Way back when I was about 8 I visited an art museum that had an ancient life sized statue of an asian female diety. I remember feeling compelled to stay there with the statue, walking around and around it until I was almost in a trance. A few years later I was introduced to a girl named Tara. When I heard her name "Tara" it instantly became my favorite name and ever since I've always loved that name the most. Then as an adult I learned of the Buddhist goddess Tara and the childhood experiences all clicked for me like pieces of a puzzle. It's strange, mystifying and interesting the way we humans are called towards the divine of this world. When I learned of what the goddess Tara represents it felt like the guidebook for how to excel at handling the cards I've been dealt, and as you put it, to let the past be the past. Bc she is the embodiment of liberation. And so that is why I chose my yt name "Om Tare" which is the beginning of the Tara prayer "Om tare tuttare ture soha."
@paranormalangel6
6 ай бұрын
I feel this way about the morrigan. Im glad to know the fading and coming back in big chunks of time can be normal with connection.
@1980rlquinn
7 ай бұрын
I tend to associate orange with connections to the spirit world and the afterlife, thanks mainly to the marigolds of Día de los Muertos, so the fact that this video about your relationship with Hel has such an orange hue seems perfect! 🧡
@kelly-annmaddox
7 ай бұрын
Oh I LOVE that 🧡🧡🧡
@66she.wolf99
7 ай бұрын
Yes yes yes!!! I love this! This sounds very similar to my relationship with Hekate. It’s funny because I remember in the beginning when she came to me I was like, are you sure because I’m probably considered better for working with than worshiping lol. I thought she would be disappointed and expect more of the worship aspect. She in fact is not disappointed and the love and connection we share is very strong, wether I have spent everyday of the week with her or wether I have gone periods of time where I haven’t. And I love how you spoke of embodiment. That is a piece of our relationship that I hold incredibly close to my soul. I also have Hekate oil… As well as 6 rescue hounds and a rescue snake. I just love my Goddess and I love this! Thank you!
@ReikibyEmmaHolmes
7 ай бұрын
Hecate is always in my heart ♥ Thanks for sharing 🙏
@kelly-annmaddox
7 ай бұрын
Say hi to her from me - I'm a big fan. x
@AnyaEsma
7 ай бұрын
I'd love to hear more about how you work with Joan of Arc. As she's not a deity, does it feel a lot different? Do you feel you "can't" do certain things like prayers/venerations/offerings etc. with her because she's not a deity? Do you ever feel like you're not held by her in the same way that your Goddesses do and that's why your relationship feels lacking or something in comparison to the others? Do you more connect her on a level of a role model rather than a deity? Thank youuuu. 😌
@etherinetahn6488
7 ай бұрын
I would love to hear more on this
@user-wt6bu4ph8l
7 ай бұрын
Although I don’t work with Hel, I’ve always loved listening to you talk about her. I’m also dealing with bereavement, so it was encouraging to listen to your experiences pulling away from her. I’ve shelved some aspects of my spiritual practice for the time in my grief for similar reasons and have felt quite guilty about it, but hearing you talk about it reminded me to have more self compassion.
@kelly-annmaddox
7 ай бұрын
Honestly, I'm so pleased that my experience matches yours and has brought you some relief to hear. Grief necessarily shuffles things around. Practitioners have a deep knowing of which tools make sense at certain times in life, and that wisdom shouldn't be discounted, especially in times of grief. I'm so sorry for your loss, darling. May your practice bring you healing, no matter how your path may change shape to facilitate it. x
@user-wt6bu4ph8l
7 ай бұрын
@@kelly-annmaddoxThanks so much for your reply and holding space for me. It’s been hard to embrace the transformative process of grief while in the early stages. Thanks so much for sharing your story and I’m also so sorry for what you’ve endured.
@MushroomFrog444
23 күн бұрын
What a beautiful video! It has inspired me to work more closely with my own goddesses. Thank you for sharing!
@PandorasExecutioner
7 ай бұрын
kelly ann!! This is exactly the video I've been craving, in order to get more out of my deity practice. I've watched your deity playlist, and this one really inspires me with types of activities I can do and has reminded me why entity work is one of my cornerstone practices. Your explanation of how you feel called to make poetry and deity work, and how sometimes the calling is just a casual urge and not a earth shattering one has helped me with my own blocks around poetry and deity work. Sometimes it can be just the gentle urge to hang out and play, and not to gain anything grand.
