as a lesbian, the idea of lesbian loneliness is so real! i’m happy to be a lesbian and know who i am, but there’s such a small dating pool compared to other sexualities that it feels like you’ll never find actual romantic love. also, there’s the added isolation because by being a lesbian, you’re inherently diverging yourself from mainstream culture because you’re decentering men in your life entirely
@misareyn8650
4 ай бұрын
no I relate to this sm. especially being in the deep south I feel like I'm all alone out here.
@listentotheanimalscreamsha1511
3 ай бұрын
I moved to a rural area over 10 years and never met anyone for friendship or love seriously. After all these years I'm finally feeling lonely after doing fine during lockdown confused by feelings now. I was ok with being alone and doing me in comfort. Now I notice I'm starting to root for relationships to work out gay or straight and that is alarming to me. I never wanted love or anything like that.
@alsimanche
2 ай бұрын
As a gay guy, i can totally say the same thing
@LLight4
2 ай бұрын
Hun, I'm straight. And it's not a dating pool for us, it's a muddy puddle. Whole lot of man simply doesn't like women at all. They don't like how we act. They look down on our hobbies. Obviously, if not downright perceiving us as subhuman. Unfortunately for all of us, they crave sex with women, and we all are sentenced to interact. Being gay is superior, never forget about it.
@binabi
2 ай бұрын
@@alsimancheyou really can't...
@lizzy7395
7 ай бұрын
Take it from me, a lesbian in Kenya, the pool is so shallow it is basically a cup. However, the thing i have found is that, as a result, we end up taking relationships seriously and being willing to work on it. So when you do find it, you will really invest in it.
@AmazingRebel23
7 ай бұрын
There is something to be said about the scarcity mindset and how it brings community, if only North American LGBT people could figure this out instead of pretending there are infinite gay people to be with and they can ghost all of them or treat them like sex objects.
@warrenlanham9088
7 ай бұрын
@@AmazingRebel23you can thank the abundance mindset and attention addiction created by social media for that.
@t--w5203
7 ай бұрын
True true the cup in Kenya is hard sana 😭 the mzungu and such in the west have an easier time
@availanila
7 ай бұрын
Hey! I'm in Kenya too! But not... hiyo aina.
@rachaelwamucii
7 ай бұрын
Kenyans in the house. I'm Kenyan too
@YoutubeMadeMePickHandle
7 ай бұрын
“Not that any of you care” Me when I saw the notification: 👀
@missstripedsocks
7 ай бұрын
me, a woman with a crush clicking at the speed of light 🤣
@meghanabhange13
7 ай бұрын
@@missstripedsocks HAHAHA. We're all in the same boat here
@akamesb4540
7 ай бұрын
Us : *click intensifies*
@xxsnow_angelxx3953
7 ай бұрын
@@akamesb4540how do u type in smaller characters? In style .
@akamesb4540
7 ай бұрын
@@xxsnow_angelxx3953 if im getting it correctly, you put the * at the start and end of a sentence or word without spaces at the start or end Hello *hello * *hello*
@fullmetalfroge
7 ай бұрын
closeted, introverted, young lesbian currently living in a conservative state. i hate being this lonely but its comforting to see that im not alone in this experience
@littlewolf2330
6 ай бұрын
damn i can relate to this....im from indonesia :)
@EricCartman2024
5 ай бұрын
I'm from the States, even in conservative places being gay is pretty accepted but now you'll have to wade through the waves of fuckboys and desperate people that are more interested in not being alone than cultivating something good 😂
@midgetwaffles8635
3 ай бұрын
Same here girlie!! I live in Pennsylvania. Stay strong 💪
@moonshinershonor202
3 ай бұрын
You good b?
@fullmetalfroge
3 ай бұрын
@@moonshinershonor202 not entirely, but better now, i have a gf :3
@Julianninha
6 ай бұрын
as a lesbian, if a woman knows the mind you have, you are at the top of the food chain. trust me.
@user-ih5vg4xk3t
6 ай бұрын
I don't believe you really are a lesbian, I think you just hate men but that is okay because it is your life.
@ismininotonline
5 ай бұрын
As a bisexual if that girl spoke to wlw women about her modern day opinions they would label her a bigot 🤣 its sad but true
@FirstnameLastnames
5 ай бұрын
OP, I'm another lesbian who agrees with you. 10/10 would date her, would bed her 😍
@tubester4567
5 ай бұрын
Did you know Lesbians have the highest rates of domestic violence and divorce?. A US city recorded all the domestic violence cases and 44% were lesbian couples, 35% were hetero couples and gay men had the lowest at 22% Its a very interesting study that has been reported on several LGBT media websites.
@مجدياونلاينمجديمومجدي
5 ай бұрын
why lesbians like to keep saying "I'm a lesbian" as if she isn't sure she is 😂, "as a lesbian", "as a wlw", ok we get it, you never enjoyed x with men or have r word fantasies with them 😂
@atomictroy
7 ай бұрын
I feel a similar way about being gay. it’s just a realization of “oh, there is an even smaller chance of finding love now”
@RomaTomatoe
7 ай бұрын
I feel a similar way about being straight and 'picky'. I've legitimately only been interested in 2 women since my divorce (edit: over a year ago). Neither reciprocated the feeling, so I'm just alone with no prospects, though I'm not exactly looking that hard either because I'm quite hopeless at the likelihood of both sides being interested.
@Whatever94-i4u
7 ай бұрын
@@RomaTomatoe Now imagine being gay and picky... My romantic life is not great, to say the least...
@mirabela1344
7 ай бұрын
I'm asexual and I feel similar :/
@caetano.santana
7 ай бұрын
now imagine being a trans person who's also gay 💩
@schloodie1942
7 ай бұрын
That's exactly how I felt, when I realised I was ace.
@fiercerodent
7 ай бұрын
Zee: I'm a lesbian :( Every single wlw who clicked this video: :)
@etiennechalmers
7 ай бұрын
The other side: :(
@bonnieost
7 ай бұрын
Lmaoooooo me
@nobodyatall1010
7 ай бұрын
Frankly, this. XD
@KajiRider1997
7 ай бұрын
We're also: :) at least I hope others are too @@etiennechalmers
@Brambleflower
7 ай бұрын
yes correct
@cinnam0n_swirls
7 ай бұрын
You sell yourself short! You're actually highly attractive. You have a proportionate face with large eyes and full lips, you're in good shape, you have a cute hairstyle, you're stylish, and you have a cool, self-aware, and intellectual personality.
@wasteddude
7 ай бұрын
She really is but she's realistic. She knows she's attractive but what she described is how things are. Gotta make the best of it. And she's trying.
@junewinter4061
7 ай бұрын
fucking creepy comment. just say you think she's attractive. "proportionate face with large eyes and full lips" learn how to talk to women without it sounding like they're an object.
@MoonlightSunrise-cf6qs
7 ай бұрын
I agree but the PROBLEM is no one wants to be in a relationship 😢. I'm the same but still didn't even got to Date and I've been trying for 5 years now. Everyone wants, basically hookups. I'm a gay guy talking here. Girl you say guys are not picky, that far from the truth with gay guys. They are soooo picks
@movingdragons
7 ай бұрын
@@MoonlightSunrise-cf6qs I think guys are very picky actually. That's why no one is in a relationship anymore. Straights and gays alike. Although, i think women tend to like relationships a bit more.
@MoonlightSunrise-cf6qs
7 ай бұрын
@movingdragons but why is everyone complaining, though? That is what makes me feel bad. They are complaining that they are lonely but still want to do hookups instead of a relationship, making it make sense 🤷. I'm complaining, but at least I'm trying to date or find my soul mate but still failing miserably
@pridetherapy
5 ай бұрын
This is a great video. I'm a lesbian and a therapist is the USA. I came out at age 25 and thought I'd be alone forever. I ended up with a beautiful wife and 4 kids. Stay hopeful.
@beeball99
5 ай бұрын
this is so sweet. how did you get around to meeting other lesbians???
@Δ-Δ-Δ-Δ
5 ай бұрын
I hope I can have the same fate. I am gay, 22 years old and I've never done anything romantic with any guy. I've never found anyone. It's kind of heart-breaking, sometimes.
@jiliciar.1423
4 ай бұрын
OMG! THANK YOU FOR SHARING THAT! 😊
@pridetherapy
4 ай бұрын
@@beeball99 Hi! I actually moved away from my small town and moved to a bigger city where I knew I could be around other gay people.
@pridetherapy
4 ай бұрын
@@Δ-Δ-Δ-Δ you're still young and have plenty of time. Try to get out and start with just making gay friends and building community.
@mailedang7406
6 ай бұрын
I don’t think we talk enough about the kind of mourning of the life we thought we would have. Growing up conditioned to believe a successful life is to be married to a man and start a family it does feel lonely to realize that your life path is not exactly what you were expecting. And I think that’s ok and not something to be ashamed of!
@zellalaing5439
5 ай бұрын
I sort of had the oppoaite, realising in my twenties, I have a mourning for the years I didn't know and wish I could go back and relive them.
@dangelocox1715
Ай бұрын
@@zellalaing5439 Same
@ELEVATED888
Ай бұрын
I had my 1st girlfriend at 15, Adamant of my sexuality thus everyone around me, simply accepted me, ZERO backlash, extremely fortunate
@Mandyb05
Ай бұрын
This. I think about it more now in my early 30's. As a 31 year old if I had been straight I know for sure I'd have a husband and probably be 3 kids in. The amount of time and effort it would take now is almost unthinkable. It's hard to get out of my head because at time I'll wish to just rewire my brain or self but I can't alter it so I just continue with life as is. Don't get me wrong - I love my community and the identity of it. The lived in experience though... Not what it's cracked out to be.
@graceless6103
Ай бұрын
This is exactly it. Mourning your expected future
@cosmiasimulans
7 ай бұрын
Number of women who would love to date Kidology: ⬇️
@talwyn_cc
7 ай бұрын
Totally would. If only I were in the same vicinity as her.
@chemontheys3182
6 ай бұрын
Bottom of the food chain my ass. 😂
@shiba-404
6 ай бұрын
Is the arrow supposed to be pointing to the amount of likes this comment gets?👀 (I'm kinda bad with context clues😵💫)
@Rose-ok7bt
6 ай бұрын
❤ yes
@I.am.hooked
6 ай бұрын
@@shiba-404yes lol.
@finchfull
5 ай бұрын
i relate to this so painfully. i realized i was queer at 13 and realized i was a lesbian (and not bi) at around 17, and it was devastating as someone who had terrible romantic luck anyway. i had a long string of unrequited crushes/loves for most of my teenage/new adult life. i genuinely thought there was no one out there for me...and then i met my partner 2 days after moving 3,250 miles away. but i spent so, so, so much time sobbing, writing poetry, being absolutely tortured by my loneliness. i will never forget that time. (i joke that "i earned it" from spending so much time being totally out of luck.) sending so much love to my lonely lesbians out there.
@kozad86
7 ай бұрын
I'm gay. I spent 10 years single, living in a rural area. I was convinced my only chance at ever meeting someone for something long term would be to move to a major city, but I eventually did meet someone special and now I'm married. Hooray for happy endings and all that, but it still felt depressing AF sometimes, not having anyone in my life to turn to at my worst moments, or to cheer me on during my best. I cared less and less as time went on, but it never went away completely, there were still times I was like, "Damn, it'd be nice to come home to someone"
@KnowledgeSeeker78491
7 ай бұрын
I’m going on 4 years myself…oh well
@MoonlightSunrise-cf6qs
7 ай бұрын
Going on 5 years. Hearing your story, give me a bit of hope 🙏
@moony995
7 ай бұрын
May i ask how you met?
@DoraWinifred
7 ай бұрын
How did you meet?
@trianglesandsquares420
5 ай бұрын
May I ask, are you happy in your current relationship? Or are there things you gave up?
@stupidcupidx
7 ай бұрын
You really struck a cord in me when you said "subscribing to different social moray's and how you want to exist in the world". As a western-gay man who is actively looking for genuine companionship, it's definitely hard trying to find "love" or even friendships in the queer community especially when it's hyper sexual and extremely superficial. Because I'm not a party-person, or gym rat with shredded abs, and values uplifting others and community I feel ostracized and removed, which sucks. The social climate of the world especially in the dating market is in shambles and I can't help but feel nihilistic, though hearing other people lesbian, hetero, trans, and all gives some comfort that I'm not alone in this. We need more conversations on this. Lovely vid!
