you will find your people I promise so please stay to meet them, because they love you and care about you, you lovable person. look after yourself my heart, you are so precious
@sleepy5192
9 ай бұрын
im a stranger to you, but if you ever want to talk about anything I’ll do my best to reply to you, offer advice or listen. you are so loved by me
@playlistmaker994
9 ай бұрын
@@sleepy5192 I know your comment was directed towards the person who posted the comment but you seem like such a genuine and good person
@cheesecrackerconsumer2766
8 ай бұрын
I really feel like my peers hate me Recently, I've just been noticing that a lot of my peers have been responding to me so negatively or just not responding at all. I really understand why, I find myself annoying, too. I'm not the best person out there, but I'm not really decent either. I lash out at people for the smallest of things, I'm blunt about everything, I don't get jokes that easily, I insult people anytime I can. I'm horrible. I try my best to understand people the best way I can, I try to compliment them in more subtle ways, I try to apologize by giving them gifts or food (I can't communicate verbally, I usually say the wrong things), and I always try to give advice that I know; focus on yourself, don't let people's words cut through you. Maybe it's bad advice since it kind of sounds..
@cheesecrackerconsumer2766
8 ай бұрын
.. narcissistic, but that's just me. Am I narcissistic? I'm not sure myself. I'm not confident, but I think really highly of myself. I'm kind of pretty and nice, but I don't think my worth is even of an average human. I'm pretty sure I'm just horrible. Also, the fact that my class vice president, the kindest and most understanding person I know, ignores me a lot of the time says a lot. Am I seriously THAT unlikable? I hope not. I really hope not because I still want to have actual friends,not people who hate me and just pretend to be friends with me for benefits or out of guilt. I feel like my own partner hates me, too. He tells me that he loves me, and that I'm deserving of his love, but am I really? I mean, I'm mean to my own best friend, imagine what I am to him. When I get mad at other people and get into a sour mood, I just say mean or rude stuff to anyone, including him. I think my adviser hates me, too. She always looks annoyed when I talk to her, but she looks so happy talking to my other classmates. Sometimes I wonder why I was even born when I'll just make people hate me so much. I'm annoying everyone. This whole rant is probably annoying, too. I feel like I'm acting too self-centered, maybe I am self-centered. No, I actually AM self-centered. Why am I expecting that people will just act according to what I want? I'm not the main character, no one is. We're all just side characters to each other and we even view ourselves as background characters sometimes whenever we feel like our worth is nonexistent. Right? Not sure. Don't know. Really confused. I know people talk about me behind my back. No wait, I DON'T know, I just assume they talk about me behind my back. Earlier, when I told my Vice President to tell my other classmates to stop playing with the balloons (I'm horrified by balloons) and that I know they're playing with the balloons because I can see their reflection on the whiteboard, I heard them reply with "It won't even pop!" or asking their friend "Can you see me on the whiteboard?" and I feel like they're just annoyed with what I just requested. My teacher already got mad at us this Year's End Party because I had a panic attack when the balloons started popping so she told us to not use balloons in the future ever again, so I asked my President to not use those rubber balloons and instead use the aluminum ones. He didn't listen and went on with the plan and whoops! I had another panic attack while my teacher was yelling at the whole class when two of the balloons popped. My makeup was really ruined so I looked so ugly while crying. The worst thing about all of this isn't my panic attack, but the fact that the class officers, mostly my president and his friends, kind of made fun of me and played with the balloons more until all of them had popped. I really hated that since I trusted them so much. I actually looked up to them because they seemed fun and smart, but they were only mean and careless of others. I don't understand how people aren't considerate of what their peers are afraid of, more so, what they have trauma of. Speaking of trauma, I remember that ever since last school year, my president kept bringing up my past relationship with my ex (who SA'd me) and he was all so happy about it even though I already told him to stop bringing it up to me. I couldn't care less if he gossiped about the whole situation with someone else, just as long as he doesn't talk to me about it then I'll be fine. I really shouldn't be ranting like this to the internet but at this point I'm feeling way too low on worth to even give myself the decency of being the slightest bit private about my life.
