I promise you all this video will all make sense… I hope you understand me better. EDIT APRIL 2ND: WOW thank you for your comments ❤ thank you for all the love in the comments. will be trying to read them all today as well❤ thank u
@fauxtian
4 ай бұрын
I cried when it came to the boy part, I felt that when u was 18, I was forced to grow up soon too. I mean that fact that I was able to relate so much. I'll text u on gram about the specific part which hit and made me 😭 I'm still listening hold up brb❤
@vanivanilli
4 ай бұрын
thank you mai❤️ you inspire all of us. you’re amazing🧙🏻
@CarolineEstelle
4 ай бұрын
I see you
@YourSunsetGirl
4 ай бұрын
I feel you completely sister, I cried my eyes out with you😭
@lululemon492
4 ай бұрын
feel better soon mai he doesn't deserve you ❤
@dirtyshirleyheart
4 ай бұрын
saying “I love being a girl” while crying I felt that.
@mostalpha222
4 ай бұрын
🎀🎀
@karelynfuentes
4 ай бұрын
I feel sorry for you!!!!!😮😮😮😮🥲🥲🥲🥲
@yasminh
4 ай бұрын
I read this comment before watching the video and was like yeah thats cute whatever and now im at that point in the video and I am crying. I havent cried over my first love since the few months around the breakup, but this video is so beautiful. it's also making me wonder if im about to start my period
@Faith_miteimasu
4 ай бұрын
@@yasminh SAME BRO SAME 😭😭
@autumnreed2079
4 ай бұрын
Was exactly what i was going to comment!! We are all tied to each other
@sophielouisee26
4 ай бұрын
i literally started crying when you said you didn't remember his laugh, it's so sad that we forget things and people and feelings that once were so important to us
@CarolineEstelle
4 ай бұрын
Made me think about when I started forgetting how someone very very close to me smiled and laughed + talked . So I looked back at some photos and videos
@miasalinas7127
4 ай бұрын
I’m starting to forgot more and more about people who I was really close with once and it’s sad because I wasn’t journaling during that time so I don’t have much to look back on. Taking pictures, texts, voicemails, writing letters or journal entries about someone your close with is special because you can go back when you start to forgot and you can everything remember again
@someone-mb3px
4 ай бұрын
frrrr😭😭😭😭😭
@Definitely_not_Diya
4 ай бұрын
Me too bro
@lalaloupsi
4 ай бұрын
later on i realized that i dont remember his laugh either
@jennamarie3633
4 ай бұрын
if you’re reading this i love you, nothing is permanent and there’s beauty in that so allow yourself to grow unapologetically
@thebilliexojean
3 ай бұрын
💜💜💜
@Sony_CasettePlayer
3 ай бұрын
so you loving me also isnt permanent☹
@patataindomable2998
Ай бұрын
222 likes...
@utayaguchi2305
4 ай бұрын
i started bawling my eyes out when you read your old journal because i related to it so much. i always forget that we are all just humans. i love you mai, RICE BALL
@luisabolado
4 ай бұрын
omg ikr😭😭
@spookysally9
4 ай бұрын
From a 34 yr old that's been married for 10 yrs and has 3 kids. I'll tell you these once you find your person non of your past break ups will matter. In fact your forget you even dated other people. Don't take breakups so hard they won't matter later in life
@sunsetfromvenus
4 ай бұрын
From a 34 year old who hasn’t found my man and is still searching. Every man I’ve ever dated has influenced me greatly. I’ve learned so much from each of them, they have become a part of me. I would never forget any of the loves I’ve had. I’m grateful for each one and each break up has only made me a better person. It’s like I absorbed the best traits from them while releasing the worst ones from myself. We’re not all lucky to find “the one” early in life. But every love along the way is still worth it
@ChickenFerLei
4 ай бұрын
As a 32 year old woman who’s been with my man for almost 15 years, who did break up in high school for 2 years, I fell in love with someone else too. Or so I thought! Ended up getting back with my boyfriend from when we were kids after graduating high school. We’re still together and have a kid. All my other breakups have affected me and helped me grow in some way. I agree with both of these comments!! None of those other relationships even matter anymore. You will find that one person for you, trust me. Don’t be afraid to fall in love and let it happen. Or else you’ll never know what could’ve/would’ve happened! But your feelings are valid and break ups suck! Just know that you’ll get through this.❤
@Anon.7982
4 ай бұрын
As a 42 year old woman married for 12 years with 3 kid's. I agree with what was commented. It will not matter later on in life. Before meeting my husband I spent from the age of 12 years old to 27 years old in a relationship with the same guy and when we parted ways, (was for the best) we both eventually found our spouses we married and had kid's with. Was it hard breaking up, "absolutely," but we were better off without each other. This too shall pass. God bless you beautiful! 🙏❤️
@danilaroche1156
25 күн бұрын
Past breakups DO affect future relationships. Even marriage. Especially if you've had sex. Ever hear of soul ties? I'm glad your married though. I've been divorced twice and there is nothing more traumatizing. Breakups are extremely painful & it weighs on your soul. It creates baggage too and trust issues.
