UPDATE: IT'S BEEN 20+ DAYS SINCE I'VE HAD A COKE ZERO SEND HELP I MEAN PLEASE CLAP! Basically: systemic problems can make you real life sick, even generationally speaking, but I wanted to normalize ✨lamenting✨. It doesn't stop when you're done being a moody teenager apparently 🥲 I have a lot of whimsy & hope for The Future In General, but I personally can't get there without first acknowledging and complaining. It's part of my process! There's a book called "How to Go Mad without Losing Your Mind: Madness and Black Radical Creativity" by La Marr Jurelle Bruce -- it's a DOOZY to read but so far it's the closest thing that explains how I feel. Now as for ADHD meds...well.............👀😵💫😅
@b.k8051
Ай бұрын
@@Evelynfromtheinternets watching your videos sometimes feels like an exercise in undiagnosed adhd. Even your brightness and expressiveness. Go read old report cards if you’ve got em. See what teachers said about you. And just remember that as a girl, Black girl, your symptoms may be different than the typical symptoms. Getting the diagnosis and treatment is a revelation. You’ll get to experience what everyone else experiences every day. It’s not a cure but it helps. For me, I don’t feel as immobilized with ideas. Helps me organize. Create order. Open mail. Pay bills on time. :)))) Don’t mean to be a drug pusher but I think you’re actually brilliant, not just some funny girl on KZitem.
@ginaprosser3595
Ай бұрын
Please share if you are taking ADHD meds. Kudos for not drinking Coke Zero 🎉🎉🎉
@letsalltakeawalk6906
Ай бұрын
Whee my sister is currently reading that book and every day she tells me i need to read it
@lydia58k
Ай бұрын
👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
@JustFluffyQuiltingYarnCrafts
Ай бұрын
Good bye, Coke Zero! You have been banished to the belly of the beast of di Babylon system. DO NOT come back! 💪
@anadefreitas2335
Ай бұрын
this reminds me of that Sinead O'Connor quote that says “It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society”, because honestly.... once you see things clearly enough, either you push it out of mind completely as not to suffer or the protest takes residence in your soul and informs everything about the way you live! most people live in the middle of this spectrum, but some of them can honestly feel like if youre too Emotionally Impacted by the [gestures vaguely around] something must be wrong with you. No, something is wrong with US ALL. this society we've found ourselves in is actively chasing some people for sport out here, its not cute. Some of us are just not able to live like thats not the truth, yknow? We'll get to a better place collectively soon, I hope. Complaining helps lighten the load, so whenever the mood strikes, just go off, cousin
@pretaporterp
Ай бұрын
💯🎯
@Passion84GodAlways
Ай бұрын
1,000,000%!!!
@creaturesofnature
Ай бұрын
Yes love this, this is exactly what I'm trying to say and you said it so well. We are the future so I can see although the future is unwritten the pen is in damn good hands. Much love to you fellow change maker💓💗💕
@cdralston1
Ай бұрын
I started on antidepressants when I was 29 after being resistant to them for the prior ten years. Despite being a really obvious candidate for them (diagnosed GAD and OCD), I told myself that I didn't need them because I really only felt bad because of my surroundings. At that time, I had recently started law school. I was in a new city where I didn't know anyone, the course load of law school was extreme and emotionally heavy, and the news seemed filled with one catastrophe after another. During that time, I was constantly telling my therapist that it was rational to feel the way I did because anyone in my situation would feel stressed, isolated, and depressed. And my therapist at one point said, "Yeah, but not everybody does feel that way." And something in that made it click for me. I decided basically that session that I'd try antidepressants and see if they made it easier to cope with life and they for sure did. I never stopped feeling like there were depressing things happening in the world, nor did I ever feel like I would ditch my personal convictions. But it made me stop feeling like I had no agency and it made it so much easier to focus on positives in the world and in myself. It made it a lot easier to decide to chase dreams that I thought people might think were naive and I'm so thankful for that. Additionally, I ended up going through the worst upheaval of my life so far while I was on antidepressants and those things were working overtime for me. Truly, I don't know how I would have gotten through that period of my life without them. As for downsides, they were pretty minimal. I was on zoloft and then lexapro and my two worst side effects were these little electric shocks I would feel every once in a while in my head and legs and night sweats. Night sweats are a thing I don't hear anyone ever talk about when they talk about SSRIs, but they were real for me. I also physically felt shakier while I was on SSRIs, particularly in my hands. But the biggest things I feared side effects wise (not feeling like myself or feeling like a wonked out zombie) never happened. I tapered off a little while ago after graduating law school, but I'd still be open to trying them again in the future if I ever needed them. It just felt like they made things like 30% easier or so. So if anyone reading this really long comment resonates, talk to your doctor and ask them about antidepressants if you're curious!
@squirrelsinmykoolaid
Ай бұрын
A close friend of mine talks about the little brain zap/tingles she experiences when me and her giggle about our meds! I'm glad they were able to help you in a situation where you needed access to them. Thank you for sharing!
@alwayssavedbyHislove
Ай бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing your experience. Someone dear to me struggles with the night sweats EVERY night, so I'm glad you brought it up. He now takes benztropine to mitigate it. Definitely agree that the benefits outweigh the side effects, though
@dontbotherkthanx
Ай бұрын
Thank you for taking the time to share your experience
@nomalanga2680
Ай бұрын
i relate a lot!
@kanorioeve3619
Ай бұрын
This is so helpful, thank you.