@cheesecrackerconsumer2766
8 ай бұрын
I'm such a horrible, self-centered, insecure, way too angry, overtly anxious, really annoying, angsty person.
@mara4351
5 ай бұрын
I feel the same I try to be funny but my people don't get my jokes I say every thing that comes to my mind which can very stupid I'm too sensitive and everything overwhelms me i don't how to say the right thing at the right time i don't how to stand up for myself i used to be very good at school every thing was easy now i force myself to study I hate my peers who have better grades than me i hope i can have strength cause I have a dream to follow but stress is making me weak I get I'll just because I worry too much I worry about the future and whether my career choices are bad I'm so reliant on people's opinions I cant live without praise I think this is what makes me so miserable I just want to live the now and believe in my self worth
@averagejojofanwatcher
3 ай бұрын
You opened my eyes for people who act like you, I suggest finding a trust friend to open this up to and realize where you go wrong and hurt others and how you can slowly change it
@idontwannabethisway
Ай бұрын
i hate love ,it is endless loop of meeting, fall in love, pushing them away and feel guity why cant i just stop falling in love, it so stupid but i cant help from fell harder and harder each time thinking of those memory i wanna bury it deep deep underneath those cold dirt but will soon realize when it rain it will come back from where it buried
@intr0vertz817
7 ай бұрын
i hate being burnt out in sports. i used to be one of the best athletes in the state, and now i can barely even make finals every meet. but even when i do make finals, i question why im even doing it. all i think about is getting through it, i dont even think about why im even doing this sport anymore. its ruined the way i see things, ruining the way i see myself. ive been contemplating to stop eating because lighter = faster, right? i always look in group pictures and think about how fat i look, even when everyone tells me im just average weight. i havent made the podium in years, and i hate it that im not first. it makes me feel like im not good enough. i have to train for more than 4 hours every day, but i hate every second of it. ive been hanging on for the past year because the team needs me, but im just the background player. someone they need but never pay attention to. every day training is so hard, i feel like throwing up often. im starting to think the only way to make it stop is to just end it all. i cant quit because ill feel like a disappointment but i can’t continue doing it anymore. i hate how everyone always mentions how good i am and that i can get into d1 college for my sport because i dont feel good enough. i hate waking up every day knowing i have to go through life. i hate waking up knowing that im me. and i hate opening up to people because i feel so pathetic and weak.
@Bettymora7
4 ай бұрын
Im sorry. Im sorry that i wasnt the girl that you had mom, im sorry that i wasnt giving you much attention im sorry that i never listen to what you told me to do im sos sorry i was acting this way… i never want to act like this….? I tried so hard to try and change myself. I hated how i never kept my promise with you. I hate how stupid ive been doing.. im trying my best to be the better version of myself im sorry.. mom, you know i love you and always have been you have a part of my heart. Im sorry… 8:26
@aeonian.x
6 ай бұрын
I had this boy that had liked me for so long, he even confessed his feelings towards me multiple times, and I rejected him every single time but we had agreed to stay friends since we have been close for a very long time now. over time he has began to get more distant but I eventually found myself falling for him. I then found out that he had started dating one of my friends that he hasn't even know for that long, my friend had told the boy to stop talking to me and that obviously hurt me because ive known the boy for so long and that he stopped talking to me because some girl he hasn't even known for that long told him so. They seem really happy together tho and im happy he moved on. (not)
@brooklynpope7203
6 ай бұрын
my menatl health has never been worse. im on meds for it and i lost all of my friends and i feel all alone...i even lost my best friend bc of my parents.
@emilyiscool444
5 ай бұрын
i am probably in one of the worst depressive episodes in my entire life right now. im 16 years old, turning 17 in september. its almost the end of my sophomore year of high school, and honestly im suprised ive even made it this far. i had just recently gotten out of one of the best relationships ive ever had. i actually felt alive for the first time in life when i was with him. now its all gone. he left me 2 weeks ago and im still not recovered. my parents would be so devastated if i left, my dad has already lost a child once before. i know i have people who love me, i don't really feel alone, but i just want it to end. i dont feel real anymore. i just want to lay and exist and do nothing. i cant even recognize myself in the mirror anymore. im scared if things dont change soon, i wont make it to 18.