@AM-hz3vj
4 ай бұрын
“Are we changing….or is it that we are letting other people influence the way that we think we need to be” DAMN MAI
@maikhoitranness
4 ай бұрын
The fact she wrote about how she hoped he is going to do well. She was feeling her age. So pure and innocence 💓
@han_phann
4 ай бұрын
this video resonated with me sooooooooooooo nmuch im actually crying. going through a breakup right now and hearing you read your thoughts is actually heartbreaking cause WHY DO WE FEEL THIS WAY.
@user-mt3lz3ql8e
4 ай бұрын
She’s crying filming, crying editing AND NOW IM CRYING WATCHING 😭
@SoggyCig
4 ай бұрын
Seeing you go through so many journeys and obstacles and seeing you physically GLOW more and more is CRAZY. We are all witnessing your journey from self hate to self love in the span of multiple videos, years, days, weeks. You’re so raw , more people should watch you, know you, talk to you. You are a healer Mai. You have such a high amount of love and good energy. You are contagious and radiate such good vibes. You speak from the soul and just because it’s a video, us as viewers FEEL it Mai. Thank you once again. ❤
@lollypoplani1
25 күн бұрын
first of all, rice ball. secon, omg i am relating to so so much of what youre saying. from the letter to your past s/o, to not being so easily influenced. after watching your video about getting a vision board together, i really feel like im entering a new era in my life. thank you for being yourself and sharing it with us
@jayonai
4 ай бұрын
“i know that i wont love like that again” oh god mai the girl you are. you’re so real for this
@kyl0m0m
4 ай бұрын
so dramatic but so real for the period she’s in. she’s so young and has so much more life to live
@kyl0m0m
4 ай бұрын
@@jayonaiI didn’t finish the video just read the quote. Most likely commented without the context. Hope ur well
@benedicte8394
4 ай бұрын
don’t forget to make the G capital 🤗
@jaycaprio8514
4 ай бұрын
"You made me feel my age" Hit somewhere really deep. Love you Mai, I wish you all the best girl!.
@Imene_e
Ай бұрын
so reall
@karinahernandez4391
4 ай бұрын
personally this was such good timing to hear, i’ve been journaling almost everyday just like you said. it genuinely heals so much inside of me, but it really inspired me to keep journaling even more. not only have i been journaling though, i’ve been working on trying to better understand myself and to know that i watched this video right while im going on this self improvement journey, im glad to know you are too. i’ve watched your videos for years now and this has genuinely been the video that has stuck out to me most. thank you for constantly looking out for your viewers, but just remember to not loose yourself along the way. love you mai❤️
@rubyrb9430
17 күн бұрын
this fully made me cry because i went through something similar with my first love bro gave me the bare minimum towards the end too and i ended it so fast but i struggled for MONTHS but u literally jist made me realize after im already over it, what all of my emotions were.
@ShelbysPerspective
4 ай бұрын
“ I don’t remember his laugh” that hit something in me 😭. I hope you are much better now and I know how you feel.
@theozhang4385
4 ай бұрын
Literally! I cried when Mia read that.
@danic5131
4 ай бұрын
same i was bawling
@LifewDeeDee
4 ай бұрын
That’s where I started crying 😅
@spam.meisubi
4 ай бұрын
"I felt my age with you," punched me right in the gut. So simple but so raw and so true. Something about the way you write is genuinely just so beautiful, Mai.
