Please keep any abrasive comments or questions to yourself. On September 30, I had to make the hardest decision of my life and let Lou go... make the pain that had begun end. He was bravely and silently in a battle with liver cancer for longer than I know. His vet saw a slightly elevated liver count in April but was not concerned as it was in the high normal levels. On September 17 he wasn't eating, that evening he was having trouble standing. I took him to the vet and he was diagnosed with a very large tumor on his liver. He had lost a pound in a week ... which was more than 10% of his weight. Prognosis not good, no options offered but meds as his advanced age. Took him home and started meds, he began eating that evening. He kept improving all week. Not 100% but walking, eating and still trying to nip a couple friends of mine. :) I decided to take him to the Ocean so he could dip his toes in, all the times we were in California, we had never been able to get to a beach he was allowed at with no other dogs around. On Wednesday September 28 we drove in. He was still doing well.
He liked his new Turkey and Tilapia and eggs diet. (Dessert of cottage and ricotta cheese) . We went to the beach the next day and he got increasingly weak that evening, he began having muscle spasms and could not walk. He had not been in pain until then. We curled up together and made it through the night. I would not let him suffer. I arranged for a vet to come to the hotel. My boy got to feel the pacific on his paws. And then his eyes told me he was tired of fighting. I held him, whispered in his ear that he was the bestest ever good boy ever and I was gonna miss him so much, told him he could stop being brave, close his eyes, sleep in my arms. He closed his eyes and that sweet spirit departed his weak little body that had fought so well and valiantly. This has been the hardest 2 weeks of my life. But I returned home with him and his ashes are with me. He took a piece of my heart with him and I will always carry him with me. The pain is unbearable , but how lucky I was for the 16 years he was in my life. I am so very sorry for those people who have never had a special bond with an animal. The joys of that bond don't lessen the agony when you lose them, the joys make the loss worse. But given the alternate options, I am sure we would not change a thing, speaking for all pet owners. The hurt reminds us how hard we loved.
Tonight still, I am angry, I am sad and feel empty. I want to lash out at this unfair universe. I would have given years of my life for another week with him. Those last days we cherished and appreciated every moment. Made the most out of what we had left. Pet owners, please hug your pet tonight, and maybe give them another from me.
This video is for Lou...beginning when I first saw him (those first three pics) until the last time ...Photos that make me smile, cry and laugh. Thank you for such a good time in my years with you, Lou. I am a better person for you having been in my life. I will see you again , nothing will keep me from you.
Please forgive me if I don't respond immediately to comments. I just can't yet. This video was all I could do up till now.
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