hi. appreciate you all. let me know what you think and hopefully i will be posting more soon.
@melisverycool888
4 күн бұрын
it’s very clear you’ve done a lot of work on yourself and i’m so excited to see the content you put out from here- hope you can find a way to make this job feel better for yourself, we love ya over here!
@aesj8166
4 күн бұрын
We appreciate you speaking out and just know that your words really resonate with us and we can see how you've held yourself accountable in terms of self-actualization. We would be glad to have you back but only if it isn't a detriment to your mental health, hopefully you find what is comfortable for you to do and just know that we can't wait to see what you'll come back with.
@zzmoench
4 күн бұрын
no matter what, put yourself first. if the channel helps you, then great. if the channel isn't good for you, then it is what it is. its always more important to make sure you're ok.
@gabrielthaone
4 күн бұрын
you really got negative with your content when it came to commentary. im happy youre changing and you really do bring me so much joy as a viewer and fan. i would love to see more silly content where youre just you without all of the weird toxicity you can find w commentary content
@kristad7204
4 күн бұрын
@@gabrielthaoneI agree about the negativity. As far as I know he didn't do anything that bad otherwise.
@wojciechsawicki4733
4 күн бұрын
You can't make "I've been trying to grow out facial hair and I didn't want my viewers to see the awkward phase" your only reason for not doing yt for half a year, nick
@Isabellediaz112
4 күн бұрын
😭😭
@hesaidus
4 күн бұрын
was it that obvious:/
@bapaul1523
4 күн бұрын
Srsly it's like his whole personality rn
@pen3475
4 күн бұрын
@@hesaidusyeah… do better 😡🤬
@ivonne_lau
3 күн бұрын
He looks cute though
@alexisc6136
4 күн бұрын
I'm one of your older subscribers and my heart goes out to you because I did not grow up online. Along the way as a subscriber it's always been clear that your intentions are good. Please be kind to yourself because no one is perfect. Gramma out ✌️
@melisverycool888
4 күн бұрын
this is such a beautiful sentiment ❤️
@hesaidus
4 күн бұрын
thank you for sticking around!!
@rachelpetrilli3477
3 күн бұрын
Gramma out!
@abbiej4198
3 күн бұрын
@@hesaiduswe miss youuu. i still rewatch all ur “you cringe, you smoke” livestreams
@bethanysolimine5428
3 күн бұрын
Same. I would never recover if my whole life was online.
@nia.j.h
4 күн бұрын
When the majority of us make mistakes they don't crawl into every corner of our lives. That's fucking rough man. Yes we need to be held accountable for our mistakes, but this situation obviously went way beyond that. I'm glad this has made you reflect though. I'm excited to see what's next from you dude, and seeing you having the time of your life with Queef Jerky has been really cool
@briansupermega5692
2 күн бұрын
Bro this is how all creators feel when held accountable for they’re mistakes. It is what comes with having so many eyes on you. This is the stuff Nick puts people through so weird that he cannot handle it.
@SirPsychoSidekick
4 күн бұрын
Nick showed up with the "My name is Walter Hartwell White. I live at 308 Negra Arroyo Lane, Albuquerque, New Mexico, 87104. This is my confession" look
@LENITYZONE
4 күн бұрын
PLEASE
@sillyguy444
4 күн бұрын
LMFAO OMG STOPPPPP😭😭😭😭😭
@azmilog
4 күн бұрын
the two videos you made two years ago about your experience with death on the second channel have stuck with me to this day. the honesty and openness you showed there was something i really needed during that time. i was disappointed a lot by your mistakes but mostly because i knew that that version of you was out there. i'm happy you're feeling better about yourself and how you can contribute to the community. be well and best of luck.
@hesaidus
3 күн бұрын
thank you so much. that video i made is still so important to me and i hope i can talk about my growth spiritually again soon. i appreciate your thoughts!!
@flightlesspilot757
2 күн бұрын
Absolutely agree 10000000%
@viconyoutube
4 күн бұрын
glad you took a break nick - i def think you needed it. everyone makes mistakes, and in the grand scheme of youtuber fuck-ups, at least in my opinion, your fuck up isn’t the worst one in the world. take more time off if you need to, and breathe. your wellbeing is much more important than content creation. the audience that wants to hear you out will, no matter how long it takes. also, the commentary space has been especially negative as of late, so the harmful content you were making was kinda…par for the course? unfortunately? hopefully the space can change soon enough.
@jessicaeidson4258
3 күн бұрын
Facts
@thatoneveryfunnychannel2482
3 күн бұрын
it wasn’t the worst in the sense that it was a crime but that it led to the weaponization of a sexual assault
@marseillesulfur2592
4 күн бұрын
nick, i’ve criticized you during that controversy, but i do not hate you or think what you did should define you as a person for the rest of your life. someone out there disagrees with me on that, i’m sure. i would love to believe there are simply good people & bad people. it would make life so much easier, but it’s a naive belief that far too many people carry. i don’t think you are what you did. i can only hope you’ve learned from it - and can come to terms with the fact that some people will literally never care how much you’ve grown or how sorry you are. that’s all. wishing you well.
