Thanks for keeping this channel going Karina. Blessing to you and your kids.
@pauliedibbs9028
2 ай бұрын
Thank you and bless you ALL! PALABRA ♥🤙🖤
@kristianarnold3165
2 ай бұрын
Man I absolutely love this series thank you for releasing this Karina!!
@RickJames-hy3wb
2 ай бұрын
Thanks Karina for posting needed this! Hope the boys are well. Palabra
@AlexMax-yq9pm
2 ай бұрын
I love Ryan, I wish we had all the videos that he talked about deleting and then starting the video again...
@user-yh8we8gn4f
2 ай бұрын
This dude was the funniest, remind me of a old mate I use to skate with back in high school
@parkavenue3990
4 жыл бұрын
Thank you! I appreciate you! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
@shaymoose4538
3 жыл бұрын
RIP bro.
@bendaves77
3 жыл бұрын
RIP Park Ave.. it was nice talking to you online... keep my seat warm in heaven and watch over us as we start this crazy troubled time we're about to enter
@bigbb416-5
2 ай бұрын
@@bendaves77Aye man, Where was park Avenue from? I feel like I know dude, Or met him somewhere? Maybe he was on KZitem? Rip to him and Ryan , Respect from the North 🫡
@bendaves77
2 ай бұрын
@@bigbb416-5 he was a patreon member of Ryan's who had relapsed and od
@GRIP_5150
4 жыл бұрын
It's funny cuz I was bunked up with a dude once in county who said the same thing about being able to tell how much you're packing by the sound of your piss hitting the toilet.
@marybodnar4749
2 ай бұрын
I found Ryan from Twitter, back during the Johnny Depp case. I started following bc I’ve been in recovery for years. I found his stories comical & insane!! I loved that he found his wonderful Karina & became a father. I followed him on Instagram, but never got into his KZitem or Patron. When I heard he passed away, I was surprised . I didn’t realize he had relapsed, but honestly I wasn’t shocked by it. Even when Ryan wasn’t using, it seemed like he still glorified the life. Addiction had its ugly claws in this talented man & it wasn’t letting go. His only hope may of been living on an island with his family without access to any form of drug. Ryan wanted to help others out through telling his story, but what he needed was to be as far away as possible from any resemblance of “the life”. To Ryan & the many souls before him & to those who will follow: may you rest easy. May your light shine down & fill us with you peaceful spirit. My love to Karina & the boys.❤ PALABRA, forever🕊️
@kellbell88
2 ай бұрын
❤ Perfect ending to my night ❤ Thank you Karina 🙏
@bobbowen9349
2 ай бұрын
Thank you so much. It makes my day so much better when I see a new video pop up. Ryan and I are 8 months apart in age. I’m older. Everything he talks about always brings me back to when I was younger. I have 2 boys myself. He was such a special soul. It was devastating when he passed. Thank you Karina.
@fredakurzbard4316
2 ай бұрын
Again the same thing I hear over and over again. The word FENTANYL!!! It keeps coming up because so many people are dying from it. every single day
@pamela3213
2 ай бұрын
Thank you Karina!! Wishing you a Beautiful, Happy Mother's Day 💐
@williamw9086
2 ай бұрын
Awesome. This got me through another shitty morning of work.
@amandabarbee8410
4 жыл бұрын
I enjoy your stories! So happy to be apart of your Patreon.
@austinevans339
2 ай бұрын
RIP brother Palabra
@keksgles7288
2 ай бұрын
Thank you, Karina for all the content and hard work to do. It is very much appreciated.
@adamcasey6899
2 ай бұрын
Thanks Karina .u goin to post any of you videos on here anymore.hope so u do a great job l&r from Maine
@brandyfielding2909
2 ай бұрын
I'm from maine as well, small world!
@bendaves77
4 жыл бұрын
I've gained alot of respect for you since I joined patreon and you left me hanging on the ending can't wait for number 5
@johnkalin1656
2 ай бұрын
How could you possibly have written this 3 years ago the video came out 17 minutes ago
@fitch099
2 ай бұрын
@@johnkalin1656patreon my friend. Ryan had episode access early for members.