@Danielle0070
Ай бұрын
This actually makes TOO much sense especially for a Monday morning 🫡
@jessicaaudate
Ай бұрын
Exactly but I needed it
@srm0520
Ай бұрын
💯 much too much American depressing sense 🤯😵💫
@thapeloketumile7804
Ай бұрын
😂 the Phil Collins drums 🥁 took me out
@Dr.JudeAEMasonMD
Ай бұрын
Evelyn please run that man his 17 cent royalty. 🤣
@amberbeans
Ай бұрын
“I strongly suggest using words and then looking them up.” I literally busted out laughing 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
@artsytype
Ай бұрын
I do that!!
@Crysbu
Ай бұрын
I've been on meds for 10 years. Everything doesn't work for everybody, but my valleys aren't as low. I don't cry as much. It helps my anxiety. I no longer want to be unalived. Without antidepressants I would be unalive. It saved my life.
@MsTaLaiah
Ай бұрын
Thank you for being here 😢
@FuzzyBSMcgee
Ай бұрын
Bby cousin I feel you but I got a psychiatrical evaluation, saw a clinician for medication management, and NOW ya boy is on his journey to a sustainable, positive mental state! 😅
@k.t.edwards
Ай бұрын
THIS. This right here. This video needs to go viral. As you stated, others have made this point. But the way you put it, I think can speak to a wide audience of people. As ancestor J. Baldwin said “To be a Negro in this country and to be relatively conscious is to be in a rage [depression, lament, anxiety…] almost all the time.”
@AprilTwinB
Ай бұрын
Friend, you were so transparent and considerate to even give an answer to someone asking a question like that. We are all having “lived experiences” in 2024 & I like to say the horrors persist but so do we!!! 😂👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 I feel like you put the perfect words behind how so many of us feel in this Sea World world. Thank you! 💖
@Terryblerwe
Ай бұрын
THIS 1000%!!!!!!!!!!!! 🌟🌟🌟
@elliebellierox18
Ай бұрын
My biggest regret in life is not going on anti-depressants sooner! I think a lot of the discourse around them can be really negative, but for me they have made me so much happier and less anxious. I also take medication for insomnia which has been the single biggest improvement in my quality of life I can imagine- I don’t spend 2 hours laying in bed hoping to fall asleep at minimum each night. Live laugh lexapro!
@ginaprosser3595
Ай бұрын
Love prayer, Lexapro and therapy. 🎉
@iv1908
Ай бұрын
Hey there hun! What are you taking for insomnia. Asking for my mommy. 🙏🏾
@carolejones3073
Ай бұрын
“WHAT IS IT, THE BRAIDS?” 😭😭
@christianataylor5267
Ай бұрын
Okay, this definitely summed up all my feels regarding meds. I was prescribed Zoloft in November 23 and never took them because deep down, I knew that once my circumstances changed (i.e. leaving my VERY toxic job at the time), that I would be fine. Here we are in July, I'm now gainfully employed, have started consistently moving my body 3xs/week, eat twice/day, and go touch grass every few weekends, and anxiety is gone. Praying for those who when conditions positively change, still need the help that meds can provide.
@donwrrybouti
Ай бұрын
manifesting this for all of us in toxic jobs 😭
@oshun9747
Ай бұрын
Thank you for putting my thoughts into words!! Im not depressed, the world is just depressing!
@belleangehrs83
Ай бұрын
Adrienne Maree Brown said it best: I'm trying to find peace (and joy) in the apocalypse. The world is both literally and figuratively on fire. It is difficult to be aware and not feel ✨️depressed/anxious✨️.
@ipsilonia
Ай бұрын
i’m at this crossroads too. i work in healthcare and i feel like big pharma wants us to rely on pills to cope with systemic/environmental/situational issues... to numb ourselves to situations that are actively disempowering us. ofc, medication is necessary for some ppl. but i know myself enough to know that i at least need to try changing my environment to improve my mood. for the last few years (and especially this summer), i’ve been working on cultivating a lifestyle that makes me feel safe, stable, and well. things that have helped: therapy (including specialties like relationship/couples/somatic therapy), meditation, staying active outdoors, making art, journaling, cooking, going to local art events, and spending time w pets and babies/toddlers in my life.
@alvaneice24
Ай бұрын
I've been going to therapy since 2015. I had been intermittently saying I'm not depressed, but my circumstances are depressing, so I don't actually think I'm depressed. Plus shame, ego, and "I should be able to do this on my own" wouldn't let me accept I might need meds. My circumstances would improve, but that didn't prompt me to be consistent with the daily activities of living(exercising, leaving the house when its not absolutely necessary,cleaning, showering, brushing teeth, etc.) Anyway, I quantum leaped into a new reality where I'm making the most money I've ever made, I have this nice luxury apartment, my car is paid off, and I have a dog, but I would still be inside and low energy. Well long story short, I tried meds for the first time and I incrementally and very slowly started getting the energy to do things for my wellness and for joy. But it was a very, very slow process. Sometimes I question if maybe I just needed to do the things (exercise, get sunlight, eating healthy foods) and maybe it wasn't actually the meds that were helping. I'm still kind of on the fence about this, but since starting meds, I have noticed a complete difference so maybe they are contributing? Idk😂 I started out on Welbutrin 150 XL and now I'm on Welbutrin 100 SR.
@Ruby-kr6fh
Ай бұрын
The way my therapist explained antidepressants to me, is that sometimes they can give you the extra boost you need to engage in other health building habits and from your account it does sound like that
@ginaprosser3595
Ай бұрын
Your story resonates. Wellbutrin along with therapy has helped tremendously. The shame and stigma led to denial for me as well. Thank you for sharing.
@morganmundorf7018
Ай бұрын
My therapist says the same thing to me “you’re not depressed. Your circumstances are depressing” which I would agree with but my circumstances have been the same for a long time (and not changing yet) and meds have made my life SO MUCH BETTER. I didn’t realize what I was feeling was close to depression until others told me and were concerned I was feeling so down and numb and apathetic. Personally, can say that meds have made me feel like I did in high school before I had any real worries. It has made me less anxious too. I’ve been lucky in that the first med I tried has worked.