@palmskrymme
7 ай бұрын
I've been listening to one thing and writing poems with a different cadence, it clears my head
@WolfsbaneWitch
7 ай бұрын
This is an absolutely beautiful video, and so spot on. I can relate to so much of this within my own life and practice with Hecate. I also work and identify closely with Fenrir, and what you said about Hel's origins are very accurate to how I understand her brother. I also know what it feels like to have a relationship with an entity/deity change after abrupt life changes... I was raised Christian and had a grandfather who was a father figure to me, after he passed during my childhood, church felt empty and lifeless. It was like the soul has been sucked out of it without my grandfather's presence... It's hard to explain, but in hindsight I think that it was because the reason I was attached to Jesus as a deity was because I was so inspired by the love and compassion he inspired within my grandfather.
@kelly-annmaddox
7 ай бұрын
Your grandfather sounds amazing. I'm sorry you went through that experience when he passed. I love that you have similar feelings about Fenrir, whom I adore - I have a lot of time and love for both of her brothers. x
@WolfsbaneWitch
7 ай бұрын
@@kelly-annmaddox Thank you for your kind response 💗 If you ever have the inclination to speak more deeply on Fenrir or Jormungandr on your channel, I for one would be super excited to watch! 👀👀👀 I love what you've shared about your Jormungandr tattoos, it's such a powerful use of his image. 💗
@wereshem-ankh9063
7 ай бұрын
Inspiration is like a tide, it ebbs and flows, rises and sinks. I've learned that if I try and force it, I block it. So I've just learned to trust the calling. Otherwise I send myself mad. Same as working with my deity community. Poseidon helps remind me often of this.
@Zullala
7 ай бұрын
Lately Brigid has been coming through quite strongly to me. I think she wants to help me with my trauma around being a home maker. I'm naturally quite good at maintaining a home and keeping a meal ready, plus I enjoy it... but it's tough to balance the home and my work. Plus I went through a lot of hardship when I was married. I was a student and home maker. After my divorce I pushed hearth and home as far away from me as I could! I hated anything to do with the household and completely shut it down. I lived a gross life for a bit 😅. Now I'm finally feeling comfortable to be back in the home managers shoes... But I feel anxious and honestly scared. I think Brigid is trying to help, but I'm not sure how to let her into my heart in a healthy way. I'm not sure if I'll ever be ok again.
@kelly-annmaddox
7 ай бұрын
Honestly, if you feel she is coming through, it might be good to begin by simply talking to her. Maybe light a candle in her honour, quieten your spirit, and say simple, honest words like, 'I think I can feel you around me. I am nervous but I really want to be open to you. Please send signs so that I feel more aligned with you, if that is what's supposed to happen. Thank you and deepest respect.' ❤️
@Zullala
7 ай бұрын
@@kelly-annmaddox I think I can handle that. Thank you for taking the time to give me some advice 💖
@kelly-annmaddox
7 ай бұрын
@@Zullala I'm so happy for you. I sense that this is a going to be a potent phase. Healing may well be incoming, my love! x
@WitchofCrowSummit
7 ай бұрын
Oh, I was so pleased and surprised to see this. So much content from you lately, lady! ❤ I watched your other videos on Hel in the past and I was wanting this exact type of breakdown. I feel so blessed to be able to enjoy this after a long day of work!
@TheStitchWitchPodcast
7 ай бұрын
I find my working w Hades are quite similar. In terms of the scheduling, the communion, guidance themes, etc. haven’t finished entirely but this has been so lovely❤ healing a back injury and this is a wonderful to listen to.
