My dad 2nd year of greif. I haven't cried this year as much as last year but I don't feel any better than last year. This day today
@livebeyondloss
3 ай бұрын
I’m sure it’s not easy as you continue to navigate this time. There are better days ahead.
@carmellarkin4803
10 ай бұрын
Third year coming up and it gets no easier. I will carry this burden for the rest of my life. She will always be gone.
@livebeyondloss
10 ай бұрын
I’m sure this isn’t easy. Anniversary dates (and frankly all days) are difficult. Sending love to you.
@eileenbobrycki9103
9 ай бұрын
Yeah, my anger and resentment feels like it's building. I have been isolating through the Holidays because I cannot control my anger. It feels creepier than last year, deeper, with such weird lingering doom. I've been trying to meditate more, hoping for some reprieve.
@livebeyondloss
9 ай бұрын
Hi Eileen, thank you so much for commenting. I’m sure it’s really challenging with your anger. Please know that it’s normal, and if you feel that you would like to move past it, I invite you to look into a coach, or a counselor that can help With resolving the deep feelings you’re experiencing. The holiday is definitely amplify our emotions anyway. Sending love to you. ❤️
@jennifershort3104
5 ай бұрын
The first year anniversary of my mom's death was hard enough, but it was also my birthday. I didn't even want anyone to wish me happy birthday, let alone celebrate. It was that much harder because the person I wanted to be there to celebrate wasn't anymore and never would be.
@livebeyondloss
5 ай бұрын
I’m sure it wasn’t easy for you. Holidays and anniversaries are hard. Hope the next anniversary is a little bit better for you .
@paulab2856
Жыл бұрын
I just bought your book on Amazon! Also for my second year after losing my dad, I decided to honor him by reading one book per month from his library of books, many of which I had purchased for him. He had a number of biographies and religious books. I felt so close to him during that second year ❤
@livebeyondloss
Жыл бұрын
Thank you very much Paula! And I love you're honoring your dad. What a great idea!
@jeanettebranco1910
Жыл бұрын
I definitely braced for those holidays, i am on my second year almost,and i dread the holidays still,i always will. Thank you for these videos, it helps me alot., the walking does help me alot, its the one tool that brings me peace.
@livebeyondloss
Жыл бұрын
As the years go on, there is a transformation that happens around the holidays. Yes, you still miss them, and you also bring in some good memories of holidays past. ❤️
@202triciae
Жыл бұрын
My journey will not be over until the day I die. I read somewhere that you grieve someone for as long as you've loved them. And I loved my daughter incredibly for 32 years. And we put so much effort and work and love and support for her. And then she did everything she wanted to fill last 13 years. Amazing running the Philly bareth out on getting her master's degree and nutrition. She was a rock and ice climber. She went to Peru to climb volcanoes. She went to Africa. She did so much and was kept so busy. And then when her internship was done after masters, she couldn't find a job for 6 months, but she got a brand new car. She seemed a little manic to me at a moment, but then at Thanksgiving she was peaceful and at Christmas, I know she was saying her Goodbye to me because she had looked up the most peaceful way to end your life. And resort the print out which was taken December 6th. And the last time I saw her was December 24th. And she was by my side continuously and ask me a question. As I'm wanting to put my neck the song and that was out of character for her and I noticed it right away. But I didn't say anything I just thought. Well. Megan is finally being sweet. Yes, you could be a terror and she called me also, the day before she emptied her. Life and I feel blessed that I was the only person she called she didn't answer her father's phone calls, she had just been promising me through texts. Yes, I'm gonna call you and we had to talk for an hour. But I did get to tell her how much. I love her how much I gave her for all the stupid things when she was a teenager that I was surprised at her. And then I started talking about the future and babies and I didn't realize she wanted to leave her husband so so I felt foolish afterwards. But yet bless that I got to hear Her voice. I wish I could have saved that record. It made a lot of videos of her though. Doing her internship and graduate work, and so many photos of her hiking in the snow and up mountains and a rock climbing with her husband it's been I was there for everything and I've been special event of her life. She had the biggest grin. And I just didn't know how fragile she was.
@livebeyondloss
Жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry how hard this must be for you. You are loved and supported.
@lynhead52
3 ай бұрын
I think because we are not numb. Also after being married so long, it makes it hard. I know I still brace in 2nd yr too.
@livebeyondloss
3 ай бұрын
I’m sure it’s not easy. You honor your loved one every single day you carry on
@andiwrath2293
5 ай бұрын
Every holiday since had felt empty. Every period makes the grief hot life a truck. I hate the mother's day ads. I feel so isolated sobbing on the toilet at 2 am. I miss my favorite person. Feels like a vacuous void inside.
@livebeyondloss
5 ай бұрын
I’m sure it’s not easy at all navigating your grief. Have you been able to connect with a counselor or a coach?