@lem_moon
Ай бұрын
My experience with meds: they helped keep me going while I was attending therapy and getting other kinds of help. If I was on just meds alone, I don't think I'd have made the progress I've made to this day! (Every person and situation is different of course).
@FuzzyBSMcgee
Ай бұрын
I think that's the positive way of viewing medications in this realm! I'm still in my first month and I can tell that this is not a crutch or a cure all, but rather a helping hand for my brain to work through my emotional state more effectively than I did without it.
@Loveismyteacher
Ай бұрын
I have taken cymbalta for years now. Initially, I got on it after a traumatic experience and I’ve stopped taking it at times, but I finally realized that my life was better and much less chaotic when I took it. It helps with both anxiety and depression and I feel more clear in my thinking. I have seen my mom and family members suffer because of anxiety and depression and I feel like I owe it to myself, to them, and to my kids to take my meds so that I can be happier and have a better life and be a better person.
@stephaniefrost4910
Ай бұрын
0:30 “everywhere you go, there you are” is one of my favorite quotes bc it’s SO obvious but TRUE 😂 you can’t escape yourself and you have to find a way to be happy with that
@catherinemunson555
Ай бұрын
Have had bouts of depression since elementary school, worse after puberty. Very worse after second child. Couldn’t stop crying and thinking about death, although I did not want to die. Started antidepressant, two hours later felt something in my body relax. The real mental improvement took much longer with lots of therapy, support and loving friends…. But I still take meds also.
@lanicert
Ай бұрын
Evelyn, my daughter and I are sitting here watching and laughing going, “She is literally describing depression, lol!” Bless, cousin.
@TheRAH1
Ай бұрын
I was very against taking meds as an ADHD girl, and I and my surroundings were in shambles. Started taking the meds circa 2018 and I am now firmly #teamdrugs.
@N0t0riouslover
Ай бұрын
Even when talking about a serious subject like depression, you bring your incredible humor. Thanks for your vulnerability and for being you!
@GinaFBaaaby89
Ай бұрын
I’m not depressed but this is depressing is a very good way to summarize how Ive been feeling…thank you!
@nomalanga2680
Ай бұрын
ive been taking antidepressants for a few years now. oh my did it help me, you still realise how depressing life is but i feel like i don't go into a pit with it all. They have really helped me be more proactive with having community around me and be less stuck with the weight of the world on my shoulders. before i was always feeling deeply anxious and hopeless just simmering in my everyday life- i thought that it couldn't be that bad because i was still able to freign happiness but i had started retreating from people and i felt like i was being cornered metaphorically. the stigma surrounding medication did prevent me from taking them sooner = but i just thought at least giving it a shot would be something and i could always back out if i changed my mind- watching/reading about people's experiences was helpful (be wary there's a risk that might scare you off but there's risk in everything) . I am happy i have stuck with it!
@dorianjos
Ай бұрын
French speaker here, we use the word "déprimé" (the mood of being depressed) wich helps not to confuse it with "dépressif" (the medical condition of a depressive state). I'd always found it confusing how english speakers would use the word "depressed" so lightly until I finally understood😅
@tyrella26
Ай бұрын
6:58 "Holler if you heal me" is correct lol. Let the cousins know if you get HIYHM™ merch! This girl will certainly give you dollars.
@oniciamuller
Ай бұрын
This video is covering serious things in such an unserious way. My situation is depressing so I'm taking anti-anxiety meds not to be more productive and stay on thw hamster wheel but to find the strength to enjoy the things that I enjoy. Thanks for sharing your journey. Stay safe, Evelyn ❤❤❤
@Gabishandle
Ай бұрын
You put exactly how I feel and the internal conflict I experience daily into words. Therapy helped slightly, can’t change my circumstances so coping mechanisms are just that, only help so much. Started on Lexapro 10mg, increased my appetite a lot this go around, which I don’t love (or need help with lolol), and I find myself crying less/ unnecessarily, but am still feeling my feelings and the state of it all very deeply. I wish us all safety and stability in the near future ❤
@IsabelleAProf
Ай бұрын
My experience with meds: I'm on medication to help me sleep. Decades of insomnia reached a breaking point. But what I didn't know is that the medication is also a mood stabilizer. Huh. It allows me to see otherwise anxiety triggering situations clearly and objectively.
@Dr.JudeAEMasonMD
Ай бұрын
👏🏽 same here. Sleep is a natural healer and when you can’t achieve sleep your whole life’s off track.
@loveandro6074
Ай бұрын
May I ask which medication you take? I have chronic insomnia as part of fibromyalgia. I haven’t been able to find a good fit 😢
@IsabelleAProf
Ай бұрын
@@loveandro6074 Trazodone. It helped me, but for others it might not.
@Dr.JudeAEMasonMD
Ай бұрын
@@loveandro6074 do you have a physician that you see? A referral to a mental health professional is a must because most of the medications that would stabilize mood and help regulate circadian rhythms i.e. sleep are indicated for serious psychiatric diagnoses like bipolar mania, bipolar, depression, schizoaffective disorder, and schizophrenia. None of this is medical advice to you (anyone) but I may or may have personal experience on lamictal latuda and lithium. 😉 *I’m intentionally omitting a lot of the typical “traditional” antipsychotics like geodon, zyprexa, here because it doesn’t sound like you have a history of acute psychotic mania or psychotic depression. That said there are many options for chronic pain with fibromyalgia that can also promote sleep. I’m thinking of gabapentin (neurontin) for example. SSRIs SNRIs can help with the anxiety and depression that keeps people awake at night and unable to sleep. Think Effexor, Prozac etc. There are of course, other medications that are specifically prescribed for insomnia, and some of those do have a lower dependency profile like trazodone. In general though no one can tell you what the best options for you would be that would depend on your past medical history, the existing medication you’re on, and any contraindications that may exist. Again, this is not medical advice, and my intention is only to arm you with the information needed to have a productive conversation with YOUR practitioner.