@kelly-annmaddox
7 ай бұрын
Ahh, it's cool to know your connection to Hades is similar. Sending healing to your back from one back injury sufferer to another. ❤
@atims7639
7 ай бұрын
Awesome video as usual Kelly-Ann! So inspiring..I have never felt called by a God or goddess but I would love to have some of that grounding energy in my life. I live mostly in my upper chakras...head in clouds in other words 😂 & with my adhd, would be so great to have some divine tough love... But also because, I crave for a connection like the one you talk about! Sigh! Oh & those pictures of Hel on ur journals 😍😍 and I couldn't stop staring at that skull earning! ❤❤
@urbanehexe
7 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing. I really love to hear you talk about Hel (and Mary) and I'm looking forward to seeing more videos about deity work from you as it is a big part of my practice and I love your approch.
@celestialtreetarot4260
7 ай бұрын
Freyja actually has a connection to grief and death. I associate Hel with the ancestors so I appreciate the video
@nikolinethomson4874
7 ай бұрын
Your comment that Freyja is connected to grief sparked an epiphany for me. Thanks for commenting, it had a big effect.
@stoned.orbweaver
6 ай бұрын
I'm very curious about how you go about doing astral work with Hel and your other deities. I would love to see a video on this! This video is so spectacular! Thank you for sharing your knowledge with us!!
@etiennesportfolio
7 ай бұрын
Finally someone talking about Hel, I've been learning about her but there aren't many videos
@kathrynbrown5597
7 ай бұрын
Hel is my personal favorite. Thank you for the resource
@EnyG-yz5rm
7 ай бұрын
I'm not even done with the video (listening to this at work) and this is FANTASTIC! Thanks for offering us another glimpse into your practice. There's lot of ideas I'm taking away and I will surely relisten. Take care!
@moss5690
7 ай бұрын
Your deity videos are my absolute fav! Thank you xx
@skyx5710
6 ай бұрын
Im very deeply connected to Lilith but I also connecting to other dietys and when I connected with Jormungandr it was a time for Fenrir and Hel and since first time I feel so great with her energy and since second connection ,evry sesion we kissing ,shes rly great and this trio is awesome (:
@glukkan
6 ай бұрын
It's not with deity but after I lost my brother I couldn't celebrate or honor Samhain in any way for a couple of years. I only recently started wanting to celebrate again and it totally made sense to me at the time that this was why I didn't want to observe that part of the year cycle.
@EvelynAlice7
7 ай бұрын
A beautiful video and always love your passion. Thank you for sharing your intimate relationship with Hel. ❤
@kelly-annmaddox
7 ай бұрын
💋❤️✨️
@marestellarum7894
7 ай бұрын
LOved this video!!!! It was so illuminating!
@BirchKnots
7 ай бұрын
Hi Kelly! Your video has been so heartwarming for me! Hela came to me almost one year ago and she really disrupted my life. I don't know anybody who works with her irl and watching your video today comforted me so much! When you were talking about the effort she asks from us daughters it felt sooo true! Actually I was living a very hard relationship with my partner and when I asked her about it she told me I had to be patient and to learn to love and support him for her, that my effort in the relationship was what she wanted. The very moment I accepted it my relationship improved so much it seemed almost impossible and every single time I become lazy there it is a fight with my partner to remind me what she asked. It's impressive I swear. I don't know about other deities, but for me working with Hela and Odin is soooo tough and demanding, They really want to see you sweat all the time! Thank you so much for sharing you experience and I'm sorry about my English, I'm not a native speaker
@autumnsmith3585
7 ай бұрын
You have a very deep and profound connection to your goddess and a *Beautiful* practice. I have just recently left Christianity. I am still grieving it's loss but have declared Helios as my deity, at least for right now. I am unsure how to move forward with Helios. I guess I am now a pagan??? Thank you for ALL your wisdom and videos.
@ThatNerdyMystic
7 ай бұрын
I do a lot of these things with my gods, too! ❤ I get what you mean by offering actions or motivations or experiences. I also do the channel-wtiting, the astral journeying, etc. Im too tired at the moment to go into detail, but tldr: very relatable!
@adrianalipomi9111
7 ай бұрын
I love listening to you talk about your relationship with Hel. She sounds like such a badass😍. Thanks so much for this video and for mentioning your playlist on this topic- now off to binge on some deity info!
@everdream816
7 ай бұрын
Yay, I absolutely love your deity work content! I’ve found it so helpful over the years. Thanks so much for sharing! ✨
@Bjorn_Algiz
7 ай бұрын
Amazing video sister! ❤😊 love it!