@wynnoo9626
3 ай бұрын
This video got me crying and reminiscing about my past high school crushes. They weren’t too severe but definitely altered how I think about commitment and my feelings. I’ve enjoyed this video :)
@Ivy-li1fz
3 ай бұрын
This breakup was a maturity awakening, congrats
@emanema3000
4 ай бұрын
the "blank, thank you" hit me really hard, because ive only really looked at my past relationhip with anger and negativity and didn't want to think about the fact that they made me so happy and taught me so many things. because its difficult to be devastated when you're angry. it's difficult to understand that this person was really good for you and made you really happy when you're telling yourself that you hate them. even if they broke your heart into a million little pieces, you realize that that is how you grow as a person.
@Dosey121
4 ай бұрын
This was such a great video but also the growth is showing on you. watching you be so open and grow into your best version of you by experiencing real life highs AND lows and sharing it all is so amazing truly. It's so refreshingly honest and HUMAN. love it.
@aashaalexander4677
4 ай бұрын
I literally cried with you 😭this entire video was exactly what I needed to see and didn't even realize just how much. Thank you Mai. I will book that trip because I want to and give myself grace when It's needed 💜
@duuuuuh5576
4 ай бұрын
"Why do i care so much about what people think of me"? I felt that on a SPIRITUAL level!!
@ihearttierra
4 ай бұрын
u are self projecting. ur thinkin ur being judged by other people but in reality its all u. ur judging yourself…
@dinahgraham4964
4 ай бұрын
You care because you think their opinion actually matters. In the grand scheme of thinks, it does not.
@hannahw3083
4 ай бұрын
"leave every interaction a net positive or neutral" i LOVE this line omg, i've always tried to live off this but could never relay it as eloquently
@Celena.a
4 ай бұрын
Rice ball! Hey Mai, you explaining your story really made me cry and feel for you. You’re such a strong woman, and you’ve gotten through so much. Keep pushing through! I love your content❤️❤️❤️❤️
@urbsfbrighton8620
4 ай бұрын
if youre reading this i love you. this is the only youtube video ive actually ever learned something from. thank you mai
@evachryssou5383
4 ай бұрын
IM CRYING RN. THE AMOUNT OF EMOTIONS AND FEELINGS PUT INTO THIS VID LITERELLY VIBRATES OFF MY SCREEN. OMGGILYSM MAI YOU ARE EVERYTHING TO ME.
@maiphammy
4 ай бұрын
Wait this is such a good way to describe it
@evachryssou5383
4 ай бұрын
AGH YOU REPLIED. ILY.@@maiphammy
@kirsty4415
4 ай бұрын
Girl your writing made me SOB the way you worded everything literally sums up how I feel rn 😭
@kendallsweeney1032
4 ай бұрын
Hi Mai!!! I wanted to say thank you for being so vulnerable. I cried watching this because it’s so relatable and genuine. I’ve literally never left a KZitem comment but girl to girl, thank you. This was so relatable and beautiful. Being able to love is so special, and it’s such a beautiful experience. I’m glad you can look back and learn from it. That’s what life is all about :) you are a HUMAN, and I love that you embrace it. It’s special to be able to connect with people through a screen like you do. I’m glad to have been following along on your journey for the past few years. Keep it up.
@miagilfillan6956
4 ай бұрын
I started crying when you were talking about forgetting about his laugh 😭 It reminds me of personal experiences and about the people that I’ve lost
@zoemataruka5476
4 ай бұрын
Same I cried so hard low key and yeah I really relate to this when she said she forgot his laugh and how he taught her to read more , to journal
@zoemataruka5476
4 ай бұрын
I cried so hard low key her words are so touching and relatable , about how he had to grow up fast and how she forgot his laugh (I'm literally cry rn ) and how he taught her to read more , I just love Mai and wish her nothing but the best and she has really changed my life and has taught me to look on the bright side of my situation , and fuck she inspired me to start journaling 2 years ago
@sujanas.