@bill1e.b
5 ай бұрын
I hope you’re doing okay right now. I hope you know that you are heard by a lot of people ❤ Keep going on, you’re doing great.
@zeyzeydim
7 ай бұрын
i miss him so much. he was my everything yet i was nothing to him. he used me as a distraction from his ex. now he got a new gf. he treats her like i wanted to get treated by him. i love him so much man
@InayaHassan-u1e
4 ай бұрын
im so sorry mh. You don't deserve being treated like that at all. Hope you find someone who gives you the same spark🤍
@zeyzeydim
4 ай бұрын
@@InayaHassan-u1e heyy, thank u sm for this, this means so much to me. i met the perfect boy for me who makes me feel like a happy little girl again. love u xx💞
@EMRYH
7 ай бұрын
My mental health is so bad rn, I feel terrible. I’ve always grown up in a toxic household but as soon as I come home happy I get depressed because I have to remember my sister left me, my parents just want somthing to scream at me for. It’s just so depressing, I was laughing at church I was happy nothing hurt but as soon as I saw her face it broke me completely, that she hates me.
@EMRYH
7 ай бұрын
Wrote this quick bc I want to go outside
@frskkZ666
9 ай бұрын
I can’t thug it out no more yall why am I unable to keep stable connections without them drifting apart like damn am I the problem (probably) 🗣️🗣️🗣️
@iLUVIZUKU
7 ай бұрын
i am once again at my lowest. and im doing nothing to fix it. i fucked up so hard. i once again fell into the hole that i fought so hard to get out of. im not even sure if my friends even like me anymore, im draining out my parents. im just complaining and im doing nothing to fix it. im stupid, lazy and a crybaby. im the problem so dont even try to tell me otherwise. i dont know where it all went downhill for my happiness, i was a naturally happy kid and now i just fell empty, my mood has weird swing and i dont know why. i just fell lost and i dont know why. my friendship with them just doesent fell the same anymore. im not a social person either so its hard for me to talk to ppl. its so weird and wrong because i have parents who love me, and a 4 friends but i had problem with the other two and i dont know if or friendship will ever be the same after what ive done to them. even those two girls tried to fix me but i just wouldnt listen and now it finally hit me. i am so problematic and its almost like im meant to die lazy and unhappt. i just want to end it all because i am the pure example of lmost every deadly sin and i hate it. i dont know if ill ever heal but i hope everything would get better for me. i just jope ill heal and become a new pearson. there is no point in trying to make me think otherwise bcs ik im the problem so dont even try. but comort is appreciated
@spiralcassete
9 ай бұрын
love this playlist, hope your doing okay ♥
@alwaysmyfault00
9 ай бұрын
Thanks, I hope you're doing alright too :)
@yasuyasuyasuyasuyasuyasu
3 ай бұрын
I just feel.... overwhelmed and tired. My mental health is at rock bottom. I can never forget how it all started in the first place. I've had mentally and physically abusive parents (who were dealing with a lot).. failed at love so many times, been cheated on and when I thought things couldn't get better, my bestfriend of 8 years left me..., Hell, I'm just 18 now... Still hopeful that someday I'll find peace with others and myself...
@Lxovergirl
8 ай бұрын
Surprised I made it to 2024, I’m so proud of everyone that did
@ndinayakasita7464
8 ай бұрын
😊
@Literally_Phantom
3 ай бұрын
I shouldn’t feel like this at 13, I don’t think I’m going to make it to graduation. I’m tired of being told I’m dramatic, or that I’m gross for not having the energy to get out of my bed and take care of myself. My own mother would call me gross if she knew how long it’s been since I brushed my teeth. I’m a kid, I should be doing kid things, why do I have to be so sad, and I’m getting mad at people and my mom thinks I hate her because I get mad at her the most and I just feel so awful. I’m so tired. I’m sorry mama. I’m sorry for not being the perfect little girl for you. I’m sorry I’m a tomboy. I’m sorry I’m questioning everything, my gender, my will to live, my choices. I’m sorry I’m so so so sorry. I’m sorry you won’t see your little girl graduate, I’m sorry you won’t see your little girl happy again. I’m sorry.