@strawberriesinthewoods6502
7 ай бұрын
Very interesting. I do not work with her but the kind of working you do with her is pretty similar to what I do with "my" dieties and it's really cool to hear that from someone else in more depth. I just experienced a longer time in my life where it threw me off so much so that I was completely disconnected from everything witchy and I am still working to get my routine back. I just come to realize that this is actually something very normal and just because you've mostly only been with the flow doesn't mean that can change or that you did something wrong. Getting back into doing stuff and reconnecting is like a big reassurance to me that this is the right thing to do for me and it is important for me.
@Pasha-rl2om
7 ай бұрын
I love your bead's I would love to find a witch make some bead's for Santa Muerte I bought some but some made just for her would be so special
@thechaosvibration1181
6 ай бұрын
I liked that you mentioned working with diety as inspired. I know a lot of the books preech a devotional "always or thr highway" siich never made sense to me. If anytthing it leads to more input than output, codependency, and runing relationships into the ground. And sometiing ive been working through myself lately. I also suspect a lot of this, is so they an sell you more stuff later on. But more inportantly, it seems most dieties want you to get to a place where you can stand on your own, and is almost like... "I really dont need your help, but venerate you cause i like or appreciate your presence.". So the deviotnal bit just never made sense to me.
@thechaosvibration1181
6 ай бұрын
PS) I loved how you mentioned the gratitude letters, free writing, and your rather free form astral and visual work. I've lately been contemplating more of a "goalless practice". I think it's okay to admit sometimes we do magick cause we don't know what we want or need, so why force it? Sometimes we just want to see a friend, do we always need a reason? Can this not be the same with deity?
@alternativewitchyunicorn
6 ай бұрын
Love ur ear rings ❤
@PhoenixEmbers86
7 ай бұрын
I loved this video! Thank you (and Hel!) for delving into this topic and sharing with us. Im getting distance from Hecate currently just after she really showed up to get me and my kids to safety. On the last new moon I lit her altar candle and it only smoldered a moment before going out. I pulled a card to see if that was a message or if she still wanted me to work with her and I got The Hanged Man and I felt she was saying we need a break. I was initially afraid I had offended her by not thanking her enough, probably a hold over from my monotheistic abrahamic upbringing where I was raised to fear deity and being ashamed of imperfection. I definitely went to bed a bit sad and feeling dejected. That night I had a vivid dream of Loki and when I woke up I drew a rune asking if he was reaching out and if so, why? I drew Eihwaz and felt the answer was "yes, and I'm here to spiritually transform you". Now I feel Hecate knew this is what I needed right now. I've worked with the dark feminine and now it's time to work with the dark masciline (and maybe some feminine) to take the next spiritual step to come back home to myself and release shame after years of abuse. I'm still a little nervous that our relationship is changing and also working with a deity I've heard mostly fear mongering about. But fuck all of that. I can be afraid and do it anyway. PS. I just finished a rosary of sorts for Loki with a snake as the "cross"! I absolutely loved yours and I got CHILLS when it came up. I feel like I don't know what I'm doing so it's validating seeing similar practices from more experienced witches.
@Laylalaughslast
7 ай бұрын
I loved listening to the whole thing. I connect to Mercury and Venus since they are really important influences in my birth chart as well as the Four Queens in tarot. This was great food for thought.
@Pasha-rl2om
7 ай бұрын
My Matron is Santa Muerte and I work with her different than what others say you have to but it's always worked for me and most people criticize me but it's not going to change because my relationship with her has totally worked.the way she came to me was when my baby sister was murdered and I fell in depression so bad I tried to commit suicide and she literally pulled me back from death and was there through my mental depression and anxiety and refused to let me die I had the semi colon tattoo in honor of her.
@kelly-annmaddox
7 ай бұрын
Santa Muerte is a difficult one because she's very connected to Mexico and there is an entire tradition associated with her which has been massively demonised by the Catholic church there. Devotees have had to be defiant in their desire to venerate her and necessarily protective of the culture that has been built around her. I think this would bring your practices under the scrutiny of Mexican devotees who want to uphold their deep understanding of how to interact with her. (I might be wrong and you could be Mexican yourself, but often the large-scale criticism comes when someone from outside the movement is seemingly flaunting practices that natives see as disrespectful.) I'm not saying that you don't have a connection to her. But I am saying that if you consistently share your own ideas and practices with devotees from her land of origin, you will incur criticism if they see your actions as misaligned. I think it's always important to check one's personal reasons for wanting to exhibit very differing/individual relationships with a goddess who is beloved by people who are often oppressed and criticised for what they believe. Does this make sense?
