There's nothing to forgive Dylan. You were away to care for you and that's understandable and necessary. Hope you keep getting happier days ❤️
@alexscabinet9204
Жыл бұрын
Been a subscriber since the late 2000s when you made that first girls' generation video and sharing how you discovered them. At every snsd comeback I'd always love seeing your reactions. Please don't feel guilty for needing to take the time off. Life can leave us so distraught for periods but as you said there are bright days too. Always wishing you the best Dylan ✨
@markneil6892
Жыл бұрын
Joined 1yr ago. Uhmm...
@alexscabinet9204
Жыл бұрын
@@markneil6892 cause a person can not have multiple accounts~
@celinemorneau
Жыл бұрын
SNSD was there for me when I developed crippling panic/anxiety and depression in high school. They too brought so much light into my life and opened up the opportunity to make so many amazing friends and memories in college. They bring so much hope and happiness. I love watching your videos and was so happy to meet you at KCON NY. Time will heal; sending love and energy
@alejandrosc5
Жыл бұрын
Nobody is disappointed of you Dylan. You are a friend. You are a sone. So you are not alone, everything's gonna be better in time. Big hughs!
@dori_ands
Жыл бұрын
You could not drop a video for a billion years and we’d be okay and you would not have to apologize. Never apologize for wanting to ensure you are your best self! Thank you for everything you’ve done for the Sone community and we ❤ seeing you when we do see you!
@amehoons
Жыл бұрын
I got into Girls’ Generation in 2012 and they have brought me the most happiness I’ve ever felt over the past decade. Ever since I fell down the GG rabbit hole, I started to watch your videos and what a journey it has been. I feel so lucky that I’ve been able to support Girls’ Generation for as long as I have, but I also have to thank you for gifting us such great and entertaining content along the way! Every time there was ever GG content whether it be group promos, solo albums or whatever, I’ve always known that you were right there alongside all of us SONEs to support them. Thank you Dylan for all you’ve done for the Girls’ Generation community and just know that you never should have to worry about letting any of us down, especially considering the circumstances. May Zinger rest in peace and may we all find happiness in the days, weeks, months and years going forward. ❤️
@stepttyl
Жыл бұрын
WE LOVE YOU DYLAN
@demitwice
Жыл бұрын
i used to watch girls generation go to school (their first reality show) literally every night before going to sleep, as it was something that helped me calm down (i had pretty bad anxiety and had a lot of panic attacks while trying to fall asleep). so i totally understand what you mean when you say snsd saved you. don't feel bad for taking your time, you should do what it takes to make you feel better. sending positive energy
@reneehopper1737
Жыл бұрын
Losing a pet changes you fundamentally, but it sounds like you're learning how to find joy in more than your treasured and incomparable lifelines, and that's a very powerful journey to take. Lots of love
@aniahmatthews936
Жыл бұрын
God I felt this hard. Was also a depressed teen in 2011 at 14 years old when I found GG and to say they changed my life would be the biggest understatement. Much love to you and I as well as everyone else here is thinking of you.
@atiny_traveler
Жыл бұрын
I totally felt this with SNSD and then Twice. Those two groups with BTS were honestly the reasons I was alive today. SNSD really started to show me what happiness really was in 2010 and then in 2013 and 2015 the other groups gave me even more happiness. It's not crazy!!! music touches peoples lives and I thank those groups for giving me a chance when I didn't see the light at the end of the tunnel
@lazypotato2204
Жыл бұрын
Oh Dylan, I can only send a big fat hug your way. We love you and missed you. Happy to have you back ❤
@MitsukiMimichoe
Жыл бұрын
I want to give you the biggest hug ever. I am glad you're filming and thus trying to so something you really enjoy doing. And I want to say I am so sorry for the loss of your dog. I am glad you're back, welcome back!!!
@joshuasoto9961
Жыл бұрын
Don't worry Dylan, don't let your thoughts beat you. What you have to do is to find something else that you loved, something that makes you happy. There is a lot of things you can do but you have to find it by yourself.
@grimalkin3522
Жыл бұрын
I felt this to my core as a huge SONE in my teenage years and I'm sorry for what happened to your beloved dog. You don't need to apologize, Dylan, life is just hard sometimes and we appreciate you for sharing all this. Sending hugs, Dylan!