@spianny
6 ай бұрын
thanks for sharing. Im a hetero man and i have come to the conclusion to just stay away from dating and put that energy and focus into the few friends I have and focus on my mindset and perspective on life. It really sucks being alone after 10 years married but at the same time im learning so much about myself, mainly negative thoughts and coping mechanisms.I do have a lot of beatiful moments in between the dispair and tears hahaha but i feel im definitly growing and learning to appreciate what i have and not focus on what i dont have or have experienced. Take care and I wish you a beautifully happy life!
@peachesandcream22
6 ай бұрын
I agree with you. I'm a bisexual cis woman and the harsh reality for me is a lot of people are actually biphobic and no one "side" wants to do anything with me. Also, the fact I live in a homophobic country where treating gays like crap and attempting to kill them is normalised everywhere (Russia) lowers my dating chance to the bottom. Of course, I can always date a straight guy and hide my sexuality for the rest of my life to appeal to the society, but psychologically, it won't make anything better. I'm not even interested in dating right now, lol.
@dewilew2137
6 ай бұрын
“Morays”. 💀
@palissovski1829
6 ай бұрын
THIS. It really does feel hopeless sometime...
@jameskelly7403
6 ай бұрын
It's over gaycel
@JohnDeBrazen
7 ай бұрын
My gay friend had issues with accepting their sexuality, like he knew he was gay but he still yearned for a woman in his life and didn’t want to be gay. I think this is a common experience for gay people of both genders.
@Katakagara
6 ай бұрын
No it is absolutely not. This is a complete lie.
@carolbaskin1857
6 ай бұрын
@@Katakagaracare to elaborate???
@yuripiIIed
5 ай бұрын
@@Katakagarayou do not speak for every single gay person
@NeyamStar
5 ай бұрын
Yea
@sittinginbushes
Ай бұрын
I'm a lesbian who had sth similar before but imagining it in a male perspective is even sadder smh
@Brambrew
7 ай бұрын
If it's any consolation, It doesn't matter how small your potential dating pool seems due to your sexuality. Somehow, we're all lonely these days. Take it from me; I'm bisexual; I should have a huge potential dating pool. But nope, there's been no one who's compatible.
@alexharington7338
7 ай бұрын
I agree, I think that nowadays we are all struggling to connect with other people.
@4w4n96
7 ай бұрын
same here, im bisexual and technically yeah i have the potential to be attracted to anyone - and yet i have still only liked like 2 people in my whole adult life and experience genuine attraction/connection to someone like once a year at best. its rough out here ! xD
@mermaidmoongoddess
7 ай бұрын
I’m also bisexual and all I’ve known these days was being bi myself 😢
@no.6377
7 ай бұрын
Accepting that I'm bi was the biggest letdown ever. I live in a conservative rural country. My options are wider now, but still as small as ever 😂😂
@Brambrew
7 ай бұрын
@@no.6377 SAME conservative towns have benefits and drawbacks. And one of those drawbacks is a poor queer dating scene and religious fervor Literally _all_ of the people I've been interested in are either taken (dating, married) or sexually disinterested in the male specimen (lesbian, ace)
@atlwonderwoman99
7 ай бұрын
I’m a black lesbian in my 40s. I came out in my 20s. It was worth it but yes, it was quite inconvenient lol. I was attracting older white women at the clubs which always surprised me. Sadly, they were usually divorced and jaded and only wanting to have fun. I’ve known my white wife nearly 20 yrs. Met in school. She’s just a few yrs older but gives old soul energy. When we met, we were much more progressive and we’ve both shifted although I’m much more a centrist now and she’d still identify as a leftist. She still thinks I’m a good person, though lol. I think dating might be easier now with the apps cause you can tell ppl from the jump what your politics are etc. Go for it! You’re fine af and that accent is to die for! Also, this video broke a lot of men’s’ hearts. For the queers, we’re like omg, I have a shot!
@illestvillain1971
7 ай бұрын
I used to get hit on by middle aged/ older women from 17 to my early 20s lol. I think it was the way I dressed because no younger women cared xd. Got a few free drinks tho 😮
@GlasgowCelticBhoy
6 ай бұрын
"Beau of the Fifth Column" has an interesting take on that shifting politics statement you made. Apparently we are static in our ideology. What changes is society. If you were leftist in 1990, you may feel like a centrist today - but that's just because society shifts to the left over time (the long term). I think I tend to agree.
@user-nr8px6gp2n
6 ай бұрын
damn imagine marrying someone who casually labels you as "white wife"
@zellalaing5439
5 ай бұрын
Youre last line - soooo true 😂😅
@FirstnameLastnames
5 ай бұрын
@@GlasgowCelticBhoy I just want you to know he is a human traffic-r ... I'm not joking.He has a criminal record for it. You should probably not be recommending his videos, Given that he was willing to personally profit off of and exploit seventeen year old girls from other countries for their labor as hotel maids. Another channel made a video about it, I think the name is bad burrito?
@imtheonewhobroughtthebeans915
7 ай бұрын
This will prob be an annoyingly long comment, but I just relate to this vid so much. To respond to what you said in the video- no, you are def not the only person who feels this way. What you said about the myth of “LGBTQ+ Community” and loneliness is so real. I think that the percentage of queer people who ever succeed at “finding family” is grossly overstated, and as a fellow lesbian in your generation, I wanna totally vindicate your disappointment at discovering how sucky it can be to be this specific sexual minority. I srsly doubt anyone would ever wanna cancel you for feeling that way. I also don’t wanna discount the way you feel disadvantaged in the dating market by your race and political views, but I rly don’t think you need to resign yourself to a ten year timeline for finding a fulfilling relationship. I think you might have some sort of dysmorphia as well. You’ve been one of my biggest KZitem crushes for some time now; you’re incredibly beautiful, and if you weren’t an ocean away I’d absolutely try to slide into your dm’s or something haha- I think you’re very courageous to post this and I hope you feel some catharsis from getting this out of your system. All this to say, you are not alone, and I’d bet good money you’re gonna be ok ❤
@alisonmercer5946
7 ай бұрын
She is absolutely stunningly gorgeous.
@Myladyinred999
7 ай бұрын
@@alisonmercer5946 Agree ❤ So gorgeous 😍
@SquierMarr
7 ай бұрын
Yeah I've been out for 6 years or more and I'm still struggling to find anything that resembles a community.
@venus_envy
7 ай бұрын
Yeah, for one thing, the "TQ+" and "queer" people are ideologically anathema to actual homosexuals, so that's not a community. Can't be in a community with homophobic people, can they? In fact, they've gone out of their way to destroy anything lesbian, specifically, so now lesbian communities are having to exist in secret online and in real life. It's all but been made illegal in NZ (all-women lesbian public gatherings are illegal, so women must now gather in private homes or not at all), and reddit has consistently banned every lesbian community that isn't either c*rn or catered to men who identify as lesbians. It's rough ount there, Kidology is about to find out if she hasn't already. I look forward to her future video about how men destroyed lesbianism.
@rosenikon
7 ай бұрын
Kid literally looks like a Disney Princess she's so beautiful
@sarah30932
7 ай бұрын
Well, as a lesbian who has been out for over a decade, who has always been single, I think I have advice that applies to anyone, really: try rubbing one out and just take life one day at a time
@katiebee2937
6 ай бұрын
Charming
@darylesells19
5 ай бұрын
This got a laugh out of me. I was waiting for the sage advise and got a great big smile instead. Well done you! 👍
@SoffyChannel
5 ай бұрын
That's excellent advice, actually! I actually had to chuckle while reading!
@lovefoolish2019
5 ай бұрын
that’s how i’m getting through it!
@chyeahfurries
4 ай бұрын
LMFAOOO omg
@trudieangelica
6 ай бұрын
Girl you gonna get so many DMs after this. But for real, I finally came out out as a lesbian after 15 years of thinking I was bi and could date both, because that felt safer and less like I was falling off the precipice into the great valley of loneliness and rejection that being a lesbian represented for me. And it has been the loneliest year of my life. Nobody seems to understand why I feel this way, because I have a lot of friends and live in a queer city where there are many options. But it's real. At least I am living as my most authentic self now, and not hiding behind a false belief out of a fear of being alone.
@drick2480
29 күн бұрын
Did you always know you were a lesbian but were just in denial or did you actually harbour emotional and phsycial attraction towards men also?
@mickjagger9796
7 ай бұрын
You sure know how to write a title
@mirand0la
7 ай бұрын
I can relate, been there, done that, had the anxiety of realization, dated women, had the heartbreaks, got over it. What I can tell you is that "having options" is a big illusion in all worlds, bi, gay, straight etc. No matter how big or how small the dating pool is, you may find that one compatible person who is for you, or you may never find them in a lifetime. It's out of our control. We can only try to relate to another human being, fail, try again and/or give up trying.
@BardicAugustaScotia
7 ай бұрын
Aw I wanna live in a rural farm house and hike every morning, that sounds so nice. I am not a lesbian but I do understand the feeling of witnessing your reality, being disappointed by it, and feeling alone in it, just in general. You are definitely not ugly. I don't think it'll take another decade for you to find a Girlfriend.
@spongebobcirclepants3843
7 ай бұрын
Same I’m like I just want a farmhouse in the countryside with a garden is that too much to ask
@strangemolars
7 ай бұрын
"I am not a lesbian but I do understand the feeling of witnessing your reality, being disappointed by it, and feeling alone in it, just in general. " Longwinded way of saying you are a human.
@emiliabolsas
7 ай бұрын
I cannot imagine it taking more than 10 days for her. It’s baffling to hear her say this. Our host is adorable, brilliant, beautifully verbose and brave. On the other hand, it’s been over a decade for me as a white heterosexual woman over 40 in NYC who feels absolutely no chance of this changing. I don’t have the sense that there is anything seriously wrong with me physically, not overweight, taller than average, straight teeth, good skin, nicely dressed, well-spoken, funny, financially stable … and utterly zero prospects other than married men and “Hey, girl” randos on the street. Are we realistic? Or our own worst enemies?
@kade---
7 ай бұрын
@@emiliabolsasYou’re maybe intimidating…
@Jaylade
7 ай бұрын
ru nice?@@emiliabolsas
@rosalynelippington
2 ай бұрын
17 and could not be lonelier. Being a hopeless romantic, a lesbian and living in a conservative country is a bad combination. I’ve made plenty of friends, some who even don’t mind my sexuality or have the same sexuality, but I’ve never been able to have that best friend or partner I can just tell everything. Whole family didn’t accept me coming out, my sister doesn’t completely understand, my friends are all religious or aren’t emotionally available. Also sucks being super awkward around people and not knowing how to build healthy relationships (I’ve been diagnosed with ADHD). I just want to sacrifice everything for this one girl, and it turns out she only sees me as another friend. I want to share her suffering, spend a lifetime with her, and show a part of me I’ve been too scared to show anyone. So yeah, I feel you, fellow lesbians.
@Serose71
Ай бұрын
This is exactly what I’m going through:( just know you’re not alone
@a.mcgator
Ай бұрын
I deeply related to this. I've experienced being seen as 'ugly' in Singaporean society due to my dark skin (I'm Singaporean of Indian descent), feeling 'beautiful' in Canadian society, and then back to 'ugly' in Queer Canadian spaces. The queer beauty standard has left me feeling confused and isolated. Hearing your experience is so validating. You are so lovely, beautiful, and eloquent, and I hope you'd find a wonderful partner. I also related to the bit about politics. And it's been so difficult relating to the community in general, especially with my views for my future - my career, finances etc. Thanks so much for sharing your views.
@wydtnoyctm
7 ай бұрын
Not relevant, but you're the first person I think of as the definition of well spoken
@SpecialBlanket
6 ай бұрын
I so agree.
@sonjathewitch5266
7 ай бұрын
When I first figured I was a lesbian I was pretty happy. Women inspired and continue to inspire me. I loved spending time with women and still love it to this day. Touch was a crucial thing for me - I didn’t wanna be with guys in a way that I wanted to be with girls. As I grew a bit older though I realised how actually lonely the gay experience can be for some people. I never considered myself strong in that way but I wasn’t always surrounded by great accepting people, I found them. I fought for my happiness and you should as well. You don’t have to be sad and disappointed about being a lesbian but it’s totally valid if you do. Life is worth trying though. I’m shooting my shot on Valentine’s Day, so wish me luck!