@Pasha-rl2om
7 ай бұрын
@@kelly-annmaddox yes very much I'm not Mexican and never thought about working with her at all I was actually scared and pulled back when she came to me during my terrible time after my baby sister was murdered and I researched the Mexican traditional way of working with her but for some reason it wasn't how she wanted things done and I just let her lead and teach me and so my relationship with her is very personal and I don't talk about it to those who practice the Mexican traditional ways.i don't know why she chose to work with me different she still requires some of the Mexican traditional ways and some very different personal ways that is just mine and her's.
@Pasha-rl2om
7 ай бұрын
@kelly-annmaddox I actually at first seeked out a older Mexican gentleman who had been working with her for years and told him I didn't understand why she had come to me since I was not Mexican and told me right away she doesn't see nationality don't ever let anyone tell you she doesn't want to work with you because you're not Mexican and I asked him why does she not require everything the traditional way I am trying so hard to please her.and he also explained to me that it's mainly the elders that are so strict and set in their ways that even the younger devotes in Mexico are working with her in their own personal relationship he told me to relax and learn to listen and she will guide you and teach what she wants y'all's relationship to be like and everything will be okay and I have been with her for four years now.
@kelly-annmaddox
7 ай бұрын
@@Pasha-rl2om I have experienced this advice from some Mexican devotees too - that it's ok to work with her in the way that feels right, and not to listen to people who gatekeep. (I have been told this whenever I have mentioned online that she has come to me in various ways over the years.) That advice does make sense, and is very freeing. But the thing is, I also very much sympathise with the opposite attitude. I can understand why some people may be adamant that she is not a being for non-Mexican individuals. It's complex, so I have personally found myself able to take steps back and admire her from afar, learn everything I can about her etcetera. I'm pleased that you consulted a Mexican devotee who has a long-standing connection with her and it sounds like he really advised you from a place of compassion and understanding, which is lovely.
@battlepoet
7 ай бұрын
As a devotee of Hel, I really really appreciate Hel content!!!! I’ve worshipped her for three years now. I’ll admit to being afraid of the moment when I will eventually face a major bereavement and how that will transform my relationship to her. I’ve felt comforted by her in minor bereavements tho so perhaps I’m overthinking this. otoh, when my grandma died and I didn’t know who to pray to, I would’ve appreciated Hel’s comfort. Does ancestor veneration feature in your practice to Hel?
@kelly-annmaddox
6 ай бұрын
Lovely to hear more about your experience. In answer to your question, I don't venerate my blood ancestors as part of my work with Hel. ❤
@mandyf336
7 ай бұрын
I lost connection to my spiritual work these past few years and I want to reconnect again. Grief and anger over took my life. I was in the highest evolution on my spiritual journey and I felt like I was having a difficult time balancing my spiritual life and my “everyday get shit done life” It was incredibly overwhelming and a I begged and pleaded for it all to stop. And they listened and it did. I’ve been working so hard to get my physical life in order but I am depressed now because my spiritual life is out cold. Thank you for this video: it is making feel as if I can reignite my spiritual journey again and this time hold it in better balance (I hope!) Maybe at this point I don’t care about balance anymore….lol!