@beatrizpascoa1302
Жыл бұрын
Just yesterday i came to your channel after remembering about you while listening to the new song from Got the beat. I'm so sorry for you loss! I can't imagine the pain you must have been through. Sending you lots of love ❤️ Stay strong and don"t worry we will be here waiting for you. Take your time and don't be so harsh on yourself!
@stevenslifestyle9623
Жыл бұрын
Honestly so relatable, being okay with them gone and then them coming back and going AGAIN is like a family member coming back to life for one month and then them going again (I know it’s dramatic, but it’s a genuine fact!) Xx Sending hugs Dylan ❤️ RIP Zinger 😢💔
@chr1stopher11
Жыл бұрын
I've enjoyed your videos for many years Dylan, you don't owe us anything. It is lovely to hear you are in love with you boyfriend. Wish you well ❤
@veryferal1970
Жыл бұрын
Oh Dylan. I empathize so much with where you've been for the past few months. What a tremendous loss you've suffered in such a short period of time. I lost my beloved heart dog in exactly the same way and to be frank, it's traumatic. Thank you so much for your openness - this is what all of us love about you so much. You being you. No one here is disappointed or angry with you - we understand. Know that we are here for whatever you decide to put out on this channel! Sending you so much love Dylan. You are an incredible human being.
@renatasm
Жыл бұрын
Snsd is forever, hang on to it. They are always in our hearts and we can always come back to that feeling of joy they give us without having the feeling of missing and sadness, who knows, maybe they will come back for more good memories someday. And as a person who lost a mother, an uncle and a brother in the space of 9 months 6 years ago, I tell you that the pain and sadness will always be with us but with time you learn to live again. I hope you feel better and that you find joy again ….. and come back again if you're ready and if you're not it's ok ❤
@NyokouChannel
Жыл бұрын
You've been going through so much.. and I'm right there with you on SNSD and my cat saving my life. My cat is turning 18 in April and he's been having seizures for the last two years but he's still hanging in there. I'm not ready to lose him and probably never will be tbh but I know his time is coming.. Don't apologize for your time to grieve and your time to refocus on yourself and your well being. You have so many loved ones around you now, who see the light in you and are willing to be there for you when you don't have the strength to stand up on your own. And when you are ready to stand on your own again you will be stronger than ever, because that's the type of person you are! Sending you much love and condolences ❤️
@WaffleEBay12
Жыл бұрын
Thanks for sharing Dylan. I'm not upset or anything by your absence, but it's always nice to hear from you. I'm really sorry to hear about your dog too. I've lost 3 animals growing up and it still hurts sometimes to think about it. I started enjoying Girls' Generation's music in 2013 and I was almost immediately all in. I think they have brought millions happiness all over the world and I can see why. Their music is infectious and each member is loads of fun. But then, 2014 happened and I won't even talk of it because sones still argue about it to this day, but nearly all of us witnessed it. That moment broke my heart and my love of SNSD kind of fizzled down to a soft flame from then to the end of 2016. I've never been as wildly invested since then. That event in 2014 and doing poorly in school made me feel depressed. It was tough to deal with, but I got out of school and started feeling better. 4 years later and this comeback in 2022 happens and it was a blast! I was able to rekindle my love for SNSD without becoming heartbroken when it ended. It was sad that they didn't win any music shows and that promotions came to an end so fast, but it was lovely while it lasted. I'm sure millions of other kpop fans around the world get a similar heartbreak when their biases leave of their fave band disbands. It sucks, but it's the norm in kpop. Shinhwa and The Backstreet Boys are the exception, not the rule. I still discover a random song every once in a while that I didn't know SNSD released which brings me back to those golden days of first discovering SNSD! Even if they don't comeback, there is still good kpop music being released like Pop! (Which reminds me of SNSD a bit). Girls' Generstion will always have a special place in my heart and it's great we can all come to this chsnnel and talk about it. Thanks for sharing Dylan and I hope we get to see lots more of you soon!
@MsSophLee
Жыл бұрын
i’ve been your subscriber since 2013-2014 i guess??? and when you said how you felt about snsd comeback and all the sadness after the end of promotions and where that took you i totally felt it. I’m so sorry for your lost, im pretty sure your dog was an amazing friend. Hope you can find peace and happiness again soon! dw about us, we can always wait for your content to be back as long as you feel like uploading it!