@torijeri
4 күн бұрын
perfectly said
@Jo-jn3dc
4 күн бұрын
Couldnt have said it better myself. Its important to call each other out when someone does wrong so that in the future they can learn. Yet a lot of people are misguided and think only in black and white. We have all done some stupid shit and luckily its not all out there for the world to see. We are all human at the end of the day and the its important to give opportunities for growth. If Nick didnt grow from this and correct his behaviour this would be a different story. He was given an opportunity to be better and figured it out in the end which is the most important part.
@wolfie9229
4 күн бұрын
Exactly how I feel.
@chopia1533
3 күн бұрын
what was the controversy?
@dovespring78744
3 күн бұрын
Dude you need to get life ,y are u so invested in youtube drama???
@elizabethklisiewecz9345
4 күн бұрын
I loved the Now Alert news thing you tried out. Really loved it. It was great. To me, it felt like a mix of commentary and analog horror, and I love those two genres and it would be great to see more of that.
@hopehartman1145
3 күн бұрын
Totally agree, I love when there’s creative twists and weird lore added to normal videos
@skrunklycreationz
2 күн бұрын
agreed I loved the style
@scrambldrabbit
4 күн бұрын
i think you are one of the best examples of someone who has actually taken their audience’s feedback to heart. the break was necessary and i’m really excited for the new and improved content :)
@hannah-ws9de
4 күн бұрын
honestly, i've always held sympathy for you. what were you supposed to do? your friend/s asked for help and you believed it. it wasn't smart, but you thought it was what was right and i can't fault you for that.
@hesaidus
4 күн бұрын
i appreciate the sympathy a lot. i do think that most of my mistakes were in the way i responded after making that initial video. i was given so many chances to make things right and it took me so much longer than i should. either way, thank you so much for your kind words.
@sandragreer1120
3 күн бұрын
People are taking out their anger on you. I'm sorry you might not want to hear it cause youre on your journey but I don't think you did anything wrong. It actually pisses me off cause yea you can work on things , but when my friend got assaulted, I ended up in the hospital for trying to defend her once I found out what happened. They're treating you like you're the one who did it ?!!!? You're a good man for standing up for your friend and there was a lot oversite from everyone else in the "drama"
@yoink3548
3 күн бұрын
that’s also how I saw the situation, didn’t understand why everyone was so mean and rude abt it when it was a mistake. Like u said he believed a FRIEND. U worded it nicely :)
@hesaidus
2 күн бұрын
@@sandragreer1120 thank you for your thoughts. yes, i acted quick with anger initially because i felt angry for my friend and wanted to defend them. i wanted to do the right thing, but admitting fault to the way i treated the situation meant turning on my friends and that took a long time for me to move past. i realize looking back that there are so many things i ignorantly posted and said after the initial video that were purely out of anger and defensiveness. i regret not making a more mature decision even after the first video. anyways…… thanks for the support!!
@gleebybooer
3 сағат бұрын
@@hesaidusIt may have been shitty but a couple of bad videos or mistakes don’t define you. You are still young and interpersonal conflicts like this happen in your 20s, the only difference is that there’s a magnifying glass on you because of you are a public person. While you did make some mistakes I personally think you were slightly used by some people in your life and you became the one who took all the hits. I have criticized you before but you as a person are not the couple of hours of youtube the public sees- thats only one side of you. I think you are a genuine person and I really think that matters.
@haleymartin754
4 күн бұрын
The first time I saw you was after a kurtis conner stream where he raided your stream. It was so so different then and I loved it. Definitely saw you explode in popularity and saw how it affected you in a negative way. I felt your stress. I agree with you saying that it took this big of an event for you to take a step back and re-evaluate, and I’m proud of you for doing the hard work. None of us are perfect and most of us have the benefit of our mistakes not being publicized. I hope you are doing ok, genuinely, and if youtube brings you joy then do it. If it doesn’t, no one would blame you for that. Take care of yourself and know that you brought lots of people some good times and laughs.
@hesaidus
4 күн бұрын
i miss those days a lot!! i hope i can stream again and learn to enjoy it. thank you!!
@delanieolin
4 күн бұрын
I honestly get upset at all the people continuously bringing up the controversy in your/dev’s comments. I can’t even imagine how much it must hurt, like, I am not even you but I still notice the comments. imo a lot of people have reallly overblown what you did (not that you didn’t do anything wrong- but the hate comments are so unproductive). your fans are still here I promise. I miss your videos a lot, I hope you are doing better.
@princekyun
4 күн бұрын
big agree
@Yertos
4 күн бұрын
I'm feeling so late here, what are people even talking about?
@Tu-mai
4 күн бұрын
Yup. The amount of hate they got (and are still getting) wasn’t proportionate to their actions.