@saunalover
8 ай бұрын
recently my best friend and I haven't been in touch as much. she's always been incredibly kind to me and treated me like a real person when nobody else did. recently, she found someone special to her, and understandably, our communication has had a few holes in it, but instead of being up-front about this new relationship with me, she blocked me. prior to me knowing about this relationship, i would text her and get left on open a lot, and eventually she said i didn't respect her enough and she cut ties. i'm so happy and thrilled for her relationship, but it hurts that she chose to cut ties without being honest with me lastly, i feel like an asshole about this entire situation like it's my fault, i have this guilt about it on my shoulders, no matter how many friends have told me it isn't my fault, i still feel it is
@Xoxokat13
7 ай бұрын
STOP THATS THE REAL TV GIRL
@bixodomatokksk
8 ай бұрын
'it almost worked' by tv girl actually made me tear up. thank you so much for this playlist.
@soxpbxbblxs
7 ай бұрын
ofc
@stantxtandenhypen4466
7 ай бұрын
it feels so tiring to hangout with my trio in school, they never listen to my problems, but i do, it's always me who's wrong but when it's them doing something wrong they just say sorry and do it again, i wanna leave but they wont let me, like tf? If you're not gonna listen to me then what am i in the friendgroup? Bullshit
@OkabeRinataro-id8du
7 ай бұрын
I don't wanna do this anymore
@ashleyproducctions8780
3 ай бұрын
i just wanna be a kid again. growing up is so painful
@elliemilktea
7 ай бұрын
everyday i just feel like im going through the motions. I feel numb since my 3 year relationship ended. Our story is so complicated and we both hurt each other but I miss him every damn day. Anywhere I go I have memories of us together and its like it takes me back to that time. I try to reach for him when he is no longer there. I get high just to feel the ghost of his presence. i miss my boy so much. After only two month of no contact he got a new girlfriend. a girl that was a part of his friend group while I was away. He cut me off completely and now acts like we didnt even exist. He gets to move on and here I am every single goddamn day trying to pick up the pieces. I try and try everyday to feel better but im always brought back to the sadness. The memories dont stop and i feel hopeless. did he ever love me as much as i loved him. were all the love letters lies. i drove him away and i just wish i could hug him one last time.
@aonoaono1524
7 ай бұрын
I really do hate my life, every day I wish I was dead but I haven’t been able to kill my self yet for I fear death, I don’t deserve anything but to rot away and suffer, I should have never open up to my therapist, ever since I did I got worse and worser, I want to die my grades are worser and I fear that I’ll fail school, am sorry mom am sorry everyone I am such a failure, I made it to 15 but I don’t think I can make it to 16…
@Mietterinaluisa
6 ай бұрын
You dont deserve ANYTHING like this.. you DONT deserve to die tell that urself please just keep trying Please it's gonna hurt and not just you I swear just keep trying
@rachel_1208
9 ай бұрын
i was doing so good, everything was fine. or maybe i had just gotten so good at pushing it down that it seemed like it was good again. why can't i be good again? i'm supposed to be the "good kid," not making my mom worry. i can't do this. why did i relapse? why can't i be better again? how do i tell her i want to go to therapy without making her worry, or without getting a lecture. i don't know what to do anymore. i don't know how much longer i can hang on. i don't know who to talk to. i feel like i'm just going to worry everyone, and i can't do that. why can't i tell anyone without feeling guilty? i don't want to feel like this anymore, make it stop. please.
@marylily9532
9 ай бұрын
I hope everyone here is doing good
@apricate
9 ай бұрын
i hope you’re doing well too!! :D i really needed this inspiration thank you so much 💖 recently, I’ve felt like sleep is all that i can do and i ate little to nothing today. I’m trying to get better with motivating myself and it’s difficult :/ if you need to talk I’m here as well :)
@marylily9532
9 ай бұрын
@@apricate It's hard, but trying is the first step you need to take. Even just attempting to do something, is better than nothing
@apricate
9 ай бұрын
@@marylily9532 thank you so much for everything
@marylily9532
9 ай бұрын
@@apricate Im so glad that i've helped, even just a little
@apricate
8 ай бұрын
@@marylily9532 you too!!! :) ✨
@GachaZ423
7 ай бұрын
sometimes I wonder if i really do have trauma.. but it doesn't make me pass out.