@MrLomboard
7 ай бұрын
Good luck! Hope it gors well today :)
@sonjathewitch5266
7 ай бұрын
@@MrLomboard omg it went super well! kinda silly but she said she liked me back, so…
@elizabethdalton-jandreau5588
7 ай бұрын
Good luck! All that matters is that you try, and keep trying.👍
@tyrecea_z
7 ай бұрын
@@sonjathewitch5266 I'm also glad it went well
@Ariapeithes_
6 ай бұрын
It's so funny. I imagine that if women were simply kicked out of Western Civilization, and forced to fend for themselves... something tells me Lesbianism would disappear overnight. To be a lesbian means that you desire to live in a world without men, that means 90% of things women have wouldn't exist, and therefore you don't need civilization... because civilization is something men build and women don't. If Lesbianism is the right path. Then lesbians need to be given there own country where they can live together without the help of men. I mean being a lesbian sort means you want to assume the role of a man any right?! So women who are lesbians also deserve male responsibility? That means you can do your own plumbing, electrical maintenance, construction work, engineering, mechanical maintenance, agriculture work, auto mechanic maintenance and manufacturing, clothing design, lumber work, steel and sheet mental work, metalwork, engineer your own weaponry, central heating, build your own sanitation systems... The list goes on and on... I think it's time for women to go build their own civilization.
@srose1088
7 ай бұрын
Any significant change in your love life is scary. Women especially feel like "time is running out" and change can feed those fears.
@Katakagara
7 ай бұрын
As a Lesbian since age 5, I knew something was different, and I’ve had a great time! Did I mention I’m a Gen X , 56 year old?!? I LOVE my life as a Lesbian. It’s been amazing! I started dating in high school ( in a very small town) and even dated the local female police officer. Then went in to have a full dating and sex/love life well into my 20’s-30’s-40’s. I never really wanted a wife but I had great relationships. Yes, sometimes I had drama, but who doesn’t? One can heal and get support when needed. I did. You must keep getting out there and experiment and take a chance! I’m single right now and am ok with it-because I know I’ll date again when I want it. BTW, there are private groups and communities you can be a part of in the Lesbian community. The Lesbian community is connected and authentic, but you need to find those groups. We are actually at the TOP of the food chain. We are clean, we don’t have to worry about pregnancy, the likelihood of getting a STD is lower. We have MORE passion, love, intimacy and orgasm than str8s. I could go on. Get out there and meet women. You’ll find your group! There are more conservative Lesbians out there, if you so desire. Best of luck in your journey. I am cheering you on. 👩❤️💋👩👩🏼🤝👩🏻💜🌈
@Ariapeithes_
6 ай бұрын
Lesbianism is wrong. And stats show the Lesbian community is the most unhappy, that is why the Lesbian community has the highest divorce and domestic violence rate. Also, at five years older no one is mature enough to understand romantic and sexual attraction, so I seriously doubt you knew you were a lesbian at five years old.
@Ariapeithes_
6 ай бұрын
L-e-s-b-i-a-n-ism is wrong. And stats show the Lesbian community is the most unhappy, that is why the Lesbian community has the highest divorce and domestic violence rate. Also, at five years older no one is mature enough to understand romantic and s-e-x-u-a-l attraction, so I seriously doubt you knew you were a lesbian at five years old.
@Ariapeithes_
6 ай бұрын
L-e-s-b-i-a-n-ism is wrong. And stats show the Lesb*an community is the most unhappy, that is why the Lesb*an community has the highest divorce and domestic violence rate. Also, at five years old no one is mature enough to understand romantic and s-e-x-u-a-l attraction, so I seriously doubt you knew you were a lesb*an at five years old.
@Ariapeithes_
6 ай бұрын
It's so funny. I imagine that if women were simply kicked out of Western Civilization, and forced to fend for themselves... something tells me Lesbianism would disappear overnight. To be a lesbian means that you desire to live in a world without men, that means 90% of things women have wouldn't exist, and therefore you don't need civilization... because civilization is something men build and women don't. If Lesbianism is the right path. Then lesbians need to be given there own country where they can live together without the help of men. I mean being a lesbian sort means you want to assume the role of a man any right?! So women who are lesbians also deserve male responsibility? That means you can do your own plumbing, electrical maintenance, construction work, engineering, mechanical maintenance, agriculture work, auto mechanic maintenance and manufacturing, clothing design, lumber work, steel and sheet mental work, metalwork, engineer your own weaponry, central heating, build your own sanitation systems... The list goes on and on... I think it's time for women to go build their own civilization.
@NylonTalon7909
6 ай бұрын
Love your comment, we do have it better ❤ 💯
@Somusicais
2 ай бұрын
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
@user-nh5ze8hq5e
2 ай бұрын
Yes, dr.porassss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
@user-nh5ze8hq5e
2 ай бұрын
Yes he is dr.porassss.
@socialworkgroupa5256
2 ай бұрын
Microdosing helped me get out of the pit of my worst depressive episode, a three year long episode, enough to start working on my mental health.
@BestOffer-ii9ny
2 ай бұрын
Can dr.porassss send to me in UK?
@user-nh5ze8hq5e
2 ай бұрын
Absolutely, his offerings extend to global delivery, prioritizing complete confidentiality for individuals valuing their privacy.
@sophiaec2607
7 ай бұрын
It's a very common experience to feel disappointed/stressed upon realising you're a lesbian. The way we've been portrayed was the only exposure I had to lesbians before I came out, and it was so depressing. Eventually I had to accept it, but I kept it to myself until I felt okay with it and had examined my own internalised hatred. It's so valid to feel the way you feel. Even my mum said she wasn't totally disappointed, but she definitely had to grieve the life she had imagined for me.
@NeyamStar
5 ай бұрын
Lesbains don't even get portrayed and even when they do it's just porn
@Dan1ell
2 ай бұрын
@ville__ With an invitation like that everyone who subs to your channel should continually report it.
@zaihoupersonal1635
Ай бұрын
She is not a lesbian. In her most recent video she said she slept with a man recently and enjoyed it and is now romantically connected with him.
@LittleMissDeeDee
7 ай бұрын
I appreciate you being open about your sexuality especially as a black woman. I have spent my whole life so far questioning my sexuality. I came out as Bi before I lost my virginity to a guy in my late teens, then I just presumed I was straight, but I’ve realised I’ve never actually deeply desired a man before, but I’ve always desired their attention as a form of external validation. I cannot relate to women who fall head over heels for men but presumed it’s because I’m avoidant? I’m living a heteronormative life because it feels “easier”, but I know I am a queer woman at heart. I’m just not ready to say that out loud.
@lovelight8722
7 ай бұрын
Ma’am, you’ve written my whole entire life. Jeeeez! And im currently attracted to this feminine cis man and it has me so confused because I’m not sure if it’s just the aesthetic or the person that I’m attracted to but I definitely have no doubts about my attraction towards women
@subarux4054
7 ай бұрын
Woah, are you me??? This is exactly how I am feeling and thinking
@ifeoma8112
7 ай бұрын
Girl.....same smh. And I'm not too keen on what passes for so-called queer scenes/culture nowadays. Too old and settled in my life for all that.
@LittleMissDeeDee
7 ай бұрын
@@ifeoma8112 yeah, I don’t really relate to the liberal politics of a lot of queer people I see online, but I don’t feel like I’m straight either. I’m just winging it tbh.
@ifeoma8112
7 ай бұрын
@@LittleMissDeeDee Likewise. These days my main goal is surviving inflation.
@corporesepulto
7 ай бұрын
as a bisexual cis man, i can’t say i’m happy in my sexuality. i thought i was gay my whole life and came out as bi at 17. i am kind of feminine, not in an androgynous way, but in a way where literally everyone perceives me as gay. i’ve been with women before, but trying to date women as a femme man is near impossible. i’m at the bottom of the food chain, as you said lol. it’s gotten to a point where i’m considering if i should stop identifying as bisexual, because even though i’m attracted to women, i don’t know if i want to keep trying to date them. i’m attracted to more men than women in general, but it just doesn’t feel great to be rejected over and over because women think i’m gay or because my flamboyance is unattractive to them. i don’t have a problem with rejection in general and i’m happy with my dating life and sex life when i’m with men, and i’m not saying that women should force themselves to be attracted to femininity, because i don’t think that, i just want to be with people that aren’t put off by my gender presentation, and that happens to be overwhelmingly men. i also don’t think dating a woman long term would be good for me or her. having to deal with everyone thinking your boyfriend is a homosexual has to be exhausting and isolating. i never write youtube comments but i haven’t seen anyone talking about this ever, maybe there are trans men who relate to this, but i feel pretty alone in my disenchantment. so i guess i’m trying to say it’s okay to be confused, we all are in one way or another. ultimately, it’s always good to realize truths about yourself, even if they don’t make you feel great.
@mika_kalea9463
7 ай бұрын
Hey, as a woman with a boyfriend that sometimes gets mistaken for a girl or a gay guy idgaf. He is the singular best person I have ever met. No one has ever treated me this lovely before and I am luckily at a place where I don‘t need just anybodys validation. There will always be assholes, sure sometimes way more than other times but to me it is all worth it. My carefully chosen best friends approve which is all the external validation I need. I know situations like mine are rare but not impossible! I wish you the very best no matter what you choose to do!! Maybe it is actually not a terrible idea to call yourself gay and only open up about the complexities of your sexuality if you click with someone who needs to know. Many people over simplify and say that they are bi when they are pan or say that they are lesbian when they are actually bi with a heavy preferance for women and I think there is nothing wrong with that. You owe nobody an explination! ❤❤
@natevans8024
7 ай бұрын
aw man! I feel you :/ being a femme lesbian/bi woman makes you invisible bc most other women will assume you're straight OR, worse yet, pretending. in your case especially tho, people really do need to get over their gender expectations, it's shitty 🙄 i thought we all had agreed that gender expression =/= sexuality.
@FullMoon_BloodHarvest
7 ай бұрын
My bf is just like you, a very feminine bi cis man. He gets mistaken as a girl to this day. I'm a bi cis woman myself who is also considered to be very feminine in appearance. and in general I am primarily attracted to femininity in both men and women. We used to get flack a lot because so many people tried to talk me into thinking he was gay, and our gay male friends would do the same by trying to convince him he was gay and just suffering from internalized-homophobia despite the fact he was open with them about his attraction to women being greater than in men (like me, he is attracted to feminine looks regardless of gender and women just happened to be feminine more often). It was ridiculous to both of us, since he had been feminine since childhood, and his parents were non-religious and very accepting. And, if I'm honest, it did wear on me sometimes, and we've had fights about it before during times of doubt. But It'll be 8 years soon that we've been together, and we're still going strong. Whether you find happiness with a man or woman, just know there are both out there who would absolutely love you for you, even if the women are rarer to come by.
@blastypie
7 ай бұрын
Honestly I have a similar problem as a trans bi guy. A lot of straight woman won’t consider me as an option because they see me as a woman. And the dudes who will consider me are mostly all straight, which is pretty devastating, but it is what it is.
@ninajeanspears
7 ай бұрын
i’m a bi woman and all the bi men i’ve been with i actually thought we’re too masculine haha. it’s just preference. most woman (especially straight) prefer masculine dudes. id say bi / pan girls would be easier to go for since me and other ones i known tend to like more fem men
@Bella_bella334
6 ай бұрын
She doesn't quite know what she's talking about. There are plenty of classy feminine lesbians, and they are actually at the top of said "food chain"
@urioriari34
21 күн бұрын
It's not quite clear where she lives and what the social attitudes are like there.
@Bella_bella334
21 күн бұрын
@@urioriari34 you're right, I didn't mean to come off so condescending in my comment
@urioriari34
21 күн бұрын
@@Bella_bella334 You make a good point though. It's too bad Kidology can't see herself the way we see her. Drop-dead gorgeous, drop-dead smart, and all that
@Bella_bella334
21 күн бұрын
@@urioriari34 right! Dime a dozen
@urioriari34
21 күн бұрын
@@Bella_bella334 oh, come on
@Neko0Hyuga
7 ай бұрын
I've known I'm bisexual for some time now but there's this weird thing where I can't really see myself on a romantic relationship with a woman and can only see them sexually, on the other hand, I can see romantic relationships with men but any idea of having sex with them seems repulsive at times. I hate that I think this way and it doesn't help that I'm pretty much a western equivalent of a hikikomori so I don't really have the chance to "test it out". It's also pretty sad that we can't talk about how we really feel without someone saying that we're anti this, phobic that like no, I just hate my lived experiences 😅
@moethemoon
6 ай бұрын
Are you me? Lmaooo this stuff is maddening
@gintoki_sakata__
6 ай бұрын
Why would you want to date a man
@briannamorgan7862
6 ай бұрын
me too! didn't know other bi women felt the same@@moethemoon
@pan6529
6 ай бұрын
were living the same life lmao
@ariadnameza6594
6 ай бұрын
I remember hearing somewhere that you can be homosexual and heteroromantic. Sounds like a weird combination but I get it, I’ve thought maybe I’m bisexual, heteroromantic and I mentioned it in a video talking about someone saying they were bisexual homoromantic just for someone to say “oh that can’t be right”… I mean, i understand how my feelings look problematic, but that’s just how I feel 🙃
@daidouani
7 ай бұрын
No, you’re not alone. I’m gay, going on 30, living in a small European capital, and have also come to the realisation that the hopes I had for my romantic life might never come to fruition. I also believe that part of the reason for this are my values, because despite seeing myself as left-leaning, and liberal towards others, I wish for a traditional relationship for myself, which at least to me seems to run counter to the general cultural tendencies of the LGBT+ community as of today. Also I have grown more “choosy”. I really appreciate this video though, it’s sort of comforting (also looking at the comments section) to see that we’re not alone
@kaeya8674
6 ай бұрын
Me too also i dont want to be unhappy in the relationship as well
@mecasunny
6 ай бұрын
Omg, do you live in portugal? Cuz it's so hard here, and I'm a lesbian.