4 ай бұрын
Same when she said I forgot his laugh literally instant tears
@phoebesummers675
4 ай бұрын
this journal. the spiralling. the realisation. everything about it. is how my mind works. i need to do this to recognise my feelings and be aware of my emotions
@thaismartinez605
4 ай бұрын
this is the 5th time I watched this and I'm crying, i love this so much that I feel like I can relate and honestly hearing it from someone else pov and i just know im going to be okay, I'm looking forward to my own future, im really glad your doing great
@AcceledOS
14 күн бұрын
if youre reading this i love you I think i found this at a time where i really needed it.. I'm just glad i stumbled upon it when i feel like i needed to see something like this the most. I hope you're doing well and continue to grow. Thank you for making this video and sharing your experience, it really means a lot! 💙
@frejachristensen6859
4 ай бұрын
you know the video is going to be good when the thumbnail is a pic of mai crying
@fromconcreteart
4 ай бұрын
that’s fucked up 😭
@Rina47429
4 ай бұрын
@@fromconcreteartwas ab to say
@Cmhrjkyg
4 ай бұрын
Jesus died so that you could go to Heaven. He loves you . He would really like a relationship with you and for you to live for him. I recommend that you read the Bible♥️
@Cmhrjkyg
4 ай бұрын
@@fromconcreteart Jesus died so that you could go to Heaven. He loves you . He would really like a relationship with you and for you to live for him. I recommend that you read the Bible♥️
@Cmhrjkyg
4 ай бұрын
@@Rina47429 Jesus died so that you could go to Heaven. He loves you . He would really like a relationship with you and for you to live for him. I recommend that you read the Bible♥️✝️
@acidbootycheeks
4 ай бұрын
the guy you meet and fall in love with at 18 is a canon event
@savairashak12
4 ай бұрын
Literally, 4 days ago my boyfriend since 18 broke up with me 😂
@babyblue6960
4 ай бұрын
mine was 22
@Under_Your_Bed_
4 ай бұрын
The fact I'm 18 and think I might love him... I've known him since i was 14
@BBB-to4cc
4 ай бұрын
Bruh when I was in high school it was so cool to date older guys and my 17 year old friend dated a 28 year old, and at 18 I was with a 33 year old. So weird and fucked up. I’m 28 now and my husband just turned 33 lmao
@LunarAngel
4 ай бұрын
19 for me. Boy, was that life changing
@kaboink
4 ай бұрын
girl oh my god i am not the same person i was 45 minutes ago i clicked on this video feeling so lost in my life and omg. i straight up bawled with you. idk i just feel so cleansed. you have no idea how much you are worth. whether it's mai reading this or just some random person in the comments. you have no idea. you are so beautiful and kind and i love you so so much. thank you so much for the video... i'm bouta bust out my journal now LMAOO if you're reading this, i love you
@its_anukii
4 ай бұрын
You said everything I wanted to say in this, we really are a community!!❤
@chxrry_x_x
3 ай бұрын
SAME OH MY GOSH
@victoriaenglinger4267
Ай бұрын
That's exactly how I felt 🫶🏾🤍 sending love back
@kim.jichuu2373
3 ай бұрын
I love/need these types of videos because it makes me cry and let everything out and it makes me not feel alone when I’m having metal breakdowns so thank you so much for these videos it really helps a lot 💕
@ghazal1084
4 ай бұрын
when u said i love being a girl.. ahh my heart melted. its so rare to find moments where you truly love "being a girl" yk? and also when u said i dont rember feeling this many emotions gah! that hit. u reminded me that we gotta give ourselves more grace in the present moment.:) ily mai!!!
@anyalouisa
4 ай бұрын
“i love being a girl” through tears i was really not ready for that
@evii_me8671
4 ай бұрын
girlhood ❤️🙏
@xoxoeunoia3686
4 ай бұрын
at first i was listening to this like a podcast while i was cleaning until you said "I grew up to quick" and that made me pause and look at the screen. Now I'm sitting here crying listening to you read. and I'm genuinely grateful that i kind of grew up with you
@LowkeyKT
13 күн бұрын
Mai - You had me sobbing like a baby - reminded me of my younger years and how the people that have come and gone in my life have truly impacted me in many ways.. ❤️
@jn-j2v
11 күн бұрын
How can I watched this video without skipping anything, I just got back from this and I realized that all the things yous said not 100% me but it's hit me that deep, feeling same ways like u and get me alive due to my anxiety ( thank you so much ) my best healing ytb I ever had. Im so lucky to meet u there ❤
@tayliannachambers9386
4 ай бұрын
if you’re reading this I love you! I laughed and I cried & I started journaling bc LIFE is LIFING & i’m currently going through a breakup and having to start over with life (we moved in together) so this video was needed! I can’t wait to see where i’m at in the next year! 🫶🏽
@britney1257
4 ай бұрын
Wishing you the best! Be kind to urself, feel your emotions. Time will heal❤️
@nariahmiles4115
4 ай бұрын
Praying for blessing your way you are strong
@ndcINC
4 ай бұрын
I am 3 years past this point and I promise you will grow more than you ever have in these next few years. For me it was super fun & freeing, then super depressing, and now i'm finally happy, content, and a much stronger human :) wishing you the best my friend
@saramoore3048
4 ай бұрын
"Riceball" - dude all of this hit me so hard, I'm 17 right now and I'm in a crazy place, boys, school, etc.. this helped so much.