@hesaidus
4 күн бұрын
yeah, a big reason i initially stopped was because of how dev was being treated online because of my actions. knowing that my actions caused people to overshadow her work with my mistakes is still really hard for me to move past. thank you for your thoughts!
@zombieedrea
3 күн бұрын
Big agree. It's not that he did nothing wrong, but people still act like he did something unforgivable. And it's extremely counterproductive to give Dev shit about it in her own comments when she had nothing to do with the situation and her videos are completely different than what Nick made. Disproportionate is a good way to describe it.
@dogeyrailroad7124
4 күн бұрын
The internets way of addressing mistakes and controversies is so unhealthy. The internet will never let mistakes go unnoticed and it’s extremely unhealthy and abnormal. People who vehemently criticize and repeatedly bring up old events aren’t helping anyone. No one has a perfect history and we have all said things we shouldn’t have but most are lucky enough to not have them immortalized online.
@cookieintheinternet
3 күн бұрын
One of the reasons I like your channel(s) is these kinds of very open and vulnerable videos. I'm glad you're able to put yourself out there again, you've been missed.
@cookieintheinternet
3 күн бұрын
And I've been a subscriber for years now! You left a hole in my subscription tab
@hesaidus
2 күн бұрын
@@cookieintheinternet thank you :-)
@certifiedgreg_rose
4 күн бұрын
Nick, you were my favorite youtuber for a while. You probably don't remember, but you replied to a couple of the comments I made on your videos last year and I was so happy it was unreal. I remember going around and showing my friends that my favorite youtuber replied to MY comments. When the whole controversy happened, I was really sad that your had changed into more negative things when i loved how real, funny, and happy your content was. I am so glad that you have taken time to better yourself, we all need that. I hope you can put your anxieties about the past behind you, because I'm working on doing the same and I know how hard it is. Can't wait to see where your content goes, but I just wanted to let you know that I missed you. Have a great day
@ladybugleader2122
4 күн бұрын
i’m so happy (and relieved) that all of the comments thus far are all positive and welcoming. i’m a firm believer in restorative justice for you and all other people involved who make mistakes in one way or another. i’m glad you’re back, and i really hope you can push through whatever initial struggles you may face in your return.
@sjjoker4724
Күн бұрын
I absolutely believe that most people are capable of change and that most people do deserve a second chance. They may not be entitled to it but I don’t see the point of holding on to something negative when that person is trying to better themselves and bring positivity.
@OneJey
4 күн бұрын
I was just thinking about you today. Crazy! Glad to have you back!!
@jocelynperry6607
4 күн бұрын
Weird same here !! The world works in mysterious ways
@petalsofdesire
4 күн бұрын
same wth
@stevenr8513
4 күн бұрын
same, wtf😭
@jayyy8353
21 сағат бұрын
Me too lol that’s so weird
@sonmug
4 күн бұрын
i get you so bad it hurts i see your growth and i understand it more intimately than i feel i could ever convey meaningfully. this type of anxiety is so common for me, so seeing someone else talk about it, like confessing you recognize your mistake but still arent able to process it in a way you feel you could forgive yourself by is one of the most stark, paralyzing pains/fears I have. all I want is to do right by others, and knowing i failed on that and knowing I hurt someone through actions or words that, even if I feel they deserve it, was not productive and just added salt to a wound that I should have used like rubbing alcohol on (its a funny analogy I know its stupid). idk how to convey it really but I hope you know even though your growth hurts, there are people who can also grow just by seeing your vulnerability around it.
@hesaidus
4 күн бұрын
this really resonated with me. thank you for sharing your thoughts :-)
@sonmug
4 күн бұрын
@@hesaidus i used to be closeted and was very confined to my family conservative perspective so I've lived my life messing up for others which has partially contributed to what now manifests as an all consuming battle with anxiety trying to untether my families ideology and come into my own and in the wake of that I've had to really deal with some shit I've done and said in the past. I'm still young I'm only 18 but growth seems to come slower for me despite it feeling like I put all my time energy and effort into it
@sonmug
4 күн бұрын
@@hesaidus i hope you can find forgiveness for yourself because it's definitely arduous, but you're the only person with the power to forgive yourself, otherwise you are solely burdening yourself with the wight of what you did wrong when you already have the nutrients to grow from it
@hthazee
4 күн бұрын
lots of mature thinking here definitely not just yapping brother. Happy to see your hairy face Nicky Tom Tom!!
@hesaidus
4 күн бұрын
thank you troy❤️❤️
@AHD-hl8ey
Күн бұрын
Cringe
@danixxgreen
4 күн бұрын
The origin of the word "courage" comes from the word "cour", which mean heart, and it means to completely share your story with your whole heart. - Brené Brown. Keep being courageous and vulnerable Nick!