@daps5984
6 ай бұрын
Hey! I could relate to you very strongly. And although I'm right-leaning, I'm pretty laissez-faire in terms of individual liberties and freedoms, and I too wish for a more monogamous traditionalist relationship with another woman. You get all those people in your circle having boyfriend after boyfriend, and girls sometimes if they're bi, but I've never really had a relationship with anyone probly because 1) im sapphic leaning and 2) i've never felt seggsual attraction for a man. ESPECIALLY knowing that men prefer women in their early 20s. I'm screwed really. But seeing the intellectual diversity, backgrounds of all the people here and all the relatability here gave me so much comfort.
@FirstnameLastnames
5 ай бұрын
I'm the same exact way! Approaching 30, and extremely choosey because I do not have time to waste and when it comes to ladies, all I need is 1 good one, not 100 crappy ones!
@LangkeeLongkee
5 ай бұрын
Genuine question, literally what is a traditional gay relationship? I have never heard of such a thing. Being traditional kinda hinges upon gender roles that require two parters of different genders.
@hieronymusbinch9526
7 ай бұрын
"Not that any of you care" RIIIIIIGGGHHTT 👀 (I get that you're not super happy about it but congrats on the discovery)!
@moiseslozano6906
7 ай бұрын
XDDD
@RosieAtterson-uu6tw
7 ай бұрын
Check your dms hen :) Youll have a wife soon enough
@PforPanthera
7 ай бұрын
I'm a lesbian and honestly I really relate to this. I've been out since I was 16 but I've only had one relationship in the over 10 years since and it was more like a friendship than anything romantic. I've complained to people before that I wished I was bi because I have so much trouble meeting people but they act like that means I like hate being a leabian or something. Dating as a lesbian just really sucks a lot of times. I'm autistic and pretty shy which makes it harder to connect with girls on dating apps. While I'm not totally ugly I'm not attractive enough that anyone is really excited when they match with me. I've been told there are girls out there who like shy girls but I have yet to meet them. I think honestly more than anything else I just want to feel like someone really loves me but it feels like that'll never happen sometimes. Also, you're in now way at the bottom of the lesbian totem poll btw. I think you're incredibly beautiful!
@RowanBircher
7 ай бұрын
I totally get you! I'm also autistic and rather shy, making it difficult for me to approach others. I've been out since 16 and now at almost 23 I haven’t even had a first kiss yet. Apps just don't work for me either. Even though I get matches, so that must mean I'm not too ugly… Dating is already hard as it is and being a shy lesbian doesn’t make it easier 😭 I hope everyone can find their soulpartner and have a happy and fulfilling relationship!
@marleyhill34
7 ай бұрын
It's not being a lesbian...it's being autistic. I'm cis/hetero and have ASD level 2. I've been single for 10 years...my brain only likes men for sex and a bit of company..nothing else. Also my brain associates men with trauma despite still being sexually attracted to them..yeah that sucks.
@taylorstep8135
7 ай бұрын
a wlw totem poll does exist.
@razmiddle9410
7 ай бұрын
@@taylorstep8135 Of course, no one said it didn't, she just said that Kidology isn't at the bottom of it.
@avacadocap9591
7 ай бұрын
Being bisexual does not guarantee a relationship. This is what y'all gay people fail to realize cause you're not bisexual.
@relaunchinglife
Ай бұрын
I've just discovered your channel through this video. The moment you declared yourself at "the bottom of the food chain" I went right to the comments - I wanted to make sure the masses were telling you how gorgeous you are, how articulate, oh and the self awareness?! To me there is nothing sexier. You want to talk Late Bloomer? I came out to my family 4 yrs ago at 55 after leaving my husband of 30 years. Not because I realized I was gay (though I had slept w/ women before I got married so I always thought I was bi) but because of his betrayals. It just gave me the runway I needed to discover myself. Now having said that, I've only been on one date since then, and obviously have not had sex. This has had more to do with me wanting to become the person I want to attract than not finding someone. We don't attract what we want, we attract who we are. I wanted to make sure I was someone who was healed from these life changes, extremely self aware, and who has stability in life - this has been the most challenging. When I ended our marriage, I also chose to close a successful business we had together for 25 yrs, just assuming I'd easily be able to replace the business, my home, & the income. I am still working toward this & know I will be there soon. Just plz know you are not alone, and you're completely stunning - I hope you can see this & embrace it! Many Blessings ~ Vivi
@fionastempel
7 ай бұрын
the ad for the sponsor being 4 minutes is the craziest part about this video
@meaghanorlinski8464
7 ай бұрын
Lol seeing as so many people could use this app I can see why she’s promoting it so much. Also KZitem demonetizes videos for anything now a days they got to lean into it.
@jdb6026
7 ай бұрын
I'm happy it was four minutes long. I was like, meh, I don't need this. But she explained it a little longer and just when she was about to finish her spiel, I was like, yup, I definitely need this.
@nyshyn307
7 ай бұрын
I just left another video with the same sponsor, and they also took like 4 minutes promoting it. Maybe that's part of the deal? 😂😂
@novacaine_
7 ай бұрын
Money haffi mek, plus you can easily skip it
@reaverkai
7 ай бұрын
@TimiAkintoye-wb5ytwhat.. An adblock that skips parts of a video??? Doubtful but idk 😂
@soupalot
7 ай бұрын
Ok I just watched the full video “I will not be with anyone probably for the next decade” sis, I’m thinking stopping those pills may have had SOME bearing on how you feel, misery Mandy 😂😂 Love you Kid, stop being so hard on yourself.
@scarletsletter4466
7 ай бұрын
💯 she sounds very dismal & a bit nihilistic here. I’m not surprised her clinicians didn’t want her to stop the medication
@sazonada
7 ай бұрын
Oh my gosh. I didn't even think of that!
@marleyhill34
7 ай бұрын
@@scarletsletter4466 Depends on the medication and the presentation of the personal mental/emotional/cognitive difficulties..... I take the maximum dose of anti-depressants.....they don't stop me from being depressed. Lol! They get me out of bed most of the time...they don't actually get me out of the door. ..I actually got to go and do some happy shit to feel happy...otherwise, I'm mostly just blah..bleurgh..meh!!...I had to stop taking other medication because it left me feeling too groggy and zoned out for half the day. I'm never going to be normal but I want to try to aim for as normal as possible....my version of normal for me does not include being zoned out for half the day.... I'd like to work and pay my way...I can't doped up. My clinicians were also skeptical. Turns out I'm also autistic...which explains a lot of the mental and physical discomfort. From her description: I wouldn't be surprised if she's neurodivergent and ...suffer from some annoying unresolved trauma that makes you triggered about a day that should about everyone caring about everyone. There's romantic love but there's also familial love, platonic love, the love we have for pets, other animal, places and things. sometimes we can't see the wood but for the trees. I just keep telling myself that I just have to find a different way to live and be happy with my autism and I know I can be happy because I know happy autistic people....just as I know happy lesbians and happy asexual people. Our own torture is in being narrow-minded and inflexible.
@kyleflournoy7730
7 ай бұрын
I mean, she strikes me as the type that would want to be friends with someone for like 5 years before going on a date with them so I get where she's coming from lol
@lovefoolish2019
5 ай бұрын
i mean…i haven’t been with anyone for 10 years and counting after coming out…it’s not an impossibility
@RedefiningBodybuilding
7 ай бұрын
Can you imagine looking like a model and not even being able to see your own beauty with your very own two eyes... Oh, Kid. Girl you need Lasix done cause girl... What the WHOLE FFFFFF?! 😢😩🤯 You're freakin gorgeous!
@millieconsultancy
6 ай бұрын
Women tend to define their beauty status based on the results of men choosing them vs their tangible value.
@JaneAustenAteMyCat
6 ай бұрын
My thoughts exactly. She's stunning!
@whitetrashwarriorprincess
6 ай бұрын
Facts 💯
@MaxPowers2.0
6 ай бұрын
Why do women do that? Sure she may have low self esteem and is probably more attractive than she she thinks she is but “a model” and “stunning”? Do you think that really helps? Sure on the one hand it feels good to get your ego boosted, but when you gas someone up and then send them out into the world with a belief that does NOT track onto reality, wont that have very hard hitting consequences down the road?
@blammela
6 ай бұрын
Yeah, like, if a lean, beautiful, articulate woman isn’t “attractive” I literally have zero chance. Reaffirms my letting that idea go years ago.
@IndiGo-Go
7 ай бұрын
Hey Zee, For what it's worth, I just wanted to say thank you for being so vulnerable and continuing to make such thought-provoking and nuanced content. I wish nothing but the best you.
@howaboutnooo00
7 ай бұрын
girrrrrl when I discovered I am a lesbian at 29 I first GRIEVED for like 3 months. During the first month I'd cry into my pillow every night, genuinely sad for the heterosexuality that I didn't even really realize, even in the crazy drunken college years when I should be promiscuous like my friends all were. I always was a man-hater and would not flirt with men not to mention sleep with them, and yet I still believed I was 'normal', just that men sucked. When I came out to myself I began to grieve the 'normal' lifestyle, grieve the potential of making my parents happy the only way a daughter could, etc. Also yeah lesbian dating is HARD, there's just so few of us.
@SonilaMoktan
7 ай бұрын
I think this feeling is far more common than you’d think. There is a niche for social media lesbians that is hardly representative of your average sapphic experience.Especially where I live, we are so different culturally from western societies. I can’t relate with the urban liberals and queer people who seem to have co-opted the western style of liberal politics but I also cannot relate with the conservatives. I feel far removed from most people. The handful of people that I did like were “straight” so there’s that. When I get truly desperate, I think that maybe I should just aggressively pursue people and settle for anyone who will have me but then I see relationships around me, both straight and queer and I realise that most people are together just because they are afraid of being alone and to be in a relationship just for the sake of being in a relationship is not something to desire. And loneliness is a very difficult thing, I know. But I don’t think I would be happy living like that. I don’t think most people ever get what they want. Most people are lonely. Nobody will understand you the way you want to be understood, most of the times. My point is, there is no point as such. Just that you are not alone in this feeling of isolation. It’s a very human thing. It’s wonderful to be sharing the same kind of feeling with a stranger in a whole different continent. Have a good day.
@AM-sw9di
7 ай бұрын
I'm bi and have known this since i was a child, but a while ago my attraction to men got completely obliterated for about a year and a half and I believed I was a lesbian. It was a very lonely experience, and I think anyone who is gay or has been through periods of exclusively being attracted to the same sex will recognise and understand. Also I have absolutely had problems dating where I have gone from being desired on dating apps to being almost ignored. I don't have wonderful social skills and trouble reading social cues to put it lightly, which counts a lot with women (I also find being around people my own age difficult as opposed to being around older generations) but I'm not ugly by any means, but looks are absolutely not enough! Trust me you are *not* alone in all this, what you're talking about is incredibly common. Also I really wanted to say that I've always thought you were *so* elegant, intelligent, and gorgeous. If I were single I would absolutely jump at any chance to date you! Also there are many lesbians out there who are socially conservative, I wouldn't worry about that.
@godhimself1128
7 ай бұрын
"socially conservative lesbians" ☠️ ☠️☠️☠️
@mariusvanc
7 ай бұрын
"Also there are many lesbians out there who are socially conservative, I wouldn't worry about that." -- there are, but it's a tiny minority out of population that's already tiny.