@jennebeattie3168
Жыл бұрын
❤
@202triciae
Жыл бұрын
Sorry, but my take on it, and I've gone through 3 years and 5 months after losing my youngest daughter to suicide, she was 32 married and her husband found her and hes the one who alerted her older sister who then Had the hard task of calling her older sister and getting her to the house. And then call their brother in DC. And then the 3 of them got on the phone with their father in Florida. And they knew they couldn't ever tell me something like that over the phone. So they came to my house at 8:45 AM . The first year was for me and I think the kids too. Because their adults was, we were in such denial that it happened. That we saw her 3 days later and because of covid, we had her cremate it which I wanted anyway and then we had to wait 6 months before We could have her funeral here in New Jersey . so everything was spread. Out I was working for the state and I didn't go back to work until August. So, yeah, I had all that isolation. But it is also such a zombie state, a step-by-step. My brain was nothing but a fog. I shouldn't have been driving. And I wouldn't even go into that I couldn't go into stores. I couldn't face people. I was so happy that we had to wear masks. Because it's just hid how much pain I was feeling, and I didn't have to pretend to smile at people. I think I didn't even recognize myself the first year. I looked to the mirror, and I did not know who I was. I changed in a second. The minute I heard from my older girls who knocked on my door blurted out :"Meghan killed herself, " which was immensely out of the blue we never ever saw that coming. I'm not sure how much her husband knew, but he told us afterward she'd been struggling for about a year she was over. Achieved our intelligent traveled the world. She 3:21 did so many things but came down to. Whatever reasons were in her head decided that this was her best solution. She left enough notes that specified things. But anyway, going back to the second year. I think the reality set in. t that this really happened. Because for me, I just refused to believe it. I just feel like oh, she must be mad. She hasnt Call me, uh, she has a texted me. And we started losing a little touch with her husband at this time. Too, he was struggling and trying to sell the house. And just trying to move on for himself. don't even know how he feels. I know he loved her and she loved him. The third year. I could also say I felt bett I cry still, but I've had some positive acceptance. Dreams that helped me with her telling me it was OK. Ay, but she was a young girl and she was saying these things. And yet the other night. I had a dream where I was at her wake and was crying. And I haven't had one of those in such a long time. I think about her every day, forget the anniversary thing. It doesn't matter like this month is suicide awareness month for September. And her birthday is September and my son's wedding anniversary is on her birthday, n And sadly, my son and his wife changed their date. September and her funeral was in September. It just leads up to we have not had a Christmas Eve since her death because she was at every one of them for 32 years, so now we go out to dinner. Thanksgiving's coming up. We did manage while I managed to go to one. And what you said is very true. I isolate myself a lot. I'm divorced and live alone. And I found it more comforting to just be by myself. I found it comforting to go to bed at 5:06 PM or 6pm,I still do but I work for a full-time job. And that's my refuge and going to see. My grandchildren is my refuge, but they're busy like kids are very busy. My son lives in Africa. It's like everybody was altogether and also close the first year. And in the second year, everybody's. Trying to live their lives and trying to figure out. What is the matter with why they're struggling? And I can't do one thing for that. Because I'm grieving and I look at my adult children's eyes. And honestly, I don't see the same people that I saw prior to March 25th. 2020 Hey, that's just my take on it. think I have a lot of experience against now to say how I feel. I'm still seeing therapist and a acceptance of her death and acceptance of her suicide. But I am super angry and I'm not sure who it's directed at. That's why I'm still saying that there is because I refuse to be mad at her. Because I love her very much. Her siblings are angry at her. Her siblings are angry at her husband I have to agree. I haven't spoken to her husband since last Thanksgiving and I blame him not for killing herself but for not protecting her enough. And not getting her the help she needed even though he could not force her into crisis. I understand that, and my brain tells me that logically it had nothing to do with. Him whether she threatened him with suicide several times her abusive nature towards him. Her outward anger with him, and he just said. One sentence that always sticks in my head. During the first week after her death that you know. I have a breaking point too, and it makes me wonder what they are talking about. The day before she killed herself. But I have never asked him and I will. Because it's not going to bring her back. And I'm sorry for the misspelling and confusing story because I'm doing speech to text. I don't too tired to go back and reset everything. Thanks for listening. Can I ask you whether Zoe which I love that name.I was your daughter or your wife.
@livebeyondloss
Жыл бұрын
Zoi is my daughter. I’m so sorry that this is a very difficult for you. ❤️
@patsybailey6187
Жыл бұрын
If I go out to give myself a brake from the grief I feel guilty can u help please
@livebeyondloss
Жыл бұрын
Hi Patty, I’m so sorry that the guilt is overpowering. We shouldn’t have to be dealing with that when we’re grieving. But it does happen. I shot another video about guilt in this series. Have you watched it?
@patsybailey6187
Жыл бұрын
@@livebeyondloss yes I saw it I'll listen to it Adian thank u so much
@bethr8756
Жыл бұрын
So your a Doctor or professional counselor??
@livebeyondloss
Жыл бұрын
I’m not a doctor or a counselor. I am a certified trauma specialist and a coach.
@bethr8756
Жыл бұрын
Well that seems to include counseling. Interesting!
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