@renea8724
Ай бұрын
I would like to know the medication name too. Kaiser just told me to take Benadryl, smh. I’ve had a little success with magnesium.
@CheRhys
Ай бұрын
For these past 4 years, you have put into words how we ALL feel. I’m fine but not okay! As someone who used to be depressed, it doesn’t feel how it did but the signs are there 🤭. I’m just taking it a day at a time because literally what else can I do. The world/system/economy/country we’re living in is flawed. Do what you can and remind yourself that you are not alone.
@FuzzyBSMcgee
Ай бұрын
"I'm never maintaining as much as I am digging" is a WORD sis!!! Whew 😫
@davideurope736
Ай бұрын
How sad is it that we all experiencing the same shitty reality and some folk feel it all to the core and others live in a fantasy world of delusion. This video is so real. I've been depressed. We ain't there no more. Life is just depressing. Example being I finally have this amazing job and I'm still having to fight racial bias. The shit just takes the air out of your sails man. It really does. Keep spitting the truth Cuzzo. Shout out to sea moss!! 😂
@renderlyplace
Ай бұрын
if anyone is curious, these are my tips for trying antidepressants: (i am not a mental health professional, just a mental health survivor lol) -know that you will likely have to try more than one antidepressant before you find one that works. on top of that, it is not an instant solution and most of them take 4-6 weeks to show results. -because they take so long to kick in, it helps to pursue other mental health tools and resources, too. this can be going to therapy. i know that many people can't afford therapy, can't find therapy that meets their demographic needs, or just have a bad past past experience with therapy and aren't in the mood to try it again. that is all understandable to me. in addition to therapy, i have also metabolized my experience by making art. (this is not medical or psychological advice, or an assertion that making art is a substitute for access to transformative and humane healthcare) -making art: it doesn't have to be good , it doesn't have to make sense, and it doesn't need to be shared. it also doesn't have to cost money. i use random crap around my house. if your house isn't full of random crap like mine you can probably find it outside. if you are one of those modest souls who is insistent that you are not artistic, know that even simply writing down your experience is you creating an archive. writing has often elevated my inner sense of dignity. even my most terrible, terrible writing. -going off your antidepressants can have side effects just like going on them. it can be helpful to ease off gradually if you need to go off them for some some reason. depending on your brain and your prescription, going off your antidepressants abruptly also has a chance of worsening your depression symptoms, so talk to your doctor before doing that. -your antidepressant might also have interactions with alcohol, other medications or recreational drugs you might might be taking. follow the instructions of your doctor and pharmacy, and if you do partake, practice harm reduction by listening to your body and not going too hard. i ultimately resonate with Evelyn; the circumstances of my reality are the primary source of my distress. i've also benefited from antidepressants in the past and am open to returning to them. when i was finally prescribed one that was effective it helped me have the even keel to address certain aspects of my life that i didn't have the capacity to address before. however, when i lost my job and insurance i no longer had access to my antidepressant and had to cope without them; it's kind of a poetic reminder of the fact that antidepressants couldn't address the looming systemic problems of this world lol.
@lycheedreams
Ай бұрын
thank you for the thoughtfulness you put into this comment.
@mx.chi2
Ай бұрын
I loved being on antidepressants. They helped me deal with life's worst circumstances. I had to get off of them because I developed protinuria. I can say antidepressants played a major role in healing the depression I had for 20+ years. I'm 25. I was on lexipro which didn't work for me. Wellbutrin was the one that changed everything for me. Helped me so much with my ADHD too. I now don't live in the United States and spend time traveling to places with lower costs of living. U fr j gotta move sometimes to see that the US is the thing killing you. Like someone else commented, antidepressants alone won't do it. You really need therapy or some therapeutic thing you do to change your thoughts to get where I am today.
@Hillary429
Ай бұрын
What other countries have you been living in? And do you work remotely for a US based company?
@ladiepink
Ай бұрын
Oh fuck I wonder if this is y my protein was high hmmmm let me talk to my doctor shit 😅 ok thank u for this comment
@emma2711
Ай бұрын
As someone who has been on and off meds for depression and anxiety, I really recommend reading "Is It Me or My Meds?: Living with Antidepressants" if you are trying to decide whether to take meds. I read so many books before taking antidepressants to try to weigh the pros and cons and this book was the most helpful thing I read.
@VsLeo1
Ай бұрын
“I’m not depressed… this is just depressing.” - I felt that so hard. I’ve been feeling that lately more than ever. Pushing out light all the time is exhausting. The days that I don’t feel like doing it, you get everyone saying “what’s the matter, are you ok??” - no bish I’m not ok because the world isn’t ok and I don’t feel like pretending that it is today. 😅
@carenwhite7954
Ай бұрын
Anti-depressant story: Have had depression for many years. I moved to a place with way less sun, underestimating the difference it would make. Ended up on anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds. If I didn't eat enough before taking them, I would be sick all day. They got the job done though, and I was finally able to get out of bed and function. I stopped taking my anti-depressants when I experienced a fun little thing called "serotonin overdose." No, I was not exceeding my prescribed dosage. Note: Do your research and see what you're being prescribed. Some of these meds are for short-term treatment and you could be on them for years. Doctors are here to help, but we aren't helpless.