@princesshigh
7 ай бұрын
I’m a bi woman, I’ve had basically the same experience as you. My attraction to men vanished for over a year, leading me to believe I was a lesbian. I relate to the feelings of loneliness during this experience, and it left me very confused with my sexuality. If I do find myself attracted to men now, they tend to be gay and/or quite effeminate. I now believe I have more of an attraction to the same sex, and I do see myself pursuing more romantic relationships with women, it just feels right - but a straighter lifestyle does seem easier. Honestly, it feels so comforting being able to share this quite weird experience with someone who has gone through the same thing - I’ve been alone with these thoughts for a while. I’ve never read or known of someone who can relate to this experience, it’s quite unique. So thank you for allowing me to share this. It’s a weird and wonderful feeling being able to connect with a stranger, it’s so good to know you are never really alone in whatever you are dealing with - there’s so many others alike sharing the same struggles.
@littletrebleclef
7 ай бұрын
When the character development hits 😂
@NeyamStar
5 ай бұрын
Stop 💀
@midgetwaffles8635
3 ай бұрын
My villain arc 😈
@evam6961
6 ай бұрын
Being a lesbian anywhere but in huge ass liberal cities like L.A or new york or toronto is lonely and hard ngl i would never change who i am cause i love women i just wish there were more lesbians / bi / queer women where i live thats all
@Missteree87
Ай бұрын
"Bottom of the food-chain"...um, respectfully, to WHOM?
@reruni1inthecity
7 ай бұрын
I remember writing in my journal about exactly this feeling. I was so frustrated at myself, and also thought "Why me? Why do I have to be this way?" But my grand realization ultimately came when I really internalized the fact that there were only two paths in front of me: I could take the path of least resistance and keep living in a way that was ultimately unfulfilling to me, or I could choose to live an authentic life. The latter path is scary. I look down it and it's covered in a dense fog. I don't know what lies at the end of it, but I realized that the hollow discomfort I was currently trying to grow around would be there every day for the rest of my life if I followed the easy path. That thought scared me more than the thought of walking through that fog. My favourite mantra is "Do it scared." Walking into the fog is terrifying, but I'm proud of myself for doing it anyway. I hope that one day you can be proud of yourself for doing it, too. I hope that what lies at the other end of it is happiness, or at the very least, peace within ourselves.
@criminalmindsfanforlife
6 ай бұрын
Wow... amazingly put... thank you for this 🥹
@imthebossmermaid3648
6 ай бұрын
AMen to that, bestie, amen. 🙌🏿
@sethkrebs5032
6 ай бұрын
Love this 💛
@FirstnameLastnames
5 ай бұрын
Bravery doesn't mean being unafraid, Bravery means being afraid and doing it anyway. ... I learned this from Raven in OG Teen Titans and it's so dang true! ❤
@BloodDollASMR
7 ай бұрын
I can honestly relate. I came out as gay in my mid teens and ended up in an abusive relationship with a woman that really fucked me up since. That was over 10 years ago. But since then, I had developed a drinking problem and began sleeping with men. I assumed I was then bi. I continued that cycle for the next decade. It was only last year that I decided to cut out the alcohol and see what would happen. Lo and behold, a few weeks ago I had a 'devastating' realisation that I was most likely still gay and I began to break down what my apparent attraction to men actually was. It seemed to have stemmed from the drinking and to block out my abusive ex. In the light of being sober I had to face my sexuality again. And it feels like a kick in the guts honestly. I thought this whole discovering who you are stuff was settled in teens-early 20s. But at nearly 30 I'm back here again and it's incredibly draining as I don't want to be gay. Having a super religious upbringing/probably some internalised homophobia doesn't help either. All that just to say, you summed it up perfectly saying you're not happy about it. I feel that
@prouddegenerates9056
7 ай бұрын
Rather bleak, we very seldom talk about woman on woman abuse. Crazy fact is, the domestic violence stats for lesbian married couples are crazy high, along with having the highest divorce rate. Truth be told, I just don’t see any mainstream news sources tackling this. Maybe because gay relationships being public with any sense of normalcy is relatively new?
@Katakagara
6 ай бұрын
Hang in there. I’m sorry you went through that. It seems like you have trauma and need to heal that. I would suggest going to 12 step ACA or CODA meetings. There are LGB only meetings too. Yes, a religious upbringing can program internalized homophobia from childhood and you have to root it out. Those were lies to keep you not expressing your true self. The alcohol simply covered it up, and sleeping with males only continued to push you further into your trauma. You can heal !!! It takes daily work. There are many books, support groups and even phone meetings! 💜✨✨✨ The other comment from the het male about high abuse in LGB couples is an absolute lie. It makes no sense - especially since our dating pool is smaller and we have less relationships than hets. Bad actors - who are het men - are always creating lies about Lesbians because they can’t have them and we see men as mostly useless. Please don’t believe this recent het male narrative that Lesbians beat each other up. We don’t! It’s a story they created because they want to have LGB seen as bad people. The truth is het males are 99% the abusers of all women, kids, animals, and the earth. They are steeped in patriarchy and they enjoy it staying that way. Stay away from het males. They are the only true toxic species on Mother Earth.
@SalivatingSteve
6 ай бұрын
@@prouddegenerates9056true, domestic violence in lesbian relationships is higher than any other group. Higher than hetero or gay men couples.
@spianny
6 ай бұрын
thanks for sharing. Sounds so tough! all the best!
@Ariapeithes_
6 ай бұрын
@@prouddegenerates9056 Like Jordan Peterson said you can't have two neurotic people together(that's why lesbian relationships ultimately fail), it's wrong and not what God intended.
@theenjoye
7 ай бұрын
I usually don't leave comments but this has really hit home for me. I am a feminine presenting, nonbinary lesbian. Recently realizing that I am not attracted to men has been such an odd let-down. I hear people constantly making statements like, "I wish I was a lesbian!" but they don't seem to understand the weight of that reality. I thought I was comfortable being queer, but I realize that in a way I was clinging to this idea of settling down in the "normal" way (I'm from the bible belt). I have seen my cis/bisexual friends who used to be so loud and proud settle into their steady jobs, dye their hair back to natural colors, find love in their straight-passing relationships, and be welcomed back into more traditional communities (as quietly out bisexual women); I cannot help but envy them. I could be as quiet and private as I'd like about my identity, but introducing my future wife or girlfriend is always going to close doors for me.
@humansolarian
7 ай бұрын
The bible belt 😂 i love that phrase . I totally understand what youre saying, sametime i also hope u know that while doors may close many others will open theyll invite you to be more authentic as that is your birth right. Goodluck with your journey, thank you for sharing ❤
@Rolando_Cueva
6 ай бұрын
"nonbinary lesbian"
@ilylavender8014
6 ай бұрын
I don't usually leave comments either, and I'm a younger nonbinary fem person who is in a straight-passing relationship. I'm not sure how much this can help but i hope you know your identity has a place. Seeing people like you express their experience and meeting those who share it make me feel more comfortable with my identity and are the only reason I found it. At the same time, your identity is for you only and I hope you come to a place where you are completely content and grateful for it, because I think you deserve it! I hope that came across as sincere as I truly am :)
@rarrrar6749
6 ай бұрын
@@Rolando_Cueva😂😂😂😂
@vir2plus
4 ай бұрын
@@Rolando_Cueva if you know, you know
@vblake530530
6 ай бұрын
I think this is the first time I’ve heard you laugh. It’s so sweet. May you find that someone that brings that laugh out of you every day.
@Ma-bx8bz
6 ай бұрын
Self-discovery is wonderful:) wishing you so much luck and love miss kid!
@EmmalynnCynefin
7 ай бұрын
Probably doesn't mean much, as a 19 year old bisexual, I think you're really gorgeous and pretty hot
@lidiagizaw3828
7 ай бұрын
i legit think she has insecurities about being black coz no way she 's pretending like western men dont have a bigger problem dating a black girl than women do
@blazingstar9638
7 ай бұрын
I’ve had a crush on her always
@allandm
7 ай бұрын
She's very cute, she speaks as if she's a goblin xD
@clarion3204
7 ай бұрын
Oh my, I feel for you. I’m someone who felt like they came out late in life (age 22), and now over ten years later I have a perspective on how young I actually was, how long life really is, and how much experience changes and develops us. You’re still new to this world, so I’d like to say (as politely as I can) that you’re still prone to bias based on your limited experience and what you’ve read. I’ve met plenty of more conservative lesbians, vanilla lesbians, and those who hold more traditional family values. The voices you’re most likely hearing from are the loudest, most radical, and/or the most disenfranchised in the community. The sort of people that are gathering on Reddit are the ones currently feeling sad or lost or alone with no one to talk to or relate to, and I’m glad they have a space online to gather and feel heard. But you’re hearing from a specific sample of the population, because those who have adjusted to their reality and found ways to cope and eventually thrive over the years aren’t entering those communities to share their experiences. You’re reading about a very specific experience that many may relate to at some point in their life, but which many still grow from and find peace or even happiness. You’re also very attractive, interesting, and well spoken, and I know many people who would be excited to date you. It’s valid that things feel hard and bleak right now, and this feels very real from your vantage point. But things will change, I promise. I know it feels like you just had to throw out the script to your whole life, all your plans into the bin, and that’s upsetting and unfair, but it’s also less uncommon than you’d think. It happens all the time- death, injury, illness, career, so many things can happen in this life to people that upend the whole plan and leave you sitting there on the floor starting over completely from scratch. It’s just life, and it is unfair and it can be upsetting. But by finding the strength to start over, to rewrite, to learn again, you develop yourself into a human beyond your wildest conception. Someone you may not have ever dreamed of being, but someone you will be proud to become. It will take a while before you see this. But the journey is worth it. Living a life of authenticity and courage is the best thing you can do, and one of the most important journeys you can ever go on. You’re being given that opportunity now. You’re allowed to feel exhausted and unhappy about that opportunity- many of us feel that way at the outset. It’s okay. But I promise you, making the journey is worth it. That’s what life is all about. Good luck 🍀
@ElenaSemanova
7 ай бұрын
This is beautiful
@dewilew2137
6 ай бұрын
The best comment.
@missale429
6 ай бұрын
You wrote that so eloquently. I completely agree. Even though I'm only 23, I remember feeling and viewing the community as a monolith when I first accepted being a lesbian a few years ago, but have grown to see the diversity all communities offer, though it is often lonely and I've yet to find that group for myself. It seems like there only one way to be a lesbian, but that was never true...
@irina2633
2 ай бұрын
Wow this is a really thoughtful comment, thank you for being a kind person
@roundandaroundagain
7 ай бұрын
I am a bi woman... who is maybe a lesbian lol. I love men... but I feel no sexual attraction. I really enjoy having sex with men cause it feels good to be desired + intimacy etc... but there is no sexual (as in physical) desire or feeling. I still continue to predominantly date men as I do have romantic attraction, which most will probably consider a wrong thing. I do this because - women arent attracted to me. I'm a normal looking (no make-up or extravagant clothes) more feminine looking women who likes people who look the same, and I don't think i've actually ever met another 20 something woman who is also like this, let alone had a mutual connection. So i call myself bi cause I would rather be with a man than no one. So in other words Kidology - hit me up :*
@ELCNUmorFnaMehT
7 ай бұрын
*Plays 'Booty Call' by All Saints
@zaihoupersonal1635
7 ай бұрын
It's impossible to imagine a man writing this kind of comment. This is weird.
@hananiatacorelis2152
7 ай бұрын
I feel you! But my theory is, that we just dont discover this about eachother, just because we arnt that gay looking, know about eachother that we in the past dated men and maybe dont discover eachother as a Potential romantic match. So Nobody ever makes a move😅 Hope you can follow my train of thought, english is ny second language🙈)
@hananiatacorelis2152
7 ай бұрын
@@zaihoupersonal1635why?