@MargotDePerla
Жыл бұрын
I legit teared up (ugly crying) when you talked about the loss of your beloved dog because it reminded me of losing my grandpa back on October 31st. I check up on your channel occasionally since your personality is just so amazing. I will wait for your updates whenever they may be. Thank you for the realness. We love you and there's nothing to forgive! You are more than your KZitem channel.
@fmm56301
Жыл бұрын
As someone whose also lost a pet that was so close to my heart in a very traumatic way, you don't owe anyone an apology! I'm truly so sorry that you're experiencing this, and I hope things get better little by little! ✨️💕 Take whatever time you need because you deserve to get back to that happy place!
@alloaeno
Жыл бұрын
Hey Dylan. Thanks for being so open and vulnerable in this video, I know that must've been hard. I hope you know your fans will always be waiting and I hope that you know that we understand; there's no need to be sorry.
@Awakening_Sunshine
Жыл бұрын
The way you feel about SNSD is the way I feel about SHINee (who I discovered in 2013 thanks to my SoShi obsession). They changed my life in ways I can’t even explain, and like you, it’s taken me years to come to terms with the fact that I’ll never see them together (as five) again. Your feelings are totally valid and understandable, and I’m so glad you’re back
@aniveve
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for being so vulnerable and genuine, I know it is very hard to do in general, but especially on the internet. It takes an incredible amount of bravery and strength to do so. I’m so sorry for your loss and all of the hardships you’ve had to endure, but please do not apologize. Life happens, taking care of yourself and your own mental health is most important thing. I really enjoyed this more vulnerable type of video from you, and hope to see more in the future 💕🙏 please take good care
@kauaiviking
Жыл бұрын
Man you make good stuff I think you are funny as hell and I love your edits. Whatever you make it will be good.
@RobbyU712
Жыл бұрын
Mental health is important. I thank you for being able to share something so intimate & personal. I will continue to look forward to any videos you do & that you are doing better each and every day, Dylan. ♥😊✌
@vip5hawol-deehirota
Жыл бұрын
omgod 😭 my favorite sone, we missed you over here ! ♡ edit: im so sorry for your loss ): and no need to ever apologize. we're here waiting for you whenever. take care
@vwinty
Жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry for your loss, recently i had to say goodbye to my precious cat too, he was and still is my everything. Don't feel bad for taking your time, it's important to take care of our mental health, to recover. You're amazing and your videos always brings me joy, so i hope time continue to help you heal and don't feel guilty, you don't need to apologize!
@GUAGA0612
Жыл бұрын
Happy New Years Dylan. There's absolutly no need to apologyise, best wishes to you. I had a very very similar story to you. I used to be extremely attached to one group which I am not gonna name to a point where I spent most of my time and savings on throughout university. I used to frce myself to wake up super early just to get o see their daily updates to an unhealthy point. It was only when a bad scandal happened to this group that forced me out of this situation; it was not easy. I suffered from 6 months of depression and felt like a part of my life was gone.
@danfilion6403
Жыл бұрын
Sending you a massive hug. We love and support you. 💚💚💚💚
@lydiareifsnyder9782
Жыл бұрын
I understand how you've been feeling, probably to a lesser extent. I lost a dog a few months ago; he was old and we didn't have him for long, but I was devastated when we had to let him go. On the note of SNSD, they have also changed my life. I would not be who I am and be on the career path that I'm in if not for discovering them 10 years ago nearly to the day. Their comeback, "Forever 1," was mind-blowing and definitely one of their strongest albums as a group. It made me so happy seeing them reunite after so long. You don't have to apologize for anything. Everyone has their sad moments and deserve to take the time that they need to heal. I've been watching your content for nearly a decade and it's been a privilege to watch you grow as a creator and artist. I can't wait to see what you grace us with next. ^_^
@AuroraDiamondis
Жыл бұрын
Oh Dylan. I´m so sorry. Loosing family is so hard. And especially a pet - I - I had to make a very similiar decision in Jan of 2020, so I understand. It´s okay to not be here if you need time for yourself. Take care.
@zinja0830
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for being so vulnerable with us. I figured that you’d upload whenever you were ready, but couldn’t have possibly known that you have gone through so much in these past few months. I’m grateful that you are putting your health first and look forward to your next reaction!