@bendaves77
2 ай бұрын
@@johnkalin1656 all the episodes you have been watching since Ryan's passing are from patreon.. Ryan recorded quite a bit of content that never made it to KZitem
@kellbell88
2 ай бұрын
It’s getting gooood…can’t wait for the next one!! Palabra
@NiPsTeR48
4 жыл бұрын
Awesome video! I love the prison stuff but I think my fav videos are the stories from ur days of being a dealer, Mike Virgin of course, and now this! Thanks for the extra time you put into this one. U never slack on content. Fuck anyone who says that shit!
@KD-jg2zp
2 ай бұрын
Happy Mothers Day, Karina! Thanks to cont to share these stories ❤
@zackmalliet8541
2 ай бұрын
God i hope there are more episodes in this series!
@samanthatheowlbear2003
4 жыл бұрын
If we lived in the LA area my family would be straight homeless. We pay 800 bucks for 4 bedroom, 1700 square ft house w a huge yard. Man I don't know how y'all do it over there.
@NorCalGlobal
4 жыл бұрын
where??
@samanthatheowlbear2003
4 жыл бұрын
@@NorCalGlobal Northern Texas, in a city below 110K. This house is nothing fancy either trust me, but, I'll take living in the country for cheap over a burning city center.
@phemery1182
3 жыл бұрын
I live in 2 bedroom apartment in Boston---not fancy--my rent is $1700--average 2 bedroom in Boston is now $2100
@thomasstarling7622
2 ай бұрын
@samanthatheowlbear2003 I got a place, Texarkana here
@fredakurzbard4316
2 ай бұрын
I'm from NJ and now I'm in Pueblo Colorado. I have a one bedroom apartment with a balcony and I only pay $625 a month. When I moved in the rent was $595 a month. I love my apartment because all the stores for groceries and a laundry mat and dollar general and the ARC and even a car wash is right across the street from me. I have a parking spot in the back. The apartment complex is safe and maintained. And my landlord is one of the best I have ever had. I was in the right place at the right time because before I found it I was sharing a house with a man who was a drunk. I am grateful for having my apartment even though it is in Pueblo Colorado. You have to sleep somewhere and this is where I do. Good night and sleep tight
@rickmcmurtry8312
4 жыл бұрын
Brother been watching for a while and you got more positive comments then negative i know i read them lol. No life i know, lmfao.
@countryasshippie
2 ай бұрын
Much love to you, Karina thank you for sharing these videos and keeping Ryan’s channel alive. He was a very talented guy, Very good storyteller, and writer. I really enjoyed his channel and stories ever since I first discovered him when he was on the interview with Josh aka “Death” on lockdown 23 and 1 when I heard of his passing it deeply saddened me. He was a brilliant young man with a lot of talent and so much life left to live, and was taken from this earth way too soon. My heart goes out to you and the kids. I can’t Imagine what you’re going through. Much love and respect. Palabra
@michaelrussakoff6993
2 ай бұрын
Much love karina❤❤❤🎉🎉🎉🎉
@emeryjones8050
2 ай бұрын
These vids are helping a lot during this hard time in my life , thank you Karina 😔
@javiermartinezjr8849
2 ай бұрын
Palabra brings me back to some of the greatest times of my life i was geting loaded but in process of getting clesn watching homienreligiously,thanks for the posts,my condolonces man
@ItsWhitneyduhh
2 ай бұрын
Happy Mothers day Karina 🧡
@tigerrrrrrrr6586
2 ай бұрын
Hope your doing ok karina your a survivor....
@Atrainswrld
3 жыл бұрын
That crack any good or nah?
@kurtjohnson500
27 күн бұрын
Clearly it's good by the look of dude. 😮
@jeremyjones8872
2 ай бұрын
I have lossed sooo many friends n family to addiction, Everytime i watch Ryans vids it always makes me remember how valuable everyday is and addicts like me are so blessed to be alivve! R.i.p Ryan...