@AlanSmithee789
7 ай бұрын
@@zaihoupersonal1635 ?? why is it weird? also, a man wrote a similar comment below
@naev.3344
6 ай бұрын
This video unpacks a lot. I only just discovered this channel today (and this is the second video I've watched by you) but you've really got me thinking/dissecting things. Thanks for posting this and not taking it down! The fact that moving to the farm helped you more than the medication isn't an abnormal phenomenon. A slower pace of life with more fresh air, and sunshine (and less social media) has been proven to help with certain conditions (i.e. a "natural" antidepressant is exercise and going out in nature more - it's literally listed on Mayo Clinic as something you can do before speaking with someone about getting a prescription). As an American black woman who has tried dating both genders on dating apps, I can share that for me it was EXTREMELY difficult to meet women for many of the same reasons you listed. Or worse, I would meet someone only to find out later they are only "bi-curious" or poly women who were married or in relationships with men and wanted to incorporate me into their love triangle (or quadrilateral). That said, I can't give much advice other than don't give up and try to expand your circle. You may even have to flat-out move to meet someone (Two of my straight sisters did this unintentionally. They moved for jobs only to end up in cities where the men aligned with their style/values more thus they had more dating opportunities.) Then to play devils advocate...you don't necessarily have to be "lesbian"...(And I can see myself getting a ton of downvotes for saying this) Sometimes sexual attraction isn't so much about being sexual with someone. It took me a while to realize that sometimes I am "attracted" to someone (male or female) because there is something about them I would like to have in myself. Sex, metaphorically, is combining of two entities to create a whole - going off that idea, sometimes the mind will have you lusting after something simply because you are lacking in a certain department and need a boost. Also, this works vice/versa sometimes where if there is something you can't stand about someone- try to look beyond that dislike to see what about it actually reminds you of yourself so you can change it. Lastly, Valentine's Day is weird. I know couples who are toxic ASF but come Valentine's, they are the most lovey and can't stop posting their "perfect romance" on social media. It's easy to say ignore social media but the reality is when there are so many people faking it online, it's easy to think you are missing out on something wonderful. Again, thanks for sharing this video (and keeping it). I'm looking forward to whatever else you post!
@TheClosingDreams
6 ай бұрын
I have to thank you. I rarely comment on your channel but just so you know I truly appreciate your work and what you emane as a person. As a black woman who tried to date other women while living in a western country I deeply relate. As a teenager I was convinced that I was gay , and felt hurt because I wasn't the most desirable one in the "food chain". In high school I dated a boy with whom I stayed for 3 years. I discovered that it was far more easier for me to seek love and appreciation on the straight dating market. So I guess I did just that. As an adult now I've come to the term that I'm bisexual and tried to date other women with no succes. So I definitely feel you. PS: I'm sorry if my english is bad, I'm french.
@Sarah-re7cg
6 ай бұрын
Out of curiosity (and you don’t have to answer this) what were some of your experiences in trying to date women? I would think the difficulties are more or less chalked up to the fact that a much smaller percentage of the population is gay, and then on top of that what percent of the gay population is even able to or comfortable/feels safe to openly express their sexuality.
@TheClosingDreams
5 ай бұрын
@@Sarah-re7cg Sorry for the late response. First off I didn't had much of a succes on dating apps. The few matches I got were people I wasn't really interested in or people with whom I will start conversation for a while and then they stopped answering. The only date I got was a girl who was already seeking someone else at the same time and giving really mixed signals. The fact that the dating pool is much smaller and that I'm also a feminine presenting black woman I think made meeting women really hard.
@sapphire4915
5 ай бұрын
probs knew this already but ur hot as hell. if you can't do it then the rest of us have no chance
@defmeta
7 ай бұрын
Great to hear this latest update to your life Kid! I mean i'm sorry that you feel so trapped, but i am glad you are having these crucial discoveries about yourself. I sincerely hope life surprises you in positive ways. Much love from an old fan 🧡
@xDRickiexD
7 ай бұрын
I feel similarly discouraged in finding love, mainly because I can’t even figure out my sexuality. I’m 26 and never had a sexual relationship, even though I’m quite social and adventurous. I’m sexually attracted to men, but only had that happen about three times in my life. I want their approval because I feel like my worth depends on that but at the same time I’m scared of them and I feel like a man would never make a lifelong partner for me, because my emotional connections to women are SO much deeper. I’m also really into feminism and see how we as women suffer under men in this patriarchal society. So I wish I would be a lesbian, just because it would give me higher chances of finding a person I actually want to be with, because I LOVE WOMEN, just not romantically or sexually. I’m also feeling very alone, because I value my female friendships a lot, but I feel like they all prioritize their partnerships with men. I wish I could spend my life with a “best” female friend as a partner for life
@Angers98
6 ай бұрын
Oof this comment is way too familiar. I'm a 29 year old woman, attracted to men, have never been in a relationship or been physically intimate at all (other than a couple of kisses), and I have rarely felt strong physical attraction. I'm definitely somewhere on the asexual spectrum, but hold out hope that I will find a patient man who can love me without the immediate gratification of sex. I really value my female friendships and they keep me going, despite the crushing and numbing loneliness I feel without romantic love (or attention at all). I hope for both of us that we find that love & safety soon.
@xDRickiexD
6 ай бұрын
@@Angers98 thank you for sharing, it feels good to know that I‘m not alone with these feelings. May we find the people who make us feel less alone 🫶🏼
@daps5984
6 ай бұрын
Hey, I REALLY resonated with this part: > . So I wish I would be a lesbian, just because it would give me higher chances of finding a person I actually want to be with, because I LOVE WOMEN, just not romantically or sexually. I had a non-sexual but intensive queerplatonic infatuation with a girl for several years that doesn't even know me. I just wanted SO HARD to find an intimate friend who was as beautiful and excellent as her. Again I didn't see her necessarily seggsually but I really wanted a close close friend with whom I could be sort of ...emotionally invested into ?? Idk if we'd be compatible or anything (I'm not a feminist) but I still wish you all the best of luck all the same. I think we're all equally deserving of love regardless.
@KRfromthePaleozoic
Ай бұрын
Sounds like you could be demisexual--definitely take a look into it!
@MDonuT-of7px
7 ай бұрын
"NOOO MY MICROSCOPIC CHANCE IS GONNNNEEEEEEE" Nah all jokes aside, I get the meloncholy of female attraction. I'm a bisexual man and have noticed that if I just looked at my female attraction, I'm almost entirely celibate, but when looking at male attraction, I'm surprisingly quite the catch (apparently masc tops are rare in my area) and have been successful when dealing with that and engaging with intimate endeavors of the more casual sort. I've only had one long term relationship in my life and it was with another man. However, my problem is that I only find myself physically attracted to dainty and androgynous guys, which makes me sometimes wish that I could "become gay and by that, could be attracted to masculine presenting men" as well. I have a good friend of mine who is lesbian, and she frequently laments the fact that she cannot get a girlfriend, and while my opinion is besides the point (from what I understand some lesbian women have just as much of a different view of sexual viability of a woman in comparison to straight men as the fact that a fem twink could have almost every gay guy he wants but would have to spend years getting a woman to be interested), she seemingly has everything going for her. She has a great job, has socially acceptable hobbies (cosplay, music festivals and going out with friends), is pretty and outside of being the "Oh I make a lot of money but still complain about free market economics because ideology" kind of person or whatever, she's a great person. Attracting women is genuinely hard. Hang in there.
@JackInABeanstalk98
7 ай бұрын
i ID as a more a straight guy who's into dudes but this is similar to how i feel
@gabby222themoon
7 ай бұрын
@@JackInABeanstalk98how are you identifying as straight if your into the same gender? If you feel like explaining it further no pressure I’m just wondering idk how to ask it nicer than that sorry if it’s an invasive question
@akwaMartyna
7 ай бұрын
I was saying the same thing, just gender swaped 'cause I'm a woman, before I fully embraced being bisexual with maybe a slight partiality towards men (probably because most of my life I never thought I was anything other than straight plus it's just a default in our society). From what i've heard it's a pretty common experience. you can't force self-discovery and self-acceptance, especially if accepting something makes you afraid of potential discrimination. on the other hand, some people are just bicurious and experimenting. sexuallity is fluid and people are rarely 100% anything. for example if you have some sexual interactions with another man in prison because of the utter loneliness and lack of emotional & physical intimacy, I don't think it makes you gay/bisexual. if you never feel any attraction to guys in the outside world, you're still straight. @@gabby222themoon
@james6028
7 ай бұрын
I'm a bisexual man and have noticed that if I just looked at my female attraction, I'm almost entirely celibate you and me both brother
@jasonco2
7 ай бұрын
I find myself relating to this as well as I'm in a similar-ish spot after recently coming to terms with my own bisexuality. I too prefer the dainty and androgynous type, which had certainly left me feeling a bit odd over the years as I just don't see the appeal in boobs like almost every other guy seemed to. The added layer of shame in not liking a hyper-masc or hyper-fem body type was certainly not helpful either, as "What kind of man doesn't like boobs? What, are you attracted to children?" is certainly an attitude that exists out there. I honestly get why some smaller busted woman would feel they need to get bigger boobs, that pressure exists. It's also a situation that has certainly left me in the awkward position of just not being attracted to otherwise "hot" girls that were into me; but you try to explain why you're just not into some busty tall blonde and some people look at you funny. XD My longest relationship so far was with a trans man, and while that certainly helped me find myself and be more comfortable with who I am; I now look around the local dating pool and almost wish I was "more gay" or hell, even "more straight". lol. But I have hope, both for myself and for Kidology and for you my dude. Keep on keeping on. 👍
@imthebossmermaid3648
6 ай бұрын
As a Black woman who is proud to be a femme lesbian and was incredibly ecstatic to find out, I totally see where you're coming from! It can be hard to feel happy about your sexuality when there is nobody else like you around, and when your dating pool is incredibly small, and when you feel lonely and with no connection to the lgbt community. But just know that these feelings won't last. They won't be around forever. You may feel lost and alone now, but eventually you will find people like you, and settle down with the amazing girl of your dreams, and also find people who love, support, and accept you! Best of luck in the future! 🥳
@MangoPanic
6 ай бұрын
I feel you so much girl 😭 Recently found out I'm (F19) a heavily woman-leaning bisexual, after previously thinking I was straight and on the asexual spectrum. I used to not feel sexual attraction to anyone in real life at all, and now I suddenly do! But really only for girls, and more fictionally for guys. It's as exciting as it is overwhelming honestly, and was also probably influenced a bit by meds in my case because I started antidepressants a couple months ago. I'm also "conservative" by LGBTQ+ standards, and do not consider myself part of that community at all really because of it. It does make it difficult because yeah, I gravitate to older people for that reason as well, which understandably makes things difficult. And the already small pool of gay women is then reduced even more by the large number of raging lefties. Even just mentioning the fact that you're bi or gay makes people assume things about your political beliefs. I worry about my looks too! Because I'm on the bigger side and yeah, the pool is small and women are far more picky. But my wlw friends have been fawning over me since I came out and assure me I'll have no trouble so... LOL Ig we'll see. Pity they're all taken 😂
@VerminaeSupremacy
6 ай бұрын
Unless you wean off ADs and COCs completely, you don't know your proper biochemistry, love. I used to think I was asexual when in fact I was stressed and on medication that killed my libido. Culture wars are bs, but better than actual wars and prosecution from an increasingly fascistic state. You're young. You have all the time in this world for now. You'll weather the current crisis alright. Trust. Much love from Eastern Europe.
@sarahclayton5845
7 ай бұрын
As a lesbian myself, I've always said that if I had a choice, I would not choose this. It's not because I don't love women or other lesbians, it's just because it's made my life so much more difficult.
@beautifulrose8619
7 ай бұрын
I get that. Why would you chose to make your life harder.
@SK0897
7 ай бұрын
I understand you. I live in a homophobic country in a religious family, so for me it is literally dangerous to be myself.
@beautifulrose8619
7 ай бұрын
@@SK0897 I can imagine. I actually don't personally know any homophobic people personally, but maybe they don't confide in me. As far as religious, I do know many religious people. In my opinion, the are condescending. They say, Gays are sinners. We don't hate the person just what they do. Well in my eyes, if you hate what they do, you hate the person. Do you live in midwest america?
@Low_pH
7 ай бұрын
It is what it is.
@daysgo5514
7 ай бұрын
@@beautifulrose8619 its a sin to do gay sex. if God forbade it why try and vilify God for your lustful desires, reminds me of Adam and Eve taking a bite of the forbidden fruit
@Illuminatibby
7 ай бұрын
Yes! I’m glad a femme black woman with a big platform is bringing out the problems in the lesbian and bi community (remember most of the women who dare women are bi). This issue has been going on in secret but much of the community has a lot of issues. You have the chance to bring real change and be an actually relatable content creator. I’m so proud of u and am rooting for u so much!!!
@Illuminatibby
7 ай бұрын
Like I’ve literally never seen another lesbian creator who’s articulated these feelings I’ve had. I went thru what u did after realizing being a lesbian make u lose the numbers game and have to have more of a sense of patience and self esteem than u ever needed to have otherwise.
@RollingOnFire
7 ай бұрын
Contrapoints is white but has talked about the shame of realising she's a trans lesbian. Being the "bottom of the barrel"@@Illuminatibby
@shadesofvioletcat
7 ай бұрын
I am a bisexual woman who has never dated women because they terrify me. I would be VERY disappointed if I found out I was actually a lesbian.