@emmacruz2195
4 ай бұрын
NAH FR LIKE right now im supposed to study just to get my grades for unis yet I'm feeling so lazy and I ain't focusing where I'm meant to be focusing at and I've just been having boys problem and crying over them too much recently that this just hits me so hard
@luisaromariz
4 ай бұрын
it will all be okay, very messy but youll sort it out
@Ghostface__x_
4 ай бұрын
@@emmacruz2195girl focus on your grades who gaf about them boys them boys arent gonna graduate for you, honestly snap out of it, meanwhile theres kids wish they had the oppurntunities you did and your crying over some boys , babe you got alot of growing up to do, focus on yourself , someone will love and accept you for you i promise, im not tryna sound mean but plz atleast listen
@joritsegalee
3 ай бұрын
Riceball
@Alice12560
4 ай бұрын
You're literally the most reliable person ever 😭 and a bit off topic but your hair and makeup looks so pretty here i really like the blonde fading into pink 🥰
@mariaeduardav.s.4201
4 ай бұрын
The re reading of old journals and crying and coming full circle is so real like I’ve gone there and it’s a canon moment
@yash-ey8dz
4 ай бұрын
My trauma+your trauma=our trauma that we'll overcome togetherrrrrr
@krait05
4 ай бұрын
FOR REAL
@ShellzSD
21 күн бұрын
Being in a now loving relationship (7 years) and marriage (3 years)… and still going strong…made me realized and learned break ups will lead you to the right one for you. They come unexpected and no conditions. I loved myself more and more each break ups to a point where I didn’t need a man or longing for one, then he came…he was and will always be an addition to my already complete self. The past mattered just as much as now and the future without them I would not love myself more. Would not change anything I’d rather go through those heartbreaks to lead me to the right one than not get heartbreaks and never finding the one. Life is a journey and not a race.
@chastityrecibe1060
4 ай бұрын
fresh from break up and i didn't cry but after hearing all Mai's thoughts in her journal, it was the exact things I've been thinking for the past few weeks. i love you mai u made me cry hahaha
@MariamAhmed-mj5sj
4 ай бұрын
are we all crying with mai? yes we are. we love you mai
@noheaguillermo
4 ай бұрын
if you're reading this i love you. damn this video changed my perspective on things. i've kind of lost myself in the past few weeks cause i've been quite stressed. when you get stressed, you put pressure on yourself to be like others, then you start comparing yourself to others & blah blah blah. besides the point, listening to this was therapeutic & put me back into the right headspace.
@maiphammy
4 ай бұрын
you got this❤
@noheaguillermo
4 ай бұрын
@@maiphammy OH MY GOD I LOVE YOU
@aribarandhawa26
4 ай бұрын
MAI I CRIED WATCHING THIS VIDEO... WHILE YOU WERE CRYING I WAS BAWLING MY EYES OUT... I needed this video soooo bad... You made me realise some important things. I'm really thankful to you! I loveeeeeeee you sm. You helped me take very important decisions.
@Nevaeh_.M25
3 ай бұрын
if your reading this i love you sm and i rewatch this video so many times because it’s so freaking motivating and i love mia so much for that !!!! she is my fav person to watch because she just speaks her mind and lets herself be vulnerable and i respect mia sm for that .. I LOVE TOU SO MUCH MIAAA !! ❤❤❤❤ also rice ball
@elbassmo147
4 ай бұрын
25:32 This part is so beautiful, wouldn’t thought that i would cry but listening to your teen romance entries made me sob. “I felt my age with you” this was so 😭 i cannot explain how this video makes me feel, just seeing you in this different light and seeing you being full on vulnerable and show us your “little girl” side (sorry dont know how to describe it its bad i know) is just so heartwarming and i wish i could give you and your past self a hug 🫂. I cried with you 🤍 love you Mai
@BEAUTIFULHR
4 ай бұрын
I cried with you too
@honeykoya5900
4 ай бұрын
I love how Mai is the older sister we all needed in life. You are so incredible Mai.