@MrE215_
2 ай бұрын
Please upload this next part now please Karina! Thank you so much for this! I love you! Palabra
@shaynemillhollin270
2 ай бұрын
Best stories ever miss you bro! Santa Barbara local legend 805 . Thanks Karina for all the content. Hope you guys are doing well!
@kooskoos8181
2 ай бұрын
Thank u karina! I really hope this one has somewhat of a conclusion.
@staceygoodwin179
2 ай бұрын
I love he admits he’s crazy…and he is in a good way…very unique
@brokens1097
2 ай бұрын
Much appreciated
@cultmeetingpodcast
Ай бұрын
Wish I would’ve known about this guy when he was alive. Thank you to whoever is uploading
@joejones56
2 ай бұрын
I don’t know where he shot this video , but that room trips me out. Like isolated feeling
@jeffrobinson6987
2 ай бұрын
Looks like his garage when he went outside to piss but I got that same feeling. Or an institution type vibe 😂
@joejones56
2 ай бұрын
@@jeffrobinson6987 yea man..🤣
@mathewdaniels2640
2 ай бұрын
Happy Mother’s Day Karina, grind on
@MrE215_
2 ай бұрын
Omg this is so amazing
@tawn7313
4 жыл бұрын
U look great!!
@user-ri8oc8vi4w
2 ай бұрын
Getting to the good part love it ❤
@jamesbuttery3862
2 ай бұрын
We Love you Karina !! 💕💕 You're one BOMB ASS HYNA ! 😅😅
@robinjones2516
2 ай бұрын
God bless you Karina and your sons! They are precious little ones!
@javiermartinezjr8849
2 ай бұрын
Lmfao man homie was hilarious
@micahhayes8770
2 ай бұрын
Thanks Karina!! Happy Mother's Day 😊!!
@BillBraskyy
2 ай бұрын
1:19:00 personal bookmark 🔖 Mike makes me think of Fred from "Private Parts" lol
@Tharsismusic
2 ай бұрын
Has there been any word about a release date for the doc yet??
@Str1ctlyB1zness47
2 ай бұрын
LONG LIVE RYAN LEONE🫡 GONE BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN #PALABRA
@ashintheblunt3292
2 ай бұрын
Hope you are doing great karina… we love you and the kids. I feel like we will always have your back. Ryan created a good community and loyal fans only understand why people would give you money or just support in general. I’m sure you are okay financially but life gets hard and all that …anyways… palabra ❤
@MIRONWORKER
2 ай бұрын
WELL SAID
@dabsindeeddabsindeed7205
4 жыл бұрын
Uncontrolbel hermit crabbing...hereditary side boob..palobra.....
@a1fromday117
2 ай бұрын
Happy Mother’s Day Karina! Rip Ryan. Palabra
@Jcmeans
2 ай бұрын
Loyalty forsure
@matthewfry4694
2 ай бұрын
Thank u Karina im alot like Ryan im a only child and on mdone so hard to get off im sorry Ryan got virail nemonia and over did it a little bit his best interview was with Jessica kent and mark laytiaa soft white under belly he really has some amazing storys and talent s for writing im sorry hes gone and your kids got to get threw with out him
@karireyes9178
2 ай бұрын
The ads
@markske2156
4 жыл бұрын
Just poppin into the comments to show you some love.... Palabra -MARKSKE215
@jslaughterofthesoul4939
2 ай бұрын
Happy Mother's Day, Karina 🖤🖤🖤
@adamcasey6899
2 ай бұрын
What's with the 44 ads holy
@RicardoMedina-qb7nk
2 ай бұрын
💯
@DanielGibbsMusic
2 ай бұрын
🖤🖤🖤
@ashintheblunt3292
2 ай бұрын
Somebody posted the what really happened story episode 5 on Reddit and I mean I think it’s lame that someone did that but at the same time cool cuz it was free. But still if all the private videos are on patrion then it should be bought, there are reasons why but my personal reason is to help karina, and the kids ❤ it is what it is tho. This community Ryan built I really hope we all stick around for the long run to help karina❤
@micahhayes8770
2 ай бұрын
I just keep thinking Ryan is going to drop a video tiiled "Why I faked my death" one day. 2 years later it still dont seem like he is gone. Rest in Paradise my dude.