@SKZKT
8 ай бұрын
i don’t know what’s wrong with me anymore.. i go weeks of major low moods where all i want is to not be here, i don’t eat or get out of bed or socialise. But then the next week i’ll be so happy, loving life and forgetting about everything but my happiness. I hyper-fixate on my happiness and i don’t sleep then either because i’m too fixated on these happy feelings over nothing.. it’s quite scary how drastic these swings are getting and i’m starting to only run on only 2 hours sleep every other night
@InayaHassan-u1e
4 ай бұрын
9:34 "you don't know how long I could stare into your picture and wish that it was me.."
@joe.mama.0
9 ай бұрын
I dont believe I'll live until Im 17
@boneitch
6 ай бұрын
I hope you'll still here. The best is yet to come. Just wait
@jacklack4213
2 ай бұрын
it just feels like all the days are blending together and i can't talk to anyone about the mistakes i made
@Vdxxty
4 ай бұрын
i ain’t makin it to 8th grade.
@Marrrr_444
4 ай бұрын
Girl same
@Baobabguy
4 ай бұрын
Funny
@P3pperM1nt
3 ай бұрын
Me neither man
@Nellivelli
3 ай бұрын
Youre worth living please.. Dont ki// yourself:( everythings gonna be alright i promise❤
@KURO_TheAlien
3 ай бұрын
Man me too
@Ornithopter7186
9 ай бұрын
the threat of getting sent back to day treatment is constantly hanging over my head like an axe
@Isa-ji7wx
8 ай бұрын
Eu sinto q nunca vou ser qualificado o suficiente, nunca vou ser bom o suficiente, nunca vou ser alguém e no final de tudo vou morrer sozinho, desde da minha tentativa tentam me tratar bem mas é um bem tão falso... é uma coisa tão ruim de se sentir, ser o único n ter amigos pra te apoiar nem familiares
@lola.hrring
7 ай бұрын
3:45 whenever I hear this song I think of somone I used to talk to. We weren’t even together but when we were talking my mental health got to its worst and I didn’t think I was going to make it to 2024. But the he came into my life and made me feel like life was worth living. Whenever i would relapse or have bad thoughts I would think to myself “at least I have him”. We don’t speak anymore tho lmao
@avagol
3 ай бұрын
moving to another country has taken a toll on me. the language barrier, no family, no friends, no one to talk to. my parents keep me locked in my room for whatever reason they make up, I cant experience a normal life, I'm stuck, I just want to go home. I don't consider myself family, no one has to be honest. I cried my heart out telling my parents that my life was over because I was on this side of the world, I've sat down and attempted in this apartment where everyone hears my screams and cries. I feel humiliated everyday. I wake up and wonder when will this end? when will i be happy again? it sounds pathetic when i say this, it really is. I feel weak.
@Marrrr_444
4 ай бұрын
This might be my last summer
@aerisss_asf
3 ай бұрын
honey i hope you’re doing better now if you need to talk i’ll be here
@nobody94804
8 ай бұрын
i feel bad for my best friend who thinks i hate her. She is literally my soulmate and i love her more than anything. I just can't express my feelings nicely, so usually i'm not showing them (or i just show the negative ones, which is not great too). she gave me bracelets once, but sometimes, mostly (and sadly) i'm not wearing them when i'm with her. she also gave me 5 rings and i can told you when she gave me me very first one. She helped me though the biggest shits i experiented, just by her by my side. She's the reason i'm still alive.
@Xienarx
9 ай бұрын
I'm not a bad person, I don't know why they hate me.
@Nyladarealest
7 ай бұрын
Your amazing
@swagykiddo4688
3 ай бұрын
I remember the summer when i lost every person ive ever loved 3 years have passed and still hear their laughs in my head i wish that theyve stayed and didnt choose to leave me now im feeling lonely cant make a good relation with anyone else they were all that i needed i still remember how fast we got along and how many days we spent together but in the end it didnt matter to them i still want more of it but i cant have it. hope they are doing good .