@hesaidus
4 күн бұрын
❤
@godzillaeyes
4 күн бұрын
I always loved your unique, fun videos more than the commentary on other creators. The water influencer, the ventriloquism, your music, talking about your fears of death or your trouble with sleep, and especially the Fellowship Covenant, ugh, that was my favorite thing on the internet while it existed. Everyone makes mistakes, the internet just loves to destroy people. But the mob will come for every one of those people at some point as well, since no one is perfect.
@hesaidus
3 күн бұрын
that means so much to me. i hope i can find inspiration to make goofy videos like that again.
@viktuuri
3 күн бұрын
FC podcast was so special to me
@godzillaeyes
3 күн бұрын
@@viktuuri it really was beautiful
@slayparty
3 күн бұрын
i know you didn't do absolutely nothing wrong, but there's a disproportionate amount of criticism coming from people that seem to act like they don't understand that you are also human. you made mistakes, you didn't murder someone like it appears people are making it out as
@AHD-hl8ey
Күн бұрын
L take
@MILEZ.PILEZZ
4 күн бұрын
been here for a while nick, i hope things get better dude. i went to the queef jerky tour in atlanta it was awsome asf, and i cant wait to see what youll do with the channel
@hesaidus
4 күн бұрын
what an epic show. probably my favorite venue i’ve played at. hell 4 ever
@Missfortune007
4 күн бұрын
One of the beautiful things about being human is that we aren't perfect, and the only way we can grow sometimes is by fucking up and learning from it. I'm glad you're making your way back to doing something you love to do.
@cori742
4 күн бұрын
not sure if anyone will see this lol, but just for the record: i've been subscribed for years now (since around the first collab with danny gonzalez) and although the mistakes you made did warrant some fair criticism, the resulting dogpile got really out of hand. glad you're doing better -- we'll be here whenever you're ready :)
@hesaidus
3 күн бұрын
thank you :-)
@darkfae420
4 күн бұрын
thank you for continuing to perform and do queef jerky that concert in seattle was one of the best concerts i’ve ever been to i truly hope you and dev and chelsea can find some peace and happiness and creativity soon 💚 QUEEFERS FOREVER!!!!!!
@hesaidus
4 күн бұрын
one of my favorite shows of the whole tour!!
@AHD-hl8ey
Күн бұрын
what are you, 10?
@elirae9419
4 күн бұрын
Taking care of yourself and your mental health will (should) always be your top priority. Most people in the world dont have a platform, don't have so many people scrutinizing your every move. Humans weren't built for this kind of exposure. Even a harsh boss can sometimes be better than the criticism people on the internet recieve. Do your thing, in your time. Be you. Focus on you and your life, and don't let your job suck you in completely. And remember that you'll always have people who DO notice when you're gone. I've been wondering the whole time. Just take care of yourself. We'll be here. You'll be there. Give yourself some rules surrounding what you interact with on the internet, etc. ❤
@hesaidus
4 күн бұрын
i appreciate you. its been hard to separate my mental health from the way i feel about work, but i am continually trying to feel better without needing validation from youtube
@elirae9419
4 күн бұрын
@hesaidus never feel bad about taking time for yourself. It's really important. Seek validation from yourself, and treat yourself how you would want someone to treat you. I wish you luck in anything you do.
@petalsxox
4 күн бұрын
@@hesaidusbe safe boss
@ninacael
4 күн бұрын
missed you dude
@trixieramirez600
4 күн бұрын
Nick, I think it was really great that you were able to take a break and reflect. A lot of people online make really dumb mistakes and and/or say the wrong things, but the difference with you is that you know how to make a real apology and cut out all the unnecessary bs. I'm really glad you are able to navigate back to why you love doing KZitem so much. I have nothing but support for you and Dev. Do what makes you happy and we will always be here for you.
@lizard_supreme
4 күн бұрын
NO SHOT I was literally thinking damn I actually really miss nick a couple hours ago wtf?????
@roob7310
3 күн бұрын
Considering the deafening silence from other parties, you coming out with all your cards on the table is really strong, and I'm really looking forward to Nick in his redemption/self exploratory era :)
@brettmurphy5018
4 күн бұрын
All you can do is live your life I've always appreciated your honesty man try and take it easy. I think we all know you want to do the right thing. Being a influencer has its cost. Keep going dude you are on the right path.