@FeistyPisces31984
Ай бұрын
This was good cousin. I mean really gooooood. Whew! Hit me right in the “now what?” 😃😬😩
@dead7hed
Ай бұрын
Once I finally figured out what depression and anxiety were, went to my doctor at the time and got diagnosed with moderate mdd (medium depression). Started prozac, and it definitely made me feel happier/better. But being a person who likes being orderly and responsible, I felt like I was a little too carefree and careless. Got off prozac, started wellbutrin. It took some edge off and I didn't feel slightly stoned anymore. It seemed to help for about a year but then seemed to lose effectiveness after a while. Thanks to our wonderful healthcare system my refills ran out at a time when I was getting frustrated with them not working, and now I'm not on anything. Now life seems like the volume got bumped up a couple notches, and everything seems a little more clear and loud. Not sure what the next step is from here
@angelaglaros
Ай бұрын
Agree with you. Depression is real, but it’s usually perceived as an individual issue. I think a lot of us are experiencing collective misery.
@valeryburton5447
Ай бұрын
Hi Evelyn, i don't know much about antidepressant but i do know how it feel to have depression🙃. Im currently studying herbal medecine and one kind of plant that is really interesting are the adaptogen. those plants help your body deal with stress (pollution, altitude, heavy emotion, noise) and regulate your body response to it. Most of them are not like seamoss (aka 🤢 texture) but tea or dried up in capsule. You should checked them out. Ill suggest sacred basil(aka tulsi) but if you want to learn more about other ill happily help you. Mental health struggle is real in our society
@potato_parts
Ай бұрын
I remember about a decade+ ago a classmate had been talking about her experience with getting off antidepressants, and said almost EXACTLY what you said. She said "I realized I wasn't depressed, it was just my situation that was depressing." I still think about that a LOT. It's helpful for me to take steps back, think small, and think local. I am not in a position to change the entire world or the state of capitalism, but I CAN shop small artists I love on etsy, or enjoy a DIY pizza night and some retro shows with good vibes. I've realized that celebrating those small moments of joy still counts. And on good days... that can be good enough. But on bad days.... gurl you right we all whales at sea world.
@bellabeautiful3068
Ай бұрын
Yes to all of this!! You articulated exactly how I've been feeling for the last 3 years not depressed just trapped.
@honeydenison83
Ай бұрын
Fully understand! There's a lot in this world that is depressing, but doesn't mean you're depressed. Unfortunately, I think many people don't realize it's their surroundings or process (job, relationship, etc) they're going through is depressing, but they are actually mentally stable. We are sometimes smothered by so much hidden and blatant foolery that we can't distinguish what the issue is. It all bleeds together and everything becomes depressing. Then we have people telling other's they're depressed when they're simply expressing their displeasure of events around them.
@lem_moon
Ай бұрын
I be questioning why we're swinging ALL THE TIME. Good luck to my fellow seaworld captives 💟
@judithpriestess7781
Ай бұрын
Evelynnnnnn the way I feel you on this! Existing right now, with any level of awareness and earnestness is like trudging through molasses. Gabor Mate's book "The Myth of Normal" speaks to this. The way our environment breeds illness in us. We are not crazy or depressed. The world is crazy-making and depressing! The nature of existence is harsh and stark and getting worse, objectively This is why I'm an Antinatalist. ❤
@joubert350
Ай бұрын
I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 after struggling badly for years, seeing the signs manifest in other members of my family motivated me to seek treatment because i wanted to pour into myself so that i can pour into my community. I was prescribed Lamictal to stabilize my mood. I did notice a difference over time , my lows weren't as low and i was actually able to do things like brush my teeth twice a day and floss, go to the doctor, take walks here and there, enjoy a meal at a restaurant after work, and sometimes even cook for myself. My manic episodes arent that bad but every time i smoke weed, weed makes things worst for me, so i stopped smoking. I am still depressed and hate the world that we are living in, i am still poor and living in a capitalistic system that is crushing my people quite literally, but at least i can manage to take a shower and move my body and connect with the moment to a certain extent. , you know?
@mymy_sweetiepie2692
Ай бұрын
About your humble request, I totally understand what you are saying. In my experience, that comes with figuring out where/what/who you need to place boundaries with, and it take practice to implement. I also am constantly saying "I need balance" but haven't had the honest conversation with myself about "what does balance look like for me right now?" The answers are within. Good luck ✌
@enagoski
Ай бұрын
After 20+ years in therapy and on meds, I feel like the difference is without drugs I'm a whale at Sea World, trapped, helpless, isolated, and on drugs I work at Sea World. It's not fun, but at least I can do something, I can register my disagreement, I can participate in protests, hell I can care for the whales I can't rescue. I can connect with and be aware of all the people with me trying to create change; plus I can notice that incremental change happens. And I can go home from work because I'm not trapped today. Without drugs, I am trapped and helpless and isolated. Drugs dont make the world better, but they make me well enough to participate in making the world better.