@dia6062
Жыл бұрын
Sending all the love and support!! Take as much time you need!! The way you feel about SNSD is the exact same way I feel about BTS. So I completely understand. Also losing a dog is so so hard. Especially your first/childhood dog. I lost mine last year as well due to old age complications and I havent been the same since. Its still tough but it gets better, slowly and surely. Healing like a wound doesnt happen overnight and you should take all the time for it without feeling bad. Im so sorry about Zinger and may he rest in peace. I hope you slowly feel better and get through this difficult time.
@viktoriamontberg
Жыл бұрын
you are such a strong person and i really hope that you will see more brigther days in the future again and you that you'll find inner peace. i have watched your videos for almost 7 years now and want to thank you for these memories and no matter what happens or how long i'll have to wait for the new content, it will be worth it. because seeing you doing fine is the most important thing ❤
@JordiVanderwaal
Жыл бұрын
I lost my first cat over a decade ago but when you talked about losing your dog it just brought memories. 😭 I hope you keep doing better.
@meanwhile6737
Жыл бұрын
Damn dude glad ur doing better now and hope you keep ur head up
@ximenaislas8146
Жыл бұрын
I love your content, Dylan. And I know a lot of us want to see a lot more of you 💖 I have watched for your videos for almost 10 years now, and you will always have a special place in my heart even if I don’t know you personally. Thanks for coming back 🤩 and I hope you have a lot of happy days only 😊
@oliviadurand2429
Жыл бұрын
I’m proud of you for posting this Dylan! You are amazing! It is not easy to post something this vulnerable, and you are loved!
@lizethms888
Жыл бұрын
You are strong, you are amazing , you are beautiful, talented and smart ❤; you are loved, you are appreciated and we support you. ❤ Hang in there, sweet Dylan.
@alext6497
Жыл бұрын
It seems like you've done little to no hard drugs in life and the expressionism you still have in your face is refreshing, Dylan. We're proud of you 🤩
@raelsgs
Жыл бұрын
Thanks so much Dylan for coming back. Even though I'm just a fan of Girls' Generation (Sone), but I've watched all your reaction content to many K-pop groups, and you are the only reactor where I watch not only content about Girls' Generation, but also from other groups, because of you is my number 1 favorite reactor. I look forward to your next reaction content Dylan🙏🏻
@k-popbiased1058
Жыл бұрын
Hi Dylan, I wanted to say I'm very sorry for the loss of your dog, and very happy for you and your boyfriend! That Boy Is Mine is still a bop ;) I also wanted to say that I really don't think anyone is mad at you. Obviously I can only speak for myself with certainty, so for what it's worth, I am definitely not mad at you. As to how I coped with the loss of Girls Generation, I think it was an easier road for me because around the time they lost Jessica (definitely shed some tears that day) I started getting really into a second group, so I could slowly transfer my feelings. Forever 1 was INDEED very weird thank you! Like the video made me cry happy tears, but the album was a bit of a disappointment to me personally, and I knew it wasn't to last, so I guess I didn't let myself watch the variety show or get too invested. I hope this is not unwelcome, but I have also been in pretty dark mental depths, and part of what I've learned is that rather than getting a lot of joy from one thing and depending on that thing, you need to get little bits of joy from a multitude of small things - like sunlight on a leaf, a good latte, a walk with a friend. God I know how stupid that sounds, but unfortunately it's true! My life improved when I stopped pursuing happiness and started looking for peace and contentment. Hope that wasn't too annoying, and know that some rando in New York is rooting for you
@angelxskyy
Жыл бұрын
wanna give you the biggest hug, glad you're seeing better days luv
@ChaiChabeela
Жыл бұрын
I'm so so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby. I had a similar situation with my kitty soul mate, Gentleman, who walked up to me in the mountains in Korea and basically said "You're my human now. Take me home." He became sick really suddenly at around 5 years old and we spent 2 agonizing weeks and thousands trying to save him. In the end, I kind of wished we had done it earlier. I struggled for a couple of years without him. I would have flashbacks from time to time. But they have gotten better and other kitties have come into my life. First a tiny little girl who is so different from him. Then a big chunky boy who walked up to me at a rescue, put his paw up against the window, and stared in a way that basically said "You're my human now. Take me home." They aren't a replacement for him and I sometimes think about how happy he would have been with us all together (he loved kittens). But it brings me joy to see things in them that are so different, and other things that are so similar. You didn't let her down. You gave her a loving home for 12 amazing years. So many dogs never get the kind of love you gave her. You also made the absolute best choice you could. I'm sure she is working on picking a perfect, furry little soul that will one day find their way to you when you are ready.