@guitarstorms
7 ай бұрын
nothing is real
@kelly-annmaddox
7 ай бұрын
Pretty much
@halley8105
7 ай бұрын
I'll drink to that
@ledacisne7610
6 ай бұрын
Here here 🍻
@PandorasExecutioner
7 ай бұрын
as far as pulling away from deity, Hekate was my first deity, and I think I got a statue of her too soon since I tend to focus way more on Aphrodite and Saturn and have done the most active work with them. But as far as main main entities go, a pair of soul guardians are my true main entities similar to your relationship with Hel and Mary. I could never imagine them leaving my life. They've been there since the beginning and have been with me for all my evolutions. Sometimes my relationship with one of them, my dragon, has gone quiet, and it did unnerve me briefly, but then I reached out and he explained we don't always need to talk, so I never feel like he is very far even when he is silent. I have a playlist for him, and that always keeps me connected. We dance together often. As for Hekate, I don't regret having the statue or that she is my first lol. I think she continues to work in mysterious ways and is always there for me, and that is kind of fitting for her. To me, she is the power of the space between, so her magic being more indirect and inverted makes sense. I have had direct conversations with her a few times, but I like connecting with her in the more backdoor side alley ways.
@PrettyAliceNight
7 ай бұрын
Love this video! It’s always interesting hearing what other people who work with her do. I’d love to know the names of some of the dark ambient/satanic style music! I work with Hel too and have found some trouble finding the right music for visualizations.
@kelly-annmaddox
7 ай бұрын
I will come back to you 🥰
@Witchywoodwoman
7 ай бұрын
Hi, the same thing happend to me with Hekate (i'm walking with her since 2002) and I was so confused for many years what it was about, if she didn't want to work with me anymore or what.... 😂 But she just takes a step back and comes back within half a second when I need her. So I can explore other pantheons or whatever. 😊
@ginga_ninja-wn9db
7 ай бұрын
This is a wonderful video on your connection with Hel. Has given me quite a few new ways to attempt deity connection. I still struggle with understanding how to astral travel and whats the difference within the experience?how can I tell if im actually astral traveling or visualizing? Do you have any tips on how to astral travel?
@palmskrymme
7 ай бұрын
I work with Luna. Twenty years ago, I had a panic attack. I thought I was having a daymare. I didn't want too be at the pub with people who weren't really friends. In my blundstones, I walked away from people and bicycle. I walked into the foothills. It was pitch black. I wrapped my arms and legs around a skinny tree and put my forehead against the trunk. I sent the fear up and out. It was a full moon. I had the strong feeling that the moon hated me, I mean, she was sending me hate beams. I felt like she was mad at me as a human for wrecking the earth. I can't remember what I said to her but I got through it, and I've been working with her ever since. I have a millefiori offering bowl to her center stage in my living room. I'm looking at it now. Ps when I came back, my bicycle was still there
@ThomasWBaldwin
7 ай бұрын
🌼
@zacharyryan484
7 ай бұрын
I have periods where I step back from witchcraft and deity work. Witchcraft is quite exciting for me, and unfortunately due to bipolar disorder sometimes more excitement is not what I need. When I have a manic or hypomanic episode often I have to step away from many of my practices and deity relationships temporarily.
@terrafallow
7 ай бұрын
I was obsessed with Hel and her brothers when I was a teen, though back then I thought her name was Hella. Loki came into my practice about 8 years ago and quickly became my patron(theytron?) deity. I've had imagery of Hel around my home for many years, and a couple of months ago, I began incorporating Hel into my altar space, but that's about as far as my relationship with her has come.
@kelly-annmaddox
7 ай бұрын
I do also address her as Hella Love that variant. x
@halley8105
7 ай бұрын
At this point everyone has lost their craniums, but it's better with good company
@Pasha-rl2om
7 ай бұрын
I love you so much I follow you on Instagram and Facebook and want a reading from you is on my list
@burymewithabook
7 ай бұрын
I've been trying to work with Hel and have felt a big disconnect throughout my grieving process. I'm sure it's me, but when you're deep in grief it's hard to be an active participant in many relationships, you know?
@hank_mohaski
17 күн бұрын
I couldn't tell you what happens at night. All kinds of weird stuff. I can only guess what a chaos witch truly is. Words fail. They deceive. Words can be dark as night, do all kinds of weird stuff that I can't tell you about because words fail. Just. You might think I am just fucking with you now. No. No. I used to believe in anarchy, chaos. But I also believe in natural law, physics, like that old guy, William Blake. Listening to you now, you've read his words. Beautiful failures, one and all. But that man was getting close to absolute truths, from what I have experienced here and there. Death is not absolute. Changes forever changes. Words fail me too. As physical entities we need space, and also physical contact. We need words, even though they fail.
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