I would probably put procrastination as number 1 as well. I've been trying to get my home organized and cleaned all summer long, but it's so fricking hard to even get started, and even when I want to get things done and have the energy, I don't know where to start. Just tonight (it's almost 7am here now btw, I've fucked up my sleep cycle again) I was super motivated to get things done. I redid my to do list, got overwhelmed, walked around the house multiple times looking at all the things that need to get done, and I just feel stuck. There's so many things, and then things that have to be done before I can do some other things, and I really wanted to do some loads of dishes and laundry, but the main fuse can't handle the load of the 2 machines at the same time and I couldn't decide which is more important, so I didn't do either of those things. I could've gotten a couple of loads of dishes and a load of laundry done, but my brain just refused to decide which to do first. I would probably attach no reward system to procrastination, I do agree that maybe that also makes it harder for us to even get things started. This makes me think of my first psychiatric nurse, she was telling me how I should try to get lots of tasks done every day to get a boost of dopamine from completing the tasks, and I just told her that it doesn't feel rewarding when I complete tasks. At all. She was baffled :D And then kept asking about different tasks. Like, I'd need that external reward from somebody else. I also can't give myself rewards, because I will give myself the reward before I've completed the task quite often, and that does not help at all lol. I'd also clump up difficulty with boring tasks with the first 2 :p Racing thoughts are up there for me as well. They make it harder to fall asleep, so I have to trick my brain by having netflix on in the background and I'll browse memes until my eyes won't stay open anymore and my brain just shuts off. Every now and then my brain fricking re-activates just as I was about to fall asleep, and then I'll get annoyed and that just makes it harder to fall asleep. Also, when the racing thoughts are negative, the spiral is so fricking horrible and can last for days or even weeks. Medication has helped a lot, but sometimes in the morning or late at night my brain wants to go to the dark places, and it's very difficult to stop it from doing so. I actually managed to make my brain go silent once when I was a teenager, I had been practising meditation for MONTHS and then one time my brain just went empty for like 30 seconds until I realized what had happened. Never managed to do it again. First time I took ADHD meds my brain went silent and I legit panicked, it was so weird! I tried having thoughts, but brain was just empty. I might put overstimulated up here. I do use ear plugs quite often these days, and try to only use clothes that feel comfortable, but there's so many situations where I can't control the sounds, the smells, the lights and their intensity, the amount of people around me, the temperature, and my brain just goes full weewoo weewoo. Struggling with instructions. I play video games, raiding at mythic difficulty, and quite often my brain just goes on its own adventure when new tactics get explained. It also doesn't help when a bunch of people are messaging me while I'm trying to listen to the instructions. When I worked at restaurant kitchens I always had to write down all the tasks and instructions I was given, or else I'd just forget. Some chefs made fun of my little note pad, but I needed it. Losing things. Give me an important piece of paper, I bring it home, and *poof* it's gone. Some other things get lost all the time in my home or in my tent while I'm camping. I've developed some anxiety because of this, so when I'm out and about, I will keep checking my bag to make sure that I have my things with me. If I sit down somewhere, I will look around when I get up, and go through my bag and pockets at least a couple of times before I walk away. Forgetting to eat. With medication I have to eat regularly though, so I'm doing a bit better at it, but sometimes I still struggle with this. Easily distracted. Tbh I kinda like getting distracted by things and stuff, though sometimes it does cause issues and it makes me anxious in some situations (while driving for example, I will only stare at the road ahead and I will try to stop all racing thoughts as soon as I notice them). The rage. My rage is more in situations of frustration, when other people aren't listening to me or taking me seriously, or if I'm trying to get something done and it's not working out, or when I can't fall asleep, and then ofc when other people want me to drop whatever I was doing to do a thing that they think is more important. Meds help though, I don't get as snappy as I used to. As a bonus I'll add that I can't type without rambling, so I end up making these kinds of walls of text, because every thought has side thoughts and I can't stop them from happening, and I feel like I need to clarify things and add examples, maybe metaphors or comparisons, and then I'll go off topic and ramble on about something else and people will be like "wtf is she talking about?!".
@kristinenoffsinger5138
Ай бұрын
Fellow adhd'er here. Im going to edit my comment as i watch & compare! 😊 be fun! *Easily distracted #3 (this happens to me when im cleaning, every. Single. Time. Its a problem lol Losing things #5 Overstimulated-#7 Rage at being interrupted #6 (ohhhh yes) No reward system#9? Yeah im not sure.. i think i do get excited when i actually do get stuff done. Difficulty doing boring things#2 (dont enjoy) Forgetting to eat #1 (i always forget to eat :( sucks because im 94 lbs and 5'2. Struggling with instructions #4( huge for me, esp when cooking. I reread over & over and over. Yes girl i feel this one. Prob should be my #1. I also cant be explained directions.. like for example, in school during gym class. I always had to watch how to do things first and then i could do it! Were very alike.❤ subscribed. Procrastination #1 P.S. i know ive missed some numbers lmao😂 but oh well! Haha
@tillyzarrella
Ай бұрын
Thank you for taking the time to do this!! Always interested to see how other people’s ADHD brains compare to mine!
@kristinenoffsinger5138
Ай бұрын
@@tillyzarrella lots of similarities I wanna show my counselor who also has adhd and see what she thinks. This is great!
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