@naomifinewood1461
Ай бұрын
So, what you are talking about makes SO much sense, from the Whale at Sea World metaphor to the feeling fine but the deceitful world around you not allowing you to be fine and just vibe on your own time...I have had a long battle with my mental health from being diagnosed as having borderline depression my 1st year of uni and the doctor's offering me a low dosage of Sertaline (I rejected them and pushed on completely blind and remained highly functional while still harbouring so much mental & emotional turmoil in my heart & spirit) . Long story short I had a two TERRIBLE mental health episodes. One occasion was triggered by a friend who opened up to me about her past and trigger repressed memories from my childhood that almost crippled me, I started taking Sertaline at that time, found them useful at first, they helped take the edge off at first but only for a few months then I started feeling flat because I truly couldn't express myself it felt really REALLY weird. 2nd mental break saw almost killed me, by then I was taken to hospital and volunteered to be admitted into a clinic because my living environment and relationships in my life were one giant trigger and I knew I had to get away. The clinic was bleak but that time away helped me realise that I needed to start looking after myself, noticing my triggers and implementing cping mechanisms, eating better, exercising, improving my sleep which I knew were the key fr but implementing them was the issue. There is so much more to this story but I would be commenting for AGES but what I can say is I've tried talking therapy, mild medication, natural remedies, lifestyle changes, more heavy medication, and now I've returned to spirit-led informal talking therapy through my peers and friendships (with guidance from The Holy Spirit), herbal remedies & lifestyle changes + CONSISTENCY. Consistency with anything is literally the secret, for me, my journey towards a life of faith in Jesus and making an intentional effort to implement healthy lifestyle choices has began the healing process for my mind, body, and soul. It's an ongoing journey but I am faithful that I'm on the right path and so far I've been blessed for my efforts. I use IG as a visual diary so if you are reading this and feel to talk more or anything I'll be sharing my testimony soon (I'm a writer/creator of different things so it's not a pulpit moment - not really my style, but working on a comic book/graphic novel - RAW, VULNERABLE, FUNNY. Any illustrators feel free to slide in my DMs, or if you are curious I'll be sharing/doing some cool things in the next few months - @missfinewood) Thanks Miss Evelyn for the invite to get a lil vi=ulnerable up in the comment section. You make us all just a little more happy with each and every upload. We love and appreciate you ALWAYS & FOREVER
@creaturesofnature
Ай бұрын
Oh if I could only tell ya how much this is exactly spot on with my aching existence. Spot. On. "I'm a natural reaction to my environment" is what's going on with me constantly. That's why I biked from Ohio to DC for climate solutions and spun around with my skirt on fire in front of the capital to remind people of their power and not fall prey to political apathy. When I see the many people of my generation, the one before me and the ones after me I see how we are on our way to a much better day. Much love to you💓💗
@sallygally5202
Ай бұрын
First off, as always I must say I just love you. Your videos make me think, cry, and laugh. Like every time. Secondly, I started taking meds for anxiety and depression during post-partum but realized as time went on that my only regret was not starting them sooner. Been doing therapy for years, which has helped me get to know myself, recognize patterns, recognize needs. AND it was still a struggle. Esp. around my period. Like bleak, painful, numb. So yeah, the meds have really helped me pick myself up and engage in things that help me remember who I am instead of slide deeper down the spiral.
@Gigi-fk1wt
Ай бұрын
So proud of you for committing so deeply to your morals! Your self compassion is beautiful and inspiring to us all ❤
@MacDriller
Ай бұрын
I’ve taken Lamictal, Wellbutrin, Straterra & Seroquel if anybody has any questions! 👏🏾
@ZataraBerry
Ай бұрын
I started antidepressants after being in a coma wished they didn’t resuscitate me… it was a dark time. I’m currently on the max dose of lexapro and Wellbutrin. It does not fix my problems but it def gives me enough “space” to work through things with out immediately wanting to take permanent action. I think the only reason they’ve helped me so much is because I go to therapy weekly. I have a psychologist that works great for me (a white man if you can believe it). And the combo of therapy and meds has gotten me a lot further than one or the other has in the past. So I recommend trying if you’re struggling with depression.
@greeenishblue
Ай бұрын
Girl the timing is crazy. I was told i had depression today at a intake session and have been referred to seeing a doctor for treatment options and it’s really got me thinking hard… i never thought i would take medication I’m terrified of it but internal sadness is crazy. It’s frustrating cause like you said it’s the outside factors that make me feel this way but idk man… 26 and struggling to finish my BA in art school is not vibing
@vivaeby
Ай бұрын
Exactly yes, everything you said articulates everything I’ve been trying to make sense of. Just wanting a meaningful quality of life and sustainable sense of well being, but it means you have to play by the simulation’s rules, so what’s the point. How do you do the things, what are the things, how do you make anything happen? I feel this so much! Babylon tings for real. Thanks for sharing your experience Evelyn! 💗✨
@scribblots602
Ай бұрын
Girl I feel this so hard, especially the “pretending” bit from your clip from last year. I work a regular corporate 9-5, and corporate is a whole lot of bs and pretending that I just can’t get behind. I do struggle with burnout and depressive episodes that seem to just be getting longer and harder, and I think most of it is purely circumstantial. I’ve gone back and forth on starting meds because they might help, but at the same time they won’t solve the fact that capitalism is capitalisming. What I really need is a lifestyle change, but the funds to do that are not here rn. I have a few other coping mechanisms up my sleeve and I’m job searching which (once I find a job) will hopefully help.
@scribblots602
Ай бұрын
Also I super relate to feeling like a teen who hasn’t “accepted this is the way things are.” It seems like everyone around me accepts the slog and I just can’t get behind it. Idk, maybe it’s silly but I refuse to believe I’m just supposed to spend my prime years working just to pay bills and then die. Even if that’s the way things are, that’s not a good enough reason to continue. There has to be a better way to at least balance work and life so that you can enjoy it while making a living.
@solnova7928
Ай бұрын
This is very relatable. I thought I wasn’t depressed, just kinda dealing with the sadness of life every so often and then when I started to keep track of how it was affecting my life I was like wait I might actually be depressed…fast forward. I was diagnosed with PMDD. Between the Prozac and finally getting on meds for my ADHD, it was life changing. I feel like I’m at a normal level now with my emotions as opposed to feeling below zero and needing to work harder to feel above 50%
@MIMH32
Ай бұрын
I usually don't comment as often as I'd like because what more can I add that's not simply an "Amen;" I refer to my office as cellblock 214 LOL it's not a toxic workplace by any means, I am compensated fairly well but yes, I do have to make a lot of concessions to navigate in capitalism and "no," I don't always feel my best but am I depressed or is it just depressing? It's the later and I'm 7 years (off/on) strong with my therapist; it's definitely circumstances of what we're "required" to be doing, *sigh* IDK but I am thankful you are still here, making the content, sharing your life and being vulnerable.