@ryanlacoe3064
2 ай бұрын
Gone way too soon prayers for you and the boys.Palabra
@zommbyflon
2 ай бұрын
Pls tell me we are going to get the China cliff hanger one day ???????????????????? 😃😃😃
@barberking6616
2 ай бұрын
So many commercials
@DaveSCameron
Ай бұрын
Yt is going all out to make everyone buy their premium, I still remember when they swore that they would never ask us to pay for the content and look at them now, maybe they need the money what do you think?😂😂
@BennyRobinson
2 ай бұрын
god I wish he would have kidnapped Sas instead of getting played again
@unounv
2 ай бұрын
Miss you bro 🥲
@bobbydigital311
Ай бұрын
I bought your book dude....js Rest well Leone
@AngelDavidson-fu5yg
2 ай бұрын
I miss the shit outta Ryan...RIP bro
@tonysoto5530
22 күн бұрын
TY KARINA ❤❤❤❤
@stephenstuckey
2 ай бұрын
So, how did he end up relapsing to where it eventually killed him? Cuz obviously he is clean here and was a for awhile. He died from fent correct? So im assuming he ended up relapsing at some point. Damn shame man.
@anaayala8004
2 ай бұрын
His Dad said in a video that he relapse due to the stress of having a second child, his Mom's health decline, and all the projects he had going on.
@zackmalliet8541
2 ай бұрын
He actually died due to having walking pneumonia and trying to get help. He went to the hospital and was gave a strong benzo, that mixed with the drugs in his system killed him. Sure had he not had fentnal already in his system it wouldn't have taken his life but that was not the sole component. There are 2 videos talking about it on the channel they are the first 2 videos from when his girlfriend brought the channel back to life. Long time supporter and fan just trying to inform others who don't know the whole story.
@markfogarty574
2 ай бұрын
@@anaayala8004Definitely agree with everything you listed. Also the comment section, particularly on patreon, started to turn on him.
@anaayala8004
2 ай бұрын
@@markfogarty574 😔
@jeffrobinson6987
2 ай бұрын
I'm not saying he was using in this video cuz I have no clue but just like anything else the more and more you do something the better you get at it. I've slipped up a ton of times and absolutely nobody had a clue until I reached out or kept on going for like a year straight and it started to show. I hide it very well especially cuz I get embarrassed about it and afraid to death to have to go thru the withdrawals again. All it takes is one small slip up due to stress or sometimes something just clicks in your brain and your off and running again. But like the other comments said it wasn't a normal overdose type situation
@StefanieC11
Ай бұрын
🖤💙
@parkavenue3990
4 жыл бұрын
I miss the ritual of cooking my wake up and the smell of cooking my wake up shot. I truly miss that shit so much even though I know it ruined my life for fucking decade. I also miss the taste of the dope when you hit even more. Crazy I could change my life and have 16 months clean and still miss that shit. Truly a disease/sickness. And after having 16 months clean you'd think I'd have it together which in some ways I do. I was homeless for 3 years and now have an apartment. I pay my bills. I have 16 months clean. I get a week of take home doses of methadone at a time instead of having to go there everyday. Also have successfully now tapered more than half way of my methadone dose down from 165mg to 80mg. Really proud of those few things. But like Ryan said I'm literally mentally handicapped now from self medicating for a decade so now that I'm clean my mental health issues are very prevalent to everyone around me. Plus im on probation so I can't smoke weed and when I first got clean using weed to decompress and for sleep purposes was one of the most beneficial things I was doing for my mental health and then I just had to stop all of the sudden because they brought charges up on me from 2 years before I got clean. Im about to have my review hearing in September and I've done everything they've asked of me so im praying that they drop the case. Plus because of this covid shit my court date keeps getting pushed back. So I would of been done with my case 2 months ago but because of this covid shit they keep pushing it back month by month. Long rant I know but after I write all this shit out and read it I feel better about my situation.
