To me depressive black metal doesnt make me feel more comfortable with the idea of suicide, it makes me more willing to accept that it was part of my life at one point and that it isnt anymore. Like yeah I might still be depressed and I might still cry every single night and yeah I do still have panic attacks but at least I'm not trying to kill myself like I was when I discovered this music, and that's what listening to this reminds me of. It reminds me that if I've put off going through with it for this long then killing myself would be giving up and betraying myself not the release I used to think it would be. Ironic that this pessimistic and intentionally depressing genre can actually sort of give me comfort and hope. I hope if you came here to cut yourself to this that you rethink and instead just listen and contemplate, cry your eyes out, scream along but please don't cut yourself. If you are cutting and/or contemplating suicide then please try and find someone to talk to about it. I love you all, be kind to yourself.
@shouq.918
4 жыл бұрын
I’m trying so hard to hide it. I’m trying so hard to be better. Not for me, cuz I stopped caring about myself for too long. I’m hiding it because I don’t wanna bother anyone. They will get angry, cuz they don’t understand. They think that I should be happy. It’s not an option to me. I’m so tired..
@ronacord9056
5 жыл бұрын
My life's been hell and I'm 52 I'm probably the oldest person that likes this. My divorce 12 years ago pushed me over the edge, still haven't recovered. Was locked up in the mental hospital for being suicidal. Just waiting to die.
@tristery
3 жыл бұрын
ugh, the intro. Donnie Darko is one of my favorite movies of all time. when i first watched that scene, i had to pause the movie because i just had a breakdown.
@jakeroe1327
3 жыл бұрын
Back listening again. My mother committed suicide when i was a year old, my dad was shot to death by the police during a confrontation in 2006, i believe it be suicide by a cop. Some times i feel like because of how hard my life has been....i should utilize this teaching of my parents. Self harm....thoughts of my own suicide....songs about death and suicide make me feel closer to my parents. Love you Mom and Dad, hope to join you soon ❤
@p0r6
16 сағат бұрын
This song was already here even before i turned into a pathetic excuse of a human, i was 11 when this song was posted, today was my birthday...
@ronacord9056
14 күн бұрын
Yes I'm still alive and am 57. I'll be 58 in August. I can't say life is a lot better but I've learned how to cope with it much better. Thank you for checking on me.
@ClutchboyzHQ
why does it have to be this way😢
@nahtblis
6 жыл бұрын
Hung myself once to this song but my brother came to my house and found me passed out and bleeding in a closet and ripped the belt down
@dylanthomas7123
6 жыл бұрын
Recently a friend of mine hung himself, and now I feel depressed. I am listening to this music to alleviate my depression.
@floatinguniverse2713
I was crying and I found this. We are all in this... depression may took lives but we stand here with our bold soul. Sending hope to everyone maybe it's cliché.
@giuliobizau6810
7 жыл бұрын
depressive blacl metal its just Life
@familiar6381
7 жыл бұрын
am i the only one who is not totally depressed and still likes this music? like ive been through shit man, i am 18 now. my whole childhood my dad would beat my mom and talk about how he never wanted us and was addicted to hard drugs and started getting in fist fights with me when i was in 7th grade. when i was 16 during my jr. year of highschool i lost my mind and was sent to the mental hospital and diagnosed with schitzofrenia. the first time i went was for 2 months, then i had to go back one other time for 2 weeks. when i got out only one person hmu to see how i was and that was my "best friend" i would literally think that people were mking fun of me whenever they laughed, and at certain times would get the overwhelming feeling that people wanted to kill me. i got extremely depressed. and i would have delusions, one time i thought i was evil and that my dad was satan and i was the antichrist. at one point i thought satan wanted me to killmyself and would come home everyday after school and put a knife to my throat but the blade was too dull. i finally got better after 1 1/2- 2 years, but by that time my "best friend" was ignoring me and would only hmu when he needed weed. apparently i was too crazy and unstable for him. nobody ever hmu to hangout anymore, or even just to see how i was doing. but like ive gotten better now, i have a job, im going to a community college and i have an amazing girlfriend. so im not really depressed, im actually really happy! yet i still like this kind of music lol. just wanted to know if anyone feels the same way about not being totally depressed all the time and still liking this music, but felt i had to say all that other stuff lest i be called ignorant or a pussy
@jakeroe1327
4 жыл бұрын
Im having a Major Depressive Episode, this song comforts me, if i were to end my life, id have this song on repeat so itd be playing when they found me and id leave a note that said "please play this song at my funeral....thank you :)"
@unknown.mp4
2 жыл бұрын
that donnie darko sample fits so well, one of my favourite movies ever.
@zlek4875
2 жыл бұрын
Nothing matters and nothing will. Everything ends
@sandipgahatraj4570
6 жыл бұрын
Happy days you are really a great band for me you are feeding me the medicine of my real pain
@nostmoth
Жыл бұрын
I don't listen to this genre because I actually like it, I often listen to it because for somehow it allows me to "think" or get reflexive points about some situations. I'm alone tho, I can empathize with the message of all these bands and songs wants to deliver. If someone is reading this, for real I hope you get better, soon or later, preferently soon. I would give some piece of advaice or stuff like that, but we are in the same position, all I can say is "Good luck, be strong as long as you can, try your options over and over again, at least you could say that you tried it".
@BESTGORE65
Жыл бұрын
как же я тащусь такой музыки, она прям в душу западает. безжизненная пустыня полная отчаяния, но это лучик свет, или тьмы. как угодно..
@metalflower9543
Жыл бұрын
(Black) Metal helps me so much with fighting anxiety and depression.
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