@ilovedeactivatedaccounts
Ай бұрын
Idk internet cousins, the way I see it is if I'm following through on any project, I'm going to use the tools I need to. I feel like we should try tools to cope with it all if we have the option to. If you had to plant a garden, you'd want to grab garden tools, not dig and plow with only your hands. The world is depressing, so if we need tools (meds) to get though it, why not? The difference in my life before and after taking prescribed medication for my mental health. It hasn't gone away, but it's manageable. Also, maybe not antidepressants, but it could be also ADHD.
@bettyreads222
Ай бұрын
This feels so relevant. I've also been on that sugar vibe. I have been considering meds for months and havent taken the step bc my therapisy is like you should do it and its on me to go to my primary care doc to get the process started. Ah! I keep saying ima do it and then i dont because i experience moments of im okay and the world continues to world and its like what even am i doing here?! So yeah just appreciate you for this talk.
@nguday2003
Ай бұрын
You rock Babylon ting. Yes, this feels like a Monday for sure!
@harmowknee
Ай бұрын
The sea world analogy is so real because yes and same!!!
@vanessatran2474
Ай бұрын
hi internet cuzzos! I've had OCD for ~15 years now (I'm 25 for reference) and only got on medications to treat it in 2022. I've been on lexapro and zoloft. For me, lexapro had minimal physical side effects, but I noticed I was having really gory and frightening nightmares. I spoke with my psychiatrist (v grateful to have access to mental health care) and was able to get on zoloft, which has had no physical side effects and decreased the severity and frequency of nightmares. The switch between the two medications was okay for me, although some friends have experienced nausea and other symptoms while switching. Overall, I am super happy with my meds and they have improved my quality of life (even though I still experience some symptoms of OCD). Hope this helps folks out!!
@lycheedreams
Ай бұрын
This was really helpful food for thought, including the conversations generated in the comment section. thank you for your openness 🤗
@Vena08
Ай бұрын
This is TOO relatable. Same no vices just experience life raw !
@Ruby-kr6fh
Ай бұрын
It feels like both can be true. The whales at Sea World are definitely depressed, and understandably so. I understood your point to be that you don’t want to pathologize the psychological and emotional experience of living in Babylon. I agree to the extent that pathologizing too much removes the responsibility to address the myriad of issues that make us socially, emotionally and spiritually unwell. On the other hand, everyone deserves to feel well and mentally healthy, and antidepressants can help. Tbh, most people are self medicating to cope anyway - whether it’s Rx, THC (my medicine of choice 🫰🏾), alcohol, sugar, video games, etc. Every other day we see news of someone who couldn’t take it anymore and snaps just like Tilikum did!
@FocalPointElisa
Ай бұрын
"It's not my fault..." That's the point for me!
@Liz-jo5gc
Ай бұрын
The amount of times I rewatched this. This community is great
@nmoomoo
Ай бұрын
That whole thing about the situation being depressing vs being actually depressed is "!". I just had a long chat with my mom after we had a bit of a fight over our family (extended) but we live on the same land, just different houses. I moved back home after changing schools and wow, I hate it here. Not because of my mom but other family members but her response to all that upset me. Anyways, that phrasing really helped me because I've experienced something close to depression (diagnosed by a professional) and I was like this is not depression but what is it
@sierraupshw
Ай бұрын
FELT!!! Everything you said! Babylon tings for sure *what is it the braids?!* you took the words right out of my heart ♥️🙏🏾
@rianacole8564
Ай бұрын
Hollaaaaaaa! I hear you girl. You've done it again. Making a heavy topic so entertaining... and informative and helpful. I've been feeling the stluggle of life so much the last few weeks and so this resonated with me in a big way. I'm surprised at how much knowing someone (esp someone I admire so much) feels the exact same way is helpful to my perspective in processing my feelings about my life and life in general.
@sarahleandrasutton2834
Ай бұрын
Oh my gosh - take it all in, push out light, but still (unfortunately) retain some of the darkness. That truly hit home. Just wow, Evelyn.
@kiki_woo
Ай бұрын
“The I don’t think I’m depressed… it’s more like this is depressinggggg”!!! Is the realist thing I’ve heard all year long 😆
@heyhellohi_
Ай бұрын
Yes. Things are sh*t and MOST of us are having a natural response to our environment so to just dismiss it as mental illness is craaaaaazyyyyy lol.
@Gabekhp
Ай бұрын
That inner feeling of being ok that you spoke about is something that I never had before being on medication. And after trying a couple I found something that has greatly improved my experience of life. And it was only when I was forced to take medication because I was no longer functioning, that I realized that that's what psychoactive medication is all about. And that's a very subjective sacred thing that can only really come from within. Now I'm able to get more things done and I actually feel more like myself and more in touch with myself then I ever have. I've also been very fortunate to finally get therapy thats actually right for me: full DBT, which is helping me learn skills to walk in life that I've needed for a long time.
@letsalltakeawalk6906
Ай бұрын
Reddit searching was a personal callout for meeeeeee
@camille-7015
Ай бұрын
“I strongly recommend just using words and then looking up what they mean” me too girl. I try out new words on my fiance all the time 😂
@CiriliaRose
Ай бұрын
Lexapro helped me experience a quiet mind, which was enlightening after years of anxious chatter. I eventually stopped due to side effects but the chatter mostly didn’t return. Currently on an SSRI for ADHD and it’s similar-it doesn’t do any of “the work” for me, but it makes it more possible to do the work, if that makes sense.