@joanatheweirdo
Жыл бұрын
I’m sorry for you loss Dylan. I’m happy that you were able to share what was on your mind to us viewers ❤ I feel like I’ve been watching you since I was a teenager and you’r videos always brought a smile to my face!
@marslia
Жыл бұрын
you finding happiness in snsd and getting a dog.. exact same thing happened to me with another group and my pup in 2017.. thats crazy omg 😭 your feelings are completely valid, i'm so sorry for your loss, at least she's not in pain anymore, you did whats best for her. i'm happy you've found a happy circle of friends and such a loving boyfriend, you really deserve it! please take your time with everything, take care of yourself, we'll always be here! sending you love and positivity
@nickpop1551
Жыл бұрын
Even though I may not completely relate to your situation with Girls Generation, I’m sorry it effected your mental health. And of course you losing your dog is devastating. Keep taking care of yourself and I hope your happiness continues to grow. ❤
@fleurayz
Жыл бұрын
Dylan I think a lot of us understand and feel what you feel for snsd. Sometimes bad circumstances come together, I just hope you can also work on your past traumas. I have been and weight is being lifted of me. Take care and do what you want to
@donnitderkomet
Жыл бұрын
Dylan I am very sorry to hear about your loss and struggle, I been watching you for so many years. I just want to say we of course are understand Ing and support Ing you always. End of last year was a mess for me too, our long year Pet had a Tumor and we lived some time everyday didnt know how long He can go, and had to make a decision in the end to let him go, some day after that I was hit by a car when I crossed a Green Light, and after that developed a skin condition the doctors said it was an immune sickness and I thought i was gonna die Soon I was so scared but after laboratory test it was really frostbites all over my hands and feet. I was very rough mentally By this Story i just want to say, though each other can never feel the pain, I just can relate how to struggle really Bad. I am glad you have people around you support Ing you. We love your Videos Looking forward to your New announced Videos!
@marioalmeida6809
Жыл бұрын
love u dylan!! stay strong, i love ur vids and we’re all excited to get to know you more!
@paccinocappaccino
Жыл бұрын
Sending u so much love 🫂
@callmeyourbae2859
Жыл бұрын
It's fineeeee Dylan, we can wait, just be happy, don't forget to take care of yourself,
@evenif7431
Жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry for what you've been through, a loss like that is so incredibly hard. I'm glad the good days are happening more frequently and I hope some day you forget what this kind of sadness feels like again ❤ excited to see what you have planned 💖
@LumaPerrete
Жыл бұрын
I'm sorry you had to go such through a hard time and I'm glad you're healing. Take all the time you need when you need it. Your reactions are my favorite, they always make my day, so I'm excited you're back, but it's ok you had to spend some time away.
@taedreamshi
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing🙂 There is nothing to forgive😉
@GreNAquA
Жыл бұрын
I've never seen them live as a group never but they're my source of happiness even to this day. I've been really consumed in work to a point where I don't know myself anymore when their comeback came I felt emotions for the first time in a while the most important was that I laughed I really laughed it was like a reset. I hope this year I could be more healthy mentally and I hope everyone is. So if you needed time you're in your right I wrote fanfics of them and I loved it but then the inspiration just didn't come. Till today that I'm trying to study a bit to create new content, an original content.
@lamia.lim1
Жыл бұрын
I love you dylan as a subscriber that have been follow you since the beginning I hope you the best always and the happiness take care of yourself and you can do it 💙💙
@kimble90126
Жыл бұрын
Omg I hope you are okay and so sorry about your doggie passing away. I recently lost my mom about 4 months ago to cancer.
@noomj3922
Жыл бұрын
We’re all just happy ur back don’t worry about taking time off 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗
@KingOfEden12
Жыл бұрын
I’ve been into Kpop since early 2014 and it’s crazy to think i found your channel later that year and that I remember just being so exited that other people were obsessed with SNSD just as much as I was haha ! It’s now 2023 and all the reaction channels I used to watch way back then are either dead, moved on to other content or are just burned out. I know you don’t upload much anymore and that’s okay, as corny as it sounds, it’s just nice to see you on camera cause it reminds me of the good ole days 😄 cheers Dylan !