@Itsshaylaphan
4 ай бұрын
Riceball. This was everything I needed. I've been going through this exact same realization and it was so nice hearing you share. It made me feel SEEN. Thanks sis for sharing, I was crying along with you. That was crazy wow, thank you.
@TheDivaDigital
4 ай бұрын
Why is your life so novel worthy 😭 like i need a series
@madisonmackenzie3341
4 ай бұрын
Girl these full circle moments are gonna make me cry 🧙♂️
@Anari2004
4 ай бұрын
Girl, don't worry I'm sure you'll find what you need in life just focus on bettering yourself right now ! You're so pretty and seem like a hardworking & generous person. Also, it is sad that we feel like we have to impress others when we shouldn't feel the need to do so
@_Isabella_..
3 ай бұрын
I actually loved this video I can completely understand what you’re saying and it just feels like I’m having a deep conversation with a best friend (digital best friend ). Also rice ball and if you’re reading this I love you.
@kayleesbookjournal
4 ай бұрын
This is one of the most beautiful raw videos i have ever seen. As a girl going through this right now i feel SEEN! You are such a beautiful person and deserve the best. You can write a book btw cause the way you write is HEARTBREAKING.
@maiphammy
4 ай бұрын
AHHH wait biggest compliment ever
@kayleesbookjournal
4 ай бұрын
I love u
@bhardwajp1488
4 ай бұрын
Mai was going through a lot and my dumb brain fr thought that she was in her "ghosting era" and ghosted us. Mai, if you are reading this, i love you.
@Random-mw9xd
4 ай бұрын
Honestly though, I’ve learnt so much from watching this video. Thank you. I was already having thoughts of over consuming content online, but this video just solidified to me that I need to look within more. Started a journal last yr but I’m gonna keep going w it and be more focused on my own life rather than others :) Thanks Mai for ur vulnerability. Videos like these from you give me so much value
@twizzyski
3 ай бұрын
mai, when you started reading your old journal i related so much and it made me realize it’s still early enough for me to start journaling. it was so emotional.
@fae.exe.
4 ай бұрын
the fact that you share your story with absolute strangers just to help them is so courageous. mai, if you’re reading this, i love you.
@jonnajalvingh1856
4 ай бұрын
I watched this video like 5 hours ago and i'm still thinking about how much this video affected me. Hearing about the journey you made, seeing you be real and show raw emotions on youtube really hit something in me. It was the advice you gave yourself was the exact advice i needed and i still sit here doing diffrent stuff and i find myself being reminded by everything that this video exists and its definetly one of the best ones youve ever made. Sure, i love the aesthetic home cleaning self care stuff too but this is just a diffrent side that i think we should have more on social media. You're one of my biggest role models and i wish you all the luck in the world. I love you mai❤
@maiphammy
4 ай бұрын
I love u!!
@jonnajalvingh1856
4 ай бұрын
@@maiphammyno way you replied😘😘
@olivia-o6u
Ай бұрын
mai ur so real for this. whenever my life is getting off track and im trying to pls other ppl in my life i watch this n take notes on it n hang it on my mirror im in 7th grade n i cannot tell u how much of a good impact youve had on me ppl always tell me im mature fo my age but i lowkey feel like its bc youtubers like this
@angelzheng
13 күн бұрын
This is WILD it makes me want to also film myself reading all my old diaries but I know I'll be wrecked for like a week after 🤧
@kylidang
4 ай бұрын
“are we changing because that’s truly who we are or is it because we let other people influence the way that we think we need to be.” i felt that❤
@inesneto205
4 ай бұрын
girl I missed you. I was literally watching videos from 3 years ago. FINALLY MAI🙏
@melaszewska
3 ай бұрын
if you’re reading this, i love you. i’ve been with you since spring 2022, i came to your account after heartbreak, trying to find something new i could put my mind into. im so thankful that im learning so much from you, you’re doing more for others than you realize. you’ve impacted peoples lives, the ones in comments and mine as well. thank you for being yourself, it’s hard to find someone in this industry that is honest and wants the best for everyone while taking care of themselves too. mai, if you’re reading this, i love you.