@Shark_.L0VER
6 ай бұрын
Things were going so well for like a year, didn’t have to take my meds anymore, hung out with friends, pursued my passions and felt good, though now I always feel in deep state of guilt for some reason, everything feels wrong, exams are taking my life away and I just keep cutting contact and rotting in bed all day. It’s disappointing really, thank you for this playlist though, I hope you feel better soon, take care of yourself
@umiysana2530
9 ай бұрын
I’m a lesbian but I love my religon but I don’t want to betray my god
@Mortelle.0
8 ай бұрын
You know I really want to help but I’m an ex Christian and now atheist so if I’m going to help you, you will probably feel like I’m saying shit..
@umiysana2530
8 ай бұрын
thank you @@Mortelle.0
@Lylaplusaj4life
7 ай бұрын
Same I’m lesbian but I feel like God hates me now
@Mortelle.0
7 ай бұрын
@@Lylaplusaj4life and why do you think god exits? It’s ok to doubt what you have been told.
@umiysana2530
7 ай бұрын
yeah its sucks@@Lylaplusaj4life
@_confusedcat_
5 ай бұрын
11:00 “All by yourself, sitting alone. I hope we’re still friends yeah! Hope you don’t mind…” That hits hard
@Tangamandapio.o
9 ай бұрын
I'm so lost I just can't do this anymore, I want to be a little kid again, talking with all my classmates and having a good time everybody together, I want to feel happy as I did before, I just want to cry all the time because I'm useless and my ADHD couldn't get worse, I'm almost 14 and I'm so scared of everything, I don't want to grow up, I don't understand myself, I don't understand gender or pronouns or why I'm feeling down all day, I don't want to die, but I don't want to live either.
@soxpbxbblxs
9 ай бұрын
I'm so sorry luv, I hope things get better:(❤
@noplsstawp
9 ай бұрын
I get it, its okay feelings like these are normal, I experience them too. Take things slow, its okay to feel sad. It's good to express ourselves. But don't go down a negative spiral too often. It takes a toll of your physical health. I was lost at 14 too. It got better for me, it'll get better for you too, I believe it. You don't need to figure everything right now. Read: 1 Peter 5:6-7 - if it gets worse. I believe in uuu
@Little.EzzyXx
9 ай бұрын
listening to this after another failed attempt >>>
@10xbetterthanmyself.
5 ай бұрын
I can't believe there is a playlist with not allowed and 4 morant in it. You seem like a cool ass cat. Keep up the great work as I will always revisit this playlist.
@soxpbxbblxs
5 ай бұрын
this was the stuff i listened to when my life got really bad, so i guess i have to thank myself??? also thank you!!!
@a-cc5ob
2 ай бұрын
im pretty bummed out with my 'best friend' well , friend. It was a 3 year relationship . i told her everything all my secrets and all of my problems and everything. idk whats gotten into her but she suddenly told EVERYONE . she suddenly starts comparing all my problems with hers . but im mostly glad she doesnt know abt my scars on my wrist and thights.
@charaoharathecowboy
4 ай бұрын
I'm 18 and I think I have ADHD. I am very scared to go to a therapist because I worry that I am just pretending or misunderstand the symptoms. I've been studying ADHD for more than three months and I'm pretty sure I have all the problems and symptoms, but the very possibility that I might be wrong is just killing me. I've tried different ways to be productive for neurodivergent people, but nothing helps me. Life hacks for neurotypical people and even more so. I can't bring myself to work if it's not the last day of the deadline. I can no longer work all night without consequences. All those "charms" of ADHD like hyperfocus quickly leave me. I feel like I'm burning out, but I'm afraid to be wrong even in this. I want to cry out of helplessness. My life is perfect. Parents are perfect. The only thing that poisons my life is me. I do not know how I managed to dissuade myself from suicide 5 years ago. I try to be positive, but I just can't. I can't squeeze out tears because I've been suppressing them for so long that I've forgotten how to cry at all. Once a month or two, and I can burst into tears because of how terrible a student I am and how poorly I handle everything. It feels like no one understands me and I feel so alone.