@JDavis-yu4nt
4 күн бұрын
So glad to see you’re back! Your community still has your back, wishing you well
@4232emmie
4 күн бұрын
lots of love to you man
@ichi5279
4 күн бұрын
thanks for posting this. i relate so much to the life consuming anxiety and i really really hope you can find your footing in content creation again. ive been a viewer since 2021 and ill stick around for whatever you decide to do next! the internet always takes things so far and it really saddens me to see how youve been so affected in all these ways i really think youve always had good intentions man literally noone is free of mistakes but content creators are held to this ridiculous standard of perfection and its like if you fuck up once youre the worst person ever for the rest of your career? but there will always be people who will stick around and support you because were all just humans ..idk im rambling. im excited to see what you put out next :)
@timeonlinemusic
4 күн бұрын
love u and ur vids sm nick
@soulsplosion6874
4 күн бұрын
I have a lot of respect for you for being able to share these feelings, and for how much care and attention you put into looking back at yourself. I think the nature of being human involves a lot of mistakes and imperfections and what matters most is that we care about being good people moving forward. I can imagine how fun but also haunting being a youtuber might be especially as someone with anxiety or intrusive thoughts. The line can quickly blur between something being a hobby we do for fun, or being a stressful obligation we do for a career that is constantly under scrutiny by numerous strangers. You worded it really well when you explained how hate messages can be so hard to ignore when your career hinges on validation from strangers online. I feel like no matter how much support a person gets, negative feedback always sticks in our minds much more than anyone else... and I feel like as viewers, people don't often think to point out the good in something because they take it for granted. I really enjoy your videos and I have a lot of respect for how you treat them. I think you seem like a really mature and thoughtful person who cares about being good to others. I hope you can find that happy balance to create things that you love because you love to do it, and there'll be people here to support you 🫡
@TJThomas116
3 күн бұрын
Good to see you again. Your situation lately has been my go-to example as to how utterly disproportionate and vicious the internet hate can be to someone who had made a mistake. I miss your content a lot. You and Dev seem to have a really beautiful friendship and it's sad that was affected by this situation.
@cs7807
4 күн бұрын
I can feel the genuineness in the way you speak, and I think you should keep trying if it is what you want to do. I also think that you could move forward trying to find a new way that’s even better instead of getting back to the old way
@mealwurm
4 күн бұрын
Youre one of my favorite content creators Nick, although i (maybe biased) think your controversy was blown out of proportion, i still find it admirable how you've gone about dealing with it. Saw you at your last show in LA and it was such a blast, i cant wait to catch another Queef show and im excited for your future content here too 🫶🫶🫶
@ethemushroom
4 күн бұрын
I really appreciate that you were able to step back and take some time to think about your relationship with the internet. I’ve been watching your videos for a couple years now and I’m so happy that you’re back! I hope you can have fun with whatever videos you decide to make next.
@frankie.pankie9178
4 күн бұрын
Meeting you was such a great experience, you are such a great man nick!
@kalebutevil
4 күн бұрын
i was just thinking about how much i missed watching your streams. it was one of my favorite ways to relax before work!
@orieking
4 күн бұрын
So understandable. Making mistakes is part of growing, and the repercussions of mistakes on youtube are intensified so harshly. For those who can handle it, the growth can be immense: there's so many truly considerate youtubers out there, and it comes from making mistakes, being called out and learning. I could never handle it that's for damn sure, but I hope you come out on the other side stronger, wiser, and more open to criticism (unlike me, who would come out on the otherside like a beached jellyfish)
@LuyandoProductions
4 күн бұрын
Honestly, throughout this whole thing, you've just been extremely human and thats respectful enough in itself. A lot of people who make content lose their humanity or sacrifice it for 'business purposes', but from the first videos that started the controversy all the way up until this one, the main takeaway I've gotten from this is that people are not just characters on a screen (obvious I know lmao but ykwim?). You fucked up you did and said some bad things, but at the end of the day you're literally just some guy and that's perfectly okay. Hope you're doing alright Nick, don't let all of this stop your creativity 🫶
@clbepte6722
5 сағат бұрын
i’m really struggling to find the words to write a meaningful comment but the number of ways i feel i relate to you is a lot, not in like a parasocial way but just almost like a mirror image of me, you have the same hair and mustache like the hairs grow the same god damn way and it always frustrates me you know like the two little points it comes to at the top of your lip… but seeing you just exist with all your struggles, being again a complete mirror of what i’ve been struggling with like these last 4 years has been uplifting in a way. i’ve been dissociating and feeling a loss of myself over the past few days. i think this is bringing me back (along with mushrooms). just know people appreciate you and mistakes like this are okay. my mistakes have been similar levels if not worse so yeah. that’s all. much love.
@ivez5067
3 күн бұрын
i’ve been following you for three years now- thank you for actually being honest and courageous. put your mental health first and focus on yourself, as that’s the most important thing. everything will be okay eventually ❤
@glamrockmike
3 күн бұрын
i was around a Lot back when you were streaming on twitch all the time... 2021? i forget. anyways, i dont think youd remember me but having your content around then was really comforting to me as i was going through a bad time. it was sad to see the way your content was shifting the years after, and i did criticize your actions when the controversy happened, but i never hated you as a person and always hoped that you would listen and respond and grow from what happened. it did hurt some. i didnt have like an unhealthy parasocial relationship or anything lolz but it does suck when something like that happens involving someone whose content and familiarity helped you. the way people swarmed against you also felt... weird. of course people should be held accountable for their actions but... i dont know. i hope the break did you good (it seemed to, ive still been following how things are going on instagram) and that you genuinely learned from what happened and will let it inform your future decisions in a productive way. ill still be sticking around to see where things go from here. its so hard when your job is your identity too, i understand that on a personal level, but having so many people see your fuckups and chasing you for so long sounds horrible (not to even mention how its effected other people in your life, christ...)