@beewest5704
7 ай бұрын
😂
@LlamawithHat
7 ай бұрын
Same here 😢
@Concretesatanic
7 ай бұрын
LMAO
@natevans8024
7 ай бұрын
yall are the reason the dating pool is tiny 😂 man tf up!!!
@MrKiingpin
7 ай бұрын
Im curious what is it about women that can be scary? im a straight guy but in my experience women are much nicer and aware of other peoples feelings than men, although I would imagine dating men is much easier in comparison to dating women just in terms standards
@gabrielaantonioli
6 ай бұрын
11:17 Girl you spoke for so many of us! Love your channel, love your content. From my personal experience: I am Brazilian and although I'm not a lesbian, what happens in my cuntry is that is quite ease for a woman to have intercourse or even relationships with other woman, we have a big, proud and loud LGBT+ community. However is really hard here for a lesbian woman to form a true bond or a healthy relationship with each other. When I'm with my friends that are lesbia or bi and the subject "choosing a partner" comes to the table, it always seems that one has to choose from the "least worse" no matter the gender, race, religion or sexuallity. Seems like everybody is running from instead of running to.
@aqua2949
5 ай бұрын
I can only imagine how anxious you were to post this video, but thank you, it helps me feel less alone.
@logyyyyyy123
7 ай бұрын
i'm a lesbian as well, i heavily relate to you. i have never seen my experience with my sexuality so perfectly articulated before. my personal takeaway from this video is the idea of accepting your feelings as they are, even if they feel unconventional and maybe pessimistic about your own future. feeling isolated is one of the worst things to experience, so i think the best we can do is extend ourselves some grace when it comes to the ways we choose to cope with it. i'm still young, and so are you, if we end up not finding romantic love, it's not the end of the world. the great thing about life is that there are many ways you can find happiness and personal fulfillment! good luck on your journey :) i rarely ever comment on videos, but i really did appreciate you making this. thank you!
@looneyday
7 ай бұрын
Where does this whole idea that “I have to be super pretty to have a woman date me” come from??? Because as someone’s who’s almost 30 and had been dating until recently, that’s NEVER been a thing 🧐
@geologick
6 ай бұрын
I think it's probably more of a "need to be pretty enough to attract the kinds of women I'm attracted to" thing. I can relate to that, I'm pretty average to below-average looking, but I seem to really only be attracted to women with higher levels of natural beauty than me.
@roxanartventures
6 ай бұрын
@@geologicklol i meaaan who isnt more attracted to beautiful people? But really, makes you think maybe i gotta be filthy rich or capable to be with this supermodels lol
@LaurenAusEngland
6 ай бұрын
Experience??? Can we stop denying what actually happens to people?
@StillAwesome21
6 ай бұрын
@@LaurenAusEngland This is not the place for it 😂
@thelaurenkri
5 ай бұрын
😂 I blame the tiktok lesbians, in the wild we're all pretty average, the beauty lies in the embracing how freaking beautiful life can be outside straight narratives!
@Azrael__
7 ай бұрын
New Kidology arc just dropped.🔥
@seraphim108
6 ай бұрын
I'm getting Contrapoints flashbacks 😂
@luiysia
6 ай бұрын
@@seraphim108lmaoooo
@josss_ie8083
6 ай бұрын
I haven't watched her channel in months then this video popped up, only realised it was her when I clicked the video 😭
@auntie_psychotics
6 ай бұрын
It’s nice seeing someone relate to the ‘why me’ and having to answer it as a crucial part of identity and navigating our own lives. I’m not entirely sure if I have an attraction towards others in the first place, but your voice is relatable. It’s simply lonely to feel underwhelming and overwhelming in this life.
@goblin1226
2 ай бұрын
I actually feel very similar. I used to believe i was transgender, but it turns out i'm just a lesbian, who wanted to be attractive to women, hence becoming a dude. But now i've just accepted that i'm a woman who likes other women. I'm struggling with my mental health, which is one of the reasons why i feel like i will be forever alone. I have pretty severe social anxiety, and a hard time making friends, let alone finding relationships due to it. My only relationship was a long distance one with a dude. I feel like i'm not made to be a lesbian for some reason. I also don't feel part of the lgbtq community. Idk, just kinda lost. I feel ya on this one.
@Spinner773
2 ай бұрын
Good for you for realizing that. And yeah I'm a lesbian too, it can be extremely isolating. I don't feel any connection to the lgbt community, at all. I wish I could go up to a random girl I think is pretty and not even think about if she is gay. But it is what it is, we have to have hope you know.
@briargray2355
7 ай бұрын
It means a lot to see you talking about this. While I'm bisexual, I'm only really romantically attracted to men (male myself). And the realization that the likelihood of me having an organic romantic experience where we just meet whilst going about life and a spark forms would just be...nonexistent, is a really sad idea to me. I can't just go "would you like to go to dinner sometime?" without worrying about a genuine threat of violence. Rejection wouldn't just be a "no" or getting laughed at, but could be actually life threatening. And I hate that. I hate that I live in a society where my affection is treated as something so profane as to warrant violence. I'm plenty confident in my sexuality. I don't feel like there's something wrong with me. It feels like love and love feels good. But I can acknowledge a pain that comes with other people deciding there's something wrong with me, and I've cried at multiple points because I was made to feel like something so pure as that love was intrinsically dangerous. And on the community front, I really relate. People have tied so many implications, symbols, and imagery with queer sexuality that...I just don't resonate with. My sexuality is not rainbows. My sexuality is not glitter. My sexuality is not being half naked in a parade. My sexuality is not loud. My sexuality is not being a massive Repaul stan. My sexuality is not "no fats no fems no blacks" BS. My sexuality has no politics other than "let me love and be loved in peace." My sexuality is tender. It's patient. It's soft. It's slow. It's a moment for me to share with people who I want to feel more connected to. It's a devotion to who I'm sharing that moment with, not a whole damn community. Our sexuality is beautiful in a way that deserves respect, and the idea of making a community with such a singular culture around something so deeply personal is...I dunno, cheap. I want to be loved as a whole person, not mindlessly idolized over a gross hypersimplification of my sexuality dressed up in pageant makeup to be agreeable to others.
@SyndroOmCani
6 ай бұрын
Taurus spotted
@Angers98
6 ай бұрын
This comment made me cry xx
@imthebossmermaid3648
6 ай бұрын
@@SyndroOmCani Not everything is about zodiac signs.
@briargray2355
6 ай бұрын
@@SyndroOmCani Incorrect mate
@SyndroOmCani
6 ай бұрын
@@briargray2355dammit! xD
@Darayavahusan
7 ай бұрын
I feel ya. As a hopeless romantic gay I feel like an ultra minority in the age of instant gratification hookup culture. Being a homo just in terms of the number's game gives you bad odds on the dating market to begin with and putting other obstacles on top of it can feel very disheartening. What experience has shown me in the past was that the best strategy for finding a suitable mate is being okay with being alone and having no pressure or expectations from the dating market. I've been in a long term relationship and I would call it a success as it lasted 6 years and despite it ending we're still friends. I've evolved into a big old cat lady at present and decided to work on my issues in therapy before trying again. I think that you hit the nail on the head with this video, being gay is difficult. We had or often still have a lot of hidden self hatred that was given to us by the outside world. On the bright side I have noticed that we are much more open to working on ourselves and identifying our issues.
@dickyboi4956
7 ай бұрын
"I can't believe it! Im absolutely SHOCKED!!!" - No one, anywhere, ever
@Penterror
7 ай бұрын
I don't think anyone was fooled by the "bi" thing
@Penterror
7 ай бұрын
@@muadhnate She never really sounded attracted to men but always brought up how she's an "forever alone" and how attractive women are.
@blastypie
7 ай бұрын
@@lychee-zi3lzdo you understand the concept of comphet?
@Penterror
7 ай бұрын
@@lychee-zi3lz She dated people she wasn't attracted to. Late blooming lesbians are pretty common
@bannedmann4469
7 ай бұрын
Yup, her incel/Asexual thing was always BS.
@bluespectrum1348
Ай бұрын
I thought I would never find a girlfriend but last year I met this girl who was also a lesbian and lets just say we will be celebrating our first year anniversary in about a week :D have faith
@RobynSmiles8D
Ай бұрын
Omg you put it into words. I was initially happy 4 years ago realising I wouldn’t have to deal with men anymore, but 3 years and a measly 3 awkward dates later I’ve never felt so hopeless about finding someone. I’m now genuinely trying to come to terms with the fact I may be single for the rest of my life, and I just really hope I’m wrong about that.
@lolafierling2154
7 ай бұрын
I think you are one of the most intelligent and beautiful women I've ever seen. You will find someone. I know it. Sexuality can be so stressful and putting yourself in s box can feel really bad. I remember when i realized i was attracted to women. I cried for weeks. I was devastated. I'm ok with myself now but I'm the beginning it was hard. Your feelings are valid. And if people read too much into it they're just not thinking critically. They're going off of emotion. You are wonderful and you experience is so valid.❤
@ClassicRuby
7 ай бұрын
13:50 I was trying to wait till the end but had to pause to speak my piece here cuz... No. First let me applaud your open honesty. I really admire you for being willing to open yourself and your truth up to us this way. You're definitely helping so sooooo many people sharing your experiences, and not just in this video but over the course of your channel you've shared many tidbits and been very open and honest about why you may have certain viewpoints or lack certain opinions etc. To the point... The tl;dr is GIRL. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. Literally NOTHING about your looks is the bottom of the barrel. I promise you. The issue is NOT your looks. The issue is little things that are TOTALLY changeable very easily, but please be aware you are a fantastic canvas and as soon as you figure out your look and style and what really suits you best, that's gonna give you the confidence and make you a force in the dating arena. Ok, to the detailed version... Girl, I understand you have massive complexes about your looks and your afrocentric phenotype. I do. But....smdh. If you can't look in the mirror and see that your factors are very symmetrical and you've got a beautiful face... Listen. You know that women like CONFIDENCE in a man. Well, shocking, but they like confidence in a woman. They also like honesty and integrity. But... let's go back to confidence. Confidence in self. Confidence in identity. Idk if you LOVE everything about your own personal look/ style or not, but... you kinda look like you're hiding. I can't tell anything about YOU from your look. Like, the sweater is cute, but then... I can see you with some Lauryn Hill makeup and a wig with some curly body to it and some dangle chunky earrings and it would just take the sweater and make it not just a look but a whole vibe. That's all. Women are very aware of the aesthetics of a person and what it could mean about who they are or what they are about, and you want your personal style to radiate who you are from within. You've got a lot of complications around that, and maybe now that you've stopped taking the medication is the time for you to address those things more head-on. Work on connecting with your birth culture/ethnicity/ race so you can find the balance between your broughtupcy and then little details you learn being brought up with black folk, like the hair shape and dimensions to bring out your features (the bangs are cute but the rest can do with a serious overhaul) and color undertones to makeup and all that good stuff. But please stop thinking it's your looks. Your skin is SOOOOOO gorgeous, your features are balanced and in harmony, and you've got that petite figure that is definitely someone's taste.
@jasminecooper3177
7 ай бұрын
I rarely, RARELY ever leave comments, but I had to take a step back when I realized what was being said. The issue isn't your looks. It's not your presentation or mentality. It's your environment. I felt the exact same way as you did @kidology, living overseas in a community that was predominately white nestled within a larger community that was Vietnamese (as a black woman). This was despite knowing that I 'was' an attractive person, that I had a great personality and that I would make a caring, loving partner. I spent 3 years feeling unattractive and highly undesired, compared to my peers. As soon as I moved state side I connected with a woman that I found attractive (that loves my body and my face as it is), within a year - and this is someone who doesn't use apps and didn't make a conscious effort to date until about 8 months into moving back. I basically found someone to date, that I've been dating consistently for an amazing year, 3 months into trying. But again, I KNEW that I was cute. I had no doubts that I was an attractive person. That's how I knew that, if I wanted partnership, I'd have to leave. But also, if I wanted to keep my confidence and this love of self intact, I also needed to leave. You can't see how gorgeous you are yet, and I can't wait for the day you post a video with that understanding of self, and that love of self, fully formed.
@bunnywavyxx9524
7 ай бұрын
It might be shocking, and it was shocking to me at first, but on Tiktok I see genuinely above average black woman act like their looks are nothing and state it as a fact. Like if you're a 3 what does that mean for me.... I guess were all 3s. But anyway, it's the product of living in a PWI and in general seeing what the beauty standard. She's such a level-headed individual, her low-ish self-worth attractive-wise contradicts that in my view. Looksmaxxing trend has fed into that heavily, especially making pretty black girls think they are dirt due to their features (they have attractive faces and features, they're just black women). I've put several of the "actual pretty" girls into face rating apps and they usually measure up the same as those black girls. Ironically, PSL and face rating apps really disapprove of their points. It's just supremacist stuff. There's nothing wrong with being ugly but for a subset of attractive/above average women to think they're not attractive in the slightest is unhealthy.