@emmawrightway
23 күн бұрын
Riceball girl I was crying with you and feeling everything. I think this is like the most poetic video you’ve made it really made me think about life. Love you Mai🫶🏼🩷❤️
@SHIVANGISINGHH
4 ай бұрын
MAI HAS CHANGED MY LIFE, i started living alone because of mai, i brought my camera because of mai, i started my content creation journey because of mai, i hit 100k recently because of mai. She taught me alot ! thanks to your mother for bringing you on earth! you are an angel in my life. I used to cry ... when i started watching you, i had around 4k subscribers on youtube ! and you inspired me so much ! manifesting to meet you in any international creator event ! I LOVE YOU
@maiphammy
4 ай бұрын
I love you so much ❤
@Alyssaa948
4 ай бұрын
This is amazing!! New follower ✨💕
@aashna999
4 ай бұрын
i love u being so vulnerable and transparent like i know it’s hard to be that way online esp with so many people watching so i really appreciated you doing this but these are genuinely my fav videos of u
@star0moonie
4 ай бұрын
This was THE video I needed to see. I am struggling with myself a lot, feeling lost and losing my best friend atm because I am realising we are starting to live our lives differently. So, this video was what I needed. Thank you for being so open and sharing your thoughts with us ❤ If you are reading this, I love you ❤
@luisabolado
4 ай бұрын
ok but a moment to appreciate the editingggg??? it’s insanely good, with the sound effects and all, i had to rewing 3 times just in the first zoom out to the editing software… girlie mai out here with the full hd4k experience high qualitea
@Alia2341-K2e
4 ай бұрын
I seriously believe that mai should both write a book and continue the podcast bc tbh, the way mai speaks and writes are both equally sooo captivating, you're such an artistic person and the way you speak and write literally vibrates off the screen, I could listen to what you say for hours and I would read what you write non-stop. Your words feel like actions, it feels like pictures and emotions, not words. Idk I hope you get what I mean but I tried my best to describe it. You are loved unconditionally mai. You are your own soulmate. So love yourself ❤🫂
@maiphammy
4 ай бұрын
Thank you❤❤❤
@elosiecalitz1019
4 ай бұрын
it so nice having a influencer being so real and show their viewers that their human too. its so sad how we dont get this often online anymore
@Madison-ox2pu
4 ай бұрын
I feel like she is teaching me personally, so much about myself and what to look for in life. I’ve never had an older sister or siblings in general, and I feel like she’s one of those people that fill that void that gap of not being able to ask questions to help me through rough times in life. Thank you Mia for being my inspiration
@NiqyRenee
4 ай бұрын
I "literally" (chuckles) love you Mai! 🥰❤️ Your style is so fly, grocery shopping & cooking is relaxing, your whole soul is just so dope and yes you're aesthetic asf girly! I love how natural and real you are ik it can be tough at times but thank you I appreciate you..Bless you always. ❤️🙏🏼
@saraelenaf
4 ай бұрын
first loves are gut wrenching, girls truly love their first love so deeply. Idk if men even scratch the surface of that love when the relationship ends. It's been almost 4 years since I left my first love, and not a day goes by where I don't think about him . . . .
@lillypeeper
4 ай бұрын
girl ikr i 100% agree with you. mine was a little problematic but i still think abt him almost every month
@anahilopez9195
4 ай бұрын
I always thought boys that grow into men not every man is show affection but their first sign of affection is from their mom and it’s unconditional and idk if it’s because how I grew up but I kinda had to earn my moms love by being a specific daughter or person but what I’m trying to get at hear is the love men receive from their mother is the standard and unconditional and if it’s beyond more than what they were given as a child I think they scratch the surface of first love or falling in love, but if it’s less I think they don’t really care. My assumption or opinion. None is facts !
@maisie6241
4 ай бұрын
Reading your journal literally had me bawling. I felt so seen. All those emotions are exactly how I feel right now. I love so deep and everything she said made so much sense to me. Thank you Mai 🤍
@laura-ol3tq
4 ай бұрын
Hope your doing okey. Jesus loves you❤
@LiyaElleKSco.
2 ай бұрын
Props to you for being so vulnerable
@Smnthkt
4 ай бұрын
girl, the similarities I saw in your journal stories made me so emotional😭🤚 its been a while since I cried this hard
@kaitmarie3237
4 ай бұрын
If you're reading this, I love you. Mai, I really think I needed this video. I needed it because I'm still in mourning of my own breakup that happened almost two years ago now and I'm still feeling it so hard. This video was a reminder that even though time has passed, the love can still be there. The heartbreak can still be felt even if you're not in the throes of it anymore. It can still shape the person that you are even if you're not the version of yourself you once were, and that's everything to me. You're truly such a strong and resilient person and I'm glad I found you when I did, because you've made my life better by just being yourself and offering your voice to the world. So thank you. Thank you.