@jasminesarratt
Ай бұрын
Beautifully handled and said as always 👏🏾
@_Zaaiinaab
Ай бұрын
Idk if I absorbed anything after you hit me with the if you can be funny it means you can absorb PROFOUND sadness, but I was cackling at the end of this video when it felt like you were losing the plo-IS IT THE BRAIDS!?
@karagonzales8291
Ай бұрын
I love your self-reflection, honesty, bravery (yes, I said/wrote it), humor, constant search for What's Going On. I'm not gonna comment on the meds thing. I absolutely get that. (I've been angry about not being able to make a living even when I am mediocre at some things. I don't think every single person who has a job they can live on is exceptional. It makes me angry when I'm told to go on meds cuz I'm angry about underemployment/unemployment. I'm not depressed about it. I'm pissed. I have a job now but I still get angry about it.) I want to ask about you alluding to creating a life without engaging in "shady stuff." This feels like you want to tell us something but can't.
@lizzystapula
Ай бұрын
I’m on Wellbutrin and it is HELPFUL! Ive gone off meds at times but found that for my mental health it’s just gotta be a staple. For me, it helps quell my generalized anxiety a bit and makes me feel less like life is pointless and miserable!
@Ruby-kr6fh
Ай бұрын
I have never taken antidepressants but went through a bout of depression where I seriously considered it so I talked to my therapist about it. I was very ignorant to how they function bio-mechanically. I think there is a lot of miseducation, ableist rhetoric and fear mongering about them that has STILL (!!!) contributed to my reluctance to use them as a form of treatment. But at least the conversations made me more educated and aware.
@kaylam1252
Ай бұрын
Oh I need that book yesterday. Also don't you just love when words emerge from the depthsss
@KiannaBanks
Ай бұрын
Listen. Me and my mama buy Coke Zero by the 24packs lmaoooo 6:34
@LoveStarsWorld
Ай бұрын
I've been on meds! Was on them for 2 years. I share some of the experience of trying the right one and finding it on my channel. I knew I didn't want to be on them forever but they did help me drudge through stressful jobs in order to make enough money to sustain myself and save, but I have been off of them for a year or so now (what is time?). I had to leave NYC and eventually the United States to get happier. I won't be coming back for at least another presidential term. I quit pretty much cold turkey while still in NYC (my General Practicioner warned. me that was a mistake) had to get back. onthem a bit while I figured out leaving, and then quit again while in South Carolina. I do feel they began to work less after the 2nd year. I def had flatness of emotion while on them. But in the beginning, they were great and numbed me towards negative and positive emotions. Basically, they made it easier to brush things off and buckle down and work. I had a delayed reaction time to things. I was able to have 2nd thooughts about my reactions to perceived slights and disrespect at work and relationships.
@veroniquejoseph1738
Ай бұрын
also. BURNOUT
@ericafields6170
Ай бұрын
I was diagnosed with GAD and have been on Prozac (fluoxetine) for like 10 years. I tapered off twice, but had to come back on with double the previous dosage, so I stopped the back-and-forth and have just accepted that this is what I need to support me in my life and that’s okay! My biggest concern was weight gain but I lost 35 lbs in 2022 and have kept it off so that’s no longer a concern. (The meds weren’t even the reason I had gained weight though! I was actually just eating way more carbs than protein.) Anyway, the med makes it easier for me to come out of anxious thoughts and overthinking to make decisions, move forward, and healthfully deal with any outcomes that result.
@Oone2023
Ай бұрын
Antidepressants seriously helped with the bodily effects of depression/strong consistent anxiety I'd been feeling since childhood that started to manifest in constant body tightness/nausea/inability to eat etc. Among other things watching the song about anti depressants on the show crazy ex girlfriend made me cry/feel deep relief and seriously consider meds besides just the therapy I was doing. I'm so grateful for meds! ❤
@HERJourney2Freedom
Ай бұрын
"I'm a whale at SeaWorld...and you're too!", cracked me up 😂 and made me tear up😢 too😅 it feels so true to my existence and I really do love existing. I love being a spiritual being, having a human experience. But Chile, this stuff is hard sometimes for no doggone reason at all🤦🏿♀️. I do my best to "Love and Let Live". Because ALL I want to do is live and love. Fat chance, but I dream of it anyway❤
@kaseykapow8995
Ай бұрын
I definitely experience that trope of thinking I don't need meds, but then I can always tell like...girl you're doing a LOT right now, when was the last time....okay yeah, I've been off my meds for a week, no wonder I'm sobbing in the bathroom in between meetings. 😅😅 I take citalopram, which, I realize is like taking tylenol when we talk about MH meds but I definitely have two distinct mindsets on and off the meds 😂😂
@jessmercedes2669
Ай бұрын
Never related to anything more. No use trying to fit into a sick world. The discomfort we feel is our own intuition letting us know we are not crazy !!! Now what to do? 🤪 We have to figure that out. I guess being authentic is a start. Being kind? Girl IDK but let me know when you find out! I'm right here with you though.
@jwplaza77
Ай бұрын
Deciding to get on meds for me was, like you said, figuring out if I was depressed or if my circumstances were just depressing. So I was against them for so long because I thought I could fix myself. However, after doing a complete 180 with my life and still being so deeply sad I realized that it might really be me. (I also want to note that at this point I had been in therapy for years) I went to a psychiatrist who had let me know that she was more conservative with prescribing meds and only did so if she thought it was absolutely necessary and after my second evaluation she had all the confirmation she needed 😅. Don’t get me wrong the meds are not a cure but I am able to sort through my thoughts better and my low days are not as low as they used to get.
@jmeleebarnes
Ай бұрын
was just thinking about this today & you confirmed it for me. thx
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