*3 Days After Writing Description of the video:
• Welp, we’re here again...
Hi.
It’s been a little bit now and I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about my actions.
Both TJ and I have decided to try a new way to handle disagreements from now on.
I’ve seen things where people talk in funny accents,
Wear silly hats,
Or do something to break the tension when having a serious conversation
But with English as TJ’s second language and how hot headed both of us are we need to take into consideration where we are in our personal growth journeys as well as how we’ll react.
I get carried away when I allow my anger to have full control
But I think if we choose a safe word that’ll break the tension and let both of us know we’re getting hurtful and out of hand it could be a quick way to let the other one know time to calm down is necessary.
Sometimes I walk away then try to come back to the argument as soon as I think of something else to say.
Sometimes TJ walks away and I allow myself to intrude on his peace by finding him as soon as I think of something else to say.
Since we first met and dated long distance, chatting through text can be more intimate and clear (although it does leave room for misinterpretations)
It’s easier for TJ to speak through text because he can choose his words carefully and look things up as needed.
We’re learning how to discuss things by asking more questions and finding clarity.
But we’re still in this together…
That’s what’s important right now.
I think this is the first time I’ve genuinely been optimistic that the future could change in this relationship.
I mean, I thought it would have changed this time when I came back to India. But some changes aren’t immediate and need cycles closed out in order to complete the first level. I think that’s what this argument was…the boss on level 1.
With new levels
Come new skills
New lessons
New blessings
New excitements.
This could be good.
Love always
Kimberly
✨✨✨✨✨
How to Love
5 days after initial post
I’m not sure if I know how to love
I thought I did
But the more I live the more I feel like my love isn’t how its supposed to be
I think I’m broken
I wish there was a guide book
How to let it in
How to be brave enough to brace the pain
Because lord knows
Love comes with pain
It comes from fighting
It comes from sacrifice
And the ability to embrace
But I don’t know if I’ll ever embrace anything
Or anyone else
It’s just me
How cold
The one who loves me
The one who would do anything for me
Could never get that love in return
He deserves it
But I don’t know if I can
Maybe they’re right,
Perhaps there is truly no love between us
Perhaps I was born without it
And we’ll never be able to create something out of the nothing we have
What if my cold winds blow out his flame
What if he learns I was never meant to be warmed by his fire
This was never my place
I was silly to think it could be.
Now I sit here
In the problem
Not wanting a way out
Wanting the rawness
The emotion that is pouring through me to pour into your pages too
Perhaps
This could be a place they could live
Grow
And make a difference in the world
I’m broken
But I don’t think any of us are really whole
Hole maybe
But not whole
I was so confident I had it all
I was so ready to admit that I did the work
And I did as much as I could
Now I sit here at a halt
Really not wanting to move forward
Understanding this balance comes with rest
Acceptance
But not love
Because I never deserved it
Because I could never give it
Because I don’t want to give it freely
Because I open myself deeper
Cut my flesh to the bone
Pouring the blood out of my soul
I allow my emotions to bleed
The hurt
The pain
I deserve all that
But i thought with the pain came pleasure
Pleasure isn’t love…
…even if I could find that too
I’ll allow myself to be colorful
& messy too
Wholly dysfunctional
Parts of me just scraping by
Holding me back
Before I touch the sky.
✨✨✨✨✨
Get a cameo from us today (: We’d love to connect with you.
TJ’s Cameo: v.cameo.com/tj...
Kimberly's Cameo: v.cameo.com/ki...
✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨
Stay connected with Positively Kimberly online for exclusive content and special perks!
Follow us on our website and social media platforms:
🔗 Website: positivelykimberly.com
📷 Instagram: instagram.com/positivelykimberlyllc
📘 Facebook: facebook.com/positivelykimberlyllc
🔗 LinkedIn: / positively-kimberly-llc
Unlock exclusive benefits and join the inner circle of Positively Kimberly’s community!
✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨
Негізгі бет Why TJ and Kim Will Never Last | Two Episodes | 2 - 2024 | No Love | Positively Kimberly
Пікірлер: 11