@youdontknowme8025
18 күн бұрын
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU LITERALLY MADE ME CRY WHEN YOU WERE CRYING
@Brooklyn_Kaye
23 күн бұрын
Girllll I’m 15 and I’m on the outher side of the screen violently sobbing. Because I finally had to cut off a boy that meant the world to me, but things were just not working out. And I also learned so much from him and everything you’re saying I think it’s literally healing me. THANK YOU💗
@xosapphirex
4 ай бұрын
if youre reading this i love you Mai, I really needed this. I've been feeling so numb with life lately, and this video helped me find clarity in what I need to do to better myself. I, too, grew up fast, so hearing about your breakup and how it helped you find yourself really gives me hope that I can do the same. I haven't cried in a while, but this video opened the floodgates, haha! love you
@dtvvhhf23
4 ай бұрын
Mai, I literally started crying the same moment you started crying. You reading your journal entries about your breakup brought me back to my first breakup which happened in the beginning of 2022 while i was 18. The way u wrote about him, just literally i could feel your pain through mine. It warms my soul that I can relate to someone so deeply whos across the globe from me. Since then I’ve also done a lot of healing and self care, but I’m far from perfect. I’ve suddenly been struggling with that breakup recently, and you helped me feel less alone. If you’re reading this, I love you🩷 thank you Mai for sharing.
@maiphammy
4 ай бұрын
I love you ❤
@Leanssdiary
Ай бұрын
As a small content creator I get the first part sooo much! It felt like I was doing social media for the views and other people but I wasn’t doing it for me so I had to take a mental break! It can be stressful but I’m glad that I’m getting out of that stage and just worrying about what makes ME happy!
@cris84
4 ай бұрын
GIRLLLL you got me tearing up “i wont love like this again” i am on the floorrrrrr
@arianasnax5818
4 ай бұрын
You’re growing intellectually and emotionally. It’s dope to see others going thru shit like this. When you’re going thru this on your own you think you’re the only one. I give you props for opening up so much about your past and just how you’ve matured. But thanks for reminding everyone that we’re all just human and it’s okay to feel all those emotions at once. ❤ Welcome back btw missed you!
@erinndestinyy
4 ай бұрын
if you’re reading this i love you i really really needed to hear this, like these are literally thoughts that i keep in my brain because i’m so afraid of like other peoples opinions and “embarrassment”, because its only “embarrassing” if like someone else thinks it is/ if i think someone else doesn’t like it
@OliviaHisle-bc8mi
4 ай бұрын
my first heart break i listened to “moral of the story” on repeat and for that song to start playing while you are reading your breakup made all those feelings come back and i started bawling my eyes out for you and me
@anna.baxby94
4 ай бұрын
honestly girly, same thing happened to me. You deserve so much more ilysm xx
@molliedodd7948
4 ай бұрын
I love how raw this video is. It’s really made me think about life and how I have been acting around other people’s judgement. Thank you Mai
@jazzcampos55
4 ай бұрын
If you’re reading this I love you. I never comment but this video was exactly what I needed. I feel I need a life change, an energy shift. I care too much what others think, I need to find what I like or who I am in general. I want to figure myself out and better myself. I’ve been contemplating moving to a different country next year but I know I’m running away from my problems here. I’m unsatisfied w my life, my routine. Nothing crazy like I hate myself more so I feel I’m 21 now and I realize I don’t want to be or act how I used to at age 16-18. Yesterday something triggered my thoughts and this video definitely assured me i need to sit with my thoughts and start making changes here before I move. I never sit alone with my thoughts but I am about to whip out my journal thanks to you and slowly start new habits. Thank you for this video Mai.
@timac1511
25 күн бұрын
riceball. you are amazing just the way you are. if you want to grow, DO IT. Living things are always changing and growing. You will always be changing and growing. All of the people who watch you are lucky to see you shine. Thank you for being your unapologetic self and being open and vulnerable.
@JessAtack
Ай бұрын
rice ball i watched it all the way through not sped up, i almost cried, this was lovely
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