@Biskuit12
Жыл бұрын
I have to stop watching it in the middle because its so relatable. I got emotional. Girls generation gave us so much joy. I will finish the vid and read all my fellow sones comments too.
@shymaline
Жыл бұрын
Take care of yourself!! I'm looking forward to all the new things you will give us
@Nelliebellieswe
Жыл бұрын
When someone you love dies it will always take time to heal. Sadness is part of life and when you're happy again, the happiness will feel differen. Hopefully in a good way ❤️
@Bcmak
Жыл бұрын
Dylan, I just wanted to let you know you are not alone in your grief. As I watched your video was genuinely shocked at the parallels in our lives. I’m a long time follower I remember watching your first KZitem videos and tumblr days when you first found SNSD. Similarly, 2021/2022 were amazing years for me and I also lost my dog extremely suddenly in Sept, just a month before you did. I am so sorry for your loss and I am so sorry you’ve had to go through grief from multiple angles. It was really great to hear from you and that you’re having more good days. I look forward to your upcoming videos ❤️❤️❤️
@karregege
Жыл бұрын
DYLAN. of course we understand, of course we forgive, there is nothing to forgive! we just really missed you. i don't have that type of relationship with snsd, but i do with bts. and i was so attached it was hurting me, i was depending my happiness and basically put everything and poured my soul to them. when the military discussions began and covid hit, i knew i had to start my detachment process and i knew i would not be able to see them in concert in... a while. that's when i started diving further into kpop, with groups such as snsd which my best friend has adored since forever and many other groups. it did become easier to lay some of my love elsewhere, into places that couldn't hurt me, it was just joy. nothing deep, complicated or anything so entagled to my personal life and personality, as bts are and was. it did help, and now as they are entering their hiatus as group i feel... ok? of course sad and a bit scared but i am ok with myself and my life and i can try and see the good in what's to come and when they will return, and i am preparing myself for the possibility of it being in splashes, like snsd reunion era, which i as a new fan mourned A LOT too. it was the only kpop content i watched during that time. sorry for this long ass comment but i will end with that i also understand your loss for zinger. i was so close to losing my dog this summer, but miracously she recovered but i know how sad i forever will be when that day comes. love u dylan, keep fighting you got this!!
@raachelala
Жыл бұрын
I fell in love with your channel the second I heard you emphatically call our girls "BABIES." You've been making me happy and laughing ever since. I grew up watching you and SNSD, and I'm so glad that you're still here with us, even if the girls aren't actively promoting. I support you
@ot7oclock
Жыл бұрын
There is NOTHING TO BE SORRY ABOUT!! i hope your better days come more often and i am excited for whatever content you release next!
@ekimbo
Жыл бұрын
Don't worry about us! Recognizing and appreciating good days is such a good sign and I hope they continue to happen for you! Watching your reactions changed my mind about so many artists, I consider you more of a friend! So, be well! Me and so many others will be here to hang out/catch up/react whenever u damn well want to 🥰
@hyokai9447
Жыл бұрын
Dylan, there's nothing to forgive! I've followed you for years, and I just hope you feel better. And you will, I'm sure of it ❤
@kcorrigant
Жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry. Having to choose between a pet's life and money is just the ickiest feeling someone can go through and it is truly traumatizing.
@ShawolDubu
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing this. I've been a subscriber since you first started posting videos and have had the opportunity to see you to grow on YT. I'm glad you were able to take the time for yourself mentally and physically. I don't think there was anything wrong with what you did and it's great that you are feeling better now. Looking forward to new content but at your own pace. Never feel bad for taking time to heal. Stay safe and healthy, Dylan!