@unstaybul
4 күн бұрын
We missed you nick and id love to see whatever you decide to move foreward with, still bumping queefjerky ❤
@evilsnailmom241
4 күн бұрын
i appreciate the growth you’ve gone through and taken yourself and your actions seriously in ways many youtubers never ever will, we do miss your content but bringing together the person you are online and the person you are offline into a realistic balance is much more important that trying to use this platform as an escape from responsibility for mistakes
@evilsnailmom241
4 күн бұрын
lots of love dude i hope you’re doing well
@keller5758
3 күн бұрын
i could not imagine my every action and decision being watched by so many people. everyone makes mistakes and misuses their position at a point. it’s hard to always do the right thing, and sometimes it’s hard to think clearly through every part of an action. people forget that celebrities are also just real human people at the end of the day. i’m glad you’re back man, hope you are at a comfortable place and that you can keep your head up!
@courtneyhoward4515
4 күн бұрын
Thank you for sharing this part of your life with us. Here to watch your content no matter what you decide to do with it next/if you decide to move forward. Either way, thank you for the time and energy you’ve put into your platform for our viewing pleasure over the years!
@adbirk19
4 күн бұрын
I can definitely relate to youthful bravado leaving once you get older. Right out of high school I peaked in confidence. Passionately approaching the world like I knew everything. Kind of like the Dunning-Kruger effect, I didn't know the scope of what I didn't know. This made social interactions so much easier, as I assume YT videos would also be. Our youth also gives us a ton of leeway to make mistakes and still be taken seriously, or just not be taken seriously in the first place xD. It takes a lot more effort to apply yourself when you have more of yourself to apply. There is a tough balance of applying new skills and overthinking though. Just keep putting yourself out there and it will progress!
@ringer1324
3 күн бұрын
Nick I’ve been watching since damn near the beginning of your channel and been aware of you even longer through other KZitemrs work. And I don’t think I’ve ever seen anyone more willing to be open and honest with their audience than you. You have honestly been a huge inspiration to both me and my sibling. The way you’ve been so open about your mental health has inspired me to be more open about mine. Your willingness to admit when you were wrong is amazing to see in a sea of half hearted apologies and egos. And Even something on the sillier side like queef jerky has made me feel like I can be weirder and looser with my own music And has shown me ways of appreciating music that I never thought of before. I’ve seen live footage of the concerts and it’s insanely admirable how confident you are on stage. That’s truly something beautiful you and dev are building even if it’s a lotta jokes. Not to mention the fact You’ve made me laugh through some of the darkest times of my life. This is all to say that I’m proud of you Nick and I’m happy to see you back. Thank you for everything your content has done for me. And I can’t wait to see all the stuff you do next
@lycorisbanashi
3 күн бұрын
its extremely rare to find someone who got so lost in content creation and the online mentality to log off and really put work into themselves to become a real person again. it takes a lot of motivation and drive, its harder than youd think. i was a casual viewer but i could see how you took those mistakes seriously and deeply, and again, that takes a certain type of person to do. big props to you for working through it and i hope this new version of nick comes back to videomaking in a healthy way
@zombieedrea
3 күн бұрын
Honestly, I wasn't sure if you were going to make videos again after your absence. I knew you were on tour, so I figured, if you come back, awesome. If you don't, there's still old content of yours that I love. I just hoped you were doing okay after everything. Whatever you choose to do, whether it be talking about Twenty One Pilots or something else you enjoy, I'm down to check it out. You may have done wrong and made mistakes, made bad choices. But that doesn't define you, especially when you've grown from it and held yourself accountable. I never thought you were a bad person or that what you did was unforgivable or impossible to come back from. There will be people who don't care if you've learned and grown from it. And I bet that's a really fucking shitty feeling. But it's okay. I think you're a smart and creative guy, so I'm confident you'll go back to making content you enjoy and falling back in love with your job, so to speak. It's just another chapter, and hopefully this one will be better for you. 💖
@hesaidus
3 күн бұрын
i really appreciate hearing this, thank you so much!!! you are so nice
@DewDewMegaDeeDee
3 күн бұрын
Much love to ya, Nick. You're a solid and genuine dude. I hope you can work thru this and continue to grow and learn for the better. Whether you make KZitem videos, or whatever else, you're going to succeed!
@kayley.
4 күн бұрын
Glad you're back, hope you're doing well dude 💕
@iheartlexi
4 күн бұрын
MUSTACHE!.!.?.!.!.!.??.