@Audiophile979
7 ай бұрын
Welcome to the lesbian sisterhood ❤ 🎉
@babayaga4295
7 ай бұрын
sounds weird tho. lesbian SISTERhood?
@Navaniity
7 ай бұрын
@@babayaga4295i think u might just be overthinking that lol..
@tadghsmith1457
7 ай бұрын
@@babayaga4295 Yeah it's technically only a "sisterhood" if you're into incest.
@ModelJames13
7 ай бұрын
Don't welcome people into Hell.
@talkingtochapri
7 ай бұрын
@@babayaga4295yes, sisterhood, you're judging for no reason. Sisters during the day and lovers in the night 🤭💀
@willow-js6nm
Ай бұрын
GIRL you are so pretty I’m only a teen so i don’t wanna call you attractive but please don’t keep thinking the same way you are! you are extremely gorgeous and I’m sure you’ll find love very soon!
@robinburns333
6 ай бұрын
I know for me personally I figured out I was a lesbian when I was about 15. Right after I came out I had this notion that I had to date someone, anyone tbh because I felt so left behind by all my friends who already had their middle school boy fazes. I went through dating a number of people over the years and I've only felt a genuine connection and attraction towards one girl that I actually ended up turning down because I was just so exhausted by the thought of a relationship. I've definitely dealt with disappointment surrounding being a lesbian. Not only because of the negative past relationships I have had, but the thought that all of it could have been avoided if I were just straight. BUT I think I've found joy in being a lesbian moreso through queer spaces and friends than romance. Just finding people you can be fully comfortable and honest with is enough for now :)
@Massivecarcrash
7 ай бұрын
I remember distinctly a realisation that hit me when I was 15 and coming to terms with my own sexuality. I was out and about with some friends when a young dad walked by with a baby stroller and a toddler and it hit me right there and then "ah, I'm never going to have that". There was a sense of dread and grief that washed over me. Besides the one time I got laid in high school just to say to myself that I had (which was with a girl) coming out and trying to have a relationship with someone wasnt an option, not at that time at least. Coming out as gay or bi meant social suicide. And there went my dream of having a high school sweetheart and those milestones that you see all your friends seemingly dance over with ease. The disillusionment with my sexuality and the path my life had to take just in order to have physical intimacy with someone was one that I didnt particularily like. Some years later, having to go to seedy gay bars where people did lines of coke in one bathroom stall and had a threesome in the next one was a life I just didnt really saw any future in. Not to say that it wasnt exciting to a young 20 something guy, but it was all just dead ends with people you didnt want to associate with outside of a drunken night out on town. I never really participated, just observed with both disgust and curiosity. Dating apps was a bigger shitshow of unsolicited dick picks and just outright aggressive, mean comments about your looks. Deleted all that shit after just a year. There is light at the end of the tunnel, you'll eventually meet someone, but you're somewhat right that the path forward is not going to be as easy as it was/is for all your peers.
@Thegoddessgenesis
7 ай бұрын
Hey beautiful lady, congratulations on discovering yourself. You are supported and loved 🌈
@JustSmilinn
7 ай бұрын
Very touching. I am also a black fem, socially conservative, modest and simple, not attracted to many people and find it hard to connect to other queer women because of it. If it means anything, you are a beautiful, intelligent woman. Literally a dream.
@soph4realll
Ай бұрын
I straight away knew what you were going to say when you said you were disappointed, because I feel the same - I never felt that way when I first came to the realisation/came out, I was actually so excited to finally be comfortable and affirmed and explore those relationships. but over the years, I have had a similar response from women (I’m white so not the same but just found I’m not desirable to women) and it’s so disheartening, you’re not alone! also I love black women and I think you’re GORGEOUS
@helsa6ot
7 ай бұрын
Dear Kidology! As a fellow lesbian and self-proclaimed femcel, I deeply relate to everything you said in this video. Being a lesbian is indeed discouraging and ironic most of the time. Just wanted to say that I have a little parasocial crush on you as a long time viewer of your channel. Dare I say, that for a member of a bottom of the food chain, you're quite a catch, lol. Welcome to the Jaded Lesbians club. Всего вам хорошего!
@juicyparsons
7 ай бұрын
Why do you claim the role of "Femcel"? How do you keep that mentality from eating away at your self worth?? 😥
@helsa6ot
7 ай бұрын
@@juicyparsons I kinda don't keep that away from eating my selfworth??? The 'femcell' status is more of an ironic statement, but still there is a grain of truth in it. I don't think that other people are obligated to love me, unlike incels, but I try just not to get my hopes too high up, because logically, being an average-looking neurotic lesbian with low libido and having almost no romantic experience by the age of 23 while currently living in a small Siberian town, I have very small chance of finding a partner. Calling myself a femcel is more like an ironic way to express the loneliness that I feel, but also to keep my mind grounded in reality.
@juicyparsons
7 ай бұрын
@helsa6ot this is why I like to keep a community of like-minded queer folk around- because this femcel/incel/"loneliness epidemic" seems very steeped in cis-heteropatriarchal values. We have been indoctrinated into laser-focusing on romantic relationships that not being in a traditional relationship in str8 society is what's making us feel lonely. Or the disconnect all of us feel due to capitalistic competition and hookup culture might make us *feel* lonely. But when you divest from all that and recognize that we're all stuck in this shit system, it takes the pressure off us individually from feeling lonely. Being a lesbian with a low libido is SUPER common, just look at these comments! I just worry that we are trying too hard to fit into a hegemony that does us no good and it's causing some shameful rhetoric to come out. We/you have nothing to be ashamed of, imho
@wakemeupinside83
7 ай бұрын
@@helsa6otur so real for that
@taylorstep8135
7 ай бұрын
@@helsa6ot I feel the same way
@Key_1111
7 ай бұрын
I felt exactly like this when I came out as lesbian. Then I met my gf and she's absolutely amazing. There is hope for sure!!
@ynysmones3816
7 ай бұрын
There's something about your demeanour that really reminds me of my late bloomer gay female friends and I think I picked up on it before but rightly didn't make any assumptions. Anyway, best of luck!
@namedULaika
5 ай бұрын
As late bloomer lesbian who had the realization at 31 and has been grappling with it for the past year and a half, thank you so much for articulating this. I feel so much the same and this video was incredibly validating.
@mcstompchomp420
2 ай бұрын
When I first came out, I was the only lesbian I knew. I had no one to relate to me in my area. It’s so lonely at first. I was in a relationship with a man, I had a heterosexual life I had to grieve. But it’s so worth it, I’m lonely but I was in so much more pain then. Growing into being a lesbian has helped me grow into myself.
@katieklamer6200
7 ай бұрын
Especially being in a rural area and a lesbian. I was so unhappy when I found out I was very religious at the time, and it shattered my entire perception of my existence. Even when I got out of my religious frame of mind, I'm still not happy about it. It's the lack of bi or lesbian woman in my area. I wish I could be asexual/aromatic. When I came across your channel I related so hard to you saying you a femcel cause that's how I felt for a long time but was too afraid to say it. I hope it gets better for you and for me ❤
@elle-dd2hu
7 ай бұрын
I basically have the same story as you
@justalostlocal
7 ай бұрын
Oh trust me, us ace and or aro can be femcels and lonely too. Being on the ace spectrum doesn't spare you from heartbreak, you can be just as heartbroken by your own reality as any other, if not more more so bc ace /aro is under represented. That's why it irks me when ppl say they wish to be us. Personally I'm still stewing in "Something is wrong with me that I can't love in that way", "I don't deserve love", " I'm cold and uninteresting", "I'm doomed to die alone", "even if I get a relationship I might not be enough when my partner finds out / knows my lack of attraction" soup. Imagine thinking you'll eventually find love be it with men or women, then in your 20s like a sledgehammer to glass you realised you're asexual or aromantic. Now what? I have to pay higher taxes bc I'm born this way? How am I supposed afford down payment for a house like ever or what about when I'm old and can't take care of myself? I still want to be loved but I can't love them back? I crave skin contact but not sex? Etc. Ace spectrum is not a run away from social expectations, guilt and discrimination free card.
@Xx_Oleander_xX
5 ай бұрын
@@justalostlocal I feel this 100% as someone who Identifyed as ace/aro for years (and still might be I have no idea rn) The idea of living alone appealed to me yet I knew I could never ever afford it I found myself swapping from "lmao glad I don't gotta deal with relationship drama" to "God I can't satisfy myself but don't like ANYONE no matter how long I know them" I'd avoid touching people out of fear they'd expect things I just couldn't provide and yet most people belive it isn't even possible to be aro/ace, yet they don't realize that convinsing and pressuring people into things they can't enjoy is wrong and dangerous Hell I was called a psycopath by my own mom just because I had no interest in anyone Being aro/ace is hard and I'm saying this AS someone who liked and (mostly) enjoyed being aro/ace!
@heyhey439
7 ай бұрын
You are always so ethereal and pretty but that sweater is so cute on you I think this is my favorite look yet!
@shaynaboyd225
7 ай бұрын
I sorta know what you're feeling. I'm a bi woman and when I first entered into the queer spaces I felt very out of place. The loneliness I felt has lead to me still only dating men even though I am attracted to women as well. I appreciate your honesty and vulnerability in this video.
@NabiButterflyy
6 ай бұрын
As a lesbian, i understand why it’s easier to date men than women. I received like two confessions before valentine’s day and sadly none of it came from a woman. Our community is VERY small and hard to find. At this point the dating pool feels like a cup of water lol 😭😂
@Loveiskindloveiskind
6 ай бұрын
Haven’t watched the full video yet, but looking at the comments there’s a lot of hopelessness. I’m just a random person on the internet but guys, real love is out there. There are people from any gender and age who are single and loving and are probably feeling the same as you are. There is nothing wrong with wanting romantic love and it’s out there! At the same time romantic relationships aren’t everything. There is so much love to share in platonic ways. And for those of you who don’t have friends, there is so much love to be shared with yourself. Having community is important but no amount of friends or partners will heal your your fundamental dissatisfaction with your life. A lot of us hyperfixate on love because we want something to save us from how much we hate ourselves and our lives. Life can be hard but don’t make it harder by not allowing yourself to do and enjoy the little things that make you happy. Getting enough sleep, enjoying your favorite book/song/series, taking yourself out, buying yourself flowers, taking your mental health seriously and asking for help. I’m sad to hear that people feel held back by their sexuality or age. And I’ve been there so I understand. But maybe you need to surround yourself with more beauty and hope especially if you can’t see it right now. There is a lot of pessimistic content out there which also serves its purpose and helps us feel seen but you also are what you consume. Love is out there and the same way there is „proof“ that’s not the case there is plenty of proof that it is the case. It just might be different from what you think you want🤍
@Angers98
6 ай бұрын
I am weeping reading this comment, thanks
@Loveiskindloveiskind
6 ай бұрын
@@Angers98 awww you deserve so much love!
@StillAwesome21
6 ай бұрын
Well said, happy atleast one person is being positive and not blaming the other gender for whatever.
@amayajackson4818
7 ай бұрын
Im really happy you decided to post this. I am in a very similar boat, where I have come to terms with my sexuality, but I continue to find it difficult to connect with any community of my age group (romantic or otherwise), and it has led to a very similar sense of perpetual loneliness and yearning. No one I have ever talked to has been able to relate to this feeling, so it gave me a lot of comfort that am not alone in these experiences, and I hope you find comfort knowing you are not alone either.
@AnimeMangaCam
7 ай бұрын
I am a lesbian and I have been for a few years now. My family is supportive and my friends are the best people I could ask for, but either bi or straight. That being said while I love women with all my heart, I can not deny that there were moments where I wish I wasn’t so that the chances of finding a romantic partner easier. The dating scene is nothing but constant comparisons to past relationships or what is shown on social media in my experience. It doesn’t help that I don’t live in a very single queer populated community. Most gay people in my town are married couples looking for more affording places to live. So I can’t help but feel more alone as a result. By best way of coping is just keep working on yourself and find joy in the small things and the right girl will come along. Best of luck my fellow lesbian
@rhirhi4172
7 ай бұрын
Omg I'm so glad to see you moved somewhere else!!!! I remember the exact video you made about feeling isolated, sad and pressured in London - so glad you're somewhere else where you are happy and living life your way ❤
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