@redacornagency
Жыл бұрын
Oh Dylan. Thank you so much for the video! Just to share my story, my wife of 18 years and dog of 15 years were both diagnosed with cancer this past May. Kooma, our beloved mini goldendoodle, had a rare aggressive form of skin cancer that only 1% of the dogs have. As you can imagine, my life felt over and contemplated ending it all right there for the three of us. In fact, the trauma was so much that I went from weighing 98 kg (215 lbs) to 75 kg (165 lbs) in just 2 months! For the first time, I felt depressed, distressed, and was in this incredibly terrible and surreal place. My mother thought I also had cancer & I certainly looked like a patient. Could not sleep, eat, work, nothing. Eventually, we found an amazing team of doctors who not only performed the surgeries to get the cancel cells out of both my wife & dog but also gave us incredible mental health support through counseling and medications. We also found faith at this time and by the grace of God, the ordeal was (as much as it could be) over just this October. They are now both cancer-free. We are still working through the trauma but are getting much better by being thankful every day. When I heard people say "everyday is a gift" I used to gag (or throw a middle finger or two). I know what that means now. Dylan, you are absolutely one of my favorite reactors. I am very glad you are back. I am also glad you decided to share your story. Although I call myself a Christian now, I am still as progressive as you can get and am a huge supporter of the LGBTQ+ community. My own gay and lesbian friends were there when I was going through tough times and hopefully I can for them as well. You have given me hours and hours of not only entertainment but camaraderie by being a fan of the 2nd gen groups! Yes, I was listening to KPop even before when SNSD debuted, being fans of S.E.S, FinkL, Seo Taeji & the Boys, SOLID, KOOL, etc. etc. Hang in there. We are here for you. I am here for you. You are a wonderful & a kindred soul. And I cannot wait for you to react to New Jeans AND any other content you'd like to put out to the world!
@lamia.lim1
Жыл бұрын
it's good sometimes to remember that life always have a good side and also a tough side and this is normal and we must get used to it, reality is tough but we can make it better by moving on by understanding this is how life is going and understanding that people come and go and nothing last forever and yes it’s sad but you can't think you have being living the life without having this bitter and sweet moments. we should have this kind of thoughts to get through the toughest times so you can have a purpose to continue to living life
@nthl3970
Жыл бұрын
Yes, everything gonna be alright Dylan. I'll keep watching the videos.
@oohdiana
Жыл бұрын
it's honestly so good to see you back 💗 (literally stopped watching single's inferno to see this video) you had enough reasons to be away, it's ok! looking forward for new videos! (kpop or not) ✨
@gaeulai
Жыл бұрын
Never apologise for this Dylan. This video hit home for me, I also lost my dog who I grew up with during pandemic. I lived in a different country than my parents and had not seen him for a few years before he passed which made me sad but parents were the ones who had to the make the difficult decision of letting him go. Know that you made the right decision ♥️ I read once that grief never fully leaves but we grow around it and it gets lighter to carry. So time does indeed heal. I’ve been watching your videos for probably around a decade now and would love to see you back, but take all the time you need ♥️
@riulia4908
Жыл бұрын
I understand your loss. I lost my dog belle on July fourth 2 years ago. While everyone was happy celebrating, I was saying goodbye to my dog of 14 years while watching her in pain from seizures. Making that decision was the hardest thing I have ever done. So you’re definitely not alone. She was my everything. Got her in the 5th grade and she was with me through thick and thin. She was my soulmate, child, and friend. From her first day I brought her home to her having to wear diapers from not being able to hold her bladder she was with me. I think of her everyday and miss her everyday why she had to leave me so soon. I’m just saying you take as long as you need to heal. Cry, scream, ask why etc. it’s been 2 years and I still do these things. Just know you loved her to the fullest and she’ll always know. She’ll always be with you. ❤
@lastgreg8488
Жыл бұрын
Dylan no worries at all, your reactions are always a favorite of mine but I would hate to see you force out content at the expense of your mental health. I can relate to what you're going through a lot too, just know we all love you and really appreciate the way you talk to your fans, could tell it meant a lot to show us this side of you
@keiiyu
Жыл бұрын
please don't feel the need to apologize at all. good on you for taking the time to take care of yourself! i am so sorry for your loss and all you've experienced. this healing journey will be long and winding, but i hope you know we are here to support you however we can. i am hopeful that 2023 will be better and brighter for you ♡
@AjunaDiMelodia
Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for doing this video, I hadn't realized how much of my happiness was so reliant on SNSD until you out it into words. I am probably not experiencing as much because I am older and the worst is behind me, and I am still a Tiffany fan and she and the girls will release content individually, but I am also kind of grieving my fan "times" with the group. I really wish you find the happiness your puppy gave you again, and may she rest in peace.