@samanthatheowlbear2003
4 жыл бұрын
Like he said save your life man, don't feel bad being on maintenance drugs. I'm glad you're doing better
@nolanfinn4231
4 жыл бұрын
What Are some of the mental health issues people around you can notice due to past drug abuse? Just curious… Thanks for sharing!
@parkavenue3990
4 жыл бұрын
@@nolanfinn4231 Well see i had metal health issues before i got real bad on drugs. So during the decade of doing drugs my mental health issues just got even worse and I was getting more and more strung out so I didn't really notice how bad it was getting. So there's that side of it. Also being in the street and selling dope you can run into some really fucked up situations. At the time I was really getting money and because of jealousy I got kidnapped. Like legit gun to my head and get in the fucking van type of kidnapping. These people that i knew were trying to get me either when I reuped or sold out but what happened is I sold out and went back to where I was staying and put the money up and then left and they grabbed me then. So basically they thought where I went to was my connection because I was in and out real quick. So when they grabbed me they realized that I didn't have anything on me to rob. So then it turned into a ransom situation. And remember that I knew these people. Like I knew them well. Im not going to explain how everything ended but think about if some people you grew up with kidnapped you and held you for ransom how it would effect you. After that and a few other near death experiences I started having super bad night terrors so my girl at the time would see me spazz out basically every night. Wake up not knowing where I am and crying like a little kid. That is some embarrassing shit to have happen every time you go to sleep. It got to the point where I wouldn't sleep and then you get real weird. She really saw it more than anyone because we lived together. Also I will not let people ever stand behind me. If I go inside somewhere I have to face the door or have an exit route out of the building. Chicks always kinda look at you crazy if your on a date and you ask to switch seats unless they already know what's up. So all that shit was going on while I was doing drugs. So when I got clean let's just say it was very obvious that something had happened to me. I've been in a car that got shot up so this 4th of July was really fucked up for me. So its not really mental health issues from doing drugs. It's from the life you live when drugs are involved. I am diagnosed with PTSD, an acute anxiety disorder, and severe depression. I'm really surprised I just told a stranger about all this fucked up and embarrassing shit I have to deal with on a day to day basis but fuck it here is some insight on mental health issues. To anyone that suffers from similar things I'd really suggest going to therapy. It has helped me more than words can explain.
@parkavenue3990
4 жыл бұрын
@@samanthatheowlbear2003 Yeah I can't agree anymore. And thank you.🙏🏼
@meuandthelot
2 ай бұрын
@parkavenue3990 ShineBright No more mental gymnastics 🙏🏼🕊
@rafaelguinlelima1256
2 ай бұрын
Palabra RIP
@mikeessc2072
2 ай бұрын
Hi
@JasonBrown-dd7dj
2 ай бұрын
He suffered so much in life, addiction,prison ect .He found a bit of happiness and was taken to soon. Opiates including MAT impact so many bodily systems you affect one brain neurotransmitter dopamine ect it effects all.Without what it does to digestive sytem.Totally screws your endocrine system hormones ect . People get past physical withdrawel they then face Paws for up to a year.Sleep,depression and severe anxiety if people new their suffering .A pain patient who would never judge again if people could walk ten yards in is shoes..
@IbrahimMuhammad_114
2 ай бұрын
Grifter
@Welcome2WaynezWorld
4 жыл бұрын
Dude stop starting new fucking stories when u have two different streams of storylines u haven't finished yet
@robertlyle76
2 ай бұрын
Such a handsome, smart, young man so much potential all gone so pre maturely. It is hard for me to watch Ryan now a days knowing the out come. Makes me feel my life can go the same way. I am 22 years old me and my girl friend stung out on fetty i can totally relate with Ryan been watching him since i was 19 and he was gone so soon i dont know thanks Karina for allowing us to watch the patreons.
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