@joearnold6881
4 күн бұрын
Sort of
@nazgulskincarver__
4 күн бұрын
that’s ur take away from the vid? lolz lolz lolz
@iheartlexi
4 күн бұрын
@@nazgulskincarver__ errrmmmmm yes i commented before i even got like a minute in
@nazgulskincarver__
4 күн бұрын
@@iheartlexi erm i said lolz, obv not a serious comment my fellow sigma🤓
@iheartlexi
3 күн бұрын
@@nazgulskincarver__ sorry u remind me of mystic messenger 707 i got a little scared
@Samzc4y
4 күн бұрын
You’re just a person! You’re gonna make mistakes. Please make the videos that you want to make, and I would LOVE to watch you stream. Im a long time viewer and I’m glad you’re being so open with your growth. I hope to continue to see this side of you! I went to a QJ show this tour. At the end you described how much the tour changed your perspective, helped you grow, and how much live performance means to you. I’m here for it! I can’t wait to see you perform again and I am so happy to see you back online as well
@gabstradamus
4 күн бұрын
I’m happy to see you back and feeling better; I’ve supported you since the beginning and I want to see you do well. I can’t wait to see more videos from you on my feed, welcome back ❤
@falconawesomeness1141
4 күн бұрын
Glad to hear you come to terms with your mess ups and navigating the growing pains. Hope you forgive yourself, learn the lesson, and move with better insights in what you want to create and how you want to do it. Hope you upload again soon
@amberestelle-cg5pd
4 күн бұрын
I've been watching you since the beginning of your journey. I am so proud of you and thank you for doing this the correct way
@irfanithink
3 күн бұрын
ive always admired your videos and your music, ive decided to appreciate my hair and grow it out just so it could look like yours, youve always had my support and you will continue to have it
@jessicag821
4 күн бұрын
Happy to see you back, Nick. I missed your videos and I'm happy to watch whatever makes you feel comfortable. I like Crumbl cookies very much! Very few people in this world are irredeemable, and you're so far from being one of them. (Almost) everyone deserves room to grow and yes, to make mistakes, but also to come back from them. Welcome back.
@madelynkelso9509
4 күн бұрын
You have been on my mind as of late nick, been missing you and your videos. So happy for you to come back 💗
@frankie.pankie9178
4 күн бұрын
I’m so happy to see u back!!!!
@jckpth
3 күн бұрын
Excited for what you are working on next and it’s great to see you are doing better. I really hope that path continues and that you are able to cultivate a better environment around work for yourself. You got this man
@curiouspotato6300
4 күн бұрын
It’s cool that you’re back as I really enjoy your videos. I never really got into why people are mad at you. That being said, you still need to talk about it openly and candidly. It’ll be hard and uncomfortable but I want to hear it, especially if you’re going to be moving on soon. The haters will keep hating but it’ll make all the difference for people like me who want to know who they’re supporting. Much love ❤❤❤
@rahrahumarah
4 күн бұрын
hi nick this must have been really difficult to make just know that you were missed and it’s really exciting to see you back on yt
@hulktown_hero
3 күн бұрын
Happy for you Nick, thank you for taking ownership of your mistakes and being vulnerable enough to speak so openly about your own struggles. Excited to see where you take things from here!
@PlusSe7en
3 күн бұрын
Miss your vids man. I’ll always be a huge fan of yours and I know a lot of us weren’t wavering at all with the drama and the hate. You’re an amazing creator and you don’t deserve to be pushed off the platform. I hope you won’t leave
@niyasmultiverse
4 күн бұрын
long time supporter & subscriber happy to see you back!! healthy & safe ❤
@othervinny
4 күн бұрын
hope to see you back soon! it seems like you're at your happiest when you're making simple, goofy content about things you enjoy. let's see more of that please
@3eeline
4 күн бұрын
love the content, glad you took a break, i saw the comments on videos and they are brutal, people take things crazy far online
@bevabee7646
Күн бұрын
I originally started watching your smoking videos and playing along (has always been a blast). Im jot going to sit hear and say it’s okay that you did what you did bc its not ofc but also at the same time you can only say sorry so many times I understand that many people’s opinion on you has changed and that’s okay too. It doesn’t matter if you have a social platform or if you don’t not everyone is going to like you and that’s hard to live with because those people still make it known. But honestly just keep changing for the better if you’re aware that it’s wrong don’t do it again. Be who you want to be unapologetically if you know you want change do it! You got this excited to see where you go from here dude!
@monetchandler1654
3 күн бұрын
You seem like a very introspective dude, people make mistakes but not everyone has the courage to change themselves. Imo you got way too much heat for this in the first place. I’m glad you’re back.
@ke1siegf
3 күн бұрын
this made me feel emotional lol such an emotional and difficult thing to talk about. i’ll be on the look out for new videos or streams :D
@v1vi
3 күн бұрын
really happy to see this, nick. we can only try to be better and kinder today than we were yesterday. keep pushin ❤
@popipa4365
4 күн бұрын
its been awesome to see youre growth dude, i cant wait to see what else you do. you have this random internet person's respect!!