@Mel_s1mp
9 ай бұрын
This playlist is amazing, I know all the songs and I listened to them all sm before, thanks😭💗
@mimi5769
6 ай бұрын
My worst year was 2021, lol i was really sure i wouldn't make it. But in mid 2022 I decided i was not worthless, and so now in 2024 im still here. And i don't want to go away anymore.
@AllyStxr
2 ай бұрын
I am feeling like absolute shit
@Kage...6.
4 ай бұрын
I hate who I used to be. I was a terrible and disgusting person. And I hate obsessing over someone i shouldn't. We both were toxic as all hell. I just want to forget it all and be able to move on. But the past has a choke-hold on me and i hate it.
@Lexaislostt
9 ай бұрын
i love all these songs help
@Paapaaaaa
4 ай бұрын
I thought I was gunna have a great year this year but I was so wrong💀. First my “friend” was mad at me for something I didn’t do and started making rumors about me and my friend group. Then there was this boy I liked. I’ve liked him since 8th grade. My best friend since first grade told me he was ugly and started talking shit saying I deserve better and that im prettier than that. I told her looks don’t matter and its all about personality🤗. 3 weeks after my birthday she started talking to him and now shes dating him. Then she started saying stuff about me to her friends so now all I get are weird glances from them.
@danniesdoomsday09
2 ай бұрын
Long ass vent bc yeah yeahh Almost no one takes me seriously, for almost years now I’ve trying to explain to parents and doctors my mental state and they just shrug it off. Ever since I was little I was considered “odd” and it really pisses me off. I had a therapist for a bit but she didn’t listen when I vented or anything, she would look at me like I was nuts and say “well..all that has nothing to do with the ‘goal’ your dad set for you, so it doesn’t matter” dude, what the hell. I just told you I’ve been hearing things and voices and seeing things and “it doesn’t matter”?! I keep telling my mom but she just makes some schizophrenia joke. Sometimes when I try to sleep I hear train sounds and voices telling me to come here. A couple days ago I was so close to going down to the railroad track, I probably would’ve died. Or with the same therapist I would vent to her about my god awful dad and tell me “oh, you’re exaggerating” WHAT. Then when I was a kid my dad was actually awful. I basically raised myself, I also more mentally mature than most of the kids at school. When he ‘found me’ and brought me home when I was 3 he would put me in my very small plain ass room and tell me not to come out unless he said I could. I had to sit in there while he was busy or at work. He’d usually just forget I was even in there then his girlfriend would come over to remind him. Whenever we went shopping he would yell at me if I got within 6 feet of him, wth. He would tell me stuff like “eat everything on that plate or else I’ll slap the back of your head till blood comes out of your mouth and eyes”. I was 6 when he said that one. Fun family bonding time!! My dad’s a pro at mental abuse!! I hate school so fucking much. I can’t sit still or focus unless I’m slightly interested. Otherwise I just zone out or fall asleep. Then my dad makes me run barefoot around the block (usually he gives me 5-10 laps) if I get anything under an A-. I almost got kicked out for a B+ last year. My sh just started with me just biting and picking my fingers till they bled everywhere. Now it’s not just my fingers bleeding everywhere. Oh and just great, now I smoke funny green plants (don’t do drugs kids!!) while typing this I currently have scraps from an old shirt wrapped around wrist bc I ran out of bandaids and it stings like crazy dudeee :/
@l3na660
5 ай бұрын
I miss my teenages years so much, even if i'm just a young adult. When i was a teenager, i use to dream a lot about being an adult. Guess this is the loop of life.
@karinapatino5821
7 ай бұрын
Sometimes i cry myself to sleep alot because i am tired and i js moved house and i got yelled at by my group in pe for not trying and i try and try all day btw i will not probably not make it to 2025
@m1ntch0c0
4 ай бұрын
at this point i'm starting to lose hope. i'm 20, diagnosed with autism, i look like child, i act like a child, i feel ugly, undesirable, untalented, useless, i have no job, no friends, i can't study, i can't go outside because i'm scared of people and the worst part is that my family still loves me, i don't understand why bc i literally have 0 personality, but they do and it hurts them to see me like this, but idk what to do atp i just want my loved ones to be happy and for me to have peace for once
@insertname7504
5 ай бұрын
my life is better than ever. literally has never been this good, and it’s still terrible. how have I lived like this for so long..?