@brynndolynn
Жыл бұрын
Queen come and go as you please, blessed by your presence but you don't owe anyone anything ;)
@rinniepiex
Жыл бұрын
Here for you, Dylan. I'm so so sorry about Zinger. Everything you've talked about in this video I 1000% can relate to. I can't wait to see what this year brings you!
@jaykaypop6501
Жыл бұрын
I will support you always!
@cozinha12345
Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing with us how you been Dylan ❤
@nhi8061
Жыл бұрын
I'm very sorry to hear about your dog. Losing a pet is always difficult but I hope you can find comfort in all the happy memories she brought you. And about the covid thing...I understand that feeling of guilt but you took a test beforehand and had no ill intentions. Don't beat yourself up too much! And lastly, it's very brave of you to be so vulnerable with us but please don't ever feel like you're obligated to offer us any kind of explanation for not posting! It's totally fine to take time off for your own well-being. We'll be here regardless, whenever you're ready. Sending you much love and Happy New Year Dylan 💗
@Campanilla1102
Жыл бұрын
Dylan i have been watching your vídeos for so many years since you did the unboxing of the boys album. I can relate so much with SNSD being one of my only sources of happiness back when i was 15-18 years old. And when they came like an angels or saviours to really save our lives and they are gone sometimes i even though in the 10th annyversary if it was better not to be such a fan because the pain was so much to handle. I only can say that you will be better with time, i also lose my little dog three years ago and time will heal everything and you will smile everytime you think of her because of the happinesss and all the love they have given to you. I look forward seeing more videos, have faith that better days will come for sure.
@viniciusrosendo7636
Жыл бұрын
You're not alone, Dylan !!! I've been through a similar process after going to a BTS concert in 2019, which had been my dream for a very long time. When I woke up on the following morning, all I could feel was hopelessness and sadness, which was so confusing given that I'd just had the best day of my life. Later, I was diagnosed with depression and I've been getting treatment ever since. Things got better, tough It's not an easy process. But just know that you are not weird and there's a lot of us that can relate to your experience. I'm glad that you have people you can count on and I hope you get to a happier place as well. Excited to watch the future content !!! We love you S2
@iamlobsterdog
Жыл бұрын
Proud of you and all you've overcome - thank you for sharing with us! Wishing you all the best always. I missed your content very much - your videos bring me a lot of joy and are a light in the darkness. You are appreciated!!
@carebear1335
Жыл бұрын
When I lost my first pet, I honestly never felt the same. When my bias group (EXID came back after a 3 year hiatus), I couldn’t even handle my feelings. Regardless of knowing these first hand, you are allowed to feel whatever you need. Wishing you all the best!
@yoonari8660
Жыл бұрын
Jesus that is A LOT to go through. I'm so sorry for your loss. Maybe this will not help but I had a dog that died 3 years ago. I had him for 10 years and he was my very best friend. One day he was taken to the vet by my mom and they discovered pancreatic cancer that had spread everywhere in his body. I lost him that day and I've never experienced heartbreak like that before. The thing that helped me a lot was to know that my sweet best friend was not in any pain anymore. If your dog had an illness that was undiscovered until the very end, maybe you should think like that too because it helped me to go through it. Anyways, I am so sorry it is truly a terrible situation. Hope you have many good days from now.
@andredrw289
Жыл бұрын
So sorry about your dog. I recently lost my grandfather around Halloween time (kind of knew it was coming but still hit too hard). You don’t have anything to explain, we love you and we support you in every way possible. Can’t wait to see what you put out next.
@emte8763
Жыл бұрын
Mental health first ! Always !
@vecb2223
Жыл бұрын
Hope to see your new ideas and content soon, SNSD indeed gave me so much joy and somehow still makes me immensely happy still it's being díficil to get into that stage of acceptance and understand. You are going through a lot more, a pet is family so I'm sure we all get why you needed that space to get better.
@NanishenmetF
Жыл бұрын
We’re here for you Dylan
@ad_kk16
Жыл бұрын
How I feel about my depression, it never leaves. I just tell myself that you just need to find ways to healthily cope with it. Just like grief, it never completely goes away but it does comes and go, we just need to keep moving forward and learn how to cope with it healthily. Just need to really appreciate the good days and salvage it. Of course, I couldn't do this all alone, I needed counsellors, therapists, support groups, friends, hobbies, physical activities, and etc.
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