@L1Vy1
3 күн бұрын
If I’m being honest, I knew that at some point you were genuinely trying to make yourself better, but people kept tearing you down, along with other people you are close with. I’m really happy to see you address this and not just push it away. You taking time for yourself and the people around you is still most important though, so don’t try to push yourself to make content right now. Thank you for learning from your mistakes.
@idklol4543
4 күн бұрын
100% makes sense. Personal growth is fantastic. Good job man
@winniewilken5760
3 күн бұрын
Missed seeing you on my feed 🫶🏼 wishing you well, Nick. Like the stache btw
@wrm0219
4 күн бұрын
im happy to see you focusing on yourself more than anything, life online is nothing in comparison to how important your mental health is. i'll really be looking forward to seeing more from you whenever you're prepared for that, you've been one of my favorite creators for years, i was at the first queef show at the goldfish and i remember it so fondly. take care of yourself nick!
@indiecowan33
3 күн бұрын
all of us are susceptible to oversights, and it takes real introspection to be able to look back and realize you would have liked to act differently and then strength to go and publicly condemn your past actions. anyone who doesn't believe in change and growth is a pessimist. good luck making more videos!
@dragonenchantress6609
4 күн бұрын
Miss you Nick
@SuperNicktendo
3 күн бұрын
Cheers. Glad you had an opportunity to completely take a step back and gain a proper perspective. I wasn't able to do that until I was 40.
@xyz.anonymous
Күн бұрын
Genuine question: why don't you collab with your brother? It's weird seeing KZitemr siblings not interact with each other
@Pepper-sg5rc
4 күн бұрын
I’ve been following you since that toothbrush vid came out with drew gooden! Keep going!!!!! You’re one of my favorite creators on KZitem and I really enjoy your voice in the content you make outside of drama. I was just thinking, that horror movie vid you made was so good. This has gotta be a lot, and I’m sure it’s hard in a career where there is no real framework for what you’ve been through. I’ll be here homie, just keep going. Hmmm… what if making content for the algorithm diluted your community with people who were just there for the drama. Bonus: made a pretty good start to cleaning my depression room while watching
@flipnotepatra2011
4 күн бұрын
You are loved. The sun off the whole has many facets. We love learn and grow. You got this…❤
@Kleoath
4 күн бұрын
glad to see you back. i hope that you can find a way to make videos in a way that is positive and healthy for you and for everyone else involved. while i was quite put off by everything that happened, i found myself thinking more than once during your absence that i missed watching your videos. i am looking forward to seeing what you do next!
@July4Evr
4 күн бұрын
long time subscriber here and i just wanted to say i’m glad you took time for yourself, i’ve really missed your content and i’m happy you’re trying to come back in the healthiest way possible for you!
@noelgarcia8951
4 күн бұрын
Your supporters deserve more real estate in your mind than your haters. I look forward to your stuff bro 🤘
@compactqueer7275
20 сағат бұрын
i think it's really admirable that you're so open about your personal growth and the things you've realized you wanted to change about your behavior and content. as someone who has been watching you for the last three years i just wanna say its really cool to see you prioritize your wellbeing in the ways you know how and attempt to do this in a way that makes you happier. you deserve that shit
@tippytoads
4 күн бұрын
happy to see ur face again nick :'))), i feel like u are such a genuine and mature person and would never mean to hurt anyone. i recognize you've made mistakes but so has everyone else, clearly this has been eating you up. thank you for taking this break and i hope to see more of u soon bc u were/are one of my comfy channels, love ur chill personality xo
@hesaidus
3 күн бұрын
you’re awesome thank you
@spaceraven4170
4 күн бұрын
i personally trust you with your own content, i've been watching since 2021ish and honestly i trust you with the decision you make to your channel, i'm glad you realised this and had a change of mind and i'll stick around. i will definitely be looking out for the new videos
@Britta_Buescher
4 күн бұрын
“If a man does not have the sauce, then he is lost. But the same man can be lost in the sauce.” - Gucci Mane
@_Shae__
7 сағат бұрын
complete honesty here, it was tough to see this incredible community you built over the years kind of slowly go away. being a part of the community since 2020, seeing you grow from 1,000 subscribers to 10,000 to 100,000 and so on, seeing this awesome loving community be built up, it was incredible and I have so many great memories from then of like 2020 and 2021, and I even met some of the most important people in my life from the community. but after a point, I definitely understood why the streaming got too stressful and you had to stop, cause it's obviously much harder to maintain the same kind of tight-knit community when the community itself grew so large. I've more recently come to realize just how important community is in life, and I really missed the one we had here and it seems like you do too. so I really hope that you are able to figure out how to invest in the communal stuff again that also isn't a burden on your mental health. it's a balance. no matter what though, I'll be sticking along to see whatever it is you decide to do next dude
@chopia1533
3 күн бұрын
can someone explain what happened in the first place i’ve been under a rock
@poppystanaccount1839
3 күн бұрын
A lot of his later videos turned from actual reactions and commentary to being “hateful” and rude combined with him supporting a friend who may have lied about being in a bad situation
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