@Gaby_crazzyy
4 ай бұрын
Recently I relapsed into most of my bad habits that I quit last year but now I'm doing it again and again I can't even last a day without doing something that hurts me physically or mentally and I've tried to reach out for help but nobody takes me seriously and they think that all I want is attention which is the total opposite of what I want so I stopped trying and I don't know what I'm gonna do since I can't stop
@totally_not_asuperstar1
4 ай бұрын
I honestly think you're able to do it. If you believe, then you'll be able to find your way back to happiness. Take a break from everyone, maybe, I know you're trying hard, but even heros need breaks. ❤ U got this ml :)
@theworstmilo
6 ай бұрын
I’m so proud of you all for being alive right now
@syzcxx
6 ай бұрын
i loved him. oh, god, did i love him. i loved him like a dog. relentlessly, gently, and truly. i didnt, i *couldnt* see his flaws. in my eyes, he was the absolute perfection incarnate. he couldve spit at me, kicked me, hurt me, and with a passionate smile, id crawl back to him. id bare my teeth at others, bite hard, bark loud. but for him. oh, just for him, i softened my gaze and allowed myself a moment of respite to feel his warmth, though, i fear, will turn stone cold.i feared that he would be nothing but a memory, and thats what its coming to. i feared that he would play me like a board game, all entertaining until he got bored of me. but was he really bored of me? was he just bored of her? but, oh, i suppose i'll never know. and into my tattered being, no matter how i hide, i know its inevitable. with my love on his hands, my heart on his soul, i got cast away. and when i start to crumble and rot, even in my deepest desperation, i fear i will still call his name.
@chill_child5826
3 ай бұрын
ok but can we talk about the fact that the girl in that pic is SO PRETTY?!
@bloodmoonxx3174
2 ай бұрын
nobody cares
@natasalata_b
7 ай бұрын
i love my best friend, and i hate seeing them in such mental pain. i know they were having a tough time, and yesterday, (29/2/24) they spent the entire day at the school counselors just because they didn't have the motivation to go to class. during one of my free periods i went and checked up on them, as i had done every passing period and chance i got, just to ensure that they were doing okay. i stepped into the classroom, no teachers were there at the time. and i went to sit next to them on the floor. we were talking about their mental health. they told me about how they're scared of falling back into a loop of relapsing, considering that life has been so shitty recently. i comforted them for like, almost an hour, resulting in me skipping next period, but i didn't care. i just want them to know that i care. they told me about how they sh. i love them so much, and i told them that and expressed it. we hugged for the next 3 minutes while they cried. i don't know if this hurt me because i love them so much, or because i'm so touch-deprieved, that i haven't had a legitimate hug, or one that actually mattered, in the past few years. probably both. i'm scared that they'll fall into the loophole i am in currently. if you see this vee, i love you so much.
@Nat_the_princess
4 ай бұрын
This playlist is great for my late-night thoughts. this is the best playlist I've listened too in a long time.
@avaharding-s4n
2 ай бұрын
See, the weird thing is I don't even dislike being depressed. Its really weird because I just kinda feel at home when I'm depressed but like I know thats not normal and I genuinely don't know what to do. (Also I've been clean for over 2 months now so yipee!)
@I_love_the_sunset
2 ай бұрын
IM SO PROUD ML ❤❤❤
@avaharding-s4n
2 ай бұрын
@@I_love_the_sunset THANK YOUUU!!!
@PinkOrangeOrangePink
2 ай бұрын
I think ive been alone all this time. And i dont think i have had any say in it. But im inspired. It costed Little Rabbit several limbs and their head, but they made free will bend. They became same to the other animals. The thinner I stretch myself for my dreams, and my dream of becoming same, the closer I get to following Little Rabbit's example.
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